Time for a Change

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 I woke up snapped into an over-sized cradle that was rocking side to side.  My wrists were clipped to the cradle by my shoulders and my legs were crossed with my ankles also clipped to the side of the cradle.  My mouth was filled with a ball gag and my diaper was wet.  I could not squish around to much as my ankles were secure.   My head felt dizzy as I was being rocked back and forth but I could start to take in my nursery.  I looked up and saw a baby mobile above me and a bright ceiling light was on.  There was a crib and a well stocked change table with diapers underneath.  There was no window and no clock so I had no idea what time it was.  I felt the weight of my cold wet diaper on me and I started to feel hungry.  It would be hard to talk, not that I should, so I resorted to the only communication expected of me and I started to cry for Nana. 

Nana opened the door and breezed in and asked “how is our little one?”  I struggled a bit and bent my head down in the direction of my diaper and gave a muffled “num-num”.  I had hoped she could tell I needed to be fed and changed.  I think she understood as she replied “Well baby, I think it is time for you to understand, that it doesn’t matter what you think or feel.  It is up to your mommy and Nana to determine when you get cleaned up and when we feed you.”  She laid a blanket down on the floor and then turned off the motor that rocked the cradle so it stopped.  She then came to the cradle and started to unsnap my ankles and then my wrists and then pulled me out onto the floor.  She undid the mittens and ankle cuffs, but I still had my collar and gag on.  She patted for me to lie down on the blanket and then started to unsnap my onesie.  She pulled me up so she could pull the onesie off over my head.  Now I was just wearing my diaper.  “Okay baby, follow me.” She said as she exited the room.  I crawled after her hoping that my diaper would not fall off.  I could feel the bulkiness and weight of the diaper as I started crawling.  I also became aware of another feeling as there was now some room for movement in my diaper that my baby penis and balls felt the rubbing of the diaper as I moved each leg forward following Nana.  She led me to the bathroom and turned on the tap for the bathtub.  She had me lie down on the floor and untapped my diaper.  It was just very wet.  She pulled the diaper off and had me crawl over and into the bathtub where I lowered myself into the water.   She turned off the tap and added some soap and then began to wash me down from head to toe.  I moved my hands and legs as instructed so she could finish her work quickly.  She then did a more detailed inspection of me.  I must have passed the examination as she asked me to crawl out onto the bathroom floor as she pulled the plug.  When I got out she started to towel dry me and then picked up a few things from the counter and directed me to follow her back to my room. 

When we got back to my room she had me lie down flat on my front on the blanket.  Then she got out some sort of device which I learned was a laser light hair removal device.  She started at the back of my neck and shoulders, worked down through my arms, then my back and to back of my ankles.  Once in awhile I could feel a burn.  She then had me turn over and then started on my face, from the ball gag, and slowly worked down to my feet.  When she was done she set the device aside and then took out a diaper and slid it under me.  I smelled the sprinkle of power and then she taped me up and patted the front of my diaper and said “you will be getting a few more of these treatments that will turn you into a real baby.”  Then she slipped the mittens back on my hands and buckled up the ankle cuffs.  She got up and then went over to pick out a blue onesie.  She kept it in hand and commanded “follow me baby.” 

I crawled after her outside the room to the room with the Christmas tree.  She helped me into the playpen and then pulled the onesie over my head and down to the top of the diaper.  She asked me to lie down and wait until she got my bottle.  The feeling of friction on my baby penis while crawling in my diaper was amazing.  I did not get that feeling when the onesie was exerting the upward pressure on my diaper.  As I lay down I took my mittens and pressed on my diaper and started to move it up and down.  It was amazing feeling, except Nana saw me as she came out with my bottle.  She put the bottle down on the table and went back to the kitchen.  She came back with a bowl and a wooden spoon.  “okay baby, you should know that babies don’t do that.  I will have to remind you not to do that.  Let’s get you out of the playpen.” She commanded with a stern tone.  She pulled me out of the playpen and pulled me to a chair.  She sat down on the chair and then pulled me over her lap.  The onesie was already unsnapped so all she had to do was pull down my diaper and start warming up my bum.  I was not asked to count and don’t remember how many when it stopped, but I remember the punishment.  While I learned to cry like a baby it was hard to cry through the ball gag.  The tears were real and the bawling was muffled.   She kept at it until she was satisfied.  She then pulled up the diaper and pushed me down on the floor in a sitting position so that it really hurt.  My bum was so hot that it felt it was heating my diaper.  She then got up and brought over the bowl which had ice cubes in it and pulled the front of my diaper open and poured the ice cubes down the front.  She then had me lie down and snapped up my onesie and then pulled me up and into the play pen.   Oh, the pain!  My bum was hot and now I felt the ice cubes give a different type of burn to my bottom and penis.  In one sense the ice cooled my bottom down and in another sense it stung as it really cooled things down.  It was hard to shift around since the onesie kept everything in its place.  She took the bowl and the spoon and went back to the kitchen.   When she came back, she picked up the bottle from where she left it and came over to the playpen, removed the ball gag and then gave the bottle to me.  I had forgotten I was hungry!  I lay on my back and started to suck.  Then she turned on the television to a kids cartoon show which I don’t even remember what it was and she left the room.

Over the noise of the cartoon I could make out that Nana was talking to someone on the phone, but I had no idea who.  I kept sucking on my bottle, trying to overhear what she was saying while trying to make myself comfortable as the ice cubes were melting and making my diaper expand.  My penis must have shrunk since when I wet myself I could feel the pressure on it as it was trying to expand so I could pee.  I dropped the empty bottle and moved it to the side of the playpen and then idly moved and listened to the cartoon.  The heat in my diaper had subsided and now I could feel the bulk of the diaper.  I stayed on my back and moved my legs around and could feel some friction down below.  I rotated my legs some more and it so felt good, but then I remembered my spanking and the ice cubes from not too long ago.  I crossed my legs, put them down and stared up at the ceiling as I listened to the cartoons.   This was starting to get boring, but then I didn’t have to deal with user requests or paying bills or anything.  Then I thought about how filling my diaper would be the highlight of the day.  While the ice cubes left the diaper wet and cool I still could feel my bum radiate the heat from my spanking.  I didn’t hear Nana say anything or make any noise and I started to look around my playpen.  I saw a red, yellow and blue plastic block.  I picked one up between my mittens and looked at it and then stuck it in my mouth and I could feel the smoothness of the block with my tongue.  Next thing I was sucking on a corner of the block and it felt comforting.  I kept sucking on it and then felt some pressure on my bowels.  It was time to fill my diaper.  I raised my legs up and pulled them into me and gave a push.  I could feel the pressure or push back from the diaper as I gave it another push and felt an almost orgasmic release as I filled my diaper.  It was a comforting warmth that met my bum.  I lowered my legs and felt it squish around a bit and a “goo-goo” escaped out of my lips as I was sucking on the corner of the block.  I didn’t really think about anything it all just naturally occurred and I was wondering what was happening to me.  It must be the recordings that I remembered hearing before I fell asleep.  Whatever it was, I felt content mindlessly sucking on the corner of a plastic block, listening to a cartoon, while moving my legs and occasionally blathering out a “goo-goo” or a “gaa-gaa” .  Then the rumbling in my tummy prompted me to lift my legs again and push out the contents into my now full diaper.  I lowered my legs again and added more squish to my diaper.  Then I pulled my legs together and felt that comforting friction again.  I repositioned my legs again, adding more squish, so there would not be any more comforting friction.  If I called for Nana to change me I thought that I would get another punishment.  I learned from Auntie that babies get changed when your mommy or Auntie feels they should get changed.  I looked around my playpen some more and dropped my block to pick-up another one.  I licked my new block and then began to suck the corner of it.  I could not help but move my legs and create some comfort below.  I thought that as long as I don’t put my hands down there or if I don’t make it obvious I would be safe.

Sometime later Nana came back into the room and was waving her hands in the air while she was commenting on how someone must have filled their diaper.  I was moderately bored, kicking my feet every so often while enjoying the friction and sucking a corner of my block while absent mindedly listening to the cartoons and occasionally commenting “goo-goo” and “gaa-gaa”.  I don’t know how much time had passed and neither did I care anymore as I was regressing into my own little world.  Nana pulled up my mittens and took the block and replaced the block with a soother.  Immediately I started sucking on the soother.  She then pulled me up into a sitting position with the natural consequences of more squish in my diaper.  I am sure that if the onesie had not held everything in it would be a real mess!  Then she helped pull me out of the playpen and onto the floor and commanded “follow-me.”  I crawled behind her back to my room and could feel the squish.  She went to put a change mat on the floor and indicated for me to lie down on the mat.  She then went to get a diaper, wipes and two bottles when the door bell rang.  She put the stuff beside me and commanded “you stay there and be a good boy.”  She then got up and left the room to answer the door.  I heard voices at the door and then her voice was getting louder as she was returning to the room.  While I was on my back I was moving my legs around trying to create some pleasurable friction.  As Nana came to the door of my room she looked back to the hallway and said “I will be a few minutes as I need to change the baby.”     I heard “do you mind if I join you?” with a pair of footsteps approaching the room.  Nana entered and then an older lady, maybe fifty years old and in great athletic shape, followed her in.  “Oh my!” she exclaimed as she put her hand to her face in complete surprise.  “I thought you were going to change a baby.  Wow!” she exclaimed and then started to laugh.  Nana got down on her knees on the floor and had me spread my legs apart as she started to prepare to take off my onesie and diaper when the lady interrupted with “would you like me to help?”  Nana replied as she started to undo one tape “I am not sure you are ready for this, but could you hold the feet over the head of this stinker?”  The lady grabbed me by the ankles and started to pull them up.  Nana undid the snaps on my onesie and pushed it up then she undid all the tapes and there was a collected “whew” as the smell invaded our senses.  Nana used the front of the diaper to scrape the filth from the front to the back and then took some wipes to clean me.  I took some time and the lady pulled me back further so Nana could clean my entire backside.  She then pulled the used diaper out and slide a new diaper in as the lady slowly lowered my ankles back to the floor.  Nana poured some baby oil over me and massaged my friction loving parts so it felt very slippery and started to grow.  She then wiped her hands, sprinkled some powder on me and then taped up the front of my diaper.   I must have been sucking my pacifier furiously as nana and the lady finished with the diaper.  She then pulled the onesie back over the diaper and snapped it back in place.  The lady then commented “looks like this little fella is good to go, do you want to come with me?”  My eyes felt like they were going to explode out my head and I did not know what to say or do when Nana replied “This little fella is my charge for the next few days.  He needs to be in my care as you can tell he is completely helpless.” 

The lady replied “that begs the question of who would let themselves become like that and who would want to waste their time and money taking care of such a useless piece like him?”  “He figured out he was waste of a life and that he would be better off being owned by someone and his core focus is to please his new mommy” nana replied.  “I can’t imagine changing shitty diapers as pleasing anybody” the lady commented and then asked “I think for what you just had to do, you deserve a break. Do you feel like a night out?”  Nana looked down at me and then to the cradle and replied “sure, help me get him secured in the cradle.”  The two ladies picked me up by my arms and legs and placed me in the cradle.  Nana secured my ankles and my wrists to the side of the cradle and turned it on so I was rocking side to side.  I looked up to the ladies with pleading eyes and called “nana”.  “No baby, you need to learn your place.  I would have gotten you a bottle, but I have something else.”  Nana said as she left the room and quickly returned with a ball gag.  The two ladies secured the ball bag around me and then Nana said “It would have been better if you had not talked back.”  She then started a hypnosis tape with “I love my diapers, I love to fill diapers” and then left the light on as they both left the room.  I came to enjoy the tapes because I do love my diapers, and I love to fill my diapers, and I love the squishy felling in my diapers, and I love nana and I want nothing more to be her baby and make her happy.  Despite the light being on, the cradle rocking side to side made me feel sleepy and my eyelids were starting to get heavy when I felt a buzz on the back of my neck.  My eyes opened up again and I continued to listen to the hypnosis tape.  I tried to move my hand to suck my thumb but it was restricted.  I wanted to say “goo-goo” but my mouth was already full with the ball gag.  My jaw was starting to get sore and I felt I was drooling and my legs were feeling funny yet I felt happy and comfortable to be Nana’s baby.  I continued to listen to the hypnosis and my eyes were starting to close when I was awoken with a shock to my neck and I think I wet my diaper.  I was awake and ready to cry through the gag as I then continued to enjoy the comfort of rocking and listening to the tape.  Again, when I was starting to feel drowsy, I got another shock to my neck which startled me awake.  I had no sense of time, but I think I was shocked awake three or four times, before Nana came back with a bottle wearing a bath robe.  I felt very tired and docile as I watched her unclip my left mitten and clip it to a small collar and removed my ball gag.  Now I could suck my mitten thumb, but she then gave me a bottle to suck.  “Be a good boy until Nana comes back” she said.  I looked up at Nana and nodded my head in agreement and started to suck my bottle.  It tasted like a vanilla which I recognized to be the adult baby formula.  I watched as Nana got up and headed to the door when I noticed the other older lady was in the hallway, also wearing a bathrobe, looking in.  She must have noticed that I saw her and left my field of view.  As Nana left she closed the door and left me to my bottle and the hypnosis tapes.

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I was losing track of time.  The soundtrack was starting to sound the same and I could recite it.  I wanted to be a baby and fill my diapers and please my mommy and suck my bottle and thumb.  I was sucking air and let go of my bottle and then tried to suck my thumb through the mitten.  I needed the comfort of sucking.  After getting my one mitten wet and getting frustrated on not being able to suck I was starting to miss my ball gag when Nana breezed into my room and turned off the rocking of the cradle and the hypnosis track.  “Goo-goo Nana” I said with the mitten over my mouth. 

She asked rhetorically “how is my big baby today?”  I moved the mitten to my mouth and replied “num num.”  “Is baby hungry?” she asked and then replied “I gave you a bottle. Let’s get you cleaned up and then we will see about some breakfast.”

 She started to unclip my other mitten and then my ankles and then lowered my feet onto the floor and pulled me up and out of the cradle and laid me on the floor.  She then undid the mitten and one hand quickly responded by putting a thumb in my mouth and then I began to suck.   She then pulled out a baby bathtub and the older lady came to the door with a water kettle in her hand and asked “would you like some help cleaning him up?” 

“Sure” Nana replied as she unsnapped the onesie and started to undo the diaper tapes.  She quickly undid the diaper, rolled it up and set it aside.  She then pulled me up and into the baby bathtub.  As I was positioned in the tub nana’s friend tested the water in the kettle and then poured it into the bathtub.   Nana added some bubble soap and started to wash me down as her friend left with the kettle to return again with some more water.  Nana then put some soap in her hand then started to knead it into my hair.  At times she was pulling my hair but I accepted it.  Somewhere between remembering my last bath experience and the consequences and just becoming more docile I did not complain about the tugging.  Then the kettle of water was poured over my head and I got some soap in my eyes.  It stung and I pulled away and Nana pulled me back and rebuked me with “No moving, or you will remember this.” 

I stayed still until she was finished and then she pulled out two towels and had me get on all fours and move one leg, then one hand onto the towel.  She dried each part as it left the tub and landed on the towel on the floor.  Finally I was completely on the towel when she asked me to lay on the floor.  I complied and continued to suck on my thumb as the older lady dragged the tub out of the room and nana started to put on a new diaper for me.  Nana pulled a new onesie over my head and then had me lay down again so she could snap up the Onesie and then she secured my mittens back on my hand.  A soother came out of nowhere and landed in my mouth as nana then started to put the ankle cuffs back on.  Now I was ready for breakfast. 

I laid on the floor as Nana cleaned up the debris from my bath and change.  When she got up she commanded “come.”  I got up and crawled after her out the door and to the kitchen.  I could smell the aroma of coffee, bacon and eggs.  Yum, this was great.  As I approached the high chair I looked up to the older lady who was serving the bacon and eggs on some plates.  Nana helped me up and snapped me into the high chair.  I now had a commanding view of the kitchen table.  Nana and her friend sat down at the table and started to eat.  Through my soother I called out “num num”. 

Nana was quick to reply “wait your turn sweetie.  They always say to take care of yourself first and then help those who can’t help themselves after.  That is true for airlines and adult babies at home.” 

 I watched as Nana and her friend chatted about things that happened last night that I did not understand and something about their plans for today.  I think they were wondering what to do with me among other things.  Finally they finished their meal and concluded with “that sounds like a plan.” 

The older lady got up and cleared the table as Nana got up and dished out some oatmeal and leftover eggs into a plastic bowl.  She then picked up a bib and a wooden spoon and approached me.  She put the bowl and spoon on the table and then went to put the bib around my neck.  I complied as she put the bib in place and then loaded up the spoon.

“Open up, here it comes” she said as the spoon loaded with oatmeal wasted no time going for my mouth.  I opened wide and took it in.  I closed tight over the spoon as Nana then pulled it out and said “such a good boy!”  This must have happened for a dozen times as I lost count.  I wanted to make sure I ate my mush.   Nana scraped the bowl and announced “one more time sweetie” and I finished the job.  My tummy was full.  Nana put the bowl and spoon on the table and then removed the bib and used the bib to wipe down my face.  After my feeding my thumb went instinctively to my mouth, but the mitten was in the way.  When she came back to let me out I don’t even remember trying to put my thumb in my mouth – I was just trying to suck on my mitten - it was just there.   She came and pulled my mitten and replaced it with my soother.  It felt much better.  She then helped me down from the high chair and led me to the Christmas living room with the tree and the packages and the playpen.    

It seemed to take more effort to get into the playpen this time as my legs felt funny and I could not help Nana as much as the first time.  Nevertheless I got situated in the playpen and became acquainted with a plush brown bear, who was a new character, among the plastic blocks.  Nana turned on the television to a children’s show that was teaching me all about colors and shapes.  I laid flat on my back, pulled up my legs and hugged the bear as I looked up at the screen and sucked contently.     Every so often I might notice how comforting the diaper was hugging me and how the front had expanded when I had released some pee.  It all felt good.  Once in a while I would move my legs and felt that comforting friction.  I just got lost in the screen and sucking my soother, hugging the bear and feeling safe in my playpen.  Tiredness was setting in when I felt a buzz on my neck.  My eyes opened wide and I made an effort to suck my soother more vigorously than before.  The one way to keep more active and awake would be to continue moving my legs and create that pleasurable friction down below.  My focus went from the screen to creating the pleasurable sensations below. I had lost all sense of time when I noticed Nana’s friend looking down at me.  I stopped moving my legs as she was smiling down at me with a knowing smile that said she knew what I was doing. “What are you doing baby?” she asked. 

I froze and hugged my bear tight.  As she reached her hand down to take my bear she said “come now baby, you don’t have to worry about a thing.  Let’s play some baby games.”  She grabbed the bear and I pulled tight when she said “it is alright baby I am going to help Mr. Bear out first and then you, Okay?”   I released the bear and she pulled it up and set it outside the playpen facing me.  She then placed both her hands under my armpits and pulled me up and over the playpen and set me down sitting on the floor.   “That wasn’t so bad, was it baby?” she said.  I was watching her and sucking intently wondering what sort of “baby games” we were going to play.  She turned off the television and said “the first game we will play is mommy and the baby.  You will be the baby and I will be the mommy. So follow me.”  She got up and walked out of the room and I followed her to my nursery.  When we got to the nursery she said “I think we forgot someone, who did we forget?”  “I know, we forgot your friend, Mr. Bear.  Let’s go get Mr. Bear.” She said as she left the nursery and returned to the Christmas living room.  She slapped her tight and said “hurry-up baby.”   I picked up the pace to follow her back to the playpen where Mr. Bear was waiting for us.  He was sad that we did not include him.  I went to collect him and hugged him tight and then we returned to my nursery.

 I followed Nana’s friend back to the nursery when she stopped to the one side of the nursery in front of a big mirror she crouched down, pointed her finger down and commanded “come here.”   I crawled right up to her and could smell a faint sweet smell of her perfume.  I lightly bumped my head up to her and tried to snuggle.  She pulled me back and down so I was sitting on the floor and the she got down on her knees and pulled me over so that I was sitting on her knees in front of her looking at myself in the mirror. As I looked in the mirror I could see she was holding me and then she pointed to my nose and said in a slightly higher pitch voice, like what you say to a baby,“ look baby, where is your nose?  This is your nose.  Can you show me your nose?”  I looked in the mirror, I saw a big baby holding Mr. Bear in one hand and looking intently at Nana’s friend holding me and pointing to my nose.  I could see I was instinctively sucking on my soother and slowly moved my mitten hand to my nose.  “Good Baby” she said as she moved her hands to either side of my eyes and said “these are your eyes.  Can you show me your eye?” I moved one hand from my nose to my eye.  As I moved my hand she said “Good baby, now let’s find your mouth.  Where is your mouth?  I don’t see your mouth.  Oh, there it is.”  She took the soother from my mouth and immediately I felt anxious.  I was going to start to cry as she put the soother back and said “it is okay honey.”  She then held me firm by her and covered both my eyes and asked “where is the baby, where did the baby go?”  Then she moved her hands and I could see us both in the mirror as she said “there is the baby!”   She then held my free arm and said “this is your arm, baby. Can you point to your nose?”  I moved my free arm and pointed to my nose.  “Good boy, you are a smart baby, aren’t you” she said.  Then she covered my eyes again and asked “where is the baby?”  She uncovered my eyes and said “peek-a-boo, there is the baby.”  I smiled through my soother as she pulled me in tight and gave me a quick kiss on my cheek.  My eyes widened in the mirror as I was surprised by her kiss.  I turned around to give her a hug.  We were in an embrace when Nana came to the door of the room and announced it was lunch time.  Nana’s friend slid me down on to the floor and asked if she could bring Mr Bear with her.  I gave her Mr. Bear.  She got up clutching Mr. Bear and tousled my hair and said “Come with me baby.”  I crawled after her with a new warm feeling inside. 

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I was snapped into my high chair and had that commanding view of the lunch setting.  I knew the score, but this time nana’s friend kept looking up at me.  I think she was paying more attention to me as I was forlornly watching them have lunch as I sat idly by.  She got up and filled a bottle with water and brought it to me and placed it between my mittens.  This gave me something to do while they were savoring their lunch.   They were discussing their plans for the day that included options like, going shopping or going to the park.  I wasn’t sure what they had settled on as I was making the sucking air noise as I was trying to get the last remains from the bottle.  As I was drinking I just started to wet my diaper.  There was less thought – it just happened.  Nana and her friend looked up at me as I was making all the noise and I think they decided their lunch was done.  Nana took their plates and scraped the leftovers in to the blender and then added some more vegetables and some milk.  She ran the blender and poured the thick goop into a bowl.  Her friend picked up a bib and then pulled up a chair to me as Nana gave her a wooden spoon and the bowl.  Lunchtime!  After the bib was fastened her friend scooped up the goop and said “open wide.”  I opened wide and took in the bland tasting mix of lunch.  I didn’t have time to savor my lunch as once I took in one spoon another spoon was being loaded up and headed towards me.  Nana’s friend encouraged me with every spoonful.  After the bowl was cleaned up she said “such a good boy!”  I lived for those moments.

 I probably lived for that praise in my previous life at work too, but I rarely got it.  Now it was more explicit and it was my entire focus.  I could fall in love with any of my care givers now and it would not matter since I was a baby and depended on my caregivers entirely.  Nana’s friend wiped my face with a damp cloth and put everything on the counter.  She unsnapped me from the high-chair and let me down on the floor.  It was nap time for everyone.  Nana led me back to nursery and my cradle and both ladies put me in and snapped me down.  I was hoping to cuddle up to someone, but my fate was sealed here.  I guess I needed more brainwashing before I could really be their baby.  Nana started the cradle rocking side to side and then the hypnosis tape.  Nana’s friend blew me a kiss as she left and Nana turned off the light and closed the door.  They left me with “I am an adult baby.   I am more of a possession than a person and have no rights except as my mommy gives me.”  I was very tired and fortunately, my collar did not buzz or shock me so I quickly fell asleep.

