diaperpt Posted June 18, 2021 Share Posted June 18, 2021 Oh no! It just gets deeper and deeper! I won't abandon the story, but this side of the story is making me uncomfortable. That's not necessarily bad... I guess... maybe... Link to comment
YourFNF Posted June 19, 2021 Share Posted June 19, 2021 On 6/15/2021 at 7:36 PM, Sophie ♥ said: 16.) "Would you be interested?" "In taking ecstasy?" "Well, just going to the club... we don't have to take them..." We had barely been talking two minutes before I brought it up. As always, we were dressed identical. "It might be fun... get out of the house, you know?" "Uh huh, sounds like fun." I couldn't have fathomed it earlier in the week, but after last night I felt more and more Lanny - despite my attire - and that meant I was feeling experimental and a little invincible. "What time? Are they picking us up? What're we going to wear? What do boys wear to clubs?" We'd been to plenty of clubs, but now I was actually noticing what people wore. "I... I don't know..." I liked Lanny this way, even if it caused me a bit of stress. Having her happy meant a lot more to me than anything. And maybe ecstasy would perk me up - who knew, right? So we tarted ourselves up in our girl jeans and a matching band tee. "Marie taught me how to do makeup, so I'm going to do that!" "To the club...?" "Boys wear makeup too, Hayden." "Really...?" I didn't want to discourage though, so I obliged. We wound up looking very androgynous - we didn't wear bras, but with our tight girl jeans and form-fitting tops we definitely tipped the scale toward the feminine. The makeup certainly didn't hurt that image, either! "You look so fucking sexy, Hayden..." I didn't say it until we were standing outside our dorm building in the parking lot, waiting for Hannah and Oliver. With his thick-lined eyes and mascara-laden lashes accenting the slightly sparkling powder on his eyelids and cheeks, Hayden looked absolutely beautiful in an androgynous way. "Wow." That's all Hannah said when we climbed into the car, but Oliver had a lot more on the subject. "You guys are gonna get manhandled dressed like that. Seriously, man." I shrugged my shoulders and opened up my book. "You can't bring that in," Hannah said. "I'm going to leave it in the car - hush your blush." "Cool your pool!" I chimed in, grinning. "You're just jealous that you don't look so fine, Olliepants." "Olliepants? What are you, three?" "Oh, don't be harsh - he's clearly ten." "Don't you give me that - no ten year old has this sense of style." Hayden didn't say anything, but that didn't matter; between our thighs where we sat in the back, out of sight, I kept my hand intertwined with his and felt downright invincible. "Now you girls know not to drink anything given to you by strangers, right?" I didn't protest the gender-joke and I would've rolled with it, but Oliver piped in. "They don't look like girls. Just really queer boys." "Sexy boys." "Careful man, you're making me think you jumped the fence." "Nuhuh, I like girls." And I did. That the girl I liked was my brother didn't need to be said. I left my book on the seat, as promised, though I had every intention to bring it in with me. Hannah probably knew that, too. My brother took me by the hand and led me to the entrance to the club. Hannah and Oliver stopped just outside. "Alright kiddos, you in or out?" He had a bag of little mints. "In," I said without asking my brother. I just needed to relax a touch... Everybody knew that it was a lot worse to be caught with ecstasy in a business than outside, so Oliver gave us each one of the pills and with a little look of trepidation at my brother, I popped mine in my mouth and swallowed just before we got to the front of the line. "How long't this take to kick in, Ollie?" "For your skinny ass? Five minutes. Come on." We flashed our ID's at the doorman and paid cover and in four minutes and twelve seconds we were inside the club. There was a faint ringing in my ears, and I could feel my siblings heartbeat through our joined hands and the music thrummed and I felt a sense of elation.We couldn't drink. That upset me for the first five minutes, as much as the music did, and after that I couldn't give a fuck. I watched my brother dance and I followed him without trepidation. The pill really did perk me up, to say the least. All the colors were brighter, and everything was just so... interesting. Texture. Tastes. Smells. But there was one particular drawback - a set of girls on the dance floor with pacifiers that made my body quiver. God, they were sexy... Somewhere along the way my hand slipped out of Hayden’s and I found myself dancing in a sea of bright colors and textures and cheap plastic jewelry and by the time I found my way back to my sibling I was similarly adorned; my left wrist had a dozen borrowed bracelets and there were two necklaces around my neck. And in my lips, from I don't know where, I sucked on a pacifier. Hayden locked eyes on me, my skin shimmering with body glitter, the pacifier between my lips, and he closed the distance, pulling my body as close to his as possible with lust in his eyes. I couldn't be sure if I was aroused or jealous. My brother barely looked like my brother, and with the pacifier between his lips, I... I ran my fingers along his outer thigh, my lips coming down on his neck. Fucking, fuck, was he sexy... the pacifier in his lips, the little candy bracelets, the smile... I was moaning into his ear as I traced my finger up his legs. I wanted him so badly... Hayden's fingers were like little live-wires, drawing electricity up my thigh as he touched me and I felt my tight jeans get even tighter. I smiled coyly behind the pacifier and ran a hand down his back, my fingers playing with his ass as we swayed together to the music, mutual lust above the boil over into something altogether more physical. I wanted him. He wanted me. We were beautiful and everything was perfect. There was nothing I could do about it. I was kissing him, and kissing him passionately, as my fingers ran up his thighs. I wanted him so very badly, and I knew it. God, did I know it. And if it wasn't for the crowd gathering to watch, Oliver might not have noticed. Our lips were upon one another, the pacifier in my hand that wasn't fondling my brothers behind, his hand running up my thigh, fingers so close to the bulge in my jeans and we were so lost in the moment that we were halfway out of the club before I realized Oliver was tugging us out and yelling something or other at the two of us. I tasted the cool night air and felt the firm surface of the bench on my ass as we were roughly forced to sit and I looked up at Oliver as he yelled, only catching bits and pieces. "God what the fuck guys, come on. That's fucking fucked and you're fucking up my high and jesus you're brothers and fuckity fuck!" We both looked at him. Hayden started to giggle. I giggled too. And then went back to kissing my brother. Like anything else mattered. Oliver pushed us apart again and I couldn't help but smile. "Just. Stop. Stop touching each other. I have to... find Hannah..." Oliver disappeared back into the club and I sat on my hands, making sure not to touch my brother at all. I leaned over, nonetheless, and kissed his lips again. The pacifier was still in his hand. I wanted it so badly.... "I want to... to take you down that alley and... and make you suck on my p....p...p...pacifier!" I giggled wildly and then kissed him. Then pinned him down on his back on the bench. And kissed him more. And then I didn't know how but my hand was down the front of his panties that I'd made him wear. And everything was right with the world, everything was perfect. When Hannah finally found us, we were still on the bench, my brother's hand down my pants and the pacifier in my mouth. I was so turned on... so ungodly turned on. But before we could take it any further, Oliver was separating us again. I whimpered in frustration and shook my head. "Cut it out!" "Guys. Guys! It makes you horny. This isn't you; this is the ecstasy. It makes you wanna fuck like bunnies but come on, you're brothers. I know you're sexy and stuff, but you know you're brothers, right?" Oliver frowned and when I tried to slip my hand down Hayden's jeans again, he'd had enough and stormed off, leaving us both with Hannah. "Please... Hannah... I wan' my Hayden now... please... she's so sexy and she wants me too, ask her!" "You're really fucked up, aren't you? Did you have alcohol, too? Did someone buy you alcohol?" I smiled and curled up against my brother, my cheek against his, but then Hannah took the pacifier from my lips. I have no idea why. I have no idea why I reacted the way I did. I have no idea why the tears started and I began to cry. I couldn’t help it. Hannah was absolutely taken aback. "That's... mine..." I huffed and quickly snatched the pacifier away from Hannah like a protective parent and gave it back to my sister. "Tha's not yours, Hannah!" "Alright. Jeez. Okay. Look. I'm going to get you two some food, okay? It'll help. Can you please promise me not to fuck each other while I'm gone? Please?" The pacifier had found it's way back to Hayden's lips and I had my arms crossed and I nodded, doing my best to look stern. "Fine but don't take her pacifier no more, okay?! Meanie!" It was a little obtuse to have Lanny as the lucid one between the two of us, but I was really fucking messed up. I'd had nothing to eat all day, after what happened that morning, and I was entirely entranced with my sister-now-pacifier-protector. I crawled up on his lap and ran my fingers along his thigh. "Please... can we... find somewhere for us? I wanna... um..." My cheeks were burning up. "Uh huh... uh huh..." The part of me that promised Hannah was lost the moment my sister climbed up on my lap and began to tease along my thigh again and I looked around, not really sure where we could go. "You tell me what you want, Hayden. I wanna hear you say it in your pretty voice and then we will, we will we will..." My head was swimming. I didn't know where we'd go but I knew we had to go because I wanted my brother and I wanted him now and it couldn't wait anymore and fuck Hannah and fuck Oliver and... and... I felt my cheeks warm up. He really wanted me to say it...? I bit my lip and leaned in to whisper in his ear. "I really wanna... um... try giving you a blow job... I just... really fascinated... and you're just... you're my favorite, and... and you're a girl anyway, so it's fine..." I'd regret everything I said the next morning. We got up off the park-bench, my hand in Hayden's and the pacifier in his lips and a mutual goal in mind. It didn't matter where we went, it didn't matter at all - we could have done it right there and then if I wasn't afraid Hannah would stop us. We wandered out into the parking lot and then I fumbled the broken-door-handle to the back seat of Oliver’s car, opened the door, then pulled my brother inside. I slipped the boy's pants down his thighs in a heartbeat, my