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@zzyzx You also have answered ypur question. You're cut because de doctor was. Cut doctors tend to cut more. Cut people are jealous of intact males. I don't pretend it, it's the true. You don't feel anything anymore but yu don't know it. You don't even masturbate. You stroke a bit but you don't masturbate. Your organ is defect. Your life is ok ? Let me talk one hour with you and I'll find something. Look at the countries at war, mass murders, terror attacks,... Don't they share something ?

@zzyzx There are many papers. Some with the "positive aspects" but there is none. Hygiene maybe ? https://scholar.google.be/scholar?q=psychological+consequences+circumcision&hl=fr&as_sdt=0&as_vis=1&oi=scholart

You will find studies that will tell you the opposite but PLEASE forget all the positive aspects of circumcision. They lie to you. I was cut at the age of 2 for no reason like tens of thousands of little boys in my country in the 60, 70 and 80. Less than six months later, my parents tried to potty train me ? Even cut guys don't know what's happening. What do you think ? Someone cuts a part of your penis, the more sensitive and important organ for the society, and nothing will happen ? The part of the body you know it's sensitive. You never see naked people walking dsown the street for example. It made a mess of all my life if you want to know but I know now why I am an abdl and bottom. It's not my fault but since doctors dont admit all this, it just doesnt' exist. I don't feel anything down there but I think I somewhere remember what it was before AND it sometimes wakes up when I have urges. I'm not impotant, I still have erections but we, cut guys, don't feel anything. When made when young, you can adpat your body and your brain but careful boys: the older you're cut, the more impotant you'll be. Believe me, doctors who cut are cut themselves and are jealous of intact people. That's the world they use while talking about not cut guys. Intact and cut ! It's always preventable but doctors chose the more easy way. Don't ask me why. I'm in a post-traumatic stress disorder like many of us. I was cut at the age of 2, I'm 47 now and believe me it has huge consequences. I have tons of links but I'm too bad when I open them and I can't at the moment. Take a look by yourself. I'm sure lots of us are abdl for this reason. This is our way to live this trauma to calm down. Much better than all the pills they give you. It would last too long to explain everything here. Thinking about to post a video on youtube in the future. Stay tuned if you want. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/moral-landscapes/201501/circumcision-s-psychological-damage

I woke up once to pee last night, not long after having fallen asleep. It's like I'm totally conscious and aware when it happens but I barely remember in the morning. Do you feel the same ?

These foles are on WMM but with all the different rules between sites and groups, I never know if I can post a link. I think I'm at the point I've developped an urge incontinence at daytime already. During a sleep of 8 hours, I wake up twice to pee and I pee again when waking up. I need to give up control totally while sleeping. I feel it's about to happen and I think these files will help me and could be interesting for people at the same stage. That's the reason why I talk about it. I'd be happy if it can help anyone here. I wish you all a good weekend. Don't forget to stay hydrated, stay relaxed too and void well.

You probably know them. There is a short one: "sleep wetting" from Sarnoga and the other one is called "bedwetting file" posted by coco123 but it's one old audio tape from Tommy of DPF.

Hi. Still in progress, wearing and learning for 3 months now and i also notice effects during the nights. I now wake up several times to pee. It wasn't the case last month and I'm less conscious about it, especially the first one. Still drinking a lot, about 1,5l or sometimes 2l chamomile in the evening, somewhere between 10pm and 1am. It's too much but I frequently pee during the day and in the evening while drinking and I guess this is the reason i wake up 2 or 3 times now. My bladder is still huge compared to my anatomy but I can empty it even if there is 100ml or less during the day and it's a very good point. Hypno helps me. I now use two bedwetting files after a short break. My problem was that i didn't dare regressing too far but two things I remember changed it. First, a photo of me diapered when I was a child and then, one night when I wore a diaper. This little me really showed me how to relax correctly. It's just happened last night, it's really odd. Trust me, I remember a few events of my childhood. It's vague but I still remember little things. It's like an inner voice told me it was important to remember one special moment, I can't explain. This last hypno helped me a lot actuallly. I could feel in a semi conscious state of mind that I was really afraid to relax totally while sleeping. I guess the last step of potty training is the more difficult to reverse. I think I progress correctly when I see how it goes with my sleep wettings and when I read you. I'll make a report of my journey later. I progress but it's still too recent and it's not necessary to repeat the same story everyday. Thank you all for sharing and succes ?

It's not from me actually. I've heard this in a hypno file from Sarnoga or EMG. Pretty sure it's Sarnoga but I don't remember the name of file. It really works with me.

