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for me it was Medical and Accidental. I was diagnosed with a bladder condition that made it hard for me to hold my bladder when it was full and when I slept, it would drain. I also had frequent bladder infections and day time accidents as a kid that I started to outgrow in my mid-late teens. Last time I had a true accident, I was 16 yrs old and it was my brother's wedding day.

Since I don't get to wear to bed very often (about once or twice a year when Hubby is away on business) I find it very hard to sleep while wearing. i don't know if it is because I am afraid of being caught by my kids, leaking & wetting the bed, the temperature difference between diapers & underwear or if it is just because I don't want to miss a moment of my diaper time. I too have thought about trying to become a bedwetter again but since I don't sleep alone, I'm not sure it is fair to my husband to have to wake up in my pee in the morning. Then again, if I did start wetting the bed at night, he might insist I wear a diaper to bed....LOL Have to give that some thought.

I voted "in Under 6 months" but in reality, I told my husband after 8 yrs of marriage. Okay, that was a bit extreme but I had told a previous boyfriend after he and I had become serious and were at the point of sharing very intimate details about each other and had been involved in a serious Sexual relationship. I was trying to be honest with him right around the 6 mth mark when I told him I wanted him to shave & diaper me. He didn't mind the shaving part and did diaper me but soon after the relationship ended and I never knew if it was the diaper thing or something else that made him leave. I think honestly your poll could have offered more options like: "Before you become intimate, After you've become intimate, Before you Move in together, After you move in together, Once you're engaged, etc"

I was looking up diaper videos on Youtube and came across one that had a girl in what they claimed to be a body cast and a diaper. I thought that combining diapers and casts could be kind of interesting but not really done on a short term (under 3 hrs.) kind of fun. After seeing the video pop up, I found that there were others marked as Cast Fetishes. I know this is far different from our diaper desires but wondered if any one here has ever thought about using casts to for bondage. I have been working on several stories here and thought the use of casts on a kidnapped victim would be interesting b/c it would prevent them from being able to walk and possibly forced to crawl if the knees were left bent in the right position. Remembering what my own leg looked like after several weeks in a cast, I also imagined that the use of leg casts would make ones legs too weak to walk after several weeks. But before I can go ahead and write this into one of my stories, I wanted to know if it interested anyone here and does anyone have any experience in this???

Like others before have said, the circumstances would have to be just right for me to wet unprotected in public but I don't think I would poop my pants at all. Then again, up the anty to $1,000 and again with the right circumstances (like a quick change of clothes immediately afterwards) I might consider it...LOL. Now for a true story: My daughter and nephew had been running relay races all day and my daughter being a year younger than my nephew was getting tired of losing to him every time. Knowing that her cousin was by far the most competitive person she has ever met, she offered up a new competition. "Let's see who can wet their pants the fastest" said my bright 9 yr. old. She once again lost that competition but this time did so with a huge smile on her face as she watched the front of her cousin's jeans become damp and dark down the front of him.

Since I made the poll question, I guess I should be the first to answer

This is just basically a curiousity of mine. I hope this doesn't come across as racist but I've noticed that MOST of the pictures posted here and on-line are of White AB/DLs and I was wondering if this fetish just some how appeals to one ethnic group more than another. I really hope I am not offending anyone with this poll. I've kept this a private poll so please feel free to answer honestly.

Not in Virginia but just over the border of Chesapeake in NC but there are no NC groups opened in my area. Mind if I play here instead?

After reading many of the other posts and knowing that the goal of 24/7 as an AB would be a stretch, I would have to say that trying it for a week or two might be a better idea before jumping into a long term decision. In my own present reality, going AB 24/7 would be impossible but wearing diapers 24/7 would be possible and being AB whenever possible especially at bed time would be fine. I've not worked out of the home for a few years due to raising my kids but I do try to stay active in the community but wearing a diaper 24/7 wouldn't impact on that.

