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  1. My friends. I have not dropped the story. I promise. Life has been throwing me a lot of curve balls. Last week, my 15-year-old daughter got caught doing weed in the bathroom. She got suspended for a week and in school suspension for three weeks. Then we had to go to counseling for parents. Ugh. Also this Monday, I found out my Mom may have cancer. A tumor in her lung and liver. Not looking promising. My anxiety is through the roof right now, and I am having a hard time sitting down and focusing. I never meant to leave a cliffhanger for this long.
  2. Here is the next installment. I hope this leaves you hanging—evil laugh. Chapter 27 - Outburst As Darlene drove Avery home, she could feel the tension between them. She didn’t like it. She knew she had overstepped her bounds twice during dinner, but she thought she should be given some slack for everything she had done for him. What she has done for him has always been to look out for him. She didn’t understand her own emotions and why she felt the need. It wasn’t just about work telling her to look at him but something deeper. She looked over a couple of times as she drove with him with Avery just looking away from her. She tried to have a conversation a few times, asking him how he liked the restaurant, but he never said a word. He could have at least said thank you for paying for both him and Christy. It wasn’t a cheap dinner. But Avery continued to sit in the passenger seat of Darlene's car; he couldn't help but feel a knot of anger and betrayal in his chest. He was angry at her, and he made it clear by ignoring her. Her actions towards him made him feel how incapable he was of taking care of himself. And to make matters worse, Christy, the girl he had been trying so hard to impress, had witnessed it all. He could feel her judgmental gaze on him as Darlene continued to belittle and infantilize him. The thought of her finding out about his diaper and what had happened at Darlene's house filled him with shame and fear. He didn't want her to see him as anything less than a mature and capable young man, but now he knew that chance was gone. Despite his anger towards Darlene for treating him like a helpless child, there was still a part of him that secretly enjoyed the attention and care she showered on him. It made him feel special and loved in a way he hadn't felt before. Avery resented himself for having those feelings. He wondered if Christy had picked up on any of this or if she just saw him as a pathetic boy unable to take care of himself. The SUV came to a stop at the red light, and Darlene glanced over at Avery in the passenger seat. He was still facing away from her, staring out the window with an angry expression on his face. His shirt was untucked once again, with a new stain near his left pant pocket, where he must have rubbed it in while wiping his hands with his napkin. It was a mixture of the cheese sauce and tiramisu that he had for dessert. Darlene shook her head in frustration, realizing that Avery had no idea how to behave in a nice restaurant like the one they had just left. She turned off the radio, which was playing softly in the background. "Avery, I know you're mad, but avoiding me won't solve anything. I'm sorry for what happened," she said, trying to break the tense silence between them. But Avery remained silent as the light turned green, and Darlene drove towards his apartment complex. As they pulled up to his building, Darlene sighed and spoke again. "I'll see you tomorrow. Hopefully, you can get some rest." But Avery didn't respond. He simply got out of the car and slammed the door before storming off into his apartment without looking back. Darlene felt a surge of anger rises within her, but she took deep breaths to calm herself down. She couldn't stoop to Avery's childish level; someone had to be the mature one in this situation. She waited until Avery disappeared inside before starting the SUV and driving off. She couldn't help but feel frustrated with his behavior. It felt like she was dealing with a sulking child rather than an adult who should know better. Darlene's grip on the steering wheel was so tight that her knuckles turned white. As she drove away from the apartment complex, the memories of Avery's visit to her home swirled in her mind like a never-ending storm cloud. The thought of going back to that empty, lonely space made her stomach churn, and bile rose up in her throat. With a defeated sigh, she pulled into the parking lot of her favorite liquor store, hoping to numb the pain and delay facing her loneliness at home for a little while longer. As she pushed a cart through the aisles, running her fingers over the smooth labels of familiar wines and exploring new ones, Darlene's mind was consumed with negative thoughts. This was usually a calming activity for her, but today, it only served to amplify her feelings of emptiness and despair. She couldn't shake off the feeling that even this simple task would be tainted by her ever-present loneliness. Replying to the events of today, Darlene shook her head softly. From getting written up at work to Avery being angry with her for trying to take care of him, it seemed as though nothing was going right in her life right now. She felt like she deserved a break, a moment of respite from the constant barrage of problems and failures that seemed to follow her wherever she went today. But as she reached for yet another bottle of wine, she knew deep down that this temporary distraction would only lead to more regret and self-loathing later on as she committed herself not to drink herself to sleep tonight. As she picked up a new bottle and read the label, her iPhone rang. She pulled it out of her purse and saw that it was her sister Laurisa calling. "Hey, sis," Darlene answered as she put on her headset. "I wasn't expecting you to call tonight," Darlene continued. "Yeah, I know. But I'm worried about you and Avery. What's going on?" Laurisa asked, sounding concerned. "I'm fine, really. You don't need to worry," Darlene replied, trying to sound nonchalant. "Don't give me that, Darlene. I'm your older sister. I know there's something more going on with this guy from work. You've never been this protective over someone like that before," Laurisa prodded. "I'm just looking out for him like I was instructed to at work," Darlene insisted. "But you called him a boy earlier. He's a young man, Darlene," Laurisa pointed out. "I meant young man. It just slipped out," Darlene clarified defensively. "You may have said 'young man,' but your subconscious definitely said 'boy'. What's really going on? Did something happen when he came over last Thursday?" Laurisa pressed. Darlene hesitated before finally admitting: "No, nothing happened. We just watched a movie." Laurisa could tell there was something more to this than Darlene was leading on. "Hmm, sure, it doesn't seem like anything happened based on how you were acting at dinner tonight. You were practically jumping out of your seat every time he breathed," Laurisa observed. Darlene sighed. "Okay, fine. Maybe I was a little overly concerned for him. It won’t happen anymore. I'm done looking out for him just because work has asked me to." Laurisa could pick up on the emotions that Darlene was feeling. "Just be careful, sis. Your hormones are still all over the place from pumping so much breast milk. You haven't been yourself since the miscarriage," Laurisa warned. "I know, I know. But I'll be fine. Thanks for checking in, Sis," Darlene reassured her. "Alright, just promise me you'll talk to me about it and be careful. I worry about you," Laurisa said with concern. "I will, I promise. Love you, sis," Darlene replied sincerely. "Love you too," Laurisa echoed before they hung up. Darlene made her way to the checkout stand, her mind reeling from the conversation with her sister. She knew she was getting too involved with Avery, and that's why her emotions were all over the place. As she approached the counter with a cart full of wine, she paused and looked at the liquor aisle. It was a cool night, and she couldn't help but think of the times when she and her sisters would sit by the fire and take shots of Goldschlager while talking about their problems with boys or girls, in Laurisa's case. She grabbed a bottle and a shot glass, not sure what she was going to do with it yet. But one thing was for sure: she needed to find a way to clear her head and sort out her feelings before things got too complicated. As Darlene stood at the checkout counter with her cart full of wine, she couldn't shake off the nagging feeling that her emotions were getting the best of her. She knew her sister was right - she had been getting too close to Avery's situation, and it was starting to affect her own mental state. The cashier scanned each bottle of wine with a polite smile, breaking the silence that surrounded Darlene. "Stocking up for a party?" he asked cheerfully. Darlene forced a smile and replied, "Oh, just stocking up for myself. It's been one of those days, you know?" The cashier nodded sympathetically as he continued scanning the bottles. "I hear you. Wine always helps take the edge off." Darlene chuckled softly, grateful for the small moment of understanding from a stranger. "Yeah, that's the plan." As the last bottle was scanned, Darlene reached into her purse, pulled out her wallet, and paid the cashier. With a heavy heart, Darlene left the liquor store, her arms full of wine bottles and a bottle of Goldschlager. While she drove home, she passed by one of her favorite parks - a peaceful oasis in the midst of the bustling city. The park was known for its friendly ducks and geese, as well as the occasional sighting of rabbits and chipmunks. Despite the tempting prospect of a tranquil afternoon at the park, Darlene couldn't shake off the events that had transpired earlier in the day. She quickly decided to pull into the parking lot with a heavy sigh and made her way to a bench by the small man-made lake. The sun was beginning to set, casting a beautiful orange glow over the water. Darlene set down her purchases on the bench and took out a shot glass she had picked up at the store. She poured herself a shot of Goldschlager, relishing in the familiar warmth that spread through her body with each sip. "To the end of a shitty day," she muttered before downing the shot. As she sat there, watching the sunset and sipping on her drink, Darlene couldn't help but reflect on her relationship with Avery. They had gotten into this thing that was going on between them right now over what she did, and now he wasn't speaking to her. It infuriated her not to have control over the situation, especially since she was convinced she could make him see things her way. She could just let it go. She absentmindedly ran her fingers along the rim of the shot glass as she thought about their last encounter - when he had voluntarily breastfed from her. It had been a deeply intimate moment, but now she wondered if it had caused some sort of underlying tension between them. With a heavy heart and another shot finished, Darlene decided to call it a day and headed back home. The sun had disappeared behind the horizon, leaving behind a peaceful stillness in the park's atmosphere - a stark contrast to the turmoil within Darlene's mind. She knew she was in for a long, restless night of no sleep as she got up and headed back to her SUV. —------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Avery burst through the front door, slamming it shut behind him, not caring about any of the neighboring apartments about the loud noise. Huffing, he kicked off his shoes and tossed his pants onto the floor. As he headed to the bedroom, Avery's hands reached down and pulled apart the Velcro tabs of his crinkled-soaked diaper. The diaper was cold and wet in Avery's grasp, squishing under his fingers as he wadded it up. The tapes were sticky and tough to pull apart, causing him to let out a quiet growl of frustration. As he wadded the diaper up, he sat it down on the kitchen counter, where it lay wet and squishy. Once the diaper was removed, it left a cool, damp spot where the fabric had been pressed against his skin. His face contorted into a grimace as he mumbled to himself, eventually turning away from the counter with a look of disgust. Avery walked over to his dresser, a sense of frustration and anger bubbling within him. He forcefully pulled out a pair of boxer shorts. "I am not a fucking baby," he shouted in his empty apartment, feeling the need to assert himself. He slid on his boxers without wiping himself down, glad to be rid of the diaper and Darlene. He stormed over to the sofa and turned on his PlayStation, loading up one of his favorite games, Ratchet and Clank. He was going to play till his anger went away. With every move of the controller, he felt some of his pent-up emotions release as he took out his aggression on the virtual bad guys. But even amidst the chaos of the game, Avery couldn't ignore the touch of Darlene's hand as she smoothed out his shirt and brushed against his diaper in front of Christy. The image played over and over in his head. Normally, he would have enjoyed this attention alone with her, but right now, he was too worked up to appreciate it. "Fucking take that!" he yelled at the screen as he continued to shoot down enemies in the game, trying to distract himself from the uncomfortable situation in his real life. An hour dragged by, the game's difficulty increasing with each level. Avery's frustration mounted, and his palms grew slick with sweat as he furiously pressed buttons on his controller. But no matter how skilled he was, it seemed like the game was against him. In a burst of anger, he flung the controller across the room, its plastic body colliding with the wall on the other side. "Fucking game cheats," Avery cursed under his breath, his heart racing with adrenaline. Avery's mind was a whirlwind of emotions, each one pulling him in a different direction. He needed to calm down, but he felt like he couldn’t, so he stumbled into the bathroom and turned on the shower. In the midst of his turmoil, he had totally forgotten about his valium which he could have taken when he got home. He dropped his boxers on the bathroom floor and stepped in the shower, letting the hot water cascade over his body. But it wasn't enough to soothe his frustration, and with a helpless cry, he lashed out and punched the shower wall. The heat only seemed to intensify his confusion and anger. Tears streamed down Avery's red and blotchy cheeks, his shoulders shaking with each sob. The once calm bathroom was now a disheveled mess, bits of shampoo and soap bottles scattered on the floor, which he knocked down as he through his fit of rage. Tears continued to well up in Avery's eyes and spilled over as sobs racked his body. He wasn't even sure what he was crying about anymore; his emotions were just too much to handle. For what felt like an eternity, he alternated between crying and hitting the shower wall until exhaustion finally overtook him, and he rested his head against the tile. The shower water felt both hot and cold against his skin, adding to the intensity of his emotions. His knuckles were raw from hitting the hard tile, and his body ached from the physical and emotional strain. Avery's soapy fingers ran through his hair as he tried to relax under the hot water. But then, a loud pounding on his front door shattered his peace. He froze, water still running over his closed eyes and down his chest. He strained to hear the muffled voice outside, but all he could make out was, "Open up!" Panic rising in his chest, Avery shut off the shower and quickly wrapped a towel around his waist. Racing towards the door, he couldn't shake the thought that something terrible must have happened for someone to be banging on his door like this. Was the apartment complex on fire? "Hold on... Let me get dressed," Avery shouted back at the person, hoping they would give him a moment to collect himself before confronting them. But they continued to yell insistently from the other side of the door. "Avery Sage! Open this door now! I know you're in there ignoring me. Open up!" His heart dropped as he recognized the voice to be Darlene's. What was she doing back? He checked the clock and saw that it was only 7:22 p.m., still early in the evening. With a sense of dread, Avery realized he had no choice but to face her before she caused a scene outside of the apartment complex. Hurriedly, he wrapped a tan towel around his waist and went to open the front door. “Finally,” Darlene said as she pushed past him as soapy water was dripping down his face and body with his half-wet towel wrapped around his waist. “I have been knocking for over 10 minutes.” “I couldn’t hear you,” Avery said, closing the door. This was the first time Darlene had set foot in his small one-bedroom apartment. “Obviously, I was in the shower.” Avery’s tone was sarcastic and not at all inviting. “I am sorry for getting you out of the shower. I didn’t know. I guess I am going to be apologizing a lot this evening.” Darlene said in a remorseful tone. Darlene's eyes swept over the small living room, taking in its sparse and humble furnishings. The sofa was faded and sagging, with worn spots on the armrests where people had rested their arms for years with mismatched pillows on it and a blanket draped halfway on it. The coffee table was scratched and marked with various rings from cups and plates. The old TV stand looked precarious, almost comical in its attempt to support the flat-screen TV as it was on two cinder blocks with a board across them. It was clear that this was not a well-furnished apartment. A controller by the wall near the door is lying upside down. “I came by because I don’t want to end the night like this. I wanted to talk about everything that has happened between us.” Darlene’s voice was concerned as she could tell Avery didn’t look right. His body was shaking, and it wasn’t just from getting out of the shower. “Nothing has happened; I don’t know what you're talking about.” Avery started to turn around and walk away. “Just forget everything and leave me be.” “See, you are doing it again. You’re trying to ignore me when I try to talk to you.” Darlene’s voice rose. “I am concerned about you, and I am trying to talk to you like grown-ups.” Avery just continued to walk towards his bedroom, and Darlene took a few more steps into the apartment, between the living room and kitchen. She could see the top of the kitchen counter had a wadded-up dirty diaper lying disgustingly on it. She rolled her eyes and then shouted. “STOP RIGHT THERE AND TURN AROUND. WE ARE GOING TO TALK!” Avery’s emotions kicked back in, and he turned around and stopped his feet on the ground a few times like a toddler would when they were having a tantrum. “I DON'T HAVE TO TALK TO YOU. I AM NOT GOING TO TALK TO YOU. I DON’T WANT TO TALK TO YOU. I WANT YOU TO GO AWAY FOREVER! YOU ARE NOT MY MOM!” He said the words so quickly and didn’t even realize what he said. His attitude took Darlene aback. She wasn’t sure what she should do. He was being unreasonable. There was a half-empty Sprite can on the coffee table, which Avery was standing next to in a towel. In anger at Darlene, Avery reached down, picked it up, and threw it at her. The soda can hit Darlene square in the chest, and some spilled down her blouse. As she was in total shock at what happened, Avery immediately turned and ran and slammed the bedroom door shut. She could hear him locking it and crying loudly. “GET OUT OF HERE. I DON'T WANT YOU HERE. YOU WILL JUST END UP LEAVING ME LIKE THEY ALL DO. I HATE YOU FOR IT!” Through sobs and shaking, his voice echoed through the closed door. "Everyone hates me! Everyone leaves me!" And Darlene knew then that his outburst wasn't just directed at her but at everyone who had ever abandoned him. She could hear him crying loudly, feeling helpless and alone on the other side of that locked door. “Everyone hates me. Everyone leaves me!” Avery screamed as his whole body was shaking, and he fell to the floor, pulling his knees up close to his chest and rocking back and forth. Darlene walked over to the bedroom door and tried to open it, but it confirmed what she already knew: It was locked. “Come on, Avery, let me in. I am not here to fight,” she said in a soft voice, but it was met with a loud thud against the door as he threw something at it. “GO AWAY. I HATE YOU! I HATE ALL OF YOU!” Avery screamed at her. “Fine, I am leaving, Avery.” She sighed and started to walk away, but just before she got to the front door to leave, she stopped and looked back at the locked door as she rested her hand on the doorknob to leave the apartment.
  3. As promised. There is a lot going on in this chapter. I'm curious what everyone wants to think. Also, do you like the dotted lines? I am trying something new to see if it helps. Enjoy, my friends. Chapter 26 - The Kiddy Table Avery wasn’t sure where Darlene was taking him. His feet shuffled behind Darlene's determined stride, his mind racing with curiosity and anticipation. The only thing he knew about this place was that it was a restaurant with a name he couldn't quite grasp. "Aegean Palette?" he silently attempted to pronounce, stumbling over the unfamiliar combination of letters. Who would name a restaurant something so complicated? As they passed out from the alleyway of the tall building, his thoughts were interrupted by the sight of tall evergreen trees lining a narrow lane, creating a barrier between them and their destination. As they continued down the path, Avery couldn't help but wonder if this obscure location meant the restaurant wasn't doing well. But as they emerged from behind the final cluster of trees, the scent of fresh herbs and spices filled his nose, instantly washing away any doubts or reservations. "Can you smell it, Avery?" Darlene's voice rang out joyfully as she gestured toward the quaint building before them, hidden behind tall skyscrapers and trees. "That's the best Greek and Italian cuisine you'll ever find." Avery inhaled deeply, savoring the tantalizing aroma that seemed out of place in the bustling downtown city. The restaurant itself looked as though it had been plucked from the idyllic Greek countryside and placed next to a peaceful river hidden from view. With its brick walls and vibrant geranium posts adorning the entrance, it was a stark contrast to the surrounding urban landscape. Despite his initial skepticism about its location, Avery couldn't deny that there was something alluring and charming about this hidden gem of a restaurant. And as he followed Darlene inside, he knew that this would be an experience unlike any other. “Let's go in and make sure he has our seats. The restaurant was only expecting four, but I added Christy at the last second. Normally, a restaurant like this won’t do favors for customers if they don’t make reservations in advance, but let's say my sisters and I are regulars. We're almost like family here.” As Avery followed Darlene inside the restaurant, he first noticed the smells and how a tall, gangly, and well-dressed man with an infectious smile was standing next to a hostess stand's wooden podium. “Welcome, Ms. Malatesta. I don’t think we have seen you here on a Monday. What happened to your regular Wednesday meet-up with your sisters.” He stared at Avery, realizing this was the fourth person she had called for reservations. “Let’s just say I had a real shitty day at work, and I need to unwind with my sisters,” Darlene replied. To Dimitris, Avery looked very nervous, and Avery didn’t realize he was up close to Darlene like an anxious child. Dimitris looked over at Avery in his messy hair and untucked shirt. From the looks, he wasn’t their normal clientele. “And who is the young man that is accompanying you this fine evening?” Dimitris smiled at him and gave him a warm half-bow as if inviting him in. Avery felt like he was talking to him as a child, but in fact, he wasn’t used to this type of atmosphere in a restaurant. “Oh, this is Avery, a coworker of mine.” Darlene paused as she thought about how to best explain this without seeming odd. “He is joining us today because we both had a bad day at work, and I thought he needed to unwind a little. When I learned he never heard of this restaurant. I told him about it and how I come here once a week to unwind and sometimes on the weekend for special occasions. I thought maybe I could get you another customer addicted to this place, just as my sisters and I are.” “That is really nice of you, Ms. Malatesta.” Dimitris turned to face Avery, who felt incredibly out of place in such a fancy establishment. “Nice to meet you, Avery. Do you have a last name?” He looked confused about why he would ask such a question. Darlene looked down at Avery and nudged him in the side. “It is ok; calling people by their last name here is customary. I have tried for years to get him to call me Darlene, but he refuses.” Dimitris had a comical and infectious smile when she said this. “Well, Ms. Malatesta, you know that isn’t proper, and I am all about proper.” Even though he didn’t laugh, you can tell from his eyes that he was laughing. “Sage, Avery Sage is my full name,” Avery said as his eyes kept darting around, feeling out of place. Before this, the most upscale dining experience he had ever had was at Olive Garden, and that was only a handful of times when his foster families treated him on special occasions that were in celebration of someone else and not for him. “Welcome, Mr. Sage. It is my pleasure and the pleasure of Aegean Palettee to have you dine with us tonight. I hope you have a divine experience. Anything less would be an insult to us.” Dimitris did a half-bow once again. Darlene's voice trembled a little as she spoke, "I know this isn't ideal, and I apologize for the inconvenience, but I have a fifth guest I invited. With everything that has happened, I really needed her to come with us." She couldn't help but feel guilty for bringing an unexpected guest and knew this wasn’t proper, but at the same time, she felt like she had no other choice. "Can you please find a way to accommodate us? I would be so appreciative," she pleaded, hoping Dimitris would understand her predicament. Dimitris's eyes widened in concern as he scanned the reservation log, seeing that the restaurant was on track to be completely packed that night. He groaned inwardly, knowing they had already made a notable exception for Darlene and brought her in on a Monday with such short notice. Dimitri looked up and saw a look of disappointment on Darlene's face as she realized it was full, and it was like a stab to his heart, making it clear that he had failed to meet her, one of the restaurant’s best customers. “Dimitris, I understand if you can’t, but if you can do anything.” He thought for a second. “I have an idea that is a little unprofessional. I have a small cardboard table in the back. I can place a nice tablecloth that matches the decor of this play and lay it out nicely for two people to sit together. I am sorry there is no way I can fit all of you together. All I have for you is a round table that barely fits four people. If I squeeze more, it won’t look right, and the owner will be upset. Presentation is everything here.” Darlene was actually relieved that there was a solution. “That would be perfect. I would really appreciate it.” She smiled. Dimitris gave his little half-bow. “Let me set it up; give me 10 minutes to make it look like it fits into this place.” Darlene smiled and started to walk out for a second. “Oh, Ms. Malatesta, can I talk too quickly for a second.” Darelene looked at Avery. “It is ok. Can you go outside and wait for Christy? I will only be a second.” Avery nodded and walked outside, not thinking anything of it, but Darlene was confused. As Darlene approached Dimitris, Dimitris grabbed Darelene’s hand gently and patted it. “This restaurant prides itself on being unique, quaint, and professional. We have a dress code here, which I know you are familiar with. Although Avery technically fits the dress code, he is still a little unpresentable. Could you please ask him to tuck his shirt in, pull the pant leg out of his sock, and brush his hair? I don’t mean to be rude, and I didn’t want to offend him in front of you.” Darlene giggled a little. “Oh, Dimitri, I should have known. With everything that happened today, It didn’t register in my mind. On any other day, I would have him be more presentable. It is also a reflection of me. So, I appreciate the honesty.” Darlene patted Dimitris's hand back. “I will take care of it.” As Avery stepped outside, the warm sun and cool air hit his face. Even tucked so far inside between the buildings, the bustling sounds of the city filled his ears. He looked up and saw Christi walking towards him; a look of confusion was on her face as she scanned her surroundings. Suddenly, her gaze landed on Avery, and her face lit up with recognition. "Oh, good. I am in the right spot!" she exclaims, her voice carrying over the surrounding noise. Avery smiled and waved back at her. "I know, a strange spot for a restaurant," he replied, gesturing to the alleyway from which they both had come from. Christ walked casually up, putting her iPhone away, which she was using to help find the place. “Wow, Darlene likes the nice and secluded restaurants I see. You can tell from the outside that this place is something of a unique spot. It has been a few months since I have eaten at such a place like this.” Avery laughed a little as he heard Christy say this. “Yeah, I know. I was expecting something like Chilies, and then here we are.” He paused and looked at Christy. She seemed more comfortable and relaxed about a place like this than he was, but he did his best not to show it. “I agree it has been a long time. I sure hope it isn’t expensive.” As soon as he said this, he realized he had shown his ignorance. Christy giggled a little. “Avery, this place is far from reasonable. Just look at the outside. It speaks of either Italian, German, or Greek food. The location has to be so expensive that it is tucked away between tall office buildings as if it is a place of its own.” Avery's face went flush as she told him this. He tried to think of something that wouldn’t make him look stupid in front of Christy. “I know, but I wish it was. I do like good food, though.” He smiled, looking up at Christy, knowing he never had any real authentic cultural food. Just then, Darlene came out of the restaurant. “Oh, hi, Christy. Did you have any problems finding this place?” She asked. “No, Ms. Malatesta, I did not,” Christy replied. “ Oh, come on, Christy. You can call me Darlene. I don’t like formal approaches to names. It is so. How do I say impersonal?” Christy smiled. “That is good. I would like it better to call you by your first name.” In mid-conversation, Christy's gaze was drawn to something unusual, causing Avery to visibly startle and blush. Darlene had reached over to straighten out the disheveled appearance of his clothing, carefully smoothing his shirt between his pants and onesie. Tucking his shirt into his pants with a practiced ease. Darlene’s hand slipped between the waistband of his pants and the soft fabric of his onesie, making contact with the diaper he wore underneath. She then leaned down to untuck his pant leg from his bunched-up socks. As she completed this task, a realization dawned on her, and she felt her cheeks flush with embarrassment. "I am so sorry for that, Avery," Darlene stammered, glancing toward Christy. "There is a strict dress code at this establishment." Darlene's actions took Christy aback, her eyebrows furrowing in confusion as she tried to make sense of it all. She could feel Avery's cheeks burning with embarrassment, and it made her uncomfortable. She stumbled over her words, desperately trying to ease the tension and make Avery feel at ease. "Avery, what kind of cuisine do you think they serve here? The pungent aroma of garlic wafted through the air every time the door opened." The restaurant was bustling with chatter and the