fingers running along the bulge in his panties. I'd never even had the opportunity to touch another boy other than myself, but he wasn't a boy, and this was normal, totally normal. People have sex on E all the time. So I lowered his panties and his cock sprung to life. I started to run my hands over it. My chest was pounding and this was so much more surreal and wonderful than any music in the club. My sister ran her fingers along my cock, my cock that had been rock hard the moment we'd started to dance and I started to breathe heavily, taking the pacifier from her lips and sticking it between my own. I wanted her so badly, so badly. "Pwease... Hay'en... pwease dun' wait..." Talking with the pacifier was awkward, but it only seemed to turn Hayden on more. For the first time in my life I took a cock in between my lips and did my best to replicate the boys in the porn I'd seen online. I kept bobbing my head up and down, lavishing his member with my tongue. It was a lot weirder than I thought, since I couldn't bite or suck the way I would my pacifiers. The only down-side of ecstasy-based arousal was how intense it was, how hard it was to draw anything out, and the moment his lips touched me I felt like I was going to cum. The fact that I didn't was only testament to my willpower, and my fingers ran through his hair as he continued to bob up and down on my cock. My brother. My sister. My Hayden. My Hayden was sucking me off. Oh gosh. Oh gawd. I wanted it to last forever, but I knew it wouldn't, I knew how close I was and how exhausting to hold back. When my brother quivered beneath me, I should of known what was going to happen. I mean, it's kind of obvious, right? But with his cum squirting into my mouth, I had absolutely no idea what to do. I did my best not to let any get on Hannah's car, and that meant most of it stayed between my lips. I sat up with blatant and hopeless confusion, my mouth full of cum, and my brother lying on the back seat. I was barely conscious, barely able to move, my eyes closed and my breathing ragged and the pacifier on the floor. "Hayden... kiss... kiss me... please....?" I didn't know that his mouth was still full of cum! I didn't know that he didn't know that he was supposed to spit or swallow. I didn't know any of that until his lips touched mine and I tasted something entirely new to me. My eyes went wide and I tried to stop him, but the moment we were kissing Hayden did know what to do and he made sure that kiss lasted until every drop of my cum was in one of our respective tummies. I didn't fall asleep, not really. Lanny still wasn't wearing pants when Hannah and Oliver found us, but his panties had been pulled up, still in plain view, and very obviously feminine. We were both cuddled together in the back seat, and Hannah was at a complete loss. She didn't know what else to do but to take us home, to her place. Landon had crashed pretty soon after getting back to Hannah's dorm and Oliver had gone home, which meant only the girl and Hayden were awake at 3am that morning when the ecstasy finally cleared out. Hannah sipped on a coffee as she watched Hayden in the arm-chair contemplatively. "It's kinda hot you know. You and Landon. I didn't want to say it in front of Oliver, or encourage it, but you two just... kissing like that? Really hot... I don't understand though, why was Landon wearing girl’s panties?" I shrugged. It was a lie. The ecstasy, despite the diminishing effects, was still somewhere in my blood. Things pulsed the way things shouldn't and everything was a little hazy. My brother was asleep, and Hannah was well and truly Hannah again. I felt more... drunk now, than anything. "Iono..." I kept the pacifier in my mouth. "Have you two... done that before? Kissed and..." Hannah had seen Landon with his hand down his brother’s jeans. "Well, you know. I knew you two were close, I just didn't know you felt that way for one another." "Iono... I mean, like, she's... she's so lovely and... and nice to me, and I know lots of people are, and lots of people like me and stuff, and Lanny's just special because she knows everything but she... gosh she's just... I'm not gonna find anyone like that, Hannah, and I shouldn't just let it get thrown away." I smiled up at her, despite the mild incoherence. "You know you keep calling your brother 'she' right?" Hannah rolled her eyes, but she didn't want to ruin this - how often does a girl see two incredibly gorgeous boys who have the hots for one another. "Oliver doesn't get it and he's probably going to be an asshole tomorrow, but don't listen to him, okay? If you two want to kiss and... other... stuff... you go for it, I say." And then, she couldn't help but ask. "What did you do, anyway...? When we found you in the car..." I felt my cheeks get red. I felt kind of like I was falling. The no food thing wasn't very smart. Oliver didn't know though, and neither did Hannah. I was in a perpetual haze. Eventually, my blood sugar would crash and I'd be out cold, but until then, I was falling. "Iono... I mean, I never did that before, so... I mean, it's not gay 'cause it's not a boy..." "You mean you..." Hannah grinned like the cheshire cat and scooted forward. "Did you and Landon have sex, Hayden?" It was a question Hannah never imagined she'd be asking her best friend, but there it was nonetheless. "And why do you keep calling Landon a she and a girl and not a boy? Landon is your brother. You're twins." "No.. it's... it's a secret..." I shook my head. The coherence was really lost on me. Every suck of the pacifier brought me closer to sleep, but each of Hannah's words put me in the real world again. It was an endless battle, and no matter how many time Hannah tried to remove the pacifier, I'd just cry and cry. "I'll let you keep the pacifier if you tell me the secret, Hayden. Wouldn't that be nice? You can sleep with it all night." It wasn't unusual for first-timers to find the teeth-grinding alarming. The pacifiers definitely helped with that, to say the least. Still, the way Hayden was with it was... almost child-like. Hannah hadn't seen that before. "But... but it's... mine..." "Then you'll tell me the secret." "I... yeah... um... well... Lanny's a girl, so... so I'm a girl, because we're the same... that's it..." I wasn't even sure why it was a secret anymore. I was so tired, but more than that, I was so exhausted. I didn't close my eyes, but my head was propped up awkwardly on the couch. "And why do you think Lanny is a girl, Hayden?" Landon was laying in Hannah's bed so she figured she'd just sleep on the sofa, which left the pull-out for Hayden. "Hop up, I'll take you into my room and you can lay on the pull-out and get some sleep." Hayden was four types of exhausted so it wasn't at all surprising that he was babbling like this, but it was the consistency of the babbling that was worrying Hannah. "Lanny is a girl! She is!" I frowned and shook my head, but Hannah had already pulled me into her room and plopped me down on the pull out bed. I looked up at her with a decisive pout and tried to talk about something else, but the pacifier was so relaxing, and the bed was so soft. I thought about trying to stay awake, but without Hannah's words, it was impossible. Hannah closed the door and flicked off the light, leaving the twins in their respective adjacent beds and laying herself down on the sofa. They'd had sex. Well, some form of sex. Hayden was dressed, so maybe oral? Incest was so wrong, so taboo, so.... so fucking hot, god. With no regret at all, Hannah let her hand slip down her panties and prepared to finish off her night with a happy ending over the idea. --------------- Thank you for reading! Like, Comment, and check us out on Patreon! Yeah these two and ecstasy was a bad idea.... ?? *To Hayden* Also oohhh honey... If your both girls or gender fluid it is very, very gay.... *pats head* Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted June 21, 2021 Author Share Posted June 21, 2021 18.) I wasn't sure how, but Landon had convinced me to wear the skirt after all, and a diaper to boot. And that was how we drove. "We're changing at the gas station. You promised." "Do you like your presents, by the way?" It was the first time I'd thought to ask, though we'd packed them anyway. "I do. I mean, I think... they'll be interesting. I mean, those kinds of clothes never really crossed my mind, you know? Maybe because they were hard to find, or something... or getting them mailed was so difficult without you finding out... but yeah. Very excited." I was not, however, excited that Lanny had packed them. "Isn't it nice not having to hide it from me anymore?" It sure was nice not having to hide being a girl, so I imagined he must have felt much the same way. "They're really comfortable... aren't they? Diapers I mean. I hope..." I bit my lip and looked at my twin. "You don't feel like I'm taking something that's yours... do you? Like... overstepping...?" "No... I don't think so..." The sky was already dark. I was leaning up against the window instead of my brother. "I think that... it's a good thing. I mean, I like having someone I can share it with, someone who kind of gets me, you know, or at least... tries. I mean... I'd never that that with anyone else, and... and I shouldn't overlook it. Even if it's a little weird..." "I like weird. Makes me feel special." I pulled up by the truck-stop, as far from the building as possible. "Climb into the back, I'll change you out of your diaper little sis." Something about the idea just made me happy. It totally wasn't anything to do with the erection I was hiding. I thought about protesting, but... if the past week had done anything for me was normalize the entirety of everything. Maybe Lanny and I were boys, but we could be girls too. And maybe we wore diapers, but so what? And maybe we were siblings, but we kissed. So maybe having him change me could be a good thing. And it definitely helped my little side... We didn't have a huge car, but we weren't big girls either. Hayden climbed over first and laid down across the back seat. I followed him and knelt on the other end of the seat, reaching up his skirt to find the tapes. "Ooh, my little baby sister needs her diaper changed! Don't worry, big sis will get you all cleaned up." Not that he needed it, but pretending was fun. "Stay still, okay little girl?" I was never really into the girly side of baby stuff, but the way Landon put it... well, it was certainly appealing. I relaxed into the back seat of the car while my sister untaped the diaper from my body and slipped panties up in their place. I had to admit, I missed the diaper. It wasn't until we were on the road again that I said anything. "I really like this, I think. Us, right now..." "So do I. And a week ago I could never ever have guessed it... but I'm happier now than I've ever been... and it's all to do with you. You encourage me to be a girl, and we go away on these weekends and you let me baby you during the week and... and..." My