Curious One

I would imagine you could lock it in place via something that would come with it and attach or screw to your bed. Then just unlock it, take it off, and fold it. This would work well, assuming the locking part was hidden under a sheet most of the time, or you have an excuse. Obviously this kind of crib would not be one you climb out of. It would have to lock in a way one could open from the inside easily. Perhaps for those BD/SM DL's, you could disable the lock so that the only way to open it would be from the outside. I kinda have a design in my head LOL. But I would not use it. Just a thought. My housing situation does not allow any more than stuffed animals really. And frankly, I am not sure I would anyway. Still, a good idea.

I Got them back! YAY...well...most of them...Two of them I have had since birth. I got them the day I was born. The others I got over time, such as the one my great grandma gave me before she died. That one is named Ash, after her. Her name was Ashman. Not sure on the spelling though. The others from various events such as valentines day. I am glad to have them back. I cuddled with them and talked in the chat room for a while. Nothing like having a soft teddy in your lap. Well...not nessiarily a bear, a stuffed tiger, wolf, or whatever you have works just as well.

Man I feel sorry for you. My grandfather was dressed as a girl in dresses. He is around 70 now, and as I speak I am at their house...due to a current risk to my life that prevents me from being too near my house...(I will make a topic explaining later.) I can only immagine how one would react to that kind of treatment. As for my story, this is the first time I am going to tell it all, not summarize it as "tendencies." The story is uninteresting and short...but I figure here of all places I can tell it. For me it started as a teenager. I am largely asexual. meaning I am the opposite of bisexual. I am not attracted to either. Males repulse me, and a have some attraction to girls, but much les than normal males. One thing is that those whereing "sluty" clothes disgust me, and kill any arousal. I have seen porn, and it does nothing for me. Not so much as a twitch down there, more of a shrinking. However I am attracted to females who are more feminine. Wemon who dress appropriatly. I am not talking nessisarily frills and such, but nice dresses and such. To be completely honest I have a little of a sissy side, which was mroe pronounced before. I remember wondering what wearing them felt like. I never tried it. As much as I was curious and such, I was certain to get caught. So I did what I could. I once tried to make a cloth daiper, my begining of the attraction to them. I repressed and forgot all of this eventualy. Well...Not forgot so much as is something triggered the memory to bring it up, I would remember, but that rarely happened, except a few times at my room at night. After that, I manage to get past it, and put it asside completely. It was hidden even from myself for the most part. Locked away like a skeleton in a dark closet I had not wanting anything to do with, and at last forgotten. Since then,. about 2 months ago I ran across AB/DL...I did some research. I am a curious person, and I am most curious about how peoples minds work. I love to see how people explain such things. WnM made me considering forgetting this all, leaving, and leaving this place fast. The only reason I did not was my yearning to ask questions andtry to understand this bizzare mindset and/or fetish. Asside from that I am not one to leave due to one disgusting thing. Those held me to the place long enough for me to remember these...(you could see this word coming a mile away if you read my questions and introduction..."tendencies." I am still not sure if I should just leave now. I am faily sure that I can forget this as long as I force myself to got get on the forum. As for those sissy "tendencies," I havve largely ridded myself of them. Some things about it still give me a slight turn on...but asside from that I have no urge to engage it in myself.(Due to my faith I quashed this. I have yet to determine if this is some form of sin or not.If I kn ew one way or the other it would be much easier to join in more, or leave.) So...there you are...Now to simply wait it out and hope I can simply get over telling a small, uninteresting story I am not sure I should have told. I may not tell it...Does this all appear in my post...Well...If it does...well...I told it... {{This embarrassing confestion, if it appears, may self destruct and vanish...We hope no one is hurt in said explosion. Good Day!}}

Well I am sorry to hear such things. I truly hope you can get this right. As for daipers...Maybe you should lay off a while. More than anything perhaps writing her a letter would help. Know this. If you talk to write to her, be as humber as possible. People expect you to defend yourself and get angry and pridefull. Humility is very disarming in an arguement. Try to do all you can. As for masturbating...I have done it, and get no arousal or pleasure from it, so I really do not know if you can condition arousal that way.. try it perhaps. I know you said she thinks you need daipers to be aroused, and she is not enough...Well...Porn will just make her think she is not enough still and you need porn. Masturbate infront of her? XD maybe then you can condition yourself to her? But you may just disgust her...hmmm..