For serious wetters like me and others here, it's not a problem to have more than 4 or 5 diapers a day. I've always drunk a lot and had to go to the toilet very often. I put up to 6 diapers a day and it's still an advantage compared to going to the toilet twice each hour. The more you pee, the more you need diapers but the more you go to the toilet every day too. I'd say the benefit always goes to diapers. I don't think it's a good idea. The less you rember how many times you do it, the more easy it is to forget (Sarnoga and others talk about it in their files). It's a nice feeling to have a wet diaper and no idea of how it could be so wet. Everybody is different but it works very well for me. I pee at least twice each hour, 70pc of the time. Less after eating, a bit more in the evening. I need to write an update about my journey to talk about it, I'll do it later. Stilll reading stories here and it helps a lot. Thanks @DLJeff52 and everybody else for sharing your experience.

I'm still here. It's improving more and more but it's not necessary to bring further explanations at the moment. I keep reading your experiences. Thanks for sharing.

Thank you and also thanks to @Eido? I've read on the 12 month diaper program post someone saying it always happens at the office when he's on the PC. Same here: when I'm on my computer, especially when I read this forum and drink enough water (what I always do), it sometimes dribbles too. Some situations (or people) make me relax. I was about to have an accident at the train station during a short break just after having met a nice guy. We discussed about kinky practices: he's a gooner and tries to find hypno files - totally different, sorry. We were in a bar and I've drunk 2 cups of coffie and 2 glasses of water. I've drunk water and coffie before and always have a bottle in my hand but no more than usual. He was very calm and I fell totally ralaxed, it was a very peaceful moment and I have few in my life. In that time, I could manage and hold 30 or 40 minutes in normal situations (overactive bladder) but on this day, everything went totally wrong. During the 40 minute train ride, I went 4 times to the toilet. It's like he hypnotized me. He's not a tist but he'd be a very good one. I know this last example isn't really drippling unconsciosuly (I wasn't diapered unfortunatly) but an example when some situations seem to induce wetting like you at the traffic light. It's a kind of trigger. This event and the other one when I felt totally down while going to a party and had to come back home confirmed me I couldn't live without diapers anymore. We are all differtent but it probably happens to all of us during training. It's interesting to analyse when it happens and to focus on it to try to relive the moment. My story is a bit different anyway. I fight a weak vessel (always known but really realized at 46yo) and have always drunk a lot of water since I was a child. If I've had the opportunity, I'd have been diapered 24/7 for much longer now but I couldn't. Not the purpose here: it was just to give quick context but it seems that I have the same progress and that I achieve the same steps as all the other trainees. I'm still at the beginning of my program though.

I have arrived at destination ?? I've asked my partner about this morning in the car. As saied, I was happy because I had noticed that I didn't feel anything in my bladder while he was riding. I often feel a bit discomfort as he's quiete nervous when he rides even if he's always careful. I've told him several times already but it's like potty training: these are habits one can't easily get rid of. He then asked me what I was thinking about. I've just saied I didn't feel anything today. Later on, I've asked him why this question. Did he remark anything ? He was pretending I was looking at the control pannel but I've finally asked him if I seemed happy and if I was smiling and he confirmed. I told him it was normal. I was smiling because I was happy I had filled my nappy quiete unconsiously and because I felt relaxed. I was in a kind of a trance. Never before in my all life I could be so relaxed. I've always been very nervous, lack of diapers is the reason and I have really missed them a lot. I've peed totally unconsciously at least once today. I was brushing my teeth and I just felt warm and wet on my balls (I have very low balls). Lets say I don't push anymore before and don't contract at the end of urination at least 85% of the time. I've heard someone speaking about a magic place where you wet constantly when you already are at an advanced stage. I have this place too. It didn't stop drippling when I was there yesterday for one hour or two. Inwas on my desk, reading and answering on DD. May I suggest the newbies to read testimonials and real stories about incontinence desires ? I think it works a lot for me. Sadly, the afternoon was less interesing. I couldn't relax correctly during something like 2 hours: lots of people in the train because it was the rush hour. I'd have had to stand up to pee but I didn't. I've then soaked one diaper in just 2 hours because of one or two stronger flows. When it's more quiete, there is no problem. I can pee in the train with people around but crowds have always frightened me a bit. Quiete a challenge to change in train stations but more comfortable for me than peeing twice or more each hour without diaper like before. I have booked a studio for two nights. There is an open door event at an abdl dealer tomorrow and I'll meet abdl people there. With all the changes that occur in me, these are people I feel comfortable with. It will probably relax me a bit. For this reason, even if I had chosen to take a break in diapewearing (and I won't), I'd have worn one for the night. I won't probably wet in my sleep tonight but I won't sleep in my own bed and wouldn't have had taken the risk. So, don't worry: I still wear. I must wear and I'll wear. I know it will bring lots of issues but my life is much more comfortable now than it has never been before. One word about BM. I don't look to have bowel and even if I take care of my regime and health, I'm not as healthy as you are. I can't eat 5 times in the day with my occupations. I generally go in the morning after breakfast but it's totally upside down now. I'm more or less constipated with sometimes very little afternoon accidental release in my nappy. I've had analsex before and these last 7 or 8 years, it has been a bit difficult to hold in the morning. It happens in the afternoon now. Nothing to see with the change of my regime BUT if I'm a bit constipated, it really means that something is drastically changing in me. I'm very sensitive. Last time it happend to me, it was 8 years ago when we renewed the house and changed the toilet. My bowel remained disturbed for 3 weeks. My body literally informs me that something is happening and I like this.

