[Coming out as AB/DL stories]

I came out to my best friend since the year i moved to America during my sophomore year of high school a few months after we started dating. She would always lovingly/jokingly refer to me as a big little kid because i was always super excitable, always slept with a stuffy from my ever expanding collection,  always sucked my thumb when i had the chance, and myriads of other things she would cite. I was always super embarrassed by this because of how spot on she actually was; she never tried to discourage me though, sure a playful joke here and there but nothing mean, in fact she made it a staple to get me a stuffed animal for my birthday every year. My confession happened when she was spending the night at my place over the weekend just hanging out and it was late like brain stops functioning late and our conversation somehow came to porn we liked. (you know, normal girl stuff) It started pretty tame as far as porn goes anyway (no way in hell was i gonna just come out and say diaper girls) but then porn became a segway into fetishes. Now i, ladies and gentlemen am a horrible liar; i ramble and stutter a lot when i try to lie especially when put on the spot and my girlfriend having known me for so long knew this too. She had to pry it out of me but i eventually gave in and told her everything about ABDL, CGL, and how i fit into it. when i told her how everything works she was gobsmacked but not for the reason you might expect but because she confessed she had similar feelings but on the other side of the spectrum; she figured herself a dom in the traditional sense however she turned out to be very much intrigued by the things i described. We did a lot of experimenting and boundary finding through our 5 years together and today she's my mommy and i her little princess.

It almost seems like a story book doesn't it? (epic announcer voice) Two lovers bound by destiny to share the same fetish  We figured we became such good friends and fell in love because of our natural inclinations that contrasted yet complemented each other so perfectly. Her being the mature outgoing one always looking out for me, and me being the immature shy girl that needed to always be looked out for. What are the chances?

[Do You Keep Your Pacifier In Your Mouth All Night?]

My paci stays put all night! I've had a lot of practice though i suckled my thumb pretty much every night of my life and a lot in the day too until i was 16; yea my dentist was not amused i needed a lot of work to get the damage caused from that fixed. I only stopped sucking my thumb because i bought my first pacifier and used that whenever i needed something in my mouth. I have a bunch of really bad habits when my mouth is unoccupied that carry over to my sleep if i'm not suckling; like grinding my teeth, clenching my teeth/jaw, and cracking my jaw.

[Double diapered]

5 minutes ago, waynecook52 said:

Kitten,if you want to wet into the second diaper take a steak knife and make some slices right where you pee.That way as you pee in the first diaper it will leak into the uther one.

I have done this before it increases the capacity a lot and i love it but i don't know, i hate changing out of a diaper if it isn't well used; they're expensive and as a college student money is always tight and i feel like if i stay in a double diaper until it's full that would be an unhealthy amount of time to sit in my waste so i just end up taking off two half used diapers instead of one full one effectively wasting one. This could just be my "must be thrifty college student" paranoia speaking though 

[Baby Formula]

I warm up a bottle of toddler formula every night for bed. It's one of my favorite feelings in the world to cuddle in bed with a stuffy after finishing a warm ba-ba and falling asleep. Though i don't dislike infant formula per say, i just love toddler formulas so much more.

[Do you REALLY Want to become Diaper dependent?]

As a consistent bed wetter i don't think i would like to be completely diaper dependent, though i love diapers and wearing them to bed there are still times i wish i could safely wear panties to bed sometimes and wake up dry :/. I still do wear almost 24/7 but it's by my choice, i think if that was gone it would take a lot of the enjoyment away from me; as well as there are times where wearing and using is just plain impractical like when going on a run, going to the beach, or going to the gym.

[Double diapered]

I really like double diapering especially with two already pretty thick diapers but i feel like it's a waste to do it, i'm rather small which means an equally small bladder so i have a hard time filling one diaper to capacity let alone two.

[How open are you about ABDL?]

It depends, everyone knows about my diapers; my roommates know, my parents know, and my friends know that i wear diapers. As for being an adult baby and my things that come with that like pacifiers and baby clothes are a secret from everyone except my girlfriend of course.

[Tape Diapers vs Pull-Ups]

12 hours ago, lily~nyan said:

Well, I guess I'll be the lone weirdo that prefers pull-ups. :p One of my big preferences is that a diaper be made "for women," and most of the tape diapers out there are unisex. I also don't use very often in public and never at work, so capacity isn't an issue. Also the purple Always Discreet Boutiques are cute... plain white diapers are just boring.

Having said that, the pull-ups I've tried for bedwetting all leaked so I'm giving serious thought to trying ComfiDry 24/7s for night wear since they seem to get consistently good reviews.

