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I agree with this as well! I'm not sure how comfortable I would be on continuing a story that isn't mine.

So glad everyone is enjoying the story! Just a reminder that you can find the next 2 chapters on my Patreon page https://www.patreon.com/mamabug Chapter Twelve The next few hours felt like they dragged on forever. Every few minutes, Laura caught herself either looking at her phone or the clock on the wall. She tried to distract herself by picking up around the house and catching up on some TV, but she was starting to get antsy after a few hours. Part of her was eagerly waiting for him to return home to her, but the other part was a bit worried about what he was currently feeling. Did she go too far? Would he return and tell her he would never want to do this again? She bit her lip at the thought, that’s not what she wanted. She wanted to have some fun and wanted to share this world with him…as the previous night, he seemed to be into it. But, the more she thought about it, the more concerned she became. Maybe she did go too far. About an hour or so before he was supposed to get home, she started to make dinner, deciding on some chicken, rice, and veggies. “Please don’t hate me, please don’t hate me, please don’t hate me,” she whispered to herself as the clock ticked in the background, it was almost 5:00 PM. Now she was afraid to see him, unable to handle the rejection that she was now expecting. She spent too long with her thoughts, and now she felt defeated. I’m just getting off work now; I’ll be there in about twenty minutes. Her phone dined when she received the text message from Jonathan. She stared at it, trying to detect any secret hidden meanings it could possibly have regarding his current position. But she didn’t see any. She sat on the couch and placed her head in her hands. She was also feeling awful because she was too wearing a diaper, and it was slightly damp. Why was she such an idiot? Why couldn’t she do this the right way? She was always screwing up her previous relationships, but she thought this was different. It was different…but now… She heard a knock on the door, and her heart leaped out of her chest. It had to be Jonathan. She let out a big gulp and tried to gather her composure, she took a deep breath, smoothed out her hair, and opened the door. “Hey,” she said as she forced a smile as she saw him standing before her. “Hey,” he returned the smile, “hmm, something smells good.” “It’s almost finished,” she said as she stepped out of the way, “come on in.” “Thank you.” “How was work?” She asked as she made her way into the kitchen to grab them some beers and finish dinner. “Oh, nothing unusual.” He said. She could detect something in his voice, but she wasn’t positive what it meant. They were tiptoeing around the fact he was wearing a diaper. She bit her lip, she wanted to ask him about it, but she was afraid. “So,” she said as she swung around and handed him the beer, “nothing unusual today? That means I was right.” “Y-yes,” he said with a blush as he grabbed the beer and looked away from her. A smile spread across her face as she felt herself starting to feel better. Maybe she was overreacting after all. “How did it feel?” She asked him. “It was a bit odd,” he admitted, “but I didn’t hate it.” “That’s good,” she said with a nod of her head, “that makes me happy. I’m actually wearing one right now.” “Oh?” He said with a raised brow, and the two of them laughed. “Dinner’s ready,” Laura said, “let’s eat and have some drinks.” The two of them settled upon her couch with a heaping plate full of food and their beers as they searched the television for something to watch. “Thank you for dinner,” Jonathan said as he took a bite, “it’s delicious.” “No problem.” They sat in silence for a few minutes as they continued to eat their meal and watch TV. Once in a while, Laura would glance over at Jonathan to see how he was doing. A few times, she noticed him wiggle around, but she didn’t say anything. “I need to go to the bathroom; I’ll be right back,” Jonathan said as he set his plate down and started to stand up, but Laura grabbed him by his arm. “Wait.” “What?” “Umm,” Laura started, feeling a little silly for what she was about to ask of him, “how about you try to…you know…use the diaper?” “Use it?” He asked her with a blush. “Yeah,” she said, “it’s comfortable, and I won’t be the only one in a wet diaper.” “I don’t know…” “Come on,” Laura said, “you could at least try it. If you don’t like it, you’ll never have to do it again.” He still seemed slightly hesitant, but he nodded his head and sat back down after a bit. “It may be easier for you to squat on the floor,” Laura told him, “It took me a bit get used to wetting just sitting down.” “That’s even more embarrassing!” “Yeah, but it’s cute too!” Jonathan turned his head away, his cheeks a bright red as he squatted down on the floor and closed his eyes. He stayed like that, which seemed like forever. Laura wanted to slide her hand beneath his diaper to feel the warm liquid rush filling it up, but figured that would make it difficult for him so decided against it. Laura turned her gaze away from him, even though it was difficult since he looked so adorable, squatting on the floor with his face scrunched up as he tried to fill up the diaper. But, she wanted to give him as much peace as possible. She wanted him to enjoy this and resent it. The minutes dragged on; Laura was about to tell him that it was okay and that he didn’t have to do it if he wasn’t able too and that they could always try another day – but then. “I did it.” He whispered as he stood up. “R-really?!” Laura spat out, a massive smile on her face, she placed a hand over her face and blushed as she giggled, realizing how excited she was. “Y-yes…” “Can I feel it?” He didn’t object but didn’t say anything. She watched him before she reached over and slowly undid his pants, sliding them down on the floor where he was only standing in a shirt and a diaper. She licked her lips as she placed her hand on his crotch and pressed hard, feeling his diaper’s warmth. She wiggled about as she tried to contain her excitement. She wanted to push him down on the couch and crawl on top of him, but she controlled herself. “How do you feel?” “Embarrassed.” “Other than that.” “It’s….not bad…” He admitted. “Here, sit down,” she said as she patted the couch, and he nodded his head. She then stood up and pulled off the dress she was wearing, leaving her only in a bra and a wet diaper. “Now you’re not alone,” she said with a giggle as she leaned forward and kissed his lips gently. She wanted to reach over and grab at his diaper, feel the wetness beneath her fingers, tease him, tear him apart, destroy him…. She stopped kissing him and leaned back, closing her eyes and taking a deep breath. “What’s wrong?” He asked. “It’s not what you thought it would be? It’s silly…” “No!” Laura said quickly. “I was trying to calm myself.” She grabbed his hand and placed it upon her chest, letting him feel her heart race. “It’s because of you,” she whispered, “I want to take things slow because I know this is all new for you, but it’s exhilarating. Seeing you squat and wet your diaper, feeling your wet diaper, your red cheeks …it’s hard for me to hold back.” He looked at her for a bit, his hand still on his chest, and then he said: “Then, don’t hold back anymore.”

