Severely depressed and new meds not helping it.

[babyleanna75]

First off I've been sick for 7 weeks going 8 unable to work my $200 a month job some times I make less than That I am on SSDI and that pays all my bills but1 and I depend on the job for that 1 bill and my monthly gas consumption have not calculated the exact amount I think around $150 I go to several medical appointments. Back to my health I've been to to doctors since I've been sick and the first one wrote it off as the flue the second one I don't know know she never told me anything but did give me a doctor's note that excused me from work the prior weeks and said I could return to work the following Monday. Which didn't happen. The doctors where I live seem not to do anything for people on Medicaid and Medicare I know others on either one of the insurance mentioned or both. I haven't heard from anyonewho is on a non government low income health insurance to see if they have the same problems with doctors here. I have been thinking for a week or two about trying to go to another doctor with quite a few people pushing me to especially my mom. And I was going to go but before I go I wanted to ask the health professionals on fetlife and I posted last night. And they think it could be a few serious complications with my new anti-depressants mood stabilizer. The pill hasn't seemed to help my depression. Other things that contribute to my money problems listed above is my vehicle that had a few charitable organizations put about $1500 into only to find out that the engine needs to be rebuilt very soon my mechanic couldn't tell me when the engine would fail but it would be before the end of the year and a month later my water pump decided to go. Then Friday I think the headgasket blew. I have no way to get to my appointments which are over 20 miles from where I live and the edge of the the main town is around 8 miles from where I live. The town I live has two gas stations and few casinos and two bars andttheir use to be around 5 restaurants and one tiny grocery store which I only get last minute items cause it's very expensive but it would be more expensive to drive to themmain town. So anyways I have no choice but to drive. My piece of junk till it fails. To top things off month ago I posted a couple of adds wanting a vehicle for a person on disability pension. In them I mention that I have no income to buy good reliable vehicle and according to the rules I haven't broken them. And people keep flagging them including twice yesterday so I am going to have to see if a friend can help me rebut the flagging my cheapest Straight Talk phone won't let me reply to Craigslist and neither will my last year Christmas present a Samsung Galaxy Tab 3 that uses free WiFi at the rv Park I live. And And I live at. One thing that has helped my depression slightly is the thought of cheaper rent from a special section 8 program but was denied because they don't consider campers homeless anymore when the special program the state has that gives the homeless certain necessities does and homeless sshelters dose. My mental health case manager wants me to apply for the regular section 8.I going to do it even though I don't have money for a deposit or away to move. It sure would help my budget if I was able to save a few hundred dollars. Now it may seem I am asking for financial help but I am not just explaining the reason for my depression. And I hate asking for help and is something I am not proud of when I do. I've had to ask for help several times since I became disabled in 2006. And I feel guilty every time. I grew up in a family that believes in earning what you get and disability pension is very last resort. I guess that's the other reason why I am depressed.

[babyleanna75]

One funny thing is when I type my engine needs to be rebuilt my auto prompt suggests my engine needs to diaper it does it in a few other sentences. I guess my phone is ABDL or DL to. Lol.. I use SwiftKey.

[Dill_Pickle]

BabyLee:

Every so often, bad things happen to good people, that is what your SSI and section 8 (pay fixed proportion of your income in rent) are for.

[Bettypooh]

When you need help and you didn't cause the need to occur then it's NOT freeloading at all. The assistance offered is there exactly for people like you

[babyleanna75]

Dill Pickle I just recently became eligible for section 8 but don't have enough money to pay a deposit or a truck to move my stuff or two guys to move my stuff as my back is bad. So I am stuck with higher rent. Update so several medical professionals online told me to get a lithium level done so I did it and it was 5 points to high med nurse for the doctor that prescribed it sent a request for all the tests before telling me to stop taking them. But my lithium levels were fine the last two tests I did start the lithium shortly before I got sick so it was a good guess. But I am highly doubtful the lithium is the cause of my sickness been off the lithium for almost a week and still am sick. And my depression isn't getting better and can't see my psychiatrist for 3 weeks and it will take a few weeks for new med to kick in.

[repetitivediaperwetter88]

**hugs** Things sometimes make a turn for the worst and it fells like Nothing can help. It feels as though your whole world comes crashing

[babyleanna75]

Just when I thought anything could get worse : I forgot to mention that my drivers door handle on the outside broke when I got out of court so I have to open it from the passenger side

So I leave the door slightly ajar when I go anywhere so when I went to Walmart last night to get a few necessities from the $10 that I got from a friend that owed me for months someone decided that my dent in my passenger side door wasn't big enough so they hit it. Didn't do much more damage but when I went to open it to day I was barely able to open it enough to get my drivers side door. I had one good stroke of luck in the body shop just down the street the guy was there and he is hardly ever there according to one of his tenants in his trailer park and he freed the door from the fender in a couple of minutes for free. Skip back to Thursday night I was walking a grocery bag full of wet diapers to the trash and it had snowed enough to make my porch slick and fell 3 stairs and broused my ribs and elbow. My boss from the job I haven't been to in 8 weeks want me to go to the doctor to see if if cracked the ribs and get a doctor's note if I did I really didn't want to go but I did found out that they weren't and doctor gave me some decent pain relievers but they didn't do much for the pain to day cause I had appointments and had to run a friend to the pharmacy were his mom paid for them and he didn't have gas money to pay for the ride so I did a good deed.

[repetitivediaperwetter88]

Just when I thought anything could get worse : I forgot to mention that my drivers door handle on the outside broke when I got out of court so I have to open it from the passenger side

[babyleanna75]

My Friend, That is actually a lot easier to fix than you think.

[Repaid1]

I don't know if the handle is broke or just came off the linkage. If it's the later then a simple clip thingee is all that is needed for just a dollar or two at the parts store, if it is broke. IF it just came un-clicked, then a simple reassemble will solve the problem... you could transplant the passenger clip to the drivers side as well to make it easier for you. I have had about 6 Jimmy/blazers over the years and have loved them. They are/were prone to intake gasket fail but never had a head gasket fail. Actually it isn't cheap but there is a additive to seal that problem without a mechanic but it runs about $80 plus. I would caution you to ensure that if your head gasket is blown to check your oil to see where the breach is if your oil isn't foamy then that's a much better sign telling you the leak is to the combustion water jacket side. However the more you drive it the worse it is going to get, and most defiantly will cause major engine problems if not addressed soon. The "Liquid Glass" fix needs to be done as soon as possible to curb the issue. I know money is tight, but 180,000 isn't all that much on that 4.3 and once fixed you can expect another 120,000 if proper maintenance and such are regularly done. Much cheaper than finding a new reliable replacement. The old saying is, if you have fixed about everything up to now, then your driving a new car

[repetitivediaperwetter88]

Own an 89 Silverado, 275,000 miles on her. and she starts right up everytime only thing wrong with her is the brakes, and the starter is going out original engine, never rebuilt, except the transmission (700R4 ) back in 09. I tapped on the starter with the good ol hammer

[babyleanna75]

Good news thanks to an anonymous Donner my speeding ticket has been paid and had enough for some gas and some food. I didn't ask for the money not am I asking for money here. I found out I ran out of heat funds from the government and have to more places to ask for help but they've been short on money. Don't get to see my shrink till the 17 and still depressed. I found out one of the car dealers is still looking for a vehicle that they could donate the manager called me Monday asking if I'd found one. Do some things looking up. I am going to see a different doctor in April to see if they will do a bunch of testing on me. Wish me the best. I have an add on diapers in the diaper store section they are size large to raise money for my bills.