I'd recommend trying some adult baby tape diapers, they have lots of cute designs to choose from even if you aren't so much into the infantile prints there are still cute feminine options that you could choose from like some of the Rearz designs or Fabine (the Rearz monthly trial box is my favorite it's like a surprise every month sadly it only gets shipped to the U.S and Canada)

[Getting caught]

In my childhood home i was never caught in the act of wearing diapers however my mom has found my used diapers before i could throw them away and tried to confront me about it. After i moved out and started wearing pretty much all the time i did come clean, i was staying at my parents and i needed to dispose of my used diapers so i just up and asked my mom if she could set up a garbage can in my room for my diapers. It was kind of surreal she just gave me an affirmative and we continued our previous conversation. I was actually caught by my roommates luckily they were both pretty accepting we didn't have a long talk about it or anything i just answered a few questions they had and their curiosity faded and it became the norm for me to be visibly diapered; i'm still safely in the adult baby closet though the only person that knows about that side of me is my girlfriend and she's known since we were in high school.

[Sable (revised)]

9 minutes ago, Wannatripbaby said:

Nice revision! It maintains the heart of the story even without all the naughty bits. Not that the old version was too naughty, but it's better safe than sorry.

Yea lesson learned i'll settle for letting my naughty part of my mind take the reins for the next story kukukukuku 

[Interested in new rp]

Is it alright for me to join in? I've never done an online RP before but i'm really curious, as for being committed to it it's not so much of a problem for me.

[Sable (revised)]

Hi there my name is Sable, i’m your average 15 year old girl with long black straight hair a pale complexion and large doe brown eyes, i say average but i’m actually much smaller than you’d expect at 5’4” and around 100 lbs. Though I’m small I’m still very much a well adjusted and responsible teenager. Well that’s what anyone who knew me in person would say but, to be honest i’m anything but. I don’t know when or why but i’ve always had a longing or fascination with diapers, that’s right diapers it’s not just diapers either stuffed animals, pacifiers, bottles, baby toys you name it if it’s infantile i’m drawn to it.

 

My earliest memory of my fascination was when my little sister just turned 1 and I worked up the courage to steal a diaper from her nursery and try it on. I fell in love instantly and I proceeded to wear it for a couple hours and even bring myself to pee in it, after spending probably too long in a wet diaper i changed and threw it away in my bedroom garbage. Yea, you’re probably thinking i was just begging to get caught but, I didn’t know that my Mom had to empty the garbage i thought it would just go away with my 9 year old logic. Needless to say my Mom found the wet diaper in my garbage and proceeded to yell across the house “Sable (omitted middle and last name) why on earth is there a pissed in diaper in your garbage can”! At this point i thought that if i was honest and confessed i would be in serious trouble so i just blushed and repeated that i didn’t know. My mom surprisingly just let it go at this point and didn’t mention it again to my relief.

 

After learning from my mistake i proceeded to steal more of my little sister’s diapers and hide the used ones in a container until mom went to work and dad was in the garage so i could bury them in my sister’s diaper pail. I continued to wear and use diapers on and off for 2 years before i was caught again. This time my mom found where i was hiding my used diapers while she was cleaning she mentioned she smelt the stale urine, however instead of being mad she seemed to be more worried, i her 11 year old daughter was wearing and using her little sisters diapers. She asked whether i was wetting the bed, being bullied at school, or i was depressed of course being me i was still scared to just come out and say my true feelings so, i sealed my lips and refused to answer her; probably making her even more worried. She reluctantly let the subject drop and started hiding my sister’s diapers instead of leaving them out in hopes i wouldn’t wear them anymore.

 

I did stop wearing diapers for a while after that, scared my mom would catch me again until i turned 13 and again had my head filling up again with desire, desire to wear diapers. Now that i was 13 and would occasionally be let to stay home i started getting into my little sister’s diapers again; although she was 5 years old at this point she still wore diapers full time and me being small for my age still had a substantial supply of diapers i could fit into. I was trying to give diapers up at this point though but i loved them so much so i went on the internet to try and find a solution to my problem and looked up “older girls who like to wear diapers,” through this one search i was introduced to the concept of ABDL adult baby diaper lovers. I instantly fell in love with the girls in cute clothes you would be more likely to see on a toddler than an adult and their big smiles behind their pacifiers, through my browsing and increasing interest i came to realize that i am one and the same with these people; i love diapers, stuffed animals, cute babyish clothing, everything about it i loved being “little.”