I woke up to Nana and her friend coming into my room and turning on the light.  My muscles were creaky and it was hard to move since I was so restricted.  They turned off my cradle and unsnapped my ankles and mittens and helped me onto a change mat on the floor.  Nana unsnapped my onesie and then got to get a diaper, wipes and powder while her came and kneeled beside me.  I was getting the sense we were beginning to bond; although a stinky diaper can test those bonds.  Her friend pulled the onesie up a bit more and then both her hands came back and attacked me.  She tickled me and I could not help myself but laugh and kick my feet and used my mittened hands to stop the attack.  I think she had some fun, but stopped as Nana came back with the supplies.  They made quick work removing my diaper, cleaning me up and then sliding and new diaper on me.  After a final sprinkle I was tapped up, and snapped up and pulled up into a sitting position and ready to go for the afternoon.  Nana collected the items and put them away as her friend got up and said “follow me baby.”   I rolled forward, looked for Mr. Bear, collected him and followed her out the door and to the Christmas living room. 

Nana went to the front door and then I could hear her roll something to the living room.  It was an oversized stroller.  More specifically it was a stroller designed for a disabled teenager or adult.  It looked like a baby stroller – just bigger.    “Okay Baby we are going for a walk in the park” Nana said as she rolled the stroller right up to me.  I shook my head no and then started to cry.  “Baby, you are a baby slave and no is not in your vocabulary.  You better learn to do exactly as your mommy, auntie or nana says or there will be trouble.”  As I started to cry Nana’s friend said “Baby, no one knows who you are.  You don’t even know where you are.  There is no need to get embarrassed, because you are just a baby.  That is how everyone will see you.  They will think you are either a big baby or a retard.  This is your new life, so get over it.” 

Nana had come back from the kitchen with a spoon and sat down at the chair and commanded “come here.”  I knew I was in trouble and crawled over to Nana.  I got up on her legs and heard her unsnap my onesie and felt her pull down my diaper and then the spanking began.  I already was crying so that did not make it stop.  I don’t remember how many I got, I just remember it hurt even more than last time and my bum was hot!  Nana’s friend had left and then came back with two bottles.  One was a small red bottle and the other was a blue bottle.  I realized the one bottle was a Tabasco sauce and the other was a cold cream.  Nana asked “Are you ready to go to the park?”

 I nodded yes, and her friend handed over the cold cream to Nana to apply to my bottom.  It felt so good!  Nana pulled up the diaper and refastened the onesie and said “it would have been better for you if we did not have all this drama for today.”  She let me down on the floor to crawl to the stroller.  It felt like my bottom was radiating heat into my diaper.  I stayed on all fours as I waited for Nana to help me in the stroller.  The stroller wheels were locked and I was snapped in.  They checked that my ankles and mittens were secure.  Nana pushed the stroller to the front door and they got ready by putting on shoes and packing a diaper bag with snacks, bottles a diaper and other stuff.  Nana’s friend unsnapped one mitten and gave me Mr. Bear to hold onto.  Between holding Mr. Bear and sucking on my pacifier I calmed down while feeling the intense heat in my diaper – it was sore!  The two ladies took their time getting ready and there was nothing I could do about it.  I waited.  “I think we are ready.” Nana said as she opened the door and tipped the stroller up and over the door sill.  Nana’s friend was right behind and closed the door behind us.  I was now in a whole new world and very afraid.

 

I hid as far back under the stroller cover and hoped no one would see me as I furiously sucked my pacifier.  We went out the front of the house on the driveway and turned onto a sidewalk.  It was pleasant enough for the end of August, when I remembered it was the end of August and kids were still out of school, but there was nothing I could do so I resolved to face my fate resolutely.  I think from afar it would look like we were a family going for a walk.  We continued along the sidewalk until we came to a stop sign and crosswalk.  We waited and then crossed the street and passed a small corner store continued towards the park.  As we were coming to the park I could hear the sounds of kids playing.  There was so much energy in the air.  I was shrinking inside me as we approached the park and I could see a picnic table and a kid’s play area with a teeter-totter, swings and a climbing area.  The ladies pushed my stroller up to a picnic table that was some distance from the hub of activity.  I just wanted to hide or become invisible.  Some kids ran past my stroller and the table so Nana pushed the stroller further away onto the grass by some trees and then locked the wheels and set out a blanket on the grass and started to unpack some of the things.  They set out some treats and drinks on the blanket and then I saw they pulled out a bottle and a bonnet for me.   Nana came up to me in the stroller and peeked her head in and said “Baby, if you make a noise or a fuss everyone is going to see you and wonder what is going on.  If I were you, I would be a very good boy and do exactly what your Nana says.” 

She then unsnapped my other mitten, ankles and the straps around me.  She then coaxed me out of the stroller and onto the blanket where her friend was sitting.  They had set-up two low mini beach chairs on the edge of the blanket with some magazines stacked between them.  This was going to be long afternoon at the park!    I was not happy, but I had no choice but to crawl between the beach chairs where there was a bonnet, bottle and blocks set out for me.   Nana sat down and commanded to come to her.  She squeezed out some cream and applied it to my face, arms and legs.  She then applied some on her face, arms, back of her neck and legs and then gave the bottle to her friend who applied some on her face, arms and legs.  As her friend was putting on the sun screen Nana tied a bonnet over me.  I was not happy.  I must have looked pretty stupid and I think that was the point.  I was no longer to be socially aware.  I was a toy, a pet, a plaything.  The two ladies sat back and pulled out a magazine to read.  I sat on my hot bottom and repositioned myself to lay between them and drink from my bottle.  The sun was bright and I felt the heat from the sun matched the heat under my diaper.  I drank my bottle and let some dribble escape to my diaper.  When I finished my bottle I needed something else to do.  I sat up as some air escaped me and I nudged Nana who acknowledged my presence by grabbing a soother and filling my mouth.  I began to suck and tentatively looked around, hoping that no one would notice me or make eye contact.  I looked around and there were trees behind us with most of the activity in front of us.  To the left was the playground and park tables and benches.  To the right was an open field with people playing volleyball, catch and Frisbee.  I kept my head down and focused on my blocks. 

After some time I heard a ‘bonk’ and looked up.  A Frisbee had landed thirty or forty feet away from us and someone was running up to pick it up.  They picked it up and then kept staring in our direction.  Without my glasses I could not see too clearly but I thought they were looking right at us and it was confirmed as she picked up the Frisbee and then slowly walked towards us.  I turned to Nana so I would not make eye contact yet I could still catch what was going on through the periphery beyond the white lace of my bonnet.  The person was getting closer as Nana and her friend continued to read their magazines, then I noticed Nana look up from her magazine in the direction of the person approaching us.

“Hello, can I help you?” Nana said to the person approaching us.   “Yes” replied a female voice.  “I was wondering what you had here between the two of you.  It looks like a giant baby, is that right?” she asked. “Yes, he is an adult baby” Nana replied.  “He has recently given up his life to belong to his new mommy.”  “Cool, are you his new mommy?” she asked.  “No, I am taking care of him until they are ready to adopt him later this week”  Nana replied.  I cringed and continued to face Nana as the girl continued to approach us.  She boxed me in as she stood between Nana and her friend as they were still seated and I had her and the stack of magazines blocking my exit to the woods.  I had nowhere to go and was sucking my pacifier furiously when she came down to my level, put the Frisbee on the ground and put her finger under my chin and turned my face to her.  She looked at me directly and saw my pacifier moving in and out and laughed as she said “Are you nothing but a big baby?  Do you do pee-pee and poo-poo in your diapee?”  She laughed again and asked Nana “has he always been like this?”  “No” she replied “He lost his job a while ago, he had no hope and decided to give up his life and freedom to become a baby slave. He is still learning what it is like to be a baby.”  “Does the baby get a spanking and corner-time if he is a bad boy” she asked.  “Oh, he gets spankings, don’t you baby boy” Nana replied.  “In fact he got one earlier today because he didn’t want to come to the park with us, didn’t you sweetie!”  Nana replied. On hearing this I tried to look down, but my examiner used her finger to force my head up so I was now looking straight into her eyes.  She was curious and was wondering who would be willing to become the property of someone else when she summed up her thoughts to Nana “So, I have someone here who willingly got a spanking, wears diapers and does whatever you tell him to do. Isn’t there a law against that?”  “Not really” Nana replied “He made a choice and now we give him a purpose and hope. His sole purpose is to please his mommy.”  She removed her finger from under my chin, picked up the Frisbee and stood up.  My gaze followed her as she got up and asked Nana “Could I ask him something?”  “Sure, but make it a simple request.” Nana replied.  “Okay, kiss my feet!” she commanded as she moved one sandal to me.  I held her sandal with my mittens and started to kiss the top of her foot.  She pulled away and then offered the other sandal.  I started to kiss the other foot until she pulled it away.  I then followed her sandals and continued to kiss the top of her feet until she commanded “Stop!”  Nana then said “Good boy.”   “Wow, I want one, where can I get one?” the girl asked.  I could hear someone calling “Kaylee, Kaylee” when Nana said “Here is my number, call me later and I can tell you more.”  She took the number and ran back to the group and I could hear say “Guys, you will never believe what I saw.”  I was afraid more people were going to see me so I nudged Nana and called her name.  “That’s okay Baby, you survived and did not die of shame.  This is all part of learning to be a baby.”  Nana then turned to her friend and asked “should we go?”  She replied “Sure, do you want me to strap him in the stroller?”  Nana’s friend got up and had me follow her to the stroller and helped me in.  She then buckled me in and snapped in my ankles and one mitten and then gave me Mr. Bear while Nana was busy collapsing the mini beach chairs and packing up the bag.     When they were ready Nana gave the stroller a push and we headed across the field towards Kaylee and her friends playing with the Frisbee.  Nana did not stop but continued to the sidewalk as Kaylee paused from her game, waived and said “good-bye baby, talk to you later.”  We made it back onto the smooth side walk and started for what I hoped was an uneventful return home.

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As we were approaching the stop sign and the corner store Nana’s friend said “I am hot, do you mind if we get something to cool down at the store?”   “Sure” Nana replied as stopped my stroller at the entrance to the store.  A mom and her two kids were just exiting the store when the one little girl pointed to me and said “Mommy, Look at the big baby!”  I could not hide any further back in the stroller since I was at eye level with the little girl.   Nana’s friend held the door open as Nana negotiated getting the stroller inside the store.  Once we were in the store I was confronted with a new perspective of babyhood.  I had a clear of bodies and legs and not faces.  I was eye level with five year old children or adults waists.  I was pushed to the back where they had an ice cream counter and people were lined up ordering their favorite cones.  Nana’s friend paid for three cones.  She gave two cones to Nana and then came down to my level with a vanilla cone.  She asked “Can I take Mr. Bear so you can have this treat?” I nodded yes and relinquished Mr. Bear to her.  She then released my other mitten and pulled my mittens together and then placed the cone between them and then got back-up.   Mr. Bear disappeared but I was consoled with eating my ice-cream.  This was a nice treat.  I was focused on trying to keep somewhat clean while eating my ice cream so I missed the comments in the store and as Nana pushed my stroller back outside.  We stopped at the stop sign, crossed the street and continued down the street as Nana and her friend were having a lively discussion that was beyond my comprehension. 

Next thing I knew I was being pushed up our driveway to the front door.  Nana angled the stroller onto landing in front of the door and handed the keys to her friend to open the door.  Nana angled the stroller inside and as she moved the stroller up and over I dropped the remnants of my cone and it fell to the floor.   Fortunately there was not much left and it was more cone than ice cream.  I think there was more ice cream on my mittens and face than was left in the cone.  Nana locked the wheels to the stroller and her friend unsnapped me and helped me out onto the floor and commented on my messy mittens and face.  Nana put things away and then came back with a washcloth and new mittens.  She undid the mittens and then wiped down my face and hands.  She then put new mittens over my hands.  I was tired and it seemed like a long afternoon, even though it could not have been too many hours.  I was led back to the playpen as Nana and her friend were making plans for dinner and the evening.   Nane took the washcloth back to the kitchen and came back a bottle of water that she introduced to me and I started to suck.  I held the bottle between my mittens and lay down inside the playpen and let them continue with their chat.  I think they were planning on going out for dinner and wondering if they should bring me along or enjoy their evening.  I think Nana got a call on her cell phone as her friend came out and turned on the television.  I couldn’t pick-up what the call was about over the age appropriate instruction of A,B, C and 1,2,3.  I finished my bottle, dropped it and then went to look for Mr. Bear.  I could not find him, so I did the next best thing. I started to cry.  Nana’s friend came out and asked “what’s the matter honey?”  I pulled nothing to me and she understood.  She replied “do you need Mr. Bear?”  I nodded yes and stopped crying.  She went back to the front hallway and came back with Mr. Bear and a soother.  The soother went straight into my mouth as Mr. Bear was given to me.  She also leaned down and picked up the empty bottle and returned to the kitchen.

Over the television I could hear sounds in the kitchen.  I think Nana and her friend had decided on supper and the evening.  They were chatting over the kitchen noises and I could hear one of them walk up and down the hallway.  I continued to hold Mr. Bear, suck on my pacifier and learn my ABCs.   One time Nana came in and checked up on me and then returned back to the kitchen.  A few minutes later the doorbell rang and Nana went to the door and I heard “Well Hello, you found us!”  Then a vaguely familiar voice replied and became louder as it was approaching me and said “Your instructions were easy and I am so looking forward to this.” 

I turned around and it was Kaylee!  Nana said “Do you remember Kaylee from the park?  She called and offered to be your babysitter for tonight.  Isn’t that wonderful?” I looked directly at Kaylee that bore the smile of a Cheshire cat and then to Nana who seemed to be genuinely pleased with the news.    I am just finishing up making dinner for him.  I will give you a quick tour and we can go over what needs to be done.  They left for the kitchen and then I could hear Nana giving instructions as I could hear footsteps going to my room.  It went quiet and then I could hear a door open and then they were talking and walking towards me.  “You treat him just like any other baby or toddler, you just have to be careful handling him since he is much bigger” Nana said to her as she approached my playpen.  “Baby, We are going out for the evening.  You do whatever Kaylee tells you to do.  When I come back I want to hear that you were a good boy.  Is that clear?” Nana instructed me in a very clear and stern voice.  I nodded yes.  “Okay, let’s get you ready for dinner” Nana said as she helped me out of the playpen.   I crawled after Nana as she led the way to the kitchen and Kaylee followed.  When we got to the high chair Kaylee helped me into the chair with some directions from Nana.  When Nana was satisfied that I was snapped in correctly she left and said “good-bye and be a good boy for Kaylee.”

 

 

“Well Baby, it is just you and me now.  Your Nana told me to treat you like an over-sized toddler, and I will, but I am sure we can do more.  Let’s see what’s for supper?” she said as she went to the kitchen counter and surveyed the fresh yellow mush cooling in a bowl for me and a plate with a piece of chicken and yellow and green things on the side.  She picked up the plate and the bowl and brought them to the table and said  “Baby your supper is still too hot, I will have mine while we let yours cool, we would not want you to burn your tongue now, would we?   She sat down across from me and started on her chicken.  I watched as she worked through her supper and would occasionally look from her meal to me.  She had a pleasant face framed by long blonde hair to her shoulders.  She was wearing a white top, faded torn jeans and the same sandals as I remember from before.  She stopped midway through the meal to test the temperature of the bowl of goop and then continued.  I watched intently as she finished her meal and then picked up the bowl and a spoon and pulled a chair beside me.  “Baby, it is dinner time for you!  Open up, here comes the airplane. Zoom.”  She said as she filled the spoon and pulled it up high in an arc and brought it down to my mouth.  She then scooped up some more goop and then said “Open up, here comes the train, choo choo.”  I barely tasted the goop, but it had chunks in it. I suspected we were sharing the same chicken and vegetable meal, just that hers looked more appetizing. She then scooped up another spoon and said “open up, here it comes.”  This went on for about a dozen times until the bowl was clean.  She then got up and took the bowl and her plate back to the kitchen counter and came back with a wash cloth and wiped done my face and then took off the bib.  She put the bib and washcloth away and then came back with a bottle and said “let’s get you down and then we can go play.” 

She got me out of the chair and I followed her to the living room.  She put the bottle on a corner table, flicked her sandals to the side and then sat down cross legged on the floor.  She motioned for me to sit across from her and said “Let’s play Pat-a-cake.  Up with your hands Baby.  Pat-a-cake, Pat-a-cake, bakers man, come on Baby”   I raised my mittened hands and vaguely remembered this game.  I put my hands up and down and mirrored Kaylee’s motions.  While I did not care for the lyrics I did enjoy the energy and enthusiasm from my baby sitter.  I was really missing my soother and stopped with the game and started to cry motioning to my mouth.  Kaylee thought I was thirsty so she stopped and sat on the sofa and patted her lap for me to come up.  I crawled up to her and positioned my head on her lap and watched as she picked up the bottle and started to feed me.  I started sucking and then she pulled me into her a little tighter.  We got into a rhythm where I was sucking the water from the bottle and she was patting my diaper.  This continued until I started to suck air and then she readjusted the bottle, but soon I was finished.  She sat me up and had me straddle her, but there was no towel to burp me.  She looked around and then she put my head on her shoulder facing out and began to burp me.  Some gas came up and then she seemed surprised as a bit of yellow goop found its way on her shoulder and her top.   I gave her a “Sowwy” and was concerned if I should have said anything as I was only a baby.  She pulled me back, took a look, and then pulled me in to give me a big hug and said “that’s okay baby, you couldn’t help it. Let’s find your soother.”  She let me slide back down on the floor and got up to get my soother and Mr. Bear and brought it back to me.  She let me sit on the floor as she went to the kitchen.

I could hear the tap run for a while and then she came back with a wet spot on the one side of her top.  She had washed the yellow goop off of her top.  She sat back down on the sofa and pondered what to do next as I watched her intently and then she asked “Is Baby still hungry.” I nodded no. 

“Let’s do some coloring” she declared as she got up to get two coloring books and some crayons and came back and set them on the coffee table in the room.  I crawled up to the coffee table and sat down on the floor beside her as she flattened out a coloring book and put a big blue crayon in my mitten. 

“Can we do this one together?  Do you want to color the ocean or the sky” she asked.  I nodded yes and mumbled “sky” through my soother as I set out to scribble blue in the sky part of the picture.  We worked closely together on the picture and I did my best to color the sky.  Kaylee did an awesome job of her coloring – it was so neat and the picture looked great when we were finished.  I could see that she fixed some of my going over the lines by coloring over the blue.  She pulled me in sideways to give a gentle squeeze and then held up the picture and said “Good job Baby!  Should we put it on the fridge for your Nana to see?” 

I felt a warmth and kindness from Kaylee that I just realized was missing in my life.  This confirmed that becoming an adult baby was the right thing to do.  I nodded yes and Kaylee got up and took the crayons and picture to the kitchen and she called out “Come Baby, you can show me where we should put the picture.”  I crawled into the kitchen and sat in front of the fridge and waited for Kaylee to take out the picture and get something to tape it onto the fridge door.    She came back with some tape and taped it high on the door, above my normal eye level and said “I am putting it up high so Nana sees it right away, Okay Baby boy.”  After she taped it she pulled me close to her and tousled my hair.  I then hugged her leg and gave it a kiss.   I felt warm and tingly and there was an awkward moment of silence which Kaylee broke by releasing her leg from my grip and then went back to the kitchen counter.  I stayed in place and watched her in awe as she prepared a bottle of adult baby formula.  She took the bottle and headed back to the living room and said “Come with me Baby boy.”

I followed her to the room and back to the sofa.  She sat down on the sofa and put the bottle on the end table.  I started to crawl to the sofa when she said “No Baby, I did not tell you to come up yet.  I understand that adult babies are to do whatever their mommies or their friends ask them.  Is the right?” I dreaded the question and the answer as I shook my head up and down in agreement.  “Your sole purpose in life is to please your mommy and her friends.  Is that right?”  she asked.  Again, I shook my head up and down becoming afraid of where this was going to lead me.  “Let’s see how good a baby you are.  Let’s see how well you suck. Suck my toes.” She commanded as she moved one foot up and forward to my face.  Like the soother, I continued to suck and looked up her honey tanned legs to her smiling face.  She was enjoying this!  It sucked it in harder so that my tongue was caressing the bottom of her toe.  “Oohhh, Baby.  That feels so good.  Do you like doing this? She asked of which there was only one answer as I nodded my head up and down.  She then put out the other foot and I released the one toe to suckle on the other.

 “Apart from having to change dirty diapers, I think my sorority would be happy to own a baby slave to worship and serve us.”  She said as she went to pick up her phone.  She took a picture of me sucking her toe and sent it somewhere.  A minute later she got a call and replied “Yes, he is real. Do want to come over and see for yourself? I will text you the address.”  I paused when I realized that now someone else would find out about me when I heard “Keep sucking Baby, no one told you that you could stop.”

 I continued to suckle on her toe and massage her ankle, the best I could, with hands in their mittens until we heard a light knock on the door.  Kaylee pulled her foot back and stood up and quickly went to the door leaving me sitting on the floor.  I heard some excited high pitch banter at the door and swiveled around to face the source of the noise.  Kaylee came with not one but two other young ladies that stopped mid way in their walk and talk when we made eye contact.  Then they put their hands to their mouths and there was a laugh and high pitched scream as they pointed at me.  There was nothing I could do but sit there as the three of them came over and filled the sofa.  There went my evening !

 Kaylee sat in the middle between her two friends and then lifted her foot back up to my face and said “show my friends how well you can suckle on my toe baby.”  I started to take in her big toe and continued to caress the bottom of her toe with my tongue and massage her ankle as I heard from her friends “that’s incredible.  No, that is hilarious!”  I looked up at Kaylee as the three of them engaged in an animated discussion about me and adult baby slave’s in general.  I saw one of the girls take off her shoes and socks and asked “Can I try?”  “Sure” Kaylee replied as she pulled her toe out of my mouth and repositioned her foot back on the floor. 

I saw a foot coming to me and repositioned myself to better serve my new benefactor.  Her feet were hot and it seemed like her toes were coated in something.  I held her foot and then started to suck on her big toe and then started to massage her ankle.  “I could get use to this.  We should contact the AB Occupational Integration Services and see if we can get a diaper maid for the Sorority.  We could arrange a special fee to cover the purchase and we could train him for cooking, cleaning and other duties.”  She then offered her other foot. I took in the other big toe as I started to massage her other ankle and calf.  The other girl replied “With fewer boys on campus we would also need him to entertain us with tricks.  Kaylee, can he do tricks?”  Kaylee replied “From what his Nana said he gets one day’s training to be dog.  This guy is old, he is almost forty, but they got this old dog to do some tricks.  Should we test him?”  The other girl replied “I like the idea of bossing around an older guy.  He had freedom, now he had given it up to be our slave or toy.  He is probably thinking he would have his way with us, ha!  I would have him castrated before that happens!”  I choked on her words when Kaylee instructed me “Aren’t you lucky you don’t belong to her.  Keep sucking.”  Kaylee picked up the soother and brought it to my face as the other young lady retracted her foot.  I took in the soother when the second young lady said “Beg for me Puppy.” I was confused and looked at Kaylee and then got on my knees and held my hands, with my mittens, out like they would have been puppy dog paws and tried to woof while holding in my soother.  The three girls laughed and one of them said “We got to check out AB Occupational Integration Services.”   “Come here baby” said the girl as she opened up her legs and patted her hand on her thigh.  I crawled between her legs and then rested my head on her leg as she gave my head a rub behind the ears and then pulled at my collar.  “What’s this, is this a dog shock collar?” she asked.  Kaylee replied “I think this is all part of his training.”  “Well this could be fun” replied the girl and then asked “Do you have the transmitter?”  Kaylee replied.  “No, the lady that is training him has it.  I think it is getting time that I have to get this baby ready for bed and brainwashing.   I will be awhile do you want to wait or we can connect later.”  The two young ladies decided that while they could tease me some more they would connect with Kaylee later to discuss getting one for their sorority and prepared to leave.    