cheeks were pink enough to be visible even in the dim light as we drove. "I... I hope what happened last night doesn't have to be a one-off..." "Yeah, well..." I put a little smile on my face and looked down at my feet. "Me too, I think..." Of course, my perspective of serenity was soon worn thin by the arrival at Marie's doorstep. Marie... but I was bored and stupid, so pushed my brother into her arms and walked right past them both. "You two love birds keep it down now, alright. I'm going to change into some cute pajamas." My Lanny voice was coming along beautifully. Oh that bitch! I frowned at my sister and grinned at Marie, falling into my Hayden voice. "I've missed being a girl, Marie. But don't tell Lanny... I... I don't want her to know how much I'm really enjoying this." After the way she yelled at me last week, I was pretty certain I wouldn't be telling Marie of our exploits of late. I did as promised, changing into pajamas that Lanny had packed. But of course, she had only brought nightgowns. I frowned and slipped it on anyway. Stupid sister... "Here you go." I tossed it to her happily. "I know you don't like those, and you probably think I'm a total jerk right now but you should get changed!" The message between the lines made me smile and I looked away coyly. "You’re so annoying sometimes." I stepped past Marie and pushed Hayden aside, then went into the bedroom to get changed. "So... how was your week? How's Hayden been? She seems to be in good spirits." Marie, of course, saw herself as talking to Lanny. "Yeah, I mean... I can't be sure, because you know how cryptic she is, but she seems much more content with everything. It's refreshing." Of course, I was speaking from experience, but she didn't need to know that. At the end of this, we likely wouldn't tell Marie, either. If we told her every time we switched, she'd suspect. But we only told her about 20% of the time. "I'm glad. And how have you been this week? I was worried about you, having to go home for a whole week and go back to your drab life as a boy. Did Hayden take care of you? She's such a doll. Far too sensitive to have ever been a boy, you know? I think this is best for her as well." Emma wasn't here, but she would be later and that would mean some interesting dialog. I put on a little smile and looked up at the ceiling. This kind of thing, this switching personalities, always had a lot of risks. We had rules. We'd established those rules, between us, and how questioning someone about ourselves was never really a good idea. But I broke that rule today, and I regretted it. "She's a great sister. We've been so close recently, and... I don't know. You remember last time we were here, and he had his fit about us... what do you think about all that?" "He was upset about you kissing him, but I told him that sometimes girls experiment once or twice - especially sisters and especially twins. Just don't do it again, okay? I'm sorry I chewed you out last week, but right or wrong it really upset him and you should be more mindful." Marie smiled and kissed the twins cheek. "You gotta be more caring when it comes to Hayden. He's fragile." It was a mistake to push things. I knew I was breaking the rules, but I was too stupid to stop myself. "He thinks you hate him." Idiot. Fucking. Ugh! "About the break up, you know. I just mean..." Stop. Really. Cut it out. "You aren't jealous, right? That we're..." "I don't hate him. I mean, I'm confused and I was hurt and peeved, but you know... I do worry about him." She kept her voice low. "I hope he finds someone as wonderful to him as you are, because he needs it. He needs someone who gets him, someone to pick him up when he falls down. He's like a lilting flower, you know?" Marie sighed and looked down at her hands. "I hope he finds someone like that." "We're together." It was petty and stupid, and I regretted it after I said it. But I just... I hated hearing her talk about me that way. I hated all of this. I took a deep breath and shook my head. "Hayden and I are dating and I really couldn't care less what you think." Before she could get a word out, I walked right past her and into Emma's room. "Hey..." I dropped the clothes I was folding and quickly put my arms around my twin - Hayden was crying. "What's the matter? What happened? Hey you, talk to me sissy, please? Let me help?" "Marie... um... knows... might have told her... I just... I wanna lie down... she's probably mad or whatever, but... I don't know... I just... please lemme lie down..." Lanny, as confused as she was, took me to Emma's bed and laid me down. I pulled the pillow over my head. I just needed a minute... if she saw me like this, she'd know it was me talking to her. I couldn't handle that right now... "Promise you're going to be okay? I can go and stall her, but I need to make sure there's nothing else I need to know - you told her what? That we've been messing around?" I gently ran my fingers through my sister’s hair and my voice was soft and calm. "What happened, beautiful girl?" "I just—" But there was a knocking on the door and I buried my head further into the pillow. I was such a fuck up. I was such a hopeless fuck up... "I need... a second..." I whispered. Lanny nodded and kissed my cheek. I got to my feet and went to the door, opened it, then stepped out in front of Marie and closed it to give Hayden the time. I'd be playing me immediately after he had and that was risky, but I had to protect him. "Sorry I stormed off... I wanted to clear my head. Long drive, you know?" What had he told her? Well, what had I told her? "Hayden is laying down, she's a little blah after the drive, too." "You can't fucking date your fucking sister, Lanny!" Despite the anger in her voice, she kept it low. She didn't want to wake Hayden, that much was obvious. "Are you crazy? She's already doing so much for you, and now this? Now you want to push her even further?" So that's the elephant that was now in the room. Huh. Okay, not so bad. "Look... it was something we talked about, after last week. After the kiss, we liked that closeness, Marie... and I don't know if we're dating really... we're just testing our boundaries. We've always been really close, you know...? And we need to figure things out." I hoped I hadn't contradicted my sibling. "It was as much her idea as mine, Marie... and it makes her smile. Really smile. This could be good for us, and who does it hurt?" "It... it hurts... you! It hurts her! And you! I mean! You can't keep this up! You can't keep going! And you're going to break up like couples and not... not be close the way you are now! You'll fuck it all up! Do you understand that?!" She was clearly pulling her complaints out of thin air, but a point was certainly not lacking. "It doesn't hurt me, and it doesn't hurt her. Marie... you know we've always been close. Really close. Did you ever try to figure out why Hayden broke up with you? I've been giving it some thought, and maybe... maybe this will help her trying to figure out what happened. Maybe... maybe she's had feelings for me for a while, you know? Maybe her breaking up with you was less about you and more about me." It was a long shot for anybody else, but I knew it was a hard-hitting topic for Marie and that it would force her to think. "How... how fucking... EGOCENTRIC CAN YOU POSSIBLY BE?!" She didn't keep her voice down that time, though. "You're fucking crazy! You think she broke up with me because of you?! You...! Ugh! You're a fucking lunatic! Fuck!" Marie stormed away from the boy, grabbing her purse off the hook by the door and slamming it on her way out. I followed her out of the dorm and all the way out to her car and then spoke very very clearly. "Marie. I know you don't get it. But it was Hayden... it was Hayden who wanted to be with me." Not strictly a lie - she'd been the one who'd said we were dating to Marie. "We're sheltered... we don't do bad things, we don't smoke or cheat or anything. We're just who we are. And now that we're girls... we need to experiment. It makes her so happy, Marie. Why don't you speak to her...?" "Because!" Marie frowned, turning back to the older of the two girls. She took a deep breath and crossed her arms, looking up at her dorm room with a frown. "This isn't a good idea, Lanny. And I'm glad you're both happy, but... it's not, okay? It's just not..." Marie shook her head and turned away again. "I'm going shopping. Be back in a couple hours..." "Please don't be mad, okay? You know I've always been there for Hayden. I know you worry about her. You think I'm selfish and ego-driven... but Marie... I'm the one who was there when Mom died. I'm the one who was there when Hayden was getting bullied for crying. I'm the one who did all her college paperwork when it made her stress. Please trust me to look out for her...? I'm not the selfish guy you think I am..." "I don't think you're selfish, Lanny..." Marie turned around with a little smile. She was forcing it, of course, but she was trying to lighten the mood. "You're the least selfish person I know... truly. But I don't think you always see Hayden properly. You think she's so much like you. I mean, you notice the little things, the changes, but... I bet you would have never guessed she'd start crying after you kissed that first time, right? You're an amazing sister, you are, but Hayden's a mystery to the best of us, and maybe you're too close to see the big picture..." "I know she did. I know she was confused, because she worries more about what other people think than about what she wants. And we talked about it, Marie... and this is what she wants. I promise you. Sacred pinky promise you. That if she says she doesn't want it, I'll make sure it never happens again. But... I..." At the last minute I thought better of mentioning the blowjob. That was ours. "I think you should be worried," Marie said with a frown, looking again up at her dorm. The lights were on. "You're a pretty convenient package for Hayden... and you really shouldn't mistake convenience for... passion..." Marie sighed and decided against that train of thought. "I..." A little frown crossed my features. "Hayden is a convenient package for me, Marie... and I... I feel passion too, okay? I like kissing her. I like it a lot. I like... I like..." I turned away. "I'll see you when you get back." Her words kept repeating in my head over and over and over. A package of convenience... it wasn't like that, though, it wasn't! --------------- (Sorry the delay on this one! We went away for the weekend. Anyway...) Thank you for reading! Like, Comment, and check us out on Patreon! 1 Link to comment
diaperpt Posted June 22, 2021 Share Posted June 22, 2021 "convenient package"... hmmm. When you put it like that, incest aside, great point! And at the intersection of two people whose needs have not been filled and now are filled and supported. Link to comment
