A Bit About Myself

[DecidedonDiapers]

Hi

Just wanted to say a decent hello and tell you a bit about how I got into nappies/diapers.

Im 32 years old now and ever since I can remember being at the age of about 4 or 5 I used to enjoy letting little bits of pee into my pants.

And I do remember deliberately wetting myself on occassions.

I used to like wearing several pairs of pants at one time and just wetting myself when I was able to alone.

This continued, less frequently as time went on, I would go for months without wetting, and I always thought I was the only one who enjoyed this kind of thing.

When I met my first serious girlfriend I was 21 and slowly just introduced watersports into the relationship, I used to ask her to pee on me but never ever mentioned nappies.

The the Internet kind of came along for me and I realised there were LOTS of other people who enjoyed wetting, I also discovered you could buy adult nappies, and that was it I knew I had to try that.

A while later I split with the 1st girlfriend (nothing to do with wetting/nappies), and stayed single for a while and one day went to a chemist and after a really embarrassing 5 minutes bought a pack of adult nappies (cant remember what they were), raced home and put one on, loved it but suddenly felt reeally guilty :s.

I took it off and threw it away with all the others, and just thought the feelings of wanting to wear a nappy would go, and that somehow I could convinve myself to be "normal".

Well as im sure any serious DL will know, some feelings and needs dont go away !

The next girl I was with was into domination and well I kind of enjoyed it too, and so after a few beers and when I was feeling brave I pretended I had only just thought nappies might be a good punishment, as its a form of control to have your toilet rights removed and forced to soil yourself.

She thought it was a great idea and kept me nappied several times , sometimes for a week or so.

Of course I was in absolute heaven, I think mainly because it felt like I didnt have a choice in wearing them or not, so suddenly my feelings of guilt where no longer there.

I just felt real good without feeling guilty.I realised just how much I loved nappies and several times I fantasised about wearing them daily.

Fast forward to 2 years ago, I met my last Girlfriend and we quickly moved in together, I also told her that I loved watersports, and loved her peeing on me and being dirty, she gladly did this.

One weekend after a few beers and surfing we found some adult nappies on ebay, only a pack of 3 for some extortionate price but I didnt care, I said it would be funny to get them and try them one weekend, she agreed.

After that we would wear them together on and off; I think she realised that I enjoyed wearing them myself more than I did her wearing them, she started not wearing them as much and started making me wear them as punishment.Gradually she became more and more controlling, and would only allow me to change the nappy if she changed it for me, so I used to have to ask her for a change and she also enjoyed mockingly asking "do you need a change yet ? "

Anyway this was just awesome for me,and there were times I thought this is exactly what i've been looking for all my life, she is great im going to marry her one day.Even though we used to argue quite a lot for many different reasons and a lot of the time she could extremely unkind and hatefull, I used to overlook this because she indulged my love of nappies.

Things got worse between us, untill about 4 months ago when I noticed a dramatic change in her, to cut a long story short, I found out she had been cheating on me with her boss for 2 weeks, so massive row...blah blah..

The last 4 months have been awfull for me, with her continually saying she loves me, then 2 days later she isnt sure etc etc, so im finally moving out (I live in her house).

Its hard but in a way it changed my life, you see I have just had enough of problematic relationships, and its the first time in my life where I am thinking screw it im going to wear a nappy everyday because I WANT TO, not because of anyone else, and I dont give a shit anymore about whats right and wrong, its all just societies view afterall.

What does it matter what I wear as underwear ?

So even though I still have feelings for the last girl and yet i've split up I am happy because I feel I finally have the courage to do what I want to.

I have now been wearing a disposable with plastic pants and a pair of lycra pants/shorts over the top to reduce rustle and bulk, uder my clothes everyday to work for the past week;

and it feels GREAT, I am actually so much happier in myself and feel less stressed now im trying 24/7.

Sorry for the real long first post but i've been reading this great board for a while just lurking and I thought you all deserved a decent introduction from me, also it might help those sitting on the fence wishing for a 24/7 lifestyle but not taking the plunge, just do it, no one will notice (its in your head) and you'll feel a lot happier within yourself.

Thanks for reading, and feel free to mail/msn me (jagd_mirage@hotmail.co.uk), im in Liverpool UK and would love to speak to linkminded people. Strength in numbers

[beallucanb]

I just want to welcome you, and say,glad you came to talk with us, Hope you find somone new soon, and stay nappied, if you enjoy it do it, I wear occasionaly, and thn sometimes I wear everday for a week or two, it depends on my mood, I also use plastic pants with my disposeables, and a few times a week, I use cloth diapers made from a bath towel, and large plastic pants, there very absorbant, much more so than disposeables, but really bulky, but I don't give a ____ I just like wearing them.

Good Luck and nice to meet you....B

[ajc2000]

Nice introduction. Thanks for sharing

Hope to see more from you in the forums and chat, now you have stopped lurking..lol

[nappyloon]

Wow that is some story, sorry to hear you broke up.

Those old guilt feelings never seem to go away !

Anyway, nice to meet you and welcome.

[DecidedonDiapers]

Thanks for the replies guys, it's always nice to feel welcome.

Sorry about the length of the intro, but I didnt want to make some half hearted post

Breaking up is always tough, but sometimes it's actually for the best because it makes you see things in new ways.

I have thought about what I will do in regards of telling the next girl my "secret" and have decided im happy being single for a while, and when/if the right person comes along I will be honest and just say its what I enjoy and part of me.

Anyway thanks again

[DollyDiaper]

Hats off to you! I believe it's a big mistake to jump out of one serious relationship and leap straight into another. I think you're wise to enjoy some 'YOU' time.

Time to reflect and take stock, so to speak. Sounds like you've been doing that, good on you!

Oh, and WELCOME, D-on-D!

D lly

[DecidedonDiapers]

Hats off to you! I believe it's a big mistake to jump out of one serious ship and leap straight into another. I think you're wise to enjoy some 'YOU' time.

Time to reflect and take stock, so to speak. Sounds like you've been doing that, good on you!

Oh, and WELCOME, D-on-D!

D lly

Heheh thanks for the welcomes, and Dolly you're right; in retrospect I think maybe I was a bit unhappy beijg single and felt like I HAD to fine someone to settle down with.

I'm still getting used to being single at the moment, but it's getting better slowly, and im sure in a few months i'll be over the whole splitting up thing, and happy to be single again...maybe

[wetdiapermass5]

great intro....glad u found happieness....