After they said their goodbyes I followed Kaylee to my room and lay down on the change mat.  Kaylee unsnapped the onesie, removed my diaper and cleaned up the area and the powdered and taped me back up.  She put the used diaper and materials away and then came back with a pair of fireman pajamas.  She helped me put on the pajamas and then held me tight in her arms as she looked over to the cradle.   “Would baby like Kaylee to feed him here or in the cradle?” she asked.  I hugged her tight.  “Let’s get you ready for your last feeding today” she said as she let go of me and then repositioned herself to sit on the floor leaning against the wall.  I crawled up to her and lay my head down on her lap as she pulled me in and gave me my bottle of adult baby formula.  I got into the sucking rhythm as she looked down and pulled me in tighter to her chest and rubbed my back.  All was good in the world until I started to suck some air.  She then took the bottle from me and with the other hand pulled my head up a little more as she then pulled up the bottom of her top to expose the one breast.  A bit of skillful positioning and I quickly latched on and started to suck.  This was different that a soother, but had the same nutritional results.  She was moving around so it took some effort to continue to be latched on and not bite her.  After a few minutes a finger came down into my mouth and released the seal.  She pulled me back and then repositioned me for the other breast.  I looked up into a warm face and then closed my eyes and continued to suck as I felt her support me and stroke my head and neck.  This was bliss that could continue forever until I heard “Baby, I need to get you into your cradle.”  All good things must come to an end and this was the best ending for my day.   Kaylee helped me in the cradle, snapped in my ankles and mittens and gave me Mr. Bear and a soother.  She then got up, turned on the hypnosis track and blew me a kiss as she closed the door and left the light on as I heard “I love my diapers …”

[tbaabaa]

It was a fitful night as I was starting to fall asleep, or I may have been asleep, the shock collar would wake me up to the light and the hypnosis track.  I really did want to be a baby, a good boy, I loved my mommy, I loved my diapers, I wanted to fill my diapers for mommy.  I felt tired and I felt my mind was turning into mush.  I loved mush, I loved my mommy and I wanted to be a good boy for mommy so I would love to eat my mush for my mommy.  The night seemed very long and I felt very tired when Nana breezed into my room holding a bottle and greeted me with “Good Morning Baby.  I hear you were you a good boy for Kaylee last night.”  I could barely remember last night, but I nodded yes.  Nana unclipped my mittens and then clipped them together and placed the bottle between them with the instructions of “be a good boy and finish your bottle and Nana will come back later to get you ready for another exciting day!”  With that, she breezed out just as easily as she breezed in, leaving me to suck my bottle and continue to listen to my hypnosis tapes.

Nana came back into my room and turned off the rocking of the cradle and the hypnosis track.  “Goo-goo Nana” I said with the empty bottle in my mouth.  She asked rhetorically “how is my big baby today?” as she took my bottle and then unclipped my ankles and then lowered my feet onto the floor and pulled me up and out of the cradle.  I pulled my mitten to my face and wanted to suck.  She solved that problem by giving me my soother.  I could not help it anymore I always need to have my mouth filled with a soother or something.  “Follow me Baby” Nana commanded. 

I followed her out of my room down the hallway into the bathroom.  I had not been here before.  She had my lie on the floor and then unsnapped my fireman pajamas and then started to undo the diaper tapes.  She quickly undid the diaper, rolled it up and set it aside.  She had the bathtub partially filled with soapy water.  She then took of my ankle cuffs and then my mittens and had me crawl into the tub.  When I was settled in the big tub she started to wash me down.  She then put some soap in her hand and started to knead it into my hair.  She then turned on the tap and used a small bucket to rinse my hair.  She took out two towels and set one on the floor and held the other in her hand and asked me to step out.  She dried each part of me as it left the tub and landed on the towel on the floor.  Finally when I was dried she instructed me toI to lay on the floor and then she started to put on a new diaper for me.  She then pulled a new onesie over my head and then had me lay down again so she could snap up the onesie and then she secured my mittens back on my hands and then started to put the ankle cuffs back on.  I got up on all fours and waited for Nana to pick up the towel and then she commanded “come.”  I crawled after her out the door and to the kitchen. 

It was quiet today; Nana’s friend was not here and while I could smell coffee there was no bacon and eggs.  Once I approached the high chair Nana helped me up and snapped me in.  Nana then went to the kitchen counter and scooped out the oatmeal mush in a plastic bowl and some yogurt and fruit in a glass bowl.  She then brought both bowls and set them on the table.  I sucked on my soother as I watched my bowl cool and Nana enjoy her yogurt and fruit.  She looked up and asked “do you want some Baby?”  I never had yogurt before and was not interested in trying it now and said nothing.  “Don’t worry baby, you will get to try some.” She replied.  She finished most of her breakfast and then pulled her chair up to my high chair and removed my soother and picked up the oatmeal and a wooden spoon.  She loaded up the spoon and said “Open up, here it comes.”  After the first mouthful she took her bowl and scraped the remaining yogurt into my bowl and then loaded the mix onto the wooden spoon.  She then raised the spoon up and said “Open wide, here it comes, yum yum yum.”  The spoon with the mix came in.  Frankly I could not tell what I was eating since it was all bland and indistinguishable mush.  This continued until Nana had cleaned my bowl and announced “what a good boy.”  After my feeding my thumb went instinctively to my mouth, but the mitten was in the way.  Nana saw this and replaced my mitten with my soother.  She then helped me down from the high chair and led me to the Christmas living room with the tree and the packages and the playpen.   

Today seemed like it would be a mindless repeat of yesterday.  I was going into my playpen with Mr. Bear and a bottle and I would watch a children’s show to learn my 1,2,3.  I felt very tired from my restless night and after finishing my bottle was starting to nod off, when I felt a buzz on my neck.  It startled me awake and I continued to learn about 1,2,3, but soon the battle over staying awake would be lost.  “Ah” I cried as I got shock to my neck. It really hurt and I think I peed my diaper.  I woke up and remembered I was in the playpen and could hear the kid’s program.  How do I stay wake.  Then I remembered the pleasurable friction.  I would hold Mr. Bear tight and listen to my program and move my legs around to create the rubbing in my diaper area.  That felt good.  From the outside I am sure that it looked like I was becoming a real infant.  I released some more pee that helped expand my diaper and improve the friction and then I felt then need to release my mush from yesterday or maybe today.  That was not pleasant, but it did change the dynamics of the friction!  I don’t know what Nana was doing and in one sense it did not matter - I was doing what a baby was doing and that should make her happy.  I continued with the friction when my penis needed to adjust itself to the friction in my diaper.  It was expanding.  I was now very awake and continued to move my legs around and added the occasional goo goo.  Nana came out of the kitchen and checked in on me.  I was moving my legs, holding Mr. Bear and saying “goo goo.”  She seemed pleased, pulled out her phone and took a picture or a video and then returned to the kitchen.  I continued mindlessly making friction until something changed I started to tense up, but I had to do more.  I was in ecstasy as I made a number #3 in my diapee!  After things calmed down I was not interested in friction any more.  I felt the mush in the back of my diaper and no longer liked it.  I got on my knees and peered out of my playpen to the kitchen and called out “Nana.”  She came and said “what is it sweetie?”  I pouted and pointed to my diaper.  “Do you want to get changed?  She asked.  I nodded yes.  “Well that is too bad.  You can learn to sit in it a little longer and enjoy the sensations of being a baby in a full diaper.  I will get you cleaned up when I am ready.” She replied.  I kept kneeling and held Mr. Bear tight as I watched the kid’s show, but that was of no interest so I laid back down on the playpen and moved around a bit to create more friction.  It started to feel good, but it was harder to get the same sensation.  I felt tired and moved my legs to keep the basic sensation going, but it was not as exciting and it was hard to keep awake. 

Eventually Nana came back to check up on me.  She helped me out of the playpen and asked me to follow her to the kitchen.  I followed her to the high chair and she helped me up.  It was squishy as I sat on the hard bottom of the chair.  I adjusted myself as she snapped me in and brought lunch over to the table.  I watched as she helped herself to soup and a sandwich.  After she was finished her lunch she pulled up her chair to me and fed me my soup.  The feeding went without any incident as I was waiting to get out and get cleaned up.  Nana put the bowl on the table and then helped me down to the floor.  I followed her to my room.  She went straight to the cradle and asked me to get in.  I cried which prompted “Stop your crying or I will give you something to cry about!” I then got a shock to my neck.  I guess I am not getting changed now!  She snapped my wrists and mittens into the cradle and gave me my soother.  “You will get cleaned up after your nap” she declared.  She turned on the hypnosis tape, but turned off the light to my room so I had a chance to take a nap.  I barely heard “I love my diapers” when I fell asleep.

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I think I was dreaming of my new home with my new mommy and sisters.  The sisters were shrieking in laughter when I awoke with the light on in my room.  There was Nana, Kaylee and one of her friends shrieking in laughter.  It was not a dream I awoke feeling cramped and my diaper area was uncomfortable, but Nana said it would be changed so I could look forward to that!  Nana said “if you want to buy one for your sorority you need to be aware of the downside of having one” she said.  The cradle and the hypnosis was off so they came to unsnap me from the cradle and help onto the floor.  Kaylee set out the change blanket and Nana got the diaper and supplies.  It looked like Kaylee’s friend was going to do the honors of cleaning up the mess.  After I laid down she unsnapped my onesie and rolled it up to my tummy.  She then untapped my diaper and let the front down when everyone stepped back with a collective whew!  Nana interjected with “this is about as bad as it gets, but this is what you get!”   The girl cleaned the front of my diaper area and then needed to clean the back.  Kaylee held my legs over my head so her friend to clean my backside.  Nana did an inspection and mentioned “if they are in their diaper mess for too long then they can get diaper rash.  We don’t want that unless you want to inflict a severe punishment.”  Nana approved the cleaning and they put a clean diaper under me, powdered me and then taped me up.   Kaylee’s friend then pulled down the onesie to snap it up when Kaylee asked “Should we dress him up for his adventure?”  Nana responded “What a good idea! Do you have anything in mind?”  Kaylee and her friend sat me up and then pulled the onesie off as Nana looked at outfits in the closet and started to enumerate some options “There is a princess, sailor boy, construction worker,  …” Kaylee replied since we are going to beach let’s dress him up like a little sailor boy.”  Nana pulled the sailor boy outfit from the closet and came over to the change mat.  There was no point in objecting to what I was going to wear or where I was going to wear it as Kaylee and her friend wasted no time in getting me outfitted as a toddler sailor.   “Okay, Baby follow me.  We are going to have some fun! “ Kaylee said as Nana, Kaylee left my room and Kaylee’s friend followed me as I crawled after them.  I crawled to front area by the outside door and saw a pile of stuff on the floor.  There was a cooler, diaper bag, the beach chairs, a beach umbrella and the stroller folded in a pile.  Nana said “Kaylee had a great idea of going to the beach today while we still have a few days of summer.  What better way for you to be trained as a baby in public.”  Nana opened the front door and Kaylee and her friend picked up the various items and took them outside and then returned until the pile was gone.  It was time for me to crawl outside and I discovered  a white SUV in the driveway.  Kaylee open the rear door and came back with her friend.  The two of them picked me up and carried me to the back of the car and snapped me in.  Kaylee checked that the child protection lock was turned on for the door and then closed the door.  Kaylee’s friend got in the back seat beside me and Nana locked the door to her house and got into the passenger seat.  I was afraid and started to suck on my soother vigorously.  As we pulled out of the driveway I realized I had no idea where we were.  What beach could we be going to?  We stopped at the corner with the corner store and then made a left turn.  Then Kaylee’s friend distracted me with a song and actions of the itsy bitsy spider.  I don’t remember how much time had passed but the next thing I know we had pulled into a parking lot and I heard the sounds of lots of people and the remark from Kaylee “What a great day to be at the beach!”  Nana, Kaylee and her friend opened their doors and the back of the SUV and started to unpack and take the stuff to their new beach location.  When I heard the trunk close someone opened my door and the stroller was waiting for me.  Kaylee unsnapped me and helped me out of the SUV and into the stroller as her friend watched from behind her.  After a quick once over Kaylee unlocked the stroller wheels and started to pull the stroller out and across the parking lot to a paved trail along the beach.  I was apprehensive as to who would see me and how they would react, but nobody seemed to care – they were all doing their own thing.  Then we rolled up to the edge of the beach area where Nana was standing and not too far was the beach umbrella all set up.  They rolled the stroller to the edge of the sand and then Kaylee said “Okay Baby, out!”  Kaylee unsnapped me from the stroller and helped me out onto the sand and then I followed her and her friend to the beach umbrella while Nana pulled the stroller behind her.  There were two beach chairs under the umbrella and some blankets in front of them on the sand.  We got under the shade of the umbrella where Kaylee and her friend took off their shirts and shorts to reveal their bikini bodies.  Nana pulled out the sunscreen and they started to apply it to each other.  When Kaylee was done she came over to me and started putting it on my face, neck, arms and legs.  Then Nana put some on herself.  When everyone was ready Nana sat down on the beach chair and pulled up a magazine while the two girls pulled out a beach bag and went to the blankets.  Kaylee said “come here baby.”  I crawled over to her and her friend in a spot between the blankets.  They were standing by the blankets and then dumped the beach toys out of the bag onto the sand.  “Okay buddy you get to play with the sand” Kaylee said as she and her friend lay down on their blankets to work on their tan.   The toys included a shovel, bucket and a star fish mold.  They undid their bra straps and let them slide off their backs and then turned their faces to each other to chat.  They could also watch me as I tried to figure out what to do with my tools and the sand.

I took the shovel and loaded sand into the bucket.  Then I poured the bucket of sand into the starfish mould and flipped it onto the sand.  Not too impressive.  So I cleared a clean flat area of the sand and then started again.  That looked better, but then I thought I could make a small and castle.  I continued to fill the bucket and dump it to make a sand wall.  The girls looked to me and saw that I was busy being a good baby and made some comment between themselves about the baby.   This went on for some time when the girls decided they needed to turn over.  As Kaylee’s friend turned over she remarked “that looks good sweetie.”  As Kaylee turned over and sat up she pulled one side up of her bikini top as she adjusted it and gave me a wink.  I looked down to the sand and went back to work on my castle.  Time went by and all I could say is that my sand castle building skills needed improvement.  I did the best I could and when it was time for Kaylee and her friend to get out of the sun they got up and praised the feeble work I did just like you would praise a toddler for scribbling on a drawing.  They pulled me under the shade of the umbrella where Nana had bottles of water for me and the girls.  Kaylee and her friend took a beach chair and then her friend took my bottle and motioned for me to come to her to get fed.  Nana watched as I crawled up to her and settled my head in her lap.  She took my soother and placed it beside her and then positioned the bottle for me to suck.  Nana commented “pull him in a bit more.  It is like giving him a hug on your lap.  He will not bite.”  The girl pulled me in and then started to stroke my head as I sucked the bottle and was resting my head on her warm skin.  This was the good part of being a baby.   I started to suck air, so it was time to be burped.  Kaylee brought over a small towel and put it on her friend’s shoulder as she pulled me up, put my head on her shoulder and started to burp me.  “We don’t want our baby to be dehydrated since he was out in the sun, do you want to give him another bottle?” Nana asked.  Kaylee pulled another bottle from the cooler and handed it to her friend after she got me settled back down on her lap.  She then teased my lips with the nipple of the bottle and I started to suck.  I got back into the rhythm as the three of them chatted about taking care of an adult baby and the prospects of keeping one for a long time.  Between the sun earlier and the resting in this wonderful lap I closed my eyes and continued to suck my bottle as the ladies continued their conversation.  I don’t remember falling asleep, but I do remember being woken up and quizzed if I had a good nap.  I was feeling quite drowsy as I was pulled up and put into a sitting position on the lounging chair between her legs.  Kaylee’s friend picked up my soother, gave it a quick cleaning suck and then stuck it back in my mouth, and I continued to suck.   I don’t know how long I had been out, but they were now chatting about going out for dinner.  Kaylee had already had her shorts and top back on and I think her friend woke me up so she could do the same.  Kaylee came over as her friend got up and took her place in the chair and then pulled me into her.  She gave me a squeeze and then asked “Do you like your time at the beach Sailor Boy?”  I nodded yes.  I guess we had spent four hours or more on the beach and they were discussing packing up and going for dinner.  Kaylee’s friend picked up the beach towels and shook out the sand and folded them.  Then she picked up my toys and put them into the bag.  Nana started to pick up things around the umbrella and then Kaylee had me get on the sand and follow her to the stroller.  I crawled into the stroller and Kaylee snapped me in and then her friend came with her hands full of bags and they pushed me back to the SUV.  Kaylee opened the SUV and it was hot like an oven.  It had been baking in the sun.  The parking lot was hot as well.  They locked the stroller and started to pack the SUV.  Kaylee’s friend went back as Kaylee started the car and opened my door.  The  air conditioning was blasting away as she helped me into my seat and snapped me in.  She closed the door and collapsed my stroller as her friend and Nana came with the umbrella, chairs and remaining items.   They packed everything in the back and then they all got into the vehicle.  As Kaylee pulled out they discussed directions to Salty’s Fish & Chips.  I had no idea where I was so I took in the surroundings until we arrived in the parking lot at Salty’s.  The ladies exited the car and pulled out the stroller.  Kaylee helped me out of my seat and into the stroller.  This was intense.  I was afraid of being discovered but remembered that I don’t even know where I was and likely no one would know me.  Did it even matter? The ladies pushed my stroller to the entrance of the dining establishment where they had take out or dine in.  Salty’s was a family restaurant where they met with a hostess and asked for a table of four and a kids menu.  She took them to a table and commented that my sailor outfit fit the theme of the restaurant while she set out some crayons and a paper placemat that I could color.   There was some debate if I should stay in the stroller or be seated at the table.  I was too big for their kids chairs so they pulled me up into the booth.  I was tucked into the corner and Kaylee kept me hemmed in.  Nana got up to use the washroom and asked Kaylee to order for her.  The waitress came by and commented on my sailor suit and asked if everyone was ready to order.  Kaylee ordered three fish and chip meals with water and a kid’s fish and chip meal with apple juice for me.  Kaylee then helped me with the crayons and coloring.   After Nana returned Kaylee and her friend used the ladies room.  Nana commented to me “You have been a very good boy.  I can see you are adjusting well to your new life.”  The girls returned just in time for the waitress to bring the meals.  The meals were set down and they began; however, I could barely hold a French fry or grab the apple juice with my mittens.     Nana pulled an empty baby bottle from my diaper bag and handed it to Kaylee.  She filled it with the apple juice and then placed it between my mittens so I could drink the juice.  They continued chatting and eating while I took a swig of juice, but I was hungry.  Nana asked for my plate and Kaylee gave it to her.  Nana then cut the fish into small pieces and returned the plate to Kaylee.  Nana then asked me “If we take off your mittens will you be a good boy and eat your dinner nicely?”  I nodded yes and held out my mittens.  Nana then unbuckled and removed my mittens.  Freedom, I had the freedom to pick up a piece of fish and put it in my mouth like a big boy. I had the freedom to pick up a French fry and dip it in the ketchup on my plate and bite off half of it.  Kaylee’s friend seemed quite amused to watch me pick up a piece and put it in my mouth and commented to Kaylee.  The two of them then discussed whether they wanted their sorority to buy an adult baby and the amount of work to keep one.  Eventually they would potty train and train their baby to be their maid or slave.  They were making plans of buying an adult baby and having their sorority pledges clean up after their baby until he could do their work.  They thought it would be a good long term investment to buy someone like me.  They had their meal while I was still working on mine.  The waitress came by and asked if everyone was finished and if they wanted desert.  The dishes were cleared and my left over dinner came back in a small box to take home.  They settled the bill and I was told my desert was waiting for me at home. 

I was helped back into the stroller and pushed outside the restaurant to the car.  There I was helped into my seat and snapped in place.  The stroller was collapsed and placed in the back and the ladies all got into their place.   Kaylee pulled out of the parking lot and we headed back home without any incident.  It was getting dark and my eyelids were starting to get tired. I was sucking on my soother but I think they noticed that my eyelids were getting lower and lower as the sucking was slowing down.   I think I heard Nana them to let me nap until we get home.   What I remember next was we were in the drive way and the sound of doors closing and the hatchback to the SUV close.  The stroller was waiting for me as Nana opened my door and helped me into it.  The girls were packing the stuff from the SUV inside the house as Nana negotiated the step and rolled me straight into my room.  She locked the stroller and then went out to chat with Kaylee and her friend and then came back with a bottle.  I heard the front door close as Nana helped me out of the stroller onto the change mat.   

“What a busy day you had today Baby boy, you made a big impression to those girls.  Kaylee and her friends like you so much that they want to buy a baby just like you.  What a good boy you were.  Tonight after I get you changed I will give you another bottle, but this time it will be a chocolate formula.  Do you like that?  Of course you do.”  Nana continued with this dialogue as she unsnapped my sailor outfit and then undid the tapes to my diaper.  I was wet but not messy so she made quick work of the clean up and a new diaper.  Finally she pulled out a white onesie and pulled it over my head and then had me lie down again so she could snap me up.  She then helped me into the cradle and snapped in my ankles and then got a new pair of mittens for me to wear.  After they were secured together she snapped one mitten to the cradle so I could hold my bottle but not move my hands too much.  I started to suck on my bottle as Nana cleaned up the room and then started to wheel out the stroller.  As she reached the door she turned on the cradle and hypnosis tapes and closed the door.  I was left in the cradle rocking back and forth, sucking my bottle, with the light left on, reflecting on all the events of the day as the voice came on “I am an adult baby.  All I want to be is an adult baby.  I love my diapers …”

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I woke up snapped into my cradle that was rocking side to side to Nana wearing a bathrobe and holding a bottle as she asked “How is my little one today?”  I must have fallen asleep even though the light was left on and the hypnosis tape was running.   I immediately felt at a loss as I did not have my soother in my mouth.  I needed something and I was about to cry when I saw the bottle so I said “Num-Num.”  Nana placed the nipple of the bottle in my mouth and positioned it between my mittens and said “I will come back for you later. I need to get ready.”   I sucked away and then noticed my diaper was wet.  I didn’t remember anything about last night, but I am sure I was doing something.  It was all a fog.  I do remember loving the fact that I was now a baby, I could fill my diapers, suck my soother and I didn’t have to worry about a thing.  I felt love towards anyone that would take care of me.  I loved Nana and I loved Kaylee.  I wanted to give someone a hug and then I realized I was missing Mr. Bear.  All of a sudden I felt a great loss.  Where was Mr. Bear?  Before I realized it I was starting to cry, but I wanted to finish my bottle.  I continued to suck and cried between sucking my bottle.  Once the bottle I wanted to drop it but I needed the nipple in my mouth.  So I continued to cry harder until Nana came.

 She then came to the cradle and asked “What’s the matter baby?”  Do you need a soother?”  She pulled out a soother and took the bottle and put it in my mouth.  I stopped for a minute to adjust the soother and then started to cry again with a hugging motion.  She started to unsnap my ankles and then removed my mittens and then pulled me to the floor.  She then asked “does Baby need a hug?” and pulled me up and gave me a hug.  I settled down a bit and then motioned a hug tight to me.  I think she understood “are you missing Mr. Bear?”  I nodded yes.  “We will get you Mr. Bear once we get you all cleaned up.  You really a baby aren’t you?” she asked rhetorically as she patted for me to lie down on the blanket and then started to unsnap my onesie.  She pulled me up so she could pull the onesie off over my head.  Now I was just wearing my diaper and collar.  “Come with me. ” she said as I crawled after her hoping that my diaper would stay on as I felt some pleasurable friction as she led me to the bathroom and turned on the tap for the bathtub.  She had me lie down on the floor and untapped my diaper.  It was just very heavy and wet.  She pulled the diaper off and had me crawl into the bathtub as she turned off the tap and added some soap and began to wash me down.  When I got out she started to towel dry me and then picked up a few things from the counter and directed me to follow her back to my room. 

