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I have been happy dealing with them. I have never been disappointed buying on the website.

Well as to diaper changes I check pretty regularly. Never more than 2 hours. If he is the least bit damp I change him he always smells fresh.

Most of the time if we are not going any wear he is on the changing table as soon as he gets home. If we are going out a lot of time I like to put him goodnites on him.

Last month my sister came over from Norway to visit she is finally going home. I loved seeing her and spending time with her. But it was a bit of a strain. As she has had a hard time dealing with me being married to guy half my age. I remember her saying more than a time or two. Well you robbed the cradle with this one. Or he was looking for more a mother figure when he hooked up with you. I felt at times telling her yes your right I wanted son who I could control. A man child who loves how mommy take care of him. But that would truly be a place I could never go with her.

Well we pulled it off and I have to say I feel so happy.

All this planing has cut into my mothering time. I love to cloth diaper him but have been using bambino diapers on him. But for me it is not just the same. My daughter who has finally started to warm up to our relationship is spending a lot of time at the house. So I have had to hide most of his baby things. I have 2 washers one is just for soaking diapers. But if she saw a load of diapers it would be well hard to explain. Funny how some things are for me. I still use plastic pants over them. But since she is staying at are house helping me make arrangements is nice but it has cut into my mothering him. Thank god she is going home this weekend to her own house that is a about 100 miles from mine. But it has been nice that she is accepting us getting married. When she leaves this weekend I am going to keep him in diapers all weekend. Plus dress him in only baby outfits.

Thank you for all the kind words of support. I have been going crazy with all that is going on. I can not believe all the details I have to deal with. We have made a plan of dividing up all the details. All of this has been going on at the same time we have been spiting up are business into a bunch of

I think I have been too open about our life and my feelings. Plus we are getting ready for some big changes in our lives. We are going to finally tie the knot. We both have to do a lot of things to get ready as we are also going out of town for at least 6 weeks. For are honeymoon. We have a business to take care of as well. To tell the truth he has to take care of because it went way over my head. But he takes good care of that monster.

I do not share every aspect of our relationship with everyone around us. Yes my one son knows a lot about my guys diaper enjoyment. The nice thing for my son is mostly from what my guy has told me. Is that he feels better about his own feelings with diapers. But one thing is for sure the reason people are into the ab or dl and both are many.

I read a lot things. I do try to have an open mind. The funny thing is no one person is the same. Life is not a one size fits all. Such as me I have been told that I should try treating my guy like a sissy. I have replied that I am not into that I have no idea why. We all like what we like. If my guy wanted to try I would have to think about it. But I enjoy him being my little boy and he is very happy. But along with request from guys wanting me to become their mommy enslave them in a crib put things up their butt dress them like a little girl and so on. I have also been told that I should at lest try and let them know how it went. When I told them no thanks I got a few flaming responses. Well I am happy with my guy he works hard at are business. At this point he runs the day to day things. I am bragging now but he brings home a lot of bacon. I myself feel lucky. I write about our life on this forum because if I feel safe here. But just because I am not what a few people think that I am not doing things right. I am sorry but that is not my problem. i

Well we all have ideas some for the better or worse. I at times do feel totally crazy taboos are fun to cross for me. But some are not to be crossed. Yes just because an idea crosses ones mind. It is not some thing to act on. I have been more open to act on ideas than most lady's I know. I love acting out a motherly role with my boyfriend is not hurting anyone. I have enjoyed helping my guy feel loved and cared about. I am in a situation of reshaping him most women want but have had no luck with. It started before I knew about the whole diaper thing. But it did open the door all the way. I know he is open to what I call re raising him. At times he is my man who takes care of me and businesses. But when he is in mommies boy mood I think of him as my son. When I ramped up him wearing diapers I know I pushed him past his comfort level. It was just that I had read a lot about the love hate so many guys had with diapers. I did it with my own selfish reasons. I was not sure how it would work out. But I wanted him to feel safe and a sense safety. I called it diaper training. Well seems to have worked out well. A few times wearing a diaper was not am option for him at night and he told me he had a hard time sleeping. I know I have made him feel it almost necessary to be diapered at least for bed. But the idea of diapering my birth son at this point would be wrong for me. Why because I start to have sexual feelings mixed in. If that happened I am not sure how It would affect me? But what that could do to him I could not deal with that.

