Am I An Ab Or A Dl

[Dangitbawb]

Ok, before you continue to read this, I want you to know it may be a little more information than you want to know, so no need to go further if you have a weak stomach. I have always had a diaper fetish since I was knee-high to a grasshopper. I tried various forms of diaper wearing, from towels, to garbage bags lined with a lot of paper towels. I'm very embarrassed to admit this, but I use diapers for both wetting and messing. As I reached puberty in the late 70's, I discovered magazines (Letters, Nugget, the occassional Hustler, etc...) that mentioned adults wearing diapers, and they were called adult babies. (yes, "I thought I was the only one" applies here as well) I figured that is what I am, because, after all, I am an adult, and I like to wear and use diapers. I also discovered, by accident, that I am sexually turned on by wearing and using, and you can pretty much figure out on your own how that progressed.

It wasn't until the late 90's that I learned of the term "DL". This is when I also discovered the internet, and DPF. As I learned more, I realized I'm not really into baby things, I just like wearing and using diapers. Pacifiers and baby bottles just don't do anything for me. So...I must be a DL. At this same time I was going through a heartbreaking divorce (not to worry, to this day she and I are still very much friends, we have a son together and long ago put our differences aside for the sake of our son, then discovered we really do like each other. And she knows about my desire to wear diapers, but was not a participant, just something I would do every couple of weeks when she was not there) and got my own place and wore them frequently, both cloth and disposables. I knew I was never going to find another woman that would at least be accepting of my diaper wearing, much less participate. I could not have been more wrong, but it certainly didn't happen overnight.

I started dating my current girlfriend back in June of 2005. She is an extremely attractive woman, short, blonde and curvy. We've been told many times that we are an attractive couple, and I couldn't be happier! I would have given up diapers for the rest of my life to be with her once I got to know her well. After a few dates (and a few drinks) she informed me that sometimes she likes to be babied. She knew nothing about adults that like to wear diapers, she simply meant she likes to put her hair in pigtails, be given a bath, and be baby talked. Well, you can imagine, all sorts of alarms went off, and I quickly informed her that I would be more than happy to fulfill her desires. After a few more dates and conversations (and drinks) I was able to talk her into wearing a diaper. I had also told her by this time that I had a diaper fetish, but I didn't have to wear them around her. Well, she stated that if she was going to wear them, I should join her, after all, it was harmless, right? (cha-ching!!!) We happily indulged each other many times, and one night, after more drinks than we should have had, we both wet them together. (well, actually, she flooded hers, and was leaking!) We made such great love that night.

I will never forget the night that I actually messed mine in front of her. We were sitting on my back patio, and I informed her that I needed to go to the bathroom, and I needed to do more than just pee. She had already had a few coctails, I'm sure she wasn't feeling any pain, and dared me to do it in my diaper. I told her that if I did, we would both probably regret it in the morning, and she said she wouldn't, to trust her. She then pulled down the front of her blouse, and said "c'mon baby, you can suck my breast while you do it". I was very nervous, but against my better judgement, I did it. I remember her whispering "just let it all go..." I couldn't believe I actually messed my diaper while sucking on her breasts! After the dirty deed, I went and cleaned up, she made me another drink, and yes, we made love.

As expected, the next morning I think we were both embarrassed, and barely spoke of the incident. A few months later, for whatever reason, the same exact thing happened, with the same results the following morning. I admitted to her that I had never been more turned on by this, but I needed to respect her bounderies, and even apologized to her, I felt like I was taking advantage of her, and I loved her too much to take advantage of her. She told me not to worry, we wern't hurting anyone. But she did admit she wasn't too crazy about it either, stating that she was thinking in her mind "hmmm...I'm not sure about this".

One Saturday morning (when we wern't drinking!) I had just made us breakfast, and she asked if I would like to be diapered. I told her that I needed to wait until I went to the bathroom, and the urge had not yet hit. She said it didn't matter, if I wanted to mess them, she could deal with it, she knows this is a part of me, but if I had to go, I had to suck on her breasts while doing it. After making absolutely sure she would be fine, I put one on, and pretty soon nature called. This was the turning point, for whatever reason, she stated that it really turned her on, especially when my face would turn red while I was completing the act. For some reason, the smell just didn't bother her. Then, the most amazing and unexpected thing happened. She got off the couch (I was kneeling beside her while she was laying down) and asked me to the bedroom. She checked the back of my diaper and stated "shoo...baby made a really big mess! Do you want to come to the bedroom and lay down with mommy? Mommy feels like she needs to be naughty" Well, of course I did! I get to use my diaper and have sex? Have I died and gone to heaven? We laid down in bed, she pulled down the front of my diaper (I wear a thick cloth pull-up with a cloth liner and plastic pants) and made incredible love. I couldn't believe it, it seemed all my dreams had finally come true. Afterwards, she asked if I would "stay in it for just a little while. This led to another session of love-making an hour later, and I finally cleaned up. She admitted that she doesn't know why it turned her on, even asking me if I thought she was normal, but she likes me being her little baby, although the only baby thing I do is suck her breasts. She has asked me several times if I minded her being my "dirty little girl".