We returned to the change mat where she had me lie down and then she powdered and diapered me.   “Kaylee called and asked if you wanted to help her with her back to school shopping.” Nana said and then replied with “Of course we knew you would want to help her.  Today we are going to make it a girls day out and we need to start early to get a good head start.”  I am going to put this white Onesie on you and then we will finish getting ready after breakfast.  She pulled me up and threaded the onesie through my head and arms and then had me lie down so she could snap it up.  She then got up and had me follow her to the kitchen.  When I got to the high chair she helped me up and then snapped me in.  Breakfast was yogurt, fruit and coffee for Nana and Oatmeal for me; however, I noticed that the Oatmeal had a slight fishy taste and then realized that last night’s left over was part of my breakfast.  I finished my breakfast with as little fuss as possible after I realized what I was treated to.  Nana cleared the dishes, wiped my face then had me crawl back to my room when I noticed the stroller was waiting for me by the front door. 

I lay down on the change mat when Nana pulled out lots of clothes.  She had me lift each foot and then snapped on my ankle cuffs.  She then slipped a purple with white ruffles rumba pants over the onesie and diaper.  Then she had me sit up and put my hands up as she pulled a white ruffled purple dress over me.  I was in shock and then she asked me to suck it in as she pulled the laces in tight and tied the matching bow behind me.  It was like a corset type dress.  My hair was not that long but she arranged a matching purple head piece that gave the illusion, from what I could see in the mirror, of a really a big baby girl.  I was in shock!  I was sucking my soother and then needed Mr. Bear.  She replied “That is enough of admiring yourself Baby.  We need to get you finished before Kaylee comes.”  She then helped me put on my mittens and then gave me Mr. Bear to comfort myself.  I then followed her out of the room when we heard a knock at the front door.  Nana walked quickly, leaving me behind, to get the door.  Then I heard Kaylee’s voice as she came up the hallway and put her hand to her mouth and in a high pitched voice said “Oh, Isn’t she adorable.  That’s amazing!”  I felt hot as my face flushed red and buried it into Mr. Bear.  This whole exercise was to humiliate me in front of Kaylee and it worked!  Nana said “Come on Baby let’s get you ready for a busy day of shopping.”  I crawled to Nana and Kaylee and stopped at the stroller.  Kaylee snapped me into the stroller and then grabbed my cheek and gave it a tug saying “Look at you, aren’t you just the cutest thing.”  Nana had to get a few more things before we went on our shopping trip.  She then navigated the stroller outside to the SUV where her friend from yesterday was waiting by my open door.  They helped me into my seat and buckled me in and then closed the door.  Kaylee’s friend then collapsed the stroller and placed it in the back and then joined me in the back seat as Nana came out with a large diaper bag and her purse.   After Nana put the diaper bag in the back she joined Kaylee in the front of the SUV.  Kaylee pulled the SUV out of the driveway and we headed to the shopping mall for a day of shopping.

I could never understand the fun and fascination that the female species held for retail therapy.  They seemed to enjoy the thrill of the hunt of finding just the right thing or getting a bargain on their third pair of shoes.  Half of the time they did not buy anything; they were engaged in looking and imagining the possibilities of what could be.  By now I learned I had no choice in the matter and any complaint about my dress or location would land me with a very sore bottom and doing whatever anyways.  I was resigned to the fact that they were going to push me around in public in my stroller as they engaged in their retail sport.  We pulled into the parking lot of the mall and they got me out of me seat and into the stroller as they had an animated conversation of their needs for back to school.  They decided that their first stop would be Toy’s R Us.  That was hardly what I thought would be a priority for Kaylee or her friend for back to school, but I found out quickly that they were really thinking about me.   Nana had placed the diaper bag in the bottom of the stroller and they headed to the main entrance of the mall.  Once inside I was wheeled through the mall with a pit stop at the food court.  The ladies ordered their latte’s and gave me a bottle of water to suck and then headed to Toy’s R Us.  I did my best to hide well in the back of the stroller as they came through the store.  They headed over to the dolls section and then started pulling down and comparing various dolls.  I was not aware there were so many factors in choosing a doll until they had agreed on the Adora Adoption Baby boy doll.  They felt this would be the best doll for a baby like me.  There were no parts to choke on and it could be seated and stay up or held by me and it would last a lifetime.  They agreed on the purchase and I was rolled through the checkout as Kaylee purchased the doll and then tucked it under the stroller.  Now it was time for some serious shopping!

While I was wheeled through the mall my field of vision was restricted by the canopy of the stroller to most people’s waists and thighs.  We rolled up to a shoe store and then rolled in.  The ladies sat down and tried on various shoes.  Showing them off to each other and commenting on how it would fit and look.  I had finished my bottle and Nana checked in on me and replaced the empty bottle with a soother and then continued with the two girls.  From their interaction it looked like they had all become good friends.  I lost count on how many shoes they tried but they seemed to have settled on something for Kaylee when she indicated to the clerk that she would buy a pair.  The clerk boxed them up and took the credit card and then came back.  I could hear her ask about the big baby in the stroller.  I heard “He lost a bet!”  The next thing I know a face came down into my field of vision.  She peered at me and seemed curious as I continued to suck on my pacifier and hold Mr. Bear and then she broke out in laughter.  She got up and then they engaged in more banter between the four of them until I felt the stroller being pushed and a chorus of good-byes.  Kaylee put her purchase on top of the canopy of the stroller as we then went to the next store.  The girls spent considerable time picking through clothes on racks while Nana found a seat and pulled the stroller beside her.  She then moved the stroller a few inches forward and then back.  She did this for awhile, it was like a rocking motion until the girls came back with their arms full of clothes.  They showed their selections to Nana and then said they would go and try them on.  I just sat there watching my field of vision change by six inches or so.  I was boring and I was feeling tired.  Kaylee came back wearing a denim skirt and white top and asked “What do you think?”  Nana thought it looked good.  Kaylee agreed and decided to purchase it.  Her friend came out and showed off her outfit and also decided to buy it.  Nana wheeled me to the front check out where the two girls were completing their purchase.  As we exited the store they put their bags on the canopy of the stroller.  I was thankful for this.  I thought it made it look like they were using the stroller to pack all their purchases and they would ignore the big baby inside.  I was not so lucky.  As we left the store to go to the next one I heard in the distance someone calling out “Kaylee, Kaylee.”  We stopped and I could see Kaylee’s waist and legs turn in the direction of the voice.  The voice got louder and I could hear footsteps until I heard “Good to see, are you getting ready to go back to campus?”   “Yes, we just started.” Kaylee replied as she pulled a bag off the top of the stroller and pulled out the contents to show to this new person.  “Take a look at this” she said.  “Wow, that’s great and who is your friend?”  Kaylee replied “Susan I would like you to meet Nana.  Her real name is (whisper) but we call her Nana around the baby.”  “I was going to ask you about that.  Who do we have here?” she asked as she crouched down to stare directly at me.  Nana replied “he is going to be someone’s new Baby soon.  His new mommy will give him a name.  Right now he is getting use to his new role.  Kaylee met us at the park and is helping him learn his new place in society.”  Kaylee then responded “Yeah, my dad is upset that I can boss around and treat a man that is almost twice my age as a baby.”  “Really” Susan replied as her hand went to grab and pull my cheek.  “Look at you.  A big prissy baby.”  She said and then got back up to continue her chat with the adults.  I was left back in my spot sucking my soother, holding Mr. Bear and contemplating my new and accepted position in society.  I was just an object.  They did not care how I felt or what I thought I was their possession to be passed around and played with as they desired.  I was still adjusting to my new role.  I felt the dribble in my diaper and the expanding gel in the front as the ladies finished their conversation with a series of good bye and stay in touch messages. 

I then felt the stroller move forward and Kaylee put the bag back on the top.  I thought we were going into a drug store but it smelled of perfume.  My stroller was pushed to a cosmetics counter and the ladies engaged with the person behind the counter about trying a new line of make-up.  The cosmetician offered to do Kaylee and her friend’s make-up.  A second lady came to work on Kaylee’s friend’s make-up as Nana watched and rocked my stroller back and forth.  After what seemed to be a long time they looked in the mirror and commented on how good they looked with the magic mixtures and potions.  As for me I loved the natural way that Kaylee looked, but they were not interested in my opinion.  They looked to Nana for approval and then they took notice of me.  I did my best to hide, but I had made brief eye contact with Kaylee’s cosmetician.  She asked “What happened here?”  “He lost a bet” Kaylee replied and then asked “I will buy the package, but would you like to fix him up?”  “Sure” she said as Kaylee and Nana removed the bags from the top of the stroller and pulled the canopy back so I had full view of the store and the store had full view of me.  “My aren’t you a big prissy baby” the lady said as she pulled her mixtures around the counter close to me.  “Now we either need to get him up on that chair or I need to get a chair to do his make up in the stroller.” She stated.  Kaylee got off her stool and started at once to unsnap me.  Nana said “You will have to support him in the chair as the formula has been weakening his muscles.”  Kaylee and her friend got me out of the stroller and put me on the stool.  They then spent time straightening out my dress and then held me in place as the cosmetician started to apply the base.  She then continued to explain about the base and the other things she was putting on me.  When she was done they faced me to the mirror and I was in complete shock.  My pacifier fell out as I could not process what had happened.  Then I was starting to get anxious as I had nothing to suck.  Kaylee stuck her finger in my mouth, which I started to suck as her friend picked up the pacifier and gave it a quick cleaning suck and stuck it back in my mouth.  My anxiety was still there, but now I could focus it by sucking on my soother.  When I saw myself sucking and my fake red cheeks and highlighted eyes I realized that I was a doll for them to play with.  Kaylee gave me a sideways hug and said “You look great Baby.  You are just like a big doll.”  Kaylee and her friend then took me down from the stool and strapped me back into the stroller.   The cosmetician pulled out her phone and asked “Do you mind?”  Nana said “No, but don’t post it on social media.”  I was relieved that our adventure at the cosmetic counter was over. They pulled the canopy back over me and then Nana pushed me through some of the aisles in the drug store as the girls were getting their supplies.   Mercifully, Nana pushed me out of the store as the girls were paying for their purchases.  When they met outside the store they decided they would do one more store before heading to the food court.

We went to the next store and I dribbled a bit more in my diaper.  I didn’t think it was noticeable.  The girls were picking out more clothes as Nana and I watched them take their selections to the change room.  I felt a slight rumble in my tummy.  Unlike yesterday I could not move my legs very much.  I was not going to create any friction, but I also was going to need to push hard if I needed to empty myself.  I just sat there and would let things exit when it was time with no pressure.   The girls had decided not to buy anything at this store, but it gave them some ideas and they would order what they needed online tonight.  We left the store and headed back to the food court.

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Nana found an empty table and parked my stroller in front of the table as the girls went to forage for some food.  Nana pulled out a package, a bowl, a spoon, and a bottle and set it on the table.  She then took the packages off of the canopy of the stroller and set it on a spare chair.  The girls came back with lunch for three and extra water and set the lunch on the table.  Nana took the water and mixed it with the package in the bowl as the girls started to unwrap their lunches.  Nana let my mixture sit for a few minutes as the three ladies indulged in their lunch.  They chatted about what they bought, what else they needed to get, and what stores they still needed to visit.  After Nana finished her lunch she pivoted around to me and started to feed me.  The first scoop was weird.  It was an orange tasting runny mush.  It was too thick, like a milkshake, to drink through my bottle, yet it was very thin compared to my oatmeal.   I took it and Nana waited patiently for me to process it.  She then had the next scoop ready.  Nana continued to feed me as the girls were engaged with their phones.  Once I was finished Nana wiped down my face, gave me my bottle and packed up the bowl and spoon as the girls put the remnants of lunch on a tray.  Then Nana pulled the canopy over me again and loaded it up with the purchases as the girls got up to dispose of the trash.  We made our way from the food court to the next store. 

We entered another clothing store and Nana parked my stroller in front of some mirrors where women could show off the clothes and sat down beside me.  The girls went and collected some clothes to try on.  I made to mistake of looking at the mirror and seeing myself in the stroller – how pathetic, but I chose this.  Ignored the baby in the mirror and focused on finishing my bottle.  I dribbled a bit more in my diaper and felt some pressure in the back.  Some gas escape and I felt relief.  The girls came back showing us want they liked.  The three of them discussed how the clothes would work in the fall and the agreed it was a good purchase.  The girls went back to the change room as Nana got up and pushed my stroller out the store into the mall.  Across from the store was a children’s play area.  When the girls came out from the store they headed to my stroller and pointed out “Hey Baby, there is a play area.  Time for you to come out and stretch for a bit since you have been in your stroller most of the time.”  Nana pushed the stroller towards the play area and then the girls locked it in place.  They set aside the purchases from the top of the canopy so they could help me out of the stroller.  As they pulled me out I thought I could see heads turn in their direction and some gasps.  At the same time there was nothing holding anything in and I felt relief as I filled my pants.  After that relief I gave an extra little push.  I felt the back of my diaper expand and I think those close by could smell it as well.  I think Kaylee’s friend was the first to notice and declared for all to hear nearby “OMG, He filled his diaper!”  At that moment the girls stopped helping me up and then let me fall back down into the stroller.  I felt a squish of the crap go up my backside and caress my balls.  Next came the ensuing stink to confirm to everyone what had happened.  I already had pink cheeks painted on me and I think at that point I felt my face turn fire engine red!  Kaylee was kind and said “That’s okay baby, that what babies do.  No need to be embarrassed.” She looked up, past me to Nana to see what to do next.  There was a family bathroom as part of the play complex so they wheeled me in there.  Nana commented to Kaylee “The Metamucil is doing its job.  Let’s get him cleaned up.”  They put a change mat on the floor and pulled out the diaper bag.  The girls helped me out of the stroller and placed me on the place mat as Nana got a new diaper, wipes and powder from the bag.  I was wearing a puffy dress and rumba pants so it took more time to remove the rumba pants and clear the dress out of the way before they could unsnap the onesie that was holding the whole mess together.  They took a deep breath as Nana untapped the diaper and slid the front of the diaper down past my penis and balls.  They got out the wipes and started to clean the area and dump the wipes into the diaper.  Kaylee took over and slid the new diaper under me, powdered me and then taped me up as Nana rolled up the used diaper and wipes.  Nana disposed of the diaper and packed up the diaper bag as Kaylee snapped me up and pulled up my Rumba pants.  She had me on all fours as she straightened out the dress and pants.  Nana confirmed everything was okay and then I was helped back into the stroller.   I was whisked back to the play area where the stroller was again locked in place.  Kaylee and her friend helped me out of the stroller and guided me to play area.  I felt out of place as I was so big, but Kaylee ignored any discomfort and helped me crawl up some steps to the top of a small platform.  I heard a small voice say “Mommy, look at the big baby.”  Then I heard the mommy say “It is not polite to point.  Let’s go.”  Some people were still getting use to the idea of an adult baby as I was also forced to reckon with my new status. 

Kaylee then organized my legs and held my hands as she helped me slide down the kiddie slide.  “Wasn’t that fun?  Let’s do it again.” She said.  I crawled along back to the steps and crawled up to the platform where she helped me get ready to slide down again.  “wheee, what a good baby you are.”  She said as controlled my descent the whole way by holding my hands.  “Do you want to do it again?” she asked as I started to shake my head no.  “Of course you do” she replied for me and guided me back up to the platform.  She held my hands and helped me slide down.  When I got to the bottom she said “let’s see what else we can do.”  I crawled over to the ball pit and looked in.  Kaylee helped me into the pit asked me to sit in the pit while she a took a picture of me. 

I stayed there and then someone threw a ball at me and hit my face.  I dropped my soother and turned as I heard “get out of there you freak!”  I was a big teenage boy that had addressed me.  Now I was starting to feel anxious as they were mean words and I lost my soother.  I think Kaylee could tell there was stress in my face as she slapped her thigh and said “come to Kaylee Baby.”  I crawled as fast as I could to her and she sat down on the floor and gave me her finger to suck on.  She then repositioned me in her lap and pulled me in close while letting me suck her finger.  “Man, what the freak is going on.  You’re weird too.” He said as he picked up another plastic ball and threw it at her.  Kaylee’s friend came with another soother to put in my mouth and then the two of them protected me as I crawled between them back to the stroller.  They strapped me back in the stroller as Nana pulled out another bottle to give to me amidst the comments from the girls of what a brave and good boy I was.  It was time to continue shopping.

Our next stop was Victoria’s secret where the ladies were shopping for underwear.  I tried not to look, but Kaylee came to my level to tease me and say “How do these look?”  and then hold up another pair and ask “what about these?”  After the ladies finished their purchases I was pushed back out into the mall where Nana had to make a pit stop while Kaylee and her friend took me to Staples.  Nana was going to meet us there.    It was congested chaos at Staples as students were all shopping for their supplies.  Kaylee stayed with me as her friend went down an aisle to get some things.  This was not the enjoyable social event that the girls were hoping for.  While we were waiting Susan and a friend came up and said Hi to Kaylee.  It was taking a long time when Susan suggested they become a search party for Kaylee’s friend and go to the back of store.  She reassured Kaylee that her friend would take care of me.  The two of them went to the back of the store.  Within a minute of their disappearance Susan’s friend said “You need to come with me to the bathroom.”  She pushed the stroller to the side and into the handicap bathroom.  I didn’t need to use the bathroom, I was wearing it.  She locked the stroller and flipped up her skirt and used the toilet.  When she was finished she got up and said “Baby, I think we are out of toilet paper, how am I going to get cleaned up?”  She walked up to me, pulled up her skirt and pulled my face forward into the target zone.   I knew what to do.  I didn’t want to do it, but I was programmed to please mommy and her friends.  The soother was spit out and my tongue went to work as she guided me and encouraged me with “in further, higher, yes baby, oh, keeping going baby.”  The end result was that my face was a wet mess and my make-up was smeared.  Now she had a bigger mess to clean up than before.  After she calmed down she cleaned herself up and then set to work on using some wipes to clean my face.  After some work she was satisfied and popped the soother underneath her so it was coated with her juices.  She then solved the anxiety that I was starting to feel with nothing in my mouth by putting the soother in my mouth as she knelt down, stoked the back of my head and gave me a kiss on the cheek and said “What a good boy.  I think I want to get something like you.  Right now, this is going to be yours and my little secret.  Let’s get back to Susan and Kaylee.”  We finished our extended bathroom time and she pushed me back to the front of Staples where Kaylee and Susan met up with her friend.  They asked “where were you?”  She replied “I needed to use the bathroom and I didn’t think I could leave him out here, you never know what may have happen.”  The girls had selected their supplies and were in the lineup for the checkout when Nana came.  She took me back out to the mall and we waited for them to leave Staples with their purchases.

They met us outside and Nana asked if there was anything else they needed before we returned home.  They got what they needed and were going to finish their shopping online tonight.  Susan and her friend said their goodbyes and then I was pushed through the mall to the main entrance out to the parking lot where we had to locate the SUV.  When we got to the SUV Kaylee opened the back and Nana opened my door.  She passed the diaper bag and purchases to Kaylee’s friend who loaded it in the back.  Nana then pulled back the stroller canopy and with shock said “What happened?”  The girls did not understand and I was in no position to comment.  I just kept sucking my soother, but I suspect Nana figured out what happened in the bathroom.  There was vigorous discussion between the three ladies to determine that something happened with Susan’s friend in the bathroom while the rest of them were shopping.  They looked at me and all I could do was suck.  Nana then asked “Did something happen in the bathroom with Susan’s friend?”  All I could do was nod sadly.  “Did she make you do something that you should not have done?”  I nodded no.  “Did you feel naughty?”  I nodded yes.  Kaylee interjected “that’s okay baby.  You are just a helpless baby.  It is not your fault.”  Nana was furious.  She calmed down and fortunately, did not take it out on me.  The girls helped me out of the stroller and into my seat on the car while Nana collapsed the stroller and took it to the back.  After I was snapped in and the trunk was closed everyone else settled in their spots.   Kaylee pulled out of the parking lot and we had very long quiet ride home.  The tension was in the air as Kaylee pulled up to the driveway and Nana opened the front door as the girls unpacked the stroller, diaper bag and my doll from Kaylee.  I was placed in the stroller and wheeled inside and let down on the floor.  Kaylee started with “I am really sorry for what happened. Thank you for sharing him with us for the last two days.  I think our Sorority will want to buy one or two.”  Kaylee came down to me and gave me the doll and said “Baby, it was so much fun taking care of you.  I don’t know if you will remember much of this, but I hope this doll might remind you of me.  You are loved.”  She then gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek.  Nana watched all this and her reaction seemed to be stone cold.  Kaylee got up and exited the door with one more thank you and then the door was closed.

Nana watched as the SUV left the driveway and then came back to me and said “Well Baby boy you certainly made an impression on those college girls.  I think it is time I make an impression on you.”  I looked up at her with the best puppy dog expression I could and said “goo-goo Nana”.  I think she realized I was doing my part.  Today I had learned my role whether I liked it or not.  She then quizzed me “did you like what she had you do for that girl?” I shook my head no.  “Well I guess that is enough punishment.  Kaylee was right you were doing what you were supposed to do.”   Nana then said “We need to get you to bed a little earlier since tomorrow is a big day.  Tonight you get more formula as there are no more solids for our baby.”  She picked up my doll and went to my room as I crawled after her.

I got to the room and sat on the change mat on the middle of the floor.  Nana took off my head band and then smelt it and rolled up her face in disgust.  She then untied the back of my dress and had me raise my hands as she lifted the purple frilly dress over my head.  I then lay down so she could unsnap my onesie and undo my diaper.  It was wet and there was a runny diarrhea spot.  She made quick work of cleaning me up, powdering and taping me back up in a new diaper.  She snapped the original onesie back up and then had me crawl to the cradle.    She snapped my ankles to the cradle and then snapped my mittens together so I could hold the bottle.  She then turned on the cradle and then the hypnosis sound track.  She said “Good Night Baby” as she left the light on and closed the door.  I sucked on my bottle as I listened to the tape “I love my diapers, I want to be a baby, I love my mommy, I will do anything for mommy, I want to be mommy’s good boy”

As I started to fall asleep the buzzer on my collar would go off and I would awake to continue to listen to my tape.  I heard “I Love my mommy, I will do anything for mommy, I want to please my mommy, I want to please mommy’s friends, I want to be mommy’s good boy.”  My eyes got heavier and heavier and then I felt the buzz again.  I was in a dream where Nana unclipped me from my cradle.  She was seated at the edge of my crib and had me crawl between her legs.  She pulled me into her and then guided me to please her.  She encouraged me and pulled me in tight.  It felt so real as she lay down and kicked her heals into my back as she fed me her juices.  I was very confused as I heard the tape and Nana’s delight merge into my desire to please my mommy and her friends.  I had a vague memory of that dream as the rest of the night I would wake up and hear the tape and then fall asleep.