clinking of silverware, giving off a warm and inviting atmosphere. Avery's heart raced as Christy's eyes watched the scene unfold, frozen in humiliation. How could he deny what Darlene had just done right in front of Christy? He didn't want to act out his feelings as anger built inside of him for the humiliating act. "I don't know..." Avery stammered, his face still red with shame and guilt. Even Darlene, usually so confident, couldn't meet anyone's gaze as she, too, blushed with regret. Silence filled the air as they all struggled with the incident. The alley was quiet for a few moments until two figures emerged, walking side by side. Darlene's sisters, Larisa and Ashley, were chatting animatedly as they made their way to her. Larisa's long dark brown hair was tied back in a neat ponytail, the ends brushing against her back with each step she took. It was her usual go-to hairstyle, effortlessly chic yet practical. As soon as they reached Darlene, she pulled Larisa into a tight hug with a broad smile on her face. "Well, well, well, look who decided to ditch the jeans and dress up for work," Darlene playfully teased. Larisa pushed back with a laugh, her eyes sparkling with joy. "I had a formal presentation today, thank you very much. And then someone called an urgent meeting without giving me time to change into my comfortable clothes." Darlene turned to Ashley, who was sexy and flaunting as always, and hugged her. Ashley had her flame-red hair down to her shoulders, and the sides of her hair were braided to the back of her head today. Avery couldn’t take his eyes off of Ashley. Her dress clung to her curves in a way that was both comfortable and revealing. It looked to be made of luxurious emerald green velvet that shimmered with a subtle sheen under the autumnal light. The fabric was thick enough to provide warmth on a crisp fall night but light enough to move fluidly with her walk. The dress had a deep v-neck that plunged down to just below her collarbone, teasing the site of her cleavage. The neckline was framed by a delicate band of emerald green lace that added a touch of femininity. The waist was cinched with a thin, gold belt that accentuated the hourglass shape of the dress. The skirt flowed down to her knees in a cascade of soft folds, hugging her hips gently before flaring out slightly at the hem. The rich green color of the dress was offset by a pair of peep-toe heels in a deep burgundy shade. The heels added height and drama to the outfit, and their color echoed the fallen leaves that swirled around her ankles. Darlene hugged and talked to her sister for a few minutes outside the restaurant. Avery felt a jab at his side when Christy noticed Avery looking over Ashley. “Your tongue is hanging out.” She giggled as it snapped Avery back. “Oh huh, oh, I was just lost in thought,” Avery blushed. “I am sure you were,” Christy smiled. “No, it wasn’t like.” Avery started to say when Darlene said. “Shall we go have dinner?” Breaking the awkward conversation up. Upon entering, Dimitris stood tall and elegant by the waiter's podium, his face adorned with a gentle smile as always. "Welcome, ladies and gentlemen," he greeted with a slight nod towards Avery. His voice was smooth and rich, betraying hints of a Greek accent. "Follow me, please. Your tables are ready and awaiting your presence." He gestured gracefully for them to follow as he led the way through the bustling restaurant, his steps light and confident. The smell of freshly cooked food wafted through the air, mingling with the subtle scent of aromatic herbs and spices. The warm lighting cast a cozy glow over the space, making it feel like a home away from home. Soft music played in the background as the sound of chatter and clinking glasses filled their ears as they were ushered to their seats, ready to indulge in a delicious dining experience. Avery stood back from Darlene as he followed everyone, still embarrassed and upset about what Darlene had done a few minutes ago. He walked quietly between Darlene, her sisters, and Christy. “Well, Malatesta Lady’s, I got a nice table right here in the back of the restaurant, along with a small table for two.” He looked at Christy and Avery. “My lady, what would your name be?” Dimitris asked. “Christy Evans.” She smiled as she took her hand out to shake his. Dimitris shook her hand and replied. “Welcome, Ms Evans. I hope you find this dining experience to be memorable.” Darlene and her sisters stood by the table, eagerly anticipating Dimitris' arrival. As expected, the charming restaurant host pulled out each chair with effortless grace, neatly placing a napkin on each of their laps. However, Avery seemed preoccupied and carelessly took his seat without acknowledging the beautiful display. Christy, always attentive, noticed his distraction and quickly followed suit, gracefully settling in next to him to ensure he felt included. Dimitris, ever the professional, smoothly turned to see them both seated and discreetly rolled his eyes before making his way to the smaller table for two. Dimitris approached the small table. He delicately unfolded Avery's napkin and started to place it on his lap. Avery instinctively jumped back, confused by the gesture. "I didn't spill anything?" he blurted out, feeling embarrassed. Christy leaned over quickly, sensing Dimitris’ surprise at Avery's reaction. "It's alright, Avery. In restaurants like this, it is customary for the waiter to place the napkin in your lap," she explained with a smile. Avery blushed but accepted Dimitris's gesture, allowing him to place the napkin on his lap. Christy tried her best to hide her amusement, pretending to understand Avery's confusion. She had grown up in a wealthy family and was accustomed to these customs, having experienced them numerous times with her family and dates. However, she found it odd that Avery was so unfamiliar with them. He wasn't like the other men she had been around – they were all self-confident and sure of themselves, while he seemed innocent and unsure. She couldn't help but wonder about his past and what had shaped him into the person he was now. Most men would be trying their hardest to charm her or impress her, but Avery was different. He seemed oblivious to women's advances, or perhaps he was simply not interested in them at all. She couldn't quite figure him out yet. Either way, he was different, and she liked that. As Dimitris left, the room seemed to shrink in on itself, the silence becoming almost suffocating. Desperate to fill the void, Christy spoke up with a tremble in her voice. "You know, John scares the shit out of me too. Maybe that's why we were both sent to the IT department." She let out a slightly nervous laugh, trying to break the tension. "I'm so grateful for that." Avery shifted in his seat, feeling uneasy at the mention of John. "Yeah, it's a relief that they installed the badges," he replied cautiously. But then he hesitated, his mind replaying all the events that led up to this security measure. "But...I wish it didn't have to come to this," he admitted with a heavy sigh. "I wish I could have handled things better." Christy gave him a sympathetic look, knowing how much Avery blamed himself for what happened with John. "Don't beat yourself up over it, Avery. John is just an asshole no matter what anyone does or says." She tried to lighten the mood with a smile, but she could see the weight still lingered on Avery's shoulders. Realizing she had touched upon a sensitive topic, Christy quickly changed the subject. “So why don’t we just change the subject and figure out what we are going to order.” Christy and Avery observed their surroundings while Darlene watched. A nagging instinct urged her to make sure Avery was okay. She couldn't explain why, but she would have felt more comfortable if they were all sitting together. Across the room, Larisa caught Darlene's gaze on Avery and spoke up. "He'll be fine. Now, can you tell us what's happening?" This question snapped Darlene back to reality, reminding her of the day's events. As Darlene attention was refocused, her voice began to tremble with barely contained anger as she unloaded. "Can you believe it? They're blaming me for everything that went down on Thursday. They said I was the one who instigated the aggression. And John? He's getting off scot-free without any warning or consequences. But that's not all - they're taking 'special precautions' now to prevent this from happening again. They even had the nerve to install security badges over the weekend." Darlene's jaw clenched, and her eyes burned with fury as she recounted the injustice done to her by those in charge. As Laurisa and Ashley listened intently to Darlene's dilemma, Dimitris glided over to Avery and Christy’s small table. "Would you like to hear the specials?" he asked, his voice laced with charm. Avery, feeling out of place in such a fancy restaurant, looked at the menu in confusion as the waiter handed it to him. The pages were filled with unfamiliar dishes that he couldn't even begin to pronounce. Some had ingredients he had never heard of before, and others seemed too fancy for his simple taste buds. Looking over at Christy for guidance, Avery saw her smiling warmly at Demetri. "Yes, please," she responded graciously, relieving Avery from the pressure of having to reply. He felt grateful for her quick thinking as he continued to feel nervous and out of place in this extravagant setting. Dimitris recited a long list of intricate dishes, each with a complicated name and a list of ingredients that Avery could barely comprehend. “And finally, we have Ossobuco con risotto, Branzino al sale, & Moussaka with lamb," Demetri Paused as he looked over to Avery and Christy. He tried to look interested and knowledgeable, but his mind was spinning. Avery looked at Darlene, and she was busy chatting with her sisters. He then looked over to Christy. Christy could tell Avery was overwhelmed as she looked up to Dimitris. “I would like some more time to go over the menu. Everything you said sounds delicious.” Feeling out of place and unsure of what to order, Avery anxiously scanned the menu once more. From "Parmigiana di Melanzane" to "Spaghetti alla Carbonara," every dish had a carefully crafted name that sounded like a work of art. He looked up at Dimitris again, hoping for some help. Christy chimed in, "But before you leave, maybe you can suggest a reasonably priced Cabernet?" Dimitris nodded confidently, "I have just the one - Silver Oak from Alexander Valley. It's exquisite." A smile spread across Christy's face as she replied, "That sounds perfect, thank you." With a slight bow, Dimitris walked over to attend to Darlene and her sisters' table who were still chatting away. He could hear them talking. “You can’t be serious; they blamed you for helping Avery!” Ashley almost shouted, and Dimitris gave her a look with a finger to his lips, silently asking her to quiet down. Just before he was about to tell them about today's special, he noticed that Darlene had a few tears going down her face. She quickly whipped them away. “You ok, Ms Maltese?” Dimitris said with a concerned look. “Yes, I am just a rough day.” She tried her best to put on a smile but couldn’t. “Well, I hope we can make your day better.” He smiled as he recited the menu. Each of the girls listened and quickly made their selection. After they each made their selection, Larisa quickly placed an order of drinks before he could ask. “We will all take one of your rosemary gin and tonics. And make it a double for her. They are on my tab.” Demetri smiled. “No, mam, it will be one the house. You all are like family here.” He smiled as he memorized their order. Just before he left, he quickly said to the three. “Avery, the young man looks like he may need help with the menu. He looked bewildered. I didn’t want to embarrass him.” He then nodded and walked off to get the drinks. Laurasia spoke up. “He is right. I was watching him fidget a good bit while Demetri was telling him the menu.” Laurisa carefully watched as Darlene was about to get up to help. She grabbed her hand. “Darlene, let's just see what happens.” Darlene looked puzzled. “But he needs help.” Lauris was quick to reply. “He is with a Christy, so let's just see what happens.” Laurasia was paying attention not only to Avery but also to Darlene. She knew there was something going on in Darlene’s mind. She could read the concern on Darlene’s face. “You don’t normally take this much interest in an employee at your work; why him?” “What, oh. Ah, I don’t have any interest in him. I am just trying to protect him from John.” She fidgeted with her napkin as Laurasia watched. “You sure that is it?” “Yes, I am sure,” Darleen snapped back as Laurasia dropped the subject. Ashley watched the tension rise for a second as she blurted in. “What are we going to do about this John character?” Both Darlene and Laurasia refocused their attention on Ashley as they contemplated their next move. Dimitris returned with the bottle of wine Christy had ordered. The wine bottle was clearly meant to impress Avery and Christy. His hands delicately poured a small sample for Christy, who swirled it in her glass and nodded in approval. "This is an exquisite; good recommendation, thank you," she purred, feeling refreshed after tasting the flavors of the wine. Just as Dimitris was about to pour some for Avery, the young man spoke up nervously. "I-I'm not old enough to drink," his face turning pink with embarrassment. Dimitris quickly pulled back the bottle, his expression shifting from friendly to stern in an instant. "My apologies, sir. I just figured..." Avery hung his head in shame, realizing that he had once again felt like he was being treated like a child. After all, he still was wearing diapers like a toddler. But he couldn't blame Dimitris for not assuming he was underage with the company he was with, all of them easily old enough to drink. Christy quickly spoke up and gave Dimitris her dinner order to break the mood. Dimitris again turned his attention to Avery as he fumbled through the menu, struggling to pronounce any of the fancy dishes listed. "Um, I'll have the...spaghetti meal?" he asked tentatively, feeling even more out of place in this posh restaurant. Dimitris couldn't contain his amusement and let out a laugh. "Do you mean the Spaghetti alla Carbonara?" he said with a condescending smirk. Avery's face flushed red with mortification as he mumbled a yes, wanting nothing more than to disappear underneath the table. As the tension went to him, he could feel the warm sensation spreading between his legs and prayed that no one else could smell the evidence of his humiliation. “no, not in front of Christy,” He thought to himself as the diaper swelled and contained it quite well. Avery continued to fidget in his seat, feeling embarrassed and foolish for not knowing what he had ordered. The warmth from the wet diaper only added to his discomfort. “You, ok? You know what you ordered, right?”. Christy asked, seeing the sad look on Avery’s face. "It's just spaghetti," he stammered, trying to cover up his mistake. Christy chuckled at his nervousness. "Don't worry, you can't really go wrong with anything here." But Avery couldn't shake off the embarrassment. When Christy asked if he knew what Carbonara was, he felt even more ashamed for not having a clue. He couldn't bring himself to meet her gaze as she explained the dish. “Avery, you should just have asked. There is no shame in not knowing. Carbonara is wonderful. It is made with guanciale (cured pork), eggs, Pecorino Romano cheese, spaghetti pasta, and lots of black pepper.” As he listened, he felt small and inadequate in her presence. "I...I didn't know," he mumbled, wishing he had just asked instead of trying to appear knowledgeable. "It sounds delicious," he added meekly, hoping to salvage some dignity in front of Christy. There was some silence afterward, and then Christy broke the silence. “Can I ask you a personal question?” There was a pause as Avery felt so out of place in this restaurant, hiding a wet diaper underneath. What was going to happen if he needed to pee. What would he do? Could his diaper still contain it? These were his thoughts just before Christy asked the question and broke the moment. “Ah, sure, ask?” Avery shifts in the chair nervously. “Is it me? Do I make you nervous? Did I do something wrong?” Christy watched to see the behavior. “It is just today. You have really been off, and I felt like you were avoiding me some today?” Christy took a few good sips of her wine as she talked. “No, No, it isn’t you. It is me.” In addition to feeling that everything was his fault. Avery didn’t want to say that he had never been on a real date, and this was the closest thing to a date. He had never been in a fancy restaurant like this and had no idea how to act. On top of all that, he had to wear a diaper in hiding so that he wouldn’t wet his pants, which was now wet. Avery paused as he tried to think of his next words carefully without looking up at Christy. “I feel like I am the problem, not John. I caused all this. I should have approached everything differently. John and his co-workers wouldn’t taunt you. You were doing fine before I arrived. Now, I got Darlene written up and trouble at work when she was just trying to protect me.” Tears slide down Avery. The day finally broke him. “I am the problem, not you.” —----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Darlene's heart clenched as she watched Avery's tears fall; her instinct to comfort him was strong. Laurisa observed and could tell what Darlene was about to do. She placed her hand on hers and stopped her once again. "Let's watch for a little longer, see if he stops crying," Laurisa whispered. Darlene couldn't help but feel strange, almost like she was in the middle of a play and didn't know her lines. She longed to go over and soothe Avery, but something held her back. Did Christy say something cruel to him? Or did he wet himself? A million thoughts raced through her mind, making it hard to focus on anything else. But then Laurisa spoke again, breaking Darlene from her reverie. "Tell me more about this John character," she said in a low voice. Darlene's eyes flashed with determination. Ashley then interjected. "I want to come up with a plan to make him pay for what he's done to my sister. We sisters stick together," she declared a hint of deviousness and excitement in her tone. —----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Christy's heart constricted as she watched tears flow down Avery's face. She felt helpless, unsure of how to comfort him. This wasn't the reaction she was used to from men, especially not the confident and callous ones like John. Growing up, she had been taught that men were supposed to be tough and emotionless. But now, faced with Avery's vulnerable and raw emotion, she realized how wrong those teachings were. Feeling lost for words, Christy reached for a glass of wine and handed it to Avery. "Take a sip," she urged, "you need it more than I do." Despite the fact that he was underage, Christy didn't care. All she wanted was to ease his pain in any way she could. Avery took several gulps of wine as Christy nervously looked around to make sure Dimitris wasn’t in sight. She knew her actions were improper, but she couldn't bring herself to care. "Avery," she began hesitantly, "I've had my own troubles with John long before you came along. And while they may not have been as bad as this, Bryan always did his best to intervene and help me. John has such little regard for women...Sometimes, I start to believe that I am inferior, too." She paused for a moment before adding bitterly, "I'm the only woman in his department who has lasted this long, and that's largely thanks to Bryan's support. And just so you know, he's also trying his best to help you now. He sees so much potential in you." Tears continued to stream down Avery's face as he grabbed a napkin to wipe them away. "Thank you, Christy," his voice breaking with emotion. "It means a lot to hear that." Dimitris came back with the main course meals, placing one in front of Christy and the other in front of Avery. The Spaghetti alla Carbonara that Avery ordered was served in a shallow bowl. Spaghetti noodles were lightly coated in a creamy, golden sauce, which was speckled with flecks of black pepper and small bits of crispy bacon. Shreds of freshly shaved Parmesan cheese and a sprig of parsley garnished the dish. The dish was rich and savory, with notes of garlic, pancetta, and butter. “Looks good, Avery.” Christy held up her fork with a bite of her own dish on it. “Bonniette”.As she tasted her dish, Avery just smiled and took a bite of his dish for the first time. The first bite was a burst of creamy, cheesy sauce that coated the palate. The salty, savory flavor of pancetta was balanced by the sharp bite of garlic and the warmth of black pepper. He had to admit he never tasted anything so tasty. As he took his second bite, some of the creamy cheese sauce fell onto the top of his shirt, and he didn’t even notice as he was enjoying his food thoroughly. The food was heavenly. Christy stifled her laughter as she observed him devour his food in a frenzy. Either he was starving or had never tasted such deliciousness before! Meanwhile, Christy savored each bite, taking her time to truly appreciate the flavors. "Slow down and enjoy your food," she teased, taking a leisurely sip of wine. "We're not at McDonald's, and there's no rush here." They both chuckled at the thought of being kicked out of a fancy restaurant for eating too quickly. Avery tried his best to slow down and eat a more reasonable pace. Dimitris approached Darlene and her sister's table, his steps light and graceful as he carried a large platter filled with mouth-watering dishes. Darlene couldn't help but notice Avery devouring his food with haste, lacking the refinement that was expected in their social circle. She found herself growing more curious about his background with each passing moment. Dimitris carefully placed the main course meal in front of Darlene, followed by Ashley and then Laurisa, creating a beautiful presentation for their dinner. The aroma of authentic Greek cuisine wafted through the air, teasing their senses and making their mouths water. Each dish was a work of art, with vibrant colors and intricate details that showcased the chef's skill. "Let ‘s enjoy!" Ashley exclaimed eagerly as she began to dig into her own food. With one bite, the rich and savory flavors exploded on their taste buds, filling them with delight. As they both joyed the pleasure of the food, Ashley couldn't help but bring up the topic of John again as she wanted to know more. She leaned in, her eyes sparking with curiosity. "So, what do you know about John? Can you give me any more details?" Darlene's face soured at the mention of his name. "Not much. Just that he works for DNA Pharmica and is a total jerk." Laurasia, always one to remain neutral, chimed in. "Do you know if he has any hobbies?" Darlene stabbed at her food with her fork, hatred evident in her tone. "Besides being an ass and working out, not really." Ashley took another bite of her meal before continuing. "And he's straight, right?" "As straight as he can be," Darlene replied sarcastically. Ashley's eyes lit up mischievously as she asked another question. "Could you possibly access his iPhone data from work?" Both Darlene and Laurasia stopped eating, their attention fully on Ashley now. "Why would I want to do that?" Darlene questioned, suspicion coloring her voice. "Maybe your little sister wants to pay him a visit," Ashley said with a devilish grin, knowing exactly how to push Darlene's buttons. “No, you're not getting involved,” Darlene exclaimed, her voice rising in agitation. “John is a ticking time bomb, and I won't let you be the next victim of his rage.” Ashley's expression hardened as she retorted, “Don't underestimate me, Darlene. I've dealt with men like him before. And I have ways of making them talk.” Laurasia interjected with concern, “But what if he figures out who you are?” “I'm a master at disguise, being men’s desire, and getting them to open up,” Ashley replied confidently. I've been in the escort business for over seven years, and no one has ever discovered my true identity.” “But what about the risk?” Darlene pressed, her eyes flashing with worry. “I am sure I can find a way to get close to him,” Ashley declared. “And once I do, I'll make sure he confesses his hatred for Avery or finds something that will ruin him.” The three women continued to debate Darlene’s dilemma, their voices growing more intense as they discussed Ashley’s dangerous plan. Darlene and Laurasia tried to convince Ashley that her idea was reckless, put them all at risk, and not to do it. but she remained stubborn to drop the topic Avery had finished his dinner for some time while Christy slowly worked on completing her dinner. “So, have you seen any good movies this weekend?” Avery perched up a little. “Yes, I saw Free Guy.“ As he said this, he realized he had seen that with Darlene, which he wasn’t about to admit to. Avery wanted to impress Christy, but he couldn’t think of anything else to say. “I have been thinking about it with all my spare time lately; I would like to a read book. Do you have any suggestions? I remember you said you liked reading.” Christy smiled. She loved reading. She thought for a second as she remembered Avery mostly liked fantasy and sci-fi movies. “Have you tried the Harry Potter series? I know it has been around for a while, and it is fun and easy to read.” Avery blushed a little as he had only seen the Harry Potter movies, which he loved. He really didn’t want to admit that he hadn’t read that. “I have,” Avery lied as he felt a pit in his stomach. “I wanted to read something more recent and maybe outside of my normal taste. What are you reading right now?” Avery wanted so badly to show interest in her things. Just as Christy was about to answer the question, Dimitri showed up with a large dessert plate, two smaller plates, and two spoons. Darlene had ordered you both a dessert to share. Avery looked over to Darlene’s table and saw that they were already sharing what looked like the same dessert. Ashley and Laurisa were in heavy conversation as Darlene looked over at Avery and tried to give me a smile, but Avery turned away, still upset with the whole tucking his pants in. As Dimitris left, Christy finished the sentence: “Right now, I am reading a book called The Passengers by John Marrs. In a way, it reminds me a lot of The Hunger Games.” Christy motioned for Avery to take the first bite of the Tiramisu. He dug his spoon in and got a little too large of a portion of cake as he tried to fit some of the Tiramisu in his mouth, and some dropped on his shirt and napkin on his lap. He quickly tried to remove what was on his shirt with his napkin as it smudged a little. Christy pretended not to notice and took a bite of the Tiramisu as she explained the gist of the book. “The book centers around the widespread adoption of self-driving cars as the new, safer standard. However, eight individuals from diverse backgrounds are caught in a perilous situation when disaster strikes. Their distress is captured by cameras hidden in their vehicles; it is broadcast to millions of people worldwide. Ultimately, the public will have to decide: Who deserves to be saved? And who should be sacrificed first?” “Sounds interesting. Maybe I will read that.” Avery talked, his mouth full of another bite from the desert. This wasn’t the first time he spoke with his mouth full. Several times during dinner, Christy wanted to tell him to chew with his mouth closed but stopped herself. It didn’t bother her, but she found it rather comical. All in all, she was enjoying herself with Avery in between awkward moments. She had never really eaten with someone who was so clueless about a restaurant like this. It was like taking a kid out to a fancy restaurant for the first time. Except he wasn’t a kid. —---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- As the conversation finally dropped over John and what to do with him, Darlene paid the bill for everyone, including Avery and Christy, even as Laurasia and Ashley protested. “It was my turn to pay anyway, and I appreciate you all coming to let me vent my frustrations. It has helped.” Ashley looked over at Avery and Christy. They were laughing about something. “Looks like the two kiddos are getting along.” Darlene turned and noticed this. She had to admit she was jealous a little. Laurasia was very observant of Darlene and watched her several times through the night look over at Avery. There was more to Avery being a coworker than she could put her finger on. She didn’t want to bring it up in front of Ashley, so she thought she would talk to Darlene privately in person or on the phone later. Ashley was a little intoxicated, as she had no appointments tonight and was enjoying herself. She looked at Darlene. “Shall we go over to the kiddy table and tell them we are leaving, or leave them be.” She giggled. Laurasia elbowed her sister. “Be nice.” She knew her sister could get sarcastic and sometimes say things that shouldn’t be said. “Just saying it got to be the kiddy table since one is in diapers.” She laughed to herself. “But ok, I will behave.” Darlene folded her napkin, placed it on the table, and stood up. Darlene's voice was laced with a sense of disappointment as the dinner was coming to an end. She stood up, grabbed her purse, and hugged each of her sisters good night. Christy couldn't help but notice as everyone else started to stand up and hug one another. She thought to herself, how nice it must be to be so close to your siblings. “I think they are leaving, which means we should be going,” she quietly said to Avery, who simply nodded and smiled. Avery wanted to tell her how much he enjoyed spending time with her, but fear kept his words locked inside. As Christy stood up, folding her napkin neatly and placing it on the table, she spoke in a soft, sweet voice, "We should do this again sometime. Maybe somewhere less expensive." Avery's smile faltered for a moment before he replied, "Yes, I would like that." Avery's stomach dropped with dismay as he shifted his weight, feeling the unmistakable squish of a soaked diaper beneath him. The slick, plastic material pressed against his skin, and the warm wetness made him feel like a toddler again. He could even see the bulging outline of the saturated diaper through his pants, a constant reminder of his embarrassing situation. His cheeks flushed with embarrassment as he slowly stood up, hoping no one had noticed his predicament. His face burned with shame as he wadded up his napkin and tossed it onto the table. Darlene had just joined them, breaking the uncomfortable silence. "I hope you both enjoyed your evening," she said with a forced smile, her eyes falling upon the food smudges on Avery's shirt. Without thinking, she reached over to grab the wadded-up napkin and began to dip it into Avery’s ice water to clean him off. Darlene's expression changed instantly as she remembered the previous incident with Avery outside the restaurant. She could feel Christy's eyes burning into him with a mix of confusion and disgust at what she was about to do. Avery was standing there, blushing and obviously unhappy. Darlene quickly dropped the napkin and tried to pretend nothing out of the ordinary was happening. Before things could get any more awkward, Darlene spoke up again. "Well, Christy, it was lovely of you to join us tonight. I'll be taking Avery back home now." The tension between them was palpable as they all walked out of the restaurant in uncomfortable silence. As they said their goodbyes outside, Avery felt a mix of anger and shame towards Darlene and himself. He knew Darlene was just trying to help, but he couldn't shake off the humiliation he felt at that moment. All he wanted was to be alone and deal with his own emotions.
  4. The next chapter will be out tomorrow. It is another long chapter, almost 8,000 words. I just finished it and will need to do the final review tomorrow.
