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Part 41We pulled into the parking lot of the Miso Happy, the Little-friendly sushi restaurant that I didn't even get a taste of last time. I was determined to get a piece of sushi this time! We had to make a stop off at home, my meltdown had ruined both April's and Gwen's makeup. April reapplied, Gwen went without. She said it wasn't worth it, April told her she was beautiful with or without makeup. I didn't get to wear makeup, of course... April let me walk into the restaurant, I had on my white velcro shoes - I missed these shoes so much. I had a mommy on each hand and they swung me between them as we walked toward the door. I was a pile of giggles by the time we walked in, being swung like that was amazing. We were guided by the hostess to where Lisa was already waiting, I took off running as soon as I saw her. She saw me coming and scooped me up into the air and spun me around. I laughed as we twirled and I snuggled into her as she sat back down, with me in her lap."Aunt Lisa, I missed you so much!" I gushed at her, I really had missed her. It felt like a lifetime had passed since we last saw each other."I missed you too, sweetie.""Hi Kimmy!" The cutest, most cheerful call I had ever heard came from my left. I turned to see the most beautiful Little girl in pink shortalls with a white shirt. Her hair was up in two pigtails tied with pink bows and a pink paci dangled from the collar of her shirt. She had the cutest nose and a round chin and her lips were the softest pink. I didn't actually recognize her until I looked at her big, grey eyes."Melanie?" I asked incredulously, my jaw hanging open. "You.. you're so pretty! Your voice, they changed your voice!""Shhh," Lisa hushed me from behind. I had twisted in her lap to gape at Melanie. "We're in a restaurant, Kimmy. Let's keep the volume down this time, okay?" I blushed furiously, my voice was the cause of the scene last time, after all."Hi Kimmy," Melanie's smile was as bright and wonderful as a rainbow shimmering over a still lake, "I'm glad you're home. I missed you a lot. LittleGarden isn't as much fun without you." I couldn't get over how different she was. Shy, quiet Melanie was a ray of bright light now. Her confidence problems were gone now that she felt comfortable in her own skin, she was a totally different girl."Wow, Mellie - you look so happy. I'm so happy for you," I focused on keeping my volume down, I felt really bouncy - I wanted to hug and squeeze Mellie and have her tell me everything.. then I noticed she was staring at my ears. Instead of being upset by it, I decided to have fun. With a completely straight face, I folded just the right ear to the side - which made Mellie's eyes go wide. I couldn't hold it after that, I broke out laughing. "What, never seen a kitty-girl before? I think they're cute." I pretended to pout."They are super cute, Kimmy," Melanie was her shy self again out of nowhere, she had no idea how to handle this situation and was withdrawing into herself. I leaned forward and grabbed her hand, putting it on my right ear. "Oh wow, that's soft," she smiled."Okay, that's enough, let's get some food," April smiled as she swiped me from Lisa's lap and deposited me in the empty high chair across from Melanie. I waved at her and wiggled my ears. She laughed and made funny faces at me.Dinner was wonderful, everything felt so natural. The five of us together was fantastic, the conversation flowed like we hadn't been apart for a moment.. like Gwen had always been there. Like we had been friends forever. I felt myself longing for Sunshine when April and Gwen held hands. It was hard, but I was falling in love with April in a new way - she would never be mine romantically. She was Gwen's and they were perfect together. It didn't hurt like I expected it to.. maybe because Gwen loved me too. A lot, actually - an indescribably large amount. Her love for me was as boundless as April's, but it was different. Both of these wonderful women had saved my life at this point and I loved each of them with all my heart.. and they loved me. I never knew that this much love could exist in one place, but it did.I finally got to eat some of the dinner-plate-sized sushi. I got to eat off of both April's and Gwen's plates, taking tiny bites of their giant rolls. It was amazing.. but I was full after just a few bites. My tummy wasn't used to solid food and I wasn't going to push my luck. The milk-itch would be starting in soon and I wanted to enjoy myself while I could. Melanie and I laughed and communicated as best we could across the vast table. Thankfully our dinner was uninterrupted this time. I didn't get a chance to talk to Mellie as much as I wanted. I was dreadfully curious about her operation, she got more done than I expected. Her nose, her chin, her voice.. I wondered if she changed her... you know."Mommy," I looked directly at April to avoid confusion, "Can I have a sleepover with Mellie again?""Well," April smiled, "It's rude to invite yourself over to someone else's house for one." I blushed deeply, she was right. "And two, I've barely had you back. I'm not