YourFNF Posted June 22, 2021 Share Posted June 22, 2021 Switching personalities?I thought I noticed something like this... I thought I was getting the texted mixed up and it was honestly kinda fucking with me... ? Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted June 24, 2021 Author Share Posted June 24, 2021 On 6/22/2021 at 12:10 PM, YourFNF said: Switching personalities?I thought I noticed something like this... I thought I was getting the texted mixed up and it was honestly kinda fucking with me... ? Yeah this might be the story that best demonstrates the need for colored text. XD Thanks for reading and commenting, friends! ❤️ Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted June 25, 2021 Author Share Posted June 25, 2021 19.) I knew Marie had left. My eyes were still red, but I was definitely feeling better. I had over reacted. I caused drama too. This was always such a risk when I played Lanny - she was so outspoken, and most of my thoughts were best left unsaid. "Hey," I said with a small smile when Lanny returned. "I'm so sorry I put us in that mess..." "It's okay." I flopped down on the sofa and smiled. "Wanna sit on my lap? I wanna talk about some stuff. Wanna make sure you're happy, you know?" It wasn't something that should be put off, as much as I really truly wanted to. Marie had put those seeds of doubt in my head and I had to dig them out before they took root. "Of course I'm happy..." I frowned and scooted over, letting Lanny sit next to me. "You're really cute in your nightgown, you know?" I smiled warmly. I felt a lot better. I still felt stupid, though, for the stress I'd caused us... Marie was probably mad, too... "Marie is worried that you only want to be with me because I'm convenient, not because you find my attractive, or want to be with me, or anything like that." My cheeks were dusted with a little bit of sparkling powder that caught the light and I smiled. "So I'm going to ask you three very simple questions with yes or no answers, okay?" "Yeah... absolutely..." I looked at my brother with a bit of a frown. Convenient? What did that even mean... of course I found her attractive. Of course I wanted to be with her. No one understood me better... "Do you find me attractive physically?" The questions would be simple, yes or no answers. They wouldn't be entirely foolproof, but it would be a point of reference. Passion was difficult to prove and this was really all I had to go on. "Yes. I mean, which is a little weird, because I don't think I'm very physically attractive, you know? But that's a psychology thing, and self perception, and looking glass self. So really..." I bit my lip and looked up at my brother's expression. "Right... yes. The answer is yes." "Do you find me attractive emotionally?" This one needed a little more explanation. "Do you feel as though I complete you, or fulfill you, or make you feel something other people don't? A little spark somewhere in your tummy where if you close your eyes you can imagine yourself with me in every part of your future?" "I... um... I think so..." I wasn't really sure if Lanny completed me or fulfilled me, not really, but I couldn't imagine my life without her. I felt like I'd die. Maybe that's all it was. And she definitely made me feel something! So I nodded my head. "Yes." "Do you find me attractive sexually?" Another one with a minor amount of explanation required. "Can you imagine me being able to fulfill your sexual appetite and desires, and do you think you would find yourself fantasizing about me?" That was an ego-driven question, I supposed, but it was important. "Yes." It was an easier one. She already did all that. She satisfied all my fantasies so perfectly, and there didn't seem to be anything else. I answered all her questions. So the answer was yes, right? No more poutiness? I smiled happily. "Could you look someone in the eye that asked you on a date, another girl... and tell them 'no, I have a girlfriend.'? Would you turn down somebody else for me?" It was a fourth question, but I needed this bonus round. I was smiling, though. Or I had been. I'd smiled after the last one at how quickly she'd answered. "Absolutely," I said without hesitation. Really, though I only ever dated two people, and one of them was Marie. Dating wasn't something I did often, or something I did well. The idea of not ever having to do it again was definitely convenient. "Yes. Definitely yes." "I want you to prove these things to yourself, Hayden. I want you to daydream about us together, and I want you to involve me in your fantasies and I want you to look at me and want to see me in pretty things. And if anything falters, I want you to tell me, okay? I want to make sure I'm your one, Hayden. Not just your only." "I don't understand... I already do those things..." I mean, the daydreams had only really just started, since last night, but they were very much about my sister. Right? I didn't understand where all this was coming from... That made me happy. Gosh it made me happy. I pushed my sibling down on the sofa and climbed on top of her and kissed her firmly and passionately, smiling as I pulled her hair out of her eyes. "I'm sorry I'm so stupid. I just want to make sure I'm good for you." The door opened a second later. Lanny quickly climbed off me, and where I expected to see Marie, we saw Emma instead. Oh... great. "Um... Marie went... to the store..." So we dressed up like girls and made out on your couch, k thanx. "Hayden... Landon...? Are you two... I mean... were you just... and are you wearing..." She didn't leave, though. She just stood there trying to coordinate variables that didn't match, no matter how many puzzle pieces she went through in her head. It would have been smarter to cover myself up with the blanket than pull the clearly matching girlish nightgown down over my body. "Hey Emma..." Emma had met us a couple times, but we weren't explicitly friends. She was cool, as far as we could tell, and Marie seemed to like her enough. "So... do you always dress in girls pajamas and make out with each other in other people’s dorms?” "I'm sorry Em, Marie didn't tell us that you'd be home." Which totally didn't offer any explanation about the dressing as girls or the whole incest thing. Hm. "I prefer Lanny now, by the way..." "Oh right. You're girls now. Right? Like Cecily?" "I don't know who that is but I'm going to go with...yes." Hayden was cuddled up to my arm like a scared child and I smiled. "Well. Not quite like Cecily. She doesn't make out with her brother." "Sister." "Right." "Um... it's not like, weird or whatever, is it?" Emma was always a sweetheart, though she treated Lanny and me entirely different. She always talked down to me, like I was a kid, and up to Lanny, like he was a genius. I wished I could say I hated it, but I really didn't. "Whatever pops your cherry, babe." Emma smiled at Hayden as she went into the kitchen and then spoke to me - and clearly to me by the sound of her voice. "So how long's this been a thing? The girl thing? Anything I can do to help?" "I don't think so, Em. Thanks though. Look, I know you think it's weird but we're kinda dating and Hayden's pretty sensitive about it. You don't think we're freaks, do you?" "God no. If you want to, whatever. I mean, the sad fact about it all is that people are so narrow minded they'd never even get to judging you for that - they'd be too busy causing melodrama over the fact you're both girls." Well, she definitely had a point. I sat down on the edge of the couch and Lanny sat beside me. I laid down and put my head on his lap. He ran his fingers through my hair. "Alex wanted to meet you, I think." I hadn't texted him all week, despite promising. I had been busy... "Alex, the boy from the book-store? Are you going to tell him that you're no longer a single girl? How do you think he'll take it?" I liked playing with Hayden's hair. "He's got a boyfriend, I think, or something like that. He's like, not a boy or a girl, or something. It's a little confusing honestly, but he said just to think of him as whatever I see him as, which is, I suppose, a boy. And his not-really-boyfriend has a boy name, so I don't know..." I was rambling, but I was nervous. "Do you think you'd be interested in meeting him?" "How about we invite him over tomorrow. We could watch some movies, have some Korean delivered. You and I, and Marie and Alex and maybe Emma?" The girl looked up from her phone and took a bite of the carrot she was eating. "I'm in." Admittedly, the dorm-room wasn't the most spacious place in the world and certainly not for five, but we'd make it work. "You and I would have to cuddle to make room, sis." "I think I'm okay with that." I smiled up at my sister and Emma stuck out her tongue at the both of us. "I didn't know you'd be one of those ooey-gooey couples..." I closed my eyes and did my best to stay conscious. I really did feel tired after everything the day before. Hannah gave us a few warnings about the pills for over the weekend, but it wouldn't be so bad. "Oh, we're not very ooey-gooey. I mean, last night was a different story." I felt my twin’s cheeks heat up at the analogy - he knew exactly what gooey part of last night I was referring to. "We're new to being girls, so we get a confession. PDA's all around." "Okay. But put a sock on the door if you do are doing anything more than kissing, alright?" The whole night was a bit of a mess. With the lethargy of the car ride and the breakdown in front of Marie, Lanny and I spent the rest of the night pretty quietly. By the time Marie got home and put a movie on, I was feeling pretty terrible and excused myself to her room to sleep. Hangovers only last a couple hours... ecstasy sucks. "I spoke to Hayden." It was only Marie and I who were awake by time the clock read 10pm - both Emma and Hayden had gone to sleep and I was near that point. "I asked him if he wanted me because I was convenient... or if he wanted me because I was me. He said he finds me physically, emotionally and sexually attractive. That he fantasizes over me. That he'd turn down anybody else to be with me." "So what?" "What do you mean so what?" "God, Lanny, I find you attractive, and I've fantasized over you a million times. So why aren't we together? You know what, forget it, alright? I was out of line. Hayden and you will probably be very happy." But she certainly didn't sound sincere. "Can we just... not talk about it anymore?" "We're gay. And we're trans. And we're siblings. You know, I think we're going to face enough crap from, oh, I don't know, everybody. Having my best friend doubt us is... it's hard..." I didn't usually open up so readily, and I didn't know why I wanted her approval so badly, but I did. I needed it! "I know. And I'm sorry..." Marie looked down at her hands, her fingers playing with each other out of boredom and not anxiety the way Hayden did. She looked over at Lanny with a small smile and nodded. "I'll be supportive. I promise. I just... I think this is wrong. Not because siblings are dating, but because it's you and Hayden... and I just... I don't think this is how it's supposed to be, okay? I'm sorry about that..." "If you see that we're happy, one day, will you support us? Or will you always be waiting for and hoping for a day you're proven right?" I didn't want to paint Marie was petty, I really didn't! But I felt like she was convinced this was a bad idea and so very little would ever change her mind. "I'll support you now..." Marie smiled, a fake smile, but a smile nonetheless. "I hope I'm never right. I really do..." Marie shook her head and climbed up off the couch. "I'm tired. I'll sleep on the couch. Do you mind laying with Hayden?" Of course he didn't. "Are you sure? I can get her up, and we can lay on the air-mattress..." My eyes felt wretched though, horrible and dry and worn out the way that I guess ecstasy was renowned for. Having Hayden go down on me was incredible, but this feeling right now of apathy and emptiness and exhaustion was a close polar opposite. "It's fine. I'm fine here. Go be with her." Marie smiled the worst smile in the universe and put her head down on the pillow. She didn't sleep well that night, but most of it had nothing to do with the location. --------------- Thank you for reading! Like, Comment, and check us out on Patreon! 1 Link to comment
