I had my second appointment before work yesterday, and all in all I think it went well. I did have a couple of spots that were troubling me a little bit though. I had told my therapist of my friend's jokes at work, and how they really hit the nail on the head with me. I mentioned that I've never even alluded to this side of myself to anyone at work, but those jokes were too close for comfort. I think the jokes were what triggered the depression to come back, but couldn't tell my friend without outing myself to potentially everyone at work. I had an incident with this friend at work on Monday, where I made him mad enough that he wanted to fight me. Seeing this as yet another failure on my part, I scratched my arm with my thumbnail hard enough to draw blood, and would have done much worse had I had my knife on me that night. I talked with this friend and another work friend on the phone after work a little, and part of me wanted desperately to tell them what was going on in my head, but another part of me stopped me from doing that, since I know the outcome would be negative most likely.