restlessfox

early this morning i had plans to get some stuff done like picking some stuff up from the store and making an appointment to go see my doctor, so i started going through my drawer looking for my doctor's number on some old medical bills while my mom was sitting on my couch using my computer, my old bill from my doctor went into collections so i called and got that squared away. right at the end of the call my mom left the room and came back in with a plastic bag and reached under my bed and pulled out two absolutely soaked depends refastenable pullups, put them in the bag and went to the garage to throw them away the look on her face was absolutely priceless! the whole time she was doing it i just couldnt stop laughing for some odd reason. i always expected the day she caught me i would be pretty embarassed and would probably just about have a heart attack, i never expected it to go like this. the whole thing was pretty light hearted, i kept expecting it to get serious but it's kind of hard to talk serious about diapers to your mom. when she got into the room i was still chuckling pretty hard at the situation so she just sat back down on the couch to talk about it, the conversation went like this: her: i saw them when i was sitting on the couch and when i was looking through the papers on your floor me still laughing pretty hard: yeah i usually keep them tucked away in the bottom matress, they must've fallen out while i was asleep her: i also found one in the middle of the trash yesterday, i was trying to find out what was making the kitchen stink so bad me: yeah you came out of your room when i was on my way to throw it in the dumpster so i had to think fast, i don't crap in them so the stink shouldn't have been that bad, i guess it started to stink cause it's a few days old her: well now that that's out in the open is it a medical thing that you just don't want to tell me about? you usually don't want me to go back with you when you see the doctor and i'm wondering if this is why. me still chuckling a bit: nope it's not a medical thing her: well what game is it that you can't take a break from to go to the bathroom? me trying not to laugh: that's not why i wear them, i'm surprised it took you this long to find out, i've been wearing them since i was 9 her with a puzzled look: since you were 9?! i've found diapers in the trash before but i always figured it was one of your friends, does tylor know? me: nope i always had to hide them from him too her: well why do you wear them? me: it's just how i pamper myself, a little literal but oh well (there was an old conversation where she said you always have to find a way to pamper yourself even if you're poor so you don't feel like you're going without, her thing is single serving pecan pies) her laughing a bit now: (like she's read about it online) well there's a lot worse things that you could be doing i guess, we all have things we're embarrassed about me on the chat telling brad all about it while talking to her: yep atleast i quit smoking bud, this is much cheaper, and atleast i'm not like my old step dad tweaking all the time, never touched it, never will. (i used his name in the actual conversation) her: yep you could be doing a lot of worse things then this, everyone's got a few secrets, a long time ago i used to kiss my cousin (my aunt i think) for practice so we all have thing's we're embarassed about me: eew i would've been happy to go my whole life without hearing that her: well i'm just saying we all have secrets (she's got a real big problem with repeating herself) me: well i don't need to know that kind of stuff her: i know there's more but i'll give you a break from the he said she said stuff for a bit to fill you in on the situation a bit more, i keep 8 diapers in the arm rests of my couch, they unzip and it's a perfect spot to hide just about anything as long as it's not hard like a pipe or something, i don't have to hide those from her anyway because she's an ex hippie and just doesn't care as long as i don't over do it or get caught. anyway i guess i forgot to zip the arm that's closest to my bed all the way and she started feelig inside them, she grabbed ahold of one of the abenas i had in there and said "oh cool your couch has little foam pads inside of it so you can take them out if you want" i walked over and zipped it up and said yep leave them in there, then she said wow they zip up? that's a perfect place to hide stuff, i just said i know leave it alone. anyway back to the rest of the conversation, sorry it's so long but i don't want to leave anything out incase it could help someone else out when they get caught. there's a little that i forgot right where i stopped but if i remember them i'll just add them later. me: you're not going to tell any of our realatives are you? her: (for the first time in her life) nope no one really needs to know about this me: cool thanks her: you're not going to tell your sister when she moves in are you? me: nope, i've hid it this well for 10 years, i can hide it from her no problem. her: how did you keep it from me for so long? me: skills. you know that padding you felt in the arm rests yesterday, that's one of the spots i hide them her: you mean those were diapers? me: wow, you seriously didn't know? her: no i just thought it was part of the couch me: i expected you to pull one out right there, we were pretty close to having this conversation last night her: wow i'll skip to the end because that's pretty much all the important stuff, she just asked me if i knew who really moved her rocks (she got in a huge fight with our old neighbor over the big rocks dividing our 2 yards) and a few other things along those lines. me: wow this went better then i thought it would, i half expected you to freak out her: i was just worried that it was a medical problem that you were too embarassed to mention me: nope no worries her: alright it's getting pretty close to noon we should get ready me: alright i'll go take a shower i'm so surprised it actually went this well, i've read a lot of horror stories about parents flipping out i started to think that's the way it usually goes down but life has a way of surprising you i guess. what probably worked for me is i played it off like nothing was wrong, it's hard to yell at someone who's laughing at the situation and talking in a relieved/happy tone, my bet is in most of the cases where people's parents flipped out on them is because they looked scared and ashamed like something was wrong with them. i probably had it easier then most because my mom has a pretty open mind about things but i wasn't so much worried about how she would handle it, i was worried that she would talk to my realatives or whoever would listen as a way to understand it all. it's no secret in our family that she all out can't keep a secret when she runs out of things to talk about. here's a little example: when my sister told her that she had multiple personality disorder she talked about it with everyone in our family that she was still in contact with and she would get in conversations with people like my teachers and complete strangers about it. i was just worried she would do the same with me because my sister's situation was so similar, my sister's littles come out a lot which is pretty much regression and i like to regress. seems pretty different looking back on it but while i was still hiding it i was absolutely sure if she caught me everyone would hear about it but it actually seems like she will keep quiet about this for once in her life. right when i got home from the doctors which was a much more pleasant car ride then i expected i changed into my first bambino to celebrate i even walked past my mom in the kitchen with it crinkling about 5 inches away from her head and she didn't seem to care at all damn today is great (well technically yesterday now cause it's almost 4 a.m. but you get my point.) it's odd, it doesn't really feel so much like a guilty pleasure anymore, in my mind it's just become very matter of fact. i wear diapers and i enjoy it. it's nice to finally be rid of the guilt and worry that she's gonna hear me crinkle. now if only my girlfriend will be so understanding i'll be set.