ready to share you yet." She turned to Lisa before continuing, "Lisa, may Melanie please come stay with us tonight? I think Kimmy has been missing her bestie. See Kimmy? That's how you do that.""Sorry," I blushed and took a big drink from my sippy cup."Mellie, do you want to stay the night with Kimmy?"Melanie looked majorly conflicted, which surprised me. I was guessing they had prior plans that she needed to evaluate."Will Kimmy be at LittleGarden tomorrow?" Melanie asked, an edge of desperation in her voice."No Melanie," April answered, "I'm not recording right now, so I'll be home with Kimmy. Lisa, would Melanie like to come play at my house tomorrow instead of going to LittleGarden?" Melanie was positively glowing at the idea. We both stared openly at Lisa, hanging on her every breath."Are you sure you can handle both of them?" Lisa asked with a raised eyebrow. April just laughed."Lisa, you have the best behaved Little on the planet. She cries if you threaten to change her into a thinner diaper!" Now it was Melanie's turn to blush, she hid her face in her hands. "I have the extra heavy wetter diapers right now, may I keep Mellie in those all day tomorrow?" Suddenly Mellie's face was visible again and her eyes were wide."Oh, so you want to spoil my Little?" Lisa laughed, "Okay. She's been worried sick about Kimmy. They should spend some time together. Can I drop her off at 7?""Sure, Kimmy's usually awake around then.""Yay!" Melanie and I exclaimed and clapped in unison, which caused the entire table to break into laughter. Gwen was shaking her head."Littles are so funny," she said, planting a kiss on April's cheek. "You two are adorable."I stuck my tongue out at Gwen playfully and went back to my meal. I could feel the milk-itch starting to rise a little, like an itch on my tongue. I wasn't going to ask for it yet though, I didn't want to make anyone feel bad. Dinner was wonderful, we ate our fill and parted ways. It ended with Lisa announcing that her chest hurt and Melanie blushing, so nothing had changed there. What was new was that April agreed with her. When we got home, I was soaked and eagerly awaiting the closeness that came with breastfeeding. I hadn't experienced that in what seemed like forever.I was changed into one of those crazy thick extra-heavy diapers and a my sloth PJs. I teared up a bit at seeing my sloth PJs. They were so soft and comfy and reminded me of how wonderful things had been before Catalon. I couldn't put the hood up, my ears were too sensitive.. so I was a kitty sloth. Thankfully they were baggy enough to accommodate the thick diapers. I wasn't going to be walking anywhere though. It was probably going to be hard to sleep in these."We're only going to give you just a bit of your milk tonight, and then we're going to breastfeed, okay Kimmy? It might feel a little yucky tomorrow, but we need to wean you off of that milk." I nodded - I agreed. I was safe at home and the poison was out of me. I felt achey from time to time but I really wanted the milk-itch to go away forever. I was reaching for the bottle unbidden as it was lowered down to me in April's lap. It was pulled away too soon and I heard myself whine for it. April made soothing sounds and stroked my hair as she removed her shirt and unclipped her bra from the front, folding down a strip of fabric to expose her nipple. "My supply dried up while you were gone, but I got a new booster with no additives at all and some new bras the moment you were found. Let's pick up where we left off, huh?"I smiled at her, then opened my mouth. Her milk was better than I remembered. As it flowed into my tummy, my whole body relaxed. My whole world narrowed to just April and the milk. I existed in that moment only to drink from her, and it felt wonderful. I greedily emptied one breast, but couldn't finish the other.. my stomach was so full from dinner."Okay my sleepy sloth," April said as she sat me up in her lap and rubbed my back until I burped."Not sleepy," I protested as I rubbed my eye with one soft sloth claw. "Let's watch a movie.""No silly girl, it's your bedtime," she kissed me on the forehead and handed me up to Gwen."Come on, tater tot. Time to go in your crib. It's already 8 PM.""Noooo," I whined, for some reason I felt incredibly frustrated. I wanted to snuggle on the couch with my mommies and watch a movie. "I wanna watch a movie! I want snuggles! I don't wanna go in the crib!""Wow April, you were right. She really shouldn't miss her bedtime.""No! I'm not sleepy! I want a movie! It's not fair!" It was completely unfair. Why didn't they want to watch a movie? It sounded so nice, I just needed to make them understand. "Let's watch a movie!""It's stupid, but I actually missed this," April laughed lightly. I felt really upset that she was laughing at me. Gwen just grabbed my paci from the coffee table and stuck it in my mouth.I squirmed in Gwen's arms but she just held me close and kissed me on the top of the head."Please no crib," I said around the paci. Gwen listened, she didn't put me in the crib. She held me in her arms and rocked me gently, humming a soft tune, a walking melody, until I was asleep.