My mother often uses my computer. One day I awoke to find my computer sat on my tables as usual, but it was clearly used. the front pages was this site, on a topic. I believe she lets me keep my privacy but that scared the crap out of me. I go so far as to delete my history on anything containing ANYTHING related to things like this. Must have fallen asleep on bed and forgot to shut the page down... So even if I wanted that stuff I would never get it due to the great risk of being caught. There is a chance she saw and investigated this site. However the page was open to the same topic and at he same place in the topic, so I tihnk I just got lucky. So I would not do anything untill you are on your own. At least not unless you have a secure location. I do not know... get a cabinet with a lock on it and hide the key. Better yet a combination lock and memorize the code. My internet has been down for the alst month, sorry I was gone btw.

Well, I speak from a bit of experience. I often babysit my 3 toddler nephews. I have seen pooped on beds, carpet, etc. One thing that removes the smell, at least with urine, is some vinegar. However even if it did not smell...it would still need cleaned. I am sure there are some fabric cleaners. Spray it with a fabric cleaner or some such a bit. Get a good brush and some strong soap and a little water. The more water you use the more you will be waiting till it dries out. Use a carpet cleaner on it after that. Rent one from Wall Mart or some other store if you can. If it is truly that bad, you might still have to throw it away. But if you do all of that...it MIGHT spare you buying a new matress. Again I do not pretend to be a great cleaner...but this sounds like logical advice.

I guess the question just comes from how weird, yet at the same time...enticing. Perhaps me still feeling weird about it caused it..

I meant explain why you did. yes I believe he sees and knows all. Still the idea of trying to explain why you did something if he were to ask frightens me. What could you possibly say

Wow I am assuming you have no idea who this person even is. And that makes it idiotic? Man some people are idiots. Let alone offer you a company out of the blue. I hate to say it...But anyone...Who is that idiotic? I mean the scam must be for using...but no one is that stupid.

Thanks. I added a new question that I am sure will get some interesting replies to.

That is a shame. I always did my best as a kid and teen to keep the stuffed animals I got. That is really too bad. BTW I wonder...I hear some people can regress a lot...would having a stuffed animal you had as a baby help in that? Just curious

Actual. My family jokes around a good amount. Sexual jokes are not uncommon. So while they were talking about such things it popped up and I heard them mention it jokingly. Doesn't any normal family do such things? Hmm And remember I never said that he wasn't joking. Frankly the image repulses me as well so lets get on with the main topic.

I was just curious because the response implied some dislikes other wearing without using. I sounded weird to me. After all in my opinion..."Whatever floats your boat" Thanks that was very interesting to read. Something we share in common. I like being able to hold it in myself. When I see many of the incontinent people I thank god for my ability to hold it in. I know many are happy, but still.

I wanted many types of answers. But perhaps my questions were a bit personal? I just think that a question with no clear cut answer is more interesting than one that can be answered easily. Getting multiple answers helps answer a question from many angles, and shows the perspective of more people. If that makes any sense to you.

From what I know, my father would not mind a threesome.(Edit: please do not take this so seriously I heard them joking it is not like he plans to.) This is assuming it is him, my mother, and another woman. However part of the reluctance might be that he feels your age play is a sexual thing. Perhaps he is so thinking that you are the only one he wants, and he dislikes the idea of another woman involved because he only wants you? Again I do not know you or him, just a guess. Many shows and TV depict males as out for only sex, but men can be much more faithful than they get credit for. Perhaps he is nervous about it because he feels you might later be angry with him if he does something wrong? Or consider this an entirely new scenario to him. People can be scared to try new things. This would not only be knew but he might be scared of your opinions and such as I said earlier. Perhaps he is just scared to try it. To be honest, a threesome is not something I would do...However I have no real sex drive and when I am attracted to a woman it is more of a emotional bonding and such, not a sexual thing, more love less psychical motivation. Note however that i have never had a girlfriend, due to the fact that I am 22 and look 14... So what woman wants to date a guy that looks many years younger than her?

I have an account and go there often. However I am not a skilled artist and have not made any works.