I have been learning about myself and who I am. I read a lot about what a lady wants in a relationship. That if a man is looking for someone to treat him in motherly way then he is a to be avoided. He will be lazy abusive and a just a bum. My guy is not that way at all. He works hard in every way. I also hate that most guys in this category are looking for a clone of their real mothers. I am not at all like his mother. She is a total selfish person and cold as they come. When he was growing up he was on his own. I know because when he was a kid his cloths were dirty and in poor shape. Well now that I have become his mother he has become a very confident person. I remember when he was growing up he craved love and attention. At that time he was eating dinner at my house every nite. So in some ways I was more like the mother he wished he had. So maybe that is why he loves the way are relationship is. I know if anyone had told me that I would be happiest treating my boyfriend this way. I would have been totally freaked. But now that I am living the role of being his mother it has opened up a side of me I never would have dreamed. I know I hated that my kids grew up and moved on. So I think the fact that I can control how much of a grown up he is makes me feel very secure. I am also luckier than most lady's my age because I enjoy sex more now than I ever have. I wounder how things would be if he had never told me about his diaper fetish. At first he told me he just liked to wear diapers but not use them. I am glad that he let me teach him that it was OK. At the time I was hoping he would not want to start pooping in them. But then out of the blue I just wanted him to be dependent on me one weekend. I remember how nice it felt him sitting on my lap. He started to get up and I told him what do need to get up for. I was thinking he was going to around the corner to pee. Because he was just starting to feel OK with peeing in his diaper in front of me. It was so cute he said I have to go poop. I told him to just close his eyes and push. I told him I know how to deal with poopy diapers. I have changed many but never yours. So if you are going to be my little boy then you are going to have to trust me. I was so happy because he trusted me and just went. As I changed him I did not mind it at all. All that went across my mind was now I have a kid who will always need his mommy. Once I cleaned him up I told him it was time get back inside mommy. I just had him hold still and not move. I just wanted him inside me for a while. Now how many lady's have the trust and bond I have?

I myself hate pink but I would not worry about that. I would worry more abut paint fumes and a new baby. I would have put the child's needs first before my own BS.

Well it works better than I hoped it would. It is nice and he loves it. I have enjoyed finding good ideas and making them work. I am lucky to have the money for such things.

Well we have had a few talks about what happened. I know I was wrong. I love my my guy more than anyone. But thinking of him as my property has been a mistake on my part. I talked my friend who is also my therapist about my internal struggle over just what kind of relationship

I was out shopping and this lady cut in front of me in line. I asked her what was wrong with her and told her she was rude. I felt like I wished I could have bent her over the check out. Then give about 10 good swats. Then driving home I was cut off 2 times. So I felt very upset by all of this. When I got home my boy should have been home. Well he did show up about 2 hours later. I called

The cloth covering it is a water proof flannel type material. I had picked up it was a water proof mattress pad. The foam is what they make mattress out of.

I went to an upholstery shop my friend Barb knows. I took a contour one that was 34x17 told them to make one 32x72 the same size as the large dresser I use to change my guys diaper. I have used it 2 time it is wonderful. It has a built in strap just in case he starts moving around too much. I used it anyways. I love that it makes diapering him easier. Because I do not have to bend over. Plus he likes how soft it is. I change most of the time on the changing table. Sometimes I diaper him in bed after I have had him inside me. Tonight before I put him in his night diapers. I am going to have go inside me when he is laying on the changing table the soft pad should make it more comfortable. When we did it before it was not comfortable I felt bad because he has asked me if we could do it on the changing table. I had to tell him no mommy knees hurt. So this should be fun.