Part 40I was standing in the living room, my living room... April's living room. My ukulele was sitting on the couch, Harry Otter had been playing it again."April?" I called, looking around for her. As I passed the mirror, I could see that the top of my diaper was peeking out over the the waist of my jeans... maybe a midrift wasn't the right choice today. I really wanted to show off my flat tummy, though. "April sweetie?"I walked into the kitchen.. to find April kissing Gwen softly, passionately. Gwen was taller than April by a couple of inches, so April's head was tilted up in the embrace. My heart cracked a little, but I couldn't help creeping up near them quietly. April was my girl, but I knew she loved Gwen too. I couldn't make April feel quite as small as Gwen did, as April and I were the same height, and that tore me up a bit. They didn't notice me, and I wasn't going to interrupt. Sunshine took that moment to wrap her arms around me from behind, slipping her hands up my tummy and under my shirt. I could feel her tail wrap around my right ankle, below the hem of the capri cut. A smile spread across my face as I turned in her grasp to face my silly nudist. Her lips were red and full, and the freckles that dappled her face right across her nose were perfect... she always wore just the right makeup even though she never seemed to want to wear clothes."We should join them," Sunshine said in a low tone, her voice was smoky, sultry... perfect. Her hazel eyes pierced my soul. "Kiss me, Kimberly."I didn't need any more invitation than that and I pulled her tight and pressed my lips against hers. Her tail snaked up my pantleg as we kissed, causing me to giggle even as our tongues slid together. She patted my diapered bottom gently as we made out."They are the cutest couple," I heard April's voice over my right shoulder."Yeah," Gwen agreed. I could see her wrapping an arm around April's shoulders. I tried to break the embrace with Sunshine but she held me fast, driving her tongue deep into my mouth, running the tip along the roof of my mouth.But I love April too, I tried to protest, but Sunshine dipped me back and I felt my hair brush against the ground."You're my girl," Sunshine's smoky voice washed over me as she broke the kiss. I felt her love warm me from my toes to my nose."I love you, Sunshine... but I love April too.. April, I love you!" I confessed even as Sunshine held me in the dip, my view of April was upside-down. She and Gwen smiled down at me."I know, sweetheart. I love you too." Her hand reached out... and patted my crotch, the diaper swelled at her touch, "You're my baby." At those words I found myself sitting on the ground. Sunshine was gone, and I was eye-level with April's and Gwen's shins. They were giant now. I looked down and found that I was dressed in a onesie with a tutu skirt, warm pee leaking out of the legband of the diaper."Sunshine?" I looked around, but I couldn't find her. We weren't in the kitchen any more, I was in the crib. Glinting steel bars surrounded me and Gwen and April looked down on me from above."Wet for me again," Gwen smiled, "You're starting to leak, it's adorable." My body obeyed her command and my legs grew wet, the diaper was leaking like a sieve.I woke up with a jolt, I really was leaking. I really was in a crib, my crib. Not the awful steel crib from the hotel, but my white wooden crib in my room. I frantically picked up Harry so he wouldn't get wet. The dream was so real.. I felt disoriented."April!" I called, "Help! I'm leaking!" I tried to stop the flow but it was no use, I just didn't have that ability any more. April came in and scooped me up."Oh, sweetie," she said sadly, "I'm so sorry. I put you in a regular nighttime diaper without even thinking about it. I.. threw away those awful Catalon diapers, I couldn't stand looking at the package. We'll have to get you some thicker diapers, I'm sorry sweetie. Oh, Kimmy, I'm so glad you're home.""Me too, mommy," I said, but I couldn't hide the hint of sadness in my voice. My lips burned from Sunshine's kiss, would I ever get to feel that again? April put me in another nighttime diaper and a plain green onesie and dropped me in Gwen's lap on the couch."I have to go clean up the crib, poor Kimmy leaked," April said as she headed back to the nursery."I'm so sorry," my voice wavered as I apologized."Shhh," Gwen gave me a tight hug, "It's not your fault. How are you feeling? You don't ask for a nap very often, from what April says.""I napped a lot when... " I stretched in Gwen's lap, reaching as high as I could, "When I was stuck as a kitty. Cat naps." I giggled, trying