 

As i became older and was wearing diapers more regularly i became emboldened wearing diapers under my clothes to my grandma’s sunday dinners,  to the arcade with my friends, lying around the house when my parents were home, and sleeping in them. I even started to collect more infantile things than just diapers after my long browsing sessions on the internet i fell in love with myriads of cute pacifiers, bottles, footie jammies, and onsies all kinds of things. Being 14 i didn't have access to a credit card and therefore couldn’t buy any of the really infantile things online but i did have an allowance, so i rode my bike to the mall and bought myself some clothes from the junior section occasionally cute sundresses, pink shortalls with cartoon characters on the bib, footie jammies, and i even got baby booties big enough for my feet. When ever i was alone at home i would dress in a diaper my cute “little” clothes and play in my little sisters room with her toys and my stuffed animals. My stealthy play sessions went on for a long time, all the way up to a week after my 15th birthday, it was a friday afternoon during the summer so no school i was in my little sister's room around noon playing doctor and giving my stuffies a check up in a full diaper however i was really quite tired as i was up real late the night before not to mention i ate lunch just a few minutes ago and i ended up actually falling asleep on my sister’s bed. later in the day I was still wearing a wet and messy pampers size 7 diaper, my favorite pink shortalls, and my little mermaid shirt when i was shaken awake by my mom.

 

A lot of emotions ran through me in those few moments of waking; confusion, why am i sleeping in my little sister’s room?, excitement feeling my very full diaper cupping my bottom, dread after realizing that i’m in fact dressed as a little girl in a full diaper in front of my mom, and panic not knowing how to explain myself. I broke down crying, I don’t know what was going through my mom’s head at the time i was far too agitated to make out her thoughts from her face but what i do know is she hugged me, picked me up, carried me to my room sat on my bed with me in her arms still sobbing, and began to hum and rock me until i was calm enough to talk.

 

We had a long talk after i was calmed down, i finally told her everything how wearing diapers, sucking my thumb, dressing like a little girl, being held and cared for it all made me feel so good; so happy. I also happened to confess my (baseless) fears that she’d disown me for wanting to be little or for being gay; yea i didn’t mention earlier but i was very much attracted to girls. I just spoke out one deep secret after the other until for what to me seemed like forever, I was done i finally got everything off my chest. My mom hugged me, she then proceeded to wash all my fears away at once by simply stating “there’s nothing you could ever do that would make me hate you, no matter what i’ll always love you.”

 

Her acceptance and kind loving smile sent me into another crying fit i didn’t know how to process this new feeling i couldn’t describe; eventually after i calmed down again Mom lied me on my back told me to stay put and came back with my little sister’s pampers size 7, baby wipes, and baby powder. I just stayed put like I was told and let Mom proceed to change my diaper for the first time in 13 years. It was amazing such gentle caring affection directed at me and only me, I wanted to start crying again i was so overwhelmed not in a bad way this time but, in the best way. Mom finished changing me, picked me up, and carried me back into my little sister’s room she sat me down and told me and my sister to play and be good while she put dinner on. I took some time to let myself calm down before i let out the biggest most unrestrained smile i think i may have ever made and proceeded to play pretend tea party with my sister and our stuffies.

 

I'm turning 16 in 7 days and Mama said i can have little time all week leading up to my birthday which is a big treat for me; i usually only get to have little time on weekends that Mama doesn’t have work, any other time i want to be little I have to do it alone, which is fine honestly i’m just happy i don’t have to hide it so thoroughly anymore. I didn’t realize at the time but having to always plan ahead and sneak around really took away from the carefree safe feeling i loved so much about being little. I’ve really embraced my little side this past year Mama let my use my weekly allowance to buy cute little things online; I now openly have the biggest collection of pacis, stuffies, babas, and tons and tons of cute clothes; My Mama even buys me adult diapers that fit me so much better and they don’t leak either. I also came out publicly as gay this past school year, I lost some friends sadly but the bonds i still have are much stronger for it and i even made new ones. I decided to tell my bestest friend since kindergarten about my little side and she’s been so very supportive she even sometimes takes the lead and steps in as my mommy when i’m feeling little; i think i might have a bit of a crush on her. Honestly, i feel so great being able to be myself around my friends and family I’m so happy not having to repress and hide my true self all the time. Being me is really the greatest feeling ever.

 

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This a slight revision of the first story i ever wrote the previous version had a self exploration part to the 13 year old section which in hindsight wasn't something i should have put in even if i was trying to be tame, any at all is no good. I tried to make it a more wholesome by removing any sexual connotation entirely. A lot of this stories main points are based on some of my real life happenings or course most of the ladder half is more fantasy and wish fulfillment than reality but the beginning for instance i really did throw away used diapers in my room's trash can thinking i wouldn't be caught; great job past me! My mother also got really worried about me when she caught me the second time.  Anyway i really hope you could find something in my story you enjoyed.

[What Else Do You Wear To Bed With Your Diapers?]

As an ABDL and a bed wetter i usually wear a M4 diaper with a Tranquility TopLiner booster i love to sleep with a super thick diaper and depending on the temperature that could be all i wear or one of my snap crotch onsies, but when it gets cold out i absolutely have to sleep in footie pajamas i love them so much!