  5. I'm sorry it has taken so long to get this out. I may make a few corrections still, but I wanted everyone to know I have not given up the story. I will not give it up until I finish it. 03-20-24 Update: I fixed a lot of errors and improved the flow. Chapter 25 - Unexpected Addition Darlene's fingers drummed on the cold surface of her desk, her eyes staring blankly at the wall cluttered with sticky notes and IT reports. She still couldn't stop thinking about the meeting with Julian, which made her feel she was being trapped like an animal, desperately clawing for an escape. She wanted a way to vent this out of her system. Anger at Julian, Bryan, and Corporate about how they justified John’s response and pinned John's reckless behavior on her. She was only doing her job, trying to keep Avery safe just as she was asked to do. Their inability to keep their own employee safe from an ill-behaved employee who seems to have a record of issues with other employees somehow is now her fault, and there was nothing they could do but install dam security badges on each floor and entrance/exit. "Ugh," she muttered under her breath, grabbing her personal iPhone phone and swiping through her contacts. She needed someone to vent to, someone who would understand the pressure she was under and the injustice that was served to her. Laurisa and Ashley, her sisters, were always there for her in times like these. Her thumb hovered over their names before she pressed the call. The ringtone kept going on and on. "Come on, pick up," Darlene whispered, willing either of them to answer. But one by one, both calls went straight to voicemail. The weight of frustration settled heavily on her chest. "Damn it," she hissed, quickly typing out a text to both of them: 'I need to talk ASAP. Call me when you can. Really need my sisters right now.' She then proceeded to text her sisters again in desperation. “I really need one of you. I am about to lose it at work.” She sighed, locking her phone and placing it facedown on the desk. Alone with her thoughts, Darlene's mind raced back to the conversation with Julian. They just didn't understand that John was about to hurt Avery. If she let it go on, that is precisely what would have happened. He came up here in a fit of rage and was uncontrollable, yet somehow, she was expected to reign him in with calm and delicate talking. Avery had already finished his second cup of coffee and wanted to check on Darlene. He glanced down at his favorite coffee mug adorned with colorful Legos. Despite its sentimental value, it was covered in dark, crusty stains. Avery knew Darlene would see the mess and tease him. From the thought of this, he couldn't help but feel a twinge of embarrassment. So, he made his way to the communal kitchen, trying to ignore the uncomfortable bulkiness of his diaper underneath his sweatpants. In that moment, he longed for the simplicity of pull-ups, which were much easier to hide and more comfortable beneath clothing. It was a thought he never imagined he would have in his adult life. When Avery entered the kitchen area, a couple of employees were talking. Avery put his head down as he passed them by and went to the sink to wash his coffee mug. He could hear them discussing the new security measures. "Nice outfit," a voice jibed, breaking Avery's concentration. He looked down only to realize his shit was only half buttoned and showed his white shirt underneath, which was really his onesie; half his shirt was tucked into his pants, and the other half hanging out the sides of his pants. His face flushed as he looked up to see two of Darlene’s employees smirking at him. Avery turned away from them and faced the kitchen sink as he buttoned up his shirt as panic surged. Avery forced himself to remain calm. Surely, they didn't know about the diaper. Surely, Darlene hadn’t said anything to them, but Avery still felt exposed, as if they knew his secret. It didn’t matter; Avery couldn't help but feel self-conscious as the comment was made, his cheeks flushing with embarrassment. He hated that he had to wear bulky diapers, and the onesie Darlene had bought for him only made him feel more exposed. Yet, it was necessary to keep his secret hidden. Their comments didn’t help him shake off the constant reminder of his vulnerability. The internal struggle between wanting to hide and needing to accept his new reality waged within him. After buttoning up and tucking in his shirt, Avery turned around to face his coworkers. “Thanks," Avery replied tersely. He tried his best to ignore the comment. Then he put the coffee mug in the sink and placed some soap in it. He began washing the outside and inside of the mug, making sure to remove any lingering stains or residue. While he rinsed his mug, he could hear the coworkers’ mumbling words, but he couldn’t make them out. His heart panicked, and he wanted out of the kitchen as fast as possible. Avery was paranoid because he just knew the coworkers were talking about him. When he finished cleaning his coffee mug, Avery walked over and knocked on the office door before entering. "Is everything okay, Darlene?" Avery asked cautiously, opening the door slowly and peering into the office. His eyes were filled with concern, but he kept a respectful distance, sensing her need for space. "Fine, Avery," she lied, forcing herself to smile. "Just dealing with some... management issues." She didn't want to burden him with her problems, especially considering the struggles he was already facing in the current environment. She knew all too well about his fragile state and the anxiety that plagued him. "Alright," he said hesitantly. “Do you mind if I grab another cup of coffee?” Avery held out his Lego coffee mug. Darlene just nodded and said, “Sure.” Her voice was dry and monotone—not the normal Darlene, and certainly not the one he met prior to this weekend at her house. Avery walked over to the Keurig and placed a K-cup in there labeled morning brew. He then went to the small office fridge and found his normal bottle of creamer labeled “Avery’s Creamer”. He turned to see if Darlene was watching, but she wasn’t. She was focused on either her email or her iPhone. He could feel her anxiety even though she was trying to hide it. Afterward, he poured his creamer into the coffee mug, set it on the Keurig, and pressed brew. Avery watched Darlene from behind. He wasn’t sure what to say. He knew this was all his fault, and she was hiding the real reason for her frustration. For some strange reason, he wanted to sit on her lap and hug her, but he refrained from doing it. She probably didn’t need a hug and would push him away right now. He was bad at reading people, and this wasn’t a time to try. Once the coffee was complete, Avery began to retreat back to his work. "If you need anything, though, I'm here." "Thank you, Avery," she whispered, grateful for his unwavering support. But right now, what she really needed was her sisters' advice. As Darlene tried to refocus on her work, she couldn't help but feel helpless, trapped within the confines of her own thoughts, the expectations of others, and the injustice she felt. Avery returned to his office to start working again, aware that he had changed the whole office atmosphere with the incident last Thursday. He couldn’t get over the feeling that everyone was looking at him, but he didn’t dare look up to see if he was right. As he sat down and sipped his coffee. Avery took a deep breath and tried to block out the distractions around him. It wasn’t long till Avery's fingers danced over the keyboard, the rhythmic tapping a soothing counterpoint to the chaos that had been swirling around him all morning. He finally had let go of the thoughts that the security cards were his fault, even though he could hear the whispers down the hallways and across the cubicles. He was able to immerse himself in his research on cell walls, seeking to understand better their structure and function for the drug interaction project he'd been assigned. The screen before him was filled with diagrams and molecular schematics, each more complex than the last. His heart pounded in his chest in excitement as he attempted to refocus on the task at hand, which he loved. He read that the cell wall lies outside the plasma membrane, which defines the boundaries of the cell itself. The wall is freely permeable to most molecules, but the membrane exhibits selective permeability, tending to concentrate specific dissolved molecules and ions inside the cell. This complicated the matter of how he could calculate the external and internal pressure effects on the cell wall, which he knew he needed to figure out to make these custom drugs effective. As he delved deeper into his research, Avery's thoughts wandered to Darlene, her own struggles weighing heavily on his mind. He wished there was more he could do to support her, but for now, all he could do was focus on his work and prove himself to be a valuable asset in their ongoing battle against cancer – and against the challenges they faced both within and beyond the walls of their workplace. A few hours passed as Avery's eyes darted between the lines of text on his computer screen, furiously absorbing every last bit of information about cell walls. The pressure of the onesie and diaper beneath his clothing weighed heavily on him today, a constant reminder of his vulnerability, but at this moment, this wasn’t what he was focused on. He clenched his jaw, determined not to let it hold him back. This whole day had not been what he had hoped to come back to. "Guess what, Avery?" A familiar voice cut through the tense silence, and he looked up to see Christy standing behind him in a pretty light blue work dress, the delicate light hugging her slender frame. Her hazel eyes sparkled with excitement as always. A hint of perfume lingered in the air, a subtle but alluring scent that added to her charm. She radiated energy and vitality as the always positive girl he had come to know. "Hey, Christy," Avery said, confused about why she was here since they didn’t have any time set up to work on anything together today. "What's going on? What are you doing here?" "Looks like we're about to be full-time work neighbors," she announced eagerly, gesturing to Bryan approaching with two boxes of office supplies in his arms. She grinned at Avery, her dimples deepening as she giggled in anticipation. "Really? That's great!" Avery forced a slight smile, though his mind raced with uncertainty. How would having a new coworker impact his already delicate situation? He didn’t want Christy to know about his diapers or, worse, about Darlene inspecting his diaper. Avery was also sure this had something to do with John, and once again, this was his fault in his mind. "Good morning, Avery," Bryan said. "I hope you don't mind us invading your space a little." "Of course not," Avery replied, trying to sound genuine but not so sure about this. "It'll be nice to have some company." Christy's enthusiasm seemed to be authentic as she started to grab one of the boxes from Bryan. "Is it okay if we put these boxes down on your desk for the moment until we know where I'm going to sit?" Christy asked, gesturing to the second box she held. "Sure," Avery managed to say, forcing a semi-fake smile onto his face. His thoughts churned like storm-tossed waves, threatening to pull him under. He really liked Christy but as an office mate. He wasn’t sure. "Here, let me help you with that," Avery offered, rising from his seat to take the box from Bryan’s hands before Christy could get to it. The box’s weight surprised him, and he nearly staggered under its bulk. “What in the world did she bring with her?” he thought to himself. He knew he should be grateful for the distraction her arrival provided—a brief respite from the relentless nagging feeling that all this was his fault—but in fact, it was just another reminder that it was his fault and another chance to be found out. "Thanks, Avery!" Christy beamed at him, her cheeks flushed with excitement. "I can't wait to get settled in." There again was her enthusiastic voice. In fact, she was glad to be getting away from John and his two cohorts. It would be much better to be close to Avery and help him program his mathematical solutions in the software. Avery couldn't help but feel a pang of envy at her carefree attitude—something he had lost touch with long ago. "Let's go see where Darlene wants to put you," Bryan said, leading the way toward the office door. Avery placed the box on his desk, still feeling the shock of Christy's unexpected move.” Want to come with us, Avery?” Bryan clapped Avery on the shoulder. Avery just nodded yes, stood up, and followed behind Bryan and Christy. He prayed that neither of them could see the bulk or hear the slight crinkly sounds of the diaper he was wearing. As they approached Darelene’s office, Avery thought to himself that he was honestly a little shocked that Darlene would have agreed to this. But then it dawned on him as they approached: Darlene probably didn’t know. She would have told him. Bryan's knuckles rapped against the closed door, and Avery couldn't help but hold his breath. He could envision the conversation that was about to take place - the confusion, frustration, and possibly even anger that would follow. A wave of guilt washed over him, knowing he was adding to Darlene's already stressful day. The door opened, revealing a puzzled Darlene, who took in the sight of Bryan and Chisty standing together and Avery standing behind them. Bryan smiled. “Good morning, Darlene. I am so grateful you agreed to this. I need to know where you plan to let Christy sit," Bryan smiled. "What? No one told me about Christy coming up here," Darlene replied, both surprised and upset. Her gaze flicked to Avery, who felt he'd been caught red-handed, even though he'd had no part in the decision and no clue about it ahead of time. Avery quickly interjected, feeling the weight of the situation bearing down on him. "I apologize, Darlene. This caught me off guard as well. I had no idea Christy would be joining us until just now." "Didn't Julian tell you?" Bryan asked, his brow furrowed in confusion. "We're moving Christy up here for her protection away from John." Bryan watched as he read Darlene’s puzzled and upset facial expressions. “I thought Julian had already discussed this with you. He told me he was going to talk to you this morning." Bryan said hastily, trying to defuse the tension. "It's just a temporary arrangement." “Temporary by what means?! Till you get, John fired?!” Darlene quickly responded in anger. As the conversation continued, Avery became increasingly distracted by the warmth of his body and the confines of the onesie he wore beneath his clothes. He tried to focus on keeping his breathing steady, but his heart raced, fueled by anxiety and an overwhelming sense of vulnerability, as he stood there feeling helpless to control this situation. Avery's heart clenched as a stepped back up against the back wall of Darlene’s office. He listened to the heated exchange between Darlene and Bryan just beyond his cubicle. He could feel the tension thicken in the air, and a knot formed in his stomach. It was apparent that Darlene wasn't happy about this unexpected change, especially since she had yet to be consulted first. He hated tense situations and never did good with them. "An IT department isn't the place for Christy," Darlene argued, her voice rising with frustration. "This isn’t a research center dedicated to some magical DNA cancer treatments and a hideout for employees who are afraid of your troublemakers." He couldn't help but empathize with Darlene's plight – she'd taken him under her wing when no one else would, and now it seemed her generosity was being taken advantage of. "Look, I understand your concerns," Bryan attempted to soothe her, his tone measured and calm. Avery's heart raced as he heard Bryan acknowledge Darlene's concerns. His anxiety increased, and he felt a sudden need to pee. "We know it's not ideal," Bryan said, "but we're worried about Christy's safety with John and his friends harassing her. With the new security badge system causing tensions, we need to take precautions." The mention of John made Avery's bladder twinge even more, but he tried to ignore the urge to use the bathroom. He wanted to be present for this conversation in case his name came up, though his body protested against his will. Plus, he was trapped inside Darlene’s Office with Bryan and Christy blocking the way. "Christy is the last person I'm taking in from your department," Darlene snapped, her voice raised so that anyone nearby could hear it. "You can't expect me to house your whole R&D center just because you can't control John and his fucking behavior." It took all of Darlene’s emotion and resolve not to slam the door on them. Avery winced at the outburst, clenching his thighs together instinctively. He could no longer deny the pressure building in his bladder, but he couldn't bring himself to leave the room. It felt like a choice between preserving his dignity, staying informed, and not looking like he didn’t care about what happened with Christy, and he didn't know which option was more terrifying. "Darlene, we would appreciate your help and understanding in this matter," Bryan replied, his voice tense but controlled. "We'll find a solution to the John issue as soon as possible." Darlene couldn't help but roll her eyes at the ridiculousness of the situation. She knew that the solution was to ignore it and pretend like it would never happen again. Plus, they wanted to make an example out of her for office violence. Avery's mind raced, trying to formulate a plan. Should he try to slip away now or risk embarrassment by waiting too long? The sudden silence in the room interrupted his thoughts, signaling that the discussion had temporarily ended. Panic gripped him as he realized he'd missed his chance to escape unnoticed. "Get it together, Avery," he thought, forcing himself to focus on his work. "You've faced worse situations before." "Please, just let me make it through this," he silently prayed. "I can't afford another slip-up." The air in the office seemed to thicken as the silence continued. Then Darlene's voice reverberated off the walls again, her anger palpable. Avery, already on edge from desperately needing to use the restroom, felt his heart rate spike at the sudden outburst. His grip on his own self-control wavered, and in that moment of terror, he lost the battle. Warmth spread through the diaper between his legs, rapidly soaking up the unexpected release. Avery's cheeks burned with humiliation, and he tried to shift his body to the side of the door frame, trying to hide any evidence of his accident. The bulky padding now felt even more intrusive, a constant reminder of his failure to keep control. Christy, oblivious to the situation unfolding just a few feet away, had been observing the heated exchange with wide eyes. When she finally glanced over at Avery, she noticed him standing uncomfortably and shifting his posture, a pained expression etched across his face. Concern filled her, and she hurried over to check on him. "Hey, are you okay?" Christy whispered close to Avery, genuine worry in her voice. Avery forced a tight-lipped smile and nodded, not trusting himself to speak. He didn't want to draw any more attention to himself, especially with everyone on edge and arguing. It took all of his willpower to keep his gaze focused on Bryan and Darlene. "Alright, if you need anything, just let me know," Christy whispered close to him, puzzled by Avery's behavior. Darlene finally let out a long sigh, her frustration dissipating slightly. "Fine," she relented, rubbing the bridge of her nose. "But this is the last time, Bryan. I can't keep taking in people from other departments just because management can't control their employees." "Thank you, Darlene," Bryan said gratefully. "I promise we'll work on finding a more permanent solution." As the conversation drew close, Avery wanted to waddle back to his office and sit in his chair, defeated yet again, but he was wet and needed a change into a fresh diaper before he accidentally leaked. It wasn't that he had anything against Christy - quite the opposite, in fact. But the prospect of having someone so close to him, someone who could potentially discover his secret, filled him with dread. He felt a tear start to swell up around his eyes. "Get a grip, Avery, don’t start to cry now," he muttered under his breath as he felt the warmth of his diaper as it swelled up around his crotch. "Alright," Darlene relented, sighing. Christy, you'll be two desks down from Avery." "Thanks, Darlene," Christy said nodding gratefully, walking back to her new spot to begin unpacking her belongings. Avery watched from the corner of Darlene’s door, not moving till everyone left. Avery then slipped towards Darlene's desk, heart pounding in his chest. The shame hung heavy in the air around him, making it difficult to breathe. "Darlene, I..." he choked out, his voice barely above a whisper. "I had another accident” as a tear slide down his face and his head hung low. "Did you bring a spare diaper in your backpack?" Darlene asked gently; concern etched across her face as she realized the argument was stressful for the boy. "Y-yes," Avery stammered, avoiding her gaze. "Alright, go get it, then." Avery wiped his tears before he left the room. Darlene got up and started closing the blinds to her office and waited for him to return. Avery quickly picked up his backpack, not paying attention to Christy, who was watching him walk back to Darelen’s office with it. When he came back with his backpack, she locked the door behind them. "Sit down," Darlene instructed, gesturing to the chair by her desk. Avery did as he was told, trying to keep his composure while his mind raced. Darlene's gentle yet firm voice offered advice, "Next time, try to remain calm. Perhaps you could practice some breathing exercises and visualize a happy place. There are some helpful apps for that." She reminded him that he couldn't let these incidents occur frequently, or others might start to question them. "I know," Avery mumbled, his cheeks burning with embarrassment. He tried to focus on the patterns in the carpet beneath his feet, but his thoughts kept intruding, taunting him with images of his coworkers' reactions if they ever found out. "Okay, let's get you changed," Darlene perked up but kept her tone professional as she opened a drawer and the supplies she brought with her this morning. "And when we're done, we both need to get back to work." "Right," Avery agreed, his voice barely audible. He took a deep breath, trying to steady himself for yet another diaper change. He opened his backpack, pulled out his only spare diaper, and handed it to Darlene. It felt odd to be offering this exchange. Darlene spread out a large towel on the office floor, careful to smooth out any wrinkles. She then carefully arranged a few essential items: a package of baby wipes and a bottle of sweet-smelling baby powder. As he watched her, he couldn't help but feel his cheeks flush with embarrassment at the thought of using such items for their intended purpose. But Darlene didn't seem fazed at all, simply going about her business with a calm and confident demeanor. He couldn't help but be grateful for her as he didn’t realize this was her maternal instinct at play here. "Alright, lay down on the soft towel so I can change you into a fresh, clean diaper," Darlene instructed gently as she patted the towel. He couldn't help but feel a tingling sense of awareness and fear creeping over him, not because of Darlene but because Christy was just outside, within earshot. He could imagine her giggling if she knew his predicament. As he got up off the chair, he began to unzip his pants and step out of them, revealing the bottom of his onesie. “Do I take this off?” he asked confused. Darlene looked up at him, as she was already on her knee. “No need; the snaps are made for easy access just as I did before. Now, come on and lay down.” She patted the towel. The humiliation of these diaper changes had become all too familiar, yet a small part of him craved the comfort they provided and the attention he got from Darlene. Avery placed his pants on the chair and laid on the large towel. As Darlene leaned over to him, Avery closed his eyes and focused on the slow rise and fall of his chest. The shame still clung to him like a second skin, but he resolved to push past it and told himself to return and concentrate on his work when this was done praying Christy wouldn’t find out. He felt Darlene unbuttoned the onesie as he opened his eyes to stare at the ceiling, focusing on the patterns within the acoustic tiles. "Do I have to have the baby powder again?" he asked, hoping for the answer ‘no’ as he continued to stare up. Darlene looked down at him and replied, her tone firm but gentle. "As I said before, it's necessary to prevent diaper rash, so just trust me." He sighed, knowing she was right. But it didn't make the process any less mortifying. He heard the tapes unfasten from his diaper as she pulled the front end of the soaked diaper off, exposing him. He then lifted his hips as she slid the wet diaper from underneath him and then slid a new, fresh, disposable diaper into its place. He gritted his teeth as she applied the cold otion and baby powder, feeling exposed and vulnerable beneath her touch. He tried to connect the dots on the ceiling, hoping he wouldn’t get erect from her gentle touch on his sensitive parts. He could smell the heavy scent of baby powder in the air as it was applied to him. "Almost done," Darlene murmured, fastening the fresh diaper and then pulling the onesie in place, snapping the crotch back together. She helped him sit up, their eyes meeting for a brief moment. “You're doing great, Avery. Just remember to breathe and stay calm when you get nervous. Maybe you can prevent this future." After Darlene finished helping him, he quietly said a grateful "thank you." As Avery stood up, Darlene's hand almost reached out to pat his bottom, but she stopped herself, realizing what she was about to do. He then pulled his pants back on, feeling the added bulk of a new, fresh diaper underneath his onesie and trousers. "Of course," she replied, reassuringly squeezing his shoulder. "Now, let's get back out there and show them what you’re made of." It was almost as if she was giving encouragement to a boy not a young man. The embarrassment weighed heavily, but he couldn't afford to wallow in it. Suppressing a shudder, he picked up his backpack like he was about to head home and brought it back to his office. "Focus, Avery," he silently urged himself, knowing Christy was just outside Darlene’s office setting up her new desk. You can't change what happened, but you can keep it from happening again. You are smarter than this, stronger than this." He told himself as he did his best to hold back a tear. With that, he exited the office, determined to put the incident behind them and move forward with their day. A cacophony of thoughts raced through Avery's mind as he tried to drown out the sounds of Christy unpacking her belongings nearby. Christy glanced up from her unpacking, her gaze lingering on the closed blinds of Darlene's office. Curiosity piqued, she watched Avery return with his backpack, his body language tense and uneasy. The door clicked shut behind him, and Christy couldn't help but wonder if he was in trouble for something. "Is everything okay?" Christy asked genuine concern in her voice. "Everything's fine," Avery replied, trying to sound casual. "Just a minor issue." "Alright then," Christy said, nodding slowly as she returned to setting up her desk. Avery settled back at his desk, praying that the walls of the office had been thick enough to keep their secret safe. He focused on his research, determined not to let his anxiety get the better of him. Avery's heart raced as he returned to his desk again and slowly started to settle down, the scent of baby powder clinging to him like a cloak. Sitting down and looking at the computer, he did his best, trying not to draw attention to himself. Christy glanced at him from her new workstation; curiosity continued to be etched on her face. She didn’t feel like Avery was being straight with her and something was wrong. "Hey, Avery, can I pick your brain about this problem I'm working on that has your formulas?" she asked, strolling over with a notepad in hand. "I could use a fresh perspective." "Sure, let me take a look," Avery replied, attempting to calm his nerves. He was starting to focus on the equations before him, finding solace in their complexity. Avery began to explain the purpose and reasoning behind the equations. As they delved deeper into the project, Christy leaned in closer, her nose wrinkling delicately at a familiar scent. Soft notes of baby powder wafted toward her, causing her to pause and comment, "You smell like... baby powder?" Avery's muscles tensed when he heard the words. He struggled to maintain his composure. Sweat prickled at the back of his neck as he hastily responded, "Oh, uh, it's just a new laundry detergent." He prayed that she would accept his flimsy excuse. "It's supposed to be good for sensitive skin." "Ah, I see," Christy mused, raising her eyebrows with a hint of skepticism. She didn't press the matter further, but Avery could tell she was still puzzled by his choice of scent. The faint aroma of baby powder lingered in the air around them, mixing with the heady scent of coffee from their nearby cups. Avery quickly explained why he did what he did with the calculations that Christy was asking about. Christy finally agreed to his method. “it will be tricky to program, but I think I can figure something out.” She smiled. A wave of relief washed over Avery as Christy walked back with the notes she had taken and sat back down at her desk. They both separately drove back to their work. His mind whirred with calculations and possible solutions, grateful for the distraction from his earlier ordeal. Meanwhile, Darlene finally connected with her sister, Laurisa, on the phone when she called her back. She was eager to vent about the day's events and seek their advice. “Finally, you call me back. What took you so long?” Darlene exclaimed in a panicked and upset voice, feeling slightly neglected by her sister's delayed response. "Sorry, I was at the police department for new clients. They needed me to review their cases and complete all the necessary paperwork." Laurisa replied, her tone a bit strained as she became defensive of her own important work. Darlene could hear the exhaustion and frustration in her sister's voice and immediately regretted her initial outburst. "I'm sorry; I didn't mean to imply that your work isn't important, too." She apologized sincerely, understanding the demands of her sister's job. “Darlene paused, trying not to cry from the stressful day. “I just really need my sisters, and I can’t talk about it here. I know it is short notice, but can we all meet up for dinner tonight? I really need to talk to you girls about what's been happening at work. I am about to lose it." Darlene said, her voice strained with frustration. "Of course," Laurisa agreed, concern evident in her tone. "We'll be there for you, sis. Just tell us where and when." "Great. Let's meet at that Greek place we love around four pm if that isn’t too early. It is the only way I think we will get any reservations this late in the week." Darlene suggested, a small smile tugging at the corners of her lips. “No problem, I can get out of work early, and I am sure Ashley can too. Her work hours are generally not till late in the day.” Laurisa and Darlene both laughed. “I will make reservations for the three of us,” Laurisa replied. Darlene thought for a second. If they were going to leave work early, she needed to take Avery with her to ensure his protection. “No, make it four.” She paused. “I am going to bring Avery, the one I talked about previously.” “Oh really? It will be interesting to meet him,” Laurisa said. “First, you can’t Psychoanalyze the boy. The poor boy is confused enough as it is.” “Okay, I won’t. At least I won’t out loud. My job is to psychoanalyze people, and I can’t just turn it off,” Laurisa giggled. With that, Darlene hung up the phone, grateful for her sisters' unwavering support. As Avery and Christy continued work separately with only one empty desk between them, he found himself growing more comfortable in her presence, forgetting about the scent of baby powder. The earlier tension seemed to dissipate, replaced by the shared language of numbers and logic. For now, at least, his secret remained safe. About an hour later, Darlene came out of her office to talk to Avery. Christy looked up. Darlene was quick to the point. “Avery, I am going to leave work early at 3:30 pm today to have an early dinner with my sisters. With everything that has happened today and last week, I want you to leave with me and come to dinner. I just want to make sure your safe when I am not around. I don’t yet trust the badge system.” Avery looked up to see that in her expression, “No” wasn’t an answer Darlene would accept; however, it would be nice to leave before Christy so he would not have to worry about being caught in the elevator with his diaper on. Plus, lunch with Darlene last week was a wonderful break from fast food. “Sure, just give me five minutes heads up to wrap everything up.” Darlene nodded as she walked over to Christy and began talking to her. Darlene wanted to apologize for her previous behavior, saying she was taken off guard and that it wasn’t her fault she was so upset. Christy's face lit up with a radiant smile as she looked up at Darlene and they began to talk, her hazel eyes sparkling with warmth and excitement as they always seem to do. Avery couldn't help but steal a glance at her, his heart clenching as he watched her chat animatedly with Darlene, possibly about her new workspace. He couldn’t help but wonder if they were talking about him, and the thought made his stomach churn with nervousness. Despite his desire to join in on their conversation, Avery stayed rooted in his seat, feeling left out and unsure of what they were discussing. He couldn't take his eyes off Christy, who seemed genuinely thrilled about something. As Darlene and Christy shook hands, Avery pretended to be focused on his work, trying not to eavesdrop. When Darlene approached him with a smile and an air of excitement, Avery couldn't help but feel a surge of anxiety. "Guess what, Avery," she said, practically bouncing with anticipation. He looked up at her, trying to act surprised by her sudden appearance. "What?" he asked eagerly. "Christy will be joining us for dinner!" Darlene announced gleefully. Avery tried to hide his nerves, but it was clear from the way his hands shook that he was taken aback. "I-I mean, that's great," he stuttered, attempting to sound enthusiastic. "I just wasn't expecting it." Darlene looked confused by his reaction. "I thought you would enjoy her company," she said innocently. Avery nodded quickly, trying to play it cool. "I do, I do. It's just...surprising." Inside, he was brimming with questions about what had just transpired between them and whether or not Christy knew about him wearing diapers. But outwardly, he put on a mask of composure and simply replied, "Christy is a wonderful person." "Perfect, Christy will join us at the restaurant around 4 pm," Darlene said with a hint of hesitation. She couldn't shake off the feeling that she had made a mistake by inviting her. However, with John lurking around and keeping a watchful eye on her was her duty. It seemed necessary to have invited her for safety. With a sigh, Darlene headed back to her office to wrap up the day's work. The anticipation of meeting her sisters and sharing all the events of the day filled her with some comfort. As she finished her work and shut down her computer, she could already picture herself sitting at the restaurant table, laughing and exchanging stories with her sisters, who were her best friends.
  6. Sorry, I have been traveling a lot. In two weeks I have visited four countries for work. I will get the next chapter out this weekend. Thank you for being patient.
  7. I think you are correct on both accounts. 1st, the sentence should have read, "She proceeded to tell Avery about everything she'd learned - the new security measures, the CEO's insistence on keeping John employed, and even the accusations against herself that she'd chosen not to leave out." The reason I wrote it this way but missed the "not" was that it was a little selfish of her when she knew that Avery was under a lot of stress. If she wants to take care of and guard Avery, she needs to learn to withhold things like this (at least in my view). You don't always tell a toddler what is going on in your mind. You tell them what they need to know and need to hear. Second, I will go back and take it out, slamming the door twice. Good catch. I had trouble writing this chapter and the one that is to follow because I tried to write in pieces and not a chapter at a time. This did not go well for me. Lesson learned on my part. My normal is to write a chapter free-handed, go back and read it, and correct it. Then, re-read it, add to it, and repeat. Finally, I want to scold all of you for not telling me about the bold and how hard it was to read. Bad readers. Bad. LOL. I want to make this a good story that everyone can enjoy and a good reading environment. I tried to get ride of the bold but couldn't, but thanks to Baby Sophia, I might have a solution. I will try it next time.