to signal that it was okay to joke about it. I didn't want to dwell on the sad parts of the dream. I savored that sweet moment with my Sunshine, but I didn't want Gwen to feel bad, so it was time to focus on the now. Honestly, being a kitty hadn't been that bad. Not being able to talk had been awful, but actually being a kitty had been... kind of liberating, counter-intuitively. I could go where I wanted, when I wanted. I got changed when I asked for it, otherwise no one really checked me. I could hide for hours if I wanted to, or cuddle with Bella if I wanted to. Sunshine had been there for me in every moment, good and bad. She had been my friend, my sleeping companion, my protector... I'd never know if she loved me the same way I loved her."Would you like it if I.. pet your ears?"I didn't answer, I just wiggled my ears at her and grinned. She started petting the tips gently."No, lower.. right where they meet my hair. Oh yeah," Gwen had found the perfect spot and I melted into her, "Oh, I wish I could share with you how good that feels. It's stupid, but I miss being able to purr.""You're really going to keep them?""Gwen, if you understood how good what you're doing right now felt, you'd keep them too. It's amazing.""Is it really like a massage? Like you said?""That's as close as I can get to describing it. How does it feel when someone shakes hands with your third arm?""I don't have a third arm!""Exactly! You don't have kitty ears, it's hard to explain a feeling that someone else doesn't have."All of a sudden, I was being lifted and flipped around. My head was over Gwen's shoulder as she crushed my body into hers."Oh Kimmy, we were so worried about you.""Hey," April's voice came from behind me, "I want in on some of that action."Gwen lifted me high into the air and tickled me as April climbed into Gwen's lap, sitting sideways, her legs draped over the next couch cushion and her feet dangling over the edge. I was lowered into her lap, and Gwen's arms wrapped around us both. She squeezed us, and the three of us shared a wonderful laugh. It felt strange to laugh again, strange but good."So.. Gwen lives here now?" I asked softly after the laughter had died down."Yes," April said, kissing the top of my head, "Gwen sold a lot of things so we could find you.. we grew closer while we searched. We're really lucky to have her, sweetie. I don't think I would have found you without her help.""Is Gwen my mommy now too?" Now it was Gwen's turn to laugh."Do you want me to be?"My heart was torn in two. Both of these wonderful women had literally saved my life, I would be dead without both of them and they loved each other. I longed for Sunshine.. if Gwen felt the same way about April, how could I deny them?"Yes," I said firmly, "But if I yell 'mommy' and you both come, that will be confusing!" That started off another round of laughter."We'll think of something," Gwen smiled."We need to go - we have to go to the store and buy more diapers before we head to dinner. Lisa is going to be over the moon to see you. She was worried sick too, and she hasn't gotten to snuggle you yet. She and Melanie scoured the net looking for clues, researching laws, they worked as hard as Gwen and me in trying to find you. You're loved, Little girl. You," she turned in Gwen's lap and planted a kiss on her cheek, "need to get out of those jeans and into a skirt. Show off some leg tonight.""No way, I haven't shaved in a week!""Your lady love demands it! I don't care if you've shaved, I love you just the way you are and if anyone can't handle you, fuck them."My jaw dropped at April's language. "Mommy! You shouldn't use that word! Mommy Gwen, you should tickle her!""No!" April shouted, squirming. Both Gwen and I started in on tickling her, and before long she was kicking and squirming, begging for us to stop. Eventually the fun ended and Gwen went to go change, while April pulled a skirt on me. Honestly, wearing clothes again felt strange to me. I hadn't even thought about covering my legs or my diaper. She had picked a cute ruffly blue skirt, it made me feel pretty in a way I hadn't felt in what seemed like forever."So I'm Mommy Gwen?" Gwen asked as she came back out from the hallway, now wearing an ankle-length floral skirt instead of her jeans. Her breasts were gone as well.. she must have bound them. I smiled at Gwen, she always knew what she wanted. She was distinctly female.. but masculine at the same time. She was something in between, and 100% Gwen."Hey! Where's the leg?""I'll show leg after I shave, sweetie - seriously, I feel uncomfortable flashing hair.""I'm sorry," April hugged Gwen, leaving