You can find chapter Twelve and Thirteen on my Patreon page (https://www.patreon.com/mamabug) as well as some other great exclusive content! This story is getting close to an end (Probably by Chapter Fourteen/Fifteen) Anyway enjoy! Chapter Eleven Laura pushed herself from Dan as he took a step closer to her; her eyes were filled up to the brink with tears. It was apparent that Jonathan was upset…or mad…of course, he would get the wrong idea of what was going on based on what he saw. “Shit.” She mumbled under her breath. “Laura?” “You need to leave, Dan.” She said almost harshly as she started to open the door. She needed to find Jonathan and explain to him everything that happened. They had just mended their relationship, and things were going well. She didn’t want to ruin what they finally started. “What is going on?” “I need to explain to him that we weren’t doing anything.” For a long time, Dan stared at her and crossed his arms, “you really do like him.” “Y-yes!” “Then let’s go,” Dan said as he started to head out of the apartment, and Laura gave him a puzzled look. What was he doing? “What?” “I’m going to go with you,” Dan said matter of factually, “if we both explain together. Then he should believe us.” “T-thank you,” Laura whispered as she closed the door and walked over to Jonathan’s apartment. She lingered there for a moment, her eyes focused upon the door. She wasn’t sure if he would even answer. Would he ignore her? She knocked on the door. There was no answer for what seemed like forever, but then finally, she heard a click as the door swung inward, and there stood Jonathan. “What do you want?” He asked, his voice was cold and distant, and it made her heart sink. He was mad. But, could she blame him? If she walked into his apartment and saw his arms draped around his ex-girlfriend, she probably would feel uneasy. “I promise you, nothing happened!” Laura said, trying to keep herself together so she wouldn’t start crying. However, she could feel the tears stinging behind her eyes. “Dan just dropped by for a visit. He is still a good friend of mine, but I should have told you he was coming, I’m so sorry!” “She is telling the truth,” Dan said as he placed a hand upon her shoulder, “she really likes you, we didn’t do anything. Even if I tried, …she would reject me in a heartbeat. She’s a great girl.” Jonathan’s facial features lightened up a bit, but he still looked between Laura and Dan before finally speaking. “Promise?” “I promise,” Laura said eagerly, “I wouldn’t do anything to hurt you intentionally.” “Okay,” Jonathan said with a sigh and then gave a soft smile. Laura returned the smile, feeling a bit lighter now. “I’ll leave you two it then,” Dan said with a nod of his head, “you better not hurt her.” “Dan,” Laura grumbled underneath her breath. He always treated her like a helpless little girl that couldn’t take care of himself. She knew that he meant well, but sometimes it got beneath her skin. “See you later,” he said as he patted her shoulder before parting ways. Laura watched him for a moment before returning her attention to Jonathan. “Did you want to come in?” Jonathan asked, and Laura nodded, stepping foot inside of his apartment once again. “I really am sorry, Jonathan,” Laura said with a sigh, “I totally forgot that he would come over, and then we started talking. We haven’t been dating in a few years, but he is one of the few people who know about it…my circumstances, so we’ve always leaned on each other. One of the reasons why I decided to move here so that I could stand on my own two feet. But, it’s not as easy as it sounds.” “I think you’re stronger than you give yourself credit for.” “I don’t feel strong,” Laura said, “I’ve always needed to rely on other people for everything – money, support, emotional and physical. After I graduated from college, I woke up one day and decided to move away and try to make a living for myself.” “Look how far you’ve come,” Jonathan told you, “you have your own place and have a good job. I think you’re doing well for yourself.” Laura smiled at him, “Thanks,” she mumbled, “that’s nice to hear….and I’m super thankful that I met you.” Jonathan turned to look at her. “I really do like you,” she breathed in as she took a step closer to him, “you’re amazing.” “So are you,” he said with a smile. The two of them leaned in and kissed. She wrapped her arms around him as they pressed up against each other. They kissed for what seemed like forever; she ran her fingers down his back and placed his hands at her hip. His kisses were always so sweet and soft. She moaned slightly as she pressed herself even harder against him, letting her hands sink lower until they reached his bottom. “Oh man,” Jonathan said beneath his breath. “What?” “I need to start getting ready for work.” “Oh, bummer,” Laura said with a sigh, “well, I can wait until you get back.” She plopped his nose with her finger, and he nodded his head. “Sounds good to me.” “Hmm, I actually have something I wish you to do,” Laura said, “to make things a bit more exciting.” “What?” She leaned into his ear, her lips almost touching him, as she whispered, “you should wear a diaper to work, they’re super comfy….and then come back to me…” His cheeks blushed. “A-re you serious?” She nodded her head, “it’ll be fun. I’ve worn to work a couple of times.” “I don’t know…if someone…” “No one will hear it,” she said, “just wear a bit baggy of pants. People are so focused on their life; they’re not going to be super focused on you!” “I suppose…” She grabbed his hand and pulled him toward the door, “come on, trust me.” He didn’t object any further as they left his apartment and headed to hers. Laura’s heart was pounding in her chest; what was she doing? She bit her lip in excitement. The idea of waiting for him to come home to her in a diaper was almost too much for her to take. She wondered if she could get him to use the diaper. Now, that would be so hot! She instructed him to lay down on the bed she reached in her closet and pulled out a diaper. She noted that she needed to purchase some diapers for him, as this was the last one of the mistakes she had gotten. She walked over to him and pulled off his pants and boxers, leaving him there in just a t-shirt, naked from the waist down. She wiggled as she slid the diaper beneath his bottom. He looked incredibly sexy, just lying there, and it took everything she had not to crawl on top of him. She taped up the diaper, making sure it was secure on his waist so it wouldn’t fall off. She helped him put his pants back on as he stood up. “See!” she said, “you can’t even notice.” “I guess not,” he said as he wiggled about, “I’ll admit it is a bit comfortable.” His cheeks were still red, and he couldn’t thoroughly look at her in the eyes. “Don’t forget, I’ll be waiting for you,” Laura whispered as she leaned up and kissed him. “I’ll be home by 5,” he replied. “Okay, I’ll also make us dinner,” she said, “now have a good day at work.” Before he left, though, she raised her hand and smacked his behind, causing the diaper to make a crinkle should. She laughed as he blushed before she shut the door behind him. She pressed her body against it, breathing hard. Just that little moment between them was almost too much for her to handle. Her heart was racing as she thought about him at work wearing a diaper. She licked her lips as she went into her bedroom and decided to slip on a diaper herself and then wait for him.