diaperpt Posted June 26, 2021 Share Posted June 26, 2021 Marie is pretty special to accept and at least say she'll be supportive of Hayden and Lanny. It is strange to read " I think this is wrong. Not because siblings are dating, but because it's you and Hayden." Strange because the 'usual' reason for not supporting incest would be what I'd expect. On the other hand (and I think I said this earlier), incest is taboo because it tends to produce genetic issues with offspring. But that would not be an issue between Hayden and Lanny. Is she seeing the relationship between them unhealthy because it's not a balanced relationship? ...Lanny pretty much calls all the shots. At some point, I'm going to guess, whether in this story or after this story ends, that Hayden is going to rebel in one way or another. Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted June 26, 2021 Author Share Posted June 26, 2021 1 hour ago, diaperpt said: Is she seeing the relationship between them unhealthy because it's not a balanced relationship? Imagine that. A character that might notice their relationship is unhealthy. XD We're getting to the fun parts of the story now. ^_~ Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted June 27, 2021 Author Share Posted June 27, 2021 20.) We woke up around the same time, me on my back and Hayden cuddled up around me, head on my chest and one knee tucked up over my thighs. "Hey sleeping beauty..." I felt dreadful. Worse than yesterday! Gosh, what was wrong with me? "Ecstasy sucks." "Totes..." I climbed out of bed first. My body felt like lead. I tossed my phone to Lanny. "Call Hannah and figure out what the hell is going on with us so I don't jump off a building..." Maybe then I'd fucking feel something. I started to think about the questions the day before, the ones Landon asked me, and I wondered how accurate anything was the way I was feeling... "Okay." I smiled and looked at the phone with bleary eyes as Hayden left the room. Marie was in the kitchen scraping butter on toast and she looked up with a smile. "Morning Hayden. Want some toast?" She only knew it was Hayden by virtue of the way he rubbed his eyes when he first woke up - he did it with balled up hands and Lanny did it with the palms. "Kill me first, and we'll talk about it..." I sat down at the table and put my head on the marble. I was suddenly wondering if I could get more ecstasy to make me feel better, but I doubted it. "How'd you sleep?" Things with Marie seemed better today. I was happy about that. "Oh, you know. Most comfortable sofa in the world." The spare blanket was still draped over the back of the sofa in question and Marie sat down on the blissful cushions. "How was the night with your girlfriend? You're lucky - she doesn't snore or anything. I bet you're the little spoon, right? Lanny always seemed like the protective sort." She really was trying, despite the hollowness she felt in her words. "Um, it's not really like that... like... I kind of lay on her arm or something... it's something I probably can't replicate with words, you know? Ask me for a demonstration sometime." I sat up on my chair with a smile, which put Marie's falseness to shame. Fuck I wanted to die. Or sleep again. That'd be nice... "I'm glad you're happy." Marie let the topic change pretty quickly. "So we're doing a movie and meal today? Lanny mentioned it before she went to bed. You girls and me and Emma and Alex as well? Wow, that boy's going to be outnumbered by the estrogen in the room. Poor kid." "I think he's gay, so I don't suspect that'll be an issue." Gay boys bought girls books too, right? Or was he looking to cheat on his boyfriend? I didn't suspect so - it wasn't like a sixteen year old kid. "I'm really nervous. I feel terrible today..." But a second later my sister opened the door and motioned for me to come in. "One sec." "So... apparently Hannah knows I'm a girl now. That we're both girls. And I didn't tell her. I promise I didn't." It was a promise I was actually certain was set in stone - I hadn't told Hannah, not even when we were on ecstasy! Fuck... "Um... yeah, I might have mentioned somewhere between the... explaining why you were wearing purple panties and why the inside of my mouth tasted like your penis..." I ran my fingers through my hair. "We should really get dressed. I'm going to meet Alex at the mall and walk back here." "You told her? But you're the one who didn't want her to know!" I huffed and smacked my twins behind playfully. "Such a naughty little girl, telling me one thing and then doing another." I half-smiled at my sister and looked down at my hands. "So what did she say about feeling better, anyway? Is all this normal?" Topic changes were good. I started going through our duffel bag for something to wear. "She said it's because the serotonin is all gone for like three days after you take ecstasy and we just have to ride it out. She did say that sex would help..." My cheeks were read and I felt the need to back that up. "I'm not kidding, and I'm not just saying it to get inside your diaper, missy. She said that." Which did make sense, really... "Jesus, keep it down, will you?!" Marie, and everyone, certainly knew nothing about the baby stuff, and I preferred to keep it that way. I put my head against the wall and took a deep breath. It was fine. Everything was fine... "Pick us out something to wear, please..." "Oh, don't be a poutypants." I picked out a pair of capris on account of our smooth legs and began looking for a top to match. "We need new clothes. I mean, more clothes. I think this could be a problem, you know. I just want more things to wear, more outfits to put together. Maybe I should drop psych and be a fashion designer..." "Maybe..." Anything that kept the inevitability of the topic at bay. I suspected, though it wouldn't come up again until tomorrow, when we'd have to go home. Until then, I could enjoy my weekend as a girl with full knowledge that I'd be leaving as a boy. Hopefully. I changed into the white capris and purple top, the same my sister wore, and we both wrapped our hair up in pigtails, which was about all Marie could do with it. "You know we're really cute. I think there's something really appealing about attractive boys who become attractive girls." We sat on the sofa together while Hayden fingered through her phone looking for Alex's number. I was interested to meet Alex, of course, but I was also nervous. Anxious, even! "Hi. Yeah, Hayden. I know. I know, I'm sorry. I know. Not really. I know. I know. I know, I know. Okay. Right. Yeah. That's good. Okay. Bye." I clicked the phone off and turned to my sister. "He says I don't talk very much." "That's true. You don't." "Can't really argue that point. Maybe Lanny should be your liaison." "Oh yeah, I could make your appointments and stuff." "It's not like he'll be able to tell you two apart anyway - I barely can!" "Nobody can. That's how we prefer it." "Mom could," I said with a smile that very quickly faded. I took a deep breath and left my sister alone on the couch. "I'm gonna walk, I think. Walk there, walk back... um... I'll be home soon. I have my cell." I slipped my shoes on as quickly as I could and stepped out of the house long before my sister or Marie could get a word out. --------------- Thank you for reading! Like, Comment, and check us out on Patreon! 1 Link to comment
diaperpt Posted June 27, 2021 Share Posted June 27, 2021 14 hours ago, Sophie ♥ said: Imagine that. A character that might notice their relationship is unhealthy. XD ?? ? Yes! My comment was rather rhetorical! Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted June 30, 2021 Author Share Posted June 30, 2021 21.) "What's with you, buttercup?" Alex was sitting on an over-turned shopping cart when he met up with Hayden and he wore a concerned smile, though one suited for the level of their friendship. "If you wanna talk, we can. If you don't, I'll pretend I don't notice." "I don't know what you're talking about..." I didn't cry, which was good. It would have ruined my makeup. And I made sure to change the topic in my head to circuses, which I liked. And the walk to the mall was a good hour away, so when I ran into Alex and he asked his question, I wasn't sure what to say. "You usually look down, at your hands or your feet or at the ground even. Always down. You've been looking up. You're doing it now. See? The tree? The clouds? The bird? If you don't want to talk about it, that's really fine." Alex really was an observant little anomaly. "Sometimes I look up," I said defensively. "You've only ever seen me reading or drinking tea, you know. You shouldn't assume things..." But, all in all, he was right. I stuffed my hands into the pockets of my capris and started the walk back from the mall. Alex followed. "You know you haven't yet told me that you don't want to talk about it." Alex smiled. "People have a habit of sending mixed-messages. I suppose I shouldn't be surprised." He laughed a little to himself. "Ironic." I rolled my eyes and turned my eyes back to the clouds. "You're doing it again." "I like clouds!" "Touchy, touchy..." I pouted and slumped my shoulders, turning my attention to my feet. I felt stupid for yelling at Alex, especially when he was right. "I think I'm nervous or something. Life's hectic right now..." "I'm an impartial observer. You can tell me anything and you'll never have to see me again if you choose not to. I'm an undefined variable. Tell me some of your hectic things?" Alex didn't ask it as a request, but instead almost like he was asking for a favor for himself. "I don't know..." I sighed and bit my lip. "My sister's really... pushy recently. She keeps wanting to do this thing, and I'm not really... I don't think I'm ready. Not yet. But I want her to be happy, you