Very interesting experiences here. Many people ask if we have tricks. One which works a lot for me is reading testimonials and real stories like in this forum. I have put a DiaperBoy sticker on a hidden spot of my phonecase. This reminds me to relax everytime i see my phone. You can decide to trigger yourself like this. There are more easy ways. For example, just decide to relax (or not if you don't have the time or the opportunity) everytime you see a cellphone. Yours, on tv, in the street, etc. My journey is somewhere on this incontinence desires forum if you want to have a look. Let's say that I'm a fake newbie. One thing about pills and surgery. I've just tried caths a few times long ago but I believe it's much more rewarding if YOU, your mind and body only reach this state. You are able to do it, don't never forget. You ARE incontinent and your body reacts as it must do. Manage it, train it and it will allow you to live your deepest dreams. It's nice to see people like me. I feel much better these last days. Take care and void well. ⛲⛲⛲?

I've just noticed something positive for me. I don't ride but my partner does and when I was in the car with him before, it sometimes could be a bit painful inside because he's a bit nervous while riding. I guess I was contracting inside to avoid accidents even it never happend to me in my life before. We went for shopping right now, it was a short ride but it was very peaceful for me: I was totally relaxed and felt nothing. When we arrived back home, he asked me what I was thinking about. I think he noticed I was very happy, I had a smile on my face. It's been a good opportunity to explain him the pros of wearing diapers for a boy like me. He didn't react and that's a good reaction with him. Need to go now. I'll be alone and must take 4 train connections. I hope it will less stressful than last week ?

With the situation in the world, in my country and everything that happened these last years, I care less about things than before. I don't say I don't care anymore and won't tell everybody I meet but I'm more comfortable with this desire. Totally agree ? I've read that the normal urination is 4 to 8 times a day but it was at least 10, sometimes 15 maybe ? Never counted. Besides, I'm short and lightweight: 1m66 for 57kg - 59kg and when I take care of the food I eat, I can easily go down to 55kg (sorry no time for conversion). It could never be more than 4 or 5 for me ?. It was very tiring and I noticed the difference not long ago when I've really worn 24/7 for the first time. Even if I wore in public before, I was afraid of leaks. I know people don't notice diapers, it's never been a problem for me but I'm a serious pisser, again. Imagine 20 years ago with the poor-quality diapers we had at the time when I could pee +/- 5,5oz. each hour when I wanted to soak them. It will be very difficult. He generally doesn't want to talk about diapers. But I'll have to say one day and it will probably be a very short moment. He will even not set a random alarm in the middle of the night if it is related to diapers. There must be an app somewhere to set random alarms in a given part fo the day. For example: setting an alarm between 1am and 3am everyday but always at a different time. I've read something like this on the force bedwetting post on Tumblr. It might help me. I've just begun to feel concerned about bed and sleepwetting because I don't even wake up to pee and I stay dry. My mind is too strong. I must solve it and I will. It's not a problem of position: I can pee lying down or on both sides. Problem is that I never practice wetting on my side, I've made it 2 or 3 times to have a try but it leaks more easy and I prefer staying on the back. I know I must work on it. Thank you for reply. It helps a lot, like all the testimonials I read here and there. I won't react too fast on other posts, I don't think if I have anything interesting to add. It's just the beginning for me even if I'm accustomed to diapers. I'll probably reach some steps more quickly than other people and I admit it's a bit thanks my weak and oversaturated vessel. Don't worry again: I know what I do. I've made a blood test recently and everything is ok, I eat enough proteins and vitamines. For the beginners here: never drink 130oz.water the first time if you are not accustomed to it. Other steps will take longer, bedwetting is not for tomorrow but I'll be patient. What more about me ? I think I don't relax the pelvic muscle correctly: I push too much to relax it and it's better to let it go. I know the techniques and the human (especially male) anatomy. I have anal sex sometimes and I have already relaxed the internal anal sphincter. I don't want Bowel but if you can relax your rectum, you can then relax the pelvic muscle too. I'd be a better mentor than a subjet. However, I don't push inside the penis when I feel it arrives, it can flow alone. I rarely contract inside the glans when done now: I think it's an important step. Never tried to stop and will never try. Next step is when I'll pee while changing. I've always peed in the bath or under the shower but I really pissed totally unconsciously once last week. I know it now: it just came. Probably the effect of warm water. I think my diapers are soaked less quickly than before. I pee differently now: by little amounts, several times each hour. But I use a lot of diapers. If I want to weight them and I let two diapers aside because I don't have the time to check their weight immediatly, I can forget them. Some people pee so rarely that they can't forget the moments they have peed but some days, I use so many diapers that I literally forget them. I often use 4 Formacare (I really like them) each day, sometimes 3 nappies if I use one more absorbent one. I know I'm new into diaper training but I've learnt a lot with my experience in the past and the fact I drink so much water is probably unconsiously linked. I've asked my mother recently and she has confirmed that it's an habit I've always had. Do I drink to wet or do I wet to drink ?? It might seem odd but I've improved alone very quickly and took some habits before reading the blogs, it's probably the effect of hypno files. They didn't turn me to be an incontinent diaperboy but they allowed me to accept who I am. "You are a diaper boy" and "Every good boy wears diapers" from Sarnoga were very revealing to me. It's not really hypno files actually: it just reminds you who you are. I listened to them 2 or 3 times each and it was enough: these two files will always remain in my mind. Don't ask me why I've waited so much time before assuming this part of me, I don't know myself.