So instead of publishing the 3rd book of my Series "The Taboo Word," I decided to just post the chapters weekly on my Patreon page ($5 tier). If you haven't purchased the previous books, you can do so here ( https://books2read.com/thetabooword/ & https://books2read.com/thetabooword2/). I am posting the 1st chapter here, but if you wish to read more (and all the other exclusive content and early access) head over to my Patreon page - https://www.patreon.com/mamabug Chapter One The sun was bright, shining through the curtains. But, Elizabeth didn’t mind as Chandler wrapped his arms around her and brought her close to him. She smiled as she snuggled as close as she could in his chest, feeling his skin’s warmth and hearing his heart thumping in his chest. “You know, we can keep going like this,” Chandler whispered in her ear as they lay next to each other on the bed, wrapped in each other’s arms, lost in the moment. “I wish we could,” Elizabeth whispered, her eyes shut tightly; “I wish we could stay like this forever.” “Why can’t we?” Chandler asked, running his fingers through her hair. “Because…” Elizabeth started to speak, feeling the tightness in her throat, not wanting to say it. “Don’t do it,” Chandler hummed, “just stay like this, the way it’s supposed to be.” Elizabeth felt tears in her eyes. “But,” she whimpered, “but it’s all just a dream…” Elizabeth jolted from her bed, sweat pouring from her face as she panted hard. She looked around her room, noticing that it was still dark outside. It took her about a minute to gather her barring and for her mind to register what had happened. She took a deep breath and lay back down in bed, afraid to close her eyes again. For the past month, she had been having detailed dreams like that – and they always ended the same way. Just the thought made her want to cry out, but she felt like she had run out of tears. She knew she made the best decision leaving, but that didn’t mean it didn’t hurt. She couldn’t sleep for the rest of the night. “What plans do you have this Friday night?” Sarah asked later that afternoon as they sat outside on the benches, waiting for one of their classes to start. Elizabeth secretly wished she was in the library to catch up on some homework. However, she felt like whenever it was too silent around her. That is when the thoughts became too much for her. “I don’t think I have any plans,” Elizabeth said with a shrug of her shoulders, trying to keep a fake smiling face plastered across her falling apart one. “We should hang out that day,” Sarah smiled at her, before opening up a contact mirror and reapplying her lipstick, “stay up all night and binge-watching a tv show, take some shots.” She was thankful that Sarah never questioned her about what happened, as Elizabeth had promised her eventually, she would share everything – she just wasn’t ready. Whenever she thought about Chandler and everything that happened, it felt like a knife was pressing against her lungs, making it difficult to breathe. It has only been a month; she only wished that over time it would get more comfortable. But, it seemed as if the pain only increased daily. “That sounds amazing,” Elizabeth said, glad that she wasn’t inviting her to another party. It had been quite a while since the two of them hung out with just each other. Sarah reached over and gave her friend a tight hug. “I’m always here for you, kiddo.” “I know, thank you,” Elizabeth said back, trying her best to keep herself together and not fall apart right then and there. “Oh shit! I have to get to class. I’ll text you later, kay?” Sarah said as she jumped down and grabbed her stuff, giving Elizabeth a quick wave before she ran off. Elizabeth got up and started heading to class, even though she was going to be there early. She was thankful that she was no longer in Chandler’s class; she honestly wouldn’t handle it. Most of the time, she went out of her way to go a long way to some of her courses near his classroom and his office. She was very fortunate as well that she hadn’t seen him in the past month. She wanted to keep it that way. She wasn’t sure how strong she could remain if she saw him again. She took a deep breath as she made her way to class, which felt like an eternity when it came to her thoughts. Was she wrong? Was there still a chance between them? Or did her jumping off the diving board headfirst destroy any chance of happiness they could have had? “Do you have a pencil I can borrow?” A classmate and an acquaintance of Elizabeth asked as she sat down in her seat. “Oh yeah, here you go,” Elizabeth said as she fetched one in her backpack before giving it to her. “Thanks.” She said as she grabbed the pencil. “Hey, don’t you think Mr. Matthew’s is really cute?” She replied as she motioned with her head to the professor. “Yeah, he’s okay,” Elizabeth said as she looked him over. Mr. Matthew’s as your typical “Mr. handsome.” But he wasn’t her type. Of course, all she could do was compare him to Chandler – and he was nothing like him. “Oh, that’s right. You liked that nerdy professor, right?” The girl next to her – Heather stated. “You were always flirting with him.” “I just really enjoyed his class,” Elizabeth said, putting on a smile, hiding the fact there was a sharp pain in her chest, “I wouldn’t call it flirting. I was only friendly.” “Mhm, sure,” Heather giggled, obviously not noticing the infliction she was causing her, “you can go and admit it. I admitted I’m crushing on Mr. Matthews.” “I heard he’s in a relationship with someone anyway,” Elizabeth said, trying to deflect. “Oh yeah, I think I did see him around with someone…but that was a while ago. They may have broken up. Now is your chance.” Heather said, and Elizabeth shook her head. “Right after you go after Mr. Matthews.” “Touché!” Heather said as they both giggled a bit before getting back to work. Elizabeth took a deep breath as she turned away. She knew that Heather didn’t mean any harm in her words, and she was only gently teasing her about her small crush on Chandler from beforehand…but still, pretending to be happy, pretending to laugh and smile…it seemed only to make the pain worst. She also didn’t go back on that website after she ended things with Chandler. She was too scared. She was afraid to face them and to face herself. She looked in the mirror and was unable to recognize the person looking back at her. She felt lost. But, she knew that she needed to find her way. She needed to find herself and find the strength to move on. But, as the months went by and there was no word from Chandler, the pain didn’t subside.