know? Ugh. Nevermind. Tell me more about you or something." "What does your sister want to do?" The topic was clearly the sore point in all of this, but Alex reminded the girl of his stance. "Remember, you can never see me again after today if you like. What do you have to lose by telling me?" "I don't know. Maybe because you're the only person in the world that doesn't know anything about me, not really, and that's kind of..." I bit my lip and turned to Alex with a smile, a genuine one. "Cool. That's kind of cool.""Whatever makes you happy. How far away are we going? To the college, right?" Alex walked with a sort of spring in his step that really only came with being someone completely free of worries or concerns. And nobody really had no stressors, but Alex definitely seemed like it. "Yeah, up to the East Undergrad dorms. It's really not so far, and we can drop you home. Oh, you didn't drive, did you...?" I hadn't even thought to ask. Damn... "No, no, I walked." "Awesome." I walked alongside Alex for a long while, not really talking about anything. It was still mid-afternoon. "You seem a little flat. I mean, more than usual." "I took ecstasy two days ago." "Ah. That'll do it." Alex smiled though, a knowing sort of sympathetic smile - the sort of smile that made it abundantly clear that he was smiling out of experience. "You should feel better late tonight or early tomorrow. Dark chocolate helps a lot." "Dark chocolate...?" The boy nodded and I shrugged. "My sister said sex..." He laughed, the kind of whimsical laugh you don't really hear often, and I felt my cheeks turn a bit pink. I liked how little Alex knew about me - it left little complications. And what was best, I had no romantic feelings for him. This was an easy friendship. "Sex would also help, yes. But then it's not like most people have sex available on call, you know? I mean if you do, then more power to you. For everybody else, there's dark chocolate." He was a definitely a well-informed young man if nothing else. "We'll hit a convenience store - come on." I pulled Alex's wrist up the hill to the store at the top, just a ten minute walk away from Marie's. Dark chocolate Hershey's kisses. I bought one bag and made my way straight to the counter. "You shop very well." "I don't even know what that means." "You come in, and you buy what you want, and then you leave. You shop like a boy. Most girls can't do that." Alex stood alongside the girl in line and swayed gently on the balls of his feet with a little smile. "Thanks, I think..." But the more I thought about it, as we left, the worse I felt. I started eating the Hershey's kisses, hoping they'd make me feel better, but they didn't. How did Lanny shop? I hadn't been shopping with her - I'd been reading books. I bit my lip hard and ate another kiss. Fuck, fuck, fuck... "You're stopped looking at clouds. Back to your usual thoughtfulness then?" The boy took a bite out of his apple he bought and chewed it thoughtfully as they walked; they weren't very far away from the school now. "Yeah... usual thoughtfulness is about right... it's just up here, on the right." I led the way into the dorm building, down the hall, to Marie's apartment. I took a deep breath and smiled up at Alex the best I could. "Be nice." Like he needed to hear that. --------------- Thank you for reading! Like, Comment, and check us out on Patreon! 2 Link to comment
diaperpt Posted June 30, 2021 Share Posted June 30, 2021 Interesting chapter. Alex seems to be showing up randomly, but for someone in their mid-teens seems to be a strong presence; lots of confidence and making some very insightful comments based on very little knowledge. Are they magic?? Regardless it seems like someone has to pop in and help Hayden understand herself a little better - if she believes it. I almost wonder if we'll find out that Lanny has already met Alex and fed them information. But then, I'm very seldom right with hunches about your stories! So I'll sit here and wait patiently as things get sorted out. Link to comment
Little Lamb Posted July 1, 2021 Share Posted July 1, 2021 I really like Alex as a character, and also his takes on the situations he faces. It's an interesting dynamic with Hayden and I'm eager to see how that interacts with Lanny and the other girls. He's really observant and insightfull, not many 16YO are, which makes me think, how did he turn this way, what happened to and with him along his first formative years that led to such behavior and way to be. Anyway, awesome chapters and the twins shoulda stay the heck away from ecstasy, or not, but I'd like to read them doing it again if that's the case... ? Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted July 1, 2021 Author Share Posted July 1, 2021 Alex is definitely a very observant character! I actually like having someone in the story that is a little more up to date on gender stuff versus Hayden, who is a little archaic if we're being honest. It makes for interesting conflict. I'm glad people are enjoying the difficulties these twins are going through, especially Hayden! And I promise the next chapter will only cause more problems. ^_~ Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted July 2, 2021 Author Share Posted July 2, 2021 22.) I was sitting on the sofa when the door opened - Hayden was there along with the boy named Alex and I looked up with a toothy smile. I was trying to paint my nails. I was not doing well. Emma was in her room with the sound of the hair-dryer and Marie was in the little kitchenette looking through delivery flyers for various restaurants. "Hey you." I looked down at my nails. "And you must be Alex? It's nice to meet you. I'd shake your hand, but you know..." I didn't like that Lanny was painting her nails without me. We were, as usual, dressed to a T. I led the way into the room and introduced Alex to Marie and my sister, Lanny. I didn't see Emma, though. "Make yourself comfortable, I guess." I sat down next to my sister and took the pot of polish away from her, starting on my own nails. I wasn't very good either, but it seemed to be just the same as Lanny and that made me happier. "I was going to clean them off, then do both of ours once I was good at it," I whispered, or did my best to, though Alex was sitting across from us and I didn't want to exclude him. "I'm sorry, we're very close and we like to be the same as possible." "Oh." "Oh?" "It's just... you both seem like pretty different people. And that's okay! You should be your own selves and all." What? "Well..." I looked over at Lanny with a frown and back at Alex. "I mean, yeah, we're different... but sometimes that's good. Like, when I pretend to be Lanny or she pretends to be me, the differences really sell it. Seriously, when we're in sync no one can tell us apart. We both dated Marie at one point, and she never knew the difference!" Of course, now that we were girls, those words had entirely new context. "Oh," Alex eyed Marie, as if trying to reassess her now that he knew she liked girls, and then back at Hayden. "I could tell you apart though, even if your sister was pretending to be you." He talked about it as though it was funny and I frowned, looking down at my nails. "A lot of people think so, you know, but nobody can, yet." Marie piped in, a tray of crackers in her hand, which she subsequently set on the coffee table. "You really shouldn't be so arrogant," she said as politely as possible. "They are different people, but they can sure surprise you." Alex remained unconvinced, however, and I started thinking of ways to mess with him. I wasn't mean, but I really didn't like that level of smugness. I gave my sister a look of 'where did you find this guy...?' but didn't let it linger. Emma was still getting ready and Alex shrugged his shoulders. "I don't mean to come across that way, but I'm very good at reading people and I don't think I could be tricked." "Well, we'll see." "I was thinking Korean food, maybe?" Marie clearly wanted to minimize any tension and she was remarkably good at changing the subject. I let my hand slip into my sisters. Emma showed up somewhere between ordering Korean - which Lanny adored and I tolerated - and we went through the introductions again. The idea of our quote-unquote 'tricking Alex' wasn't brought up again. I didn't mind - it wasn't something I really wanted to think about anyway. The food came early in the evening; everything delivered on this campus, and I liked that so much more than our college. "Hollie's a nice school, but it doesn't have the impact of this place, I don't think." It was a Lanny thing to say. We'd been in sync most of the hour. "I could see us moving here," I added, thoughtfully, between a bite of noodles out of my sisters bowl. We'd been doing it all dinner time, just a playful little gesture. "We'd miss Hannah and Oliver, though." "Friends from your school?" "Uhhuh. They're kinda closed-off people though. Closed-minded." "I like Hannah." "You've met her a total of three times." This was a conversation I took the back seat on. I didn't like saying mean things about someone behind their back, true or untrue. Oliver wasn't the type I'd confront, and it just didn't seem fair. Hannah was another story though, and when the topic shifted to her, I had more to say. "She's an oddity, but I dig her. How often do you meet people that free-spirited, you know?" The neutral vocabulary was nearly scary. It was so different to the way I normally talked to Alex. "She's really supportive of us, too." I guess 'us' wasn't a concept we'd broached with Alex yet and he looked at me with a curious glance. "She's supportive about you... what?" "They're dating." So much for subtlety. I smiled coyly, looking at Hayden and then back at Alex. "You two are sisters, though. Twins." "Sisters who kiss in my bedroom." Emma found it one part amusing and one part endearing, and I felt my cheeks heating up. This was not my ideal way to broach this topic! "Right, well..." I quickly got up from the couch. My skittishness on the subject wasn't something very well documented - not by anyone but Marie, anyway - and I took the empty plate of mine into the kitchen. Lanny followed a second later and I did my best to smile. "What's up?" "Nothing. I just wasn't really ready for Alex knowing... but it's fine, right? He's great, and he's super accepting, so it's whatever." "People are going to know. And some of them will be great and some might not be. But they don't matter..." I put one hand on my sister’s hip and gently pushed her back against the refrigerator - we were mostly hidden here. "Am I worth it...?" My lips touched hers and my wayward hand found its way to her thigh, playfully. I felt a blush on my cheeks and nodded my head. "Absolutely." I kissed my sister back, once, fast, and turned to look her top to bottom. "Come on, I have an idea." I made sure to check ourselves in the mirror beside the microwave - identical in every aspect no doubt - and came back into the living room together. We sat in a new