So I registered a few years ago, but have never actually posted in that time. Part of that being that shortly after I registered, I went through a purge cycle and decided I was going to get diapers out of my life. That lasted all of a year... then shortly after that I decided to purge again and that lasted until earlier this year.
In the middle of the latest purge, I began dating a girl (we've been going out for nearly 8 months now)... and I never told her about this side of me since I was getting diapers out of my life for good.
Yeah, funny how that works. Like everyone says, you can't ever really get rid of a part of you.
But the dilemma is hitting now. Like all relationships, trust is a major part of it, and it tears me inside to have to hide this from her. I don't think she suspects that I'm hiding anything from her, but yeah. It's not giving me any piece of mind. I've come to accept finally that this side of me isn't going away, rather than just going yet another failed purge cycle.
For me, this isn't completely a fetish... I mean, there is some fetish aspect (not that it affects a normal active relationship with my GF), but at the same time I only tend to wear diapers when I'm stressed out. And they do a great job helping to relieve stress and take me back to a simpler time. And if I tell her, that will be what I tell her... because getting her to wear diapers around me, or be a mommy, or anything like that isn't the goal.
Of course, telling her just can't be that easy. I'm terrified of telling her and having her reject me because of this. I get the impression that she is somewhat open-minded... but I don't know if she's this open minded. Especially since the question will invariably come up on whether I use them... and I do for #1. Which I think would freak her out.
Also making this difficult is the fact that we have a lot of mutual friends... some of her closest friends are good friends of mine as well, and one of them is also a roommate who doesn't know. If she didn't accept this and didn't want anything to do with me, the aftermath would be disastrous. I'm also terrified of word getting out that I even like diapers, because I think it would freak a lot of my friends out as well.
In short, I don't want to keep a secret this big from her, because if she finds out later on by accident, it's only going to get worse. At the same time, I have no idea how to even approach this because of how complicated the web between my GF and all of our friends is.