Gothicruby

Already done; it's kind of coming up dry...I thought maybe I had to officially ask for some critique? Or, at the least, it wouldn't hurt to try?

Hey guys; I'd really, really appreciate some feedback on some things I've written of late. I've been trying something a little experimental with the style, the narrative being slightly 'fragmented' specifically and I'd just like to get thoughts and opinions? Depending on what's permitted I could like to the stories here or over on my a03?

That's a very good point actually, about the shoe-horning...hmm... See, on the one hand I'm always kind of reluctant to delve too deep into these kinds of scenarios--irl I just hate confrontation, but...I mean, in writing it means that something happens right, so there's surely something interesting to be found in it? Maybe? Hopefully?

Hi all, I was wondering if anyone would be able to offer me a bit of advice? Basically, I'm working on a loose-ish sequel to a fic I wrote a few months back and I'm just a bit worried I'm hitting one extreme to the other. The original idea was pretty linear: --Someone's in the hospital, --There's two (potential) care-takers waiting and fretting for their wellbeing outside, --There's a crash (our patient's being non-cooperative) --Care-takers rush in, scolding, diapering from there. But now I think I've written in a bit too much tension for a typical scolding to really organically 'solve' that problem and I'm facing a bit of a dilemma as to how to slow it down. Because it's a medical setting, would introducing a sedative be...I guess an 'ethical' option? On the one hand it'd give all characters involved a chance to slow down, maybe elaborate on some things I've kinda started to set up but then on the other, would that just be pointless filler? And then there's the whole idea of the diaper-ee still being loopy when they wake; would that water-down the experience of establishing, y'know, "No, you need someone looking after you, we're doing this now." ? If anyone's got any advice it'd be really appreciated!

Thanks dude, I really appreciate that. Whenever it comes to the whole "How would they feel?" thing though...logically I tend to think "Relieved that they don't have to deal with me." It's...kind of a narrow mindset, but one that makes sense, I think? Like; --They wouldn't have to feel on edge about not know what's going through my head, --They wouldn't have to worry about 'upsetting' me, --They wouldn't have to constantly explain and re-explain simple things about a situation that others can pick up just on instinct, Like, 'cos I love 'em so much I always think "Well...this'd help them, wouldn't it? If I wasn't around to gum up the works?"

This probably sounds stupid, but I'm having an issue about my coping methods. Specifically, that they might be changing and, quite simply, I'm not sure I'll cope. Bit of context: I'm autistic (diagnosed late teens), but also suffer with depression and PTSD related issues that caused a lot of issue with self-harm. I'm a few years clean so far; my main means of coping has been escapism into fiction. It helped me rationalise my emotions and put a 'word' to it, so to speak--for example, when I'd lash out and cut it was because I was frustrated and I felt isolated, or trapped in my own thoughts--but didn't understand this until I basically started seeing it spelled out for me in the comics I read. They were loose allegories, I know, and more to do with me projecting than anything else but still, it helped and it still does. Problem is, because of autism, I have extremely narrow views of what characters I love to read up on: I'll branch to new things but, say, only on the basis that "Oh, x is like y?" So, like "Captain Marvel is similar to Batgirl? I'll check that out!" but if it doesn't hit a very specific note then, unfortunately, I'm out. This also means that, when a thought gets into my head, it stays there: it's called fixation, clinically, only...it feels worse for me, because it's like "It's there, it's there! This problem that will affect a special interest dictates your whole life!" because that's kind of how I've come to navigate through it. So what that means is, it's not just the problems that stick, but the ideas of hurting or offing myself. Kind of a fixation-based-spiral actually. So, last couple of years I had a pretty good haul but basically there's a lot of changes on the horizon; some characters are leaving, some are being replaced and, in the case of my fave, I'm absolutely terrified they might hand her mantel over to another. This is all sounds silly, it really is I know that; but I've got nothing left to think about, it feels like. Like, I'm being re-assessed for my disability pay and feel like I'm having everything that's 'wrong' with me brought to the fore-front instead of everything I worked to try and see 'right'--'I'm naiive,' 'I can't live alone,' 'I have problems when it comes to remembering to fold the laundry and put things away', basic things to everyone else ya know? And...everything just feels...I don't know. Out of control? So what I'm scared of here is, if say...if too much changes, then it'll make me drop it all--like, it'll just hurt to much to keep going...and then I'll have nothing to help channel the worst of the intrusive thoughts. Like it's all well and good to say "The things you loved existed and will always be there"--but that goes stagnant after a while, it's the same thing over and over. Good things to escape into, I've found, have been getting slimmer and slimmer--meaning I've had more time to think on...well...wanting to tear into myself again at the slightest upset. I'm scared I've already started relapsing, actually; becoming less verbal, hiding away and scratching at 'where needs to be punished' on me. TL;DR: Afraid I'll relapse again, afraid it's already started--how do you guys shove away intrusive thoughts that you can't stop fixating on?