Chapter Eleven and Twelve are available on my Patreon page! There will be another audio chapter released tomorrow (for my $10 patrons) and this Saturday I will be posting my newest Podcast up there! https://www.patreon.com/mamabug So glad you're all enjoying the story! xx Chapter Ten BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP The sound of her alarm jolted Laura out of her bed as she breathed hard. She mumbled a curse word under her breath as she reached over and turned off her alarm. Her head was pounding, and her eyes were tired. It took her a few moments to register everything around her. She turned to look and saw Jonathan sprawled out on the bed, lying on his stomach and facing away. She gasped as the memories of what happened the previous night started to replay in her mind. She blushed hard as she remembered revealing her deepest secret, but smiled when he was at ease. She buried her face in her hands, her heart pounding in her chest; it was still hard to wrap her mind around what had happened. Part of her thought, she was still dreaming, and she would soon awake to an empty bed, and Jonathan would know nothing about her love for diapers. But, the longer she sat there, the realization that this was reality. This happened. He really knew her secret! She felt giddy, and she wanted to wake him up but held herself back. Instead, she quietly slid out of bed, got dressed, and headed into the kitchen. She turned on the stove as she grabbed the carton of eggs from the fridge, turning on some music as she cooked. She wasn’t the best at cooking, but she did enjoy it. “Good morning.” The voice startled her as she turned to see Jonathan standing before her. She felt her palms grow a bit sweaty as she was nervous, but she kept her composure as she flashed him a smile. “Good morning, want an omelet?” She asked as she pointed to the stove with the spatula. “Sounds great, thanks.” He said. “Do you have any coffee?” “Yes, help yourself.” She replied as she pointed to the coffee maker. He nodded his head and made his way over to it as he started a pot of coffee for both of them. “Did you sleep well?” “I did,” she replied, “a bit of a hangover this morning, but nothing too serious. How about yourself?” “I slept great,” he said. Neither of them was able to look at each other in the eye; every time they looked, they would blush and turn away. It was as if they were childhood kids with crushes. “Last night,” Laura started to speak as she flipped over the omelet, “was pretty amazing.” “Y-yeah,” he said as he started to pour two cups of coffees as Laura began to plate the omelets and grab the toast from the toaster. They awkwardly walked over to the kitchen table and sat down. “Thanks for breakfast, it looks delicious.” He said he cut a piece of the egg off with a fork and plopped it in his mouth. “N-no problem,” she said as she also took a bite. “Sorry,” he eventually spoke, placing down his fork, “I don’t mean to seem so awkward, it’s just…” “I understand,” she said, “it is a lot to take in. We don’t have to talk about it just yet, but I just want to say…thank you.” He smiled at her. “No problem, I like you a lot.” “I like you too.” They then ate their eggs and drank their coffee in silence. Once finished, Laura grabbed the plates and put them in the sink. “Do you work today?’ “Sadly,” he said, “but it’s only for a few hours, so that’s good.” “Ah, well, that’s not too bad then.” “I probably should get going,” Jonathan said, “jump in the shower and do some school work before work.” “Okay,” Laura said, though she felt a bit sad he had to leave, “thanks for coming over.” “Thanks for having me,” Jonathan said as he bent down and kissed her on the lips, she felt her heart skip a beat with his touch. “Thanks, for….everything.” She said as she kissed him back, a bit harder than he kissed her. Once he had left, she too jumped in the shower and got dressed for the day, although she had nothing planned. After her shower, she walked into the kitchen to notice Jonathan’s phone on the kitchen table. She went to grab for it so she could return it when she heard a knock on the door. Who could that be? She walked over to the door and opened it to see Dan standing before her. “Dan?” She asked when she suddenly remembered he told her he was coming over to see her. “Good morning,” he said as he entered the apartment, “I called, but you didn’t answer.” “Oh, sorry, I left the phone in my bedroom.” Dan folded his arms, and he looked her over, she started to feel uncomfortable, so she turned on her heels and walked away, but before she could get very far, he had placed a hand upon her shoulder and turned her around. “What?” “You look…different.” He said, but then he started to laugh. “Looks like someone got lucky last night.” She felt her cheeks start to turn red. “Oh, hush!” she said, though she knew she couldn’t deny it, the truth was written upon her face. Dan could always see through her. Plus, she wasn’t a good liar. She shuffled her feet, but she knew he would continue to ask her questions until she broke down. But, she was still processing everything that happened herself; she didn’t have much to say. “So, what happened? Did he find out about your little secret?” He asked. “I told him.” Laura finally said, but before Dan could say anything else, she quickly added, “and he was totally fine with it.” “Really?” Dan said, quite surprised. “That’s great. I was worried about you.” “Well, you don’t have to, I’m a big girl, and I can handle myself.” “I didn’t say that,” he said, “I care about you still.” “I know,” she said, “but even still, I can handle myself. It went really well.” “I’m sure it did,” he said with a nod of his head, “so I’m guessing you won’t’ need help anymore.” “Help with that?” She asked him, though she already knew the answer, she decided to play dumb. “You know what,” he said, he walked over and placed a hand upon her bottom, but she smacked him away, “I see you’re not wearing anything.” “No, and stop. I don’t need your help anymore, Dan. We aren’t dating; we are just friends. Let’s keep it that way. I don’t want to do anything to ruin what I have with Jonathan. I really like him.” She hadn’t talked like this to Dan before; usually, she was quiet and obedient around him. He was the protection of her secrets and her desires. He always rescued her and came when she needed him. But, she didn’t want to be dependent anymore. She tried to stand up on her own two feet. He stared at her but didn’t say a word for a while. “I’m sorry,” he said, “I didn’t mean to upset you.” “I know,” she replied, “I appreciate it.” He walked over to her and wrapped his arms around her, and she sunk into his arms. Even though he could seem rough on the outside and he was the kind of person who did things before thinking about it and was rather blunt with his words – he was kind, and he was always watching out for her. She could never thank him enough for everything he has done for her over the years. But, it was time for her to grow on her own. She no longer needed him to watch her every move. As they had their arms wrapped around each other, there was a knock on the door, but before she could escape from Dan’s grasp to answer it, it opened. “Sorry,” Jonathan said, “I shouldn’t barge in here, but I left my phone…” His words stopped as he stood in the doorway as Dan and Laura were hugging each other. “Jonathan,” she gasped as she wiggled free from Dan, “your phone is on the kitchen table. I was just about to bring it over to you.” “Thanks,” he said shortly as he grabbed his phone without another glance at them. “Jonathan?” She asked, her voice was shaking, but he didn’t say anything. He didn’t even turn back as he left the apartment, shutting the door behind him. She looked at Dan and then back to the door, feeling her heart sink.