spot, together on one large chair, entirely in sync as we ate. It was seamless. We were really really good - we always were, but I guess we had something to prove at the moment. Alex watched us as we sat back down and then finally decided to ask: "So you two are dating. How long have you been dating for? And how far does it go? Is it just a platonic thing, or…?" I wanted to answer, but I also didn't want to give away the game so I bit my lip the way Hayden does and buried my head against her shoulder. "A couple days so far." "Nothing special." "Not yet." "Not really." "And it's a little less platonic." "We just like each other." "No one better than your sister to really understand you." "Right?" "So we're test-running." "And test runs are going well." "And that's that." I finished off the statements, entirely in sync, without a single flaw, and Lanny and I smiled the same symmetrical smile we always practiced. I felt so serene in moments like this. "So, Hayden, when you say it's a little less platonic, what do you mean?" He was looking at Hayden when he said that. And she'd been the one to say it too. How did he know? How did he...? I frowned a little. "I'm Hayden..." I lied. "You're Lanny. She's Hayden." He was so confident, so infuriatingly confident! And he was right, too. "Why do you... think that...?" I shook my head, my chest starting to hurt. The ambiguity and serenity of my relationship with my sister - of our... our... synergy… and this boy had to make all that go away? Why was he so selfish? I shook my head and looked away from Alex. I felt so uncomfortable... "You just act different. You're not very much alike, like I said." How could he say that?! "We're very similar, Alex." "I don't think so. Hayden isn't really anything like you." I went quiet. Both of us did, Hayden and I. I looked into her eyes and smiled weakly, then whispered. "We'll make our synergy stronger, okay?" I climbed up from the couch and stormed out of the living room. Everyone would think it was just a temper tantrum. They'd think I was being me, which was what I wanted them to think. In reality, I just wanted to cry alone in peace. I stepped out into the hallway, slamming the door to the dorm room behind me, and started out across the field in front of the building.In the calm serene way that I handled things like this, I stood up and smiled. "Excuse me." And I went out the door after my sibling. She liked trees when she was sad. Trees and grass and the sky to stare up at and get lost in. And ten minutes later, that's where I found her - sitting against a tree. "Hey you. Is there room for two?" "Leave me alone..." I didn't mean to be rude to my sister - it wasn't her fault - but I just... I couldn't do this. I couldn't do this right now, or probably ever, and I was okay with that! I pulled my knees tighter against my chest and buried my head. The sky was still red. It would be dark soon. I wanted it to be dark... "You don't want me to. I know you don't, because most of the time I know what you're thinking. And you know what I'm thinking right now, too. Don't you? Why don't you tell me?" My voice wasn't my peppy Lanny tone, and it wasn't my depressed last-week tone. It was the sort of maternal voice I'd learned to use after Mom had died and it only came about when Hayden needed me. "What does it matter? Why can he see us? We were perfect, and I was proud, and he... he's such an asshole! It doesn't make any sense! We were perfect! I never want to see him again. I never want to see his stupid face!" And it was as if the universe really hated me that day, because Alex was hurrying across the field. "We'll work on it. We'll become closer and practice and make it all work, I promise. This means more to us than anything else, and we're becoming girls now so we get some say in who we are..." I hushed my voice when Alex came over and neither of us would look at him. "I'm sorry that I upset you, Hayden. I didn't mean to..." "Just leave me alone..." I mumbled into my knees. Alex didn't, though. Alex wasn't the listening type. He was the 'do what he thinks is right' type, and that kind of pissed me off more. "Marie will take you home, or Lanny or... whoever, I don't care..." "It means a lot to you two to be similar, doesn't it?" No fucking shit, Sherlock. I frowned. I wanted to hit his thoughtful little face. "I don't pretend to know what it's like for you... for both of you. You obviously love each other very much, enough to be together and I guess this means more to you than maybe anything else..." "Alex, maybe..." "You both have your own traits, and each of you tries to mimic the other. But if you talked about the traits you both wanted, and both aimed for them, I think you'd be indistinguishable." "Well I don't want your fucking advice, okay?" I wasn't sure Alex had ever heard me swear and I buried my head deeper into my legs. I was crying again. Alex was so nice, and he was trying to help, and I was being horrible, and I hated being horrible. What would mom think...? I started to cry harder, my chest burning. I couldn't think straight... "Hey... hey..." I took one of my sister’s hands in mine and ran my fingertips through her hair, cooing softly. Alex knelt down next to me and took her other hand and I frowned, but didn't stop him. "You can be anybody want you. Even if it's Lanny." "What would you know?" I finally frowned and looked at the boy. "I was born a girl. I know a little bit about wanting to be somebody different." I didn't have a reply for that. Things didn't get better. My thoughts got away from me the way I'd learned not to let them, and I couldn't breathe. But I couldn’t stay out here, sobbing in an open field, and Lanny knew it. She helped me to my feet and led me back inside. Emma lent us her room and I was placed on her bed. I couldn't stop crying. I couldn’t stop shaking. I couldn’t even breathe. Marie was at my side too, somewhere by my feet. Was I dying? And there were so many things I never got to say... I climbed on top of my sister, desperate for a solution that worked, and I put my hand on her cheek and kissed her lips. I was sure it would make Marie uncomfortable, but I kissed her lips anyway and kept my chest pressed to hers - her heartbeat was so ferocious, so intense, and mine was calm. She only kissed me once and it didn't help. But my sister, on top of me, her heartbeat so soundly beating against my chest, and mine so... fractured. I just wanted to be like hers... and slowly, it did. My trembling didn't stop, but the crying slowly did. I kept hyperventilating, but my eyes had drifted closed. If anything, I was exhausted. Maybe I was done for, though. Maybe this was it... "I'll... say hi for you..." I said slowly, and after that, I don't remember much else. --------------- Thank you for reading! Like, Comment, and check us out on Patreon! Link to comment
YourFNF Posted July 2, 2021 Share Posted July 2, 2021 1 hour ago, Sophie ♥ said: We both dated Marie at one point, and she never knew the difference!" Of course, now that we were girls, those words had entirely new context. Okay this is low key kinda fucked up ?? 1 hour ago, Sophie ♥ said: 'll... say hi for you..." I said slowly, and after that, I don't remember much else. https://giphy.com/clips/studiosoriginals-popcorn-qBiML4E45fNmOybsad Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted July 3, 2021 Author Share Posted July 3, 2021 19 hours ago, YourFNF said: Okay this is low key kinda fucked up ?? *EYES EMOJI* Link to comment
keith60 Posted July 3, 2021 Share Posted July 3, 2021 u write good diaper stories sophie Link to comment
diaperpt Posted July 3, 2021 Share Posted July 3, 2021 On 7/2/2021 at 2:09 PM, Sophie ♥ said: It's just... you both seem like pretty different people. And that's okay! You should be your own selves and all. On 7/2/2021 at 2:09 PM, Sophie ♥ said: "You both have your own traits, and each of you tries to mimic the other. But if you talked about the traits you both wanted, and both aimed for them, I think you'd be indistinguishable." On 7/2/2021 at 2:09 PM, Sophie ♥ said: "What would you know?" I finally frowned and looked at the boy. "I was born a girl. I know a little bit about wanting to be somebody different." Love the little unexpected twist from "the truth teller"! I wonder if this will be the start of an unraveling process... They don't want to hear it right now, but I wonder... Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted July 7, 2021 Author Share Posted July 7, 2021 23.) "It's... it's really all we have. Our synergy. Mom died, and dad couldn't deal with it, so we're kind of all we have. Being alike is something special, something safe." Marie knew all of this, and I guess Emma did to some degree - but this was all new information to Alex and I just wanted him to understand."I'm really sorry," the boy said with a frown. Emma had put on tea, much to Alex's pleasure. He sipped it gracefully, and in moments like this it was really hard to see him as a boy. Of course, only Lanny and Hayden really knew that facet. "I really didn't know. I was just being honest, and... ugh, that was so insensitive. I knew it was important to her." "Boys sometimes lose sight of that in the pursuit of being right." I offered with a sly little smile - I knew I liked it when people noticed feminine traits in me, so maybe Alex favored the same for his situation. "She'll be okay. She will. And she won't hold it against you. I've seen her this way before..." Albeit not very commonly and not very often, but it did happen. "She's..." Marie spoke up, out of turn, and waited for Lanny to nod before going on. "Hayden doesn't handle her mom's death very well. Even the thought of her... it ruins things. If she's eating a Reese's cup or something, and she starts to think about her, she'll never touch a Reese's cup again." "That's probably not healthy. Has she seen anyone? A psychologist or something?" "Mom was a psychiatrist." She'd have had a field day with the two of us now. "Associations. I help her where I can, and half the reason" —all the reason— "I got into my field of study was because I wanted to be able to help her. I don't have bad associations. I'm immune to her." "I'm so sorry for tonight. I've mad an awful first impression." Alex did his best to smile. He didn't like being stuck in dramatic situations - he never knew how to handle them, especially when his charm was at its end. "How long has it been?" "Five years," Marie said in lieu of Lanny. "Hayden wouldn't talk to anyone but Lanny for almost six months..." "I went to her classes for her, and bought her notes home for her and then relayed all her studies and helped to make sure she didn't fall behind. I got really good at being her." I smiled at the thought and looked at Marie. "The synergy thing is special to Hayden because it represents that Lanny will always be there for her." "And I will be, through everything. She was so proud of herself, is all, and she'll blame herself. She'll think it was her fault, that she slipped