About a month and a half ago, before I managed to leave te site for a month and repress such AB/DL parts of me... I made a topic called "A Few Questions." This is merely a continuation of that topic. I did not want to drag the old topic from the pit of old topics. The last post was on April 21st so I figured it should rest in peace. As I said before some of my questions will be blunt...If you are in any way offended, I apologize, and I mean to cause no one offense. However open nature and straightforwardness tend to irk some people who are less direct about things than I am. To anyone offended, I apologize. Also, as sarah_ab pointed out. Everyone will likely answer differently. I want this. I like different answers. I find it stimulating to cover a question from more than one angle. 1) What is AB/DL, AB, DL truly. I know the definitions and such and what they mean. But what do you think they really mean. What makes an AB different from an adult, from a DL? Is it mroe of a fetish for DLs? How common are those who have an interest in diapers for a non sexual reason? 2) I have previously asked why anyone would train to be incontinent. I heard a few viewpoints from others, but Wetnmessy's post still feels weird to me. This time I was wondering how those who are incontinent feel when others train to be incontinent. For those who wish they were still continent to at least a degree...does it pain you to see someone throw away continence if you value it more? I do not wish to drag up painful memories or thoughts, and I apologize if this questions does that. 3) I asked before which sexual orientation was more common in terms of sissies. I was told it was more common among heterosexuals. I wish to voice my theory on that. In our society males are always punished in a way, for expressing any femininity. If a male cries, others harass them. Such things are most common in elementary to high school. Harassment and often meant to be teasing, jokes can hurt. Males are taught, via harassment and bullying at an early age, never to show such emotions. Because femininity is shown in a poor light, is being a sissy a way to vent your feminine side in a safe environment free from such harassment? If my information about straight males being more common among the sissies is true, it makes a lot of since to me. Homosexuals would feel less pressure from society to be masculine, as their friends would not discourage it. Is this true or am I wrong. I imagine it depends from person to person. I do not think a sissy replied last time. I just wanted to voice my opinion as to the cause. 4) In a topic I was reading in the babyfur forum. The topic being about diapers over a fursuit. someone said that some members of this forum find it hard to understand wearing a diaper but not using the diaper for it's original function. What is an AB or DL, or a mix of both found wearing good but not wetting or messing. What is wrong with that? 5) I expect a lot of "it's up to you"'s and "You have to choose for yourself"'s on this one. However I will ask it. Before I ask the question understand I am looking for your advice, yes, your experiences, yes, and what you think if you were in my situation. No matter what is said I know the choice is mine. I find that, in my research. many people who love being an AB/DL wish in a way they could get out of it due to the hassle. Keeping it a secret, risking their social life, etc. They wish they could just stop the urge and move on. I have shown the ability to suppress desires and move on. At this point I am not in too deep. The AB/DL tendencies have began to express themselves more. I feel a yearning to participate a bit more, but a reluctance and a near equal desire to just get out while I can, if I can. In your opinion, do you think I should get out now? Or, if all you are going to say is "it is up to you" do you wish you could? 6) This is perhaps the main reason for question 5. Being a christian the main reason I feel reluctant to get more involved is simple. When I get to heaven, how could you possibly explain to god why you wore or wanted to wear, diapers? Such an awkward thing to have brought up, and if you believe in a god, you must know that said god would know all. If you do not believe in a god, you are exempt from the question. How would you explain that? The problem with me is I feel a yearning but can't think of a way I could explain it away. Edits Edit 1: I simplified question one as it seems I stated it in a way that was a bit confusing in what I wanted. I removed the second, much less important part of the question. I also edited the statement above the question. Edit 2: I deleted the original question 4 and replaced it. Based on sarah_ab's response I could see what everyone was going to say in response to it. While a good, mature response, true, I just found that once I knew the answer that most would give, the question became pointless to list anymore. Edit 3: I added a new question. (5) Edit 4: i added a new question. (6)

Nah I know they will not be mad, I just did not want to invoke too much interest in why I wanted them. At any rate I have asked my grandparents who think they might be in the barn at our old house, next to their house actually. So if they even go through it they will tell me if they find them. I was most disappointed by that. I was hoping to have at least one back soon. Oh well I might ask my parents in-case they are in a different place. I do not want them all just one or two...Not sure why but the urge to have one or two of them has grown recently...