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I woke up to a cheery “Good Morning Baby” from Nana.  I felt exhausted and somewhere in the middle of the night Nana must have come in and removed the bottle and put the soother in my mouth.   I still felt and tasted the juices from yesterday and felt sore.  Nana came and gave me a bottle of water and then set about preparing the change area.  She left as I worked on my bottle and then came back with a big bottle connected to a tube.  She unsnapped me from the cradle, gave me my soother and then helped me out on to the change mat.  She removed my mittens and ankle cuffs.  This time she had me on all fours as she unsnapped the onesie and did a diaper check.   I was wet but not messy.  She pulled the diaper to the side and slid the tube up my hole, pulled the diaper back and then hung up the bottle.  “Stay like that until I get back” she commanded.  I felt the water flow up into me and it felt very uncomfortable.  Now my back was sore and my tummy felt over full.  It felt like hours when it was probably only a few minutes when Nana returned and pulled the tube from my diaper and then commanded “Follow me.”  I felt very uncomfortable and there was great pressure for me to release the contents of the enema.  As I started to crawl after her it came like a great flood as I filled my diapers.  I stopped and collapsed on the floor as my diaper was filled to more than I have ever done before.  Nana stopped, turned around, saw me on the floor and when she made eye contact said “I think I see a completely helpless baby.  Is that you Baby?  Come to Nana. Come!”  I got up and started to move feeling very heavy amidst all the squish.  I felt I was going to leak on the floor.   I followed Nana to the bathroom where she had me climb into the tub and lay on my back.  She then untapped my diaper and pulled it out and rolled it up.  She then sprayed down my diaper area and had any filth go down the drain.  She had me sit up and filled the tub part way for my bath.  There was strawberry scented soap added to the bath that made soaking in the bath a pleasant experience.  Nana then set about to wash my hair and face and then continued to clean me up from top to toe.    She pulled the plug to drain the bath and then had me move out of the bath and stay on my hands and knees.  This time she pulled out a scale and weighed me before she had me crawl back, naked except for my collar, to my room. 

When we got back to my room she had me lie down flat on my front on the blanket, removed my collar and started at the back of my neck and shoulders with the laser hair removal device.  Today was much quicker as I don’t think there was any hair left from the last time.  She then had me turn over and then continued on my face and worked quickly down to my feet.  When she was done she took out a diaper and slid it under me.  I smelled the sprinkle of power and then she taped me up and patted the front of my diaper when we heard a quiet knock on the front door.  Nana got up and commanded “Stay right there Baby.”  I had nowhere to go and I was just wearing a diaper when Nana came back with the two blond Goddesses that brought me here. 

The three ladies were discussing that there was a change in plans.  I heard something about a re-birth scheduled for noon and they were discussing whether I would need a diaper and about packing me in the cage.  No diaper, I always needed a diaper!   The one goddess had a cardboard box and walked over to me and set it down near me.  I looked over, but could not see in.  The two goddesses left and came back with a wooden box and rolled it in the room near me.  “Let’s get you ready for your new family” declared the one Goddess.  Nana undid my diaper as one Goddess unpacked a bottle and some plastic bags from the cardboard box.  I was given a new smaller collar and then Nana asked for my hand.   They closed it up and put a plastic bag over it and secured it with a zap strap.  Then they zap strapped it to my collar.  The second hand they closed and covered with a bag and put a hole in the bag and put my thumb through the bag.  Nana stuck my thumb in my mouth and then they zap strapped my wrist to the collar.   The one goddess opened up a very large heavy plastic bag and slid it under my feet and pulled it up to my legs.  The second goddess opened a bottle of baby oil and poured it on my legs and spread it around.  They then had me pull my legs under me and pulled the bag up some more and poured baby oil over me again this time covering my penis and bottom.  I was feeling very slippery.  They then pulled the bag up some more and poured the oil on my chest and rubbed it around my back chest and arms up to my neck.  I then pulled my legs over my chest into a fetal position.  They then sat me up and put me in the box sitting up.  It was tight and I think that was the idea.  My head was peeking past the top of the box when they pushed my head in and drew the bag over me and tied it up so there were still openings so I could breathe.  I was an oily mess, and very smooth sliding around inside the bag.  I slid down from a sitting position to proper fetal position.  The box was cramped so I could not move too much and my arms were restricted since they were zap strapped to my collar.  The ladies were chatting and it was hard to understand as the bag and box muffled the outside chatter when Nana opened the box a bit and gave me her parting wisdom “Baby remember that you are to please your new mommy and her family or you will be dropped off somewhere on the side of the road with nothing other than wearing a dirty diaper.  A homeless adult baby with nothing!  Be a good baby for you new mommy.”  With that two half lids were closed over the box and it went dark.  I could hear and feel the box being rolled out and being picked up and being placed into the vehicle and a door closed.  Next thing I knew I heard some drum beats as the vehicle lurched ahead.  I recognized the drum beats were more like the rhythm of a heart beat, it was Metalica’s  “That was just your life”.  That was the last I would see of Nana, Kaylee and their friends.

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I don’t know how long I was in the box.  It felt cramped yet comfortable since the oil made it easy to slide around.  I liked the sliding, it reminded me of the friction I had in my diaper, but I was concerned that they could see everything since there was no diaper to hide anything.  I listened to the thump, thump of the drum beat and sucked my thumb as I slid around.  I felt so wired that I could not fall asleep.   I was drowsy, confused and feeling out of it when the drum beats and the vehicle stopped. Then I felt the box being moved.  I think I was being taken out of the vehicle and placed somewhere in my new home.  At this point I did not know what to expect.  I was anxious and continued to suck my thumb.  Then I felt a big bump, the box was put on its side and I was now lying on my back.  There were some muffled voices and then it went quiet.  A minute later the drum beat started again with U2’s Beautiful Day and the box was moved around and I could hear them unlatch the lid.  I was getting very nervous.  One lid was pulled away.  The box was on its side and the bottom lid was removed allowing for light to come in.  It was a diffused light that made it was through the bag.  I moved my head towards the light and tried to wiggle out through the lid.  Since my legs were on top of me and restricted by the bag I could not push myself out by pushing the top of the box.  I wiggled around so my head was facing out and that my feet were pushing the side of the box.  It was hard work and I started to sweat and get hot, but continued to push against the box and slid along the bottom of the bag until my head was pushing through the opening in the bag.  I kept pushing until my head broke through the bag and I could see the room.  I opened and closed my eyes quickly, recognizing I was in a room with boxes and people sitting around watching me, I continued to push and straighten myself out of the box and bag onto the floor.  Once I had straightened out I saw one of the goddesses with side cutters in her hand on one side of me and I saw my new mommy with the biggest smile ready to scoop me up on the other side.  The goddess removed the collar and zap straps and then I felt someone wiping me down on my legs.  It was the other goddess cleaning me up.  After I was completely pulled out of the bag, my legs wiped and placed on the bag they cleaned up the rest of me and let my new mommy give me a bear hug that took my breath away.  They finished by powdering me and dressing me in a diaper and onesie.  Mommy got up and sat down as the goddesses helped me on her lap and gave her a bottle of formula to give to me.  I could hear awes and ohs around the room.  I wanted to look around, but mommy held me tight and the bottle was held in such a way that I was looking directly at her beautiful face.  My life was to be given totally to her.  I depended on her for everything.  She was the older lady that brought her daughter and friend when I was a maid at Aunties.  Here I was.  I pulled one hand away from the bottle and tried to move it over my head and around her to give her a hug.  She intercepted my hand and pulled it back to the bottle and commented “you are squirmy wormy aren’t you!”  She then pulled me in tighter and started giving a rhythmic patting on my bottom.  One of the goddess nurses was giving instructions to my new mommy and sisters about the care and feeding of a new adult baby.  I heard something about the drugs in my formula, tapes and my first bowel movement.   I ignored all that stuff as I was tired from my ordeal.  My eyelids started to feel heavy as I finished my first bottle and mommy gave me a second one.  I was working on the second bottle when I heard the box being rolled away, good byes and best wishes.  I started to suck air and mommy pulled me up and put me head on her shoulder facing out and started to burp me.  I felt that reassuring thump, thump, thump and with my eyes half closed as I relaxed into my mommy when I noticed something.

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This was the first time that I could look across the room and saw my new aunt with some guy eating cake and then I saw my two sisters.  I recognized my sister Julie from before but I was ready to fill my diaper when I recognized my other sister was Kim from work.  She had the biggest smile and when we made eye contact she broke out laughing.  All of a sudden I was very awake! 

Then up came a big burp and I felt like jelly.  “What a good boy” I heard from mommy.  “Hello Baby brother, welcome to our family” I heard from the other side of the room.  It was either Julie or Kim welcoming me.    I kept my head on her shoulder as I listened and watched as one of mommies friends said “I know that you have been through a lot and we know this little guy should give you and your daughters lots of joy.  He have a few gifts for you.”  She picked up a package and brought it over to Mommy, but I was sitting on her lap.  Mommy asked if someone could take the baby and Kim wasted no time to come over to sit beside Mommy and then had me straddle her with my head on her shoulder so I could look at Mommy.  The friend gave her a package for her to open up.  I watched as she carefully unwrapped the gift as Kim was holding me and giving me a back rub.  My mouth was empty so I filled it with my thumb and watched as Mommy unwrapped a baby monitor.  Then another package was given to her.  Again she carefully unwrapped it to reveal some baby dishes.  She set it down and then Julie came with a package, gave it to her mom and asked Kim if she could hold the baby.  Kim and Julie worked their way around the sofa moving me around until I straddled Julie as Kim went to sit on the other side of her mom.   She opened the package to find a matching mama bear shirt and a baby bear onesie which she showed everyone.  Next there was a package with a nursing bra, pads  and some pills, which she whispered thank you to Julie and Kim as she picked up a card and read out “a day at the spa” so she could take a break from her baby.  She thanked her two daughters for the thoughtful gifts and they said there were also a few things for the baby too.  Mommy opened up the one box with assorted items from Nana that included Mr. Bear, a soother, a paddle, and a USB key.  Mommy looked at me and said “It looks like your Nana thinks you are going to get into trouble.”  There were more gifts to open as I fell asleep on Julie. 

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The next thing I remember I woke up in a crib with a wet diaper and a soother in my mouth.  I moved around and I could hear the crinkle of the plastic crib bed sheet as I took in my new home.  The room was dark, with enough light to explore my surroundings, as the last of the summer sun was cutting through the edges of the curtains that were closed.  This was a boy’s nursery in blue.  I looked out of the crib bars and could see a white dresser and a shelf stacked with diapers.  As I was exploring my new home the door opened and Kim came in.  “Good afternoon Baby boy” she said.  Your new name is “Jay, Baby Jay.  We heard you on the Baby monitor and I volunteered to check out my new baby brother” she said with smile that belied more than the words.  As she approached my crib my anxiety increased and so did the frequency of the sucking on my soother.  I remember liking Kim, but this was just too weird!  I was afraid she would go back to the office and tell everyone I couldn’t make it in this world and elected to be a useless baby, someone’s object and slave.  She looked at me with concern in her eyes and really seemed to care for me, even if I was now her baby brother.  She let down the crib bars and commanded “lay on your back”.  She unsnapped the onesie and rolled it up to my waist and she could tell I needed a change.  She went to the shelf and pulled out a diaper, wipes and powder and came back to the crib.  She untapped my diaper and wiped down my front as I was fussing.  She commented “No poopies yet!”  Then she asked me to lift up as she slid a new diaper under me and pulled out the old one.  She rolled up the old one and then powdered and taped me back up.  “You know Babies don’t care who changes them” she said as she snapped up my onesie and then took my hand to help me down on the floor.

Her next comment floored me when she pushed up her breasts and said “You went to a lot of trouble to get access to these, baby.”  I had no idea where I was as I crawled after my big sister Kim.  We went down the hallway and Kim whispered “Your Mommy really needs her baby to help her fill a big hole in her life.  I thought you would be a good fit for her.  You are doing something much more important than you ever were at the office.  As your sisters, we will help you as much as we can.  Enjoy your time taking care of your new mommy.”  I was dumbfounded at two levels.  First I didn’t realize that Kim thought being a baby was important and second I wondered how long she thought I would be a good fit for our mom.  I crawled to the living room where there was a Happy Birthday sign on the wall, some boxes and wrapping paper folded by the entrance and a playpen in the corner.  Mommy and Julie were chatting outside on the patio when I followed Kim to the table.  I looked up at Mommy and she asked if I had a good sleep.  I nodded yes and then wondered what I was supposed to do.  That was answered as Kim undid the table to the high chair and helped me up.  I was snapped in and the table was put back in position when Mommy decided to address me almost as an adult.  “Baby Jay, that is you new name, Kim has told me a bit about your past life.  We normally don’t know anything about the past. Your new life starts today.  Today is your birthday and one of the happiest days of my life and I hope you can say that too.  Regardless of the past, I know you understand that you will never be an adult again.  We love you and will take care of you for the rest of your life as a baby or toddler you really are.  Your diapers should remind you that we have complete control over you.  If you do step out of line, I will use that paddle that your Nana gave me.  Let’s hope that never happens.   Do you understand?”  I nodded yes and did a grabby hand action to my Mommy to give her a hug.  I think she understood as she got up and came to the high chair to give me a hug and kiss on my forehead. “We are so happy we would like to go out and celebrate, but you can’t have any solid foods for awhile.  What should we do?”  Mommy asked. 

Julie suggested that we order in Chinese food and we could enjoy our first dinner together as our new family.  Mommy ordered the food and my new sisters set the patio table.  In time dinner was delivered, but I could not have the food.  I was given a bottle of formula and they enjoyed their meal as I had mine.  Mommy looked at me and asked if I wanted to try some and I nodded yes.  They scraped a few items together and Mommy went inside.  I could hear a blender and she returned with a bowl of brown mush and a spoon.  “Who would like to feed their baby brother?” Mommy asked.  Julie volunteered to feed me and took the bowl and spoon and pulled up beside my high chair.  She loaded up the spoon and brought it up high and then with the requisite plane noise brought the spoon to my waiting mouth.   This worked well for a few spoons and then I needed to stop.  The last spoon was not received well; I tried to communicate that with closed mouth and used my first words “Ma Ma”.  My tummy started to rumble and I didn’t know what end something was going to come out.  Julie stopped and put the spoon and bowl down on the table.  She was concerned as next came a burp and some food spit up on the high chair table.  She grabbed a cloth and took off the high chair table and leaned me over her to burp me.  I don’t what happened but half my dinner came back up.  Mommy concluded that I had too much of the mush for my baby tummy and it was safer to keep it to formula and water for the next week.  I was happy to be part of a family that genuinely loved each other and cared for me.   They had planned for tomorrow to be a big day where we would go to the park so tonight we would stay in and watch one of Mommy’s favorite movies. 

The patio area was cleaned up, the high chair was taken in and I crawled back to the living room.  I expected I would have to go into the playpen, but  I was still such a novelty that they decided to get drinks and snacks put them on the coffee table and bring a bottle and have me nurse on the bottle as I lay across their laps.  Romance movies are not my thing so I focused on my bottle as Mommy watched her show.  She pulled me in and held the bottle until I sucked some air.  She paused the show to burp me and then put a soother in me and laid me back down to snuggle up to her.  I enjoyed that she was stroking and playing with my hair.  I snuggled tighter into her and heard her comment on things with Kim and Julie.  I was tired since the previous night I was continually woken up.  The intent of Nana’s diet, tapes and sleep interruption was to for me to naturally react as an infant.  I suspect as the training wore off that I would grow up.  I feel asleep and was woken up as the movie was finished and they were getting ready for bed.  Mommy asked me to follow her into my room.  I crawled after her and she put me in the crib.  She gave me a kiss, pulled up the crib rail and then cranked up a mobile that I just noticed above me.  I looked up at the mobile as I was sucking my soother as Mommy closed the door behind her.

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I was greeted with a “Good Morning Baby brother” by Julie who came in wearing a baby doll nighty and holding a baby bottle in her one hand.  I looked over to her and felt num-num.  In other cases it would be dangerous for a twenty something college girl to parade around in such an outfit.  In my case we were family and the hormones and desire were gone.  Now when I saw breasts, I thought lunch time!  I think my mommy and sisters also knew it was safe since I was programmed to be a baby.  Julie gave me the bottle and said “Drink up Baby, Mommy will get you ready soon.”  I started on my bottle and glanced over to her as she left my room.  My head felt clear and I realized I had full use of my hands and feet.  They were not bound or in mittens.  I moved my legs around a bit and could feel that I had wet my diaper last night.  I felt true comfort with something in my mouth.  There was this oral sensation as I sucked my thumb, soother, bottle or toe.  I was still working on my bottle when I thought I have not tried sucking on my toe.  What would it be like?  I finished my bottle of water and then pulled my one foot up and tried to suck my toe.  I was doing this as Mommy walked in.

“Good Morning Baby boy, are you hungry?” Mommy asked.  I stopped and looked up at my beautiful Mommy as she came to the crib and dropped the rail.  She found the soother and stuck it back in my mouth.  She stuck her finger in my diaper to confirm it was wet and then unsnapped the onesie to determine it was not wet enough to get changed right away.  She let me down and had me follow her to the kitchen.

 She helped me up into the high chair and snapped me in.  The table was set for a wonderful waffle breakfast with coffee and orange juice.  The waffles were topped off with strawberries, whip cream and maple syrup.   The women in my life sat down and engaged in conversation as they enjoyed their meal.  I was hungry watching all this and ventured my first words “Num-Num Mama.”  They stopped their conversation and looked up at me and Mommy responded “Of course sweetie, I will get you your breakfast.”  She got up and brought back a bottle and gave it to me.  They then continued with their conversation.  I liked to watch and listen.  There was no drama or conflict, but there was expressed concern for one another. 

Julie was getting ready to start her senior year in college.  Kim had come up to visit for the weekend before Julie went back to school and to check out her new brother.  There was concern for Mommy suffering an especially hard empty nest syndrome since she lost her husband recently and both daughters would be away so Baby Jay was bought to fill the void.  I finished my bottle and then gave the grabby hands action and called out “goo-goo Mama”.  Julie commented “we got a real talkative one here, don’t we?”  Mama got up and removed the bottle and high chair table so we could give each other a big hug.  “Mama loves you baby, Jay” she said.  She picked up a small towel and put it over her shoulder and asked rhetorically “do you need to get burped?”  She leaned me into her and gave me a few thumps on my back until something came up and then leaned me back into my chair.  She picked up the soother and stuck it in my mouth and sat back down.  The ladies then engaged in a discussion of how best to use the day before Kim drove back to Salem.  The options were narrowed down to go shopping, take me to the park or chill by the pool since this was one of the last days of summer and maybe the best way to ensure familial bonding.

They agreed on a plan and it was time for me to have my first bath at home.  I was let down from the high chair and Kim led me to the bathroom as mommy went to my room to get a diaper and supplies.  Kim started the bathwater and had me lay down on the floor as she unsnapped my onesie and removed it.  Then she untapped the diaper and asked “What do we have here?” as she pulled the diaper down and smirked.  “It looks like you have the right equipment to be a baby.” she commented.  “Baby Jay has a teenie peenie” she mocked as mommy entered the room.  Mommy said “Kim, it is not nice that you mock your baby brother like that.  He can’t help it and we love him just the way he is.  He is a perfect baby boy.”  “Sorry Mom” Kim replied as she got up.  Mommy got down and said “Don’t mind her, baby boy.  She loves you.  She is a bit of a tease.  Now let’s get you cleaned up.”  She pulled out the old diaper and had me crawl into the tub.  She washed me down, devoting extra time and care to my special places.  Finally she got some shampoo and washed and rinsed my hair.  Fluffy towels and an attentive mommy awaited me as each hand and foot came out of the tub.  Mommy had me lie down and then quickly powered and diapered me.  She got up and put things away and said “follow me.” 

I was only in a diaper as I followed her to new a door.  It was her room.  Mommy propped me up against a wall in her room and then went to her dresser to pull out a light blue bathing suit and set it on her bed.  “Baby, you are everything I hoped you would be.  We are going to have so much fun together.” She said casually as she started to get undressed.  She took off her top, dress and then her bra and said “As my baby boy I will take good care of you including making sure you get the best milk.” She motioned to her breasts I understood and replied by a more noticeable sucking of my soother.  She completely undressed in front of me, slipped on her bathing suit and then put away her things.  “Let’s go and spend some time outside with your sisters” she said as she started to walk towards the door.

I crawled after my awesome mommy in just my diaper.  No mittens, no collar, no cuffs.  I had freedom to follow.  The diaper was dry and not too tight, so it did not generate much friction, which was a good thing in my current circumstances.  I crawled down the hallway to the kitchen where mommy put some things on a tray and opened the door to the outside.  She waited for me to go outside and then brought the tray and set it on the patio table.  Beyond the table was a swimming pool with two sets of two lounging chairs.  Between each set of chairs was a small table.  My sisters came out wearing neon string bikinis that left nothing for the imagination.  Kim was in neon yellow and Julie in neon pink.  They took the one set of chairs and started to apply sunscreen on themselves and then applied it to each other’s backs.  The smell of coconut oil wafted through the air as Mommy went back into the house.  She returned with a big bag and the white rails of a play yard and set it up between the two other lounge chairs that were free.  I knew where I was going.  Mommy set-up the play yard and laid a cover on the concrete and then set some plastic toys inside the play area.  She came over to me and picked up a glass of water and sun screen and had me follow her to the foot of a chair.  She put the water on the table and then squirted some sun screen in her hand and started to apply in on me.  She then applied some on her legs and front and asked if I wanted to help mommy put some on her back.  I nodded yes and she squirted some in my hands and then turned around so her back was facing me.  I did my best to cover her back with the sunscreen.  It felt warm and smooth to apply the lotion from her neck to the top of her swimsuit.  She turned around and said “What a good boy!”   I was led inside the play area and then Mommy lay down on the chair beside me.    

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My sisters were idly chatting between themselves about school, work and shopping as mommy turned her head towards me and watched me play as she took in some rays.  I was faced with exploring the big plastic toys in my space.  They were red, yellow and blue blocks, like giant duplo and some blocks with wheels on them.  I could make a train or a truck or a building.  I started to build a simple truck when we looked up to a “Hello there!” 

Mommy’s sister came by through the gate on the side of the house.  Under a big sun hat she was wearing a one piece bathing suit under a white cover up, some flip flops and carrying a big beach bag.  She came up to me looked down and then flopped herself down on the spare lounge chair.    She pulled out some sunscreen and started vigorously applying it to herself as she asked “How is mommy and baby today?”  “goo goo” I replied as Mommy recounted the rest of yesterday and today to her sister.  She replied “you are a talkative one, aren’t you?”  Mommy replied “Yes, we will have to have a chat on his vocabulary sometime soon.”  I ducked back down and went to work on building my trucks with my blocks as the ladies chatted as they relaxed in the sun.  I was starting to feel the heat of the sun and it was starting to get uncomfortable.  I needed to pee and I just let it go as I continued on my work.   I felt a rumble in my tummy and there was no holding back as the hot liquid filled the back of my diaper.  It was uncomfortable, but I adjusted my seating to continue on.   I had built some trucks and reused the blocks to build a wall. The plastic and me were getting hot in the sun as I called out “Ma Ma.”   Mommy looked over to me and asked “What is it sweetie?”  I pouted as “getting hot” was not in my vocabulary.  She got up, stepped over the play fence and could feel I was hot and then pulled the back of my diaper to inspect the mess.  She called out to my sisters “Could one of you get Jay a diaper and supplies.  He made his first BM.”  “Lie down” she instructed and then untapped my diaper and took out her phone.  She snapped a picture of my mess and sent it, as the next thing I know she got a call about my mess.  They were chatting about it being yellow brown and very liquid.   She confessed that they fed me some Chinese food and promised that they would continue on my formula.  It must have been the agency.  Kim arrived with my supplies and commented that the mess in my diaper looked like mustard.   Mommy took no time to clean me up, powder me and tape up the diaper.  She pulled me back up to a sitting position.  I reached out my hands and said “Ma ma” to give her a hug.  “He is appreciative, isn’t he Sis” my auntie said as I gave mommy the best hug I could.

 She stood up and then I hugged her leg as well.  “He is a bit clingy” Auntie remarked and then continued “Maybe you need to enroll him in a day care so you have some freedom.”  

“These are early days, He has been through a lot and any new baby needs to spend time bonding with his Mommy, right baby” she replied as she tousled my hair. 

I was clean, but still hot and the sun was high in the sky.  “Julie, could you set-up his high chair by the umbrella?  I think we need to get ready for lunch” Mommy said. 