Chapter Ten and Eleven of this story is now available on my Patreon page along with other exclusive content (stories/artwork/audio book), as well as early access to this story and my Podcast! https://www.patreon.com/mamabug Enjoy! Chapter Nine The silence stretched between the two of them. For a long time, Jonathan just stared at her to the point she finally let go of her dress, hiding her diaper once again. She wanted to remain calm and not freak out on him, but as the silence went on, she started to feel nauseous. What was he going to say? Was he going to run out and call her a freak? She could feel sweat began to drip down her forehead, and her heart was pounding in her chest. She wanted to tell him it was all a joke (though how could she when she showed him her diaper?) she wanted to reverse the clock and never tell him in the first place. Why was she so stupid? She could feel herself sobering up and tears stinging in her eyes, but she still stood there, pretending on the inside she wasn’t falling apart. “Wow.” He took a deep breath, and she felt her heart drop. Wow? Was that all he had to say about this? “I mean,” he scratched his head, “I’m not sure what to say…” “I’m sorry,” Laura said, feeling her act start to fall away, “I thought you should know…” “Laura,” he called her name, but she didn’t hear him. “Perhaps we should just forget about it altogether, just pretend it didn’t happen. It’s not that big of a deal anyway. I’m just going to –“ “Laura.” “You know what, if you want to leave, that’s just fine – “but before she could say anything more, he kissed her. “You kissed me.” She said, shocked. “It was the only way to shut you up,” he told her, “It’s okay, Laura. I’m not freaked out; I’m not mad, I’m not going anywhere. I’m here.” “You are?” She asked him. “Yes,” he said as he kissed her again, “I’m not going anywhere….you look pretty cute actually.” She felt herself blush. “I can’t believe this.” “Well, you better believe it.” He said with a smirk, and she began to relax. All her anxieties and worries started to wash away as he stood right in front of her and looked at her without judgment. “Most people who find out…” Laura sighed. “They date me because they think I’m this perfect girl, but they don’t realize that I have secrets too, that I’m not as perfect as they think…then they leave.” “They are fools.” He said with a shake of his head. “You’re amazing.” “No-no I’m not…” “I think you are,” he said with a shrug of his shoulder, “So if you have a fetish…it just makes you unique. There isn’t anything to be ashamed of.” Laura felt the tears fall down her face, part of it was her being a bit drunk, and the other part was his words. She never met someone so accepting before. Even Dan, though he was totally fine with it now, took him a while to get accustomed to it. They wrapped their arms around each other’s neck and kissed, and it was probably one of the best kisses she’s ever had. His lips were soft and tender, his arms slowly lowered to her back, pressing her closer to him. She ran her fingers through his hair. She wanted to stay in this moment, forever. “Do…do you want me to get out of it…” she started to speak, feeling herself get a bit nervous again. “No,” was all he said as he pushed her on the bed, climbing on top of her as they began to make out once more. Soon they were stripping each other naked, to the point where she was wearing nothing but her diaper. She felt more exposed than if she had been thoroughly exposed. “Let me just…” “Wait,” he said as he held her back from getting up. His hands began to trace down her stomach until they got to her diaper. He let his fingers trace along the edges of it before pressing his fingers against it, “so you like wearing it?” She nodded her head. “It’s comfortable.” “Is it?” “Yeah, it is,” Laura said, wondering if he was curious about it, deciding to go for it, “you know…once they sent me some diapers in the wrong size…they probably would fit you.” “M-me?” His cheeks turned red, and she smiled. “I don’t know.” “Come on,” she said, pushing him a little, “I bet you would look sexy in one.” Something came over her; she dominate side resurfaced as her fears of his rejection faded away. “No, I couldn’t.” He said with a shake of his head, but he still had his hand upon her diaper. “You wouldn’t have to use it,” she told him, “not even a little curious?” “I mean, I am…” he said honestly, his voice was low, and his cheeks were red. “Hold on,” Laura said as she jumped out of bed and walked over to the closet and pulled out the diaper she was talking about, “lay down.” Jonathan nodded his head as he lay down on the bed, naked, as Laura lifted his legs and slid the diaper beneath this bottom. She had a bit difficulty taping the diaper up because his penis was sticking straight up, but she maneuvered it to where she could tape up the diaper snuggly around his waist. “How does that feel?” She asked him with a smile. “It feels…comfortable,” he said with a wiggle. She pressed her fingers against his diaper, biting her lower lip. She was right. He looked incredibly sexy in the diaper as he laid helpless before her. She felt her feelings surge up as she got on top of him, pressing her diaper against his as she kissed him. It felt so good to be with him, have him beneath her, kiss him, and hold him. She had never been able to take the lead before. She was always with guys who were either vanilla or more dominant. As a switch, it was a part of her she craved, and she finally wanted to explore. She pressed herself as close as she could, as they continued to kiss. She rubbed her fingers down his stomach to his diapered bottom while he played with her breast. She wanted more of him, but she held herself back. The fact he was willing to wear a diaper was something huge for her that she didn’t want to push the issue. She could feel herself grow even wetter just thinking about him. “I need to change before we go further,” she told him as she kissed him on the cheek, “do you want to do it, or do you want me?” “I don’t know what to do…” he said with a blush. “You’ve never changed a diaper before?” “Yes….but that was on a baby…” “It’s the same; I’m just a lot bigger.” She said with a giggle, she jumped off the bed and grabbed some wipes and laid down. “I won’t bite.” “O-okay.” He slid off the bed and positioned himself between her legs, which were hanging off the bed. She