I am not nor don't wish to be incontinent. I love using my diaper and have been doing so for over 40 years. I don't wear my diaper to just look pretty. Sometimes I will hold a good poop in for 2 days, just to see ho much I can fill my diaper. I have total control, but I enjoy and can't wait to fill my diaper as soon as I leave work. Then I walk down the street and go to my car garage and sit in it and squish it all in my diaper so it gets in all the nooks and crannies so I can get off. I love the drive home in my messy diaper, and I take my sweet time driving home. Many times I get home and take my dog for a walk and do a quick shopping at the market in my pooped diaper. I love the changing part the best. Many times I get poop all over my fingers and it just feels so good. or I might stay in my dirty diaper and cook dinner and wait a few hours to change. I never use public bathrooms and for that reason I wear a diaper. (so I don't have to).. I read so many stories here of people that complain about cleaning poop off their butts it makes me laugh. The old saying goes "if you can't stand the heat get out of the kitchen". Lastly of course it is still the same feeling over 40 years later, I get off on poop and it will always give me an orgasm everytime !!! I am a diaper lover and will be till I die. Was married for 30 years to a man that was vanilla and a prude. Though I loved him he never touched me or my diaper. I enjoyed my diaper before I got married and I will enjoy it as a widow. If anyone has any questions please feel free to message me or make a comment. Diaper Lover for life !!!