me sitting on the couch, "I'm just teasing. I would never want you to be uncomfortable just to please me. Thank you for sharing your feelings." She kissed her and Gwen blushed a bit, it was honestly adorable."You're both mommy," I decided. "You're only Mommy Gwen or Mommy April when you're both right there. Otherwise, you're just mommy!""Sounds good to me," Gwen smiled, scooping me up and carrying me on one shoulder. I was so high in the air!"Mommy! This is scary!" I squealed and she pulled me down and cradled me instead."I'm sorry, Kimmy - I'll ask first. Let's go get your diapers and go to dinner, huh? I bet Melanie can't wait to see you. I bet she can't wait for you to see her, too."--We stopped by the store, Gwen carried me the whole time while April pushed the cart. We gave riding on her shoulder another try... it was actually fun once I got over the fear. Gwen wouldn't let me fall, everything would be okay. They bought me a pack of thicker diapers for "extra heavy wetters", the cashier couldn't help but comment of course."Oh my, is that cutie an extra heavy wetter?" she asked as April paid for the diapers. "She's so small! Oh, I bet you keep her in these just because it's extra cute.""No ma'am," I answered. I could feel Gwen getting irritated, "A stranger drugged me on vacation and it hasn't worn off, I need extra protection.""Oh, that's horrible!" the cashier was visibly upset, "Who would do something like that to a sweetie like you?""Who indeed," Gwen muttered, "The world has a long way to go in its treatment of Littles, lady. Even you think it's okay to keep them in thicker diapers just because it's cute." The woman blushed as April laid a calming hand on Gwen's arm."You're right, I'm sorry," the cashier admitted sadly, "You are a very wonderful Little girl and I'm sorry that happened to you. I hope you have a wonderful day, and I like your kitty ear headband a lot! The ears match your hair color perfectly!""Thanks!" I beamed at her and wiggled my ears."Oh my!" the cashier looked stunned."Mommy, that Little has real kitty ears!" I swiveled to see a Little in the front of an Amazon shopping cart, she and her mother were staring at me. "I want kitty ears! May I have kitty ears please? I'll take my nap without complaining, I promise!" I laughed and laid my ears flat against my head - that was hard if I wasn't really angry - and brought them back forward."Where did you get those ears?" the mother was asking Gwen, who looked distinctly uncomfortable."Actually," April said, stepping in to save Gwen, "they're Catalon tech. The bugs aren't worked out of it yet, I can't recommend it. They're not safe to remove from her yet, unfortunately.""Oh," the mother looked disappointed. "I would pay good money for safe, functional kitty ears like those for my Little. Getting her to nap is the biggest challenge!""They actually feel really good," I offered, "Maybe someone here can figure out how to make them without the drawbacks.""I hope so," the woman agreed, "I know I'd buy them. I'll keep a lookout, thanks for the information." She turned to walk away, but her Little girl wasn't done complaining."Mommy!" she whined, "I want ears like those, plea-" she was silenced by a pacifier and I couldn't help but laugh. It was really good to be home, where people genuinely cared for each other. Catalon certainly wasn't for me. My mommies smiled and held hands as they walked to the car, the diapers in a bag in April's left hand, me on Gwen's right shoulder. Suddenly, Gwen looked up at me in surprise."Kimmy! Can you give me some warning?""What?" I asked, I had no idea what she was talking about."My shoulder just got warm, silly girl.""Oh," I lifted my skirt a bit and poked the padding. Sure enough, I was wet, "I'm sorry mommy, I didn't even notice. I couldn't... I couldn't even talk to anyone about it." I felt my tears welling up, "So I just went, no matter what.""Oh baby," Gwen pulled me down from her shoulder and held me close, "I'm so sorry." We all sat down in the car before continuing, "Do you want to talk about it?""I... I'm not sure," my feelings were all jumbled up. "I feel sad, and a little ashamed, I think.""Baby," April began from my left. They had set me down in the carseat and I had a mommy on either side of me, "Nothing that happened is your fault. You didn't ask to be taken, you didn't ask to be treated that way. Can you say that for me? Can you say, 'It's not my fault.'""It's... it's not my fault," as I said those words, the tears started falling in earnest and all the pain of everything that happened, the shocks, the milk addiction, the beatings at Opal's