Brendan Fraiser or Cary Elwies. Both seem caring and loving. But as my pick for a funny Daddy, it would have to be Jim Carrey. Not that I want a Mommy but since babies deserve both a Mommy and a Daddy, I would pick Sharon Osbourne (Yep, Ozzy's wife) because she seems very fun loving, caring and would give the world to the one's she loves, plus I think she is a super woman for putting up with Ozzy and her wild kids for so long.

Lock the bathroom door and throw away the key, eat nothing but baby food and drink from a bottle. Put on your diaper and pants and instead of a belt, use a bicyle chain to lock yourself into them.

I've been wondering if the BK baby boy might be joined in the future by a little sister or female playmate. It would be kind of interesting to see a whole hospital nursery of AB's boys and girls alike, who know what a good value BK is over its' competition. Perhaps I should send my idea to the BK corporate offices.

My definitions of "baby food", - No teeth reiquired to eat it. Milk, juice, jarred or home made pureed. Simple 1 ingredient items like strained peas or carrots. Farina or Oatmeal finely ground "toddler food" - Soft foods that don't require molars: cooked noodles/pasta, steamed veggies, dry cereal like Cherrios. Mixed ingredients like pasta sauce or mixed yogurt, cookies and biscuits. Soft Meats cut into small pieces, Cheeses "kid food" - All of the above plus more raw veggies,more firm cuts of meat cut into bigger pieces until they can cut on their own, Pizza, burger, Chicken nuggets, PB & Jelly "adult food"? More spices, more fish, more raw veggies and acquired flavors. Are they any different to you, and if so, how? Not Really just when a child is ready to progress to the next level. Which do you prefer, and why? I prefer adult food for sustinence but when in AB mood, I'll eat from any category. Do you like "mini" food? If so, why? Yes, occasionally because it's just so cute: Mini burgers, Mini hot dogs, bagels Do the mini versions ever feel more baby/toddler/kid-like to you? No because visiually it makes me feel bigger. I actually like to be fed with over sized spoons to make me feel smaller. Having smaller food would have an opposite effect.

Don't know if this will help but this site gives some info on how to make your own AB clothes http://littleab.com/ABcare/abclothes.html

It's really cute looking but as a parent, I hated to "Prop" feed my kids because I thought the bonding with the baby was just as important as the feeding. In the instance of multiples though, I could see it coming in very handy to feed the masses on the same schedule. Wonder if the "Octomom" had any of these.

Baby bottle nipples are sold in stages from newborn up to toddler. Considering your neice or nephew was only a few months old when they visited, it is likely that they were still using infant nipples. You can usually buy replacement nipples in the grocery store. Look for sizes 6 mths. or older for a bigger fit and faster flow. You can also poke additional holes in the one you have or use some sharp siccsors to make a cross cut in the tip. This will make the flow faster. Personally, I want to find the baby bottle they used on the new Burger King ad.

Summer, I can sympathsize with you. I know my life at your age wasn't quite as bad but I had a mother who couldn't show me or tell me she loved me and I felt trapped because of the constant ridicule that I received from her. I felt crippled by her words and actions. My mother also took MY brand new car that I paid for and she drove it for two years until I finally stood up to her and took it back. Basically I told her that if she didn't like it, call the cops and report the car stolen. Since the vehicle was registered in my name, insured in my name, etc. She knew she couldn't call the police. She did however call the police and reported me as a Missing person once after she had repeatedly locked me out of the house every night while I was at my SECOND job working in a Movie theatre. I think I like diapers for very many of the same reasons you do. They make me feel complete somehow. When my mother found my diaper stash, she too called the universe but never confronted me on it because she would have to admit she was snooping in my room. I would love to tell you that things will get better but I am now 41 yrs old and have moved 400 miles away from my Mother and can still feel her slings and arrows from time to time. She has learned that she has to be nice to me if she wants to see her grandkids but at times I can feel her negativity running through my veins. My suggestion for you is to be strong, Know that you are not alone. I know that doesn't mean much coming from a faceless person on the other end of a chat line but considering the number of members that a place like this has attracted, YOU ARE NOT ALONE! What your mother is doing is wrong. She is the one that needs psychiatric help but if she's as much like my mom as I believe her to be, she won't seek it. When you can afford to, please find a place of your own even if it's renting just a room in a house with a bunch of friends. You need to surround yourself with people who know how to be happy. Check with real estate agents in your area. Sometimes they have listings for Roommates wanted as well as the local newspapers. Perhaps even look for a job as a nanny that offers a Live-in status if you can.