  8. Thanks for the tip. I will try to do this next time. I use good docs, but it seems the problem is the same.
  9. Chapter 24 - Security Badges The sun's rays peeked through the tall skyscrapers, casting a muted glow on the sleek and modern DNA Pharmacia building. The concrete jungle was quiet as it was still in the early morning, with only a few people scattered about. Darlene stood out in her polished business attire, in a light green blouse with a suit and pants, and her hair pulled back in a neat bun. The fluorescent lights of the garage illuminated her path, her footsteps echoing off the walls. The air was heavy with the familiar scent of gasoline and exhaust fumes, a constant reminder of the bustling city outside. As she walked towards the elevator, Darlene couldn't help but feel a sense of anticipation for the day ahead. As she approached the elevator, she noticed something different. A new badge reader was mounted on the wall next to it, along with a sign that read: "All employees must go to level 1 security to get their new badges." Darlene furrowed her brow, puzzled by this sudden change. "New badges, why?" she thought, her mind racing through possible explanations for the unannounced implementation. Upon reaching the security desk on level 1, Darlene's eyes scanned the room, noting the fresh coat of paint on one of the walls with the shiny new equipment mounted on it. The security guard, a stocky man with a stern expression, handed her a clipboard to fill out the necessary information for her new badge. "Excuse me," Darlene said, trying to mask her annoyance with a polite tone, "Why are we getting new badges all of a sudden?" "Over the weekend, we've been working on installing badge readers at all access points to every level," the guard replied, standing tall and stocky, his face set in a stern expression. He wore a standard security uniform, complete with a badge and walkie-talkie clipped to his belt. His arms were crossed over his chest, adding to his imposing presence. He had a buzzed haircut, and his eyes darted around the room as he spoke in a monotone voice. He looked tired, his voice was monotone, and he was clearly tired of answering the same question over and over. "Only specific individuals will be allowed on certain levels without a proper and approved escort. It's the new corporate policy. We need to beef up security to take precautions. But that is all I know. Everyone is asking me why. I have no idea." As the security guard talked, Darlene could tell there was no point in pushing the conversation. Darlene couldn't help but feel skeptical. "But why now? And what kind of precautions?" she wondered. These changes seemed more than coincidental, especially considering the recent events involving John and Avery. "Alright then," Darlene said, handing back the clipboard once she had finished. "Thank you for the information." "Have a good day, ma'am," the guard replied, handing Darlene her new badge with an almost robotic efficiency. As she clipped the badge onto her blouse, her mind continued to churn. She couldn't shake the nagging feeling that something was amiss. The only way to find out, she decided, was to get up to her office and start making some calls. With a determined stride, Darlene headed back to the elevator; her thoughts focused on uncovering the truth behind these sudden changes. Upon reaching the 5th floor, Darlene swiped her new badge at the access point, its electronic beep mocking her. She clenched her teeth and rolled her eyes as she walked through the opening doors, her mind racing with questions. "Morning, Darlene," said an employee as she strode past with purpose. "Morning," she replied tersely, barely acknowledging their presence which was unusual for her as her thoughts remained fixated on the recent events involving John and Avery. Normally, she would have engaged in conversation with her employees to find out how their weekend went but not today. Darlene continued to think that the attack on Avery should have been more than enough to terminate John, but what if it wasn't? What if he was still here, lurking in the background? The moment she entered her office, Darlene shut the door behind her, forgoing her usual routine of brewing coffee and reviewing the week's agenda. Her fingers trembled as she dialed Julian's extension, only to be met with his voicemail. Frustration bubbled within her as she wanted answers now, and she wasn't known to be a patient woman. She sighed in exasperation as she hung up and dialed Bryan instead. "Hello?" Bryan answered distractedly, clearly not expecting her call. "Byran, it's Darlene. We need to talk about these new security measures." Her voice was sharp, demanding answers. "Uh, sure, give me a second," Bryan said, his tone shifting from surprise to concern as he excused himself from another conversation and asked his employee who he was engaged in conversation with to leave and close the door behind him. Darlene impatiently tapped her foot, trying to control her suspicion as she waited for Bryan to return his attention to her call. When he finally did, she launched into her questions, her words tumbling out almost faster than she could think of them. "Is this because of John? Did they not get rid of him after what happened to Avery?" she demanded, her voice shaking with anger. "Darlene, I understand your concerns, but I can't discuss personnel matters over the phone," Bryan responded cautiously. "However, you should know that the new security measures are meant to ensure everyone's safety, including Avery's." "Everyone's safety?" Darlene scoffed. "Or just Avery's? And what about John? Will he still be allowed on our floor?" "Darlene, I really think you should speak with Julian about this. He's better equipped to address your concerns," Bryan said, trying to defuse the situation. "And, yes, John is still here working. You know I would have let him go if I could have" Bryan said in a nervous tone. He could not only hear but feel Darlene's anger over the phone. Darlene couldn’t believe it. Despite everything John had done, he was still working for the company. The man had practically assaulted Avery and humiliated him completely, but he was still employed. Darlene wondered how strong John’s connections were that he could get away with so much. Her thoughts turned to Avery, and she felt a pang of worry. She felt the need to protect the delicate man. She dreaded the poor guy finding out that John was still lurking in the building. "Fine!" she snapped, hanging up before he could say anything else. Her mind raced as she tried to process the conversation, her heart pounding in her chest. If they didn't get rid of John, what lengths would they go to in order to protect Avery? And more importantly, why were they still entertaining the idea of keeping John employed here? As she paced her office, her thoughts whirled like a tornado, tearing through every possibility and leaving her with nothing but uncertainty and anxiety. Darlene glanced at the clock on her wall. Avery wouldn’t be in for another thirty minutes, at least. She needed to get to Julian first. She chewed on her thumbnail, her thoughts racing faster than her heartbeat. The more she thought about it, the angrier she became. How could they prioritize John's value to the company over the safety and well-being of their employees? Especially Avery, who had already suffered so much from John. She began to formulate a plan in her head, her determination hardening her resolve. She would confront Julian, demand answers, and make sure Avery was protected – no matter what it took. Her hands trembled with barely contained fury as she dialed Julian's number for what felt like the hundredth time. Finally, Julian answered the phone calmly. "Good morning, Darlene" were the only words able to escape him before Darlene butted in the conversation. Darlene's voice was like ice on the other end of the line, cold and unyielding. "I am coming to see you about all this new security shit and not getting rid of John," she said curtly before hanging up. With a huff, she grabbed her new security badge and stormed out of her office, her heels clicking against the linoleum in a rapid staccato. Each step fueled her anger – it was an injustice that she couldn't ignore, not when Avery's safety was on the line. The employees who saw her could feel the anger as they all stood back or stayed seated at their desks and watched her head for the elevator. The fluorescent lights overhead hummed quietly, the only sound in the otherwise empty hallway. As she reached the elevator, Darlene swiped her badge and stabbed at the button. The doors opened with a soft ding. She stepped inside her reflection in the polished metal doors distorted by the dim light. As the elevator descended, Darlene's thoughts raced, each one more agitated than the last. What could Julian possibly say that would justify keeping John employed after what he'd done? And why hadn't Bryan fought harder for what was right? When the elevator finally came to a stop on the second floor, Darlene took a steadying breath, trying in vain to calm herself. She stepped out into the hallway, relieved to find she had access to this level. If they had denied her entry, she would have raised hell. Her eyes scanned the space, searching for any sign of Julian's presence. "Time to get answers," she muttered under her breath, determination settling over her like armor. Darlene's pulse throbbed in her temples as she stormed out of the elevator and into Julian’s office, slamming the door behind her with a force that made the framed diplomas on his wall quiver. Her face was flushed, eyes blazing with righteous fury. "Tell me, why are you keeping John? He attacked Avery!” She barely gave Julian time to look up from the papers on his desk, his expression a mixture of surprise and unease. Julian's hand raised, and the gesture was sharp, a forceful push towards the door. As Darlene slammed it shut, the sound reverberated through the office like a booming thunder, causing the diplomas on the wall to shake and rattle. The sound of anger could be heard in every step Darlene took towards Julian's desk, her heels clicking against the polished floor. "Darlene," he began cautiously, "I know that, but that isn’t the whole story the CEO got.” Darlene clenched her fists, her nails digging into her palms. “The CEO got that you attacked John first, from John himself, and sprayed him with mace.” “That is bullshit!” Darlene screamed, her voice cracking with emotion. Julian sighed, rubbing the bridge of his nose as if warding off an impending headache. "I agree, but he spun it that you attacked him. I know he was screaming at the top of his lungs at Avery and throwing things at him, yes, but did he ever lay a hand on Avery?" Julian paused, studying Darlene's expression. "No, but he was going to. He was inches away from Avery’s face! And he wouldn’t back away,” Darlene shot back, her heart pounding in her chest. Julian attempted to remain calm and poised, though she could see the strain in his eyes. "Would you rather I stand idly by and let him get hurt? Didn't you say I was to protect the poor boy when you brought him to me?" “I understand, but according to John, you initiated physical contact with him first.” Julian's words stung like salt in a wound, and Darlene nearly choked on her own disbelief. “In interviewing your employees, no one saw any actual physical contact between Avery and John." “He was verbally abusing him!” Darlene yelled, feeling her eyes well up with frustrated tears. “He pissed himself again out of fear! Don’t you have any concern for the poor boy? Besides, John wasn’t allowed on the 5th floor, and he broke the corporate restraint order." "Which is why we are making sure that will never happen again with the new security system," Julian countered, his tone still infuriatingly calm. “You're lucky we're not writing you up for physical and violent contact. The CEO agreed just to give you a verbal warning.” "A verbal warning? What the fuck! Did John get a verbal warning also? This is so unfair! You know John's character, and you know my character!" Darlene screamed as she couldn't believe how this was now about her behavior and not John's. The room seemed to shrink around Darlene as she struggled to control her mounting fury. She couldn't believe they were turning this on her – all she had wanted was to protect Avery. He was the real victim in all this. A delicate man who needed to be protected from men like John. "Look," Julian began, his voice wavering, "I understand your frustrations, but there's more to this than you know. There's a process we have to go through." "Process?" Darlene scoffed, her gaze piercing through him like shards of glass. "What about Avery's safety? What about the toxic environment this company is nurturing? Are we just supposed to let that slide because John is 'valuable'?" "Darlene, please," Julian pleaded, trying to keep his composure. "I understand how you feel, but we have to trust in the system. We're implementing tighter security measures to ensure everyone's safety." "Right," she thought bitterly, "because a badge system will magically make John a better person." "Julian, I know you're just doing your job, but this is unacceptable and total bullshit. Something has to change, or someone else is going to get hurt." Darlene said. She wasn’t sure if she meant that John was going to hurt Avery or that she was going to hurt John. Maybe both. With that, Darlene spun on her heel and stormed out of the office, leaving Julian to contemplate the weight of her words as he heard the door slamming shut once again behind her like a gunshot. Little did she know, Julian didn’t even get to tell her about the other change they were going to make: putting Christy with Avery upstairs in her department. As she stalked back towards the elevator, her mind raced with thoughts of injustice and betrayal. What kind of world was this, where the victim was treated like the perpetrator? And how could she continue to work under such conditions? For a minute, she considered going right back to Julian and quitting. She stopped herself, though. She couldn’t do something like that, not just because she wanted to keep her job but because she needed to protect Avery. If no one else was going to, then she needed to be there. She had known Avery needed protection from the moment she had seen him, but after sharing that intimate evening, it was no longer a case of needing to protect a weak man. Now she needed and wanted to keep him safe. He had become her responsibility. Perhaps it was stupid, perhaps it didn’t make sense, but her maternal instincts and passions flared whenever she thought of Avery. With a heavy heart, Darlene decided that she would do anything necessary to ensure Avery's safety, even if it meant fighting against the very company she had dedicated her career to. Avery walked into the office, his hair still a mess and wearing baggy brown pants and a light red docker shirt underneath; he wore the white onesie snapped under his crotch, holding one of his disposable diapers in place. He felt a little more confident that no one would discover his diaper with the new clothing helping to hide it. He couldn’t deny that he felt a little embarrassed, though. Onesies were supposed to help toddlers, not fully grown men. The atmosphere on the fifth floor felt unusually tense and quiet. He could feel the weight of unspoken concerns hanging in the air like a heavy fog. As he set down his backpack at his desk, he glanced around, noticing Darlene's office door wide open – an odd sight, considering her habit of spending the first hour of the day secluded there. "Hey, Avery," whispered one of his coworkers, Sarah, from her cubicle, giving him a sympathetic smile. "How are you holding up?" "Uh, I'm okay, I guess," Avery replied with a weak smile, trying to sound more confident than he felt. He couldn't shake the feeling that the entire office was scrutinizing him after Friday's incident. He headed to Darlene's office, hoping to find some comfort in their usual morning routine. The absence of her familiar presence left him feeling strangely adrift. He got a K-cup and started the Keurig to brew a cup of coffee. When he went to open the small fridge to get his creamer, he paused and frowned. It had his name on it. "Avery's creamer." He noticed the date on it showing it had been made that very weekend. He looked around to make sure no one else was around as he opened the top and took a sip. It was sweet, and just as he suspected, he recognized the taste. It was Darlene's breast milk. He blushed almost immediately. All this time, he has been using her creamer, he was using her breast milk. Part of him was very embarrassed, and the other part of him was happy. He had something that would remind him of the night. He poured a little more than normal into his coffee when the Keurig finished brewing. He returned to his desk, taking a sip of the coffee, his fingers nervously tapping against the ceramic mug. He had been a little tempted to forego the coffee altogether and simply take Darlene's milk on its own. Booting up his computer, Avery found an email waiting for him regarding a new corporate policy change. His heart sank as he read the details; it clearly had to do with John and the confrontation between them. A knot formed in his stomach, guilt gnawing at him as he realized the entire fifth floor would be affected by this change – all because of him. "Damn it, John," Avery muttered under his breath, clenching his fists tightly. Why did things have to escalate like this? And what would happen next? He tried to refocus on his work, pulling up the calculations he needed to review, but his thoughts kept drifting back to the incident and its repercussions. He knew he couldn't let John's actions control his life or his work, but fear still clawed at the edges of his mind. "Focus, Avery," he told himself, attempting to shake off his anxiety and concentrate on the numbers in front of him. "You can't let this affect you." A sudden gust of wind blew through the office as Darlene stormed past Avery, her eyes blazing with fury. She appeared to be so tunnel-visioned that she hadn’t seen that Avery was at his desk. The door to her office slammed shut with a resounding thud, causing a few employees to jump in their seats. Muffled shouts and angry words could be heard from behind the closed door. Avery sat at his desk, gripping his pen tightly and trying to make sense of Darlene's outburst. She rarely lost her composure like this; it was unnerving to witness. He stared at the calculations on his screen, but the numbers blurred together as he tried to understand what had upset her so much. Was it his fault? Was she mad at him, or "Did someone say something to her?" Avery wondered aloud, glancing around the office. A couple of his coworkers shook their heads, looking just as bewildered as he felt. "It has to be something to do with me and John and the new security measures," he mused, although he couldn't think of any specific reason that would cause such a reaction besides the new readers. "Hey," one of his coworkers whispered, leaning over the cubicle wall. "You don't think she found out about John, do you?" "Found out... what?" Avery asked, his heart skipping a beat. "Never mind," the coworker muttered, retreating back to their own desk. Avery bit his lip as he tried to refocus on the task at hand - the cell wall calculations. He knew he couldn't afford to let his thoughts drift to John or Darlene right now. With a deep breath, he attempted to focus on the numbers and equations before him, willing himself to concentrate. "Come on, Avery. You've got this," he whispered, forcing himself to push the other distractions aside. Despite his best efforts, however, the tension in the room seemed to weigh heavily on him, and he found himself constantly glancing over at Darlene's door, waiting for any sign of her emerging. He couldn't help but worry about what was going on behind that door and how it might affect their working relationship - and their friendship. "Darlene, whatever it is, I hope you're okay," Avery thought, his concern for her overshadowing the fear that had gripped him since John's attack. The clock seemed to tick louder than usual as Avery sat at his desk, the tension in the air palpable. He felt a bead of sweat trickle down his neck and resisted the urge to fidget again. The soft hum of computers filled the room, punctuated by occasional hushed whispers among his coworkers. It was very hard to concentrate with everything going on. Every voice and sound he heard was enough to distract him. Finally, after what felt like an eternity, Darlene's office door swung open with a soft creak. Her eyes were red-rimmed, but her expression was resolute as she surveyed the room before settling on Avery. "Can I see you for a minute?" she asked bluntly, her voice strained. "Of course," Avery replied, his heart racing as he followed her back into her office, the door clicking shut behind them. "Listen, I just had a long conversation with Julian and Bryan about this whole situation," she began, her hands wringing together nervously. She proceeded to tell Avery about everything she'd learned - the new security measures, the CEO's insistence on keeping John employed, and even the accusations against herself that she'd chosen to leave out. Avery's shock was evident on his face, his brows furrowed in confusion and concern. "Darlene, I can't believe they're putting you through all of this. It wasn't your fault," he insisted, his voice shaking slightly. "It's my fault John and I don't get along." As Darlene calmed down, she sank into her desk chair with a heavy sigh. "I'm sorry, Avery. I'm so sorry John is still here. If there were anything I could have done, he would be gone," she said, her voice cracking under the weight of her emotions. Tears welled in her eyes, though she fought to hold them back. "Darlene," Avery said softly, reaching out to place a comforting hand on her shoulder. "You've done more than enough for me. You've stood by my side and fought for me when no one else would. I'm grateful, more than you know." He paused, his own emotions threatening to spill over as he looked into her tear-filled eyes. "We'll get through this together. I am sorry I caused so much trouble for you," he promised, squeezing her shoulder gently. Darlene's hand reached up to Avery's hand as she looked up at him. "Avery, this isn't your fault at all, don't blame yourself. This goes far beyond you. I feel so bad for you.” She held back her tears, and the two shared a moment of understanding that spoke louder than words ever could. Avery forced a small, reassuring smile onto his face, trying to calm Darlene down. "Thank you, but I still can't help but feel guilty," he said, not knowing the words to say to help the situation. "The new security badges will keep John away." But deep inside, a cold knot of fear persisted; John was unpredictable and dangerous, and Avery couldn't shake that off. "Thanks for everything, Darlene," he added again, hoping to alleviate some of her guilt. It didn't seem to help much, but at least she offered a wan smile in return. As Avery turned to leave, Darlene's voice stopped him. "Wait, Avery," she said, her tone shifting abruptly. "I think I need to check your diaper to make sure it's on correctly." He blushed furiously at the unexpected mention of his diaper, stammering, "I-I think I got it on right..." Darlene shook her head firmly. "No, we can't trust that." With practiced efficiency, she retrieved the supplies from the other night - baby wipes and lotion - and placed them on her desk. "I'm not in the mood to argue about this, Avery. Please lie down." Darlene said as she laid down a large beach towel she brought from home. Feeling his cheeks heat up further, Avery reluctantly complied, lying down on the towel she had spread out on the floor. The cool office air made him shiver as she gently removed his pants, revealing the diaper beneath. His heart raced, both from embarrassment and vulnerability, but he knew that Darlene only wanted to help him. Darlene's delicate fingers carefully inspected the diaper, her eyes focused and determined. Avery tried to distract himself by staring at the ceiling, but he couldn't escape the reality of the situation. The crinkling sound of the diaper material filled the room as Darlene expertly adjusted the fit, her movements precise and efficient. Despite the awkwardness of the situation, it was clear that Darlene was doing her best to be gentle and considerate. "It looks like you didn't put it on correctly, but don't worry, I'll fix it and apply some lotion to prevent any rash," she said in a soft, soothing voice, like a mother caring for her child. With deft fingers, she undid the diaper tapes and gently lifted it off of Avery's skin. He felt exposed and vulnerable lying there on the floor, but he trusted Darlene to take care of him. She applied cool lotion to his skin with gentle, circular motions, bringing both relief and humiliation. After a few minutes, Darlene announced that she was finished. Her voice carried a hint of relief as she snapped the onesie in place, slid his pants back on, and helped Avery sit up. They shared a brief moment of eye contact - a silent acknowledgment of the trust they had just shared. Darlene gathered her supplies and put them away with practiced efficiency. "I think you're good to go back to work now," she said with a smile, her voice filled with reassurance. And for a moment, Avery allowed himself to forget about John and everything else that weighed on his mind. "Thank you," Avery murmured, his gratitude genuine despite the lingering embarrassment. In this strange, difficult situation, he knew he could rely on Darlene to stand by him - and in turn, he would do everything in his power to support her as well. He just had nothing to really offer her in terms of support. As Avery made his way through the bustling office, he couldn't help but think about the creamer he had used in his coffee that morning. The rich, sweet, creamy flavor still lingered in his taste buds. He decided to save his question about it for later and focused on making his way to his cubicle. The door to the office creaked open. He walked out to his own small office space and settled down at his desk. He had his notes in hand as he began to try to get back focused on solving the cell wall problem.
  10. Note about the Author: I am not a writer by trade. I barely passed high school and college English classes. Though I have always enjoyed writing, my spelling and grammar are terrible. I have started many stories, mostly fantasy, but also some ABDL related and even a couple of children's books. Unfortunately, I have never been able to finish them because I get stuck and don't have an audience so I gave up opn them. I was always afraid to share my work., even though my goal has always been to write a complete book. Fortunately, Grammarly has helped me overcome my writing issues. In high school and college, I was told that my content and creativity were good, but my grammar was always subpar or down right awful. I often joke that English is my second language and that I don't have a primary language. I am Dyslexic, but back in the 80's, dyslexia was not well understood, and there were no tools to help those with the condition. My trade is engineering and project management, so I'm more adept at math than writing. Nevertheless, I've felt blessed to receive compliments on my writing here. I never imagined that people would enjoy my work so much. Hopefully, I will write more after completing this book. On another note, I had a severe bout of RSV, which has left me feeling like a baby, but not in a good way. I can could stay awake for moe than two hours with out having to go back to sleep. Even after recovering from the illness, I still felt exhausted and unable to move around much. It has taken me a while to regain my stamina, but I'm finally starting to feel better. There are writers here whose work I admire, and it's incredibly gratifying to receive positive feedback from them. I can't express how great it feels. So a big shout out to all of you! I some times think I shouldn't have done that as well but wanted Darlene to have a character flaw where she has to be in control all the time and she does stupid things to be in control. Your about to see that character flaw come out again. Just like Avery's character flaw is his in ability to trust anyone or himself and express himself. I have the entire book outlined. There is one part I wonder what everyone will think as the story progress so I will be interested in everyone's view point then.
  11. Chapter 23 - Morning After The morning sun filtered through the blinds, casting a warm golden glow over the room. Darlene woke up early that day, feeling tired because she had not slept well, staying up and thinking about what had happened and feeling weighed down by the events of the previous night. She stretched her limbs and rubbed the sleep from her eyes, gathering herself before rising from the bed. Darlene got up to put on a pair of black yoga pants, a pink t-shirt, and fuzzy pink socks. She tied her hair into a messy pony and slipped on a pair of white tennis shoes before heading down the stairs, her outfit giving off a cool and casual vibe. The yoga pants hugged her curves, and the loose shirt hung off her shoulder. She felt comfortable and ready for the day ahead. As she stepped into the living room, her gaze fell upon Avery, who was still fast asleep on the couch. He looked peaceful, wrapped snugly in the blanket she had put him in before heading upstairs last night. His chest rose and fell gently to the rhythm of his breaths. Darlene couldn't help but smile as she approached him. As Darlene reached her hand into the blanket, she could feel the softness of the fabric against her fingertips. As she moved her hand, finding the waistband of his diaper, she could sense the warmth he radiated from under the blanket; then, her hand came into contact with the wet diaper, damping her fingers and slightly cold. She checked to ensure there were no leaks, running her fingers along the diaper's edges and feeling its weight. His clothes and blanket were still dry. Darlene smiled down at him, knowing that he must have felt vulnerable in that state. "Morning, sleepyhead," Darlene whispered, careful not to wake him just yet. She bent down to pull the blanket higher over Avery's body, ensuring that he would stay warm and comfortable until he decided to rise. With a sigh, Darlene turned towards the kitchen. As she began preparing breakfast. "Alright, let's make breakfast," she whispered to herself, busying her hands with the preparation of breakfast. Her mind wandered back to the intimate moment they had shared the night before when Avery lay on her lap and breastfed. It was a tender experience, one that she knew could be difficult for both of them to process. The sizzle of bacon and eggs filled the air, accompanied by the aroma of fresh coffee brewing. Darlene found solace in these familiar tasks, pushing her apprehensions aside for the moment. Avery stirred from his slumber, the tantalizing scent of food beckoning him awake. He stretched, feeling more well-rested than he had in a long time. But as he moved, he became painfully aware of the wet diaper pressing against him. Embarrassment flushed his cheeks as he recalled the previous night – the warmth of Darlene's embrace, the soothing sensation of breastfeeding, and now this... "Morning, Darlene," he called out softly, not wanting to draw attention to his current state. It was hard to believe he had allowed himself to get into such a state in front of another person. "Good morning, Avery," Darlene replied, trying to keep her voice steady. She busied herself with flipping the eggs, hoping he wouldn't sense her unease. "Breakfast will be ready soon." "Thanks," Avery mumbled, scrambling off the couch and making a beeline for the bathroom. In the privacy of the small room, he peeled off his onesie and wet diaper, wincing at the cold air that hit his skin. He quickly dressed in a Baby Yoda t-shirt and sweatpants, stuffing the onesie Darlene had bought for him into his backpack. She was right about needing it for work – it would serve as a discreet undershirt to hide his diapers. As Avery emerged from the bathroom, he found Darlene placing plates of scrambled eggs and toast on the kitchen table. "Breakfast is ready," she announced with a smile, trying to keep the atmosphere light and casual. They hadn’t had sex or even done anything sexual, and yet it felt like waking up the morning after such an encounter. "Smells great," he said, taking a seat at the table. The two of them ate in companionable silence, both lost in their own thoughts about the previous night but hesitant to broach the subject. Despite their unspoken tension, they couldn't deny that something had shifted. Avery looked out the kitchen window; the morning sun streamed in, casting a warm glow on Darlene's face as she sipped her coffee. She glanced over at Avery, who was quietly munching on his bacon, seemingly lost in thought. She took a deep breath and decided to break the silence. "Did you sleep well?" she asked, her voice gentle and caring. "Uh, yeah," Avery replied, shifting in his chair. "Thanks for letting me crash here." "Of course," Darlene said, a soft smile playing on her lips. "It was nice having some company." Avery nodded, appreciating her attempt at keeping the conversation light. He cleared his throat, searching for something else to talk about. "So… um, what are your plans for the weekend?" "Nothing too exciting," Darlene admitted with a shrug. "Just catching up on work and maybe going for a run. How about you?" "Same, not much. Maybe grocery shopping and laundry for the week," he said. "and video games… the usual." Avery said he felt a little like a kid when he said he would play video games, even though he knew many adults did it. They shared a brief, knowing look – both of them tiptoeing around the memory of last night, neither wanting to be the first to bring it up. Darlene swallowed the lump in her throat, focusing on her breakfast as she pondered the unspoken words between them. Avery was glad to have something besides cereal, yogurt, or oatmeal for breakfast. The crispy saltiness of the bacon paired perfectly with the fluffy, buttery eggs and the robust flavor of the coffee. The combination of flavors danced on Avery's tongue, satisfying his hunger and leaving him feeling content. Once they finished eating, Darlene insisted on driving Avery back to his apartment. As they drove back, Avery watched out the passenger side of the window. "Hey, Darlene?" Avery began, fiddling with the strap of his backpack as they pulled away from her house. “Thank you for last night. The movie was great, and I had a really nice time." "Me too," Darlene replied softly, her eyes on the road ahead. "I'm glad we got to spend some time together, and thank you so much for helping me with the furniture and getting into the garage.." As they continued their drive, both Avery and Darlene found solace in the knowledge that, despite the unspoken complexities of their relationship, they both enjoyed the evening. They felt like a pair of young lovers who had both enjoyed an experience together but lacked the emotional maturity to talk about it. As they pulled up outside the building, Avery turned to her, sincerity shining in his eyes. "Again, thank you, Darlene," he said softly. "For everything. Last night was… really nice." Darlene opened her mouth as if she was about to respond. Avery, suddenly anxious she was going to say she regretted the feeding, decided to interrupt and clarify his meaning. The truth was he had thought the breastfeeding had been one of the most intimate moments of his life. "Watching the movie, I mean," he added quickly, feeling his cheeks heat up. He repeated like a broken record, “It… It was a really good movie.” Darlene smiled and reached out to give his hand a quick squeeze. "You're welcome, Avery. Have a good weekend, okay? I'll see you on Monday." "See you then," he agreed, stepping out of the car and watching as she drove away. As he stood next to his apartment door outside, Avery couldn't help but feel a strange mixture of relief and longing – grateful for the normalcy of his weekend routine, yet yearning for the tender comfort that only Darlene seemed to provide. Avery's fingers fumbled with the apartment keys, his heart still pounding from the unspoken words that lingered between him and Darlene. Avery unlocked the apartment door, and as he stepped inside his apartment, the familiar scent of stale air greeted him, a stark contrast to the warm and inviting atmosphere of Darlene's home. He closed the door behind him, leaning against it as he allowed himself a moment to process everything that had happened. "Okay," he muttered under his breath, attempting to regain his composure. "Just... think." Images from the previous night swirled through his mind – the softness of the blanket, the comforting weight of Darlene's arm around him, and the sensation of being nestled against her. It was a memory both precious and terrifying, leaving him torn between wanting to cherish it and needing to push it away. "Alright," he sighed, tearing himself away from the door and making his way to the living room. "Time for a distraction." He grabbed the PS4 controller, feeling its familiar weight in his hands as he powered up the console. The gentle hum of the machine and the flickering light of the screen provided a sense of normalcy, a tether to reality that Avery desperately needed. "Let's see what we've got," he mumbled, scrolling through his game library, searching for something – anything – that could occupy his mind and keep the memories at bay. His eyes settled on an action-packed game, one that required quick reflexes and little thought beyond the immediate task at hand. "Perfect." As Avery dove into the virtual world of gunfire and explosions, he felt a temporary reprieve from the storm of emotions raging within him. The chaos on-screen consumed his focus, his fingers expertly navigating the controller as he vanquished enemy after enemy. "Take that!" he exclaimed triumphantly, momentarily forgetting his inner turmoil. But as the adrenaline faded and the level ended, the memories of last night crept back in, unbidden. "Dammit," he muttered, pausing the game and rubbing his eyes. He felt the pressure of his bladder as he took off, running to the bathroom, almost peeing in his sweatpants. "What is wrong with me?" When he got back to the living room, the video game was still paused. He looked at it and said, "This isn't working." He glanced around the room, searching for another distraction, but nothing seemed capable of silencing the thoughts that haunted him. Heaving a deep sigh, Avery surrendered to the realization that there would be no escape from the memories – or the feelings they evoked. "Okay," he whispered, steeling himself for the internal battle that lay ahead. "Let's face this head-on." As he set the controller aside, Avery braced himself for the introspection that awaited him, knowing that the only way to confront his emotions truly was to allow himself to feel them, no matter how terrifying they may be. Avery realized his stomach was growling as it was evening, and he had missed lunch, turning yesterday's events over and over in his head. Avery went to the refrigerator and prepared himself some dinner alone. He placed them on his small kitchen table and stared at the leftovers on his plate, barely registering the taste of cold lasagna and stale garlic bread as he chewed mechanically. The fizz of his Sprite did little to distract him from the whirlwind of thoughts that refused to quieten. He sighed, pushing the plate away, his appetite gone. He couldn’t help thinking he would’ve much preferred to be eating at Darlene’s table again. "Maybe walking outside would help," he thought, slipping on his shoes and grabbing a jacket. But even the crisp evening air, laden with the scent of autumn leaves, couldn't chase away the memories of last night. He found himself wandering aimlessly. He walked by a park bench overlooking a small set of hills. As if drawn by an unseen force, Avery sat down, the cold metal seeping through his jacket. The sky was painted in shades of orange, pink, and purple as the sun dipped towards the horizon. The trees were silhouetted against the colorful sky, their leaves rustling in the gentle evening breeze. Shadows were starting to lengthen across the ground, casting a blanket of darkness over everything. Slowly but surely, the sun disappeared from view, leaving a peaceful and tranquil atmosphere behind. "Darlene…" he whispered, her name escaping his lips like a prayer. His heart ached with longing, and he couldn't help but admit how much he'd enjoyed their time together the previous night – even without the breastfeeding. Tears slid down Avery's face in the cool night. He wiped the tear with the sleeve of his jacket. The gentle feeling of being beside Darlene's breast, nestled in her arms, was like a balm for his soul. He'd never felt so safe and secure in his entire life, as though wrapped in a cocoon of love and warmth. "Why can't I stop thinking about this?" he wondered, rubbing his temples in frustration. "Hey, Avery! What are you doing here, man?" a voice called out, shattering his reverie as he almost jumped out of the park bench. "Uh, hey, Nick." Avery forced a smile at one of his apartment neighbors who lived near him, trying to hide the turmoil within. "Just needed some fresh air. How about you?" "Same, same," Nick responded, taking a seat next to Avery. "You seem a bit off, though. Everything okay?" "Sort of," Avery hesitated, unsure of how much to divulge. "It's just… I'm struggling with some stuff right now. It's hard to explain." "Hey, man," Nick said, clapping a hand on Avery's shoulder, "we all go through things. Just remember you've got friends here for you, okay? And if you ever need a friend to play with online, just look up my gamer ID." "Thanks, Nick." Avery forced another smile, touched by his neighbor's concern but knowing that this was something he needed to face alone. He couldn't shake the feeling that his mind was playing tricks on him, making him crave the impossible. As they sat in silence, the sky above painted with hues of pink and orange as the sun dipped below the horizon, the last of the sun rays reaching out past the trees disappearing, Avery couldn't help but wonder if he would ever find solace in this with or if he was doomed to be haunted by the tender moments he'd shared with Darlene – moments that seemed both achingly real and frustratingly out of reach. Avery felt it would have been better never to have known a feeling like this. Avery headed back to his apartment and put his jacket up in the closet. The soft glow of the moonlight streamed through the bedroom window, casting a serene light on the rumpled sheets. Avery lay in bed, his eyes wide open as he stared at the ceiling. The darkness pressed down on him, suffocating, as memories of being held in Darlene's arms consumed his thoughts. "Stop it," he whispered to himself, trying to convince his mind to let go of the images that haunted him. He twisted and turned, attempting to find a comfortable position that might lull him to sleep, but to no avail. "Fine," he muttered, throwing off the covers and rising from the bed. Desperation clawed at his chest as he stumbled into the darkened living room, determined to recreate the scenario from last night. He placed a pillow on the couch and then one on the cushion, hoping it would conjure up some semblance of the comfort he'd felt nestled against Darlene. "Please work," he murmured, laying down and pressing his face against the pillow. But the soft cotton was a cold, lifeless imitation of the warmth he craved, and a wave of bitter disappointment washed over him. "Damn it!" he cursed softly, tears pricking at the corners of his eyes. Meanwhile, when Darlene returned home, her eyes widened in shock at the sight of the Goodwill truck parked outside her house. Her heart clenched at the realization that they were here to collect the belongings of her baby. With a heavy heart, she watched as the workers loaded the once cherished items onto the vehicle - the crib with its soft sheets and mobile, the countless stuffed animals that had been gifts from friends and family, and the tiny outfits that now held only bittersweet memories. Each item felt like a piece of her heart being taken away, a reminder of what could have been. The sound of boxes being loaded echoed through her quiet house, adding to the emptiness she felt inside. Tears streamed down her cheeks as she watched. Darlene wiped her tears away as they finished. "Thank you for coming," she said to the Goodwill workers with a brave smile, blinking back tears. Once they had driven off, she closed the garage door and stepped back into her empty, quiet house. "Get it together, Darlene," she told herself, fighting the urge to crumble into sobs. In an effort to take her mind off the emotional maelstrom that threatened to overwhelm her, she changed into workout clothes and began a series of lunges and squats, accompanied by blaring rock music. "Come on, Darlene, focus," she chided herself between breaths. After completing her workout, she moved on to tackle a few loose ends at work, her fingers flying across the keyboard as if possessed. "Distraction is key," she thought, forcing herself to concentrate on the task at hand, all the while knowing that the silence in her heart would be waiting for her once the music stopped. The weekend lingered like a thick fog, the hours stretching into eternity as both Avery and Darlene tried to navigate their newfound loneliness. The shadows in their respective homes seemed more pronounced, the silence deafening as they each attempted to fill the void with mundane distractions. Monday morning loomed on the horizon, casting an air of uncertainty and unease over their upcoming office encounter. Would they ever be able to look at one another without recalling their shared intimacy? Or would it serve as a bridge, connecting them in ways neither had anticipated? Neither of them really knew if they would’ve preferred to bring up what was weighing on their minds or ignore it for fear of what the other might say. That Sunday night, as the last vestiges of the weekend slipped through his fingers like sand, Avery found himself compelled to do something he never thought he would: attempt to recreate the breastfeeding experience again from Darlene. He knew it was a futile endeavor – nothing could compare to the warmth and comfort her body had provided him – but some desperate part of him hoped that by mimicking the scenario, he might recapture even the smallest fragment of those tender moments. Determined to relive the feeling of security he had once felt in Darlene's arms, Avery grabbed a diaper. This was the first time he was going to put on a diaper for reasons other than work. The first time he was going to wear one when he didn’t feel like he had to. Avery carefully unfolded a fresh diaper, smoothing out the soft material before gently sliding it between his legs. He pulled it up and adjusted the sides, making sure it fit snugly against his body. As he fastened the tapes, a sense of vulnerability and embarrassment washed over him, but he pushed past it in his determination to recreate the feeling of being cared for and nurtured by Darlene. He couldn't help wondering if being swaddled would somehow transport him back to that serene cocoon of warmth and love. Blushing with both embarrassment and determination, Avery meticulously arranged the pillows on the couch just as he had done the previous night. He pressed his face against the soft fabric and took a deep breath, trying to recreate the comfort he had longed for. "Okay," he muttered under his breath, trying to block out the nagging voice in his head that told him this was ridiculous. "Just... just close your eyes and focus." He envisioned Darlene's gentle touch, the soothing rhythm of her heartbeat, the scent of her skin as he lay there, cradled in her arms. But no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't conjure the magic of that night; it remained an elusive memory, taunting him from just beyond his reach. "Damn it," Avery whispered, frustration seeping into his bones as he abandoned the futile endeavor. He couldn't shake the feeling that something important had been awakened within him – a yearning for connection, for closeness that went beyond the physical. And as much as he tried to suppress it, he knew it wouldn't be silenced easily. "Tomorrow," he thought with a mixture of dread and anticipation. "Tomorrow, I'll see her again."
