Rhezz

Not quite someone else. But if i was wishing and it was about personality, i dont think i could be someone else, instead id like to be me that did everything right and had no flaws! have you ever spotted someone walking around with a pacifier in there mouth, whos not under 6 years old?

^ - I decided to go up the street in my local town with one on, first time out, and im sure you could notice. I think i ever got a few points and stares. You prolly think, nah they were pointing something else, i dont think so! V - Have you ever been out side in jsut a diaper or a t shirt, even your garden?

LOL CURIOUS, the girl who has NO intrest in Diapers n stuff. Whos more so on her way then ME to becoming an AB. You have the Role play and you have the parent role play figure. Missing a diaper? MEH! LOL Rhezz, im gonna chuckle in the sink

skeggy? as in skegnest. 200+ miles south of whats considered north east? thats not north. pah I reside in the north of england, between yorkshire and scotland. Somewhere.... o.o

Shes prolly took it off, i wouldnt want my baby pics on here either tbh but thats just me

No, but i have a habbit of talking to people who are way bigger than me and mocking them...some close calls... Have you ever spotted yourself on tv?

Thought about it. i work in an officer 6 hours a day, so im not sure if it would be a good idea. its a big office. bit stupid tbh, cool but stupid

ANSWER: One time me and my brother were watching MTV, i had a realy strong feeling and even told him a good 5 minuites before, what the next music video would be, and it came on. I call that paranormal because i felt it so strong, wasnt deja vous, realy weird. what was your last regret?

Ok, You ask a question, but it must start with " do you ever" or "have you ever", or something on the same lever, then your question. IT MUST change for every poster, like two posters in a row cant have the same question. Example: Post 1: Have you ever sleep walked? Post 2: Answer: Yeah, when i was xx years old. Have you ever....? So lets try it for real! Have you ever talked to a perfect stranger (like on the street) ?

OH anime, im not proffesional or into it as mad as you are, i think its cool and cute but totally insanely weird at the same time, which i love. I dont know anything specific but i used to be a sucker for the oldies. cant count transformers no? pokemon card captors There was more i swear. Pokemon was lame after i turned 15 tho....honest....*whistles*

yeah , woohoo, 9 years since will smith and him out of jurrasic park defeated those nasty aliens trying to take over the world! U S OF A! WOOOOOO!

Right, i thought you were going to pick a certain post that was lame or rant. But your post my friend, is nothing to be worried about, your not lame, or attention seeking, your curious, we as humans have a natural curiousity about all things. Dont be worried to ask questions or anything, its part of life. And especially never apologise for asking something you dont know or being yourself!

All due respect, thats not the lie, thats a medical condition. If i had bowl cancer or something of the sort, and i had no control, i wouldnt be ashamed its not in my control. I have Hay fevour (dumb comparison i know), i sneeze and sniff alot, its not my fault, i take some allergy tablets. People may be annoyed and think its unmannared to sneeze and sniff infront of them, but I cant help it so it doesnt bother me. You wouldnt apologise for ANY medical condition, from both ends of the spectrum, from something realy minor like hay fevour to something like Bowl Cancer. Fact is, you dont have to hide it. Giving the situation its not the best way to start a convo "i shit my self, i cant help it". You know what i mean, those who matter know and care, thats all that counts. Thats no lie. -rhezz

seems that way but it aint unfortuntely. Logically speaking what sense would it be to advertise protective guarments whislt sunbaving on a bikini advert. Thought that counts, hug? \o/

The lie doesnt represent what you do or who you are but the fact your hiding and not telling anyone the truth. Your not saying anything, which is where the term "living the lie" comes into play, your not lieing, your just not saying anything. Ive made excuses for actions, like emptying the bins more than often, making extra noise, getting orders. I have even went so FAR as to blaim people on certain things JUST to hide this side of me. Hurting others, lieing about actions and blaiming people to cover yourself is a LIE!

Rhezz post coming up. Ok so ive done this routine for nearly a year now, its a routine because im popping in and out of it with interest, im ordering diapers when no ones home, wearing and tearing when no ones around or knows, and doing everything in complete secrecy. The thing with AB/Dlism, new word there...is this closet has no door, so for many people, you cant come out the closet with this sort of speak so you have to live a lie, a double life, well i consider it one. I mean i got a whole different side of me just here that im pretty sure 99% of people around me dont know about. Ive came to the end of my teather a few times, ive even been at the point when ive chucked a good near full packet of diapers away because i was so sick of the sneaking, the hiding, the nervousness you feel when someones in your room, and they make that FATAL move to check something, just where your keeping your dirty little secret. But in all honesty, can you realy cope with this, if your in a situation like me, at home and so alone with this weight on your shoulders. Ive coped and im coping, but i feel as if it will get the better of me eventually? What about you?

no need to worry me or anything? And dolly: I have had some Cadburys choc yogurts, but that was after this. i know what the problem was, it was old bread!