I let go of mommy as she stepped out of the play yard.  I crawled over to my aunt as she lay on the lounge chair and gave her a gentle nudge.  She put her hand on my head and pulled me to her side and I gave her a kiss.  She held me in.  I needed human touch and stayed by her as Mommy and my sisters got lunch ready.  Mommy came by and said “I see you are bonding with your new nephew.  Lunch is ready.”  My aunt let go and got up as I crawled out of the play area to the high chair.  Kim helped me into the high chair and snapped me in as the others seated themselves around the table.  I felt much better in the shade.   Mommy said “instead of day care, maybe you could babysit him once in awhile to make sure he doesn’t suffer from separation anxiety?”   “I am not sure if Jim would be happy with that.  He thinks the whole thing is weird.  Our nieces can boss around someone almost twice their age.  You have an almost man literally acting like a baby.  I think he would freak if you brought him over for me to take care of.”  My aunt replied.  The ladies started into their sandwiches as I worked on a bottle of formula.  “There is no reason you can’t come and visit and take care of your nephew here” Julie responded.    I finished the first bottle and then Kim asked if I wanted to try their lunch and I nodded yes.  “Say goo-goo Ki-Ki” she instructed. To which I repeated “goo-goo Ki-Ki.”  She got up and took a sandwich square and went to the kitchen.  There was the sound of a blender and then she returned with a bowl and a spoon.   “Okay, Baby open up” she commanded and scooped some lunch and directed it to my mouth with “Here comes the plane.”  The ladies around the table were amused as they watched Kim feed me and using a variety of plane, train and car encouragements as I finished my bowl.   I was happy to watch Kim feed me wearing her neon yellow bikini top.  “Mom, do you want me to put him down with a bottle for his nap?” Kim asked.  Mommy replied “No sweetie, you get ready to go with Julie to the mall and we will take care of him.”  The two sisters got up and took their dishes inside as my mommy and my aunt cleared the table.  Mommy came back and pulled my thumb out of my mouth and replaced it with a soother.  She helped me down and I followed her inside where my aunt greeted me with a bottle.  We stopped at the sofa and my mommy helped me onto the lap of my aunt.  My aunt removed my soother and gave me my bottle.  I started to suck as Auntie and Mommy chatted about getting used to having a baby again.  I sucked slowly as I was feeling tired and then I started to suck air.  Auntie repositioned me to help suck a bit more until I finished the bottle.  Mommy helped her pull me up and on to her shoulder and then she started the thump, thump of burping me.  Air and a bit of lunch came up on the towel on her shoulder.  When she was satisfied burping me she held me and just rubbed my back.  It felt so good.  Mommy had to pry me off of Auntie and then had me crawl to my crib.  I was helped into the crib, the rail was pulled up, the hypnosis tape was turned on and the door was closed.

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As a baby you have no sense of time and no sense of what was happening when you are asleep.  There no sense of control.  You are completely helpless and at the mercy of your caregiver.  Fortunately for me my mommy and sisters love me.    My mommy came in wearing a blouse and slacks with a bottle and opened the curtains to let the light in.  She came over to the crib and let down the rail and asked in that high pitched voice reserved for babies “How was your nap, pumpkin?”  I nodded yes and replied “goo-goo.” “ Do you want something before we come out?” she asked.  I replied again with a nod and a “goo-goo.”  Then she climbed into the crib and pulled my head onto her lap.  She undid her blouse and unsnapped one side of the nursing bra and guided me to her dark nipple as she said “Baby, I need you to start on this.”  I took it in and remembered about my teeth and the sucking, more like a massage, on her nipple.  It took a few tries to get into the rhythm except nothing was coming.  Mommy rubbed my cheek and continued to encourage me, but there was nothing there.  I kept it up for awhile until mommy undid the latch with her finger.  She let my head down in her lap.  Snapped up the one side and then undid the other side of the bra.  She directed me to the other nipple and encouraged me to keep going.  I latched on and then started again with the other side.  It was frustrating, yet as I looked up into Mommy’s face it showed pure love.  I continued to suckle and watch as Mommy held me tight.  Then it was time to unlatch.  She did up the bra and blouse then reached for the bottle.  Now it was time to feed.  I started to suck down the familiar vanilla flavor formula and enjoyed the warm embrace and rubbing on my back as I was cuddled up to Mommy having my “Ba-ba”.  When I was finished Mommy propped me up, burped me and stuck in a pacifier before helping me out of the crib.  

I crawled after Mommy to the living room.  No one else was home.  Auntie and my sisters were gone. I had no idea how long my nap was or what time it was.  I was not hungry since I just had a bottle and was wondering what would happen next when Mommy directed me to the playpen.  Once I was in the playpen Mommy gave me a new coloring book and a new box of crayons.  Mommy asked “Do you want to color a nice picture for your sister Kim to take with her?”   How could I refuse, of course I would!   I felt totally at peace as I started to color a picture for my big sister and Mommy checked out social media and other grown up stuff on her phone.  The time went by quickly when my two sisters came home carrying many bags from the mall.  They dropped off the bags at the hallway and came to my play area and said “Jay, we have a surprise for you. Cover your eyes.”  I put down the crayon and covered my eyes.  Kim left and then came back when Julie said “open your eyes.”  I saw a giant stuffed bear!  It was as big as Kim and they put it in my playpen.  I gave it a big hug and then opened my arms to my sisters to give them a hug.  I would say “thank you”, but that was not in my vocabulary so I used “goo goo”.  I called to Kim “Ki-Ki” to look at the coloring I did for her.  She said “is that for me?” and I nodded yes.  “Thank you, baby boy.  Such good coloring I am going to take it home with me.”  She said as she took the page from the book.  The girls then went to Mommy to chat about their purchases, the new bear and my coloring for Kim.  I continued with coloring a picture for Julie and then I would do one for Mommy.  The coloring was the therapy that I never had.  In the past I just frittered away my time playing videos games.  Now I was focused on doing the best pictures ever for my family.  It was something I could be proud of.  While I was concentrated on my coloring I needed to pee and released the pee as needed as I continued with my artwork.  Time passed quickly as I worked on my pictures when the door bell rang. 

Julie came to the front door and let someone in carrying two pizza boxes.   This must be one of their friends as her friend carried the pizza back into the kitchen.  I could smell the pizza – yum!  Kim came to get me.  I showed her my coloring and then I followed her out to the patio to my high chair.  She helped me up and snapped me in as Mommy was talking to the pizza delivery person who was a friend of the sisters.  I could see the table was set with plates and glasses and pizza was served and they started to indulge in their meal.  I was hungry and cried “Ma ma”.    Mommy got up and returned with a bottle of formula for me and said “We remember what happened yesterday.  You are not ready for any big boy food.”  I worked on my bottle as I gazed around watching my family and friend chatting about everything including me.  I started sucking air when Julie took my bottle and replaced it with my pacifier.  Kim asked if I wanted a taste of the pizza to which I nodded a yes.  Mommy wasn’t so sure that was a good idea, but Kim stood up picked up her slice of pizza and took a bite.  She came over to me took out my pacifier and then took out a bit of chewed pizza and stuck it in my mouth.  “There you go Baby” she said with a smirk and then sat down.  I swallowed the morsel and then continued to suck on my pacifier, until I felt a burp coming.  I held the pacifier in as the burp came out.  The original mush and the after taste of pepperoni did not feel good as it landed behind my pacifier.  Everyone could see the stuff come up.  Kim took out the pacifier and cleaned me up, kissed my forehead and apologized “Sorry baby bro, I didn’t think adult food would have that effect on you.”  She finished cleaning the pacifier by sticking it in her mouth and then stuck it back in me.  They continued chatting until I heard that Kim had to get ready to go.  She came over to me, unsnapped the table of my high chair and then gave me a big hug and a kiss on the check.  “See you later baby bro.  I have to go back home tonight so I can go to work tomorrow. I love you.” She said as she gave me another kiss on the other check and then headed inside.  I hugged her back and I felt all warm inside, but I also wanted more from my big sister Kim.  The others got up and cleared the table and then Mommy came back to help me down from the high chair and to my playpen with Big Bear waiting for me.

 

[tbaabaa]

Kim left for her home and Julie and her friend went out for the evening.  If this was Mommy’s reality she could get very lonely without me or going out every night.  I called out “Ma-ma” and waited for her to arrive.  I put out my grabby hands so she would know I needed a hug before she would even have to ask.  “Oh Baby, look at you.  Do you need your Mommy?  Would you like a hug?” Mommy said as she opened up the gate to the play yard.    She came down to my level and gave me a hug.  “Would you like to spend some cuddle time with your Mommy, of course you would.  Follow me sweetie”  She said as she left the play pen, sat down on the sofa and patted her hands on her lap.  I crawled after her and climbed onto her lap. “I think you need some special mommy time” she said as I looked up to her and watched as she started to unbutton he blouse.   She undid one part of her nursing bra and pulled me into position to latch on and suck.   I got into the rhythm as she patted my diaper.  This was bliss.  There was no food but there was a bonding as I grew dependent on my mommy.  After awhile it was time to switch to the other side.  She made the adjustments and pulled me into her other breast and I continued in my state of bliss.  While sucking I could feel some rumbling in my tummy and next thing I knew there was a liquidy blowout in my diaper.  Mama pulled me in tighter and continued patting my diaper.  I got the signal nothing was to stop just because a baby filled his diaper.  This was the natural order of things.  I continued until Mama popped her finger in my mouth to unlatch me.   She then put the soother in my mouth and turned me around to face the television as she did up her bra and blouse.  I don’t know what she was watching but it must have been important as held me in place on her lap.  As uncomfortable the mess was in my diaper I was not to go.  Then I started to release pee in my diaper.  I guess mommy knows best.  There was no point in getting changed too quickly.  I sort of watched and sucked on my pacifier until Mommy moved me off her lap.  I slid down onto the floor, squished the content on my diaper and hugged her legs.  I was bored with the show so I continued to kiss and hug her legs as she watched.  She held my head and then moved one leg around so now I was between her legs.  I started to hug and kiss the inside of the other leg.  She tousled my hair and pulled me in closer while watching her show.  Sometime later she said something that surprised me.  “You know sweetie tonight is Sunday Night Worship.  I would celebrate with your daddy on Sundays, but he is longer her.  I wonder if you would be ready.  Do you want to try?” she asked rhetorically.  Mama didn’t wait for my reply as she stood up and removed her slacks, underwear and then sat down on the edge of the sofa.  She repositioned my face to begin my worship.

I learned from Auntie and had some practice since then and started from the bottom up.  She had one hand on my head and pulled me in as her legs were moving together slightly and back.  As I started I heard “that’s a good boy.”  And then “keep going sweetie”.  Things were starting to get moist and it was easier to slide up and down along the passageway.  My tongue was getting tired, but Mommy keep massaging my head and encouraging me until she slid down a bit more and then her legs went over my shoulders and pulled me in tight.  I was working on her point of perfection as I heard some moans and then her legs were starting to kick into my back.  I keep going, working deeper, faster and harder until I was greeted with the ceremonial juices of her presence.    I drank in what I could as the rest splashed onto my face.  Mama started to come down and pulled me up so my head was above the place of worship.  After she caught her breath she stroked my head and continued to sigh.  After she rested for a few minutes she pulled me down into my original position of worship and said “let’s try it again Baby.”

I spent less time working on the bottom and quickly worked my way back to the top when she pulled my head in and out and then positioned me into the final climatic position.  I worked hard and drank as I continued to lick and suck.  Her legs came, pounding on my back, as again I was given the juices of our  celebration.  I heard the moans and then the sigh as she released her grip on my head.  I moved my head to above the seat of worship and rested in her presence until she was ready to make the next move.  She straightened up, allowing me to come down and kneel in her presence while still feeling the mess in my diaper.  Moving around and worshipping her allowed for some movement in the front of my diaper as well, but no release.  Mommy asked “Is baby ready for bed?”  I had hoped I would get changed and cleaned from the filth before going to bed, but I nodded yes trusting my mommy had the best intentions.

Mommy got up and I followed her to my room and I lay on the floor hoping to get changed.  Mommy said “I am sorry sweetie, that was so good and now Mommy is tired.  I will change you first thing in the morning.  I will let you enjoy your diaper tonight.”  She put me in the crib, gave me a kiss, pulled up the crib rail and then cranked up the mobile.   I watched the mobile as I started sucking my soother as Mommy closed the door behind her.  With all the filth there was some friction so I started to kick my legs and move them until there was more friction.  I continued moving until there was some release.  Now I felt complete.

[tbaabaa]

 

 

I woke up to “Good Morning Baby bro, whew, you’re a stinker!” by Julie who came in wearing just a T-shirt and panties holding a baby bottle in her one hand and waving her other hand in front of her face.  I was reminded of the filth in my diaper and felt some burning in spots. I held out my hands to grab the bottle and gazed up to my beautiful sister and started to get hungry as I fixated on her face and then her breasts as the nipples were poking through the fabric of her shirt.  Yum, yum I thought as she handed me the bottle, and then she started to tease me by pulling the bottle back up to her.  “Num, Num” I cried as my grabby hands went for the bottle.   Julie gave me the bottle and said “Drink up Baby, Mommy will come by and clean you up soon.”   I started working on my bottle and glanced over to her as she left my room.  I moved my legs around a bit and felt it was time I could create some friction and  release as I was working on my bottle and imagining I was being nursed by mommy or Julie.  I was sucking and moving my legs around as I was starting to feel motion in my diaper and then paused my sucking as there was a sweet release into my diaper.  I rested a minute and then continued to suck on my bottle as the door opened and Mommy, a vision of beauty, came in.  I realized that she would probably notice the most recent addition to my diaper and hoped that my penis could shrink fast enough so I could release some pee before she changed my diaper.

As she came to my crib she asked “How is my honey bun today?  You look happy sweetie!”

“Goo Goo” I replied as I dropped my bottle and raised my hands to my Mommy.

“Is Baby still hungry” she asked as she dropped the rail to the crib.

I nodded yes as she climbed into my crib and then pulled my head over her lap.

“Let’s see if Mommy has something for you.” She replied as she pulled back her bathrobe, adjusted me on her lap and then unlatched her nursing bra.  A big beautiful breast presented itself to me within inches of my face.  She pulled me in a little closer and I started to latch on and suck.  That felt good!  I pulled her nipple to the roof of my mouth and then it felt natural and calming to suck.  My sucking fell into the rhythm of her patting the bottom of my full diaper.  After some time her finger came into my mouth to break the seal and move me to her other breast.   I was adjusted up and over to her other nipple and then fell straight into a solid latch and sucking.  For all the effort there was little to show for it; however, I was assured that it would only be a matter of time that Mommy would truly be feeding me.  After some time I was released from my Mommy and she helped me down to the floor.  I was a mixed bag of emotions full from the bottle, yet still hungry, tired from sucking, yet ready to go for the day, happy to be with mommy, yet unhappy in my full diaper.  Mommy got to the door and commanded “come”.  I crawled after Mommy in my diaper hoping it would stay together.  She led me to the bathroom where Julie had just finished her shower.  

Mommy had me lie on the floor and took off her bathrobe so she could get to some serious cleaning.  She took off my diaper and wiped off as much debris as possible with the first wipe.  She then got some paper towels and wipes to finish the job.  She had me crawl into the bathtub which had just an inch or so of water in it and had me sit in the tub.  She proceeded to get a small pail and fill it with water and dump it over me and then soaped up a wash cloth and then started to scrub me down from my face to my waist.  She then had me on all fours and worked from my bum to my knees and then put special attention to my front.  After she washed and rinsed my hair I think there was enough water on her that she did not need a shower or a bath.  She pulled the drain to the bath and then had a big fluffy towel in hand to dry me.  She had me step out one hand, one leg at a time on the floor and then towel dried me putting special attention to my diaper area.  She stopped once or twice to check some spots and then continued.  When I was dry she had me lay on the floor and called for Julie to bring some cream for the baby.  Julie came, dressed in shorts and a top with the cream and looked down at me and gave such a big smile. I was not quite sure what the smile meant.  Was she happy or was she happy to see me so helpless.  She gave the jar of cream to Mommy and then left.  Mommy applied the cream to some of my sore spots and it felt so soothing.   She then slid a diaper under me and finished up by powdering me and taping the diaper shut.  I was mesmerized watching her breasts sway like a pendulum as she took care of me.   A quick slap on the side and a command “up you get baby boy” was all that was needed to break the spell.  I got up and crawled after Mommy back to my room expecting her to dress me in another onesie.  She looked through the closet and then announced “It is warm enough, I think we will leave you in just your diaper for now. Come”.   I followed her to her bedroom and sat on the floor as I watched her hang up her bathrobe and then put on a white blouse and blue slacks for the day.  After she was buttoned up and zipped up I followed her out of her room to the kitchen where Julie had set the table for breakfast.  Mommy helped me into the highchair and then my mommy and my sister sat down for breakfast.  Julie gave me a bottle of water to drink while the two ladies worked through their breakfast of yogurt, fruit and coffee.  They were chatting about Julie getting ready to go back to school, her sorority, their plans for the day and life at home while Julie was away.    Julie got up and cleared the dishes, leaving the coffee mugs, and came back to top off the coffee.  She then returned with a bib, a spoon and a bowl of oatmeal for me.  She pulled up a chair and got ready to give me my breakfast by attaching the bib.  Mommy sat back with her coffee mug and looked like she was getting ready to watch a show.  I put the bottle down as Julie scooped up the first spoon of oatmeal and brought it towards me with “Open up Jay.”  I opened up anticipating my first official solid food.  In it came, it was hot so I was not too fast on closing my mouth.  I waited a bit while Julie pulled the spoon up and out.  “Here comes the airplane”  Julie said as the next spoon came in for a landing.  “Choo Choo, here comes the train.” Julie said while laughing and feeding me my breakfast.   Mommy smiled broadly as she sipped on her coffee and watched as my sister played with me as she fed me breakfast.  Alas all good things must come to an end and it was time for Julie to wipe down my face, remove the bib and put away the breakfast dishes.

Mommy unsnapped the high chair and led me down to my playpen.  This was to become the morning  ritual of clean-up, breakfast and then playtime.  I was given some plastic blocks, and a truck to play with while Mommy and Julie did their grown up things.  I could load up the truck with blocks and drive the truck to the other end of the play area and then dump the blocks.  I drove the truck back and loaded it up with more blocks to take to the new location.  Every so often I would catch Mommy or Julie checking in on me.   I did not want to disappoint so I was 100% into my play.   I could make a truck noise through my soother and forget all about the big bad world of grown-ups other than what I pretended in my play.  At times I was bored but continued at my play as Mommy and Julie seemed to be busy.  Sometime later Julie came out and opened the play area for me, knelt down and checked my diaper.  I was wet and did not even realize it. 

She had me kneel and pushed my diaper up and down and got a sense of the weight of the diaper.  That felt good, but I was helpless to what she did to me.  She called out to mom to say that I was wet and my mommy had responded that unless I filled the back of my diaper I should be okay until after lunch.  She helped me out of the play area and guided me back to my high chair.  I was helped up, squished into my seat and then snapped in.  I had no idea what they had done while I was playing.  I was totally clued out as to what the grown-ups were doing.  Once I was snapped in Mommy and Julie went about to set the table with lunch and brought a bottle of milk for me.  I engaged in drinking my milk from the bottle as the ladies continued their chat and enjoyed their lunch of sandwiches with a small salad.  After lunch Julie cleared the table and Mommy came with a spoon and a small bowl filled with a some green stuff.  She pulled up a chair and declared “Okay Jay, we will start to introduce you to some healthy solids.”  She filled the spoon and directed it to my mouth.  I opened up dreading the contents and found out it was not so bad.  It was lukewarm mashed peas and I think some bits of their salad.  I wanted to be a good boy for my Mommy so I continued to inhale the spoons as they came. Mommy seemed to be pleased with the ease of feeding me.  When we were finished she got up with the bowl and spoon and took it to the counter to return with a wet wash cloth.  She washed down my face and then let me out of the high chair. 

“Let’s get you changed and ready for your nap” Mommy instructed as she put the washcloth on the counter and then headed out of the kitchen.  I followed my Mommy as she led me to my room.  She laid out a change mat, diaper and accessories on the floor as I crawled into my room.   I lay on the mat and waited as Mommy striped off the diaper and washed me down.  A quick dusting and I was taped up.  This time Mommy decided I should wear a basic white onesie to hold everything together.  She pulled it over my head and down to my diaper and then snapped it up.  When she was done she patted the front of my diaper and said “There, that is all better.  Now let’s get you in bed for your nap.”  She got up and patted the crib.  I crawled up to the crib and she helped me in and rolled up the side.  She cranked up the mobile and then kissed her hand and placed it on my forehead and said “Have a good nap sweetie.”  Then she closed the door behind her. 

I watched the mobile turn and it reminded me of the hypnosis tapes.  I remembered that I wanted to be a baby and fill my diaper.  I craved the attention of my Mommy and sisters.  I could not think of anything else as I drifted off to sleep. 

[tbaabaa]

                          

I awoke to Mommy sliding down the rail to my crib and greeting me with “Wake up sweetie.”  She climbed into the crib and pulled me around so my head was resting on her lap.  She undid her blouse and unsnapped one side of her nursing bra and pulled me in without any further comment.  I naturally spit out my soother and started to latch on.  I pulled her nipple in and up and started to suckle as she leaned back and pulled me in tighter.  I started to get into the rhythm; however, there was nothing to show for it.  She continued hold me and pat the bottom of my diaper until she felt it was time to do the other side.  He hand came in and undid the seal.  She adjusted herself and moved me to the other breast and I started again in earnest.  I was in heaven. While part of my day could be boring it certainly was not without fulfillment.  Like the tapes reminded me I loved being a baby.  Eventually she unlatched me and sat me up as she did herself up.  She then guided to the floor where she had my lay down and she pulled out a jean shortall outfit.  She unsnapped the side snaps, pulled me up and then pulled the jeans over me down to my diaper.  She had me lay down and then snapped up the jeans.  She did a quick inspection and seemed satisfied with her handiwork.  “Okay baby, follow me” She said as she got up and walked out the room back towards the kitchen. 

Julie was waiting for us with a diaper bag packed and hung on the back of the stroller.  She was wearing shorts and a white tank top and the biggest grin as she asked “Ready for your big adventure in the park?”  I was not ready and was wondering if this was going to be a repeat of my last experience.  It didn’t matter as they were going to take me anyways.  I was growing into realization that I had no control over my life and I was totally helpless and dependant on the women in my life.   They dressed me, fed me, and took me wherever they wanted.  I was helped into the stroller and buckled in tight.  Mommy opened the door as Julie navigated the stroller over the jam and into the big world beyond the safety on our home.

I had no idea where we lived other than we lived near the end of a cul-de-sac in some suburban development.  It could be anywhere.  I was pushed out the door, down the driveway and onto the pavement.  This neighborhood was somewhat new and was devoid of trees and sidewalks.  Julie piloted the stroller with ease as she was chatting with her mom.  Unlike the last time I took a trip to the park there was no one walking on sidewalks – this was a driving community.  It was some time until we got onto a sidewalk and passed a newer school and then came up to the park.  The front of the park had the kids play area and near the back it was treed and had a few picnic tables. Julie maneuvered the stroller to the empty picnic table closest to the play area.  She put the brakes on the stroller and then Mommy and Julie un packed the diaper bag onto the table.  I was afraid they were going to change me in public, but that was not the case.  There was a snack, a bottle, a leash and a harness on the table.  Julie unsnapped me and helped me out of the stroller.  I was apprehensive as this was a public park.  Mommy swooped down on me and fished the harness over me and snapped it on while Julie had picked up the leash and threaded it through one of the legs of the table.  Once the harness was snapped in Julie clipped the leash to the back of my harness.  Once the operation was complete Mommy commented with an air of satisfaction   “there, you won’t be going anywhere, will you?”     I was stuck at the foot of the table, by the stroller.  While I could crawl, I was scared to go anywhere so I stayed right by the stroller as Mommy and Julie took their place at the table.  Then I heard a phone ring and Julie started chatting with a friend.  It sounded like she was giving directions to the table.  Mommy reached down and gave me a bottle of water to suck so I lay on the grass and started sucking and then I could look up to the table as Julie was chatting and Mommy looked down at me with a smile of satisfaction.  Mommy was happy.

