Rhezz

If there was some means of talking to yourself at a younger stage in your life, any stage, and you could tell your younger self one thing. What would it be?

Lately I've been thinking quite heavily, especially so I've been reflecting on my life and my current situation. Here I am 22 years old, still at home, never had a serious relationship and I have a serious addicition to nappys/diapers or whatever name you wish to give them. Getting to this point hasn't taken much effort or even self reflection, but here I stand reflecting and with an emmence ammount of effort. Some 6 months have passed since my last encounter with my bane; the product designed for adults of whom cannot control bodily functions. And my viscous and self-destroying cycle of emotions and thoughts runs through quite formidably. As I'm at home, and living with my parents, yet "lucky" enough to be the only child (dispite the fact I'm not a child to live at home); I'm finding it more and more of a challenge to be able to find a perfect time to arrange the delivery of my drug, my escape; the diaper/nappy. This is causing me emmence problems in all elements of my life. You see I've came to realise that when I put on a diaper/nappy, I feel a rush. Now I'm sure by reading that line you think a rush in a sexual nature, but I'm also sure you won't disagree with me when you feel that rush of safety, feeling like everythings perfect and perhaps even fixed? Of course this is obvious, and perhaps not even problematic, but being 6 months without such a stimulation has provked a degree of thought, which has been plaguing me the past several weeks of which I have been denying and ignoring. This "rush", gives me a sense of safety and shuts off all my problems straight away and all I can think about is how perfect the moment is and how lucky I am, even so how much I love my life at that point. But after, after the sensation and luxury of the moment fades into the nomality and blandess of life; I cannot help but reflect. We are denying ourselves if we don't agree on the one obvious point; this is a defense mechanism. Regression, by that I mean, and by that I mean all the Diaper Lovers and all the Adult babys, who choose to regress into this state of safety and reliance. but what are we hiding from? I apppreicate some people may even disagree with me, that this is just a sensation that was developed at some point in our premature lives, carried forward into adult hood that has caused such wonder; however can we realy deny why we do it? Why does dressing ourselves in such irrelavant (to some) objects make us feel the way we feel? Is it because when we were very young we were aided by such mechanisms that has caused us to feel safe or is this adefensive mechanism? Has it been an act of random attraction and affilation? I don't know, all I know is I feel safe when I have one, but I also feel a severe of risk of being caught, dispite being caught red handed several occasions. I'm not sure what I'm getting at but, I'm just wondering if anyone has felt the same way? I've been searching for purpose lately; in all aspects of my life and I cannot help but feel regret, even when I elude my life and absord in this activity.

Yes I am.

I got banned!

Thanks. Dan, I won't lie, I can't remember you! Alot has changed since my last post.

No Idea, I think it was a case of mistaken identity. Shrug. Search the search function for Rhezz! Might refresh ones memory

Hello all! Well it's been at least 2 years since I've been anywhere near this place! For those who remember me I was one of the big hitters on this forum when it was first setup. Unforuntely I was banned, god knows why. Every attempt I tried to make at apologising for whatever I was supposed to have done was ignored, shame. In a rage that person (was not DailyDi), deleted my account. Oh dear me! Anyhow, forgetting all that (well at least I hope that certain person has also), I just wanted to say hi and see how people are and to see if my old peeps are still here! Whats new? Does anyone remember me ;D -Rhezz

Well most people have something to replace this fetish or not! by not i mean, you may not have a fetish but u may a have a particuliar "drive" that turns you on. but were not aliens, we are normal people to!

olddd post btw

I dont see anything from your opinions which were within reason that could of offended anyone wetvinyl

Lately i dont know whats quite up. Everythings just a justifaction for something which generaly leads to nothing. Im moving on with life but i dont feel like im going on anywhere. Everythings dark and i cant stop seing negative and being negative. I dont know what im doing or what to do or even why im posting. Life for me at the minuit is rather so pointless, its all it seems. Dont know what to say to be honest

amen, good at nights tho , bit sweaty and sticky tho. Yuky. Cant wait till it cools down, its becoming uncomfortable

Block your toilet and buy diapers.

not much luck there. You can try llyods pharmacy or boots for tena. Good luck to ya

Happy Bday Curious

i never said my area was relaxed....lol

Going down a hill with a friend once, i kicked him off his bike and he broke his arm and wrist. Who was the last person to annoy you and why?

on the way home from work, get a life of parents, they work there to. Big big place! good pay! do you daydream to often>?

agree, would never mess. I have done once before, but it wasnt in my control. Its not a great task cleaning it up, even tho it was a realy tiny mess. WHAT EVER FLOATS YOUR BOAT

I once had a dream about some ghosts terrorising my family when my mother was in a different town and everyone was like dieing, was horrible. I was about 7. Think i saw a bad film. didnt recur, never had a recuring dream tbh Do you know anyone famous or have any links to anyone famous?

Thank you for sharing. But as you said, you dont know the area i live, the culture and the generation.

Ok another one. I thought of. Same as the other, but how is your day. Simply: -Say how your day was -Rate it 1-10, 10 being perfect, 1 being very very bad. Here goes... Ive started a new job recently, so im getting up realy early like 6am. Kinda blows, getting home 8pm! Nice pay tho... Anyway, i was on the bus on the way home, some woman about 55 sits next to me, im normaly fine, i like the bus as i use it alot. but today i just wanted some space, so i had my head phones absoultely blasting, im sure everyone on the extra long bus could here every word of my heavy death metal shiznit. Was so fun when she moved, i felt so naughty . My gloomy face steered my attention to the car just outside the window running along side on a roundabout, a kid about 3, was staring up at me, and gave me a thumbs up, so i gave one back. Put a smile on my face. I got home and no one was home, parents off today so they must be out and about. I turned off the alarm and noticed there was a bundle of letters, obviously no one collected them. AND OMFG! THERE WAS ONE FOR Me, FROM PAPERPAK, the attends company?...u know... omfg if my parents had seen that and opened that. I instanly binned it carefully and sent a email back to them telling them to remove me from the mailing list. LOL! 6/10 - Good, but only because its friday

...takes a deep breathe...when i was 8, i got a bit curious. And i tried on my sisters Tutu. Yes thats right. Sounded like a fun idea at the time, but when i was caught in my room just standing there by my brother whos 3 years older and my mother. WELL...you know Can you beat that?

nice reading the responses, but no one is adding questions of their own, only a few, the idea is , the questionaire builds up bigger and bigger . -rhezz

Get well soon adam...btw what sup with this?