shadows

i started when i was 18 i was interested of and on since i was younger but never wore any even though there was a small stash of them at my grandmothers but sadly i was a fat kid (and still am lol) and they wouldnt fit so i gave up hope then i dont know how i got interesting in them again smoked to much pot in the same time period so not to many things i can remember lol but i remember the first time i ordered them my grandparents where home and the ups guy came and luckily they didnt hear him knock and i had heard the truck from my room looked out and was like there sat a box clearly labeled and everything lol i opened the door and ran around to the downstairs and took them to my room lol took me 2 days to actaully put one on lol

i need some help i need some plastic pants i got a pair but they are to small had to take the elastics out of the legs just so they would fit so they probably wont last long. so im looking for some cheap ones size xxl any one know where i can get a pair for cheap i only payed $5 with shipping for the ones i have now lol so preferably less then $10 with shipping and all if any one has a extra pair they dont need id gladly give you a little money for them well hope some one can help

half a month later and i finaly got the plastic pants i ordered a little to tight but omg they work great now i can wear around the house its great a little uncomfortable though, i think i need some bigger ones

i guess i was lucky first person i told was a girl i was in love with she made a deal with me that if i told her my 3 biggest secrets she would tell me something and i really wanted to tell her but i was so afraid cause i loved her and was hoping one day she would be my girlfriend and if most people tell there girlfriends that the relationship dont last much longer but i did it and then 2 months later guess what... she said she loved me so everything went great sadly she doesnt want anything to do with it but she is fine with me being into it im thinking of telling my best friend lol i just wanna see what he will say im just a little worried that he will think differently about me but i think it will be fine he trust me more then his girlfriend lol and im the only person he has ever told that he was bi

usualy nothing at all lol sometimes a diaper but unless im really tired its hard to fall asleep with one on but if i am really tired omg thats some good sleep right there lol so comfy

i just recently started wearing again after lets see... 9 months i think and im almost out so ill probably be going about a year or so till i will again well maybe 5-6 months if i move out like i plan to

lets see i have fullmetal alchemist and the broken angel, inuyasha the secret of the cursed mask, yu yu hakusho dark tournament, 2 copies of zone of the enders (lol dont ask me why), grand theft auto san andreas, red faction, god of war (awesome condiction barely even a scratch on the case), grandia 2, bujingai the forsaken city, samurai legend musashi, and champions of norrath. hope some one is interested in some of them ill sell them all for $50 or $5 each

^ hmmm... im not very creative but id make a video game where you could do anything you want anything at all no limits what so ever. < just said good night to my girlfriend, put on a nice diaper, and am about to go to bed. v do you use a webcam on a regular basis?

im so frustrated right now i dont know what to do i dont even know why im posting this maybe i just to know someone has read it or hear someone give me some advice but i dont know. so much is going on with my life july of last year i made a quick decision and decided to move to maryland 2 months early so i said good bye to my 2 best friends who if it wasnt for them i probably would have committed suicide. of course since it was such a quick decision i had to leave alot of stuff behind (my diapers, sex toys, my $2000 anime collection, well pretty much everything except my computer, sword, game systems, and guitar) but besides all that bad stuff something good did come of it (if your wondering what im writing all this for is i guess i thought it might be nice to year some of the details leading my problem). i found a site cause i needed money (since my mother cant afford to buy stuff for me like my grandmother could which i understand she works her ass off and only makes enough to live off) and i signed up for a free trial to a dating site (to earn $15 kinda complicated how that works) ok lets shorten this part a little ok so i signed up trials about to end call my grandmother to have her cancel it (the account was on her credit card) and she takes a deal for 3 months for the price of one so ya i get 3 more months then a little before the 3 months is up i see this profile for a girl she sounds so nice and like some one id like and so beautiful to so of course i think ya forget it but later i say screw it emailed her and she actually replied so i talk to her for 2 or so month in between then i tell her i love her she says she dont know how she feels but somewhat feels the same then Christmas comes along and for a present she tells me she loves me (which she had for a little bit but wanted to wait and tell me since i had told her that would be the best present i could ever get) so great finaly first time in my life i have a girlfriend all is good except her mom doesnt want her talking to me she dont know me and dont know we are together she dont even know she still talks to me ive only gotten to see her once and the only other person that knows we talk there is her sister and she doesnt even know we are together and now to the stuff that been making me so stressed that all i want to do is curl up in a corner and cry. like i said before i cant talk to her when her moms around, she cant call me cause she checks her bill thing or what ever, if i go to see her it can only be when her mom isnt home (which is hard since its 130 miles away) cause if she goes out her mom gets all suspicious. so i have only been with her in person once in the 3 months we have been together (technically more then once i stayed in a hotel for a week) i want to see her so bad its been 2 and a half months and it dont help that i worry so much like i worry about how she feels cause of stupid little things cause i dont know what i should worry about cause ive never been with any one before. i want to move down there so bad but i dont even have my license yet and i want to finish college and i need a job to save up some money and even with the plan i thought up its gonna be like another 4 months i dont know what to do im so frustrated i wish i had something to punch or cut with my sword just something to get these frustrations out on. im sorry for this long rambling post i just felt the need to post it if some one reads it great if not oh well and sorry for the grammer and punctuation im just to tired to go back and correct it