hands, the fear over being modified against my will, the hopelessness.. and the unrequited love. Everything came pouring out at once and I was a babbling incoherent mess. April pulled me from the carseat and held me in her lap and just rocked me gently. Through my tears I could see a vein bulge on Gwen's forehead. I don't even know how much of it they understood, half of it was spoken into April's breasts.She didn't shush me, she didn't tell me it was okay, she didn't try to cheer me up.. she just let me feel. When the tears finally stopped, I felt hollow. Like I had cried out everything that was inside me and there was nothing left... until I looked over to Gwen, who had tears streaming down her face as well. Her left hand rested on the window and her fist was clenched so tightly, her knuckles were bone white. Suddenly I wasn't hollow.. I was full. These two women loved me. Deeply. I barely knew Gwen but she gave up so much for me, she traveled to another country and searched for me and brought me home to the woman I loved. And even now, my pain was so hard for her to handle, she was so twisted up, so sad, so angry on my behalf. How could I have ever wanted to keep April for myself from this wonderful woman?"Gwen needs a hug," I whispered softly to April. I gave her a squeeze and climbed over the carseat and into Gwen's lap, wrapping my arms around her neck. "Thank you, Gwen," I said into her ear.. well, as close to her ear as I could get. "Thank you for everything. For coming to save me, for taking care of April, for everything. You're an amazing person." Her arms wrapped around me in a hug and my tears were renewed. We sobbed together, she shared my pain almost as if it were her own, she hurt for me.. and I carved out a special spot in my heart for her that day. That embrace lasted a long time before I was back in April's arms for another long hug there.My two mommies. It was good to be home.

Thanks! Well, in Kimmy's defense... a lot of people have volume control issues when they're excited.

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Part 38 My right hand ached and I swore that I was close to tearing off a callus on my left hand. These sessions were so demanding - Billy needed it to be perfect. They weren't going to pretend it was him on the album, I was going to get the credit as the stand-in, but he wanted fans to experience as close to what they would get when he took the stage as possible. My chest hurt like never before, I didn't pump at lunchtime and I couldn't visit Kimmy today. I was really hoping I didn't get a clogged duct, I was given to understand those hurt like crazy. The session had been grueling, I'd played that solo at least 50 times - the damn drummer kept wanting to tweak things. I couldn't tell the difference between the "bass pedal hit" and the "super bass pedal hit", but that's what the argument had been about. I wasn't technically "in the band" so all I could do was keep playing until they were happy. I couldn't stop smiling as I thought about snuggling my Little Kimmy and holding her close. I planned on taking her to our lunch spot and feeding her before we even went home, I needed relief. I couldn't wait to hear about her day, I hoped she could charm this Beth the same way she had Tina. Honestly, the past few days had been amazing. I don't think I ever felt closer to her than I had since we came to Catalon, it was so ironic. My smile was as big as the world as I strode into the Little Care, I couldn't wait to have Kimmy in my arms. I pulled my borrowed jacket closed a bit to hide the wet spots on my shirt. I didn't have a nursing bra yet, and I didn't have any kind of absorbent pad. I hadn't needed them so far. Something had gone wrong though, both of the workers were going frantically around the room. "Hi, Beth? April Morris, here for Kimmy!" I hated to place my problems above theirs, but my chest ached like crazy. "One moment, Ms. Morris!" she sounded terrified. What was going on? I peeked around the counter and looked around the main area.. nothing looked out of place. "I'm not telling her that, it's not my fault! You're in charge, you go do it!" I heard a young man shout from behind a wall. Panic started to rise in my chest. Was Kimmy hurt? Beth approached the counter, looking scared out of her wits. "Ms. Morris.. I.. we.. " Beth stammered. "Where is my Little? Is she hurt? Did you send her to a hospital?" A million scenarios flew by in my mind. They were supposed to call if something happened! "No, Ms. Morris... I.. we can't find Kimmy." A cold fear the likes of which I had never felt in my life filled my body. My chest