Lil Miss Potty Pants

To set the stage on this, I'm a trans girl. I had bottom surgery several months ago; recovery has been great and I'm really starting to get sensitivity back down there. With a fun new twist: I'm a squirter! I can have orgasms pretty easily now and on every contraction, I squirt. On small orgasms it's a little. On big orgasms it's a LOT. If I want more than one orgasm in a session, I need to have water handy because I'll feel dehydrated. I lose THAT much liquid. But another discovery is that after a big session, I'll get aftershocks every few hours sometimes through to the next day. They come out of nowhere and my bladder empties itself every single time. Luckily I work from home so no disasters so far, but I've had a couple legit daytime wettings this week and have wet the bed twice. Third time I had a diaper on and wouldn't you know it... worked great. So the good news is that I can definitely modulate this by just not having sex or masturbating. The "bad" news is that I like those things so planning for this neat side effect is apparently going to be a part of my life now. I'll take questions if anyone has them, but otherwise I'm cautiously enthusiastic about this and excited to see where it goes!

There's a LOT of it out there, but most of the material reflects only a very narrow set of tastes. I'm a lesbian so I specifically look for content with no men in it. That restriction alone reduces the body of extant content significantly. Which is weird, because so much of the ABDL community is straight men that I'd think demand for women-only content would be the lion's share of the market. There are a few good studios that exist and I mostly stick to them.

I had a few stints of 24/7 once I started a full WFH job. I decided to go all-in on the lifestyle choice. While I didn't have a goal of losing control, I didn't make any conscious effort to preserve it and knew that could be a likely outcome. I decided that I was going to use diapers as diapers rather than as a fetish item. I like diapers but I really wanted to incorporate them into my life in a more utilitarian way. I decided to wear 24/7 with no exceptions except the shower. The biggest rule was no holding, no forcing. Any time I realized I need to pee, I'd let go and allow it to happen. Doesn't matter if I'm in a meeting, at the supermarket, or anything else. Same for poop- I made no conscious effort to hold it and instead let my body decide what to do with it. Nighttime was a little trickier because I'd wake up to pee, but I just made an effort to relax and let it flow without moving or thinking and fall right back asleep. What surprised me was just how fast my body adapted to this new lifestyle. I never wet my diaper without realizing it, but it took about two weeks for my body to just let pee go without asking me permission first. Shortly after that I started waking up with a wet diaper too! It's entirely possible I was waking up and wetting but not waking up enough to remember, but that might as well be the same thing. I never got to that point with pooping but I did reach the point of noticing I needed to go any my body not trying to hold it back. Ultimately this lasted about three or four weeks before I stopped. There were a few challenges. The biggest was that I have really sensitive skin that doesn't like being diapered all the time with pee/poop held up. I started doing small, frequent micro-pees and didn't have the budget to change every single time, and my skin paid the price. It was also a huge lifestyle drag. I do a lot of hiking which isn't a diaper-friendly activity. I go to the gym 4-5× a week and I'm really attached to my routine; wearing diapers is a major problem when I like to change before and after my workout. I also go camping with my wife a lot and don't always have fast, easy access to a shower. And wearing diapers means needing to shower like 4-6 times a day (I'm not great at cleaning myself with wipes alone). I also like wearing bikinis at the beach, going clubbing, and have a lot of other activities that make diapers either a functional problem or impossible to hide. If something changed in my life and I had a full-time caregiver I'd strongly consider going back into diapers permanently, but I'd need them to really be all-in on supporting me in that lifestyle. I don't have that so considering it is neither here nor there.

My wife and I actually just sold our travel trailer- she was a good one, but we've moved to a new urban home and basically never used it. Too much time and effort for a weekend trip when it's an hour-plus just to get to the trailer. Back when we owned a home and it lived in our driveway we probably took it out two weekends per month. We were glampers. Sure, we loved spending time hiking or sunbathing outside, but my favorite memories were cooking a delicious meal and sitting down to watch a movie together. Or relaxing in bed with books and snuggles. These memories were so wonderful that for a while I couldn't drink red wine outside of a camping trip- the taste felt out of place anywhere else. I'm sure we'll own another one in the future but right now there isn't room in the household budget (northeast is a LOT more expensive than the south) and I know we won't use it until we have a suburban home at which it can live. Unfortunately that's probably still a few years out.

I am unapologetically one of the people who creates financial demand for Christmas decorations to hit the shelves in August.

Language has changed but to reduce toward a more accurate mean, and occasionally, to escape words which have been co-opted in negative ways. Transsexual used to be used to mean any kind of person with gender dysphoria, then later to refer to someone who had undergone sexual reassignment surgery. It's fallen out of favor for both the above reasons. One, gender and sex aren't unrelated items but they're still distinct. Gender identity is not sexual identity and so today our language tends to use "gender" rather than "sexual" verbiage. Second, "transsexual" for a long time was co-opted and often used as a word of oppression, so trans people (and the people who care for them) generally stopped using it.

My pet theory is that society is much more constrictive with male gender roles than with female. Very few people bat an eye if a girl wants to wear pants or watch football on TV. But when a boy wants to wear a dress or have painted nails or play with dolls, everyone loses their minds. I think you see less people declaring a FtM identity simply because AFAB people can live a pretty masculine existence if they want. Men are pushed into a much more defined role and as such need to break out much more dramatically to live a feminine existence.

I'm also hoping to pick my writing back up to! I like writing ABDL fiction (and other titilating fiction), but I'm one of those many people out there with three dozen story treatments and stubs, but not a lot of developed works. Anyway, I'm looking forward to all this and just wanted to share. Thanks for stopping by!

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