↑ nope but ask me in 3 days →sucking on a pacifier in a completely soaked abena and listening to the tenacious d movie soundtrack. life is good. ↓ could you go the rest of your life without getting on a computer if someone gave you a lifetime supply of every kind of diaper in exchange?

ride you keep cheating a bit boy ricky but we still love ya

^ once got 100 feet from the top of mt. everest but turned back when his diaper froze solid

tenacious d- baby

Shadows Fall- laid to rest... at full volume

didn't really think it out, i guess i just meant the kind of people who would cancel a dinner with the president to go to church or the kind of person who will hand you a book of psalms when you're riding on the bus (yeah that's happened to me before) ^love a good movie weither it's at home or at a theater small dogs?

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^can hear peoples thoughts but only when they're wetting their diaper, so far it hasn't been very useful....

When i was at the gym today i went to the bathroom after a swim and i heard some crinkling in the stall behind me, after a little while he rushed out kind of quick with his gym bag in hand and left. i didn't hear any tapes and the plastic sounded pretty heavy so i think he changed into a cloth diaper then got nervous when he noticed someone else was in the room and split. i'm not 100% sure that he got changed into a diaper but it's a pretty safe bet that there's another dl at my gym. it's kind of cool to be on the other side of that for a change. (waits for someone to post "hey that was me in the stall") 900th post

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yes i want to wear diapers, i always have. and the only event that created a hole that i can think of is potty training (my mom used to bribe me with reces pieces, damn my love of peanut butter!) yeah i'm still bitter about potty training "It's like cigarettes. People who smoke think that it makes them feel better, in fact it fills a hole and makes them feel what everyone else normally feels, normal. Without them, you feel worse than normal." i do smoke, it does make me feel better when i havn't had one in a while but the hole you're talking about in this case is a chemical dependence carefully balanced for maximum addictiveness by the company who makes them, i started smoking because it was around me a lot and it seemed like a good thing to do to pass the time when i was waiting for the bus, not because i was emotionally lacking... "So if the average AB/DL thinks they have control, and do this because they want to, they're _usually_ fooling themselves. You may be the exception." i don't like the way you worded it but it's partially true, i'll never give them up so i don't have a choice in the matter but there's plenty of people that got into diapers again because of some event in their adult life that made them shake off the stigma that the general population puts on them and decided to wear them because they feel comfortable, not because of some emotional need. and while i agree that most stick with it through their purge cycles and eventually come back theres also others who have walked away with all they could learn from their experiences with diapers and have never looked back. so you're saying everyone is supposed to be happy and complete? might work for bhuddist monks and newborns, but as everyone grows up the need for something more then they are grows stronger. the need to grow into your ideal self is un-avoidable, it's part of human nature. from what i've seen everyone who's happy has discovered their own unique personality, which is their personal interests, their hobbies, their clothes, their appearance and style. no one that i know that's secure, happy, and fulfilled has skipped this stage of their life, the people on this board have just picked up a somewhat unique choice in underwear, it's part of their our personalities and it has become an aspect of us which makes us who we are. after that stage of self discovery you're happy until the need for happiness grows again (this is your hole) and you start looking for someone that fills the rest so you can truly be secure, happy, and fulfilled. once you meet the person who completes you and embodies everything that you've been longing for you're truly happy provided that you also complete her... until the need for more grows again and you want to have children. you seeing a pattern here? it's written into out dna to never be happy until we find ourselves then find our happy opposite, diapers are just part of discovering who we are, it's not something everyone experiences (well except when we're born) but everyone's unique and that's what we look for in a partner. the hole you're describing isn't just a mental void caused by abuse or neglect. it's part of reproduction forced on us by evolution or given to us at creation. (not trying to start a religious debate and it works for both) so if you wear for comfort or as a way to re live your childhood it's still necessary in your mind and weither you stick with it for life or just use it as a stepping stone on your path of self discovery it's part of who you are because your past matters just as much as your present. (yeah i know that sounds like a hall mark card but i'm not gonna re write it to sound less "after school special") if you're following me i am half agreeing with you but again i disagree with the way you worded it. i've never had a purge cycle for diapers, i have run out of funds to buy them and i have thrown away my bottle when i switched to being a dl but that was a one time thing and i was tired of leaving it out by accident. but in the 10 years i've been buying diapers i have never tried to give it up all together. that being said i don't understand the purge cycle so i'll leave it for someone else to comment on. "cured"? you make it sound like a disease, with these two posts alone you don't sound like you even enjoy wearing diapers yourself, you're fun to talk to in the chat and i think you're a cool person but something about the way you worded these posts rubbed me the wrong way. please don't get offended by this but you sound just pragmatic enough to get yourself into trouble, you're not afraid to tell it like it is and you probably don't care if people get offended, i respect that a lot and actually enjoy it when people stop skirting around the truth but you're still not pragmatic enough to step out of your own biases about drugs and addiction for example to truly look at everything at face value. it's very hard to look at everything in an unbiased way, very few have actually pulled it off so don't get me wrong, i'm not saying i have it right but like you i'm just voicing my oppinion. -------- i'm glad you're keeping your senses about it lilwetone, i've heard of people throwing away hundreds of dollars worth of diapers and stuff just to come back a month or two later and buy them all again. it's cool that you got the job that you've wanted for a while, from the stories it sounds like you're trading your sanity for a paycheck working for tech support. i hope the new job work out for you

