I wish there were easy answers for you, but there really aren't. Only you can decide how you feel about anything. My biggest issue was not feeling like a freak, my biggest issue in being an AB was being lonely. You know how I got over being lonely?...finally telling a couple of close friends about my "extra-curricular" activities. Guess what? If somebody REALLY and TRULY cares about you and enjoys your company, they won't think you're a freak. I mainly tell close girl friends simply because I'm really not comfortable with guys knowing...could be some subconscious "macho" thing, I guess. Anyway, I tend to believe that telling people who love and accept you without question might work with your issue also. As for telling your shrink or therapist, I'm willing to bet they've heard it all. There is nothing dangerous about liking diapers and baby treatment. They're not going to lock you up for it, no matter what AB fantasy stories say. There's no medication to "fix" you. At the end of the day, whether it's your shrink, your therapist, or just a close friend, you have to trust somebody eventually. I won't lie, not everybody I've told has reacted positively, but nobody has reacted totally negatively either. Reactions have been "hey, whatever floats your boat" to "awww, that's cute!" to "okay...I love you, but never talk about it again." I say try putting trust in somebody, just choose wisely.