Ah, you have found my conundrum I can't explain why, but I love the feeling of a thoroughly soaked diaper And it has to be me making it that way by peeing- nothing else even comes close. I can't find any reason for me being like this. All I can say is that I am this way, I like it, and since it's not hurting any innocent people I don't have a problem with it Well, maybe one problem- it's too impractical to do in my daily life so I just do it at home when the mood strikes me and I have the opportunity to do it
For me the best feeling is being in a thick and thoroughly soaked cloth diaper. Cloth lets you feel it all over Cloth diapers also give me some 'play options' doing this. I have some rubber panties that don't leak until liquid piddles in a big way. I also have plastic panties of all sorts, some which leak at the first provocation If I feel like I want to be visibly wet I go with those and jeans which show wetness nicely. If I just want to feel wet and am not concerned about appearances I'll go with the rubber ones. And sometimes I feel like having to change diapers a lot, so for those occasions (when I can afford it that is) I make a game of soaking as many pull-ups and pants as I can until the joy of wetting begins to fade
I've thought about this and how I am and I can't find any reason for me being this way. Than kind of bugs me because I'm one of those who always wants to know why I'm the way I am But I don't need to know why as much as I need to let this part of me have an outlet when it needs to happen, so I just do it and enjoy it often enough to make sure it doesn't drive me crazy The most important thing is that it makes me happy and hurts no one, even if it sometimes leaves a lot of laundry to be done afterward Oh well, that's not much of a price to pay for happiness, is it? In fact I'd say it's a bargain!
Bettypooh