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I am seeing a counselor and a psychiatrist hopefully soon. I did wear one other time last week but didn't use. To help me organize my thoughts I have written a therapeutic letter to the co-worker about the situation. I would never actually give this letter to her. I merely present it to explain my thought process and anxiety. I should add that aside from the issues relevant to this site I also had some anxiety from the changes to my routine that occurred when we started working together and clashes with her nursing and communication styles. I'm attaching this letter. Names have been changed to protect the innocent and I blanked out the full names of medications I mention for privacy.therapeuticletter.docx

Just shit my blue northshore megamax. Had waited a while and couldn't hold it anymore. Felt really good. Sitting in it now and enjoying it.

So I wore to work today only a short shift for four hours. First time out in public for an extended period of time. Wore an NS Go Supreme pull-up. No issues, didn't use it except for sweat. Not sure I felt much different but it was certainly an experience.

Hi, So I'm an RN in a hospital. I've read some healthcare workers, particularly those in ICUs who have to wear full body respirators, and who can't change out of them have been wearing diapers. I've also heard that some healthcare workers have been wearing diapers to avoid using the toilets which they fear is a vector for spreading covid, particularly females. I suspect a few co-workers who have to work on floors that have had covid positive patients and staff have been doing this. My floor is not one of these floors, but I've long suspected a co-worker and now her wife who does work on covid floors of wearing. Recently I've been having emotional and mental problems, part of it stemmed from this suspicion. This is the closest I've come to a real-life experience outside my ex-gf's situation. Due to my emotional/mental issues and being ASD my social weaknesses have become more pronounced. As a result I've become more socially isolated. I made the mistake of questioning my co-work about it and it ended up being extremely awkward as one would guess. She denied wearing herself and instead of focusing on the covid issue I focused on an a different but conceivable reason for her to be wearing. So to sum up I'm now working in an environment where there is actual reason to wear (though less so for males). But I lack the confidence to do it on my own. I've tried my work clothes with a diaper on underneath and taken pictures and the bulge is noticeable, also my walk is different. Another issue is my therapist told me he was afraid I might act out and lose my job. I feel this is an opportunity but my judgement has been poor of late. Also what if I feel worse because even if I wear I have no one to share it with and provide support except a good friend who doesn't work at hospital and isn't into diapers. So what should I do?

Hi I'm a newbie and a long time lurker. I can remember being interested in diapers since I was 3 or 4 when my sister was born. I remember wanting one of my sister's diapers. I also had a fascination with watching poopy diaper changes. I remember being jealous of kids around my age who for some reason or other still wore diapers. I have a gap before around age 9 or 10 I became interested in peeing then pooping my pants. I don't remember becoming interested in diapers again until college when the first time I was able to freely surf the internet. After college I progressed from living with my parents to living with a roommate to living on my own. I slowly progressed to where I am now. Able to purchase and play with diapers as much as I want. I'm only lacking a partner or playmate. I also occasionally have mental health issues involving my interests. Mainly I become preoccupied with my diaper interests and it colors my view of the world and causes stress. In general I have good separation between my interests and the rest of my life. My ex-gf did develop some continence issues and after surgery did have to temporarily wear depends. But she was in so much pain and suffering so much I couldn't be aroused by the situation or use it to introduce my interests to her. Our relationship was already falling apart at the time as well. I've been in healthcare for over 10 years, am now an RN and have changed many adult diapers. I've never had any issues being aroused or emotionally disturbed by my work. I'm excited to join the community at last at least online.