IslandDaddy

Good morning daddy! Have to go out later today and pay some bills and get some money so I can do some laundry! Already paid my phone bill so I'm halfway there!

******HUGS*******

Ah yes. Bills. Yay yippee woohoo *snore*. Too bad bills prevent fun!

Yes and later on of course I have to do some laundry

Sunday will be the first family reunion that I have actually attended in the last three to four years. The last three of course were COVID-19 so nobody did that because we have people that are in their high 90s, and that is it concerned I've everyone, including my mom, who was in charge of planning the reunion. So for the last two years we haven't done anything, and I believe that we will finally be able to get together, which is pretty cool, except for one thing:

this year will also be the first year in the reunion that I am going in my wheelchair. I've been having trouble with my legs and general pain comma and it is a pain in the **** period I'm more mobile in the chair anyway, but I feel as if my mom and my stepdad would end up using that as something against me, because they think I'm just gonna go down the toilet and die. That is the worst thing that I have ever heard my parents say even if they're scared and they're shocked. There's a lot of things that have changed in the last three years, and I still want to be able to go swimming to be able to help my legs, but there's no way I can do this, and this time when I go back to PT I'm going to push the limit because I want to be able to get into the water and strengthen my legs I don't care if I have to be there for two hours. Getting in the water and being able to move my legs around or make my legs stronger because I won't have to worry about things. Maybe in the Peach Kingdom, @PeachiUwU can design A magic swimming pool that has the building to give me the strength to be able to do almost anything on my legs. In her Kingdom, her magic is powerful, and would help me, but in the real world, I just hope that I don't end up getting a lecture from my parents all day long because that is not the reason I'm there. I end up not going home because I know what the heck what turn into, me and my health and my condition, and then all I would hear all day is how bad it is and how they love me and how they want me to change, and I want to change, but I don't wanna do it at the expense of anyone else or be someone scapegoat that they make one of or they end up yelling at period my parents are so ridiculous sometimes it makes me mad 

sometimes I wonder: I try my best to do everything I'm supposed to do, I know I'm not doing anything wrong, I'm not in any trouble, I heard a little bit I'm healthy I'm a little bit chubby, but at least I'm here and I'm enjoying myself. As long as I'm able to do most of the things I do, I don't understand the problem other than it might be a tad bit different for them having to load wheelchairs into trucks.I wish it wasn't that way, but it seems to be the only way, and my mom insisted that I use my wheelchair anyway because she thinks be more comfortable for me and she doesn't want to have to worry about me. I understand her and what she's saying, and I agree with that, I just don't want to be the scapegoat every time something happens, because if I go home I go home because I want to not because of anything else. Going home to me is like asking for a **** whipping when I didn't do anything wrong .

I know I haven't done anything wrong, so why am I worried?Probably because I'm not sure what the reaction will be, and I've already been told in no uncertain terms last 4th of July and on my birthday that I'm one step closer to the grave . Talk about being really negative and over melodramatic - if I end up having reactions like that I'm not sure what to do or how to take them, but I will continue to roll and do what I do best.

Brian