feralfreak

you need to see a doctor, maybe get a referral to a urologist or proctologist, no telling what could be the cause of this, but off the top of my head, id say cancer might be a cause, something that hasn't been caught earlier, but only a doctor can tell for certain. what I think you want is your parents approval, probably a subconscious thing because they always taught you that "only babies wear diapers", but people of all ages need them, and it sounds like you might have a need for them, if their approval or acceptance of that idea is needed for you to feel ok with it, a doctor saying diapers are needed would help you.

id call that good character building, making you work for something, more should have that upbringing.

if you try to plant seeds like cherry seeds(i dont know if you want to but i want to ome time and i looked this up) you would need to stratify or scarify the seeds, or any like them, stratifying if i understand it right, is putting the seeds in a freezer for the winter, scarifying, if i understand it right, is cutting or grinding the wooden shell, so the stuff inside can grow, if im wrong someone here can correct me. i tried planting cherry seeds from walmart bought cherries in the summer time and they didnt grow, didnt know i had to do any of that stuff first.

So it's all the fault of video games, rather than your gun culture (only in America would one record a song that follows "Praise the Lord" with "and pass the ammunition" - i.e. Sin Wagon). Got it. Listen to yourselves. "We're killing each other because we don't lick Jesus' asshole enough". Funny coincidence that it's the Christian states that loved their lynch mobs and love their death penalties and teen pregnancy.

i never want to kill either, and i fully understand your belief, it would be a sickening feeling to have taken a life, when my stepfather tried to get me to kill raccoons because they get up and steal the cats food he seems to not get that i cant just blindly take any life(how can i kill something that is just hungry?) especially when it was completely passive to our cats, however, the way see it, you dont know what all a badguy is going to do to you or those you care about, and i choose not to risk my family's life. if an intruder manages to get out of my house without being shot, then i obviously wont persue him or her, but if i present my firearm and they dont submit, it will be my understanding they intend hostility. i would like to think i will have the chance to ask for compliance, "GET DOWN ON THE GROUND NOW NOW NOW!" but that may not be the case, and with reports of meth labs in the area, demands likely wont do any good, methheads when high or strung out wont act the least bit rationally.

but can you gaurantee their only intention is to steal? and do they intend to let you live if you see their face? because if you see their face you can give a discription to the police and as you know they would hate that? and if you were a female, could you gaurantee they wouldnt have rape on their mind? its not my place to tell you what to think but i can say what i think, and i think if someone breaks into your home, they forefeit their right to live. i NEVER want to kill anyone, but if someone breaks into my home, and i have any reason to think they have any kind of a weapon, if they are lucky they may get orders to get down, but i likely will just shoot them, because when they break in, as mentioned by a host of "the best defense" on the outdoor channel, they have already defined the parameters of the relationship.