  12. Sorry it has taken so long. I am still on at my best. My lungs still burn and I still feel exhausted most of the time. I hope you enjoy the next installment. Chapter 22 - Forgotten Item Darlene descended the stairs in a midnight blue satin pajama set, expertly fitted to her body. The top was low cut, revealing her lightly colored maternity bra beneath. The shorts were cinched at the waist, adding extra coverage, and trimmed with delicate lace. Avery looked up as he had just finished pouring the wine and was taken aback by her outfit but managed not to show it. She looked like a completely different person in her pajama set clothing. She didn’t have that commanding managerial look and effect now. She was elegant and homely. A side of Darlene he never really thought he would see before learning about what happened to her and her baby. Avery was still in shock at the revelations he had heard upstairs. When you only saw a person at work, it was easy to forget they were a person outside of their job as well. A person with frailties and difficulties that they had to navigate. Darlene had opened up to him and shown a side that had been so well hidden Avery wondered if anyone else had ever seen it. He asked why Darlene had confided in him, seemingly taking him under her wing when he just kept causing problems for her. As Avery stood there, He realized he was in stark contrast to Darlene, wearing only gray sweatpants and an adult onesie. Beneath it, he had a thick, crinkly disposable diaper. The bulk of the diaper that was visible to anyone who would look. All of which Darlene had purchased for him. Despite his discomfort in being so exposed to the clothing, something about Darlene made him feel oddly comfortable. He couldn’t really grasp it. She could be very controlling, she could be understanding, and today, she looked vulnerable. He thought about it for a second as she approached him. She wasn’t perfect. She had a story of her own, being in jail, losing a child, and never being able to have one. Avery supposed everyone had a story like it, tragedies most of the world would never hear about but that remained deeply personal. "Ah, thank you for pouring us some more wine, sweetie," she said. Avery felt his cheeks redden a little at the word "sweetie," he didn't say anything about it, but it made him a little uncomfortable. He knew he was feeling a little buzzed himself, and he hadn't drank as much as her, so he figured it was the wine talking. As Darlene passed Avery by the sofa, she took a drink from her glass of wine, sat down on the sofa, and grabbed the remote to turn on the TV while Avery sat down on the other side of the sofa. He nervously adjusted himself, feeling the thick diaper hugging him underneath, far away from Darlene. He heard her clear her throat as she leaned in closer and said with determination. "A toast to ending this night better." "Agreed," Avery replied breathlessly as he grabbed his glass from the coffee table and raised it to hers. Their glasses clinked together, and then they each took a sip of wine. Darlene smiled calmly and looked at Avery on the other side of the sofa. "Come on, you can get much closer; don't be so scared to sit next to me. I promise not to bite… tonight." She giggled and winked at him as she patted the empty space beside her. Avery was stunned and a little overwhelmed by her request. He felt his heart race as he slowly scooted even closer to her. His breathing grew shallow as Darlene took her glass of wine and placed it aside before leaning over, wrapping her arm around him, and pulling him flush against her shoulder, much closer than Avery was going to go. He felt an unfamiliar warmth rise inside him as his diaper crinkled when Darlene pulled him closer, enveloping him in a sensation he had never experienced before. He wasn't sure what to make of these feelings he was having; it was probably the wine talking, he thought. Besides, who would want to be around someone wearing a diaper? Still, he couldn't deny the comfort that came from being so close to Darlene and what it felt like to have someone pull him close to someone else — years of rejection told him not ever to expect this from anyone. "What kind of movie would you like to watch?" Darlene asked with the remote in her other hand. Avery’s thoughts began to clear as he listened to her voice. Darelene continued by saying. "Drama, Fantasy, Sci-fi, Comedy - anything goes." “I am good with anything, but I mostly like Sci-fi, Fantasy, and Comedy.” Avery’s voice crackled a little as he sat side to side-with Darlene. Darlene flipped through the streaming options until she stumbled across a sci-fi and comedy flick. "How about Free Guy?" she suggested before grabbing both their glasses and handing one to Avery. They both take a sip. "That looks good," Avery said as he looked up at her taking another sip. He could smell the lotion she must have put on earlier or just recently; he wasn’t sure. It smelled like a light and sweet floral scent, like a bouquet of gardenias mixed with a hint of vanilla and sandalwood. Avery felt the warmth of Darlene's arm as it rested around him, its soft embrace comforting yet thrilling at the same time. As he looked up into her eyes, he felt her hand gently caressing his hair, sending a shiver down his spine. He could feel the slight pressure of her fingers running through his messy hair; it felt like she was making sure he knew he was safe with her, but still, he wanted to keep his guard up but enjoy the night because deep inside of him, he was telling himself this would never happen again. "Sounds good then," he said in agreement. He leaned in as Darlene pressed play to watch the movie. The movie started with them laughing and commenting on what they were seeing as each of them went through another glass of wine. They continued to watch the movie as Guy discovered that he is not in the real world but rather in a computer simulation. This realization comes crashing down on him when he is shot in the chest by a player, and instead of dying, he simply respawns. As the movie kept playing, Darlene took small sips of wine, subconsciously running her hands through Avery's hair. In turn, that made Avery just melt into her shoulders and relax. But even with this, Avery couldn't help thinking about how he felt bad for "Guy" for how alone he must feel knowing everything he did and no one believing him. Sort of how alone he feels all the time with no one to share any connection with. Except for right then, in the safety of his thick diaper, he snuggled up to someone who had become a most unlikely friend. The movie continued with each of them finishing their glass of wine just before the movie's ending. At the climax of the film, Guy soars through the skies, leaving behind the confines of his virtual world and embracing the infinite possibilities that lie beyond. The credits started rolling as Darlene got up and noticed the bottle of wine was empty. The clock read eleven pm, "but how about one or two episodes of “ Mandalorian” before bed?" Avery felt tired, but he didn't want to disappoint Darlene. "Yes, sure. Why not?" He said as he was enjoying this evening even though he was in a thicker diaper than what he started out the day in. "Great," Darlene smiled. "Let me get us some more wine, cheese, and crackers." When Darlene left, Avery realized he needed to pee, but he also didn't want to have to tell Darlene to change his diaper or take it off to pee. He was about to get up to head to the bathroom when she arrived with a tray full of cheese and crackers and a bottle of wine open. As she set them down for the first time in the night, she felt her breasts heavy and full. Then suddenly, Darlene remembered something: she really needed to pump her milk as it was starting to be painful. She panicked and stood straight up, her eyes wide open as she realized she had forgotten her breast pump back at work. Darlene's back snapped rigid, her every muscle tensing in panic. "I have to go!" She shouted suddenly, clearly startling the man on her couch. Darlene’s eyes were darting around the room for her purse and keys. She needed a robe, but luckily, there was one hanging by the front door that she kept in case someone unexpectedly came over during the night while she was relaxing. Avery scrambled up, a strange terror igniting inside him like a match being struck in a dark room. What was going and why would she leave after drinking so much? Was it something he had said or done? He really hoped he hadn’t in some way exacerbated her trauma or made her uncomfortable. Perhaps she was just coming to her senses and realizing what she was doing. "What are you doing?" He cried out as she grabbed her robe and quickly put it on. She then grabbed her keys and purse and rushed towards the door. "I...just need something from work," Darlene said, her voice trembling with fear. Something kicked in with Avery as he stepped in between her and the front door, blocking the way. His mind reeled with worry - he knew this feeling all too well of someone trying to escape in a hurry like his parents had when they'd left him alone in the darkness after the accident from his dreams. "No!" Avery yelled out in desperation, standing firm against Darlene's towering figure. "You can't leave me! I won't let you go!" He shouted as Darlene. Darlene was taken aback by Avery’s sudden change in behavior. Darlene sighed heavily as she looked down at him. He looked scared and lost, his small frame radiating with emotion. She did not understand what he was afraid of, but she had no choice -- her milk had to be expressed, and the breast pumps were her only option. "Avery, there isn't anything else to do. I must go," she muttered, her voice laced with sorrow for Avery before trying to push him aside. Like a child having a tantrum, Avery grabbed the door handle and refused to be pushed away. As Avery's tears flowed freely and his desperation mounted as he clung to the door., something inside him stirred; he couldn’t let her go. “You can’t go!” Avery exclaimed. He was aware of how he was getting very emotional, but he didn’t want to tell Darlene that he wanted her to stay for purely selfish reasons, “You’ve been drinking!” In a fit of drunkenness and sudden impulse, as the two struggled together, Darlene blurted out an idea that stunned them both: "Unless... Unless you want to breastfeed from me. I need to get my breast pumped. It is the only way to relieve the pressure." Avery's heart raced as he locked eyes with Darlene, his mouth agape in shock. He'd never expected to find himself staring at a woman's breast as he did now. It seemed she was offering it to him as a way to keep her from leaving! He felt faint, and the idea of yielding tempted him like an oasis in the desert. But could he really have the audacity to go through with such a thing? His mind raced with questions, and his heart begged her to stay. He couldn’t believe what he was hearing. How did the day keep getting stranger and stranger? Suddenly, a deafening silence filled the space between them as they looked at each other. Darlene could see Avery's face drained of color and realized that if she wanted this to work, he would need to be put at ease. She reached out and grabbed his hand gently. "Look," she began softly, “you don't have to do this if it isn't something you're comfortable with." She paused for effect, gauging his reaction carefully before continuing. "I just... I can't let my milk dry up, you know? I need to express it three times a day, or else it won't be any good; this is so important to me!" Tears stole their way down her cheeks as she remembered why this mattered so much to her - why she had dedicated her life since losing her child to helping those babies who couldn't get what they needed from their own mothers. With renewed determination, she vowed once again to offer something of herself to others in remembrance of her unborn child. Avery was stunned, his heart racing as he was still processing the request before him. She needed him in a way no one ever had, and he felt the weight of her desperation like a heavy blanket surrounding them both. He knew deep down that there were men out there who'd love this opportunity, but Avery was the one to help her at this moment. With a swallow of pride, he steeled himself and looked up into Darlene's desperate gaze. "OK, I'll do it," he said softly, heat spreading from his face to every corner of his body. Darlene couldn't believe what she was hearing. Was he serious? While Darlene was taken back, Avery grabbed the car keys from Darlene's hand as she was processing Avery's answer. He clenched them in his fist behind his back and held them tight in his hand, his eyes still drilling into the floor. Darlene stepped closer and lifted two fingers to his chin, gently lifting it until he looked into her eyes. His face radiated fear and shyness as she spoke. "Avery, you don't have to do this," she said softly, her voice full of emotion. "No one expects you to be so selfless; you should make sure you're OK with this decision because it is something neither of us can forget." The intensity between them seemed almost tangible as Avery finally looked into her eyes again with a newfound conviction in his voice. "Yes, I'm sure," he answered firmly. "I can't let you leave this house tonight - not when you have been drinking so much - so… I'll do whatever I can to help." Darlene saw the genuine concern and fear in Avery’s face. She knew he was right. She shouldn’t be driving after everything she had drunk. She thought for a few minutes about whether or not she was also willing to go through this. She didn't want her milk to dry up, and Avery seemed more than determined to keep her from going to get her breast pump at the office as he held on to her car keys. Darlene nodded, grateful for Avery's willingness to help her. "OK, I guess we have no other choice." She tried to look appreciative. "Let me go upstairs and get a pillow so that you might be more comfortable while you are on my lap." Avery watched warily as Darlene ascended the stairs in her robe, leaving the purse behind, his mind spinning with worry about what he had just agreed to. He was already on the cusp of being drunk after having had several glasses of wine, and the anxiety that brewed deep in his bones prompted him to reach for his backpack. His hands shook as he rummaged for the pill bottle tucked away inside. He wondered how he had become so dependent on medication like this for comfort, yet he still popped a Valium quickly before returning to the living room. Avery started making his way back into the living room. Each footstep felt unsure; his knees were like jelly, and the temptation to turn and run away nearly overwhelmed him even with how he was dressed. Was he really going to do this? It was so strange. So intimate. Avery looked up as Darlene re-entered the living room with the pillow she had promised. Her robe was open, but her breasts were covered as she held up the item. Avery swallowed nervously.. Neither of them made eye contact as they awkwardly sidestepped each other, both feeling the tension that had lingered in the air since their argument earlier. When Darlene got to the living room, she turned on some soft, new-age-style music in an attempt to relax both her and Avery. She then took a seat on one end of the couch and placed a pillow on her lap. Next, she set her half-finished glass of wine on an end table where she sat. Darlene turned to look at Avery, who seemed like he was going to pass out at any minute from anxiety. "Come on over here." Darlene motioned for him to take a seat next to her. Avery felt his heart pounding in his chest as he lay down beside Darlene. His eyes were wide with anticipation as he felt her delicate fingers grasp him tightly and guide him into position. "Just relax," she murmured soothingly, "I'll take care of you." Darlene's voice was like silk as she slowly instructed him to settle down on the pillow and her lap. Avery complied and found the back of his head resting on the comfortable pillow as his gaze rose up to meet hers. "Turn on your side and face me. It will be much easier and more natural for you," Darlene said in a soft voice. Avery did as instructed and turned to face her while his head was on the pillow. He faced her chest as he had never been this close to a woman's breast before, and he knew he was about to become even closer. With shaking hands, Darlene lifted her satin blue pajama top up and unclasped her nursing bra on one side, exposing her full, milky white breast. Avery's breath was caught in his throat at the sight before him. He nearly chickened out and scrambled away as he thought about what was to happen next. But then he remembered why he was doing this and leaned forward with Darlene's hand on the back of his head, pushing him towards her nipple; he then joined their bodies together, tenderly latching onto Darlene's nipple with trembling lips. "It is ok, just try to suck slow and hard, breath through your nose, and take a break if need to, but no teeth; my nipples are very sensitive" She smiled, looking down at Avery latched onto her nipple as if it were the most natural thing in the world. As Darlene smiled softly, she pushed his mouth closer to her and guided him as he suckled deeply yet gently from her breast. He could almost hear her heart beating in time with his own as they shared this intimate moment. At first, he felt nothing but a strange sensation in his mouth, but then Darlene's milk began to flow, warm and sweet against his tongue. He latched on more firmly, sucking slowly more eagerly as Darlene stroked his hair, whispering words of encouragement. "You're doing good.." As they continued, Avery began to relax into the moment, letting go of his fears and insecurities. He found himself enjoying the feeling of Darlene's soft breast against his face, savoring the rich flavor of her milk. It was unlike anything he'd ever experienced before, and he couldn't help but moan softly as he drank. It wasn’t a sexual moan but more of an “I am content” sound. He felt strange feelings washing over him just like the milk washed over his tongue. He felt warm, cared for and loved. He found himself sinking further into these feelings as he closed his eyes and relaxed into Darlene’s embrace. For Darlene, the experience was equally intense. At first, it hurt a little as she began to let down, but after the flow started to go, Avery got into a rhythm. She could feel Avery's lips and tongue working against her breast, and the sensation was unlike any other she had ever experienced. It was as if their bodies were merging in a profound, intimate way that she could never have imagined. It wasn't sexual but something just as intimate and pleasurable. She looked down at Avery as he had his eyes closed, sucking on her breast. She didn't see a grown man but a little boy in a grown man's body. It was innocent and cute. He looked like this was where he belonged, not in an office full of cutthroat corporates and bullies, but in the arms of a loving woman being looked after and protected. As he continued to nurse, Darlene felt her milk flowing more freely, her body responding to the stimulation of Avery's mouth. The best way Darlene thought she could describe it was as if he was drawing out her essence, taking her energy into himself, and giving it back in the form of his own pleasure. The soft new age-style music lulled Avery into a trance, quieting his breathing and the racing of his heart. The sound of the music was calming, soothing his already frayed nerves even more as Darlene's voice gently poured over him like a balm. He could feel the Valium start to take effect, calming him even more, and he took a deep breath between sucking on Darlene's nipple. Avery's eyes were heavily closed. He was in a half-sleep and half-awake state. After a few more minutes of suckling on Darlene's breast, his body took over, and he was doing this subconsciously as his breathing slowed. Avery's taste of Darlene's breast milk was that of a surprisingly sweet and creamy flavor; it was smooth and velvety on the tongue, with a richness that was almost like honey. The flavor was delicate yet complex, with notes of vanilla, coconut, and almond. It was a comforting taste to drink down, one that mixed in perfectly with the warmth of the skin it was coming from. As Avery drank, Darlene's body relaxed as she felt herself entering a state of blissful relaxation. Avery's mouth and tongue were stimulating her nipples, sending cascades of pleasure throughout her body with each gentle tug. His lips moved in perfect sync. Darlene could feel the nurturing energy being passed between them as Avery drank deeply from her breast. With each swallow, she felt a wave of calm wash over her body that erased all tension and anxiety from the day. To see the young man swallow her milk was exhilarating, a part of her that would be within him and nourishing his body. She felt a greater sense of satisfaction than even the pump she usually used could offer. The entire experience was mesmerizing for both of them, and soon, Avery began to feel Darlene's body relax beneath his lips. He felt the gentle rise and fall of her chest and the calming sound of her breathing as he drank from her. By the time he had finished drinking, she was feeling deeply relaxed and content not only physically but emotionally as well. Together, they lay there in silence for a few moments afterward, their bodies entwined in complete tranquility as Avery's hand gently caressed Darlene's breast like an infant would do with his fingertips. It was then that Darlene noticed something - Avery no longer seemed so anxious or nervous around her. Instead, he was peaceful and content, his entire body filled with relaxation and comfort courtesy of the nourishment provided by nursing together. Darlene stroked his hair. She leaned down and kissed him on the head. He did not move, but it was time to move to the other breast. She needed to wake the poor boy up. Darlene's voice began to whisper softly into Avery's ear. "Avery, sweetie, I need you to switch breasts." Avery opened his eyes slowly as he was in a deep sleep. Avery gave a gentle and content smile, a little milk dribbling down his chin, and looked up at Darlene, eyes half open. Darlene grabbed his bottom and could feel his diaper as she tried to help him move to the other breast. She instructed Avery in a calming tone to switch to her other breast. Avery did the best he could. Slowly, Darlene got him in position as she clasped one side of the bra back up and then unclasped the other side of the bra. She gently guided him to her nipple once again as he clasped it and took to sucking on her nipple more naturally, this time without any guidance. Her hand was still on his padded bottom. She caresses his bottom and gives him soft butt pats. Her other hand was holding his head to her breast and running her hands in his hair. He could still feel each pulse of Darlene's milk flowing out from her body like a soothing river, giving him sustenance that went far beyond physical nourishment. As he continued to nurse on her second breast, their bodies remained entwined in blissful intimacy for some time afterward until both were contentedly nourished. Darlene looked down at Avery. He looked half asleep in some deep trance. She was fully awake and aware of what was happening. She tried her best to process this. She knew the wine was talking, but she wanted to whisper to him like he was her child. There was the deepening material feeling creeping up in her as she held Avery close to her. “You awake, Avery?” she said softly. There was no response, but he was still sucking slowly and deeply on her nipple, and she could feel the milk flowing. “Just relax, my child,” Darlene said as she patted his butt. “Just relax tonight..” She continued. Then something strange happened: Avery started to pee in his diaper as he needed to go to the bathroom before he got started with this. The diaper did an excellent job of absorbing the pee. Darlene could feel the part of the front of his diaper through his sweatpants that barely touched her get slightly warm. It wasn’t long before Darlene realized he was wetting himself. Two hours ago, this would have bothered her, but now as Avery lay there nursing on her and relaxing enough to pee himself unknowingly. She didn’t mind as long as the diaper did its job. Darlene let Avery nurse on her breast for another 15 minutes. She held his head close to her, feeling his warmth next to her breast, all the while subconsciously patting his diapered bottom. She listened to the gentle New Age music playing softly in the living room. Darlene went upstairs to grab a nice blanket to put over Avery while he slept on the sofa with the pillow she brought. She used the blanket to tuck Avery in. He was dead asleep. He didn’t move as Darlene tucked the blanket in around him. Before leaving him on the couch, she slipped a hand underneath the blanket to check the man’s diaper. Her fingers slipped under the onesie and pressed against the heated disposable. It was very wet, that much was sure, but she was confident it would last until morning. She took the empty wine bottles and leftover cheese and crackers and cleaned up the living room before heading upstairs for the night. When Darlene finally got herself in bed. Her mind was racing over the last hour's event. Darlene didn’t know how Avery or herself would react the next morning when they woke up. She worried Avery would regret this. For her, she felt she had stepped over some unwritten boundary. She had experience with what it might have felt like to nurse and bond with an infant. The experience was powerful. Even more powerful when Avery was sucking naturally as his eyes were closed and he was asleep. It felt so..so maternal. She couldn’t decide if she was glad she got to experience this or if she would have been better off having never known that experience. It was a couple of hours before Darlene fell asleep.
  13. I am sorry. I am running late. I got RSV really bad and end up in the hospital for three days.
  14. I haven't. I will post the next chapter soon. Maybe late tonight.
  15. "I am grateful for everyone's encouragement, it has been fantastic. I don't want to exclude anyone, but I particularly appreciated the compliments from Eagle and BabySofia. My intention was to make everyone feel like they were a part of the story, experiencing it alongside the characters. I am encouraged to know I did that to some degree.
