Aurelius

Tena flex or depend, I forget which, when I was 17-18. They were the easiest to get. I also tried adult pullups before that (disappointing, of course, but very easy to find). In retrospect I should have got some when I was 14-15, I would have saved myself a lot of teenage tension, hate and denial.

I shat myself when I was 10. I've probably had another accident or two which I've just forgotten about. I reckon it was from food poisoning, since I threw up a couple of hours earlier. I never have control problems but I don't think it would bother me if I did (might even like it, but I'm satisfied with how things are).

Principally sexual here, but I do wear frequently. I feel so good wearing one that it is totally justified. Nothing really compares.

Ours was too, but got them to fix it up by popular request. A lot of people are still nervous about discussing a lot of things (I sure was, and reviewed privacy policies etc beforehand). Our counsellors are inexperienced but ready to deal with most things. Turns out my issues, at least in the short term, are not so serious. Apparently plenty of guys have much worse difficulties than I do, which is reassuring.

Well done.

My uni is very good with counselling. They've recently expanded it because a couple of surveys showed people were way more depressed and troubled than expected. Also, I'm on swot-week so I have a little time

Just back from conselling. It confirmed my suspicions that male-leaning androgyny is the best solution for the next few years, at least. I identify slightly more with being male, although I have a significant feminine side also (oddly 'compatible' or 'fitting' in an eclectic but likeable kind of way). I may have overreacted a little, but at least it is resolved, for now. I still consider transitioning a possibility but it is not something I will be pursuing much, although I will certainly think about it in the few years ahead. I just want to look, feel and express myself as I am, within open and free parameters. Odd thing is that in thinking about it, I feel much better about my body image and self-confidence, which was a little shaky. Anyhow, thanks for the advice.

Depends. Sometimes I cum in it, sometimes not. Just make sure the diaper is a little loose. It doesn't have to be that loose for you to do it.

Yeah, I'll manage. Feet are a nuisance, for sure.

Suggestions?

I know Christie Canyon did some radio show, but I haven't seen anything else. Yes, they should. Fetish is definitely popular now enough to warrant that.

Toughest thing for me is how many guys I like who I believe are straight (it can be annoyingly difficult to tell - the worst is being stuck in a half-joking cycle). I love anal too, I'm just waiting for the right opportunity. I'm patient. I have plenty of ways of getting off

I think I can work with what I have if I decide to go through with it - not for a while, I think; I'm getting counselling soon but I think, to be honest, I already have myself mostly worked out, at least for the short-medium term. Bi androgyny is a logical and fulfilling way to deal with where I'm at. I have a myriad of other difficulties, so it isn't a huge priority, even though I strongly feel to pursue it. My eyes are great and I would not have them any other way. My chin used to be hard and disjointed some years back but it has softened up a lot now. My lips are good and definitely a strong point. My cheeks are rounded and have potential. It's only my eyebrows and nose that really wreck it. I have mildly bushy ~Scottish-Russian eyebrows that just don't look right (I'm sure I could come up with something, though) and my nose is relatively large and a little crooked (not so easy). For the time being I have cut my hair short until I decide what to do with it (major - I'm thinking of dying it toned purple, medium length, which people I've been talking with have said would look good, for what I'm going for). My feet are a little too masculine, another problem, but my legs I can work with. My hips are much to narrow for skirts, but in this day and age plenty of ggirls don't bother with them. I'd prefer a good pair of jeans any day. Transitioning isn't seriously on the agenda as yet, but I really want to experiment, which makes sense. I'll keep you posted on how counselling goes.

I suppose. If you're nervous about it, though, it's probably better to be careful. I also buy with little care if people notice. If you buy with lots of other things it will probably not be considered unusual.

I wouldn't try to codify what I want. I'm full of contrasts on nearly anything and it would be even harder to limit it to 10 in order.

I'm meaning aesthetically. It would be much more fun if urine was purple, but urine is still a fun bodily fluid even so

Wise choice. I used ubuntu for a while, but not having reliable DirectX or compatible versions is crippling for so many things. Excellent OS though.