Body: 1. Are you taken? yes thank god about damn time lol 2. Are you happy? sometimes yes sometimes no but alot more then i use to be 3. Name one good quality about the person you are with. very caring 4. Name one thing s/he likes about you. i have no idea lol 5. If you can go anywhere right now, where would that be? the virginia to see my girlfriend 6. Favorite come on line? whats that mean lol 7. Worst person you have ever dated? never dated any more besides my current gf and she is great so no one lol 8. First love? omg cant even remember her name lol 9. Ever had your heart broken? i dont know if it would really be considered broken... wait ya i think so its a rather sad story 10. Ever broken someones heart? dont believe so 11. What attracts you to someone? i dont know 12. Hottest celebrity? i dont care for celebrities 13. How can you tell if someone likes you? i cant lol 14. What do you do when you like someone? usualy just wait and hope they like me and say something 15. Do you like to be romantic? deffinetly havent had many chance to yet though 16. Do you like to be romanced? uhhh... i guess 17. What do you need most in a realtionship? i dont know 18. Favorite love song? I'll be right here waiting for you by bryan adams 19. Are you usually the one to make the first move? depends on with what lol 20. Wine or beer? havent had beer so i guess ill say wine 21. Whats your favorite type of kiss? havent tried many lol pathetically ive only kissed twice lol 22. Favorite position? never done it so dont know yet 23. Are you hard to please? no 24. Best moment ever? the first time i slept in the same bed with my girlfriend and i put my arm around her and she put hers around me i miss it so much 25. Worst moment ever? i dont know theres alot right now and i cant pick what 26. Your a sucker for.....? dont know 27. You hate....? people lol 28. You wish....? i was living in virginia with a job, car, license, and my own place 29. Give out one secrect... im crying right now 30. What are your hopes for the future? do marry my girlfriend and be with her for the rest of my life 31. Worst fear? dieing alone 32. Name one thing that people dont know about you? that i wear diapers 33. Who do u want to see take this? i dont know i might post it on my myspace and have my girlfriend take it

id like to be living with my girlfriend and hopefully by then wife and if not have a house be working on buying one and just having a decent paying computer repair job. heres a personal one lol do you masturbate often?

ya what he said lol

^ ya a little bit it was pretty fun to < waiting for my girlfriend to come back online then leave so i can play S.T.A.L.K.E.R lol V ummmmm... lets see... lets do a similar question but more detailed lol whats the most addicting game you have ever played lol thats funny some one mentioning S.T.A.L.K.E.R i just downloaded it yesterday and havent gotten to play it cant wait to try it

^ hmmm... addictive i dont really know only thing i can thing of i dont know if it would qualify lol < talking to my girlfriend while she... well nevermind im sure she would rather me not say that lol V have you ever been in a long distance relationship if so how did it work out for you

i havent had that problem at all ive heard that alot people say thats what it will do but how it works (or so ive been told is) when something else needs the hardware power or whatever it makes that the higher priority over that but ive never knoticed it taking up any of my cpu really idle it uses less cpu and memory then xp on mine. i also dual booted mine thats deffinetly the best thing to do i think atleast if you already have xp. the one thing i really like about it is the automatic updates also will update drivers for you not just security things

i asked her if she would where a diaper for me sometime and she said no its something she doesnt want to get into oh well atleast she is ok with me doing it i even told her i would give it up if she wanted and she said no its fine

vista is alright i havent gotten used to it yet though i dowloaded it and am just gonna mess around with it till i get used to it then when everthing works properly ill buy it. it has some pretty cool stuff if you get it get the ultimate edition.

sorry everyone for putting up these threads trying to get you to buy stuff i just need a little extra cash im trying to plan a trip to visit my girlfriend. anyways i got about 12 ps2 games and id like to sell them and as anyone on here that plays video games knows you cant get nothing for them if you trade them in so im hoping maybe some one on here would like some im looking to sell them all for $60 i also got like 8 xbox games well anyways if any one is interested let me know and ill post the names of what i got im sure probably no one will be but i can hope lol thank you to any one that reads this have a good day

heres the all the lyrics to the song i posted maybe that will help Cry alone, I've gone away No more nights, no more pain I've gone alone, took all my strength But I've made the change, I won't see you tonight Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood all the ones around me, I cared for and loved Building up, inside of me A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame As bottles call my name, I won't see you tonight Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood all the ones around me, I cared for and most of all I loved but I can't see myself that way Please don't forget me Or cry while I'm away Cry alone, I've gone away No more nights, no more pain I've gone alone, took all my strength But I've made the change, I won't see you tonight So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight. And while I'm gone, everything will be alright. No more breath inside Essence left my heart tonight No more breath inside Essence left my heart tonight

if you love her go for it dont let other people tell you what you should do if you still care about her you you think it will still work then why not i wouldnt recommend trying a second time if it happens again but thats just my opinion i dont know much about stuff like that but ive always said the only way to live a good life is to act on your emotions so thats how i live my life. hope that helps you out.

why was mine skipped lol

^i have nothing planned but my parents are getting home from there little vacation < talking to my beautiful girlfriend v how many pictures and posters do you have on your walls?

for some reason i want to say yes but i dont remember ive been to see many though. have you ever owned a sword if so do you know what type?

^ not that i know oh <hoping some one looks at my post about posters and some one wants one could really use a little extra cash lol V does any one want to buy one of my posters lmao just kidding heres the real question what do you think of the illegal downloading of music, movies, games, and software?

ok i think ive decided on prices for posters like 1 and 5 that will cost $25 with either type of photo paper and $20 for normal paper, number 2 and 4 will be $7 on photopaper of either kind $5 for normal paper, and number 3 and this one will be $17 and $14 for regular paper. and heres one i did a few mins ago came out terrible you will never ever receive anything like this a couple of the others are unaccetable for me to ship out if something ends up like that it will be redone or your money will be refunded of course having it redone is free its my mistake and ill give it up to three tries.