Occasionally, on laundry day, I will go outside in my yard in what ever I'm wearing and just let my bladder go; kind of like a planned accident if that's possible. It's kind of nice feeling the warmth fill your panties but it doesn't stay warm for long even on a hot summer day. Without the benefit of a diaper to insultate it, pee cools down pretty quickly as it starts to run down your legs. LOL The walk back to the house is usually very interesting though when you feel the cold wet pants starting to cling to your legs or slap up against them with every step. Once in the house, I strip and the pants and panties go straight into the wash and I blame any yellowing of the grass in the yard on the dog. Poor Dog.

I believe that the reason we feel guilty about it is because on so many levels we are told that it is wrong or nasty; that bodily functions are inappropriate and disgusting and that desiring something is selfish. Try farting or burping in public without excusing yourself and see what happens if you don't believe me. I remember watching TV talk shows that depicted AB's who just wanted to share their desires and the live audiences mocked and ridiculed them, even threw things at these brave souls who wanted to share their fetish with the world. Much like on talk shows today, if someone confesses that they like to be tied up and beat up, people will mock them or call them sick but how many bondage toys are sold each year to the very same people who mock or claim to be repulsed. Recently, several TV shows (in the US) have shown scenes involving AB or DL interests as part of sexual roleplay for "Shcock Value." Family Guy for one has shown Quagmire in a diaper, baby bonnet, bib and pacifier in an episode and on CSI (I believe) in an episode called "King Baby" a rich business man was found dead outside his home in a diaper. The investigators later discovered he had a secret AB nursery in his mansion. The only problem with shows addressing the topic is that it is still done in disgust and the "Water Cooler" conversations the next day are mostly negative, but at least people are talking and seeing it during Prime Time. The problem is that diapers are marketed for the very young and the very old. We are told that diapers are meant for those of us who can not control their body functions either through inexperience or eventual illnes or injury. It would be wonderful for the rest of us if some Hollywood Celeb: who isn't drunk, stoned or otherwise out of their mind; could stand up and admit that they like to wear diapers on occasion but even though I am sure there are plenty that do, not one will because society has ruled that diapers are dirty and admitting to it might ruin their career. Hence without a spokesperson, we feel we are doing something to which we must be ashamed. I bet if Paris Hilton or Arnold Schwartzenager would admit to being an AB/DL, diaper sales would go up, but could you picture Arnold in a wet nappy and baby booties? LOL Would the world change it's opinion of AB/DL's if it was discovered that Michael Jackson was one? He did after all have a secret room in his closet. Makes you wonder, doesn't it. Any way, we all accept our diaper desires in our own way and time and even occasionally want to give it up. Much like other habits, it's a hard one to quit but at least unlike smoking, It won't eventually kill you. (Theory not proven but assumed)

I've not been able to use a cath for more than a few hours myself except when I was in the hospital and even then it was only in for less than 48 hrs and was post C-secton so I can't help to answer the question of whether it will or won't cause urinary incontinence. I'm not sure it that is your goal and I will not lecture you on the subject. I do however also enjoy the complete loss of bladder control that a catheter affords me. I've been surprised on many occasions just how much more I wet while using one as opposed to just peeing freely at will. It seems that even though I think I'm emptying my bladder, I could do better as proven by a catheter which requires many more diaper changes for me. I've noticed with the catheter left to its' full length it tends to get moved around inside my diaper thereby causing me some discomfort. I've done some experimenting with caths and have been trying to find a way to shorten one so that it is less noticeable coming out of me and won't move around so much inside my diaper. I wish someone could come up with a catheter that was meant to be worn discretely so the wearer didn't have to have an enormous tube hanging between his/her legs but could, instead be worn inside a diaper without the discomfort. With that said, my hubby is leaving next week for a 4-5 day trip and I will (hopefully) get to spend several of those days heavily diapered and possibly cathed. Would be nice to be diaper dependent for a few days. (Please don't lecture)