was secretly happy she wasn’t soaked, but she was still pretty wet. He undid the tapes and slid them off of her, leaving her exposed. He then grabbed some wipes and gently wiped her bottom. As he did so, she noticed he was blushing and biting his lower lip. Was this turning him on? “Thank you!” Laura said once he was finished. She sat up and kissed him on the lips before rolling up the used diaper and setting it on the floor. “For your help, I’m going to reward you.” She then slid his diaper down, to the point his dick was freed. She lowered herself and kissed the tip of it, before running her tongue all around the tip. She could feel him wiggle at the slightest touch. She then placed the tip in her mouth, but not going all the way in. She teased him, using her free hand to massage his balls as she continued to slowly go in and out, taking her time to build up the sensation before she went as far as she could, causing him to gasp for pleasure as she did so. Afterward, she wrapped her arms around him and pulled him on top of her on the bed. They began to kiss once more, as he found his way inside of her. She gasped as he went all the way in; she arched her back as she groaned in pleasure. Every little touch, kiss, movement caused her whole body to ache for more. “Oh my,” she whispered as he began to rock back and forth, she could feel the diaper brush against her skin with every little move. He began to kiss her neck down to her breast, where he began to suckle on her as he continued to fuck her. She wrapped her arms around his neck and let out a moan. The mixture of him being inside her and sucking on her nipples was almost too much to bear. It wasn’t long before they both finished. They then fell onto the bed, sweating and panting profusely. “That was amazing,” Laura said as she turned to look at him and smiled. “Yeah, it was.” He admitted. In each other’s arms, the two just laid there for a long time, without another word. She was just basking in the particular moment they experienced together.

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Chapter Nine and Ten are on my Patreon page! As well as a brand new exclusive story! (About a trip to the zoo. MDLB 3.5k words!) and early access to my 3rd episode of my podcast Musings of a Domme Mommy. Check it out! Any and all support os appreciated! ❤️ https://www.patreon.com/mamabug Chapter Eight Over the next week, Laura’s relationship with Jonathan continued to blossom. After work each day, the two of them would spend time with each other. Even during the days, Jonathan had to focus on his study; she would bring over snacks and help him. It was quite blissful for Laura, and she couldn’t wait to see him after work every day. They would always eventually find themselves on a couch, and once on the bed, kissing. Every time he touched her, she felt her heart skip a beat, every time he touched her, she melted. She was always thinking of him, wanting more of him. But there was still something deep inside of her that caused her to push him away every time they were close to taking the next step in their relationship. How could she have sex with him when she hadn’t revealed her deepest secret when it came to her fetish? It seemed wrong. Every day that passed, she got more anxious, and she knew that she had to tell him. She couldn’t keep it a secret forever. But, she was afraid. What would happen after she told him? Would he turn away in disgust, or would he break up with her? Her heart ached at the thought of that. They had only known each other for a few weeks, but she liked him and didn’t want their relationship to end suddenly. Yet, she knew she could not keep it a secret forever. The two of them had a date tomorrow night for the concert, would she tell him then? How would she tell him? She was getting a headache, just thinking of it. Of course, at this time is when Dan decided to call her. “Hey, I can’t talk for long, I have to head to work.” “I was just checking up on you, wondering if you wanted me to come down this weekend.” “I would love you too,” Laura said with a smile, “but it has to be on Sunday; tomorrow, I’m going to a concert with Jonathan.” “Ohhh,” Dan said with a chuckle, “how are you guys doing? Have you told him.” Laura gulped hard. “N-no, but I was going too.” “Just be careful,” he told her with a sigh. “I will.” She said. “He is a good guy. I don’t think he will be turned off by it…I actually think he will like it…maybe…” “I hope he does,” he said, “I’ll see you Sunday, okay?” “Okay,” she said with a sigh, “have a good day.” “You two.” She hung up the phone and grabbed her purse and keys and headed out of the apartment. “You can do this,” she told herself as she headed to her car and to work. She was going to say to him tomorrow. She was going to say to him tomorrow. She was going to do it. On the day of the concert, Laura made the brave decision to wear a diaper underneath her dress. Most of it was for a practical reason, so she didn’t have to worry about the toilet, but was also a way to make her have to tell Jonathan and not be a coward about it. After all, she had a feeling that tonight would be the night they would have sex, and she couldn’t keep pushing it off. “Are you ready?” Jonathan asked as he came to pick her up later that evening. He was wearing jeans with a simple graphic t-shirt, but even still, he looked incredibly cute. “I am,” Laura said as she grabbed her purse and threw it over her shoulder. “I’m really excited,” Laura said as they head to his car, “it’s been a long time since I’ve been to a concert.” “They’re supposed to be good,” Jonathan replied. “How is school?” “It’s going well, lots of work, but I’m managing. How is work?” “I’m finally getting the hang of things,” Laura flashed a smile at him before getting into the car. “That’s good; I’m sure you’re doing great,” Jonathan said as he started it. The trip to the concert was about a forty-five-minute drive. Neither they minded though, as they continued to chat about everything they could think about to the show. Once they got there, they found some parking, grabbed their tickets, and walked around a bit. The concert was being held outside, so there were a few vendors parked around. “This place is fantastic!” Laura said. “It sure is, did you want a drink?” Jonathan asked as he pulled out his wallet. “Stop it,” Laura insisted, “you paid for dinner last week, AND