Not always straightforward

[bbbuddy]

Hi, greetings to readers of this most enjoyable site.  I have browsed here a few times but never contributed; not sure why really. My wife says I have a lot to say about most things but this is much harder to share. I think I became a DL as a result of childhood punishment from a step mother. It sounds somewhat trite or fictional but more common than people like to believe back in the 1960’s. A regular punishment was to come home from school and be made to wear one of  my sister’s skirts and a petticoat along with a school hat (boater) - not sure why but that was the order and the alternative was a very whippy cane or whatever other implement came to hand. Nappy wearing wasn’t usually enforced on school days but sometimes on shopping trips to a nearby town which meant a trip on the bus and being made to sit separately sometimes with a pacifier which according to my step mum would show everyone what a baby boy I was. Plastic pants used to make a lot of noise in those days and that was bad enough but the pacifier was the ultimate humiliation as a 5-6 year old. Strangely though I was not forced to use my nappy. I was taken to the public toilets and mother used to pull down my shorts and sometimes unpin my nappy so I could urinate in the trough or down the bowl; I can’t remember exactly.

‘These episodes turned into a lifelong interest in the subject and at an early stage in our relationship, I shared my history with my wife - girlfriend at the time. She prefers I indulge in my interests when she isn’t around although she tolerates various night time attire that I love. She has never understood how something that started off as a punishment and involved embarrassment and a degree of humiliation could hold such an attraction and interest. I guess I don’t either really, but I accept it is a part of me and it is a great stress reliever.  Being a DL combines with a degree of transvestism although opportunity is rare but fun when it arises and my wife quite enjoys having a uniformed maid to complete housework. It is rarely a sexual thing but there is a degree of electricity buzzing around for both of us when I’m dressed. However, my wife is usually far too worried about a knock at the door or someone seeing us that she struggles to relax and enjoy the time and is usually more at ease when I put Petula back in the wardrobe and assume the normal role.

‘it is a strange world we live in and there are many questions far more important that remain unanswered so I’ll continue to enjoy the occasional session and enjoy reading other people’s  experiences and stories and explanations for how we arrived here!

[AbabeBill]

Hi and welcome bbbuddy, nice to meet you, and glad you decided to introduce yourself. Sorry about your punishments way back when, growing up is hard enough, without having to go through such ordeals. But, you now deal with it best you can, and maybe you have some fun with it nowadays. There’s lots of good likeminded people here, some who have been through similar ordeals. There’s lots of understanding too. 
I have never been punished in such a way, but I have always had a love of diapers and plastic pants. I also like little girl frilly sissy things. I have no idea where any of it stems from, but even when I was a child, I liked plastic pants. Didn’t really know why, but I was attracted to them. I use to put my plastic pants on my head, and run around yelling, RUBBER PANTS, RUBBER PANTS! I wet the bed till about 6, 7 years, but I didn’t wear diapers for it, and there’s not much connection to my liking diapers and plastic pants there. But I knew I liked them even before my bedwetting started. 
Anyway, I just wanted to welcome you here, and I always say, relax, have fun, and enjoy! Hope to see you round. 

[bbbuddy]

Thanks for the welcome message AbabeBill and reassurance that all is well. I believe there are plenty of professionals who cannot begin to explain what goes on inside people’s heads. If they could there would be less mis-diagnosis and better management of offenders etc. There again I doubt whether any part of a psychology degree is spent studying abdl or most kinks for that matter. Probably not many people studying for a master’s or PHD have sat down and specialised in this area either so how do you become an expert?

[AbabeBill]

7 hours ago, bbbuddy said:

Thanks for the welcome message AbabeBill and reassurance that all is well. I believe there are plenty of professionals who cannot begin to explain what goes on inside people’s heads. If they could there would be less mis-diagnosis and better management of offenders etc. There again I doubt whether any part of a psychology degree is spent studying abdl or most kinks for that matter. Probably not many people studying for a master’s or PHD have sat down and specialised in this area either so how do you become an expert?

You’re welcome. 
I tend to agree with you about, not many professionals studying, or trying to understand this field. There are some, but far and few. Maybe they need to educate themselves on sites like these? I’m guessing, this field isn’t where the money is at. Even in psychological studies, money drives pushes into more knowledge. 
Long time ago, I gave up wondering why I developed my love of diapers, plastic panties, girly things, etc. I just enjoy what it is. 

[Transfusionelle]

18 hours ago, AbabeBill said:

You’re welcome. 
I tend to agree with you about, not many professionals studying, or trying to understand this field. There are some, but far and few. Maybe they need to educate themselves on sites like these? I’m guessing, this field isn’t where the money is at. Even in psychological studies, money drives pushes into more knowledge. 
Long time ago, I gave up wondering why I developed my love of diapers, plastic panties, girly things, etc. I just enjoy what it is. 

Take it from a sissy @bbbuddy & @AbabeBill I started very late in life and it became a trend  and a part of me. I dressed up as a female for a party and was so accepted that it became my identity. I started wearing diapers because I had no time to use the bathroom at work so it became essential wear and obligatory for me to wear my diapers. I felt naked without them. Even now before I step foot out of the house I pat my bottom to make sure I have a diaper on. The mind is a very strange mechanism and to this day there is no doctor that can tell us what's going on inside our heads. Bbbuddy you recieved punishment as a child that though it was unwarranted it became ingrained in your mind. I have very few pieces of male clothing and underwear but I have 2 closets of blouses and skirts and drawers full of panties and stockings. I love the way a diaper hugs my penis and the way silk and satin feel against my skin. Not very easy to explain to the so called normal people, but thats me. Welcome bbbuddy and I hope you meet many people and make lots of friends. Come join me and the very diverse people in the chatroom. I am very sure you will feel right at home.

[bbbuddy]

Transfusionelle, thank you for your welcome and thoughts on the subject. I’m sure you are correct in your assertions re the medical profession and therefore not worth the time and effort worrying about it. Just go along for the ride whenever possible which in my own case is probably not as often as I’d like but that’s life.

[BabyJilly_S]

Hi bbbuddy, welcome along. We may not be able to do the analysis thing but we can be a shoulder and friends to chat too