If you do not want cancer, I can help you! Rules: 1)Don't eat, ingest fluids via IV 2)Never go outside 3)Don't drink ANYTHING except perhaps distilled water 4)Completely disinfect your entire house every 30 minutes 5) Never Smoke, Drink, do any drugs. 6)Never touch any surface or person who is not sterilized. 7)Take regular doses of charcoal to detox yourself. 8)Never kiss, have sex, or any other contact in which body fluids may be transmitted. 9)Immediately disinfect any cuts or other injuries 10)Go only to a doctor who takes these steps, every other doctor is an idiot. I could keep going but I think I lost a lot of people by now...I think number 8 probably was a turn off to many adults... So basically... If you do not want cancer.. Never eat or drink, go outside, have any fun at all...And you will live a very long, yet miserable, life.

If you read my age under my missing avatar you see that I am 22 and a male...Which would make it still more awkward if I wanted them back. I am thinking I will have to ask my grand mother and come up with some excuse or something...I have collected all kinds of them since..birth...One of which was a gift on my birthday...literally my birth day. One I treasure the most is the one my great grand mother got for me the Christmas before she died. Hmmm what to do...Thanks for all the responses Nice to know that i am not the only adult male here with a collected of stuffed animals. This being an AB/DL site, I was expecting plenty of collections. I must figure out how to get one or two of them back.

I was wondering...I have mentioned I have had AB/DL tendencies a lot, one of these is the love of stuffed animals. I had several that are somewhere in storage. Sadly I do not have any access to them. I am not sure whether I am really AB/DL but some things sure do click and this is one of them. How important are stuffed animals to you? I went to the point of sleeping with them even in my teens. The only reason I do not have them here is because I could not honestly object to them being in storage at my age. I miss them greatly in recent times. I was wondering how you guys feel towards them. Are they just a toy to you or have you developed more feelings for them. Mine I have collected over a great time. From birth through around age 17 or so..Sadly I get no more sense then...and honestly what would you do...ask for them at the age of 22? Have you named any?...I can't honestly say I haven't.... Again just curious about your feelings on them.

I agree...and disagree. I believe tolerance is a truly great thing. However if someone is clearly causing problems and continues to do so after a few warnings...then there must be a punishment. Humanity needs punishment so that we have civility. I think that if someone continues to cause problems they should be banned, yet have the right to appeal in..say..an appeals forum. Of course the staff would have say. Think of it this way. The forum wants to help people, however if we are full of people who are behaving immaturely, we can't help people, we merely hurt more, due to idiots posting. I do NOT think that mental health should be a determining factor UNLESS it greatly inhibits the forums benefit to others. I think this benefit truly matters, and only when something harms the good that can be done to others should action be taken.

This kind of thing is exactly why I do not express any AB/DL...tendencies...mistakes happen, it is a fact of life. I can be secretive online. I delete my history after every few pages, not my entire history, just my DD website histories. I am staying at my parents while I attend college. If I wanted to express such things and a mistake happened, things would get awkward fast, and with my family, more than likely everyone would find out. My mother borrows my laptop to get on face book and such. So the history is merely a precaution. My advice, something I do...Don't express such things if you do not live alone. Then again, that is just me. I did however leave this site on when I went to bed and she borrowed my laptop in the morning...I woke up and she came in to put it back. Fortunately she did not seem to have looked at it and nothing was ever said....I hope she did not investigate...the page was open to what I last had to open too so she probably thought it was one of those things I research. I am known to research things that catch my attention..

Wow Sadly i have no advice as I do not express the AB/DL tendencies and such I have. I try to keep them nice and repressed so I do not feel still more strange and weird. I find locking such things in a drawer in the back of my mind has worked, though such drawer seems to be getting a bit weaker and I have more of such strange urges again. I would say try to slowly ween yourself off of it. If you can. I would just try to slowly show your baby side less and less, in tiny, baby steps so to speak. Again as I do not practice/express the..tendencies I have in any way...I can hardly say I am experienced. However it seems like a logical way to go. Sorry if my advice is flawed. If so, please point out such flaws. I like being criticized Makes you smarter over time.

As my name indicates. I am really just curious right now. As I said in my intro topics I have had such fantasies a bit and wished to live them, however I somehow managed to forget the problem, until I stumbled onto this place. Now suddenly things that make me still more abnormal and weird come out. I managed to forget the place for a few weeks. I guess I am capable of repressing such things I am scared people I know will find out. A truly lucky gift, considering my bad luck in life. Nice to meet you. So I am not really an AB/DL I guess as I do nothing to enact such...desires...though frankly if situation allowed me to...I probably would...