Saladin1976

Little late to the party, I see, but... great topic idea! You know, I never actually desired any of those things for myself, actually, but I did have a fascination with other kids having to wear glasses or braces. I remember in second grade my best friend got glasses and that just rocked my world for some reason... that he had to wear glasses, he wasn't allowed to take them off, at least not at school. And then the next year this little redhead girl who sat behind me got braces. Again, just totally, utterly blew my mind, especially right at the beginning when it made her talk a little funny. I remember thinking about it all the time, and looking at her anytime I could. I actually still really have a thing for both glasses and braces. And then sometime right in that same age range someone gave me this comic book version of the old testament of the bible, and when I got to the point where Joseph was sold into slavery, it showed him locked in a collar and shackles with chains, and um, that was sort of the beginning of a weird, early bondage fascination for me. In 5th grade my class went to Colonial Williamsburg they had exhibits about gossips being forced to wear gags, and people being publically shamed in stocks. Utterly fascinated me. I got my hands on any sort of reading material I could about that kind of thing and poured over it endlessly. But... I never imagined myself in the role of having to wear those things, and I didn't really wish them on others (well... by middle school I was starting to wish the girls I had a crush on would have to get braces... but not back when it began). I just had a huge thing for someone being made to wear some device that they didn't really want to wear. The only place where the desire applied to me (at that point) was diapers.

I'm strictly a DL, and I'd say it's primarily sexual for me these days, though occasionally I get comfort out of it when I'm feeling pretty down. I can't pin this on anything in my past that I can remember at all... had a great childhood, healthy family, never had bedwetting problems. When I was 5 or 6, I just started asking my mom if I could wear diapers again, and I never really lost the fascination after that.

Just put on my first Dry 24/7. O M F G this is a thick diaper. I literally can't walk without waddling a little. Loving it.

Molicare Super Plus.

I was in college and away on an internship assignment in Raleigh... I was 19 or 20. My roommate went home for a weekend. I'd been a DL ever since I could remember, but this was the very first time I tried buying actual real diapers. I went to the drugstore, all paranoid... I'd been playing these scenarios in my head all day where someone from my intership would see me or the clerk would ask a bunch of questions. So I backed up to the front door and cracked my trunk, proceeded to mill around the store until I'd worked up my courage and almost nobody else was in there. Then I grabbed the first package of diapers I saw and dashed to the checkout. My heart was beating a million miles an hour. The cashier checked me out without comment... felt like it took forever; I kept checking the door. Must have looked funny as hell. I wonder how often drugstore clerks see that kind of thing, and if they have any idea what's actually going on.

Wearing my first Molicare Super Plus tonight. VERY impressed. Easily the most comfortable diaper I've ever worn. I do wish they weren't purple, tho.

So far so good here on the whole 'keeping it a secret' approach, but then, I'm a very occasional wearer. No need to lie so far, though I can't imagine telling my daughter that I wear diapers because it's a weird sexual turn-on that I don't entirely understand. I'd imagine that I'd tell her- if she found my stash or somehow (improbably) caught me wearing, that it's a private matter.

When I was maybe 5 or 6 I asked my mom if I could wear diapers again. She thought it was cute and agreed. My father laughed. She made me take them off an hour or so later. I asked again the next night and was denied. I didn't ask again. When I was in maybe 2nd grade, me and a friend of mine stole some of his younger brother's diapers, put them on, and used them together. We ended up doing this quite a few times. I wonder sometimes if he's still a DL. (Garrett B, from that small town in upstate SC, are you here?) After he moved away I sometimes pinned towels on as makeshift diapers before bedtime. I couldn't use them, of course, but it was what I had at the time. So, yes, you could say I was a DL from very early.

That sounds familiar... good luck with that.

Erm, hang on now, lets look at this in context. I have absolutely no problem with people who don't want to show their faces with them in a diaper. None whatsoever.... ...unless of course you're trying to sell memberships to a site on the strength of those pictures. After all, this thread is talking about what we pay for diaper pics and what we get for our money. At a site like Aunt Elli, sure, maybe only one in four picture updates aren't some porn-model-looking chick, but at least we can see faces, they publish at 1365 x 2048 (which I may not need but I do LIKE), and I can download them on my computer and view them when I'm not online. TBH, I'm willing to pay a lot more for that luxury, even if some of their girls are gross pornstar types. (And besides which, I only get one membership there per year, and download all the previous year's content that I'm interested in. This year, after culling the boring and/or pornstar images, I ended up with nearly 1000 keeper images, for less than $20. Even with their problems, that seems like a better deal than $10 for a couple dozen tiny faceless images that I can't keep. Not trying to be mean or anything, that's just how I see it from where I'm sitting. And I do hate that, because I loved the concept of imabdl and I really wanted to see it succeed. But given its current flaws, I just can't recommend it to my friends, at least not yet.