  16. You are correct. I need to go back in correct that. Thanks for bring this up! My bad. Happy New Year everyone. I hope 2024 is a good year for everyone. I promise to continue writing this story. I think this chapter may surprise some of you the direction I took it but it will all pan out in the end. Chapter 21 - Darlene's Sad Story As Darlene drove him back to her place, Avery felt the thick, soft padding of his wet diaper absorb the moisture against his skin. It was heavy and impossible to ignore, a constant reminder that he was far from average. The warmth of the material clung to him like a second skin, a constant reminder of his shame. Even in the sweatpants, he felt humiliated having to sit in a wet diaper for so long. Today started out so good and then quickly went sour; he had almost completely forgotten his big win with everything that came after it. He hoped that tonight would be a little better and it would end on a good note. As Darlene slowly turned onto the long winding driveway, Avery was in awe of the majestic beauty that lay before him. The vast wooded lot had to be at least a few acres, with towering trees that seemed to reach up to the heavens, casting an ethereal and tranquil glow over everything they touched. As they drove further up, Avery got an even better view of the two-story red brick house adorned with white shutters and custom crown molding. An elegant cobblestone path led to the front entrance, lined with manicured shrubs and blooming flowers of every hue. A detached three-car garage sat off to the side of the house, nestled away in the back. "You live here? Wow.." Avery admires the place with his jaw almost dropping. Darlene smiled, seeing him doing this. "How many square feet is this place, if you don't mind me asking?" "It is a little over 5,000 square feet. I know it is excessive when it’s just me here." Darlene said. There was a note of sadness in her voice. Avery let out a low whistle in appreciation of Darlene’s huge house. It couldn’t have been more different than his apartment. He looked out at the woodland that bordered the driveway as they continued slowly towards what seemed to Avery to be a mansion. "No, the place looks amazing on the outside and so tranquil here," Avery said with a smile and a hint of jealousy. "I like it just outside the city limits, plus the property taxes out here are like nothing," Darlene replied. As Darlene drove up to the three-car garage, she hit her garage door opener; Avery saw that the garage was mostly empty, with a few tools in it. She didn't own any other vehicles but this one. All the foster families he grew up with probably didn't have anything more than 2,500 square feet. As they got out of Darleen's car, they entered the side of the house through the kitchen. It turned out that the interior was as impressive as the exterior. The kitchen was huge to Avery, with a large marble-topped island in the center where the state-of-the-art stainless steel stove glowed and gleamed. Gleaming stainless steel pots and pans were suspended from the ceiling, shining like stars on a clear night. Two built-in ovens boasted digital interfaces that could be programmed to make some fabulous meals right in her own home. A luxurious refrigerator filled with all the wonders of modern technology hummed softly, promising freshness with every bite. It had a tablet-like display telling the time and showing the temperature within. Darlene passed him and walked into the living room. "I think I should have a package at the front door by now." Avery followed behind her again, marveling at the living room. He watched as Darlene entered the entryway, opened her French doors, and looked outside. "Ah yes, it did come. Good." She leaned over, picked up the cardboard box, brought it in, and set it on the coffee table. "Ok, Avery, let's get you out of that wet diaper, shall we?" Avery was stunned and wondered why she said: “we”. "I can go take it off in the bathroom and throw it into a small trash bag if you don't mind," Avery said nervously. Darlene had that serious look about her that he hated. "I really appreciate you coming over here to help me. I can't explain how grateful I am after we moved the furniture to the garage for Goodwill. I was hoping you would stay and we could watch some movies tonight. I won't want to be alone tonight. What I am saying is I am offering you to spend the night. I have a spare bedroom for you to sleep in." There was a pause before Darlene continued. "But, I did something that I may or may not have done. I purchased you some diapers and supplies. You have had one accident today, and the other one wasn't your fault, but I don't want to take any chances. I insist that you wear protection tonight for my sake, if you don't mind." Darlene could tell the disappointment on Avery's face. "Do you like red wine?" She changed the subject for a second. "Yes, I do," Avery said. He felt like he was caught in a whirlwind; Darlene was just making decisions, and he was meekly going along with them. "Perfect, I have a great Bordeaux ready to be opened. I will be right back.” She left, heading back into the kitchen as Avery looked at the box, thinking about the diapers. She has already changed Avery's diaper once. He was very embarrassed about it, but she seemed genuinely appreciative of his offer to help. Plus, he had to admit it would be nice to sit back and relax for a night with someone. It had been a long time since he had spent a night with a friend. Darlene grabbed a nice Bordeaux and two long-stemmed wine glasses. When she came back, she placed the two wine glasses down on the coffee table. She opened the wine bottle and poured them both a large glass of red wine. "Let's take a few drinks and talk a little, and then we can change you out of that wet diaper." Avery felt his cheeks heat up at the mention of the diaper change. It was embarrassing enough to have to wear them, but to have someone else change him was even worse. But he couldn't deny the excitement that was building inside him at the thought of Darlene taking control. He took a sip of the wine, trying to calm his nerves. As they talked, Avery found himself opening up to Darlene in a way he never had before; how she spoke at home couldn’t have been more different than when she was at work. She was easy to talk to - funny, smart, and understanding. It was as if they had known each other for years, not just a few hours. He had no idea that the hypnosis was making this process so easy for him and how much he needed this connection. The glass of red wine emptied in an instant, and Avery could only watch in horror as Darlene guzzled down two more. Darlene down the wine so quickly not because of the diaper change with Avery but because of what she needed his help with afterwards. His heart raced a thousand miles a minute as he felt his body involuntarily drawn to the middle of the living room. He saw Darlene spread out a large beach towel, followed by wipes, ointment, baby powder, and a fresh diaper in a neat row. It looked so much more organized compared to when he changed himself. Darlene went over and grabbed Avery's hand like he was a little child and led him over to the large beach towel laid out like a changing mat. Avery was having a hard time getting down on the ground this time, even though she had changed his diaper once. But this was different. He didn't have to be in a diaper tonight. He wasn't at work. He was perfectly capable of changing himself; he really should be asserting his right to change his own diaper, and yet he wasn’t. His hesitations only caused Darlene to give him a hard stare as she motioned for him to kneel down on the towel. His hands trembled uncontrollably as he complied, submitting himself to her mercy as she laid him slowly onto his back until he was staring up at her with nothing but a t-shirt and sweatpants to protect him from her gaze. "I really don't…" Avery tried to speak, but Darlene placed one finger softly against his lips, silencing him before he could finish his sentence. Her voice lowered dramatically, and Avery felt all his strength drain out of him. "You already proved yourself wrong earlier today," Darlene said firmly, pinning him under her gaze while her other hand hovered temptingly over the array of items on the beach towel. "Shh," she whispered, "It will all be alright... I'll be gentle." Even though Avery felt nervous, a twinge of excitement as he watched Darlene remove his shoes and socks. Avery then untied his sweatpants and pulled them down, revealing his soaked diaper. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath as he felt her fingers deftly undo the tapes on the sides of the diaper. He couldn't help but let out a small moan as the cool air hit his exposed skin. Darlene's touch was gentle and reassuring, and Avery found himself relaxing under her ministrations. He couldn't help but marvel at how easily she seemed to handle his vulnerability and how she made him feel safe and secure. "Lift," Darlene instructed, and Avery knew what Darlene wanted. He lifted his but off and felt Darlene slide the wet diaper out from under him. When the diaper was finally removed, Avery lowered his butt back down on the beach towel. What came next surprised him. Darlene grabbed both of his ankles, lifted them up like he was a baby, and pushed his knees to his stomach. She then began wiping him down with cold, damp, wet wipes which she ran the wipes over his ass and deep in his ass crack. Avery felt like this was crazy. This woman, someone he really hadn’t known for long, was changing his diaper as if he were a helpless infant. It was perhaps even more surprising to him that he didn’t hate it; in fact, he was feeling quite the opposite. Avery couldn't deny the arousal that was building within him. He felt himself growing harder by the minute, and he knew that Darlene must have noticed. He tried hard to think of something else as he didn't want to be aroused; he didn’t want Darlene to think he was some kind of pervert Just as she lowered his butt back down again, Darlene softly said, “You really need to shave your pubic hair.” As she tried to not make a big deal of seeing him getting hard, “It’s more hygienic for people with your problems.” Without a word, she reached over to the Desitin tube of ointment. As she squeezed a small amount onto her fingers, Avery couldn't help but squirm in embarrassment. She pushed his ankles up and back, making him raise his ass off the ground. Again, he found himself embarrassed at how she handled him, how she made him feel so delicate and cared for, which was something he never felt before. He wasn't sure if the feeling was from having only one glass of wine or if there was something more. Darlene slowly worked her fingers into the crack of his ass, applying the cool cream liberally. Lowering him back down, She applied more ointment to her fingers. She then slid her fingers over his hardening penis and down along the sides to his testicles, and Avery could help but let out a soft moan. The strange thing was that Avery felt like Darlene was humming a song lightly that he couldn't make out. Was she doing this to soothe him, or was she enjoying this? He couldn't tell. "My sweet boy," she said softly to herself "It will all be over soon." Darlene didn't realize she was pretending that Avery was a little boy who needed her to take care of him. The three glasses of wine had let her guard down. After she had finished applying the ointment, she reached for the disposable diaper and began to unfold it. Avery got a glance at the diaper. He could have sworn it was thicker than the diapers he usually purchased. "Let's get you in this comfortable diaper, shall we?" Darlene talked to him like he was a child. Avery had such strange, mixed feelings. One was still mortified in embarrassment, and another was a sense of being taken care of by someone who cared. But really, who would want to care for him? He tried to remind himself as Darlene, once again, lifted his ankles up and over as she slid the thick diaper under him and slowly lowered him down on it. She spread out his legs. Avery confirmed that this diaper was definitely thicker before she even attempted to pull the diaper up between his legs. Avery was rock-hard and embarrassed now. He felt guilty that this woman was trying to do something nice for him, and he was responding in such a lewd way. "Shall we get you all powdered up before we safely tape you up?" she hummed as she continued the process of diapering him. Clearly, it was a rhetorical question. She was continuing with the change no matter what Avery said or did. Darlene grabbed the baby powder and shook it over Avery's skin with frenzied speed, loving the smell of it that reminded her of what her baby should have smelled like. She quickly wiped away a tear before Avery could detect it, while he inhaled the pungent aroma of baby powder, struggling to repress any emotion the smell might draw out from her memories. Before Avery could react, he felt the rough adhesive tape being torn and stretched across his bottom as the diaper was laid in between his legs, making them bow distantly apart. Darlene pulled up the diaper tightly around his waist, firmly securing it with the tape before running her hand along its contours to ensure a perfect fit. Gently cupping his chin in her hands, she raised his face until they were eye to eye and said with a soft voice, "All done." Just before she was about to help him up, she stopped, "Oh, I almost forgot. I got you something to help with your diaper issue at work." She unfolded a white-looking t-shirt. Avery couldn't understand what she was talking about until he saw the shirt end in two flaps of cloth. It took a second for him to realize what he was seeing. It was a onesie! The soft cotton fabric rustled as the air passed through it. "I... I don't think I need that." Avery said anxiously. "Oh my boy, I think you do. It will help hold your diaper closer to you when you wet it, and the best part is you don't have to worry about exposing your diaper to anyone when you bend over at work." Darlene replied. She accidentally referred to Avery as her boy. "But… But" was all Avery could say as Darlene reached over and once again put her fingers on his lips. "Shh" , she whispered softly. "We are going to see how this works tonight." Her words were soft but demanding as she began to slip Avery's t-shirt off. She grabbed the onesie and slid it over his head and down his chest and stomach. Once again, without asking. Darlene lifted his ankles and grabbed the back of the onesie, and slid it over his butt. She then laid his butt down and pulled it between his legs as she grabbed the front side of the onesie and pulled down between his legs, where he heard four snaps under him being fastened to hold his diaper close to him. "Ok, let's see how this looks." Darlene grabbed Avery’s hand and helped him stand up. "Perfect fit," she smiled proudly. She couldn't help herself as she patted his diaper butt. That made Avery blush even more. He looked down at himself and felt like a big baby. The onesie reminded him precisely of what he saw babies wearing. The diaper underneath was now being pulled close to his body, causing the soft padding to rub against him even more than it used to. He could definitely believe that it would prevent his diaper from sagging if he used it. "Can I put the sweatpants on?" Avery asked Darlene as he felt a little strange standing there in a thicker diaper than before and in a onesie. "Oh, sure you can." Darlene smiled as she walked out to the kitchen to get another bottle of wine. She filled both their glasses to the top. She handed a glass to Avery as he finished putting on his sweatpants. She then grabbed her glass of wine. "follow me, and I will show you what I need help with to disassemble and bring down to the garage." Darlene took Avery to the upstairs hallway. She pointed to a door at the end of the hall and said, "This is what I need help with". Avery followed her into the room and when Darlene opened it he was shocked to see a fully furnished nursery with a crib, changing table, rocking chair, dresser, several toys, and even clothes hanging up in the closet, all were fit for a baby girl. Pinks and purples filled the room from wall to wall. He couldn't believe his eyes as it looked like something out of a magazine spread. Avery felt like he had just been taken back in time and reverted back to his own childhood self as his eyes took everything in. He looked over at Darlene, who had tears streaming down her face as she looked around with an expression of nostalgia mixed with sorrow. She gestured for him to sit beside her on the floor with their backs to the wall, each still holding their glasses of wine in hand. Avery suddenly felt like he was standing in a place he wasn’t supposed to be. Darlene took a deep breath and a moment of silence as she drank. Avery followed. He needed to drink after being diapered like he was and now seeing Darlene in distress. He waited for her to talk as she seemed to be trying to find the right words. Darlene looked up to the ceiling where she had painted stars and clouds. "Nine months ago. I lost my baby girl while trying to give birth to her. As you can tell, I was so excited to be finally having my daughter. I had already set up this room, bought her clothes, everything she would need for when she arrived." Darlene paused as tears were rolling down her face. Avery’s mouth was hanging open from surprise. He hadn’t expected anything like this, and the lingering embarrassment over what happened downstairs was quickly replaced by a great sadness for his new friend. Darlene had paused to drink some more of her wine. “It was a long and difficult labor. The doctors were able to detect some complications prior to my delivery, but we weren't sure of the full extent until it was already too late. I went into labor early, and during the delivery…” Darlene paused and took a deep, shuddering breath. “You don’t have to say anymore.” Avery quickly said, “I mean, I’m here for you, and I will listen to whatever you want to say, but don’t feel like you have to tell me anything you don’t want to.” “It’s… fine.” Darlene cleared her throat. She had been advised by therapists to talk about her pain, to not bottle it up forever. Avery nodded his head. “The labor and delivery went alright at the beginning, but then something just wasn't right. During the process, it became apparent that she had a serious heart condition that had gone undiagnosed throughout my pregnancy. and in addition, the doctors figured out that the umbilical cord had gotten wrapped around her neck and had prevented her from getting enough oxygen while in the womb. They tried their best to save both of us, but it was too late… She didn't make it.” Darlene hung her head. Avery had tears himself swelling for her. He was typically known not to be very empathetic towards people, but this tugged at his heart. Avery took a good solid drink of his wine, placed his hand on top of hers, and just listened quietly as he let her tell him her story. "There was significant damage to my uterus. Afterward, I ended up staying in the hospital for a few weeks after that, trying to recover, but I was left with severe physical complications that make it impossible for me to conceive and have another baby. Not being able to save her took a huge toll on me both physically and emotionally, which is why this room remained untouched." “I’m… I’m so sorry.” Avery said quietly. Darlene paused for a moment before continuing. "It's been hard for me to see this room just the way it was when we prepared for her arrival. There have been days where all I do is sit in here, cry, and remember how excited I was about being pregnant with her. But even though she didn't get to stay with me very long, I will always cherish those nine months I had her growing inside me." Avery was taken aback by this news. He withdrew his hand from Darlene and reached his arm around Darlene to hug her comfortably. He could feel the sadness emanating from her body and he wanted to do anything he could to help ease her suffering. Darlene leaned in and cried for a while on his shoulders. This was all new to Avery; he felt so out of place trying to comfort someone. Several minutes passed until Darlene pulled away from Avery. "My sisters have been trying to get me to move on. So they sat me down and made sure I scheduled Goodwill to come and pick up this stuff. They are my biggest support and only support group. I need you to help move all the baby furniture down tonight to the garage.” "I would love to help you, Darlene," Avery said as he held Darlene up. He had totally forgotten he was wearing a diaper and onesie. They both took a drink, set it down on the dresser, and started to tackle disassembling the crib first. The crib held so many memories for Darlene. She recalled the moment she found it at the store and knew it would be perfect for her daughter. She could also remember painting the walls with clouds and stars as well as decorating the room in pastel colors. Avery was amazed by how much thought and love that had gone into this nursery. He looked around and admired every detail, from each stuffed animal to every piece of furniture that was chosen with such care and love. It was clear that not only was Darlene very excited and prepared for her baby girl, but that she would’ve been a fantastic mother. He watched as Darlene carefully loosened each screw of the crib before removing it piece by piece until all that remained was a pile of wood on the floor where once there had been a beautiful canopy bed. This was clearly a very emotional thing for Darlene, who had to stop every so often to collect herself. Avery did his best to comfort her. It took them a while to take the crib apart. They had to unscrew each screw and carefully move the pieces one at a time. The entire process was filled with memories of what could have been or never happened for Darlene. As she moved each piece of the crib, she reminisced about all the joys this baby would have brought into their life. However hard it was for her, she knew it was for the best that these things get passed on to someone who would use them and appreciate them. Together, they managed to disassemble the crib, which felt like such an accomplishment in itself, given how much grief it held within its structure. They moved on to disassembling the changing table. Holding one piece in his hand, Avery couldn't help but think that life was so cruel. He remembered the feeling of growing up without parents and being passed from one foster home to another. He thought about how painful his childhood had been and longed for what it would be like to grow up in the loving arms of a mother. As he looked over at how hard Darlene was working, trying to keep herself together as she disassembled the changing table, her face illuminated by the setting sun streaming in through the window, Avery felt helpless in that moment. He wished desperately that she had been given the chance to experience all the joys that came with being a mother. Avery felt helpless in that moment, but he knew deep down he'd do anything to help take some of her pain away. Afterward, they moved on to disassembling the dresser, rocking chair and bookshelf with just as much care until all the furniture that once occupied this room has now been reduced to pieces in cardboard boxes ready to be taken away by Goodwill. Once they were done with taking down the crib Darlene looked around sadly at what used to be her dream nursery but now just felt like an empty room with nothing of memories left in there for her. During this time, they each had finished their glass of wine. Avery was feeling the effects of the wine even though he hadn't drunk as much as Darlene. Darlene got up. "Ok, let's get all this stuff down into the garage. I want to end this night on a good note." She wiped away her remaining tears. One by one, they carried everything into the garage. "So, want to go into the living room and watch a movie or something with me?" Darlene asked as she closed the garage door behind her. "It is already late. What about work?" Avery asked. "I didn't tell you but we have been told to both take off the remainder of the week. They will be installing keycards to access each level at work to make sure we are safe." As Darlene looked at Avery trying to read him. "Does that mean they haven't fired John for what he did?" Avery looked upset and concerned. "I don't know. I will be following up with HR tomorrow and will find out. Let's try not to think about work or anything upsetting or sad for the rest of the night, shall we?" Darlene suggested. When Avery nodded, she continued, "Why don't you pour us both another glass of wine and get comfortable? I am going upstairs to change into something more comfortable this evening." "Sounds good." Avery agreed as he walked into the living room to enjoy the rest of the night with Darlene. Avery could very easily feel the extra thickness of the diaper and the crinkle was evident even with the onesie on and the sweatpants. While Darlene was upstairs, Avery began to go over what happened today and how odd it was getting changed by Darlene the second time. She was much more in control and treated him like he was just an infant. As humiliating as it was to have his diaper changed and put into a onesie, there was something oddly comforting about it. Darlene didn't seem like she had a problem with it either. All his foster family made everything feel like he had always been a nuisance, and everything they did for him was because he was being overly needy. Darlene treated him with compassion. Something he had never felt before. He tried to shake the feelings aside and focused on pouring wine for the night.
  17. Some one asked how talk Avery was, 5ft tall and Darlene is 6'2". Chapter 20 - Wet and Humiliated The entire drive to Target, which was about 15 miles down the freeway on an Interstate, always seemed congested, even when it wasn't around quitting time. She hated the drive but had time to think as she played calming music. As she drove, Darlene played over and over in her head what happened that day. She couldn't believe John's reaction to Avery just because he figured out something John couldn't. Instead of praising him and helping coach him so they could take credit together, John decided his best course of action was to discredit him and scare him into either confessing his guilt or quitting. The vitriol on his face as he stared at Avery made her nervous. She knew better than to see it coming, but she saw the anger and hatred brimming from him like two new volcanoes on an island before a tsunami hit and wiped out everything. She wasn't sure what the endpoint for John was. But she did know that she saw such anger and hatred in John's eyes that she wasn't sure what would happen to him. And Avery didn't even try to defend himself. He cowered, quivered, and resembled a scared little puppy afraid to move. He would have taken all the verbal and possibly physical abuse she imagined showering down on him without fighting back. She couldn't imagine being like that. She never backed down, no matter how hard the fight was, whether it was with other inmates in jail or just life in general. Her personality, her experiences in jail, and her fighting spirit only made her stronger - made her who she was today. What would drive someone to accept such abuse? When she arrived at Target, Darlene took out her iPhone and texted Avery. "I am here; I should be back in about 20 minutes." There was a long pause as she walked in and headed for the men's clothing section. She walked to the sporting clothes section to look for some sweatpants. She found them and started to sort through the many types of clothing racks. Darlene figured he wore a size medium as his waist size was thirty-two from the pants she had taken off him. It didn't take her long to pick out a light gray pair of sweatpants. The sweatpants were light gray and made of material that was not too heavy or thick. They would be comfortable but durable, probably better than the pants Avery had ruined, if she were honest. He didn’t exactly have a great sense of style. As she was walking towards the self-checkout line, she caught a sale on t-shirts. One was a dark brown grayish with The Mandalorian and baby Yoda on it. It was cute but still masculine enough. The T-shirt felt soft and comfortable. The material felt light and airy, not heavy or thick. It was the perfect thickness for the summer heat but not too light for the fall weather. She hadn't seen any of the Mandalorian episodes but knew it was very popular in her department, and what young man doesn't like Star Wars? Besides, Darlene had noticed the shirt he was wearing was wet a little in the front when she was diapering him. He didn't need to stay in a wet t-shirt. She picked up a large T-shirt, thinking it was better to go a little large than a little small. Darlene hoped this might put a smile on his face after the incident. A light chuckle bubbled up from her throat as she was checking out. She would've never expected herself to be doing this today - going to those extreme lengths for someone who didn't directly work under her. However, she knew very well that the personal lives of her employees could affect their work lives, and she did what was necessary to make sure her department thrived. In the past, she had done everything, even delivering meals when someone was under the weather—babysitting for single mothers or those going through divorces, helping with wedding preparations, and more. Now, she could add changing the diapers on a young man and buying him clothes to the list. She texted Avery when she got in her car. "I am heading back. Should be there in 15 minutes." It wasn't long before she even exited the parking lot; she got a text back. "Good, I am ready to get out of here." Initially, Darlene drove on the freeway at a reasonable speed for the time of day, but then, suddenly, everything came to a stop. Her car didn't move for 5 minutes. "Shit, traffic was at a complete standstill." She thought to herself. Then she heard sirens. Police, two ambulances, and a fire truck. "This couldn't be good," she thought to herself. Darlene texted Avery back. "Avery, I am going to be late. I don't know how long this will take. I am at a complete standstill on the freeway. There is no nearby exit. I will be there as soon as possible." What Darlene didn't know was that Avery needed to go to the bathroom again as he drank a whole bottle of water while she was gone. He had been holding it already. He prayed he could wait. He waited 30 minutes after getting the text she was running late before Avery texted back. "How close are you? I need to go to the bathroom. I can still hear people outside your office." The text sounded panicked to Darlene. "I am still at a standstill. I see two helicopters. The crash must be wrong. It is a life flight and some smoke. I am assuming a vehicle caught on fire. I will be there as soon as I can get to the nearest exit when the traffic moves. I am sorry." Avery, on the other side, rolled his eyes. He tried to log on and look for a new book to read or a new video game to play. He did everything to try to take his mind off the need to pee. Another 30 minutes passed. "Are you almost here?" He was almost in tears. He had started pacing back and forth, doing what any mother would call “the potty dance.” "No, Avery, I am sorry. Still haven't moved an inch.." There was a long pause and no reply from Avery. She felt terrible, but she couldn't get around the traffic at all. "Avery, just use your diaper. I don't think you have much choice right now. I am so sorry." Again, there was no response. Avery had never once intentionally peed into a pull-up or diaper. He didn't want this to be his first time, but he really, really needed to go. He was now at the point where he felt he had no choice, and Darlene was no closer. He was desperate for relief, so he stood up and tried to focus on peeing to relieve the painful pressure in his bladder. At first, nothing; his body told him it wasn't right; this wasn’t the toilet. He closed his eyes and tried to imagine he was standing at a urinal. Slowly, he started to pee into the diaper. A feeling of relief was starting to feel good as he felt his bladder barely starting to relax, and then suddenly, he had a heavy stream of pee as he filled his diaper. He could feel the warmth spread between his crotch as his diaper got heavy and soggy. He felt the diaper begin to swell as he peed more into the diaper than he did when John scared him. His bladder ached in relief as he filled his diaper up and felt the weight of his soggy diaper droop down. He was filled with a mixture of relief and embarrassment. It didn’t matter that he had no choice. It was still a humiliating act. The diaper was so much heavier now he could feel it pulling down from his hips. Once he was done, he had no choice but to stand or sit down. Avery decided to sit down slowly, feeling the warmth of the soggy diaper push against his inner thighs and warmth even ride up towards his back a little. But to his surprise, it did not leak at all. He was relieved of this but ashamed of what he had just done. The worst part was that Darlene was going to see him. He couldn't just run home now in just a diaper. He was just grateful that no one had walked in on him. It was another thirty minutes before Darlene heard back from Avery. "No need to rush." Darlene knew what that meant, and she felt her heart sink a little. She felt sorry for the poor guy. But she also realized he did not have another spare diaper. She really still needed his help moving the furniture to the garage for Goodwill to pick up. Darlene remembered she still had the email where Avery tried to access the website with the diapers and other items. She had time, so she took her personal phone and logged onto the website. She needed to purchase him some more diapers. She saw all the different kinds, many looking like infant diapers with baby or toddler designs but sized for an adult. She just wanted thick white diapers. She scrolled through and found a pack of white diapers that read max absorbency. She added a pack of 12 diapers to her list. Traffic still wasn't moving. Before she checked out, she saw a bunch of cute onesies. She thought about how when she babysat, the onesies help hold the diaper close to the babies. A simple, plain onesie would help Avery hide his diaper during the day. She wasn't sure if they would have such a simple thing, but she searched through the inventory and came across some plain-colored onesies and found a white one. She quickly ordered a large onesie for him, just to make sure it wouldn't be undersized. She wondered what else he might need, and then she remembered his horrible diaper rash. She added DESITIN Daily Defense Cream, which read "forms a protective layer on your baby's skin to soothe and relieve rash discomfort, providing relief from the first use." She quickly added other items to the order: diaper wipes and baby powder. She was afraid he would be upset with her when he saw these items, but he really needed them if he was going to get rid of the diaper rash and prevent it from coming back. As Darlene was checking out, the line was starting to move very slowly. She needed to finish her order. She quickly put her credit card information in, and for delivery, she chose one-hour delivery for an extra $50. High robbery, she thought, but he needed something. The cars in front of her slowly started to move. Before the cars started moving too fast, she texted back to Avery. "I'm finally moving. Don't worry, I still have a plan for us to enjoy the evening." The last forty-five minutes were the longest to be in the office alone, sitting in a wet diaper and shirt. He couldn't even do research on the computer for either work or looking at books to read or video games to play. He felt ashamed of himself even though this wasn't his fault. Suddenly, Avery heard the door begin to unlock. He started to panic and wanted to hide behind something, so he went and sat quickly behind Darlene's desk and scooted up so only his shirt could be seen. He was afraid it might be the janitors for the night to clean Darlene's office. He was quickly relieved when Darlene came in carrying a plastic target bag. "Oh, thank god it is you," Avery said. "Who did you think it was?" Darlene looked at Avery sitting in her seat. She didn't say anything. Usually, she didn't like people sitting in her chair. That was a strange quirk about her. That was her chair and only hers. She was going to let it pass. Avery had too much to deal with today to let her rant about some weird quirk of hers. She just hoped he wasn’t leaking on her office furniture. Darlene placed the target bag down on the desk and got out. "I got you these sweatpants." She pulled them out. "They should fit you pretty well. They feel like they will be really soft and comfortable." Darlene handed them to Avery. He quickly stood up to put on his sweatpants. Darlene couldn't help but notice how much his diaper had swelled and looked full. The blue stripe down the middle was completely gone. He really did have to go, she thought to herself. She tried her best not to show an emotional response to that. Avery picked up that she saw how much he wet his diaper, and it was drooping down a little from the weight of the pee. He quickly slid on the sweatpants. They did fit perfectly—a little too perfect because there was a definite bulge in his pants with the diaper so full. "Oh, I also got you something I hope you will like," Darlene said in a perky voice like she was proud of herself. "I got you this T-shirt to go with your sweatpants." She pulled out a dark brown-grayish Mandalorian T-shirt with baby Yoda. You probably want something else to wear, and I took a wild guess you like Star Wars and the Mandalorian show that everyone talks about here in my department. Avery was shocked; he had mixed emotions. In one way, he felt like she was trying to dress him, which he didn't like; it just added to the humiliation right now. In another way, he was appreciative of all her help. She didn't have to do all this for him. If it were another time, he would be more appreciated. "Thank you, Darlene. You didn't have to, but I appreciate it." Darlene could tell he wasn't super happy about the T-shirt. "Do you not like Star Wars and the Mandalorian?" There was a pause. "Yes, I like Star Wars. Who doesn't? But I have never seen The Mandalorian. I don't have access to Disney and all the shows. I only stream content that is for free and doesn't require a monthly service fee." Avery said. Darlene could see that he was either disappointed he hadn't seen it or embarrassed he didn't pay to stream shows. She sort of forgot he is fresh out of college but would have thought a college student would have found friends to share access with. She didn't want to ask at this point. "Well, maybe we can change that sometime." She walked behind the desk as he was standing, and she started to reach out to take his shirt off, then she stopped herself, reminding herself he was a grown man. Darlene then handed him the T-shirt. "Here, you can put this on, and we can go." As Avery slipped out of his T-shirt, he was aware that it was past 6:00 p.m. He knew he promised he would help Darlene with the furniture tonight, but he needed to get home to change out of his diaper, and the bus had stopped for the night. "I am sorry, Darlene, to ruin the evening, but could you please take me home? I sort of, well, you know, need to address me. I mean, change out of what I am wearing." Darlene knew what he was talking about, but he had no idea that she had already taken care of that. "Look, you don't need to go home. I got you covered for the night. I really do need your help. I have Goodwill coming tomorrow, and my sisters are busy. I have procrastinated too long for moving the furniture down." Avery didn't understand what she had done to have this supposedly taken care of. He thought about it. He could go to her house, toss the diaper, and command style and still be able to help her. "OK, let's hit the road," Avery said a little tentatively.
  18. Yes I am. Sorry with the Christmas holidays I have been busy. I have two elder parents and two teenagers to deal with. I will try to get something out soon. This story should be about 40 chapters long in the end according to my outline.