Mommy looked up and away and then I heard her greet someone with “Hi, good to see you.”  Then she replied “yes he is right here.”   I didn’t know who she was talking to until a goddess had blocked the sunlight.  I looked up to her and the sun was radiating beams from her head.  One foot came down and landed on my diaper area.  She applied light pressure to my diaper and then moved her foot around massaging my penis under the diaper when she asked me “How is our little diaper boy?” 

I replied through my bottle with a “goo goo”. 

“I like your shorts” she replied and then asked rhetorically “Who dresses you up so nicely?”  I replied “Ma Ma” and then realized from her reaction I should not have answered. 

She said to Mommy “I didn’t realize he could understand.  I think we have to do something about that.”  I was in shock and looked at Mommy and said “goo goo Ma Ma.”  hoping that the goddess would take my previous reply as mere mindless prattle.  She pushed her foot off of me and then got down to my face and said “I wonder what is going on in that useless little mind of yours?” 

“Goo Goo” I replied hoping that the interrogation would end soon. 

Julie replied “My Aunt thinks he is quite talkative for a baby.” 

The goddess got up and said “If you get tired of the talking we could arrange to remove his vocal chords, they are not really needed for anything anyways.  Right now I am sure it is still a novelty, but later, when you are ready, we could get him fixed up.”

“Ma Ma” I said to keep up the prattle when Julie replied with a sush and came down to take the bottle and replace it with a pacifier in my mouth.

 The goddess stepped away and sat down by Mommy away from me and then continued her chat with Mommy and Julie with a lower voice so I could not make out the entire conversation.  I became very concerned.  This was supposed to be my introduction to the local park.  I turned around so  I was lying on my front facing the grass and could study the individual blades of grass and the insects that came and went from my view.  I was amazed I had not done this for over thirty years.  I took a new perspective as I watched the show before me an announced in a random fashion “goo goo” and later a “gaa gaa”.

I could not move too far away from the table as I leashed to the table.  Mommy and Julie, I am sure, could look down to see that I was okay.  I overheard more people joining them and chatting and I tried to stay engaged watching the grass in amazement while giving out the occasional “goo goo”.  Along the line of the chatting, the warmth of the late summer sun and getting bored watching the grass grow I must have fallen asleep as I was greeted with a slap on my diapered bottom and a greeting from Julie of “wake up sleepy head.”  Their friends had left and it was just Mommy, Julie and me.  I turned around and noticed that I had wet my diaper, but did not want to get changed in the park so I said nothing.  Mommy was packing up and Julie undid my harness and leash and stuffed me back in the stroller.  I had no idea how much time had passed or what plans were discussed as I was asleep.  All I know was that I was being pushed passed the school and back home as Mommy and Julie were discussing their plans for tomorrow and the option of having someone come over to take care of me.

There was nothing I could say or add to the conversation as I was really just along for the ride.  I was coming to realize that my input was of no consequence and that I little control of my circumstances.  The trip home seemed much quicker that the trip to the park and in no time we were at our door.  Mommy opened the door and Julie navigated the stroller inside and to the room by the playpen.  I knew where I would land!  Mommy took the bag from the back of the stroller and headed to the kitchen as Julie knelt down and started to unsnap me from the stroller.  She pushed back the canopy and helped me out and onto the floor.  Then she guided me into the playpen as Mommy returned with a bottle for me.  I lay down and took the bottle and began to drink in the water and continued to drink as the water passed through to flood my diaper.  The ladies left me to go to the kitchen to take a call and with the clatter of dishes I assumed they were setting the table.  After having my water I re-enaged with Mr. Bear and together we checked out the blocks and truck.  While I was busy pushing the fire truck to the rescue Julie had snuck in, knelt down to give me a diaper check.  We stopped the action so Julie could fish her hand under my shortall and her finger worked its way into the edge of my diaper to confirm that it was wet.  All action had to stop as she had me lie down to remove the shortall.  I was left in just my diaper as she got up and went to my room to get the supplies.

As she was coming back with a diaper and supplies the door bell rang.  She put the supplies down outside the play area to get the door.  I was lying down in my soaked diaper, sucking my soother and holding Mr. Bear and had to wait while Julie went to answer the door.  Mommy came out glanced at me as she also headed to the door as Julie opened it and greeted someone and invited them in.

 There was usual high pitched greetings and commotion as the ladies came in and walked up to my playpen.  I hid my face behind Mr. Bear as Julie came with her supplies to change me.  Then someone asked Mommy “Could I change him?”  “Why of course” was her reply.  Julie stepped back and left the supplies beside me as a new person came down to change me and asked “What have we here?”  “So Julie this is your new baby brother.  What a cutie?” she replied.  She tore the tapes to my sodden diaper and then pulled some wipes and cleaned me up as she commented “I see why he is a baby.”  I lifted up for her as she swapped the heavy diaper for a new dry one.  Then she powdered me and taped me up and completed the job with a comment of “All done” as she patted the front of my diaper.   She got up and Julie asked me to follow her to the kitchen.  The door bell rang again and Mommy went to answer it as I followed Julie to my high-chair.  I was snapped into my high chair and then Julie and her friend left me in the high chair, in just my diaper, as they went to the door. 

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Mommy, Julie and four of their friends returned with packages and bags in hand.  They got busy emptying the bags on the kitchen counter and table.

 Then they ferried the contents from the kitchen to outside as one the ladies came up to me and said “Look at you – aren’t you are a sweetie.”  She gave me a quick kiss on the cheek and said “I have a coloring book for you.  Can you show me how nice you can color some pictures for your mommy and sister? “ She opened the book to the first page and gave me a small box of crayons to begin my work.  I started to focus on my coloring as the activity flowed around me. 

Things started to quiet down as the ladies had moved outside and I was left to color as Julie came up to me and asked “What are you coloring Jay?”   I stopped and showed her my work.  She admired the work and said “come with me Baby.” as she took the book and crayons and unsnapped me from the chair.  I came down and followed her outside to where Mommy and the ladies were sitting in a circle chatting and sipping wine.  Julie led me to a sofa where two ladies were sitting and then picked up a bottle from the table in front of them and motioned for me to get on her lap.  I crawled up on to the one lap and the two ladies adjusted me to fit on them so I saw staring up over the breasts of one lady into her face with a half smile or a smirk.  The bottle made it way in front of my face as the other hand pulled my pacifier.  I latched into the bottle and started to suck as the ladies were commenting on how well I had adapted to my new circumstances.  I got into a rhythm of sucking as I rested into her until I finished the bottle.  Then the telltale sound of sucking of air came.  She responded quickly with another bottle, this time it was water that could wash out the sweet taste of the previous bottle of formula.  While one lady was holding me and my bottle I felt someone else exploring my diaper area.  I tried to move my head to see what was going on but I was held back tighter in place.   I overhead something about me be a keeper and a discussion about marking or branding me.   Mommy told the ladies that I was chipped, but one of the other ladies said that people need to know that I was owned to know that I was chipped.  I was rolled more over to my side and the diaper was pulled up and I could fell a hand grab my butt cheek.  Julie and Mommy were in an animated discussion with some of the other ladies about slaves and babies. I was rolled back to finish my water.  As I started to suck air the ladies propped me back up into a sitting position and Julie came over to take me over to Mommy.  Mommy had me straddle her and then had me lean on a towel on her shoulder.  I rested into Mommy as she burped me as she commented on what a good baby I was.  I think the discussion was about how overtime slaves can run away. A slave might fit into society and then that investment would be lost.  As an adult baby I have no capability to fend for myself or to fit into society other than as a baby.  So there would be no need to mark me as Mommy’s property.  Everyone knows I belong to her and I want to belong to her.  I think they concluded that Mommy could attend Julie’s Sorority meeting where they would be branding their latest property.  It sounded like Mommy accepted the invitation as she finished burping me.  I was let down and the pacifier was returned to its rightful place.  I sat on the floor and hugged Mommy’s legs.  I sat and watched the ladies interact as they chatted about stuff I no longer could understand between their sips of Red Wine and occasional laughter.  I stayed in my place and hugged Mommy tightly as she tousled my hair between interactions with Julie and their friends.  I lost track of time as they continued their chat until Mommy pulled me up by the pacifier to her lap.  I lay down in her lap facing up to her as she undid her blouse and unsnapped one cup from her bra.  She pulled me up into her breast as she continued chatting with her guests as if it was the most natural thing.  I started to suck her nipple in and to the roof of my mouth.   I massaged the nipple and continued to suck and I thought I got a drop or two from her until she pulled me over to the other breast.  She undid the other cup and guided me into the other nipple.  I was starting to get sore, but she massaged my jaw and I continued until it was time for her to release me from the suction.  Even with the meager results she pulled me back up onto her and started to burp me.  I felt the ladies were watching and there was no result until a small burp came out.  I called out “Ma Ma”.  Mommy replied with a “shush” and a few more pats before letting me down on the floor.  I looked up to Mommy who looked so proud as she finished adjusting her blouse.  I reclaimed my position sitting next to Mommy and once again gave her legs a hug.  I didn’t realize the ladies had so much to talk about.  It seemed to go on for hours as I nodded off to sleep and abruptly back awake a few times. 

Julie must have noticed and called out to me “Follow me, Baby Bro.”  I pulled my pacifier and gave Mommy’s legs another hug and then a kiss.  I then leaned forward and started to crawl to my sister as she made her way out of the group and back into the house. 

As I followed Julie another lady came and offered Julie her help in getting me ready for bed.  Julie directed her to my room and told me to “Go follow Cindy” as she stopped in the kitchen to fill a bottle with water.

 I followed my new friend Cindy into my room and stopped by her in the middle of the room as she looked around in amazement as she said “They did all this for you?  I can see why you would never leave being a Baby.”  

Julie came in with the new bottle as her friend made her comments.  Julie asked “do you want to pick out his jammies?  I would suggest a onesie as we don’t want him to get too hot.”

Cindy rifled though my onesies to pick out and animal safari onesie as Julie helped me into the crib.  She poked her finger into my diaper to confirm it was still dry and then had me sit up and raise my hands as Cindy came over with the onesie.  Cindy rolled the onesie up and over my head and pulled it down to the top of my diaper like a pro.  Julie then had me lie down so they could pull the onesie all the way down and snap it up. 

Julie wound up my mobile and gave me the bottle when Cindy asked if she could feed the baby, but Julie declined and said that they should get back to the party.  Regretfully Cindy followed Julie out and closed the door as I sucked on my bottle and heard the mobile music chime.  I was dozing and lightly sucking on my bottle when I heard the door open and close.  I looked to the door and saw someone come in and approach the crib.  The rail was lowered and Cindy had crawled in, straddled me, and put her finger to her mouth and instructed me with a “Shush”. 

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She pulled out my pacifier and I responded with a “Ma ma” to which she covered my mouth and gave me another “Shush”.  It was dark with some hint of light so I could make out the silhouette of my goddess as she removed her hand and then started to adjust her clothing.  I could hear the rustle of the clothing as it was undone and then fell to her side.  She took one hand and slipped it behind my head and started to pull my head up as I heard the click of the light switch and then it was light!  Cindy had removed her top and I could see her perfect skin from her head to her hips clothed in nothing but her underwear.  As the light went on she looked to the door and released my head so I fell back onto the crib mattress.  I also looked to the door to see Mommy, looking less than pleased, at the scene.  Right behind her entered Julie.  I was surprised when I heard what came out of my Mommy’s mouth “You couldn’t wait until you came to baby sit him tomorrow.  You have lacked complete judgment and control.  You are not a Delta Omega Alpha, you would be a beta at best.  Julie, take your brother to my room and then bring me Cindy’s gifts that she brought for us.”   Mommy and Julie came to my crib and while Mommy removed Cindy’s clothes from the crib, Julie helped me out and down.  Julie led me to Mommy’s room and tucked me into bed and stuck the pacifier back in my mouth.  Julie left quickly and left the door ajar as I heard the commotion from the other ladies and then some shouting from my room.  I think it was Cindy saying she was not a baby and Mommy telling her she had to be re-trained.  After some more shouting and screaming from my room it went quiet.  The mood outside was somber and the ladies left the party.  Julie came to check up on me and said that Mommy would take care of me after she finished a few phone calls.      

I don’t know why, but I felt scared.  I don’t know if it was Mommy that scared me or the situation.  I pondered what had happened and what could have happened as Mommy came in a closed the door.  She asked if I was okay and I nodded yes.  She asked if I was scared and I nodded yes and raised my hands to my Mommy.  Then she asked if I needed some cuddle time and I nodded yes.  Mommy knows her baby!  Mommy went to her en-suite and got ready for bed and then came back to bed.  She sat back onto the headrest, opened her robe and pulled me into her breasts.  It was feeding and nurture time.  I took her breast in and started to suck on her nipple.  I pulled it up to the roof of my mouth and began to suck as she held me and patted my back.  I calmed down as I rested in her lap, looking up at her and sucked in bliss.  I saw her face warm up and smile at me as I relaxed into her in complete contentment.  I loved my Mommy and could not think of anywhere else that I would want to be.  After some time she adjusted me to the other breast and I continued in a state of bliss.  Then she asked me if I was happy and I nodded yes while still latched onto her.  She then said “let’s try something new” and moved me so that I was lying inside her legs looking face up.  “Okay Baby, show me how well you can worship me.”  I repositioned myself so that I was facie down and then moved up to the center of worship.  Then I started to lick and suck.  She pulled her legs over mine and then pulled me up a bit from my armpits to a better position.  Next thing I knew she grabbed both sides of my head by the hair and helped me move my mouth and tongue to the desired zone.     She moved my head up and down, in and out until the juices were flowing and my face was wet.  I continued lapping, sucking and now drinking the wine of our sweet communion until she pulled me out and set me to her side and let out a sigh.  I was repositioned so my head was on a pillow facing her.  She put the pacifier back and then pulled me in between her breasts and then started to massage my back.  I reached around with the one hand and also hugged her and then massaged her back.  This was pure bliss when she said “Good night Jay, sleep tight.”  I was right beside her and could not create any friction or a release so I feel asleep wondering what would become of Cindy.

 Next Morning I awoke as Julie knocked on Mommy’s door holding the baby monitor.  You could hear muffled screaming from the monitor and other sounds.  Cindy had spent the night in my crib!  “”Mom, what are we going to do with her?” Julie asked.  Mommy replied “Let’s get ready for the day and see how it unfolds.  We will still have our day together.   I asked your Aunt to come and take care of Jay.  I also talked to Cindy’s mom and we will see what she decides.”  Julie left with the baby monitor in hand and Mommy got up to get ready for the day.  I had wet my diaper but it was still holding everything in.  After Mommy had her shower and got ready she left and came back with my supplies, a new diaper and a new outfit.  She had me get on the floor and made quick work of my diaper change as Julie returned, also ready for day.  The three of us went to the kitchen where Julie had prepared coffee and breakfast.  I was helped into my highchair, snapped in and given a bottle of my formula.  Mommy and Julie sat down to coffee, Orange Juice and breakfast.  They were recounting the events from last night and everyone’s reaction to Cindy’s poor choices.  First was Cindy’s choice of a gift which was a gag and cuffs. Who knew what she had in mind?   It was a good thing that Jay called for his Mama and that they heard it on the monitor.   They put Cindy’s gift to good use.  To think that they had accepted her offer to take care of me today while they spent the day together!   Someone would come by to pick her up before Mommy and Julie left for the day and I was entrusted to my Aunt Amy.  Julie told me I was to call Aunt Amy “Nana”.  Mommy told me I was to be a good boy for Nana.  Mommy and Julie got up from the table and cleared the dishes as the doorbell rang.  Mommy got the door as Julie let me out of my highchair and led me to the playpen.  As I got into the playpen I looked over to see the two goddess ladies from before roll in a box.  I suspected they were going to take Cindy away for some training.  Julie caught me looking in that direction and asked me to color a picture from my coloring book.  I started on the coloring and looked up as I saw the two goddess ladies push the box, now heavier, back out the door.  “Jay” Julie called “Let’s see what a nice picture you can make for your Aunt.”  I refocused to my coloring until my Nana came. 

 

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 I kept my head down, and out of trouble, and focused on my coloring until I heard Nana greet Mama and Juju.  Then I felt it was safe to raise my head up to look around and greet my Nana with open arms.  I took the coloring book in one hand and held it out to show her my artwork. 

“How is my little nephew?” she asked rhetorically.  “Will you be able to handle a day without your Mommy?” she asked.  Nana sat down on the sofa and commanded “come to your Nana.” 

I left the coloring book on the floor of the playpen and started to crawl to her through the open gate.  As I was crawling to her Julie came by with a cloth and another bottle and set it on the side table beside my Nana.  Nana patted her lap and Julie was there to help me on Nana’s lap and position me so that I was looking up past her breasts to her smiling face.   Nana pulled me in tight as she removed my pacifier and then positioned the bottle for me to suck.  Then Mama came by and thanked Nana for taking care of me in a pinch.  I tried to turn to Mama but Nana held me in tight.  I was not going anywhere and now I knew who was in control.  Nana mentioned to Mama that she was happy to come by and help out, especially with the training of her new nephew.  Goodbyes were said and Mama and Juju left me alone with Nana.    

There was a dark side to this life.   The fantasy is great for a few hours or days, but the reality was I depended on these women for my safety and I was not sure my safety was their top concern.  My priority was Mama’s pleasure.  As I focused on my bottle Nana told me more about Cindy.  Cindy acted like an alpha, but with no control she was a beta or at worst a delta.  Her lack of discipline showed she was not ready to be an alpha and needed retraining.  It was up to her mum and the sorority council to determine her fate.  You would hope she didn’t make too many enemies otherwise she might wind up as someone’s slave or cat for the rest of her life.  I think I know why I was scared.  I have no control of my life and if Mama, Nana, Juju or Kiki were not happy with me I could suffer the same fate as Cindy.  As much as I like tension and the release, my focus would now be Mama’s and her friend’s pleasure.  If it was not clear before, it was reinforced when I saw the two goddess ladies wheel out the box with Cindy in it.  Who knows, maybe I will see Cindy again as a cat when we visit her mom.  I hope Mama and Juju enjoy their day and I will focus on keeping Nana happy. 

I realized I was sucking air and Nana pulled the bottle and replaced it with a second one.  I refocused on sucking and looking up at Nana who alternated between being pleased holding me and looking out being bored.  As I focused on sucking I nudged her breast, just a bit, so she was aware of me.  She looked back down and adjusted me in her lap tighter to her.  I came to the end of the second bottle and started to suck air when she looked down again.  She took the bottle and pulled me up and around so I straddled her with my head on the towel on her shoulder.  She settled me in and then started to burp me.  It was a solid rhythmic thumping that brought up the desired results of air and some vomit.  Satisfied with the results she slid me down to the floor and put the towel to the side on the table. 

When on the floor I did not know what else to do but snuggle right up beside her and hug her legs and then kissed her leg.  Her hand reached down and tousled my hair and said “You are an affectionate one, aren’t you?  I can see how you could get into trouble with the girls.”   “Back in your play pen sweetie and then I will take a picture and send it to your Mommy and sister of you playing nicely.” She commanded.  I crawled to the playpen and set aside the coloring book and commiserated with Mr. Bear as Nana snapped a picture and sent it to her sister. 

“Sweetie, Nana will be busy for a while, just play with your blocks like a good boy” Nana said as she continued with her phone to her ear and walked to the kitchen.  I played with my blocks for what seemed like hours, but was probably only half an hour when Nana breezed in and then went to the door. 

Nana was greeted with a female voice and then I heard a much younger voice ask “Mama where is the baby?” as the footsteps approached my play pen.  I looked up to see Nana, another lady and probably a five year old girl holding a clear bag with some Barbie dolls. 

Nana replied “Here is the baby.  He may be big but June you are five, so you can be the big sister.  Would you like that?”  The girl replied with enthusiasm “Yes, I brought my Barbie dolls so we can play.” 

I did not expect this, but I followed June’s lead and we played with her Barbie dolls.  At one point she got up and left as she called her Mommy and said “I have to go potty.”  Then I realized that I must have of wet my diaper without noticing as I was learning to play dolls with June.   I was happy and becoming the mindless infant / toddler that Kiki thought I should be to please my Mama.  “Goo goo” was my only reaction to this realization. 

June came back holding a book and pulled me over to Big Bear.  She sat in Big Bear and had me sit beside her as she declared “I am learning to read.  I am going to read this book to you.”  I watched as she opened the book and pointed her fingers to the words as she read aloud “One Fish, Two Fish; Red Fish, Blue Fish.”  “See that Baby?” she asked.  I looked at the page and heard a click.  I looked up, Nana was holding her phone and the two women looked on with smug satisfaction as June was reading to the baby. 

June turned the page and continued as I made the mistake of yawning.  I think that was the moment Nana was waiting for to declare that the baby needed a nap.  She came to me, thanked June and then had me follow her to my room and my crib.  She helped me into the crib, pulled up the rail and gave me a bottle of water to drink.  “You have been a good baby Jay.  Finish your bottle and enjoy the tape.”  She said as she turned on the mobile and closed the door behind her.

I started on my bottle and heard the music from the mobile and remembered the tapes as I heard … “I am an adult baby, all I want to be is an adult baby  …”

I awoke with no concept of the time.  My diaper was soaked and I was feeling out of sorts.  I started to cry.  I wailed for a short time and then a few tears came to my eyes.  I felt alone and then I sobbed a softer cry but more tears coming to my eyes.  I missed Mama, Juju and Kiki.  I needed to snuggle up to them and I really wanted to suckle.   I needed to get more practice crying so I could do it longer.  I was tired from my sobbing and made a quiet cry as Nana came in approached the crib asked “what’s the matter baby?”

I cried out “Mama” and pointed to my diaper and then held my hands out to Nana.    Nana left the rail up as I got on my knees and held out my hands to her.  She stepped back a bit and then reached down to unsnap my onesie.  I moved my arms up so she could pull it up over my head.  Now I was just in my diaper and I am sure Nana could see it was filled.  I put my hands down to hold the rail.  She put the onesie aside and then reached down under, to my diaper, and lifted it up and down and asked “How does that feel?’.  “It feels heavy” She replied.

“I think that is the feeling of helplessness.  You couldn’t change it if you wanted to, could you? She continued.    “Time for another picture of my nephew” she said as she pulled out her phone and took a picture. 

“Lie down baby, time to get you changed” she commanded.  I lay down in the crib and she got the supplies and dropped the rail when her phone rang.  She answered and it sounded like it was Mama.  Mama must have gotten the picture and it sounded like she was asking Nana to give me a bath.  In all the activity from last night and this morning they forgot to give me one.   Nana reluctantly agreed to give me a bath and end the call with “See you soon.” 

“Okay sweetie down you go, time for a bath.” She commanded.  I came out of the crib and followed her to the bathroom where she started the tub and had me lie down.  She took off the diaper and helped me into the bath.   She saw a rubber ducky on the ledge and brought it down and gave it to me to play with in the bath.  She let me play with the ducky for a few minutes before getting serious about getting me cleaned up.   As she kneeled down I splashed the ruby ducky and some water splashed on her blouse.  Nana was not pleased!  “Bad Baby, you are not to get your Nana wet.”  She got up and took off her blouse and slacks and then came back down.  I looked over to her ample bust restrained by her bra and could not help but think “Yum, yum” as a I reached out to her.  “That is enough baby, let’s get you cleaned up.”  She took a bucket and poured some water over my head to rinse my hair and then started to wash my hair.  She rinsed the soap and then took a wash cloth and worked her way down to my waist.  I didn’t realize it until I saw Nana’s reaction as she looked below the water to see my baby peenie was not so small after all.  She had me get onto all four and continued to wash me down.  I could not help but continue to stare at her breasts.  I felt I was being hypnotized as they swung back and forth as she was vigorously cleaning me up.  I snapped out of it when I felt a slap on my backside and she commanded “out you come.”  I crawled out onto the floor and waited for her to towel dry me. 