was tight and my eyes were itchy, I felt like I couldn't breathe. "What do you mean you can't find her? She's probably the most well-behaved Little you have in there! She doesn't fuss about anything. Is she playing hide and seek?" "No, Ms. Morris. I'm sorry!" Guilt was written all over this girl's face and something twitched inside my brain. I was a calm person, I didn't lose my temper. I was as level-headed and centered as they came, but something was clearly wrong here. "What. Happened." It wasn't a question. It was a demand. "Kimmy threw a giant tantrum this morning and I... I put her in the kennel. And now I can't find her, she's gone!" "You what!" the world had turned red, "What the hell is the kennel? Where is my Little?" "I'm sorry! She was only supposed to be in there a few minutes, I swear! I just wanted her to stop screaming and all her restrictions and... " I don't know how it happened, but suddenly I was on the other side of that counter with Beth's shirt in my hand. "Show me." Beth was in tears as she led me to an ugly steel door that wasn't viewable from the lobby. Inside were rows and rows of cages, diapered Littles wearing animal ears, naked otherwise, crying. Incoherent sounds of rage spilled forth from my lips, I couldn't even form words, imagining Beth stuffing my precious, fragile Kimmy into one of these cages. "You put her in here?" I heard my voice ask, I was barely present. "Y-Yes.. " "You stuffed my baby into a cage and walked away," the red rage was gone, I had gone past furious into a cold stillness. I had never been this angry before in my entire life. "And now you don't know where she is." Kimmy's dress was wadded up on the changing table in the room.. seeing it washed away the rage with a torrent of despair. I rushed over to it and gripped it as though... as if I could just hold it tightly enough, Kimmy would be there. "Where's Kimmy?" I wailed. "Where's my Little?" "I don't know, Ms. Morris.. we'll find her. I'm so sorry, Ms. Morris.. I didn't mean.. " "You awful Catalons," I sobbed into Kimmy's discarded dress, "You can't even see that they're people! You drug them and beat them and cage them, manipulate them and parade them around, but they're not animals! They're people. Tiny, fragile, hurting people who need love!" I felt my legs give way and my back slid down the wall until I was sitting on the floor, sobbing. "Kimmy... where are you?" The door on the far end of the hall swung open and a balding man with a moustache walked through. He was dressed in a similar uniform, but he had on an ugly tie with it. "What's going on here? Why are you in here?" His expression softened as he recovered from his initial shock, "Ma'am, are you hurt? What can I do to help you?" I sobbed into the dress, unable to answer. My entire world was a discarded dress in the white-knuckled grip of my shaking hands. Tears flowed freely down my face and my heart felt like it wasn't pumping... just bleeding out into my chest."Sir," Beth stammered a bit, "I.. put one of the Littles in here as a timeout, and now she's gone." "Beth!" the man looked angry, but not surprised, "These cages are for pets, not Littles. Ma'am, was your Little tagged?" "Collared," I managed to choke out, shaking my head, "Not tagged." Tagging had seemed so cruel, so unconscionable... this was the diaper bag all over again. In my stubbornness to treat Kimmy as I would want to be treated, I had inadvertently harmed her yet again. I was dazed, barely functioning as the man helped me up and took me through the door he came from, leading me to an office in the back and pulling up a chair for me. I was a wreck, a sobbing mess, my world was shattered into dust and there was no hope at all of stopping the tears. "Ma'am, we take missing Littles very seriously at LittleCare and PetCare, let's fill out a Lost Little report and we'll start getting to the bottom of this. I'm terribly sorry this has happened, let's start from the beginning." -- When I left the PetCare I felt numb. I never stopped clutching Kimmy's dress. I held it close to me as I walked toward the hotel. When I reached the hotel, I couldn't even remember the walk. Had I stopped for stoplights? Had I interacted with anyone? It was like the space between the PetCare front door and the hotel lobby didn't exist. It certainly didn't exist in my memory. Honestly, nothing existed but the sad, empty dress clutched between my hands. When I got back to the room, I found myself staring at the empty steel crib, her beloved Harry Otter on the floor in front of it and I broke down again. My head ached from crying, my chest hurt, my stomach was