  19. One more chapter before Christmas. The evil me might leave you wanting more. Let me know what you think and enjoy the holidays. May Santa bring all the toys you want to both good (and bad) boy and girls. Chapter 19 - Validation The past couple of days for Avery were immeasurably tough - he hadn't heard anything from R&D, and it was taking a toll on his mental state. He had reached out to Christy for an update, but her response was vague - they were still working on analysis and conducting experiments. She tried to assure him that this was a normal part of the R&D process, where results were only announced once trials were completed and vetted. But none of that mattered to Avery as his thoughts were consumed by worries and doubts about the outcome. He couldn't escape the gnawing knots in his stomach or the exhaustion that came with sleepless nights. The sleeping pills Avery took did little to help him sleep. Even Darlene noticed how worried he looked - his eyes were tired from lack of sleep and filled with anxiety. He couldn't focus on anything at work except for seeking small moments of relief by stopping by Darlene's office for some brief conversation. In these moments, he would vent his frustrations about the lack of updates. But even in those moments, it was clear to her that he wasn't taking care of himself - surviving on little food and likely no sleep. His desperation was palpable, and it pained her to see him like this. It was Thursday, and there was still no word from R&D. Avery still had not arrived at work during his typical time frame. Darlene had texted him, presumably to see if he was OK. He just texted back that he missed his bus today. Avery assumed she was worried she might have scared him. Of course, she hadn’t, and Avery was happy to let her know he was just running a little late and sort of glad that someone cared enough to text to see where he was. When he showed up, Darlene noticed that his dress was getting sloppier as he was getting more exhausted. She hoped he would get some good news soon because she didn't know how much more of this waiting he could take. As he sat down and started to boot up his computer, he was exhausted as his sleep wasn't very good, even with the sleeping medications he took. There was too much on his mind, wondering if everything was okay with the program and the R&D results. He also kept playing over the previous day’s lunch with Darlene. He was confused and had mixed emotions that she knew about his diapers, but a large part was relieved that someone knew and still thought no less of him for having to wear diapers or pull-ups, for that matter. When the computer finished booting up, and he logged into it, Avery noticed he had an email from Bryan. Avery clicked open his email, and a chill ran down his spine as he read the subject line: “Lab results comparison to theoretical calculations.” His heart thudded in his chest, and sweat beaded on his forehead as he hovered his mouse over the email, unsure of what the message would say - good news or bad news? Seconds felt like hours as he stared at the computer screen, contemplating if he should take the plunge. He trembled as he mustered the courage to open the email. His mind raced with anticipation as he read the simple words, "Please review the attached R&D report titled “Lab results comparison to theoretical calculations.” Avery cursed under his breath; why can't they just summarize their findings in an email? His hands shook as he downloaded the PDF and scrolled to the executive summary. He held his breath as he began reading, afraid that the abstract calculations would not match up with reality. Avery sucked in a deep breath and slowly read through the executive summary of the report. It detailed how the researchers used various analytical methods, such as X-ray diffraction and scanning electron microscopy, to measure the thickness of the cell walls of both cancerous and non-cancerous cells in the lab. The team then compared these measured values to theoretical calculations, which had been performed using mathematical models that Avery had provided whilst Christy had implemented. To Avery's relief, the results revealed that the theoretical calculations were accurate and that there was little to no significant difference between the two cell wall types. He exhaled heavily as he finished reading, relieved that their research had passed all quality control assessments with flying colors. Just how much relief Avery felt at being proven right couldn't be understated. After sleepless nights and not being able to concentrate on anything else, Avery could finally move past his anxiety; it felt like a one-ton weight had been lifted off of his shoulders. The report proceeded to detail how various laboratory techniques had been employed to further study the behavior of cancerous cells compared to healthy ones. This included creating computer simulations, a big part of which his calculations accurately depicted different stages of cellular division, allowing researchers to analyze precisely how tumorigenesis occurred on a microscopic level. Ultimately, these findings demonstrated that cutting-edge technology could enable scientists to understand and treat cancer at the DNA level in much more sophisticated ways than ever before. The report did mention the need to understand how the external pressure of the surrounding body of the cells could impact growth, which was what Avery was working on now. With a newfound sense of hope for fighting cancerous diseases, Avery breathed a sigh of relief as he closed out the email. He felt proud and reassured that his hard work had been successful against John's doubts. He was overjoyed by this result - in his mind, this groundbreaking research could be shared with the world and make an immeasurable impact on medicine if the progress continued! As soon as he absorbed everything, Avery couldn't help but let out a "YES!" which erupted from his chest with a deafening force. His hands shot up in the air in celebration and clapped together in victory. Even Darlene heard him, her head turning over at the sound of his triumph as she was on her headset during a teleconference. He felt a rush of emotions - joy, relief, excitement - pulsing through him like an electric current. His voice now boomed with pride as he shouted: "Take that, John! I did it!" Once he had calmed down a little bit, he looked around at all the faces looking towards him. He smiled sheepishly and muttered apologies as he sat down. He couldn’t stop smiling, though, not even when he saw Darlene looking over with a stern expression on her face. He was on cloud nine for the next few hours as Christy Instant messaged him. "I heard the good news, and, reading the report, it seems your calculations were very accurate." Avery sent a message back. "It wasn't just me. You had a huge part in this. I had no idea how to program something like that." Christy then replied, "Thanks, but still, you should be here. It is going all over the floor over here. You should hear John. He is furious and says that the trial must be incorrect. He is demanding to run his own trials. Saying that the idiots that ran the trial run didn’t know what they were doing." Avery couldn’t believe what he was reading from Christy. He messaged back, "I am just happy it worked. Does this mean the company can move on to the next phase?" Christy hid by her cubicle as she continued to hear John's voice. "I don't know; you will have to ask Bryan." There was a pause as Christy was listening in on the conversation in the hallway from her cubicle. She continued to message Avery. "His two followers are agreeing with him and trying to tear apart the report to find where it fails. Others are excited that we can finally move on with the program and have hope of making our deadline, so I think that is your answer. You’re the bomb down here!” Avery wanted to tell Darlene, but she was still on her teleconference call. A few minutes later, Christy instant messaged him again. "Bryan just told John to take the day off, and he stormed out of here. He was so furious he even threw a mug at Bryan! It will be nice to have some time without John; maybe we can get real work done!" Christy messaged as John exited to take the elevator to his car. "Fuck this!" John yelled as the elevator closed. Avery couldn't be happier. Finally, after all these weeks, he was proven right. He felt like this was the highlight of his life. He wanted to run downstairs and hug Christy. As soon as that thought hit him, he realized how much Christy had helped him through all this and how lucky he was to have her in his life. He started to message Christy back. "Christy, I can't tell you how much I appreciate your support. I couldn't... No, we couldn't have done it without each other!" Then all of a sudden. “You Pissy Pants! What kind of shit are you pulling around here!” Avery heard a shout. He knew the voice and instantly froze as he knew who was behind him. He began to panic as he heard a large set of papers hit his desk with a loud thud. It was the complete printout of the R&D report, which Avery hadn't had the time to comb through. “You think you can just show up out of nowhere, piss on the floor, and then make me look bad? That you have some special ability to see the errors in my calculations. You’re a fucking loser. There is no way in hell you could have done this. I want to know who you hired and where you got your information!" Just then, he felt John grab the arm of his chair and turn it around to make him face him. Avery was white with fear; he saw anger like he had never seen before. He was rooted to the spot as John bore down on him intensely. The confidence Avery had slowly gained drained away as he was glared at by this bigger man. It felt like he was about to be beaten up right there in the middle of the office! Darlene was on the conference call when she heard the commotion. At first, she was pissed that someone was making so much noise till she turned around with her headset on and looked up to see John hovering over Avery. She reacted instantly with a motherly need to protect her sensitive employee. “Oh shit!” she yelled into the headset and stood up and ran out the door. "What... what’s wrong?" A voice from the headset echoed as she threw it off her head and ran out as fast as she could. “John!” Darlene’s voice reverberated throughout the 5th floor, echoing off the walls like thunderclaps. Everyone froze in place, watching in horror as she sprinted towards Avery. “You are not allowed here. Get your ass out of this department now!” she spat, her eyes blazing with rage. Glancing at one of her employees nearby, Darlene barked out an order to summon security. He nodded and quickly ran to his desk as she stared down at John with unbridled fury. John sneered at the tall woman. “So you're Darlene… The bitch that's protecting pissy pants, huh?” His eyes narrowed with rage as he grabbed the R&D report and shoved it in her face. “There's no way this stuff is real! He thinks I'm a joke, and he's making a fool out of me and the entire department!” “I don't care what you think!” Darlene stepped between Avery and John protectively. “You will not lay a finger on any of my people!” “He ain't one of your people - he's a fraud, a fake!" His voice rose to an enraged shout as his hands clenched into fists. He looked like a crazy person. As this was happening so fast, Avery started to lose control of his bladder, letting go fearfully as his warm urine soaked through the diaper as quickly as possible. Auburn-colored liquid pooled around the crotch of his pants, and the diaper wasn't holding like it should. With horror, Avery could feel the wetness spreading and could only sit entirely still and pray that he wouldn’t leak everywhere. With rage, John threw the papers in the air, but Darlene refused to back down. She grabbed his wrist and twisted it behind his back with all her strength, swinging him around and away from Avery. “I told you to leave. I will MAKE you leave if I have to!” Darlene shouted as she marched John back toward the elevator. But John's strength began to overpower her, and suddenly, Darlene stumbled backward. John then turned to lunge at Avery - just as he reached out to touch the terrified man, Darlene grasped his shirt and pulled him back with a ferocity that startled them both. One of her employees shouted urgently at Darlene: “Darlene, catch!” She saw an object fly through the air and instinctively caught it in her spare hand - mace that one of the girls carried with her for protection. Just as John was about to shove Darlene aside, she sprayed mace into his eyes. John screamed as his eyes burned, and he could no longer open them. "You fucking bitch, you spray me! I will make sure you pay for that." At that moment, the elevator opened, and security rushed in along with Bryan - who took one look at the scene and knew this had gone too far “Get him out of here!” Bryan roared and pointed an accusing finger directly at John. Two security officers moved in quickly, gripping his arms with jarring force. “You'll pay for this, Avery! I'm going to make sure you regret ever crossing me," he screamed in a lunatic rage as the officers dragged him into the elevator. Bryan ran over to Darlene to give her a steady hand, but she was mad and just pushed him away. "I’m fine. Don't touch me," She yelled at him as the adrenaline was flowing through her. "I hope this gives you enough to get that asshole fired." "Let's hope so," Bryan said as he turned to Avery, who was pale from fear. Darlene spun around to face Avery, who was cowering against the desk, tears streaming down his terrified face. “That's enough, everyone! Back to work!” Something kicked in for Darlene as she pushed herself in between Bryan and Avery, almost like she was protecting Avery even though he didn't need protection from Bryan. "Look, go make sure that HR deals with John correctly. I don't know what I will do if he comes around here again. Yes, that is a threat." Darlene looked over at Avery and realized everyone was still standing around as Avery was in tears and trying to hide his face. "Bryan, I got this!" Darlene stared at Bryan, and Bryan didn't dare to try to understand what was going on between her and Avery, but he nodded. "Ok, you got this." "Avery, I am so sorry this happened. I promise you I will take care of this," Bryan said and then left for the elevators. “That's enough, everyone! Back to work!” Darlene shouted, her voice authoritative and piercing. She turned to Laura and tossed her a half-spent can of mace. “Thanks for that, Laura. I'll get you another one.” But Laura shook her head resolutely. “Don't worry about it.” When everyone left, Darlene got down on her knees, placing a gentle hand on his back. “Avery, I am so sorry. I should have been here sooner. I didn’t realize what was going on till it was too late.” Avery wouldn’t say a word. He was shaken and frozen in fear and in shame, as both his pants and the chair were wet. He had been confronted, and all he could do was lose control in his pants like a useless baby. He was even crying! Darlene realized something was wrong. She paused and looked at Avery. She softly asked. “Did you have an accident?” as emphatically she could. Avery looked up in tears, and immediately, words were not needed. She slowly slid back his chair just a little and could see a wet spot on his crotch and on the inside of his thigh. She then slid the chair back into place. "I want you to sit right here. I am going into the office, and I will instantly message you in a minute on what I am going to do, OK? Don’t worry." Avery didn’t understand why she was leaving him to go to her office and leaving him alone. He tried to stay calm in the soaked diaper, wet pants, and chair. He was afraid he was being abandoned and would have to deal with this on his own. He was already trying to calm himself down and figure out how to get out of there undetected. Tears slid down his face as he tried to hide his shame. He looked at the computer and waited for the instant message. After a few minutes, a message from Darlene finally showed up. “Don’t worry, Avery. I am going to call a meeting with my department to discuss what just happened, and since you are not one of my employees, you are not going to go to it. We are going to use that to our advantage. You will stay behind and when everyone leaves for the meeting room. I want you to get up and go into my office. Bring your chair in. I have a spare chair you can swap it out with. Close and lock the door and close the blinds. I will come back in about 15 to 20 minutes. Unlock the door when I knock so I can come in. We will address this together at that point. Understand?” Darlene waited for a few minutes and then got a reply. “Understood, and thank you.” Darlene sent both an email and an instant message out to her department that there was an emergency meeting immediately in the large conference room to discuss today's event. Avery saw everyone getting up as he remained seated. Darlene left her office and walked towards the large conference room. When Avery was convinced that everyone had left, the offices were silent. He got up and felt his cold, wet pants and his soaked, leaking diaper. He couldn’t believe this happened. He was on a high just an hour ago, and now he has hit rock bottom. Avery looked around and carefully started following Darlene’s instructions while also making sure no one was lingering to see his shame. All it would’ve taken was for one person to have missed the message, and his humiliation would have been complete. He grabbed his chair and wheeled it into Darlene's office, and then he wheeled a clean chair out back to his office. He then closed the blinds and locked himself inside Darlene's office. He sat down on his chair since it was already wet, not wanting to get anything else wet. As he slumped in his soaking diaper, he felt the soggy fabric of his pants chafing against his legs and a spreading stain on the back of the chair. An IM popped up from Christy: "Hey are you ok?" Avery didn't answer. "Please answer me. I'm stuck upstairs and can't leave. There's been a lockdown on this floor due to John; that's what I'm hearing." His cheeks burned with shame as tears continued to well up in his eyes. He wanted nothing more than to get home and out of these oppressive clothes. But the thought of having everyone staring at him again in public sent shivers down his spine. After a moment, he reluctantly typed back to her: "I'm OK. He just gave me a scare. He came up here to confront me about a report we did last week. He wasn't happy with the work and thinks we somehow rigged them." Christy responded with, "I'll come over right away." However, Avery didn't want her to see him in this state. He replied quickly, "No need. I'm leaving for the day. They told me to take the rest of the day off." There was a bit of silence in their chat. Christy said, "Just call me if you need anything or feel like talking about it. I can't imagine what he was like up there," After another long pause, Avery answered with, "Thanks, and I will," and that concluded their conversation. It felt like hours went by as Avery waited for Darlene. Finally, the door was unlocked. Darlene came in and locked the door behind you. “Are you doing ok?” she asked. Avery just shook his head no. Darlene went over to look at the damage. His seat wasn’t as wet as she thought, but his pants were soaked through. “Do you have a spare diaper?” She asked, knowing the answer already. “Yes, I do.” Avery paused. “It is in my backpack out there.” She pulled a few towels out of her purse. “I made a stop downstairs at the corporate gym and grabbed a few towels.” She laid them down on the floor. "I am going to go get your backpack, and then we are going to get you out of the pants and into a clean diaper." Avery blushed, thinking he was going to have to change himself in front of Darlene. Darlene walked back to Avery’s office and picked up his backpack before coming back and locking the door. Avery was waiting for her to hand him the backpack so he could retrieve the diaper, but instead, Darlene opened his backpack and went through it to pull out the clean diaper herself. “Do you have any wipes and cream?” Darlene asked Avery. Avery looked confused. “I don’t use them,” He said slowly. He started panicking as he wondered if Darlene would take control. “Is she really going to change me!?” Avery thought in shock. It was just like when John had been menacing him a few minutes ago. He was frozen when he knew he should be taking control of the situation. Darlene saw this sense of panic. She pulled up her chair and grabbed his hand. “Look, this will be our secret. I promise. I won’t tell anyone. In fact, after I change you. I promise to tell you a secret about me so we can each hold a secret over each other. I think that is fair. I promise it is a big one.” She smiled. “Ok.” Avery swallowed nervously. Darlene pushed her chair away and started to lay two towels on the ground, just overlapping each other a little. She couldn't believe what she was about to do, but the poor young man looked more like a poor young boy frozen in fear and shame. She wasn't sure how to treat him. Since she didn’t have any wipes she was going to have to use tissues. She grabbed her Kleenex box and put it on the ground beside the towels. “Ok. I want you to stand up on the towels so I can get you out of your wet pants.” Darlene was doing her best not to make this a big deal. She felt terrible for him and wasn’t sure what else to do. She had never changed a grown man’s diaper before and wasn’t sure what to do. She was playing this by ear. Avery's hands trembled as Darlene pushed them away gently and began to undo his belt. His mortification was growing by the second as she unzipped his pants and tugged them roughly down his legs. He felt like he was in a nightmare as she threw them into an empty trash bag without mercy. "Don't worry, I'm not throwing them away," she said softly, her voice a thin whisper in the darkness of the room. Suddenly, she stopped and looked at him, her eyes wide and unflinching. "No wonder it leaked." Avery groaned out loud. The yellow-stained diaper wrapped around his body hung nearly fell off his slender frame. She reached between the elastic waistband and the padding of the diaper. "You didn't have this centered when you put it on," she said, gently guiding how he had to adjust the diaper. "Don't be embarrassed," Darlene whispered, attempting to offer comfort, trying to make things better. But her words did nothing to stop the tears that streamed silently down his face. With a heavy heart, she instructed him to lay down on the towel and center himself up. As he followed her instructions with an unsteady hand, Darlene knew no amount of comforting words could take away his shame and humiliation. Darlene grabbed both of his hands and tugged them hard so that Avery lowered himself onto the towel and curled into a fetal position, gazing up at the ceiling. "Shh... it is ok," She kept uttering in a soothing voice as if he were a young child. Avery's body shook violently with fear and pain as he lay there on the towel, completely exposed and vulnerable. He was overwhelmed by feelings of embarrassment but also relieved knowing that at least it was Darlene who had seen him like this. No matter what she said, he could not shake off the shame of this experience, but still, there was something peaceful about her tender voice that helped him to relax. As he gradually calmed down, Avery tried to focus on anything other than the humiliating moment. He wondered how this situation had come about and why he hadn’t insisted that he should do this himself. He was having his diaper changed by another person at work! Darlene then reached for the clean, white diaper and laid it on the side of Avery. The crisp sound of the plastic crinkling could be heard as she opened it up, revealing fluffy cotton that waited to cushion him. Avery felt like he was just a baby, getting his diaper changed all over again, and it was embarrassing. He thought to himself, if it had to be anyone changing him, it might as well be Darlene. After all, she already knew he wore diapers when he confessed to her out at lunch earlier this week. "Okay, here we go," Avery muttered under his breath, feeling the need for speed. He nodded in agreement that he was ready for her to begin. Darlene unfolded the diaper away from Avery's crotch with care. She wasn't going to look, but something caught her eye. "Avery, you are red down there. You have a rash. Don’t you itch?” Avery immediately blushed at the realization that she could see his privates with such clarity. “Yes, I do, but I thought it was just the diaper causing itch.” "That isn’t just the diaper," she responded sternly as she grabbed some tissues."That is a diaper rash from not properly cleaning yourself." As Avery's cheeks grew hot with embarrassment, Darlene started wiping his crotch and privates down with care and precision. He looked up at the ceiling, praying that this would all be over soon. As if getting his diaper changed wasn’t humiliating enough, he was now getting rebuked for not doing a good job of doing it himself. "OK, lift your butt, please," Darlene said as she slid the diaper out from under him. She folded the diaper up and threw it into the trash can. She opened a new diaper and fluffed it out. It was a large, fluffy diaper in her mind. Exactly something a baby would wear, but larger. Avery just nodded. Darlene got up off the floor and held her hand out to help Avery up. When Avery stood up, he noticed a difference in how much better the diaper fit, but he wasn’t going to tell her that. “Turn around, let's make sure you have a good fit,” Darlene said. He turned around as Darlene slid her hand along his side and butt. “I think we did good.'' She smiled at him. Avery couldn’t meet Darlene’s eyes. She was a sophisticated professional woman who had just been on her knees changing his diaper as if he was nothing but a useless infant. He was supposed to be a prodigy in his field, a man who could find the answers to big questions, but instead, he was a man who couldn’t even keep his pants dry. “Look, it isn't that bad,” Darlene said with a sympathetic sigh. Darlene pulled up a chair next to her that was dry. Come sit next to me and let's talk. Avery couldn’t believe he was sitting in just a diaper and golf shirt in front of Darlene. His tears of embarrassment wouldn't stop. In turn, Darlene couldn't believe she had a young man sitting next to her in a diaper and golf shirt, and oddly, she was comfortable with it. She couldn’t help but imagine how anyone would react if they walked in right then to see her sitting down with someone with an uncovered diaper. Darlene took a deep breath and finally broke the awkward silence. “So… I know your secret now,” she said, trying to smile. “Let me tell you my secret,” Darlene said, smiling back at her. “You still want to know, don't you?” “Yes, I would,” he said softly, still feeling awkward sitting there like this in front of Darlene. “Ok, so do you know I have a criminal record?” She asked in a serious tone. “Actually, you don't know because no one knows except my sisters,” She said as if it explained everything away. Avery was immediately shocked. Darlene seemed feisty, but he had never imagined her having a criminal record. Not to mention her high-up position with this prestigious company, he was surprised that a criminal record hadn’t either gotten her fired or stopped her from being hired. Then again, if only her sisters knew then maybe it was even a secret from her bosses. “Really?” Avery asked. “It’s true,” Darlene said with a little laugh. “What do you mean? How could you possibly have a criminal record?” Avery asked. Darlene smiled and continued with her story. Avery listened intently. "At 14, I joined an underground hacking club. We had ethics; if we could hack someone or some company, we would let them know how we did it so they could improve security. I even hacked North Korean servers once at 15. The underground club thought I was older than 18, but I never let them know. We respected each other’s secrecy—it was easy to keep this from them. Anyway, I was one of the best. At 17, I was accepted into college. In my neighborhood, not a lot of kids my age were going to college - not even close. For many of my friends, getting through high school was hard enough. So, I started an underground business. Instead of hacking grades, as most would think, I hacked SAT scores to whatever they wanted; if someone made 1000, I would hack it to 1200–I was making $500 per hack helping people get into better colleges." Avery listened in rapt attention. This was all a great shock to him. Darlene was no doubt good enough at her job to be able to do these kinds of things, but she had seemed such a stickler for the rules that the idea of her breaking them was difficult for Avery to believe. "My business grew past my friends to other schools. I should have known better. Because it caught the attention of the FBI, and they began working with undercover agents to nab me, which was nothing more than a set-up for arrests. One agent posed as someone needing one or two SAT scores changed slightly so that they could get into a certain school. I had never done this before, but I decided to be greedy." Darlene said candidly. Avery could see the problem. Just helping some friends on a small scale was one thing, but when you started making significant money, people took notice. If you weren’t careful with your “customers,” it would be easy to get yourself caught. "That was my first strike against me, taking money instead of running off with Bitcoin like I usually did. My second strike was sending my own transcripts (which I had sent myself) back to the college board as having been sent from their office and changing them slightly so he would get in. That wasn't too smart either, but greed doesn't like common sense getting in its way. That led to me being caught. In the state I lived in, 17-year-olds would be tried as an adult. The maximum penalty for hacking the SAT center was 10-20 years if the judge thought you were dangerous or if you committed some other crime while doing it, or up to 5 years if you just hacked them because you were greedy and not careful enough while doing so. I was convicted of hacking the SAT center and was given a five-year maximum penalty under current law at the time. So I went to prison." Darlene suppressed a smile. Her face turned red, and she attempted to answer as nonchalantly as possible. “So you can see how I don’t want this to ever get out. It would ruin my reputation.” Avery looked so shocked and excited, like his whole view of Darlene changed. He was holding onto every word. He shook his head as if he couldn’t believe it. He was even more shocked that this woman in front of him had done a significant chunk of time in prison. It was almost enough to make him forget that she had just changed his diaper. “It won’t, I promise. My secret is safe with you, and your secret is safe with me,” Avery said with a grin. Something in the way he said these words made Darlene think that he could be trusted, and she felt happy about opening up for once. She lived in constant fear of people finding out about her history. Being able to actually tell someone about it felt like lifting a weight off her shoulders. "While in prison, I was allowed to help with their IT security system, which helped me get two years off my sentence. I was closely monitored and not allowed to have my own computer. I got out on good behavior after three years and was on probation for the remaining two years. So no one but my sisters knows." Darlene finished. "I would have never seen you as a criminal. Wow, and now you are the IT director for this company. How did that happen?” Avery asked. Darlene snickered. "Ah, Avery," she said. “That is certainly a tale for another day. I vow to tell you, but first, we must acquire some new garments so we can get you out of here without wet pants. I want you to stay here and work on your computer while I go out in search of trousers at Target. I should be back within an hour.” “I will await your return, Darlene – thank you for coming to my rescue. It was a horrible event today... really, rather revolting. You not only shielded me from the mockery of others in regards to my inability to... well, you know... but also protected me from John and any further embarrassment if they were to discover my little accident again.” Avery said. Darlene stood up and tenderly mussed his hair. “It's alright now,” she assured him. “I'll be back soon... lock the door after me when I leave, please." Avery agreed and followed her to the office door. As he stood behind the door when she opened it to depart, he realized how fortunate he was that Darlene had come to help him – no matter how bizarrely he felt standing there in a diaper and shirt in an office setting. He locked the door behind her.
  20. This chapter may seem a little slow but in necessary for the next chapter. I plan on getting a couple of more chapters out. Then I am going to have to take a pause for Christmas holidays and focus on my family. Enjoy and feel free to comment. Chapter 18 - Manic Monday Avery had spent the entire weekend pondering the programming changes Christy had been working on the previous week. She was supposed to have completed the programming Friday and sent it to R&D by now. The urgency of the project being pressed by the CEO had caused Christy and the R&D team to work day and night on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Avery couldn't help but feel a mixture of admiration and frustration - admiration for Christy's dedication but frustration at her lack of progress. He was impatient and wanted to know the progress. He nervously clutched the warm mug of coffee in his hands, its heat doing little to soothe the anxiety that grew within him. His gaze alternated between the calculator and the data Christy had sent him the day before. With each number he plugged into the calculator, his fear grew that all was not as it seemed. He had been pouring over the data for what felt like hours, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn’t seem to make sense of the results from R&D. The actual values were just not matching up with the calculated values from Christy's program - what could he be missing? After hours of hard work, the program finally seemed to be coming together. Avery emailed Christy with a few changes that he thought would improve the calculations. But was he right? Had they chosen the correct person for this job? Bryan and Christy had put a lot of trust in him, and he hoped that he could deliver on their expectations. Avery bit his lip as he waited for her reply; was his intuition about her correct? There was no answer from Christy. Just an ominous silence that bode ill for Avery. Avery was feeling the weight of the looming deadline for R&D, and his anxiety had been growing. He tried to distract himself with video games and fantasy books, but nothing could put him at ease. Even though he kept his phone close, there was no news from Christy or from R&D. Despite every effort he made, Avery couldn't shake the unease that lingered inside him. Avery felt his palms sweat as he stared at his phone, desperate to call Christy and see how she was doing with her programming. He forced himself not to pick up the receiver and instead began pacing around his apartment like a caged animal, jumping at every little noise and furiously scrubbing the furniture in order to distract himself from the overpowering urge to make the call. Eventually, he had no choice but to double up on his anxiety meds to get him through. At the same time, though, he couldn't deny the excitement he felt when thinking of what it might be like to go out on a real date with Christy. Although Avery had been out in social situations before, he had never actually been on an official date, and that thought made him think twice about calling her up and asking her out. The only positive thing about this weekend was being out of diapers and pull-ups. His regular underwear felt so thin after growing used to the disposable padding he had spent the last week in. He much preferred this feeling over the diapers. As the weekend drew to a close and the next week began, he was filled with so much anxiety and hoped this whole ordeal would be over. Monday morning, Avery thought to himself as he heard the alarm going off. He groaned and reached for the iPhone on his nightstand, finding it unsympathetically set at 6:30. Avery hadn't slept much all weekend, at least nothing restful. A quick glance out his window revealed that the sun was just beginning to rise. Feeling worn out, he pulled on the same clothes he wore daily: a diaper, the simple thick white disposable beneath a pair of loose-fitting khakis to help hide it. But this became his routine nonetheless. He still remembered his promise to himself that if he made it through this week, he would go back to wearing pull-ups like he had done most of his life when he was out in public. His work shirt had a stain down the back that he hoped no one would see, but he used the iron anyway, as it was too late to do anything about it. The clock said 7:00 am, so he grabbed his backpack, wallet, corporate iPhone, and keys and headed out the door. As he walked, there was a tiny hint of warmth in the air; otherwise, it was cool enough that he thought about taking an extra layer of clothes with him but decided against it. He was going to enjoy the cooler air for a change. As he walked briskly to the bus stop, his hair was messy as usual. At the bus stop, he pulled the back of his shirt down again to cover the secret inch of diaper sticking out beyond the waistband of his pants. The bus ride had been uneventful, and he was starting to feel a bit more relaxed. The sun was shining, birds were chirping, and people were walking around getting ready for the day ahead of them. Avery couldn't help but feel hopeful about the future as he walked towards work. While walking past the park that Avery remembered diving in to avoid looking like he had wet his pants, Avery felt a vibration and heard the quiet ding of his iPhone. He looked down and saw he had an email from Christy already this morning. Avery read the email from Christy with a mixture of relief and disappointment. He was glad to hear that R&D was finally running their experiments, but he was also disappointed that he wouldn't get to see her. With a sigh, he tucked his phone away and continued walking towards the office building. When he reached his office building, he walked up the stairs to his floor. His colleagues gave him small nods in recognition as they passed him, but none of them said anything or engaged in conversations with him. This didn't really bother Avery; he preferred it that way most days anyway. He arrived at his cubicle and settled into his chair- checking again for any emails from Christy or R&D before finally deciding to get his morning coffee. Darlene saw Avery walking in and couldn't help but feel relieved that the weekend was over. They had worked hard to get his hypnosis adjusted correctly, and she hoped he would be able to absorb it properly. She wasn't sure how the hypnosis actually worked, but she trusted her sister. As Avery strolled past her office, Darlene averted her gaze and pretended to be engrossed in the emails on her computer for the morning. She couldn't help but contemplate whether he would seek out a conversation with her as he did last Thursday. But before she could finish pondering, Avery entered the room and spoke without a preamble. "I am actually glad that the weekend is done," he said as he strutted towards the Keurig. "All I did this weekend was jumble my brain with video games and fantasy literature." Darlene spun around in disbelief; ordinarily, he seemed so self-conscious around her, but his behavior was different this time. He confidently walked up to her office with an ill-ironed shirt and disheveled hair, which hadn't seen a comb in days, and started talking. Getting him to exchange regular pleasantries had been hard, but now he was starting conversations. "My weekend wasn't much better than yours," she replied, feeling remarkably more assured about the situation. "I goofed off at home since none of my sisters were free." "I was expecting a revelation from my project by now," Avery said with an exasperated brow. "But all I received was the “we are working on it” e-mail. I guess the proverb 'No news is good news' fits here?" Darlene gave him a compassionate nod and uttered, "It can be difficult to wait for an answer when you need it." Avery nodded in agreement before he snatched the bottle of 'MMK' creamer and poured some into his cup—his go-to creamer to add extra zest, not knowing what he was really drinking. He then slotted a K-cup into the Keurig machine and brewed his coffee again. "Christy won't be present today," he sighed as he plunged his spoon into his cup. "Which means no lunch for me." He shrugged, trying to appear nonchalant but failing miserably as Darlene identified the twinge of melancholy in his voice. "Eh, it's nothing out of the ordinary for me," he continued merrily, putting on a bright face for her benefit. Darlene beamed at Avery and offered, “Why don’t I buy lunch, and we can talk about work or whatever you like?” Her suggestion was met with a pause; she worried she had gone too far. Too much too quick, she thought to herself. Avery hesitated for a moment, then smiled in response. “That would be great!” he replied. Darlene was taken back by surprise. "Wow the hypnosis really seems to be working" she thought to herself. "Well, I will stop by your cubicle around 11 am to take you to lunch." Avery smiled as he left, sipping his coffee. He walked a few feet out of her office. He once again began to pull down his shirt ensuring he didn't flash the out edges of his diaper to anyone. As he sat down at his cubicle, he realized he had finally begun to feel better again, the exhaustion and stress of the weekend gradually fading away. Since Christy and the R&D team were validating the program calculations to real-world results, Avery decided to work on the next part of the program. The calculations of the thickness of the cell walls with the influence of internal and external pressures. He had the basic idea down but hadn't fully thought this problem out yet. So he decided to do some more research and log on to the internet to look for publications in his area of interest. Avery's eyes had been glued to the screen for hours, but he wasn't seeing the words. He was exhausted. Darlene put a hand on his shoulder to snap him out of it. "Avery, it's lunchtime. Are you ready to go?" He jerked away from her touch as if he'd been shocked. He stood and brushed off his pants, trying not to let her see how much of an idiot he felt like. "You're right," he said slowly, clearing his throat as if that would make the words come easier. "Yes, let's go." Darlene giggled when she saw his face flush with shame and tried not to laugh in his face. It was nice to see him looking so ordinary and comfortable for once around her. "I thought about going to a nice bistro restaurant a few miles from here. Again Avery blushed a little as he felt small and said. "Is it expensive because I was thinking of something like Subway. I don't have a lot of spare cash". "Oh, I didn't want you to pay. This is my treat. Come on, silly, let's go have lunch," Darlene said with a reassuring smile. Avery blushed a little as he heard Darlene's kind offer. He felt embarrassed for thinking that she would expect him to pay back the favor when it was her own choice to treat him. Avery got up and walked out with her. Darlene paid attention to see if he would pull the back of his shirt down when they walked like he would whenever he walked somewhere, but he didn't. This was another sign that he was much more comfortable around Darlene. "Good Job, Larisa," she thought as they walked to the elevator to the second floor, which had direct access to the parking garage to get to Darlene's SUV. They drove through town and reached a small outdoor cafe overlooking a lake with an amazing view beyond it. They found a table near the edge of the deck, and Avery sat facing out towards the lake, taking in all its beauty. Avery looked so content. "Avery, would you like to see the menu, or would you like me to order you something that I know is good." Avery felt small with her offering to order him food, but he also didn't know what was good here. "I will let you order, but no onions or any green or red peppers. I hate those things." Darlene giggled. "No onions? Everything is made with onions. But don't worry, I got you covered." Darlene smiled as she went up to the bar and ordered them both some lunch, picking out what she thought they might both enjoy. She quickly returned with their food; two plates of pasta, with chicken parmesan for both of them, along with two glasses of lemon ice water. "Don't worry, no onions." She smiled as she slid his plate over towards him. Avery felt more relaxed than he had all weekend as if a weight had been lifted from his shoulders. Just listening to the birds and watching the waves of the lake ripple was relaxing. As they started eating, Darlene asked Avery about his workday so far; how had things been going on his new project? Avery looked surprised at first that she was asking him about work, but then started talking freely - almost like a pressure release valve - telling her all about his research into cell wall thickness calculations and how difficult it had been determining correct values given all the variables involved in each individual case. He went on to describe how fun it had been playing around with different mathematical solutions and trying different formulas until he eventually found one that worked correctly. Darlene smiled. This was the first time he actually talked to her directly about his job so much. She really couldn't believe how well the hypnosis had worked. "This is really good!" he exclaimed between mouthfuls of pasta as some of it dribbled on his shirt. Darlene giggled at him as she pointed to her shirt, trying to tell him he had something on him. "What?" he asked as she pointed again. He didn't seem to understand as he kept looking at her shirt. Was there something wrong with it? "You have a little bit of parmesan chicken on you. Are you saving it for later?" Darlene laughed a little as Avery blushed and quickly tried to get it off, only to smudge it a little. Darlene thought to herself that the poor boy was clueless. But Darlene continued to listen intently as Avery spoke passionately about his work, adding her own input here and there while eating her meal until, eventually, their conversation ran its course, and there were no more questions left for either of them to answer. As they finished their meal, they were contented in silence, watching the lake for a while. Finally, he let out a long, deep breath before saying: "Thanks for listening, Darlene...it's been really hard these past couple of weeks." He tried not to show any sign of emotion but his eyes were glassy with unshed tears that were threatening to fall out anytime soon as he bit his lip. Darlene gave him an understanding smile before placing her hand on top of his, giving it a comforting squeeze as she said reassuringly: "It's okay, Avery. I can imagine it has been hard." Now was the time to test the waters, Darlene thought. "Don't worry, I promise I'm not going to judge you." There was silence as Avery looked past Darlene towards the lake with ducks slowly swimming. It was as if the lake and the ducks were putting him in a trance again as he found the words to say it. "You know, don't you?" Darlene was impressed with Avery’s courage. She never thought he would confront the elephant in the room like that. She tried to think of the most appropriate response, but she wasn't sure if he was referring to the incident with John and him peeing on the floor or if he was talking about him wearing diapers to work. Maybe it was both. She paused as she tried to think about how to answer this delicate question. Finally, she said softly: "Yes, I know. It's okay; no one else knows in my department, and there is nothing wrong with you. I'm here for you if you want to talk more about it, and I'm not going to judge you." Avery's eyes shimmered as a couple of tears slid down his face whilst Darlene spoke, her words like daggers that cut through the air. "I know about the problems you have with John back at work and that you accidently had a humiliating accident in front of him and his coworkers." Darlene paused deliberately before continuing, her tone growing softer. "I also know that you wear diapers at work. I have seen them when you bend over to get the creamer." Avery felt his cheeks flush bright red as the truth was revealed, his heart pounding desperately in his chest. "I am such a loser." Avery looked at the ground and covered his face with his hands. "No, no, you're not." Darlene quickly said as she tried to reassure Avery. Avery continued to look down. Darlene decided to take a little more direct approach. "Avery, look at me now." Tears slid down Avery's face as he looked up at her. Darlene saw a scared little boy, not a grown man, in front of her. She couldn't help but wonder where and how he got like this. "Avery Sage, so what if you wear diapers? Do you not understand how smart you are? You are hopefully solving a problem no one in your department has been able to solve in over a year, and you have done it in less than two weeks. Why can't you see that for what it is? You have talent and value." Darlene said sternly, looking into Avery's eyes. "I don't care that you wear diapers. You are so much more than that. Fuck those who think differently." Darlene was shocked at herself and took on this role as a therapist. Maybe part of her sister is in her. But regardless, she got her answer. He wasn't wearing diapers for the fun of it. Avery's voice cracked. "I am sorry for crying in front of you. I... I... I really just started to wear the diapers since the incident with John. I have never had that bad of an accident before. I normally just wear pull-ups out in public, not that it is any better..." Darlene grabbed Avery's hand again as he started to look back down at the chair. "Avery, look at me again. I don't care if they are pull-ups or diapers. I admire you!" Avery tried to smile, but it felt good that someone knew this now. They sat in silence for a while after that. "We can stay longer if you like, or we can leave. I am ok with either. I don't want to rush this." Darlene tried her best to look patient even though she knew she had meetings. She was debating if she needed to cancel one or two of them. Avery looked at her gratefully, his eyes still glassy with tears. He slowly nodded his head. "We can go. I will be ok." Avery said before taking a deep breath and standing up from the table. With a small smile on his face, he said: "Thank you, Darlene." "You're welcome, Avery." Darlene smiled. She had to hold back the urge to ruffle his messy hair for some reason. They got up and left the restaurant to head back to work. That night when Darlene got home from work, she logged on to her work computer and said that the website that Avery accessed on company property was not sexual or pornographic. It was for medical purposes. The website will continue to be blocked on the company’s servers, computers, tablets, and phones. In her report, she wrote that this did not need to be forwarded to HR for any sort of records. She digitally signed her name and closed out the case.