up. And she'll redouble her efforts." "I just... I don't understand why it matters so much, you know? I mean, yeah, the twin thing is really cool and all, but Hayden and you are completely different people. So why do you always try to act like you're not?" Marie bit her lip and looked away, and Lanny did her best to smile. "No one ever got us right, not all the time. No one but Mom." There was a silence over the room and nobody really knew what was right to say or do or how to steer the conversation out of awkward waters. I smiled wryly and looked across at Alex. "You make her very happy. More than you know." After all, that Alex had spoken to Hayden in the first place was validation that she could make being a girl work. Alex nodded, looking up at the ceiling and then sitting down on the chair across from Lanny. Lanny kept standing, regardless. "She thinks I'm taking the title away from your mom then, about knowing which of you is which. But I'm not going to lie - that'll cheapen it. You should both work on it, I think, and I'll do my best to be deceived, but that's all I've really got to offer." "We'll work on it. There're some big factors at the moment that are… adjustments." Like the fact we're girls now, a fact that I would no doubt remind Hayden of when we spoke next. Boys and girls are different and we need to recalibrate as girls. "The fact you're dating must be tough, too..." I looked at Emma and shrugged. "All things considered, people are pretty cool." "No, I mean... people act different around people they date. So you need to account for that, too, right? Marie? Alex? You agree, right?"Marie nodded and Alex shrugged his shoulders. "I wasn't sure if it was the dating thing or the twins thing, but she's definitely different around you than me." "She's not always like that. When Lanny and Hayden play, they sync up that way. Otherwise, they're just themselves, or each other, depending on their moods." "It's like we have three states. Us, Each Other, or Synced. And we take a lot of pride in our synced selves." I couldn't help but ask though, and I knew it was wrong to do so, but I did anyway. "How does she act around you, Alex?" "Oh." The boy was clearly caught off guard by the comment, but not because the comment itself was surprising. "You're jealous, but you shouldn't be. She doesn't look at me romantically or anything - that's pretty clear. Around me, Hayden is pretty reserved. She lets things slip, but I don't think she notices them. She tries to be polite and normal, and that's admirable, but it's clearly censoring." "That's very typical Hayden," Marie interjected. "She doesn't like boys, I don't think." Though she confessed to me vividly how she wanted to blow me and how she'd always been curious and that point of difference actually made me a little bit upset. She was bisexual, maybe. And I only liked girls. I resolved to fix that. For our synergy. "She's shy around new people though." "She tries," Marie said with a smile, a sincere one, and peeked through the door at the girl lying on Emma's bed. She was sleeping soundly now. "She's an amazing girl, and it's really not fair what she goes through... what she's had to go through already. I'm surprised at how normal Lanny turned out." Well, apart from the fact I wanted to be a girl, I instigated dating my twin, I enjoyed putting her in diapers and getting her off, and I had regular dreams about her nowadays. Yup. Normal. "We all have our quirks. I’m not really any more normal; I just try to be strong for her. Strong for us both, because if I'm not, who will?" --------------- Thank you for reading! Like, Comment, and check us out on Patreon! 1 Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted July 8, 2021 Author Share Posted July 8, 2021 24.) When my eyes finally opened, it was late into the night. The bedside clock read 10:50 and I pulled myself out of bed. I was in Emma's room... but what had happened? I heard sounds through the now-closed door and ran my fingers through my hair. I peeked out at first, but there wasn't much to see. Wasn't I outside...? Emma was laying on the sofa, her eyes closed as I talked with Alex and Marie. I caught sight of the door cracking open just a smidgen though, and then I saw my sister’s face through the gap. Discretely and I subtly I smiled at her, not interrupting the flow of dialog so as not to draw attention. If she gave me a sign that she wanted me, I'd politely excuse myself to 'check on her' and that way there'd be no pressure. I smiled through the crack at the door, a remark back toward my sister, and opened the door a little further. Marie turned to look at me, smiling happily. "Good morning, sleepy head!" "Hey," I said softly, my voice still ringing of sleep deprivation. "I think I fell asleep..." "You did. Like a princess. And all the fairest maidens of all the land came to tempt to rouse you from thou slumber, but none were capable." I smiled and Emma managed half a wave from the sofa but didn't move to start any conversation of her own. "But now you're awake, and the kingdom can rejoice for the princess has returned!" I liked Alex. He played into my bits. I smiled weakly and took a seat beside my sister, my head on her shoulder. "I don't remember getting inside..." But what I did remember was storming off, and saying very harsh words to Alex. I bit hard on my lip and looked away. "I'm really sorry for everything... I didn't mean what I said, and I didn't mean to storm off. I got worked up... and... and that was so stupid of me..." "You had some feelings, and feelings need to be felt. Sometimes they need to be heard." Alex reached down to the table and picked up a plate of wings that had gone just a little cold - the result of the second round of food ordering we'd done. He held the plate in front of Hayden with a helpful smile. "Hungry?" "Um... yeah, actually. Really hungry..." I took the plate with a little smile and looked up at Alex. He was such a sweetheart, and I'd yelled at him. I took a deep breath and tried to concentrate: I had to not think of her, lest ruin hot wings. "You won't see through me forever. Lanny and I are going to become perfectly identical, and you'll cry because not even your know-it-all attitude can save you!" I tried to sound happy about it, but still, there was a part of me that wasn't. "I overreacted..." "I overreact sometimes - obviously you were just trying out your Lanny skills." I never overreacted, not really - I was calm as could be. But you know what? Alex laughed. And Marie smiled. And I guess that was enough to make Hayden less self-conscious. "Are you going to go home all week and train? Will I get to see a montage video?" "With cheesy 80's rock/pop/synth ballad accompaniment." "You're such a geek," I said to my sister, eating around one of the bones of chicken wings. The rest of the night, for as short as it was, went by pretty peacefully. I felt a lot better after everything, after my friends cheered me up, and I thought a lot less about my outburst earlier that night. It wasn't until nearly midnight that we decided to take Alex home. * * * "Lanny usually drives, but I can take you if you want." "You'll have to do better than that." I smiled at my sister’s attempt and Lanny pouted. I took the keys from her and stepped out the door with Alex. "She's a really wonderful sister. Lanny, I mean. I didn't like her at first, but she loves you more than anybody I've ever seen." Alex had his feet up on the dashboard of the car and the seat laid down almost horizontally, looking up at the roof of the car as Hayden drove. "Are you okay? I mean, really? I want to give you a chance to talk to me with just us two." "Why, you think I'm going to say something to you I wouldn't say to Marie or Lanny?" I rolled my eyes and pulled the car into reverse. "You don't like her." "Marie?" "Lanny." "Um, I appreciate the theory, but I'm really pretty sure I do like her. She's my sister!" "Right." "Right!" I puffed out my cheeks. "You're stupid sometimes!" "Why are you dating her if you don't like her?" It had been a few moments before he'd broached the topic again and he looked at the girl as she drove. "Remember, you never have to see me again. Be honest. It might help to have somebody you can be honest with." "I do like her!" "But not like that." "I do so! Gosh, just because we don't make out in front of you or something. Are you one of those kinds of boys?" To be honest, he was starting to wear on my patience. I liked Alex and all, but seriously dude, it's called tact. "Could you see yourself with her in twenty years? I mean, seriously with her? Sometimes people get attached to people and I get that she's all you have, but don't you wanna be with someone? Like, someone you can live a life with, have a family with, that kinda stuff?" He pulled the seat up and sighed. "I'm sorry, I sound like a colossally judgmental cow right now, don't I?" "Yes." I frowned and kept driving toward the mall. "I just mean," he started, the words rolling off his tongue like he clearly hadn't thought about them, "you look at her like a sister. You treat her like a sister. And all that's cool, but romance isn't supposed to take a back seat." "Well, she makes me happy... I don't see what else matters..." "If you want me to take it seriously - if you want anybody to take it seriously - you should be lovers first and sisters second. If you can't do that, then there's no point." Alex didn't mean for it to come across in the challenging way that it did - he was just trying to help her see the reason in the situation. "Well... I like the way things are. What does it matter if people are stupid?" But his words were starting to concern me, and I slumped a little lower in my seat. Of course I liked Lanny. She's my perfect girlfriend! But I couldn't stop thinking about what she'd said about convenience... "If you can't be romantic with her - I mean passionately romantic - then you shouldn't be with her." Alex smiled awkwardly as he motioned for the girl to pull up in the driveway to the left. "If you can be, then I'm for it. I support you all the way." He looked out the window at the house. "It was really great seeing you, Hayden." "Yeah... it was great seeing you too..." I did my best to smile, but the boy had already climbed out of the car. I sat there for a little while, thinking, until my phone rang. "Yeah? Sorry, I got lost. Right, I'm on my way now. No, that's fine, you go to bed. I'll be in soon." --------------- Thank you for reading! Like, Comment, and check us out on Patreon! 2 Link to comment
YourFNF Posted July 8, 2021 Share Posted July 8, 2021 Wow this is like some 4D vulcan chess shit going on ?? Link to comment
Sophie ♥ Posted July 13, 2021 Author Share Posted July 13, 2021 *DEEP SIGH* Sorry for the lack of posts recently... it's been a busy week. >_< Thanks for all the comments and likes, guys ❤️ I don't say it enough. I'll get you another chapter (or two?) up in a moment! Link to comment
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