Thanks guys, you know I took this to heart today and just spent it out and about in town...and you're right, stuff feels a little less overwhelming and just a bit more manageable. The situation at work itself is still less than ideal but, like, it's not quite eating me up and that's the most important thing right now, I think.

Does anyone have any advice on how to basically not fall into the depression nap? Had a bit of a set-back in work and now my brain's basically trying to equate that to total and utter failure; I don't want to indulge it in that, ya know? Problem is, I'm too tired to move and too restless to try and distract myself through other means--that typical 'what's the point' vibe?

I dunno if this counts but I figured I'd try here anyway, 'cos I'm not sure if it's a 'tip of the ice-berg' scenario where I'll end up relapsing a bit if it festers : I am just incredibly pissed off at the comics fandom on tumblr right now, specifically in regards to how they look down their nose at anything that isn't grim, dark and gritty. Like, it just feels like as if "This character's happy? Or has a positive outlook on tackling serious issues? They're immature and not worth a goddamn thing." And it's always the criticism that echoes loudest around everywhere, despite the fact that these are the one's who 1) Weren't reading the book when it took that direction and 2) Still aren't going to buy it if even if it meets 99% of their requirements--meanwhile the sales keep dropping because the changes just alienated the audience who were invested prior. But god help you if you actually enjoy it--suddenly you're considered "deficient" or "incapable of complex reasoning"--when, more often than not, it's the lighter-hearted tales that slowly build up towards a heavier message and thus make it more meaningful 'cos of the simple contrast, the 'Oomf!' it feels in relation to everything else. Ugh, it's nonsensical I know--but I guess I'm just tired of everyone trying to look down their nose at these things; takes me back to when people would talk down to me for similar things irl. Or the same thing, depending on what the conversation was. -_-;; (Sorry if this is the wrong place for it, but this helped )

Hi dude, welcome aboard!

Hi there, nice to meet you too!!

Thankyou! I gotta say, I'm liking it here already--so much more open and chill than where I was originally haunting

That's so nice, thankyou! It's great to meet you too!

Just figured I'd join in on the meet and greet here, lol. I'm Gothicruby, and I'm very much into the whole 'diapering of fictional characters' thing. Especially into Marvel and DC comics (Mostly Marvel now though to be honest) and I'd love for anyone to stop by and chat a while about them, or anything I guess!

(God I hope this is in the right place this time ) Had no takers over on diaperedanime, so figured I'd try my luck here! Seeking rp partners for an X-men themed roleplay--ideas included below! (Note: these aren't set in stone, just suggestions for starting points and can be negotiated via PM!) I prefer multi-paragraphed posts with good grammar and spelling and absolutely love immersive narratives. I'm pretty flexible as to whether I'm the little or carer, provided that some effort goes into building up the overall story. Just PM me if you're interested! (Also note: Doesn't have to follow the comics. Not even remotely closely. ANY iteration/variation/universe welcome! Cartoons, movies, that one odd obscure spin-off in the 80's, you name it!) A few ideas to get things started: 1) Wolverine 'takes care' of Gambit --Remy LeBeau has never been the most 'open and honest' member of the X-Men, but despite the occasional guff here and there, Logan has never really thought much of it. That is, until one night he gets a call from higher-ups saying that Gambit's finally been caught and his luck is officially running out; either someone finds a way to fix this or the thief is going away for a very long time. Logan's parented many a troubled kidlet over the years--but never to such extremes as this. 2) --After the humiliation of having her beau-to-be walk out on her not just once, but twice, BellaDonna decides that if she can't keep Gambit as her husband, then having him as her humiliated little baby will do just nicely. Unfortunately, she doesn't count on anyone coming to his rescue, especially not the best tracker on the whole X-team; and while he's definitely going to save the cajun, Logan can't help tease him some for all the trouble gone through to get here. 3) --Gambit has trust issues: specifically, he finds it difficult to shake old habits and open up, yet still finds it frustrating to think that the others neither 'like' nor 'trust' him. As such, the cajun's been rather happy to act out a bit more than usual--from the occasional quip to outright skipping training and missions altogether. While the others are fed up, Wolverine is definitely much more of a no-nonsense type of guy; if Remy doesn't shape up and act his age then Logan's going to gladly fix it so he gets treated appropriately. Wolverine and Nightcrawler --Kurt Wagner has always been a sensitive little soul, despite his devilish appearance. Throughout his life, all he's longed for is companionship and acceptance; and while being part of the X-Men offers that to a degree, he still feels a sense of loss over a feeling he can't quite place. All Kurt can say for certain is that he dreads nighttime, because that's when the nightmares come--and there's only so many times he can run around at night carting wet sheets before Logan catches him. Wolverine and Cyclops --Logan and Scott have never seen eye to eye, literally. While Wolverine prefers to get right down to the heart of the matter, Scott finds it better to plan and think about what they're doing rather than rush in like a maniac; as such, they don't tend to share much about their personal lives to each other. That is, until after a minor plane failure on a routine scout-out that takes Scott by surprise makes Logan start asking some questions, specifically, about the soaking wet trunks the leader is suddenly sporting.