Sabbie

Jacksonville here!!

Any and all disney music for me. And I got tons!

I agree wholeheartily. When I was younger (18 or so) a few years ago, I'd go on sites like this and just post randomly to topics and I was hoarded by guys who would throw pictures of themselves in diapers and beg me to "come play". That's sort of the point where I just looked outside of the community for what I wanted.. and just told him about what I do, and found him supportive. There are a lot of nice guys here, but a lot of them who just over-do it. :\

Is there a separate forum for more detailed talk like this?

This. ^^^ Disney World is the king of anything you could ever look for. And we're not too shy about it. Generally.

Thank you for your reply. I'm very thankful for his understanding, and I always try to prove that to him. The guilt is less in wearing them.. I have since I was a young teen. I had no issues going to the store and buying some. Or drinking from bottles. I have lived on my own since I was 18, so it was no issue. I've wore diapers out - to Disney, included. I have no guilt when I do it by myself.. but when it comes to the fascination that I actually have someone to share it with.. It triggers in me. I do not want to lose this. Nor do I want to lose him. I love him. If he told me to stop, I would. But he doesn't. This is sane, and right. And I'm human and allowed to. But that is me, and my boyfriend is a whole 'nother world.. I guess I need to learn to trust him 100% that he does not mind. I just fear over-doing it. Or maybe doing something that he doesn't like, but he will do for the sake of me.. and secretly feel awkward about. Blah. See, my mind runs in circles and this is where I get lost. Mind you, I do communicate with him about this and all, and he reassures me.. Blah, the best question: for those who have told significant others about their desires, and they have been accepting of it -- how did it effect you? Did you worry? How do you come to a comfortable place where it's enough to meet your needs but fair where it's not over-doing it? Just.. general help. I really appreciate all the help.

I'm actually working Magic Kingdom on the 5th! When I get the message, I'll send you a reply with where I'll be and what times. I think my sets end at 4PM, so I'll be free after! Can at least score you a ton of fastpasses. I'm an addict for Disney. I know way too much, and I'm blessed that even though I work there (seasonally), it has not ruined the magic! I do, however, typically not go during summer/busy seasons. I don't do massive crowds well (I won't wait more than 20 minutes for a ride, and I don't like teenagers who think they're the world.. I'm lame, I know) -- but I'll always go if invited by a friend! So tell me anytime! It takes me about 2 hours to get there (parked and all).

I'm sorry for the delay in replying to anything.. I was in Orlando since early Friday, working and playing. I appreciate all the replies. I'm going to read through them and reply with any thoughts or questions. You guys rock!

Thank you or your reply when you should be studying! I am completely with the after you play, feeling guilty. Like I sit there and look at my boyfriend and think how thankful I am.. but they say, mentally, is this really right? I know I am not hurting anyone, and this is one of the safest type of fetishes out there.. and I'm not gonna lie (though trying not to be egotistical), I'm a very pretty girl that doesn't look bad at all in a diaper and a night gown.. But I always worry, deep down, if he only does this to make me happy and it bothers him? I guess it's about trust.. and whatnot. Blah. This is where my thoughts go insane and I just go into my "purge" effect. Though if I try to push it away, and hide it.. after a few weeks, it comes back like a craving. I did like your quote: Like anything time is the best way to heal and grow. If you tell yourself what you did is wrong naturally you'll feel guilt for what you did. However; if you look at it from the stand point that this is part of who you are and partaking in ab activity just a natural extension of yourself then you may find that the guilt fades. I could use a snow flake analogy but its over played... True beauty is found through the idiosyncrasies and abnormalities in each individual... This is just me. And it's how I've been since I was a kid. It's not going to change and I've just been blessed to be with someone who is supportive of me. Someone who will take me to Babies R us and pull me to look around. Someone who will put a diaper on me and cuddle with me after. I mean, this is true love for someone to do this.. I guess what the post above you is even more correct.. to show my thankfulness to him as best as I can. Funny enough, I never feel guilty when I do it alone or when I was single and just took care of myself.. but as soon as another person's feelings got involved, I struggled and worried. I care too much. It's push and shove, and finding a medium. And I just have to learn to accept it and live with it. I guess it just takes time. Thank you again. Visit me at Disney sometime, too. It's on the house.

Thank you for your reply.. I did research on the binge and purge cycle a bit back, and I'm sure that's what it is somewhat. I try and make a happy medium.. I came up with a thing where I pick a day out of the week when I want to play and he picks a day he is okay with.. and that's how I limit myself. Mostly because I don't want to push it too much. I never thought I would be accepted by both guys I've dated, as well as my mom (I told her one day when I was drugged in the hospital with a ulcer), so that part alone makes me just shocked mentally where I'm like, is this all even for real? I really appreciate your response, and even while words are just typed in seconds, they do mean a lot when you're in a position like this. And when I really don't have any other ab/dl friends besides one in Atlanta.. having someone speak to you is a blessing. Thanks again.

If anyone wants to come play with me at Disney World for the day.. let me know. I can get you in (maingate) and I loved to meet some of you guys.

Count me in.

hi there! i'm sabrina. i've been an ab/dl for ages and ages. i'm a 22 year old female in florida, and i live with my boyfriend of almost 2 years. my last boyfriend, i talked to about the ageplay-ness, and he accepted it and was awesome. we ended on different terms.. early in this relationship, i told my current boyfriend and he has been great about it. however my issue is: guilt. i absolutely love anytime we get to play, or i get to dress up, etc.. but usually at some point in the play, or the morning i wake up.. i get hit by a surge of guilt. feeling bad for pulling him into this, or feeling ashamed about it all. he always tries to reassure me that it's okay, and that he accepts it.. but, i don't know. this is a different lifestyle and it's got to be hard on the other person, you know? usually i won't bring up anything about it unless he starts it. he will usually do small things like.. when cooking dinner, he will ask if i want my drink in a bottle.. or when i get out of the bath, if i want a diaper or not. i really want to start being less shy and guilty about it.. when he gets me changed and all, i usually hide my head under blankets. sometimes i want to ask to wear a pullup to the parks (disney world!) but i'm far too nervous/guilty feeling. is there anyone else who has this issue, and what do you do mentally to help with this? i know this is broad and all.. i just, any support would be great. lastly, sorry for the all lowercase.. i work at walt disney world in entertainment and just got off work and my hands are KILLING ME. also, if you ever come to the parks, let me know! i'm "friends" with pluto, eeyore, buzz, etc and would love to meet you! also let me know if you need to get in. i can always help friends.

I barely even remembered Colorado was a state, ahaha.