Thanks,@jonbearab My bladder has always been a bit overactive but it's improving a lot in a very short time now. I'll tell when I'll at least wake up to pee at night. It's just a matter of time, relaxing with a lot of self-persuasion end encouragement. I know my body and I know it will happen one day.

Hello everybody. I know it’s very, very, very long but I introduce myself and tell a bit more about my journey in the same time. Let’s pretend it’s a therapy for me and I hope it will improve in the future. Sorry for my poor English, I’m not a native speaker and I try to do my best. I underdstand if nobody reads, I myself don’t have too much time to spend on forums. I'm a 47yo boy from Europe wearing diapers for more than 20 years, very occasionaly first but I've always needed them in my thoughts and I wear almost 24/7 since last January. I know I must read all the 12 month diaper program posts but I'm not a newbie and don't want to harrass with my story elsewhere. I've read a lot of stories recently. You won't believe me but I didn't know it was so common outside of Europe. The French speaking areas don't offer so many testimonies and blogs. It's like I'm discovering this, even if I'm on Twitter for 10 years or more now. It's a bit like my status of diaperboy I’ve just « discovered ». I've always known but I didn't accept it and when I put a diaper on in the past, I was pretending it was for fun. But I am a real diaperboy, I have always been in mind and must be diapered 24/7 now for various reasons and incontinence is the normal way of life for a boy like me. First of all : I want and I’ve always wanted it but I’ve never talked about this until now. I’m a real diaperboy. I’ve really enjoyed a lot the few times I wore diapers and I’m conditioned to wear them already. I’m potty trained, haven’t had any accident when I was young but it’s like it never went out of my mind. It was a real lack for me, like drugs or alcool. Just an example : I tried to go to an event last week, I booked a hotel room, took the train but a panic attack hit me half the way there. I had to get off the train, come back home and put a diaper on. It was the end of my second short and probably last break. I can’t live without. Why should I see a specialist ? I have a normal life besides diapers. I don’t have many friends actually but it’s not a problem for me. Internet helps, I have a partner and meet a lot of people with my job. I’m not a hermit without any kind of relationship. I just like diapers, I like to wear them and to pee inside. What’s the problem if it’s totally uncontrolled ? On the other hand, I have a weak bladder and I drink a lot of water and juice only. It's in the program but I've always drunk a lot : generally between 100 and 135 oz. water each day, continuously. I don't pretend I am incontinent but I have more and more issues. Even when I was 20, I almost never could see a whole film at the movie theater but it's worse and worse now. I don't take the bus for long rides and in a train, I always sit next to the lavatory. I always must think about it like keeping money for public restrooms, etc. Avoiding accidents is a waste of time and too much concentration, very tiring and stressful. Before wearing, I could pee more than 10 times a day. Now, after just a few months and 2 short breaks (sorry...), I pee little amounts (less than 2oz. maybe ?) several times each hour. Still more and more frequently with less liquid. I don't count them, it's much better to forget a non event. I sometimes still make bigger shots but they become less frequent with time. My diapers are also less quickly soaked now thanks by the little flows. I still eat too salty sometimes and I know it retains water but after a rare occasion like this, I drink 50oz. water within an hour. I was about to have two serious accidents during my short breaks. The last one at a train station was very harsh : I think I couldn’t hold more than 10 or 15 seconds when I reached the lavatroy. I felt it arriving very softly 10 mintues earlier and it escalated very quickly. Was this a real bladder spasm ? It was very intense and I’ve had a few like this in my life. Something new for me : I have to use the place for disable people now, it’s more comfortable as I must drop my jeans if I’m not diapered. I've weighed my diapers several