you bought the tickets! Let me purchase the drinks.” “But, you know they’re not…” “I don’t care how much they cost,” Laura said, “let me do this, please?” “Okay, okay. You win.” He said with a sigh of defeat as Laura laughed and bought them two beers. The two continued to walk around, drinking the beer, laughing, and having a great time. By the time the concert started, Laura had insisted on buying another beer, although she understood the mistake as her bladder was going to fill up. “I’m going to run to the bathroom real quick,” Jonathan said. “Okay, I’ll be fine. I have a strong bladder.” She said with a giggle. “Oh, wow. I’m jealous.” “Maybe one day I’ll tell you my secret.” She said with a wink, feeling herself becoming a little bit buzzed. “I would love that.” Laura felt herself getting naughty thoughts as Jonathan slipped away, but she shook her head. He returned just before the first band appeared. He grabbed ahold of her hand, squeezing it tight. She felt the tips of her ears blush slightly as she scooted closer to him. The concert was terrific. Every band killed it, and the two enjoyed themselves. Throughout the hours, Laura felt her bladder starting to fill up to where she couldn’t hold back anymore. Halfway through the concert, she let go into the diaper she was wearing, feeling it swell up around her. She blushed at the thought, but shook her head, feeling slightly drunk as she leaned over and planted a big kiss on Jonathan’s cheek. The two of them started to make out just as the last song finished off. “Wow,” he breathed in as they pulled apart as everyone around them started to leave. “Yeah,” she said with a giggle, “you ready to head back?” “Sure,” he said, grabbing hold of her hand and leading her to his car. The two of them chatted all the way home about the concert, about their favorite songs, about how that one time threw up on her date or when a fight almost broke out. By the time both of them got back to the apartments, they were lingering by her door. “Did you want to…come in?” She asked as she played with her keys. “Yeah, sure.” He said with a blush. She smiled as she opened the door, and the two walked in, but they didn’t make it too far before she turned around and pressed her body up against him, kissing him hard. They began to make out, hands starting to touch everywhere, as they moved into the bedroom. She knew she had to stop him, his fingers haven’t quite reached her bottom yet, but once he did, it would be all over. But, she couldn’t help it, his kisses were intoxicating, she wanted to push him down and have her way with him. She wanted him to beg for her and to call her mommy…and to wear a cute diaper… She had to stop herself, pushing the thoughts away. NO. She needed to tell him. Even if it was one of the most challenging things she had to do, she had to say to him. “W-wait!” she called out, trying to pull away from his lips. “W-what is wrong?” He asked. “If you don’t’ want too, I understand…” “No, I do want too,” she insisted, “it’s just before we do…there is something I need to tell you.” “What is it?” “It’s nothing awful or anything,” she told him, “It’s just something I need to tell you before we go any further.” “Go on; I’m listening.” He said in a calm voice, obviously sensing she was worried about it. “Um, well, you see,” Laura said, trying to find the right words to say, “it’s kind of like a fetish or a preference, I’m not exactly sure why it started…but it’s been like this forever. It’s a part of who I am. I’m not asking anything of you. I like you, and I want you to be a part of it…if you want…and my life. But, I’m worried you’ll think I’m a freak…” Jonathan stopped her as he placed a hand upon her shoulder. “Calm down, Laura. You’re speaking a million miles an hour. Whatever you have to tell me, it’ll be okay. I promise.” Laura took a deep breath, grabbed the edges of her dress, and pulled them up, revealing the diaper she was wearing underneath. “I like to wear diapers,” she whispered under her breath.

Maybe so, but it's still the right thing to do. Just as someone has every right to stop dating me because they can't handle the fact that I'm a single mother, they also have the right to stop dating me if they can't handle that I'm a Domme Mommy. Does that make them a terrible person? Of course not. Now...if they called me a freak and disgusting - that is a different story. But, if it was something they couldn't accept, it's better to just rip that band-aid then wait 20 years down the line. Plus, I would be more upset about my partner hiding a secret from me for so long, then the secret itself. That alone in itself can cause the end of a marriage. Now of course, if you love someone, you are going to try to work past it (If it is a healthy relationship) and you're going to be willing to open up and explore. I don't think there is anything wrong with trying to help partners reach a compromise and understand each other. I encourage that just as much. However, I would not call it self-centered if a partner just can't do it. It's better for them to walk away for their own good and their partners. For if someone truly loves you and there is open communication and trust, then a relationship should last. If it doesn't last, it wasn't meant to be. I also just wanted to add, that if for some reason my boyfriend and I broke up - I could never date anyone that was vanilla. So I would also end the relationship if they were not open or into the idea of diaper play and ABDL.

That is why I'm a huge supporter of people telling their partners BEFORE they get married. It's not fair for someone who is part of the ABDL community to have to 'hide' their feelings or desires - but at the same time, it's important for their spouse to make the decision if they want to take that on or not. We all have things that we consider to be 'deal-breakers' that we ourselves could not handle. There are many things that I would end a relationship on - that has nothing to do with the person themselves and I would never make them feel ashamed about, it's just not something I could do. You should never force your partner to indulge in your desires. But, you shouldn't be ridiculed by them either. I couldn't imagine being in a relationship where I had to hide my true self for so long. It's a huge part of me and I couldn't be with someone who didn't accept or even participate (and that is okay!)