I agree with you, but I've got to admit, sites like auntelli does still have a few things on the site you're promoting- like, you can actually download the member-exclusive photos. On your site, the exclusie photos are pretty low res- they seem to display at maybe 300x200, and worse, it's stuffed full of pretty but large code that makes it slooooow. I paid for imabdl shortly after it opened, and have been back a few times, but without the ability to save the exclusive photos, coupled with the brutally slow speed of the site, I haven't been back. (Except for today, just to be sure all of those things are true. And sadly, they are.) But I do hate the true porn model sites with a burning passion. I appreciate it that several such sites help communities like DD stay open, but god, those silicon-stuffed lipstick whores look terrible. I have a hard time believing a true ABDL gets anything out of those pics. At least at AE a couple of the girls (tessa, bethan, gabi) still look amateur. (and, um, show their faces.) Sorry, not to be negative, I do appreciate your contribution. But I think if imabdl is going to be successful in the long run, it really needs to get rid of the fancy code, you need to make the exclusives downloadable and higher res, and the stars need to get brave and show their faces. Jus

I, too, love the crinkle. It may actually be my favorite part of the experience. LOVE it. The CVS store brand seems to be the loudest of those I've tried, but they don't hold very much.

I'm thinking your best bet is to try a different brand or two first. I always find that some brands work better than others at certain things, for me, so you just need to find one that protects where you need protection.

It varies wildly by person, I've found. Apparently a few here have done so successfully over the long term, but plenty others quickly tired of it. I'm in that latter group... once my wife was going to be away for two weeks and I decided to spend the whole time in diapers. The first three days were exciting, liberating, and fun... then... as being diapered became more 'normal' for me and the thrill wore off, I quickly discovered how much discomfort and inconvenience the thrill had been hiding. Carrying around spare diapers, wipes, and powder, being hot, chafing more, the more restricted movement, the occasional leak... all that really started to grate on me. By the start of day 5 I was tired of it but resolved to go at least two more days, to try to 'get over the hump'. I lasted those two more days, but the morning of the 7th day I took off my diaper, took a shower, and happily put on big boy underwear. I didn't even want to wear a diaper again for probably six or more months after that. And even now I still feel sorry for those who are medically incontinent. But, to each his own, I suppose. Just make sure there's nothing else in your life that you value highly that might be damaged by this, okay?

I met mine in high school... though I didn't tell her about the fetish until about 10 years later. Heh.

Some additions? 10. When was the first time you wore a diaper out in public? 11. When was the first time you used a diaper in public?

Wow, now that you mention that... I'd totally forgotten about it, but once, when I was maybe 13, a friend of mine and I found a stash of porno mags in the woods. We divided them up and took them home. Among the stuff I got, there was a copy of "Penthouse Variations", which was entirely "letters" detailing supposedly true fetish experiences. One of them was about a guy whose wife discovered he was into diapers and forced him to wear 24/7, even to work. Yeah, that set me off to pinning towels around myself at night and pretending they were diapers, for months afterwards.

