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Thanks for the advice. I get depressed and escape with indulging in this fetish ( and others although this seemed to overtake the others ) Not sure what it all means or what would make me actually happy/whole. I suspect I will be away from this for some time but I will likely get depressed again in a similar way and be strongly attracted to this again. I think I am at least feeling less guilty about my interests even if I haven't figured out what to do about them.

Life and responsibility are getting in the way of this fetish. Ugh.....purge time.

Noticeable increase in urgency today. Not sure if it means anything. Also, I think i might be figuring out reverse kegels a bit.

Thanks for your post. Really interesting and helpful. Hoping to see more from others as well.

I know it is a long journey and I doubt I will stick it out. If I thought this was all going to really happen I'd probably shit myself.

Well.......been playing with taking lots of psyllium and end of the day today at work, no protection, thought it was going to be just a fart........it was quite a bit more. Good thing it was end of day, I could just leave and go home with a bit of a mess in my underwear. I'm sure this was a one off from the extra psyllium. Of course, had a big glass when I got home. Tomorrow is a day off..........

That seems like great advice. I think I am doing this to a certain extent but I think your suggestion seems likely to be effective. Less ( hoping for none ) leaks is definitely more discreet. The way I dress now would likely hide pretty thick protection, including a tabbed diaper, plastic pants, and a onsie pretty effectively. I just am not quite there in terms of actually wearing a diaper when I am not alone. I am working on it bit by bit. Also, my job is pretty intensive and I am a bit afraid that the excitement I would be feeling while wearing protection out in the world would be a major distraction. I suspect in the not too distant future, I wont be able to resist giving it a try. I totally understand ( at least intellectually ) the merits and effectiveness of what you describe here. I am not there yet.......:) I found your reply very helpful. Thank you very much.

I am getting better at not leaking while in a better protected bed which should help me sleep better and feel more comfortable wetting in bed. It has now been about a month that I have consistently worn diapers most of the time ( 14-15 hours per day on work days and 24 hours per day on weekends ) While at work, I do set a timer to go to the bathroom and pee every 30 minutes. I try to sit in a stall while peeing so I can also continue to relax my bladder area for a few minutes after it has emptied. I am getting better at allowing myself to pee in multiple positions. I have also not used a toilet for my morning BMs for this month. Those are enhanced with generous daily supplementation of psyllium husk ( Metamucil and its like ) I have pretty consistently listened to hypnosis files daily and I also say my mantra regularly in the mornings. While my related skills are definitely improving, I know I am still 100% continent. If I chose to stop this right now, I am sure I would be 100% continent with the only retraining to do would be to retrain a bit so that I didn't feel the need to pee every 15-30 minutes, which I don't think would be very difficult. It is my intention to keep at this day by day, hoping that the cumulative approach will cause some real UI and FI and bedwetting that surprise me. I am trying to not try so hard and only be consistent and allow things to just happen. I have yet to wear any protection out of my house, and I am researching that to find a way to do that as discreetly as possible and maybe dip my toe into that water bit by bit as well.

Hello All, I am very interested in hearing about retraining attempts from people who have successfully untrained to a level of incontinence and/or bedwetting, but then decided to try to regain their continence. Success, failure, improvement, what went into it, what worked, what didn't work etc etc. Please share your story here, if you don't mind.

Did you try and retrain to be dry at night?

This idea of "accidental untraining" is my model. I guess I am going for intentional accidental untraining https://kali-is-an-abdl.tumblr.com/post/668556653923287040/hey-kali-based-on-your-three-part-answer-it

Progress bit by bit. It is getting easier to wet in different positions including lying down on my back and either side, while sitting and while walking. I now have absorbent bed pads making me feel more secure in wetting the bed. I also just received my first onesies that make me feel further safety in wetting. I am going to look into terry lined vinyl pants for further bedwetting security. I have not allowed sexual release during for at least 25 days and that is definitely key. Diapers + plastic pants are a kind of chastity device for me. Really enjoying this process. Of course, I am sure Ill stop before anything problematic or irreversible happens. Ill just do a few more days. Just listen to a bit more hypno.

Congratulations on your failure to fail at succeeding at failing! Hmm.....I think you have succeeded at retraining habits and responses along with untraining previous habits and responses rather than failing to stay continent since you weren't trying to stay continent. potato potato

I really like the way you put that. I believe that bed wetting is more possible for me to achieve, since it can be done hidden from the outside world ( for a time anyways) and the difficulty in reversing it ( from what I have read ) makes it particularly attractive and exciting. I have also read that bed wetting erodes daytime continence as well. The danger is the fun and excitement. The idea of getting found out is terrifying to me. Again, that is what makes it so exciting. At this moment, I believe my desire to remain discreet out weighs the attraction to the thrill of being found out. I am doing several things to alter my sub conscious, so who knows what is really going on behind the scenes I am glad you have found it interesting and I appreciate your response.

FWIW, one of the hypnosis files I am using daily is Bedwetting from Baby pants. I believe it helps and also I try to not have any expectation other than using it consistently may have an effect.