staind- for you

dandelion root tea, finally found some at an herb shop the other day and i hope the rumors are true. I'm gonna see if it really does make me wet the bed tonight i think it will.

*does the happy dance

love this movie from what i remember of it from my childhood, i'll have to watch it again. thanks again taishi

this is a somewhat common fantasy and i'm glad you have only tried hypnosis to achieve your goal, yes hypnosis will work to a certain extent to speed along untraining but thankfully it's reversible if you ever have second thoughts. I'm making a few assumptions here and guessing you have a little trouble wetting, even if it's just while sitting or laying down and you would like to stop having to force it to start flowing and just have it happen, sorry if i'm wrong in that assumption but that's the feeling i got from reading your post. hypnosis is a good way to speed up the natural un-training that happens when you wear 24/7, eventually your bladder muscle weakens a little and you develop a mild to moderate form of urge incontinence which is reversible if you ever want to go through potty training again in the future. this is pretty much the only way to go, if you're not determined enough to make it happen through wearing 24/7 you're not ready to deal with true incontinence imo. if you want total incontinence you'll find very little support on this board but if you just want to wet your diapers without thinking about it i recommend the file "train diapers" from warp my mind.com since you've already discovered hypnosis, it trains you to wet without having to think about it but only when you're actually wearing a diaper. if you want to avoid accidents in your pants if you run out of diapers or if you're just giving your skin a chance to breathe to avoid or get rid of diaper rash this is the way to go. and as an added bonus it lets you completely leave your family and friends out of it. yes you will get diaper rash if you wear 24/7, it's not hard to avoid but eventually you'll wear one too long if you cant find a spot to change or you'll forget to let your skin breathe, at the least it will be a little annoying and it's just as possible that it will be bad enough so it will actually hurt (think sun burn) it's pretty much un-avoidable even with oils powders and creams so be ready to deal with that. as far as bringing doctors and your family into your dl life i would advise against it, i'm not going to say the standard "don't bring your family into your fetish" because for some people it isn't a fetish but i will say it's just bad form and pretty much just selfish to force a doctor to be a pawn in your plan to lie to your family so you'll feel a little better while wearing around them. and on the same note it's just bad form to make your family worry about your health when you really don't need to. sorry if this was a little too honest but i am speaking from experience, i also had those fantasies and this is what worked for me, it took about half a year of pretty consistent wearing but i did eventually start to lose control but since i was only wearing at home i never wet my pants when i was out of diapers or in public even though there were a few close calls. after 10 years of wearing off and on those fantasies are pretty much all gone, i'm sure it will eventually lose it's appeal for you too so again it's best to keep it at home and wherever you're comfortable. hope this helps.

aww i miss you too curious! i'm glad you popped in, i was worried that you forgot about us * big huggles from your foxy we all miss you

ahh, the long awaited public messing, i'm pretty surprised that daze's girlfriend volunteered to change her. like always good job with this chapter heven

i'm glad you finally posted this story fivel and diapers just go together nicely, great story, keep it up

^needs a change very badly

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