Our dreams can tell us a lot of things. Using a dream dictionary I was able to predict all of my pregnancies just by looking up certain key elements in my dreams. Does this mean that if you dream of wetting yourself that it will actually happen? Nope, because I am sure you've had dreams of becoming rich, flying like a bird or being some form of superhero and yet none of that has happened; has it, Superman? LOL My diaper related dreams usually become more frequent the longer I deny myself the pleasure of wearing one. Not sure about most of you, but I wake up every morning with a strong urge to "Go." That can be due to the amount I had to drink before bed time or the effects of aging. I've been waking up in the middle of the night to "Go" for so long and have(pardon the pun) "Piss Poor" sleeping habits as a result of all those years of trying NOT to be a bedwetter; Silly Me. Perhaps your dreams are manifested in you subconscience desire to require diapers for bedtime, much like my diaper dreams come to remind me to forfill my diaper wearing desire. If it is something you truly fear becoming a problem, then you might have to cut back on the "sleeping aides" and see if it passes. If it's not something you fear then saddle up and go with the flow (pun intended.) If possible, wear a diaper to bed every night for a week or so and see what happens. Your dreams may cease or your bladder may fail but at least you'll have an answer. Hope this helped.

Welcome to our site. There are plenty of very nice people here and I am sure you will soon be calling this place your AB home.

It's not you she's having trouble accepting. As you said, you've been dating for several years. It's the idea of you in diapers that scares her a bit. Just imagine how you would feel/react if she came to you after all this time and told you she had been keeping a secret from you. Perhaps the next time she says "I'd do ANYTHING for you" you should bring up the subject again. It might just be her way of showing interest without admitting that she wants to participate. She may just be diaper curious but afraid to admit it. I'm not suggesting that you hand her a diaper and ask her to put it on you or on herself for that matter, but open up the conversation again when she gives you the opportunity. You might just be beating yourself up over something that she's actually willing to try/accept. Good Luck but don't be disappointed if it doesn't happen right away.

I do find it ironic how many people who are permenently incontinent responded to this question. No offense but you don't need to take a pill, you're already there. But I do thank you all for shedding some light on the subject because too many of us talk about wanting to become full time diaper dependant without realizing that when you do, you lose some of the fun that you once enjoyed in being able to pick and choose your diaper time. Would you honestly want to wear a diaper on the beach or on your Wedding night? How about to the company Christmas party or family picnic? Yeah, wearing it to the grocery store and soiling it is embarrassing but you are surrounded by strangers who you may or may not ever see again. Isn't it different when co-workers that you see everyday are subjected to your disability? I answered "Yes but I wouldn't" to the question but only because the question itself was intriguing (sp?) If the question was asking about a Temporary loss of control or something easily reversed than why not just to see how the other half lives. Perhaps for some it might even chase away their desire to be diapered at all. I sure hope I didn't offend anyone. That was not my intent.

Have you ever been tested for a rubber/latex allergy? Perhaps what happened to you was not due to the implantaion of the catheter but the material it was made of or the ointment that was used to lube it with. I've been cathed several times for diaper play and have never had a problem but I only kept it in for a few hours. I've also been cathed during the birth of my last child and to be honest with you, I never felt it in me at all. Even when the nurse came to remove it, it didn't bother me at all and it had been in for 2 days. To all those still wanting to try this, Yes, a catheter does give you the same affect as being incontinent but you can end up with serious infections if you're not careful. Also make sure you know what your caths are made of and if you have any allergies BEFORE you start. Sorry it didn't work out for you Mr. Otter.