[mommy think tank]

I may not be a mommy but i'd be happy to share some of the things my mommy does that i absolutely LOVE. I'm gonna skip some of the more obvious things like changing diapers, playing with them, or give lots of cuddles and point out some of the more subtle things. Setting out a change of clothes for your little to wake up to in the morning, either the night before after you put your little to bed or the morning before they wake up set out the clothes you want them to wear for the day; if they have work or something in the morning it's still fine to do this with work appropriate clothes as it's not the clothes but the act itself that makes us littles gush. Remembering the names of your little's stuffies, hearing mommy refer to my stuffies by name makes me so happy because when i introduce her to a new one i blabber on for what seems like forever about their back story, their family, where they come from you name it and knowing she was paying attention and remembering makes me feel so loved. Speaking of which pay attention to your little's random tangents, they might seem pretty inconsequential but to a little everything we say is important! if you pitch in and encourage our rambling us littles will get really excited and if you can remember some of our favorite anecdotes and bring them up another time it's means so much to us. Always remember to check up on your littles emotions us littles are generally pretty sensitive and can become sad easily but we also don't want to burden our mommies and daddies with our own problems so we tend to internalize; if your little seems a little down try to talk about it with them mommy or daddy can usually make it better and if your little doesn't want to talk don't force it either just be extra loving and caring to distract them from the sad feelings. I hope this helps you be a better mommy for your little monkey, i'd be happy to share more if you want more just let me know!

[Favorite Position To Go Poopy In Your Diaper?]

It really depends on what i'm doing if i'm on my belly on the floor i'll get on my knees, if i'm sitting on my bottom i'll lean forward to make room, and if i'm standing i do the classical toddler squat. If i'm feeling silly i'll stealthily deliver the package like a secret agent (hide partially in sight of my girlfriend and let it go)  

[How Does Pooping Feel To You]

I love messy diapers, healthy messes not so much super soft or runny ones those make me feel yucky especially enemas, but when there's just the right amount of firmness whether being little or big i love them. When i'm little there's just something about feeling the weight in the seat of my diaper and the smell radiating off of me that makes me feel so indescribably little and helpless, and when i'm big the physical feeling of my mess in contact with my bottom is really pleasurable for me. I wish i could do it more often but my girlfriend only has limited patients for changing messy diapers, so if i want to do it more often i need to clean my own butt; which is totally fine an all i'm super grateful that she'll occasionally change my messy diapers at all but it's still a real chore cleaning up alone.

[Do you regularly wear diapers out of the house?]

I wear diapers like 99% of the time so i do find myself out and about in diapers frequently, as for what kind it depends on the temperature outside when it's warmer i wear thinner cloth backed and save the heavy duty plastic backed ones for colder days; as long as i choose my outfits carefully i don't really worry about my diapers being seen or anything anymore. I try not to make messies in my diapers when i'm out though i would feel bad for the people that might smell me not to mention the clean up is so much more difficult in a public bathroom stall than at home. 

[Who Changes Your Diaper?]

I'm lucky enough to have a loving girlfriend who changes my diapers when we're together, of course she can't be there all the time so i change myself pretty often as well. 

[Tape Diapers vs Pull-Ups]

Tape diapers all the way, as someone who wears more often than not bordering on 24/7 it's super important that i don't leak when i'm out and about which happens all too often with pull ups; not to mention messes tend to leak out the sides of pull ups and ruin pants 

I do still like occasionally wearing pull ups (especially goodnight with their cute designs) when i'm being little but that's only when someone's there to console me after having an "accident."

[Tuck In Extra Or Let Hang?]

I always tuck the bottom because i think it looks best. As for the top it depends on where i am/going, if i'm at home or at my girlfriends i like leaving the top untucked so the diaper can stick out of my pants more it looks so cute imo, if i'm trying to be more discreet i'll tuck everything in so no shirt riding up my back will expose me. 

[Do You Sleep Better In Diapers]

Yes from me, i'm a pretty consistent bed wetter so not wearing a diaper to bed usually ends up with me waking up in the middle of the night in a cold soaked bed YUCK!

I have to admit though when i'm feeling particularly little i get really excited wearing my night time diaper and might not get to sleep for a while longer than i probably would without.

[Hello!]

Hello everyone i've been a long time lurker who recently decided to make an account and introduce myself!

Let's see, i've been an adult baby and diaper lover for a long long time even before i knew wearing diapers and being a big baby had a proper title but being a baby isn't the only thing i like to do. I love reading (duh), playing video games, anime, and i think i like writing now too; look at me so multifaceted. I'm actually a native Japanese speaker with English being my second language I lived in Japan until i was 7 or 8 however I now call the good ol' U.S.A my home. It's nice meeting everyone and let's all be awesome friends.