A couple days ago, on thursday, i started havin dirohea. I havent stopped having it since then, i feel tired sometimes, but not today, on friday i slept all day. Wed, thur fri i was smoking weed though, but i dont think that was the cause. I dont think its food poisoning because im not feverish or vomiting, so im realy stuck to as what the hell i got. any ideas? And ive been going to the toilet every phew hours to! god damn annoying! no pain or anything , just need for the toilent

CURRRIOUS, i gently come ups to you, not holding arms out, because im next to bed, edgin one leg up in my onesie and big diapers with paci in mouth, u pull the rest of me on bed i give u hug and kiss on cheek and say you get better soon. miss you

i dont know what you mean by that, love at a young age for the same sex? Thats called the "gay" gene, some people are supposed to have. i dont belive it. Only you know who you are, but i think the answer to your question is yes of course

ok just after i did that, i lit a joint, smocked it, then i felt realy relaxed. and i swear im not lieing! i thought what would be just a slight gentle fart, was infact poo! I let it rip and my heart skipped a beat as i felt it happend and i snapped out of it and was like OMG!!!!!! i realy soiled, its weird! EDIT: I forgot to add, when it came out , it wasnt forced at all, the muscles in my rear switched off.

Today i had a severly traumatic Experiance. For me anyway. This just happened. I was doing an extra 3 hours at work, helping out on a different section, it was cool and enjoyable and best of all went by super fast. At 7pm it was time for a break, so i grabbed 2 cans of red bull, a packet of chewing gum, and a sandwhich then headed off to the cantine. I wasnt hungry realy, but thirsty, i drank the cans and slowly made my way through the sandwhich. Everyone was quite happily chatting and we were having a laugh. I started my shift off sharply, i work in a big store. Like food, and loads of other shit. At about 8:30 i felt a twist in my chest, i took a swift look over each shoulder left to right down the isle, and let rip a silent one, as i thought thats all it was. I couldnt of been more WRONG. At 8:40 i had my next one, only this time it was longer and was more uncomfortable. I told my supervisor that i wasnt feeling to good and said could i go home and do extra tommorow, i was told no, because were low on staff. SIGH. From then on, till about 9:20 the pains got worse and more frequent. Once or twice around that time, i walked up and down the isle, thinking about going to the grimey staff toilet. My supervisor was in the back of the store, in the warehouse, i approached her, and said: "look, its getting worse, im gonna be no help, i know were understaffed, i wanna stay but i cant realy" After a short sigh and a bit of a rant, she allowed me to go and mark me off as sick, and i couldnt care less, for it was worth the price. I speeded to the back of the shop, got my coat, and i ran, i dont mean jog, i mean ran, like a bullet, 2 miles home. Sprinting, every so often to make weird gestures and sound as the pain was getting excrutaiting. I almost went in a bush, someones garden, behind a wall, infront of some thugs. I didnt care what i looked like as i made the weird expersions home. FINALLY what seemed ages, i made it to my door in a weird dance, i struggeled open it as i was sweating by this time. Then on, as i went upstairs to the toilet i stripped fast and threw my clothes anywhere, and i sat on the toilet and breathed. You know the details. I hopped in the shower, came out, put on a diaper, and thought it was all well. I went down stairs with a hoody and a diaper made a cold drink and just as i felt so fine and relaxed, AGAIN. The same fking pain, but realy hard. I twaddled side to side and i didnt make it to the toilent this time. I relised this was going to happen. So i backed against the wall, one arm holding my chest crouched over and other making sure an explosion out the sides doesnt come out of my 3700 ml absorbant large senset diaper. I felt better but it was disgusting, and i can honestly say i feel sorry for anyone who has to wear for medical reasons, because dirohea in a diaper is not as natural or nice as you like, it held in but it was disgusting, totally. I had a bin liner beneath my legs which were spread as i pealed it off and shwoered again. Now im sitting in another fresh diaper, yet again showered, typing this. With releaf, as the pain is gone. I feel traumatised and violated, i need a hug.

Will they be so bothered if your already transgendered, surely that would of been the biggest shock, this is like comparing bombs to bullets. Once its exploded, a bit of shrapnel is no suprise.

So like yeah, 3-4 months? jeez. Got me some new pacis and just recieved a big order of 60 large extra padded white big ol diapers great!

You dont have to answer all questions, please answer and then add + one more question at the end of the questionaire for the next person. Please add more to any section you want or add sections! About You Whats your 'real life' alias (name most people call you? Richie/Rich/oi What country are you in at the moment? England Are you Straight/bi/Gay? Straight, as far as i know! How old are you going to be on your next birthday? 20, next year. Are you a morning person? Not at all! Do you drink or take any drugs? I drink sometimes, and smoke marijuana sometimes to. Bad. Do you live at home? Yes. AB and DL stuff Do you consider your self an AB or a DL? Hard to say, I've been to both sides of spectrum, i have to say AB. How old were you when you stopped sleeping with a teddy as a child? 12 What was the earliest age you can remember that got you intrested in diapers? 6ish Does your partner know about 'this' part of you? Single, working on it Does your family know about 'this' part of you? Hell no! What If If you could choose not be a AB/DL/Sissy/Mommy/Daddy would you choose not to be? At the moment, i would have to say yes, because im alone on this one, i dont know anyone else in real life who is like this! If there was something you could fix in the world what would it be? I would take away all the money in the world and make everyone share and be logical about the way the world works. Money is power afterall. If the world was going to end in 5 minuits what would you do? Hold on tight, tell my family i love them and stare at the sky. If you could choose any age to be, what would it be and why? 10, nothing to worry about, you have nothing but fun all the time, a good year for me. Random Questions Whats your favourite song at the moment? Bad Moon Rising Do you drive? Learning Are you in education of some sort? Just finished! If you have a job, what is it, if you dont have a job, what do you do? I work in a shop.