days to have an accurate representation of my bladder. A little day is always more than 2,5kg (net) and I can sometimes go up to 5kg. Record: I made a Forsite AM-PM Stripes size M soaked in 5h45m with 1,819kg which is (if 1kg = 1 liter water = 34oz.) 0.17oz. each minute. Don't panic: I'm accustomed to it and I've always drunk a lot of water in my life. I'm a real pisser. I have a 17-day recording (2135oz.) : app. 125oz. per day or 5oz. per hour or a little syringe each minute approximately. There is less than 1 liter urine in 1 kg but it’s a lot of liquid anyway. I pee almost unconsciously when awake. I think many of you know this stage. I feel it arrives, it still tickles a bit but I don't push, it just flows. I can sit, lie down, walk or talk to people and it flows. I'm a diaperboy first and accustomed to wear diapers. It's never been a difficult task for me. It was just a little effort in the beginning but never too much. Just a few words more. I'm gay and have a partner for 14 years now. He knows I like diapers, accepted it at the beginning of our relationship, sometimes wore and went to parties with me but you know. Life with ups and downs, personal problems, etc., it's just life. I can’t complain about it. I've discussed seriously with him recently and he accepts again now. He's about to understand but it will take time. He knows I want to go 24/7 but not for my bladder incontinence desires. Step by step. Very shortly : I make some hypno too, mp3 files, alone at home. I will add info later, there are things I forget and I don't know if it will be interesting. It’s too long already but I’m happy to talk about this with people like me. I will have now a few questions. Concerning the reverse Kegels and pelvic floor drops : I know it's more and more relaxed. I think I also relax my urethra correctly without pushing the penis but it’s still not automatic. Sometimes it still contracts in the glans but rarely after miction, a bit more later only or with some movements. I still forget sometimes. Were the incident at the train station and a few other events im my life real spams ? I can more often feel a little thing inside. What do you think it can be ? I know it’s probably not the real drop, I’d like to know. I don’t know if my imagination makes me believing in things, you know how your brain can convince yourself. It’s somehow a part of the job. I also know that I think too much and that’s not good. Why do I discover this part of me so late ? I have always known it but like my sexual orientation, I’ve hidden everything. I have accepted I was gay quiete late, I just accept now I’m a diaperboy and craving for bladder incontinence. It’s a shock when you are more than 45. Just believe me : I’m a honnest guy and always speak the truth. I’ve made many things in the past and still make some but what describes me best is that I AM a diaperboy. Always been and really want to be forever now. BEDWETTING My main concern is bedwetting. It happend 5 or 6 times these last 20 years maybe but it's not the more important and it wasn’t related to my diapers desires. I drank too much beer in that time. I have quiete short nights now, about 6 or 7 hours but without wetting, I don't even wake up when I need to pee and it hurts in the morning. It’s not a serious pain but I feel I need to pee. It’s more serious these last days. I know I won't wet the bed immediatly but it's not normal that I don't even wake up in the middle of the night craving to pee. My nights are bad after this: my bladder remains contracted and again, it's tiring. I should find a system to wake me up in random moments (as seen in "brute force bedwetting - a training guide", somewhere on Tumblr) but my partner won't help me. With all the amount of water I drink, I must at least wake up. What’s happening ? I have a good diet. I do almost everything correctly. I will try more specific hypno files but I don’t always have the time for this. Does or did anybody experience the same ? I have a suggestion. I know who I am and how my body and mental work. I’m convinced that it twill happen one night and from this night, it will never stop. I need a trigger for anything. The moment for bedwetting will come, I know and I remain optimistic. It’s a long journey and I can’t complain because it will probably happen quickly to me.