I would be unusually tall, but I deal with girls from time to time who are even taller. I should be able to manage. It's a weird dichotomy - if you are taller you will be 'hotter' to most guys, but it's more difficult to seem feminine. I plan to make the change over some years. I might not even be androgynous until my mid-20s. But I will work progressively at it, getting as much experience and as much done as is sensible, rest assured.

This could go horribly wrong, at least as things stand. I strongly suspect it would, at least initially. I feel like going androgynous within maculine parameters first. If I look convincingly female then I might crossdress. This is probably going to be a very long process, I'm well aware of that now. I'm not averse to buying girl's clothes. I've been doing that already.

I think I might be having parallel problems here. I fully intend to deliberate on the topic for some years. It might take a while for me to develop some idea of how I 'should' be. Today I want to be androgynous, yesterday I wanted to go all the way, and a month ago was a proud man so... How could this sort of conflict even be triggered? The mind boggles. Engaging in relationships is not in any way connected with my tg desires. I'm well aware of the extreme changes choosing to do this would precipitate. However, I am quite comfortable with an intervening androgyny stage. It may be best, I think, to be androgynous-leaning-male until I am capable of taking it further (not for some time, as I have said). I feel comfortable about that anyway, but there's a lot of (and should be a lot of) 'wait and see'-ing. I know... but we have to be who we are. I think there's a very good chance I'll settle on being bi/androgynous but I really can't tell. Everyone knows I'm bi and I expect transgendering slightly would just be taken almost as just fashion by most, fortunately. The situation for transgendering is a hell of a lot better than even 10-15 years ago. UKIP are okay, at least they aren't the BNP . Back to Saxony/Denmark, English foreigners! Seriously, country is not an organic nationstate anyway - Northern Ireland is an example of how being 'British' is essentially artificial (yet quite compelling). Give it 100 (even 50) years and the whole world will be having similar issues defining states, since it will probably be ethincally cosmopolitan but with a virtually indistiguishable culture. I can fully understand wanting to slow down - particularly considering many immigrants are not legitimately wanting to become good British subject-citizens - but it would be way to easy for that to become badly corrupted, particularly in expelling 2nd or 3rd generation immigrants (who could do such a thing? monsters!). UKIP are better but economic integration is an inevitable feature of the global age we are irreversably involving ourselves in. Protectionism is nuts, considering it's actually wealthy countries that benefit usually more than the poorer despite losing a couple of jobs. Western Europe is developed and creative enough to make new ones, whatever unfolds. Yeech! Stormfront! I hope you're not one of those! (Okay if you are, we can agree to disagree or argue to a common point). Being tall is good. The (t)girl I spoke of was tall. She was popular and very convincing (I'm still not that sure). The majority of tgirls usually look better than ggirls.

Yep. I enjoy messing, but being messy is no good. I mess only very rarely.

I generally still want them for the comfort/convenience.

I hate yellow. I mean both generally and on diapers. Blyeh!

:DDD ... yeah, me too. If only...

Oh goodness if I ever do a grand 'coming-out' (or get caught) I think my dad and possibly my mother would have heart attacks, as well as most relatives. My friends would forgive me, I think, because I know they are into things just as dubious. How my professional life would cope fine, I think. Probably I could find something suitable for whatever I'm prepared to do. It's my new difficulties (regarding gender/orientation) that concern me there. I've never really identified as a typical guy, but I don't know whether I would be happier as a girl or just a really effeminate guy. After being bi-leaning-straight I'm now bi-leaning-gay and I don't have any clue where this is going. If my dad found out about any of that he would be burning my face out of family photos and kicking me out, pronto. It would be a bit of a bombshell to the status-quo, which at the moment works decently for me (if things go according to plan). Once I am able to live independently, which unfortunately may not be for another 5 years (getting 2 degrees seems likely - economics/international relations), I will finally be able to resolve a lot of my difficulties. Until then, my sexuality is as simple as a new world order