“You miss your mommy don’t you?” she asked.  “Do you miss her comfort Baby?” 

We were seated on the floor and I gave her a hug and then moved my mouth to her breast. 

“I see what you miss baby, follow me.” She commanded as she picked up her clothes and my supplies.  I followed her towards my playpen.  She stopped at the sofa and put on her slacks and then sat down and motioned for me to come to her lap.  I lay down and looked up to her face.  She had this knowing smile as she undid her bra and said “Lunch time baby.”

I did not need any coaching to guide my mouth to her nipple and take it in. I sucked her nipple to roof of my mouth and began to suck.  I heard “easy baby” as she rubbed my jaw.  I slowed down and got into a rhythm of slowly sucking.  This was like sucking my soother, no results, but softer and warmer.  She was patting my tummy as I was completely bare.  She then repositioned me to do the other side as she stroked my head.  I was in bliss.  She decided it was time for this to end and for me to get some real nourishment.  She closed up her bra and had me go on the floor so she could do up my diaper.  A quick powder and taping up and I was ready to go.  She buttoned up her blouse and had me follow her to the kitchen.  I was snapped into the high chair and then she went to look for some baby food.  She found a jar of peas.  She opened it up, dumped it in a bowl and put it in the microwave.  She put a bib on me as the microwave was doing it thing.   She returned to the oven and came back with the bowl and a spoon and the biggest smile on her face.  “Time to eat up baby” she said.  She smeared my face with the peas and then took out her phone to take another picture.  After sending the picture she started to feed me.  

 I was part way through the bowl of mushed peas when Nana got a call.  It was Mama checking in with Nana to make sure everything was okay.  Nana did mention something about me getting her wet during my bath, but she did not seem too upset about it.  She ended the call and said “Your Mommy and sister are having a good time so they will be home later than planned.  That gives more time for your Nana to bond with her new nephew!”

 

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Nana said “Remember the time we came to visit you and check you out?  We chose you.  You had started giving me a foot massage so let’s continue where we left off.”  She went back and sat on the sofa and pulled me around so I sat on the floor in front of her.  I started to massage one foot.  Then I moved to the other foot.  Then my hands went to remove the stress from the knee down to the tip of the toes.  She had me stop and got up.

Nana came back with a towel, toothbrush and toothpaste. She then brushed my teeth, had me rinse and swallow and commented “I don’t want any stray peas anywhere! “  She then put the towel on sofa, took off her slacks and sat down with her legs on either side of me.  Then she commanded  “Okay Baby, kiss your Nana – starting from my feet.”  I started to suck and kiss her toes on the one foot and worked my way up slowly to her knee.  Kissing the inside of her leg and then stopped for a minute to reposition myself.  I knew where this was leading and then continued kissing up the inside of her thigh to her panties.  I could tell she was starting to get wet and there was a slight musky odor as a started to suck on her panties when she stopped me.

She lifted her legs up and pulled her panties down and then let her legs down so I was boxed in between her and her panties.  She took my head and directed me to the center of her universe as I continued to lick and suck as her juices started to flow.  I remember I had the feeling that I may have been sold to the two middle aged women with the young lady, now Juju, as my keeper.  That reality sank in as it appeared that I have become the shared property of the two older ladies.  I understand that Mama needed me as her source of worship, but I did not understand, until now, that Nana also needed me to supplement her needs.  While this was not the most pleasant bonding activity, there were worst things I could be doing for the afternoon.  After Nana had her fill, I thought I was done; however, she directed me down the other leg.  I continued to kiss her thigh and then her knees and then finished by sucking on her toes until she said I was done.  She then got up, straightened herself up and took the towel and left.  She came back with a wet wash cloth and proceeded to wash my face and then directed me back to the playpen.  She left me in the playpen and she picked up various things and took them to the wash.  I heard the washing machine start as she returned and gave me another bottle of formula.   The formula replaced the salty taste of her juices that had remained.  After I finished the formula Nana came back with another bottle of water for me to finish.  I relaxed on the floor of the playpen and continued to suck the bottle and let the contents flow through me.   She stood up and was humming something as she went back to the kitchen.  Nana was genuinely happy and I was glad that I could please her.  I started to suck air and Nana came back into the play area.  She took the bottle and sat me up and started to burp me.  The air came up and she said ”That was well brought up, you are such a good boy!”   I lived for that; to be a good boy for my Mama and Nana. 

She gave me a big hug and then asked “Do you want to color a picture for your sister Juju?”  I nodded yes as she handed me the crayons and a coloring book.  I started to color a picture for my sister as Nana got up and left the play area.    Nana came back with her phone and took some pictures of me coloring a picture for Juju.  Shortly after that I heard her phone ring.  It was Mama calling Nana.  Nana was chatting with and came towards me and came into the play area.  She knelt down and then put the phone to my ear.  It was Mama.  She asked me if I was being a good boy for Nana and I nodded yes.  Nana said Mama couldn’t hear me nod yes so I said “Gogo Mana”.  Nana was genuinely pleased as she got up and headed out for the kitchen and continued to chat with Mama on the phone.  I went back to my coloring for Juju. 

 I was starting to feel tired as a continued coloring and also felt the warm release of pee in my diaper.  I must have fallen asleep as the next thing I knew I was being awoken by Mama and Juju.  I felt that my mind was turning into mush.  I do know that my sister’s name is Julie but I keep thinking Juju.  I awoke and said “Juju” as she pulled me up and asked “How is our baby?”  “Gogo Juju” I replied as I reached around to give her a hug.  Juju reached down to my diaper and tested the front.  It had expanded so she commanded me to follow her to my room as Mama and Nana got caught up the day’s events.

I followed Juju and lay down at the center of the floor and waited as she got the supplies.  I was surprised that she also pulled up a chair and the paddle.  I thought I was a good boy.  “Nooo Juju” I exclaimed as she came down to me.  I didn’t do anything wrong I was doing as I was told by Nana.  Juju sushed me as she left the paddle on the chair and came to clean me up.  She removed my diaper and wiped me down. 

She then said “I am sure that you really want to be our baby, but we have this maintenance schedule just to make you want to stay that way. You are a good boy drinking your formula and listening to your tapes.  This is a maintenance spanking so you remember that your mommy and sisters are in charge.” 

She got up and sat on the chair and patted her lap. “I think you know what you have to do.  Up on my knees.” She commanded. 

I got up and lay over her lap and braced for the worst.  She said “just 10 taps on each side.” 

She took the paddle and made a direct hit on my left cheek and then waited for it to sink in.  She then took aim at my right cheek.  It stung.  She then went back to the left and right and continued until it was really starting to hurt so I naturally put my hands to protect me and started to cry.  She smacked my hands and that really hurt and then I started to wail.  Mama and Nana came in as Juju waited for me as I wailed. 

Between sobs I cried out “Juju, Mama, Nana, Baba Googoo” and released a torrent of tears. 

Juju pulled me up on her lap and gave me a hug and asked “Who is in charge?” I hugged her back and replied “Juju, Mama”. 

Mama replied “what about Nana and Kiki?’ 

I replied back “Juju, Mama, Nana, Kiki.” 

“That is a good boy” Mama replied as Juju let me slide back on the floor.  Mama came down and checked the damage to my backside and then applied some cold cream and powder and taped me up in a new diaper. 

She then pulled me up and gave me a hug.  “We love you and we want to make sure you stay a good boy.” She said as she tousled my hair and gave me another hug. 

Mama got up and left the room with Nana and I could hear her say I hope he was not too much trouble. 

Nana replied “It was my pleasure, anytime you need me to watch him, let me know.” 

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As I listened to Mama and Nana talk Juju put away the paddle and the chair.  I could feel the warmth and afterglow from my spanking and then something came to me.  I liked it, not the pain of the spanking but the warmth and the afterglow.  I crawled over to Juju and hugged her legs and said “Googoo Juju”.  Then I kissed her leg.  She reached down and tousled my hair and said “I know you will be a good boy for us - that was a little reminder for you.”  “Follow me” she commanded. 

I followed her to her room.  I had not been here before.  There were boxes and an open suitcase on the floor.  The picture that Nana had me color for her was on her bed.  She picked up the picture and showed it to me and said “I am going to put this picture on my door so everyone will know about you.  Mommy says you can come with us tomorrow so you can see where I will be staying.  Your Nana told me that June came to visit you and that she read you a story.  Do you want me to read you a story?”

 I nodded yes.    

“Let’s cuddle up to your big bear and I will read you a book” she said as she put down my coloring and left the room.  I crawled after her to big bear.  She picked up a book and sat beside big bear and patted for me to sit down beside her.  She showed me the book it was “The Cat in the Hat” and then opened the book to the first page.  I lay my head on her shoulder just above her breast as she started to read “The sun did not shine.  It was too wet to play. So we sat in the house …” 

I was just so happy to brush up to her and feel her warmth and it seemed that she really wanted to be my big sister.  She turned the page and continued.  I could not be happier cuddled up to my big sister.  Mama came by and glanced over to us on her way to the kitchen.  She then returned with her phone in camera mode and snapped a picture.  “Isn’t that sweet, you two look great as big sister reading to her baby brother.” She said and then returned to the kitchen.   Juju continued reading “I sat there with Sally. We sat there we two. And I said How I wish We had something to do! …”

Hmm I thought what could we do?  Juju kept reading and the Cat in the Hat got into a terrible mess, but it was all cleaned up by the time Juju finished reading “Then our mother came in And she said to us two - Did you have any fun?  Tell me. What did you do?  Should we tell her about it? Now what should we do?  Well..What would you do If your mother asked you?”

What would I do if Mama asked me what I did today?  That was more than a question in a kid’s book!  Right now I was an adult baby, but it felt like I was living in a Dr. Seuss story.  At the end of the day I was happy to please Mama and Nana.  I had no responsibilities other than to be a good boy for Mama and my sisters.  After Juju finished the story she called out to Mama that we were finished.  Mama came back with a bottle in hand and sat down on the sofa and motioned for me to follow her.  I crawled up to her lap and positioned my head for feeding when she unbuttoned her blouse and unsnapped one cup from her bra.  She pulled my mouth up to her nipple and I got to work.  I sucked the nipple into the roof of my mouth and started to suck.  I continued for awhile, not expecting anything, but got some liquid.  As the liquid came Mama moved and put her hand to my jaw and started to rub in circles.  I continued until she stopped and released the seal.  She then unsnapped the other cup and repositioned me and we started again.  We worked through this and I figure this would be the most enjoyable way to lose weight as the effort expended to get a few drops of nourishment tipped the scales into loss.  We pretended to be breastfeeding for a while until Mama was tired of it.  She released the seal and then grabbed the bottle and fed me my formula.  After I started sucking air she pulled me up and burped me before sliding me down to the floor and then buttoned up her blouse.  “bedtime for you Baby” she said as she got up and collected the bottle and went to the kitchen.  She came back with another bottle and headed to my room.  She slapped her tight and said “Come.”  I crawled after her to my room where she helped me into the crib and secured the rail.  She gave me my bottle and then turned on the mobile.  She went to the door blew me a kiss with a “goodnight” and turned off the light.  I was left sucking my bottle of water as I listened to the music and the words “I am a baby. I love my Mommy. I love wearing Diapers. I like to fill my diapers.  I like to play …”

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Next morning I was awoken to Juju wearing nothing but an oversized T shirt coming in with another bottle.  “Good Morning Baby Jay” she declared excitedly “Today is going to be an awesome day.”  She came over to the crib and handed me the bottle and then went to open the blinds, letting in the sunlight.  The sun poured in and poured through her shirt leaving nothing for the imagination.  “Your Mommy will be here soon to give you a proper feeding” she said as she exited the room.  I worked on my bottle and finished it as Mama came in wearing a bathrobe.  She came to my crib and let down the rail and let herself into the foot of my crib.  After she sat down she pulled me around into her lap facing up at her.  She removed her bathrobe and positioned my head to take in breakfast.  I sucked her nipple to the roof of my mouth and got to work.  Eventually I did get a few drops of milk. Mama was starting to lactate!  After some time, she released the suction and repositioned me to the other breast where we started the process again.  While working on the second breast I looked away as I heard some noise of boxes and general motion.  Mama repositioned my head so I was focused on her beautiful face as I tried to take in my breakfast.  After some time a few drops also came in and I continued until there was no more.

Mama did up her bathrobe and got out of the crib and then undid my onsie.  She got some wipes, powder and a new diaper and came back to clean me up, powder me and tape up a new diaper.  She called for Julie and asked her if she wanted to pick out my outfit for the day.  Juju came in and rifled though my closet to pick out a purple onesie.  Mama left as Juju came over to put on the new outfit.  After the onesie was snapped in place she led me down and to the kitchen to my highchair.  Juju snapped me in and then went to the counter to boil some water. 

Mama came into the kitchen ready for the day and sat down to breakfast as Juju had poured some hot water in a bowl.  She came and gave me a bottle of formula to finish as the two of them worked on their breakfast.  Once breakfast was done Juju went to get the bowl and pulled her chair beside me.  She started to feed me oatmeal, which by now, had cooled.  There were was the usual train and airplane noises and the requisite oatmeal smeared on my face.  I could not help it, I am sure she intended to miss my mouth!  After the oatmeal was finished Mama came with a wet facecloth and wiped me down with the comments of what a helpless baby I was.  “Look at you” she said.  “Filling your diapers, making a mess when we try to feed you breakfast.  You are nothing but a big baby, but you are my baby and Mama will take care of you sweetie” she replied.   

“Julie are you packed and ready to go?” she called out. 

Julie came to the entrance of the kitchen and “I am almost done.” And continued out the door.

Mama helped me down from the highchair and had me follow her to the door where the stroller was waiting for me.  She helped me in the stroller as Juju came in and out checking to make sure she had everything.  Finally she came and helped push me out and over the doorsill to their SUV.  The doors were opened and she positioned me to the back seat of the vehicle.  On the other seat in the back was a diaper bag, a few plastic toys, a blanket, a bottle and Mr. Bear all waiting for me.  She clicked me into the seat and then collapsed the stroller and placed it in the back of the SUV and closed the rear hatch with a resounding thump.

Mama came out with her purse and another bag of items and made her way to the passenger side.  Julie was driving!  Julie pulled the vehicle out and we started on our journey.  Mama gave me the other bottle and then the two adults started talking about Julie’s expectations for school for the year.  We were driving through the city, which I did not recognize, and then made our way to the interstate.  I had finished my bottle by the time we hit the interstate and let it drop to the floor.  Mama heard the bottle drop and gave me Mr. Bear and placed the pacifier back in my mouth.  The interstate was not that exciting and with the constant hum of road noise I must have fallen asleep.

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I don’t know how long I had been asleep, but I woke up with a wet diaper and the noise of girls expressing their excitement as they were greeting each other.  We were parked in front of Julie’s sorority house.   The grown-ups were out of the vehicle and greeting each other and then I heard the back door open and the ladies starting to take out the contents.  One voice, I seemed to recognize, but could not place it, commented on the oversized stroller. 

Julie replied “That is for my Big Baby Brother.”  I heard some more commotion of things being unpacked and then was surprised when my door was opened.  There was Julie and the other voice was Kaylee!  The pacifier fell out of my mouth.  She lunged in and put it back where it belonged. 

“Well look who is here!  This is where you landed as Julie’s little brother. Long time no see – did you miss me?”  Kaylee exclaimed.

Julie was surprised and asked “do you know him?”

Kaylee answered “I met him when he was being prepared for your delivery.  He was so good I was hoping the sorority would get us a diaper slave and they have!  Our new diaper maid is going to be branded as our property tonight right at the end of the pledge ceremony.”

“Can we take him out?” Kaylee asked.

Julie replied “Sure, bring around the stroller.”

Kaylee disappeared as Julie unsnapped me from my seat and helped me out as the stroller appeared.  The ladies had me snapped in and now I could get a view of Julie’s digs for the year.  Mommy was talking to another lady and interrupted her chat when she saw Kaylee pushing me towards the house. 

“It’s okay mom” Julie said as came up behind carrying a suitcase.  I was pushed to the entrance of the house and watched the beehive of activity as people were entering and exiting with boxes and cases.  Julie’s place was on the second floor so I was let out of the stroller and commanded to crawl after Julie to her room.  As I reached the top of the stairs I followed her to her furnished single room.  Julie set her suitcase on the bed and waited as Kaylee came up with some boxes and set them on the floor.  I noticed there was a lot of commotion outside as people were going up and down the stairs and though the hallway.  I sat on the floor beside my big sister who was still standing. 

“You look cute in your purple onesie.  Have you been a good boy for Julie?” Kaylee asked rhetorically.

“In the short time that I saw him I think we developed a special bond, didn’t we baby?  I was even invited over to babysit him including changing his diaper.  In fact when was the last time you have been checked?” Kaylee inquired as she lunged forward and her hand went for my crotch. Her finger probed its way into my diaper to confirm what everyone already knew.

Kaylee took command and directed me to lay on the floor and asked Julie for my supplies.   They were still in the car.  Julie left to get the supplies as Kaylee set to work to unsnap my onesie and rolled it up.  She untapped my diaper and waited for Julie to return.  Clearly Kaylee was an alpha.  Julie returned with a box and my diaper bag.  She gave Kaylee the bag and set the box on the bed.  Julie opened the box and started to unpack as Kaylee made quick work on cleaning me up.  They were chatting about their expectations for the school year, the surprise to see me, and tonight.   

I was cleaned up, bored and hungry so I called out “Ba Ba Ju Ju”.

“Come here Baby” Kaylee called out.  She had me sit up in the corner of the room as Julie pulled a bottle of formula out of the bag and gave it to Kaylee.  Kaylee placed the bottle to my lips and then pulled my hands around so I was holding the bottle and said “That should keep you quiet.”.  The ladies the went back to their conversation with the occasional side glance in my direction.  I guess they have gotten use to me. I started to suck air and made sure they could hear as I tipped my head back to get the most out of my bottle.  Julie came over, took the bottle and then leaned down and pulled me into her and burped me. 

Julie had finished unpacking for now as Kaylee said “Let’s go outside.”

I followed them to the top of the stairs, but it was a long way down and crawling head first I was afraid I was going to fall.  They could see I was hesitant.  Kaylee was part way down the stairs and tried to coax me to come down as Julie stepped back up and held one hand and sat on the top stair. 

“Let’s try this” she said as she positioned me to sit on the top stair.

“Now slide down like this” she said as she slid her bum onto the next step.

I did the same and again for the next step as Julie got up and they watched me slide down, step by step, to the bottom.  They clapped and said “Good Boy.”   That was something I lived for to hear “Good Boy”.  Julie followed me down the stairs and they had me crawl out to the outside of the house.  Mommy was still talking to someone as Julie snapped me back into the stroller and pushed me to Mommy.

“Hey Mom, do you want to stay for the pledge ceremony tonight?”  Julie asked.

“I am not sure sweetie, we have to get home at a reasonable hour.”  Mommy replied.

“They added the dedication of our new diaper slave to the ceremony, I think you would like it.” Kaylee added.   

Mommy took charge of my stroller and started to push me around on campus for awhile and then we returned to the back yard of the sorority house where there was a BBQ and a spread laid out.  There was a large Delta, Omega, Alpha near the BBQ which became the presentation, pledge area.    I think we were staying for the ceremony.  In my earlier days I would also hang around just for the eats if not just to be in the company of all these high powered women.

I was kept in the stroller and pushed to one of a few chairs away from the center of attention.  The sorority was gathering and food was flipped and placed on platters and more food was added to the BBQ.  Food was piled high on one of two tables.  The second table had baskets of grapes and fruit placed on the one end.  The ladies had gathered and I could see two young ladies dressed in white robes at the entrance to the house.  The entire place was filled with females except me.  Mommy grabbed a small blanket and put it on her lap and then started to unsnap me from the stroller.  Julie came by and helped get me out and placed me laying in Mommy’s lap facing up.  She undid her blouse and bra and then covered me up. SO I could not see anything and the hearing was muffled.  She guided me to her nipple and nature took its course.  I greedily sucked in the nipple to the roof of my mouth, latched and began to suck.  I focused on extracting as much nectar that I could, but there was not much.  As I slowed down she prodded me to continue.  I could hear the occasion applause and words, but I all I figured out was that I was not to be part of their solemn ceremony.  Then there was great applause and Mommy released me to suckle on her other breast.  I glanced through the blanket and saw at least a dozen women dressed in white moving from the front back to the house.  Mommy got me to latch and Julie must of come to her to chat.  Next thing I know Mommy released the latch, took off the blanket and sat me up in her lap facing the front. 

I looked to the side and saw eight of the pledges carrying a male who had a ball gag and was secured by his wrists, ankles and legs in a low kneeling position to a board being carried out near the BBQ.  They set him down on the table with the fruit baskets.  Another lady in white said “Today we dedicate and you to honor, obey night and day to the fullest extent until death do you part.”  Another lady pulled a branding iron, out from the BBQ and firmly affixed it to the male slave’s butt.  You could hear a sizzle and then a faint smell of burnt flesh as he screamed in agony through the ball gag.  Thankfully the scream was not too loud.  The lady put the brand back in the BBQ. There were cheers and applause.

 Mommy commented to Julie “Did you really want your little brother to go through that? I think it is cruel.”

 Julie replied “It is only one day of hurt for a life time of memories.” 

Then I saw the lady pull the brand out again and she went to apply the brand on the poor slave’s thigh. He cried out again and then he stopped and seemed to collapse on his serving board.  I think he fainted as some of the women came around him and revived him.  He was back and then they poured some cream or oil or sauce all over him.  Then the fruit baskets were unpacked and the fruit was placed all over the board. 

Julie helped Mommy clip me back into the stroller.  Julie went forward and took a plate and started to serve herself.  Mommy pushed my stroller up to one table and put the plate on the canopy of my stroller and started to serve herself.  We came to the second table, which now I understood to be the desert table and there was the slave.  He was alive and well secured to the serving board with a ball gag securely in his mouth.  He was covered with chocolate and butterscotch sauce and bits of fruit, marshmallow.  There were long forks and the sorority sisters ahead of us were spearing the fruit with a fork and then covering the fruit with the sauce from the slave!  I heard him scream through the ball gag again as one sisters took great delight in probing and smearing the sauce over his new brand.  I don’t think he signed up for this when he heard he would be serving all these young ladies in the sorority house.  Come to think of it, that could have been me.  I had no choice as to who bought me, where I was going to go or who I would serve.  I am so happy that I belong to Mommy.  I will have to give her an extra special hug when I can.  As Mommy pushed the stroller past the slave she stopped and also speared some fruit and smeared it on the slave’s back to cover her fruit in sauce.  She then continued to push the stroller back to where we were earlier. 

The stroller was repositioned to be beside Mommy and I was given a bottle to work on as Mommy had her dinner.  Dinner was uneventful as I finished my bottle and looked around to see Julie, Kaylee and one of her friends from before, and a host of mostly younger women.  These women were set and determined to be the leaders of today as well as tomorrow and you could feel the power.  As I was contemplating my simple life Mommy interrupted my thoughts with a chocolate covered strawberry.

“Here baby, eat.” She said.

I opened and ate and felt like I was some sort of cannibal as I was eating the sauce from the slave.

Mommy spoke to Julie “I am glad I stayed, but now we have to get going, if we are going to be home at any reasonable time.”

Julie took the plates and Mommy pushed my stroller around the side to the front of the house and to the SUV.  Julie came out and helped me into the back seat as Mommy packed the stroller in the back.  With the rear hatch closed there were hugs and kisses.  Mommy closed her door and then started the car for our journey home.