I guess that I have a bit more trouble with this and don't see the blue/red pill choice as so black and white. I very much enjoy my DL side and have done so for ~10 years. However, I am quite conflicted. In the role of husband, business man, etc. I still am unconvinced that there is a way to mix in being a DL. So you'll say... don't mix them... but, then it is difficult to add them into life at all. If this was a foot fetish or something on par I don't think that it would be as big of a deal, but it seems that people outside of our world have so many negative connotations with the thought of grown adults choosing to wear diapers that it will never be that easy to be "not ashamed." If you pick up on a sense of confusion you would be correct. I have written about it in a recent post but, I am struggling to fit my DL side into life with an amazing & supportive wife who just doesn't understand how it's possible to be a DL.