1. Earliest diaper memory I asked my mom to put me back in a diaper when I was 3 or 4 years old. That's one of my earliest memories, period. She did, two or three times, actually. 2. The first time you realized you liked diapers I suppose sometime before I made the request referenced in #1. (no interesting answers to 3 or 4) 5. When you have told or confessed to someone else The first time was when, at age 6 or so, a playmate of mine and I stole a couple of his little brother's diapers, put them on, and used them. I still wonder where that kid is today, and if he's a DL now, too. The next (and last) time, I was 26 and married, and finally told my wife. Amazingly, I'd gotten away with surfing this site and others, and wearing occasionally, and she never had any idea. 6. The first time you wore Again, the time mentioned in #1. Mom pinned me into one of my old cloth diapers. My dad mocked me. Mom did that for me maybe once or twice more before deciding she was uncomfortable with it. Which was about the time I met that other kid and we started nicking his brother's diapers. 7. The first time you bought But the first time I wore a real disposable as an adult was when I was in college, and at an internship in Raleigh, NC. I called in sick one day for the express purpose of buying myself a pack of diapers. I was excited to the point of panicked hyperventilation just buying them. I was really dissappointed when I got home and found the kind I got had clothlike covers. I went back out, to a different store, and got some Attends. I was pretty happy with that purchase. 8. Discovering that there are others like you Aside from that one other kid back in the day, I assumed I was alone until college, and found DPF and a few pic sites on the early internet. 9. Being ridiculed Just by my dad, during those very early times. Amusingly enough, earlier this year, during a conversation about crazy things little kids do, he told me about how I had done that, assuming I wouldn't remember. I played it off.... for his benefit.

My fantasy depends on my mood, really. Sometimes I fantasize about gently but firmly forcing a girl to wear diapers full-time. She's a little pouty about it, but does it. Mmm. I imagine a girl out in public, in the summer, in shorts... just a little nervous and self-conscious about whether her bulge is showing, whether orthers can hear the crinkling. Other times it's meeting a newly incontinent, diapered girl, one that's embarassed and insecure about it. I help her accept it, even appreciate the little conveniences. She's thrilled at my acceptance, and I get a 24/7 diapergirl. And yet other times I fantasize about being gently, but firmly, forced into diapers myself. I had a longstanding fantasy about meeting a female DL who wanted more than anything to have a guy in diapers from time to time, and offered me anything I wanted in return for the favor.

Yeah! You should definately ask for a full refund of all the money you've paid for your membership here.

Well. That was maybe a little more abusive than it needed to be, wasn't it? But okay, mea culpa, I wasn't trying to make anyone mad. To be honest, tho, I'm not sure about the 'unanimously' part, since a female member first told me that theory in a PM years ago on a different board (and she agreed with it, theorizing that women who became ABDLs maybe followed a somewhat different psychological path than most women), but hey, maybe she was an outlier. I don't know if she has a SN on this board, but maybe if she does, she'll speak up and y'all can debate that one, eh? Again, mea culpa, please stop hitting me.

I personally think that one big element of the attraction is a deep need for the feeling of being protected/cherished/pampered/taken care of. I think that, in general, boys are often denied this at an early age... their fathers want to 'make a man out of them' and blah blah blah, and I theorize that the compulsion to get back to being diapered is sort of a deep-seated reaction, the brain's way of saying, 'hey, I wasn't quite done, there.' Girls, OTOH, aren't nearly so rushed by their parents to give up being taken care of. So I think more of them may make it naturally past that stage. Being a DL rather than an AB, myself, and having never really felt a need to actively 'be babied', I wasn't entirely ready to buy that until more recently, but I have noticed that, even though I've thought of diapers as being sexual for me since puberty, pretty much, I can't deny that they give me a sort of indefinable feeling of comfort. I'm guessing that at some later stage, the feelings of comfort got tied into the sex aspect both because I was more comfortable feeling sexual when my other needs/feelings were taken care of, and then I also think the 'wow, this is sort of naughty/forbidden' angle played into it, too. --- One other gender item folks have mentioned in the past: unlike boys, girls are used to not being able to control the flow of certain fluids from their body, and being made to wear protective items to catch them. Most women have had to wear pads or tampons since their very early teens or before, so the idea may have a little less romantic novelty to them. :?

Wow, 50% + wear diapers to bed most nights? And 30%+ during the days?? That's surprising to me, even here.

Gross. I'm a wetting-only guy.

I don't think anyone thinks incontinence = pedophilia. I think people have more of a problem with folks looking at girls (or guys) who are dressed up as little kids. To folks who have never had the attraction themselves, they make the logical leap that you must be looking at adults dressed up as kids simply because it's more legal that looking at kids themselves. There's just a huge societal taboo to anything linking childhood (especially early childhood) to sexuality in any way. And without a doubt, diapers are indelibly linked to early childhood. So when they see us getting off to pics of people wearing diapers, or wearing diapers for sexual rather than medical purposes... I could see how they, having never felt the attraction themselves, could reach an incorrect conclusion. It's a shame, really.