growling. Everything was awful. I'm not sure how long I sat there on the bed staring at the fallen toy, sobbing into the dress.. after what felt like days, I dialed up Lisa. "Hello?" she answered. "She's gone," I croaked, my voice hoarse from wailing, "Lisa, someone took Kimmy." "What? April, what happened? Who took Kimmy?" "No one knows, Lisa. Someone took her from the daycare, someone kidnapped my Little... they erased the surveillance for the day, no one knows where she is and the kid who was working at the time is nowhere to be found.""Oh my stars, April.. how are we going to get her back? What can I do to help?" "I never should have brought her, Lisa. I knew what an awful place this was, it was so stupid of me to think everything would be fine." "Hey, hey.. April.. beating yourself up isn't going to help, you know that. This is not your fault, you did not ask for this to happen. We need to stay positive. When was she taken?" "Sometime this morning.. maybe this afternoon, they're not sure. The Catalons are treating this like a lost pet! There's no police action, nothing. They fired the girl who caged and lost Kimmy, but that's it so far. No one has any idea where she is." "Caged?" Lisa sounded horrified, "Shh, Mellie - don't talk, your throat is healing. Eat your ice cream." "They have Littles dressed like animals here, Lisa. Ears and tails and diapers. They have kennels, the poor things can't even talk... They have Littles that they force to be cats and dogs, Lisa!" "That's awful... " "What if one of these sickos has Kimmy? What if she's someone's dog right now? Being kicked and smacked and eating from a bowl on the floor. My poor Kimmy... They're monsters, Lisa... And no one knows where she is... I don't know what to do!" "Did you call the police yourself?" "Yes, before I was even out the door of the daycare. The manager had already filed the report to the authorities, they won't even talk to me further. They say they're 'looking into it'. Nobody here cares. I don't know what to do... " "Don't give up. I'm going to do some research and see what I can find. You take care of yourself. Take a bath, eat some food. Kimmy's going to need you when we find her." "Thanks, Lisa.. I don't know what I'd do without you." I felt dead inside as I hung up the phone. I made myself a salad and some fruit from our groceries, and I stared sadly at the juice containers. Eating was mechanical, my body was on autopilot while my mind raced from hurt to hurt, a rat trapped in a maze of razor blades. Everything reminded me of Kimmy, everything hurt.. everything was raw. It was like my whole body was covered in tiny cuts and I was swimming in a lake of salt. -- I woke up on the floor, sunlight spilling in from the gap in the curtains, landing right across my eyes. I didn't even remember falling asleep. I spent the whole night posting on "Lost Little" forums and trying to find any clue as to where Kimmy might be. I groaned, my body ached. I had pumped last night after another call with Lisa, but it looked like I needed to pump again. After I took care of that, I called in to the studio and explained that I wasn't coming in. I couldn't, part of me was gone. I apologized and told them I'd be happy to resume as soon as I'd found Kimmy. They agreed to postpone. It was actually Billy himself that fought the hardest for it, he wanted me to finish. Normally I would have been touched but honestly, I just felt... incomplete. I hugged Harry Otter to me and laid down on the bed. It was going to be a long day. I was going to visit Donna at Love Your Little for advice, and go back to the daycare to see what I could learn about the kid who was on duty when Kimmy went missing. The police weren't going to help, I was going to have to do this myself. -- Donna had been consoling, but ultimately unhelpful. Her hopes weren't high. Nobody's were. The kid from the PetCare wasn't answering his phone, he wasn't home. He was just gone. Everything felt grey, hopeless. Without Kimmy, the world seemed to have less color. -- I missed my flight home. I'm staying until I find her. I have to find her. I'll find her if it kills me. Kimmy, where are you?

I was living in a house with several other people.

well... Actually no... This is a New batch since my medical give me 4 cases of diapers every month and i am only using about 2ish so we have extra to share

The Cursed Child is as dead to me as the Star Wars prequels.

Only this one every day. I have found all the others wanting, either dead, no real LG interests, or populated by nuts, fanatics or pedos. I am an alumna of Wetville and DPF so I know what is good