DiaperBoy37

Thats a good thing to hear Tara. I wish I could have someone in my life like that. Maybe not a guy exactly but yeah still it would be nice.

Oh I told a guy Ive known for 5 and a half years that I am depressed and he said he never knew.

I can barly describe how depressed I actually am. Ive been suicidal since I was 5 my family harrasses me verbally and nonverbally all the time. Im under so much stress and Ive been so depressed for 14 years of my lifethat I act happy all the time and I constantly hit my head on stuff to just ease my mental pain just a little. Honestly I want to die but I dont want to stop living either. All everyone thag I talk to in person herts me either physically or mentally. I am to much of a chicken to slit my throat or jump infront of a car. I dont do drugs and I dont understand why I get treated the way I do nor how to cope with it. I cant wear diapers all the time or I will regret not committing suicide sooner. Every joke I make towards my family is met with harshness as if I broke the law. All I want to do is cry and cry and cry. But my tearducts are almost broken from how much of it I hold back. I scared a guy before because I told him that I was suicidal and that I was thinking of killing myself right then and there. Its the way Ive been broken by my parents. Ive also been living in fear of my entire family so much I get scared when they walk by my doir or they open a door. I need someone to help me.

Sometimes I wear in the senario 2 piece pajamas

Thanks for the support. I just had people like family break my trust. A lot more than it should have happened. I only mentioned I have Aspergers because I never know when to trust people and when I do (not with something like this though) They would always take advantage ove me and Im not sure anymore.

If you pay attention to people some of them unconsciously put things in their mouth. Ive watched people put jacket strings in their mouth or whatever they are holding and the funny part is I know they arent an ABDL. When I came up with the Idea for this topic I admittedly had a string in my mouth.

Has anyone ever started to put random items in their mouths other than their pacifier, bottle or sippy cup?

I have so many trust issues Im afraid of talking to people sometimes. Its mainly because I would put my trus in someone to help me or I was dating someone that I really liked and they broke my trust by cheating on me or breaking up with me. I have a childs innocents as in I trust people not to take advantage of me and they do. I have Asburgers (Atleast thats what it sounds like) and I had a rough childhood. Since I was always misunderstood people made fun of me a lot and Im not sure what to do anymore. Any advice?

I weigh 115-120lbs right now. I dont want to be thinner.