Since that time, I have bought both of us some cloth diapers, I got her some pink plastic pants, as well as some ruffled panties, and I also diaper her frequently. (she only wets hers, she doesn't like to be messy, although she has tried it a couple of times) She also had me pick out a printed pair of blue and yellow plastic pants for myself. Almost every weekend we indulge in this activity (And yes, we also have normal love making sessions throughout the week) and there is nothing better than sucking on her breasts while messing my diaper, then making love. I love it when she tells me "c'mon baby, go poopie for mommy, mommy loves it when you make a big messy!" and "are you through, or does baby have to go any more?" She'll even have me lay on my stomach and always checks to see what I have done, then pat my bulge in the back before I roll over to make love to her.

Before I met her, I never actually considered the "Mommy" aspect, I just liked to wear and use diapers. I never considered wearing printed plastic pants that look babyish, and never in my dreams did I ever think I could lay with a woman and do all the things we do. I still do not have a desire to expand beyond what we do, and I have never had her change me (except for the occassional wet diaper) But I do like having a "Mommy" now, I just don't want to suck on a pacifier, drink from a baby bottle or play with baby toys. So...the question is: Am I a DL with some AB tendencies, or just strictly DL with a partner that happily indulges in this lifestyle?

[BriGuy]

Wow that is quite a story! You have found yourself a very interesting lady. As for whether or not you are ab or dl I think that all depends on you. Sounds to me you are more of a dl than an AB but classifying ourselves can be difficult to do sometimes and what does it accomplish? Be who you are and enjoy what you want to enjoy. I am very happy you have found someone willing to participate in your fantasies like you have. That is quite a rarity for sure!

[lynniehyde]

Seems to me, you've got a "keep her". The fact that pooping doesn't bother her and is even a turn on for her is wonderful. It's also good that she accepted it at first, took some time to think about it and then came on stronger. She may even want take you to places in your mind you're not ready for. But, that can be fun, exciting and spiritually rewarding, as well. My advice? Take that "leap of faith". Go with the flow. So far, so good, right? Things kind of slotting into place, so to speak.

It's always a scary thing when exploring a strange, new avenue for your feelings. But, it can be a path to paradise. For both of you.

AB? DL? Why don't you let her decide? My guess would be, she would prefer the AB side of you, as she certainly has a nurturing soul, from what I've read in your text.

Cuddles,

--heidilynn

[Topguy]

Dude, if you both get off on it-quit worrying.

Worry if you do NOT.

[enfant]

Am I a DL with some AB tendencies, or just strictly DL with a partner that happily indulges in this lifestyle?

You're an infantilist. You're you. You're a person who likes what you like. You're a person with a partner who likes what she likes.

You don't need to pigeonhole yourself.

[paddi]

You are in a situation that most single guys & gals who indulge in diapers would like to be in, You are both enjoying the lifestyle. Why is it so important that you categorize yourselves? Just go with what you enjoy and be happy.

[diaperwearntigger]

I must admit while I was reading this post the only thing that kept going through my mind was, "Boy, they drink a lot" lol

[pctrasher]

Yea, you can classify yourself as anything you want. Personally, I don't even really know what I'd be classified as so I just kind of put the common classification of 'Ab/Dl' on and go with that eventhough it usually means one or the other. I figure that I like diapers, pacifiers, (I just made a onsie out of a t-shirt and a shoe string a half hour ago, so that too), sucking on my g/f's breast (a lot more common than I orignally thought), and Roleplaying as the younger one when we're in the mood (she is the little one sometimes too.). But the only thing that I find a turn on are the diapers (I only wet). Everything else that is AB classified is just relaxing and an escape for me. And just like you and many others, I started out as a DL and have been one all my life, with the past year including some AB play.

And what's wrong with drinking so much, they drink a lot, a lot of other people drink a lot. Hell, sometimes I drink a lot. Alcohol is awesome in it's own little way, just don't get hooked or it's AA for you. lol.

[Dangitbawb]

I must admit while I was reading this post the only thing that kept going through my mind was, "Boy, they drink a lot" lol

I have to admit, this one made me laugh!!! Yes, we have had more than our fair share of "spirits", and usually imbibe on the weekends, bit only every other, as I have my son every other weekend as well, and we NEVER drink around him. I hope I didn't confuse everyone, I'm not "worried" about what classification I should be considered, just curious, more than anything. I realize I have a good thing going for me, and it took a long time to get to where I am today. I am pleased to see that there are others that are experiencing the same things I am, it is so much fun!!! *hic*...LOL

[Three Rivers]

I would just say that your one happy and lucky man. Doesn't matter if you DL, AB or a little of both. Enjoy.