I'm back from my mini beach vacation and back to writing! Chapter Eight and Nine are on my Patreon page along with many other exclusive content! https://www.patreon.com/mamabug Chapter Seven Laura couldn’t sleep at all that night, she tossed and turned because of Dan’s words ringing in her ears. She woke up at least three times in the middle of the night before just gave up at about 5:00 AM. She rolled out of bed and into the shower, knowing that today was going to drag on forever. Why did she have to let him get her like that? She cursed beneath her breath as she got out of the shower and instantly to the kitchen to pour herself a cup of coffee. So what if she hadn’t told Jonathan her little secret? It wasn’t something that you just blurted out of nowhere, plus they only went on one date, it wasn’t as if they were a couple yet. Good morning, I hope it’s okay to text you. I’m about to go to school, but I hope you have a good day! Laura smiled down at her phone from the text she received from Jonathan, her cheeks burning slightly. Good morning! It’s okay to text me anytime! Have a great day too! I look forward to our date tonight! She buried her head into her hands and took a deep breath; perhaps she should tell him before they got too serious? But, they were neighbors, what if he was disgusted by her? She shook her head, no; he didn’t seem that type of guy. Perhaps she should just play it by ear and see how it went? After two cups of coffee, Laura got ready for work, knowing that she would be dead by the night end. But she wasn’t going to be canceling her date; she had been looking forward to it. Even though she was quite nervous. Work dragged on; it took everything she had to keep herself awake, having to have another two cup of coffee throughout the day just to make it. It didn’t help that her mind was weighed down with thoughts about tonight. How was it going to go? By the time work was over, all she wanted to do was crawl into bed and go to sleep, but she managed to get dressed. She wore a lovely blue dress that twirled around her whenever she moved, as they were supposed to go out to dinner tonight, though she wasn’t exactly sure where. She heard a knock on the door and opened it up to find Jonathan standing in a dark blue dress up shirt and pants. “You look handsome,” she said with a smile. “You look…stunning…” he replied as leaned over and kissed him on the cheek. “Should we get going?” She asked, and he nodded his head. “How was work?” He asked her. “It seemed to go on forever. I didn’t sleep to well last night.” “Oh, I’m sorry about that.” “It’s okay; I’ll be fine.” She smiled at him. She was already starting to feel a lot better. They got in the car and headed to the most beautiful restaurant in town, getting a table in the corner and ordering a couple of drinks. The restaurant’s ceiling was high up with a beautiful chandelier sparkling from above. The tables had light blue tablecloths with a candle on each table. There even was a 20-foot fish tank in the corner. It was probably one of the nicest places that Laura had ever been to. “This place is gorgeous,” Laura said as she looked around the restaurant and peered down at the menu. “Are you sure this is okay?” “Yes,” Jonathan said, “I figured I needed to make up for what happened the last time.” Laura smiled at him. “It’s okay; we both said some terrible things. Let’s just forget about it.” The two of them looked at each other for a moment before looking at the menus. It wasn’t long before their waiter came over and took their order. They caught up on some small talk and waited for their food, which came out sooner than they had expected. “This is good,” Laura said as she took her second bite of the chicken that she ordered. “Yeah, it is,” Jonathan agreed as he cut into his steak and took a large bite. “So, do you have any siblings?” “I’m the youngest of three,” Jonathan said, “yourself?” “I have an older sister and a younger brother,” Laura told him, “but my brother is a lot younger than me. My sister and I are only a few years apart. She got married a year ago and is now living on the other side of the state.” “I have all three older sisters,” Jonathan said, “all of them are married, and even a few of them have children.” “Oh, wow,” Laura said, “no nephews or nieces for me yet.” “Yeah,” Jonathan laughed, “they’re fun to have around.” “I’m sure; kids are great….sometimes I wish I could be one again.” “Yeah, same here,” Jonathan said, and Laura smiled, knowing that the words that she had spoken and that he had told were different meanings. But, she didn’t blame him for him questioning why she would say that. “I think it’s pretty great that you’re able to live on your own and go to college. I had to live with roommates, no way I could afford my place.” “It wasn’t easy,” Jonathan said, “I took a year off before college and worked two jobs to save up enough money. Thankfully I got a scholarship to help pay for some tuition.” “Oh, wow,” she said, “that’s really amazing.” “It’s not that great. I just had to do what I had to do. My parents couldn’t afford to send me to college.” “No, don’t sell yourself short,” Laura told him, “It is amazing. I had to take loans out and only had a part-time job through some of my college life.” “Don’t sell yourself short either,” he said, “you got a good job and an apartment now by yourself.” “Hmm, I suppose,” Laura said, “I don’t feel like an adult.” “Do any of us?” Jonathan asked her, and the two of them laughed. “I’m having a great time,” Laura told him. “Me too,” he replied with a smile. They stared at each other for a moment, lost in each other’s eyes, before Laura turned away, feeling herself blush. She opened her mouth to speak, but before she could say anything, the waiter returned to ask if they wanted dessert, in which they declined (Jonathan said he knew the perfect ice cream place they could go too). Jonathan paid the bill; Laura tried to tell him they could split or even let her pay the tip. Still, Jonathan insisted that he wanted to do it, so Laura kept her mouth shut, but she was a bit apprehensive about it since she knew that the bill was probably close to a hundred bucks by the end of the night. “Thank you for dinner,” Laura said as the two of them made their way back to his car. “You’re welcome,” he said with a smile. Jonathan than drove them to an ice cream place where they sat outside. Jonathan ordered a rocky road ice cream cone while Laura got a strawberry shortcake. “This is delicious,” Laura, “the perfect way to end the night.” “I agree,” Jonathan said as he shifted his weight. “I’m really enjoying myself.” “Me too. I hope we can do it again sometime soon.” Laura felt her cheeks flush. “I would love that.” They sat in silence for a few moments as Laura felt a sickening feeling in her stomach as Dan’s words haunted her once more. “So Jonathan,” Laura started to speak as she looked at him, “do you have any deep dark secrets?” Jonathan gave her an odd look as he raised a brow, “No, why the sudden questioning?” “Just curious,” she said, “we all have our secrets.” “What is yours?” He asked. “Hmmm, I wonder.” The two of them finished their ice cream before driving back home. They lingered in front of her doorway for a few minutes. “Thank you again,” Laura said. “Yeah,” he said with a blush, unable to meet her gaze. She stood there and waited, wondering if he would make the first move. She knew the other night she took the initiative, but she was hoping… He placed his hand against her arm as he leaned forward and planted a soft kiss on her lips. “Goodnight, Laura.” “Goodnight,” she whispered as she waved to him as she opened the door and let herself in, feeling her heart pound against her chest as she closed her eyes. Jonathan’s kiss was so soft, but she wanted more, she touched her lips as she felt her cheeks flush. She couldn’t help but wonder how he would feel when he found out her secret? Would he be scared and run away? Or would he be curious to try it out himself? I just found out there was a concert next weekend, did you want to go? Laura spotted the text message after she got undressed, getting ready for bed. She smiled at the text message from Jonathan as she replied that she would love to go. Laura slipped on a thick diaper before climbing into bed, with nothing else on. She pressed her fingers against the diaper, feeling the warmth beneath her. She couldn’t help but imagine Jonathan wearing a diaper as they cuddled up against each other. Her cheeks flushed as she threw the covers over her face, soon drifting off to sleep.