  21. Pierry Loust: Maybeyour right, maybe your wrong. Keep reading to find out.
  22. Chapter 17 - Completed and Ready The next morning, Darlene arrived before Avery, wearing a light green blouse, black pants, and black-heeled shoes with her hair up in a bun. She grabbed her coffee and began to go over yesterday's IT reports. Combing through them and looking for things that should be brought to her attention. She then got out her planner and began planning her day, making any adjustments to meeting times changes and deciding what she wanted to accomplish. Darlene was very methodical about this process every morning. As she finished, she started to type a memo to her employees about an IT policy change she would like to implement soon. While typing, she looked up and saw through her office window that Avery had arrived, set his stuff down, picked up his Lego coffee cup, and walked into Darlene's office. Avery said before Darlene could speak, "Good Morning, Ms. Malatetsa." Darlene was taken aback. This was the first time he had ever started a conversation. Darlene paused as she was typing to her department. She turned to face Avery as he was getting a K-cup from the cabinets. She watched as he placed the coffee cup on the small refrigerator, leaned down, and exposed his diaper for a second as he grabbed a small bottle of milk. "MGM." Avery idly read as he opened the top, poured a little in, closed it back up, and placed it back into the fridge. He seemed less stiff around here right now. When he turned around to take his coffee cup and K-cup to the Keurig, Darlene turned away quickly to pretend to type. She didn't want him to be ashamed about accidentally revealing his diaper again. Darlene pretended to finish her email and then turned to face Avery. "Well, good morning to you also," she said as she gave him a pleasant smile. What happened next was very unexpected when Avery returned a warm smile. "I won't be long. Just getting my morning coffee." Avery said with a confidence he had rarely shown before. Darlene thought to herself. "Should I push it and engage in conversation or just call this a win?" "I have to know," Darlene finally said, "What kind of coffee did you pick out?" "I got one of your Green Mountain dark roast cups. I have been enjoying those the best. Especially in the morning," Avery replied as he looked at the Keurig to see if the cup of coffee was done. Again, Darlene was shocked. It wasn't just an answer but an answer with reasoning. He would never have done that before. "I tend to like the hazelnut roasted coffee in the mornings unless it is cold outside, and then, for some reason, I like the dark roasted coffee." She smiled as she picked up her own coffee and took a sip of the warmth. "I never had the hazelnut. I will have to try that sometime," as Avery took his coffee that had just finished, blew on it, and took a sip. He started to walk out. "Ms. Malatetsa, can I get Christy a cup of coffee when she shows up to work on the program with me? I will pay you." Darlene was pleased that he even had the nerve to ask this, and there was the occasional eye contact before he would look away. "Avery, you don't need to pay me, and yes, please help yourself in getting a coffee for Christy. I don't mind since she is up here working with us. I mean… with you, sorry for the slip-on that." Darlene quickly reminded herself that Avery doesn't work for her, as she corrected herself. Avery gave her a warm smile as he left. "Thank you." It almost sounded like he was excited to get something for Christy. Darlene chuckled at this little boy's excitement over something so simple. She stroked her hair. I wonder what Christy knows and how that poor man is falling for her. No one would be that excited to get someone coffee. Avery tugged on the back of his shirt as he walked out, letting Darlene know he was still conscious about his diaper possibly peeking out, but maybe he wasn't concerned in her office, and when he walked out, he may feel more self-aware of it being exposed. Darlene told herself she was reading too much into it, but the conversation was a definite real improvement. Darlene turned around and started back on her department email. If one day had this kind of effect, what would Avery be like by Monday? It wasn't long before Christy showed up at Avery's desk. He smiled and stood up to greet her. "Hey, before we get started, would you like me to get you a cup of coffee?" Christy was taken aback by this behavior. He seemed chipper, and his eyes almost looked puppy dog-like... She had a hard time not laughing at him. She didn't want to hurt his feelings. "Uh, ok. I would love a cup of coffee; that is so sweet of you." Christy wanted to smack herself for the last part by saying it was sweet of you. Stop talking to him like he was a kid, and she had to tell herself he was only four years younger than her. Avery quickly walked away, tugging again at the back of his shirt. Christy watched, thinking to herself, "he just needs to wear a size larger shirt and tuck it in, and he wouldn't look so silly walking around everywhere pulling on the back of his shirt." She giggled to herself. She wonders if he even knew he was doing it now that he has been doing it for almost a week. She thought about telling him but then didn't want to embarrass him. He seemed so fragile, and he was doing so well this week away from John and his team. Christy sat down and started to boot up her computer and take out her notes. She had the awful thought that Avery may be taking a liking to her. He obviously hasn't had many girlfriends, if any, and she hasn't been interested in a relationship with him or anyone else since she got out of a relationship just a few months ago. The last thing she needed was someone asking her on a date. She pushed that thought down, telling herself that she was being paranoid. besides, the way he was acting was silly and cute, and she couldn't help but giggle and smile at that. When Avery stepped back into Darlene's office, he had a bright smile. He didn't talk to Darlene because Darlene had her headset on and was talking in between conversations on the headset. Avery pointed at the spare coffee up as if to say. "Can I borrow this for Christy?" He said quietly. Darlene smiled back and hit the mute on her headset. "Yes, Avery, you can have that. Did you ask what she wanted?" Avery blushed as he realized he had no idea what Christy wanted. Avery almost dashed out of Darlene's office, which made Darlene giggle inside. She had just unmuted her headset when she heard Avery yell out. "Christy! What kind of coffee would you like? And what type of cream?" Darlene almost blushed for Christy as he was shouting like a child. Darlene muted her headset quickly as she knew the people on the phone could hear that. "Just go back and talk to her. You can't yell at her across the office," Darlene said in an authoritative tone. Avery blushed as he realized he had done something that wasn't appropriate. "I… I… I’m sorry." He looked back at Darlene. "I am sorry. I'm so sorry," as he saw Darlene wave him away from the office like a little child. Avery didn't care as he tugged the back of his shirt and started to walk quickly, he suddenly remembered the diaper he was wearing, and it was possibly crinkling loudly. He forced himself to slow his walk back to Christy. His yelling across the office caught several employees' attention as they watched him go from a quick walk to a slow walk. Christy wanted to hide under the laptop when Avery screamed out at her. She, too, was blushing for different reasons. He came up to his desk where she was sitting. "I am sorry. I didn't mean to yell that out. I don't know why I did…" "It is ok. But what kind of coffee does Darlene have." Christy asked. "Ah.. ah." Avery closed his eyes, trying to remember. "Dark roast, hazelnut, a morning brew, espresso roast, blended, original roasted, and decaf," he paused, “And she had regular creamer, hazelnut creamer, mocha creamer, and French vanilla creamer." Christy was taken aback by how fast he went through all this. She paused for a second and thought and then decided. I will take the morning brew with French vanilla creamer... not too much, please." "Great, let me get it for you. I will be right back." Avery turned around and walked back to Darlene's office, trying not to run back to the office. Darlene was still on the office phone when she nodded, acknowledging his presence. Avery did quick work and grabbed a morning brew K-cup and one small cup of French vanilla creamer. He opened the Keurig and noticed the K-cup that he had used was still in there as he pulled it out and threw it away. He put the new K-cup in the Keurig, closed it, placed the coffee cup underneath, and pressed start. He watched Darlene talking on the phone with such a commanding voice to whomever she was talking to. He could tell she would be a hard person to say "no" to. The coffee finally finished as Avery grabbed the hot coffee and slowly walked back to his desk, making sure not to spill any. He carefully placed the coffee down by her and handed her the French vanilla creamer. "I thought you might want to pour what you wanted." He smiled and sat down, feeling the diaper underneath him as he sat and feeling self-conscious about it. He reminded himself. If he makes it next week without having any major accidents, he will go back to pull-ups and feel much better. Christy wondered what got into Avery. He was being so unusually chipper. He usually would want to get straight to work, but today, he seemed like he wanted something else. She found his behavior cute but unsettling. She didn't want to lead him on accidentally. This could be Avery’s awkward way of flirting, and she didn’t want him to get the wrong idea. "OK, shall we get started? I have integrated most of your calculations." Christy paused as she pointed to the screen. “I made sure all the old code was out and then recompiled it with some simple formulas to make sure I didn't miss anything. It ran perfectly." Christy paused as she took a sip of her coffee. Avery was leaning over to look at her laptop screen. He could smell Christy's perfume or body lotion. She smelled rather nice, which made Avery a little nervous because he tried to remember if he had put underarm deodorant on or not. He couldn't remember. He was absent-minded, and it wasn't the first time he would have forgotten to do this. He wanted to smell his armpits so badly but refrained from doing it and instead enjoyed Christy's scent. "Then I started to add back all your calculations with the additional logic you gave me back yesterday. It was taken away because I found some programming logic problems but fixed them. It now compiles and runs without error." "Wow, that is awesome." Avery looked excited. "So can we give it some data to see what the final calculations are and if it is the same values I would get?" "Yes, I think so. If you can create a table with the input in a CSV format like this," Christy opened up an example file. Avery was excited to see his calculations and her programming would yield the same results. Avery started working on initial conditions to give the program something from the real world. He then did his calculations. After about two hours of sitting side by side with Christy, Avery downloaded his CSV file and handed it to Christy on a thumb drive. "Here, I think this should work." Christy took the thumb drive. "Great, I will load it up after lunch." She turned to face him. "Guess what I brought us for lunch?" She said as Avery smiled. "You don't need to bring me lunch every day." Christy looked back at Avery with a stern look. "Did you bring you lunch?" Avery was silent. "That’s what I thought, and we are not going to solve these world problems on an empty stomach every day." Christy leaned down to grab her insulated lunch bag. She took out two cloth napkins that looked well used and folded one out in front of everyone and one out in front of her. "Today's lunch surprise is... Toasted Ham and Cheese with a side of pickles if you want. And a mixed fruit cup." She places each item on Avery's napkin. Avery noticed that his sandwich was cut in half while Christy's was not. He had to admit, though, it was nice to have lunch and lunch with someone he was comfortable with. He knew he wasn't comfortable with many people. As they ate lunch, Christi started to chat about the program before suddenly ceasing. "You know, we really don't banter beyond work. Why not let me know what you enjoy doing outside of cracking complex math queries that no one else seems to solve?" she asked hesitantly. Avery almost coughed hard on his last mouthful of ham and cheese sandwich as Christy observed, feeling like she had stepped out of line. "There must be something! Do you like cooking meals? Exercising? Movie nights?" She said cheerfully. Avery stared at Christi's inquisitive face and paused for a moment. Her brown eyes sparkled with curiosity. Slightly ashamed, he stared at his food and took another bite from his ham and cheese sandwich. "Well...I really don't do much other than work and school." Avery mumbled slowly. "There must be something!" She said cheerfully. Avery silently swallowed the last piece of cheese before replying to her: "Walking? I used to love walking in the park when I was younger; I could take hours meandering through the paths around the river, examining bees hovering above blossom clusters or watching squirrels busily rustling for their winter stock of acorns in the oak trees." Avery thought for a second. "I do like movies, but I wait for them to come out on Netflix or HBO Max or something like that. Sometimes, I buy the digital copy if I can't find it anywhere." That was at least something for Christy, so we decided to go further into the conversation. "I like movies as well. What kind of movies do you like? I like mystery, suspense, comedy, and action movies. To be honest, I like going to the movie theater. I love the big screen and surround sound. It is so much better than what I can get at home." Avery ate the last mouthful of his sandwich and took a sip of his soda to wash it down. "Well, I like fantasy, sci-fi, animation, and action movies," he said. Avery did not mention that he also liked children's movies because they were fun to watch. "Well, it seems we have action movies in common, at least." He seemed eager about this because he blurted out, "We should go see an action movie together." Christy nearly choked on her water when she heard that. She had not expected him to be so forward and suggest something that sounded a lot like a date. His voice was high-pitched again as if he was excited about being able to spend more time with her. It made her feel touched and guilty for a moment because she wanted to be with him, too, but she quickly recovered. She stalled by saying, "Well, maybe if we can find the right movie and some friends to come along. Movies are always fun in a group." She hoped that the answer was neutral enough so he would not get upset or offended. Christy steered the conversation back to their work as best she could, considering how awkward it felt now. Avery seemed eager to talk about going to an action movie, but eventually, he got back on track. They discussed the technical aspects of programming and making sure that cancer cells were thicker than normal cells. Once they had finished discussing their progress, Christy took a deep breath and told him she would work on the rest so they could submit it in time for their deadline. She thanked him for his help while making sure to give him credit for his ideas in case anyone else wanted to use them in future projects. Avery smiled warmly at her, grateful for her hard work and understanding. Still, he couldn't help but feel disappointed that she hadn't taken his suggestion of seeing an action movie together. He thanked her again before getting up from his chair and giving her one last nod before heading out of the room. Christy closed her laptop and put it in her work bag. "Well, with these changes, we should be able to fully execute the program now and test it out at the lab. I will talk with Bryan about the next steps. I am sure he is eager to move onto the next phase." Christy paused. "I know I don’t speak for Bryan, but we couldn't have resolved these issues without you. You should feel proud about that", feeling slightly regretful for not taking him up on his invitation. She had enjoyed their conversations and was grateful for his help on the project, but she couldn't help but feel like something was missing.
  23. I love Clifford the big red dog
  24. I still play and buy legos. I even have some legos kits displayed in my office at work. Granted they tend to be the more expensive ones. I buy a kit and slowly put them together at work. I also have a bucket legos I still play with. I have a family with a 12 and 15 years legos is one way to be a kid out in the open.
  25. I know a lot of you don't like Darlene right now that is understandable. You will find out more later but she is a control freak and hates not being in control of situations and does irrational things when she isn't. This is her character flaw for good or bad. Enjoy the next chapter! Chapter 16 - Hypnosis is a woman's best friend As she held the USB stick her sister had given her, Darlene hurried home, eager to begin her plan. She hoped she could still get a head start before the weekend. In the background, her sister Laurisa could be heard cautioning her to take it slow and give him time to process it all. Darlene couldn't help but feel annoyed and rolled her eyes, questioning the difference between starting tonight or tomorrow. She believed an extra day would only be beneficial. She was very eager to get started and to see the results. Besides, in Darlene's mind, she needed Avery to leave his work iPhone near his dresser. This was crucial as she intended to record Avery's sleeping patterns for the hypnosis program to work effectively. Even though she had no control over the situation and the odds were stacked against her, Darlene remained determined to try the program and find out if it would positively affect Avery's attitude towards her and open up to her. Darlene reminded herself that once she had installed the program, she could only check if it had executed the hypnosis based on Avery's sleeping patterns. This would indicate if he had his corporate iPhone nearby while sleeping and provide some hope for determining if it was functioning correctly. Upon arriving home, Darlene immediately removed her high heels and left her bags in the entryway. She then hurried upstairs to her master bedroom, unbuttoning her blouse and revealing her lacy white maternity bra. Once in her bedroom, she picked out a comfortable light blue silk nightwear set consisting of a V-neck tank top and matching shorts, accentuating her curves. Darlene quickly pulled on the nighttime set, carefully leaving her maternity bra on to avoid any potential leaking. She then hurried down to her home office, the fabric of her lingerie caressing her curves. She always felt so luxurious, smooth, and relaxed on her skin. Being out of her office clothes for the night felt so much better. Darlene made her way back to the entryway. She retrieved her laptop from her work bag and headed towards her home office. The office was a spacious and well-lit room with large windows that allowed plenty of natural light to filter in. The far wall was lined with floor-to-ceiling bookshelves, which separated her personal belongings from her work items. A sturdy, solid oak desk with a matching file cabinet occupied one corner of the room. At the same time, a laser printer/scanner sat just beneath it. On top of the desk was a docking station for her laptop, which was connected to two large 25-inch computer screens. Darlene approached her desk with a sense of anticipation, eager to settle into the luxurious embrace of her Italian leather desk chair. As she sank into the seat, a wave of comfort washed over her, prompting a contented sigh to escape her lips. With practiced ease, she activated the docking station, watching with satisfaction as her laptop came to life with a gentle hum and a series of blinking lights. The familiar sound of the device booting up filled the room's silence. As she waited, she looked over to her left side, where there was a picture of her sisters and herself, shoulder to shoulder, perched on the stone wall outside the Gershwin Theatre in New York City. They wore sunglasses and tourist hats and leaned toward one another. Their smiles were bright white against their tanned faces. The Gershwin Theatre was an enormous building, all steel and shrouded glass. Back home, she and her sisters had watched Wicked religiously every year in December, and they finally got the chance to watch it on Broadway. Every time she saw this picture, it would make her smile and remind her how lucky she had such a great bond with her sisters. They weren’t just siblings but also best friends and confidantes. Following the start-up of her computer, Darlene efficiently logged into her company's network and proceeded to establish a highly secure VPN before initiating the installation process for the application. First, Darlene had to locate Avery's corporate phone. She quickly scrolled through the list of IP addresses, her heart racing with anticipation as she hoped to locate Avery's device. Miracle of all miracles, it was there, online and fully charged. She hesitated for a moment, feeling a sense of guilt that what she was about to do would be illegal if discovered. Making a silent prayer, she took a deep breath and, with absolute precision, entered the IP address into her laptop, granting herself remote access. She looked over her shoulders almost expecting someone to be watching, her paranoia was unfounded, of course. Without further delay, Darlene began the process of installing the hypnosis app onto Avery's corporate device without him knowing it. She knew that ethically what she was doing was wrong but she was convinced that this would be better in the long run for all involved. Every second seemed to last an eternity as Darlene nervously watched a progress bar slowly inch closer to completion on her screen. When the installation was finally complete, Darlene let out a sigh of relief. She confirmed the set of the hypnosis app had been successful - now all that remained was to configure it to launch between 12 am and 4 am and program it to collect Avery's breathing patterns while he slept. When his breathing would match that of a REM sleep pattern, it would begin the hypnosis. She smiled triumphantly - her plan had reached its first milestone. It was now up to Lady Luck if his corporate phone would be sitting by his bed tonight. As Darlene switched off the light and prepared to leave her home office, a sense of contentment washed over her. However, she still had one more task to complete before calling it a night. It was crucial for her to relieve the pressure in her full mammary glands and ensure that the hard-earned milk she had been pumping for over six months did not go to waste due to a lack of regular pumping. This was a constant source of worry for Darlene, as she was committed to donating her milk and wanted to ensure that it remained of the highest quality. She returned to the entryway where she left her oversized satchel from work, which contained the breast pump, before heading into the kitchen. Once in the kitchen, she removed a lunch bag with ice packs containing four milk bottles labeled MSM- D 06/04. She vacuum-sealed each bottle and placed them in the freezer to distribute later in the week. She opened a cupboard, grabbed a couple of empty bottles, and headed to the sofa. She then clicked on the TV to catch a glimpse of an episode of Game of Thrones, her eyes twinkling with anticipation. She was now in the 6th episode of the first season and was very much hooked on the show. She remembered what happened in the 5th episode. One of the most gruesome parts Darlene remembered was when Gregor beheaded his own horse and then attacked Ser Loras. Luckily, Sandor Clegane stepped in to defend Loras and stop his brother from killing him. Darlene shivered at the thought of that part as she sat on her sofa with the breast pumps to her side. She leaned back and pressed play on the remote. As the Game of Thrones started with the theme song and intro, Darlene began to discard her silky blue tank top and undoing the tight clasp of her maternity bra, two plump full breasts were revealed, begging to be set free from their restrictive confinement. Darlene gasped in relief. "ah, that feels better." Her nipples were puckered and sensitive, seeming to swell even further with each tantalizing caress. Her full breasts were firm yet invitingly soft to the touch. Since she started this, her nipples and breasts were extra sensitive to the touch. It was a pleasant but odd sensation for her to experience alone. She leaned over to remove her breast pump from her overstuffed satchel and plugged it into the wall by the sofa she was sitting on. Then she grabbed two bottles she had placed on the coffee table; Darlene reverently cradled them against her ample and inviting breast as she relaxed on the couch. She grabbed two suction cups and attached the bottles to each one. She slowly pressed the suction cups to her breast, covering her swollen nipples. Darlene reached over and turned on the pump, which released a gentle hum as it worked its magic and began to ease her discomfort. With each pass of the device, more of that warm breast milk flowed from her body into a container attached to the suction cup on each breast. Darlene leaned back into the sofa as the pump did its work. She tried to ease into the television's soft glow, which enveloped her in its warmth, but her mind wandered tonight. Tonight, she knew the bottles of breast milk collected from her breast would not be delivered to their intended recipients due to her night out with her sisters and alcohol consumption. She was careful about these things and limited them because the stakes for her were so high: If she didn't keep up with her deliveries, the mothers and infants that relied on her might go hungry, and then her breast milk would dry up. She told herself she was doing this for mothers who could not produce milk for one reason or another. This gave her a strange sense of purpose and reasoning for what happened to her and her child. Still, Darlene didn't know how long she would continue to pump milk for the Mother's Special Milk organization. Laurisa says she is still doing this to latch on for a reason: her baby died during birth, and she is trying to make something good out of something terrible and avoid the pain. The suggestion being that this whole thing was a form of denial. Darlene understood her sister’s point but disagreed. The loss was still very fresh but she resented her act of charity being seen as having hidden reasons. Watching TV didn't help to get her mind off her failed delivery tonight. She still remembered going to the hospital excited to have a baby girl. She was excited because she had spent the last two months preparing for arrival, decorating the room, and picking out the perfect baby furniture. Soft tears rolled down her face. She was in labor for a long time before something terribly went wrong. Tonight, she thought about what it would be like to have cradled her little baby girl while she breastfed her. It was supposed to be a time of bonding. She was robbed of this as she wiped the tears from her face and felt the breast pump suction pull on her nipple and take the milk from her. Her breast felt relieved from the pressure of the built-up milk. The physical relief did little for her emotional anguish though. It felt hollow. There should be a hungry mouth attached to her nipple, not a cold machine. Finally finished, she turned the pump off, got up, dumped the two milk bottles down the drain, cleaned out her breast pump, and put it on the kitchen counter to dry and be used tomorrow morning before transporting it back to work. Darlene never finished the sixth episode of Game of Thrones and only remembered a little this time as her mind was elsewhere. She told herself she must start over this weekend and catch up. As Darlene went to bed. She wondered if Avery was asleep and if there might be some results tomorrow, even though her sister told her not to test it until Monday. Darlene could hear Laurisa's lecture if she knew her thoughts. --------------------------------------------------- It was 9 pm and dark outside; Avery was playing on his PlayStation in just his light red boxers and no shirt on. He made it past a couple more levels but was now getting frustrated playing Sack-Boy. Avery wanted to complete this one level but kept dying over and over. Finally, after several more tries, he gave up for the night; he put the controller down. He had taken his nightly medication a couple of hours ago. Tired, Avery yawned as he grabbed both his personal and corporate iPhones. He then headed for bed and set the alarm for 6 a.m. on one phone and 6:15 a.m. on the other phone, clueless that anything had changed on his corporate phone. Both iPhones were sitting on wireless charges on his nightstand next to him. Just as he finished brushing his teeth, his sleeping medication kicked in, and he felt his eyes heavy. He looked at the stack of diapers on his dresser, which reminded him of his failure to control himself. He really needs to find a place for them, somewhere out of sight and out of mind. In fact, Avery thought he should try going back to pull-ups since John hasn't been around and he hasn't had any significant accidents. He decided to give it another week of wearing the diapers even though they made him feel infantile, and then he would step back into the pull-ups. He made a giant yawn and stretched as he slid himself into his covers only in his boxer briefs. The soft sheets pressed against his skin. He felt the cool air on his bare chest as he pulled the covers back. The air conditioner vent blew slightly on the back of his neck, giving him a slight chill. He leaned over, grabbed his large red stuffed dog, hugged it tightly, and passed out quickly, falling asleep on his side facing the nightstand.
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