THE answer is 42, as exeryone knows...the question being what are six times nine in base 13! Lol Douglas Adams.
Emerald, seriously, only you can even find the answer, what I want you to know is that sexuality and gender are continuous, not binary, and nothing says you have to be all one or all the other instead of something in between. As others suggest, not only read the threads here, but also talk to a shrink about it. You may want to try it on for size, quite possibly not among your current friends and family, but in new circumstances. There are also many part-timers, and that is something you might want to consider. I am with those here who say hat thinking you want it is not the same as the reality of living it full time, and a full time trial of a year's duration is an excellent idea for those thinking about a transition.