So I wanted to share it Diaper changes are built for intimacy. And all we need to turn diapering from a difficult, dreaded chore into a mutually gratifying experience is to change our perception, to appreciate the moment as an opportunity for developing a closer partnership with our child. Remembering to slow down, to include our baby instead of distracting him, ask for his assistance, use gentle “asking hands

Last weekend I gave him the full baby treatment. He talked about how fun it was for him but was worried. He was thinking it was too much work for me. I had a blast dressing him and feeding. I find him talking more like a baby last night than last weekend. I think he is feeling more comfortable. I myself am starting to want to breastfeeding him a again. Last time to many things got in the way and we had to stop. But now things are different so I want to give it a go again.

I have talked about one of my best friends that I met at our local MUNCH. She is a Pro Dom who I have let top me a few times. She is also a Therapist with a Ph.D. She has help us in many ways and is a big part of our lives. Friday she stopped by and she knew I was in of her special type of relief. As I am person who loves to be in total control of everything. Right down to what my boyfriend wears everyday. For which as she has pointed out I am very lucky to have a truly submissive partner. Because a most guys are as she says are part timers. But I guess I have a bit of the part timer in me. But I only feel OK giving up control to a female. I think it goes back to having a very strict mother myself. She has cruel side even to this day. After spending any time with her she makes me feel like such a loser. It is like I wish she would have just told me to go outside and get her a switch for her to spank me like she did till the day I moved out of her house. As a mother myself I never treated my kids the way she treated me. Yes I used to spank my kids with a belt with pants on. But I also made sure they understood why and showed them I still loved and cared for them. The same way I treat my boyfriend when he has misbehaved. Well back to Friday the night before I had dinner with my mother who even at 76 can make me feel like a worthless person. So after I got home I called Barb who after talking with her told me she would come over to see me after my boyfriend leaves for work. Yes he knows about her. He even calls Aunt Barb with is cute. So after we had some coffee she told me she wanted to try something new. She told me to go to my bedroom and lay on the changing table. I told her I really did not want her to diaper me. But she said if it was too upsetting after she changed me she would be OK with backing off the idea. She then told me she has never diapered a girl before. I do trust her and just relaxed since I do trust her. She was very nice but stern. After she diapered me I just felt strange I told her I am just not comfortable being diapered. She then told me to suckle her that was also a new thing. I did enjoy the closeness and felt a bit turned on but at the same time the diaper felt hot and uncomfortable. After a while I just relax and kind of forgot about wearing a diaper. Then she told me to stand up and took it off. Then I got dressed and we went to the kitchen and talked. I told her I enjoyed the closeness but I just did not like wearing a diaper. I love diapering I even like looking at others wearing and being diapered. I love the control of the whole act of diapering. Folding them just right for what ever occasion. But I am not into wearing myself. I remember diapering my own kids it felt so nice making sure they were dry and clean. They looked so cute with their padded little bottoms. Just as my boyfriends diapered bottom sitting on my lap it gives a feeling love. As if he will always be my little boy who will always depend on his mommy. So after spending any time with my own mother just makes me feel like such a loser. I told Barb about the guilt she makes me feel and I how much better letting go of control to a caring person erases the ugly feelings I have. So after we talked she took a different tact with me than she has in the past. She said I am going handle your disciplinary needs as I feel you need. Instead ordering me me to take my skirt off she just lifted my skirt and gently took off my panties. Instead of her telling me to get the belt she just had me lay across her knees. Then she rubbed my butt firmly and said Ann I want you to know that my hand is going to sting way more than you think so hold still. I am using my hand because I need to feel the closeness only my hands can feel. Wow the first smack stung so much I jumped then I just laid still as my butt started to burn worse with every smack and I started imaging it was my mother spanking with her hand instead of the switch she seemed to love to use. I then started crying it felt so emotional. After she stopped she held me and told everything was alright now. I am not going to go into what happened after that but I have never felt so close and safe with a another women. That weekend I felt so loving I treated my boyfriend like a 2 year old. I mean the whole weekend. When he came home I told him instead of being my little boy this weekend you are going to be mommas baby. So we went shopping I picked out Gerber's baby food and formula. I also picked up some coloring books and blocks. I made it clear this weekend he is to act like a baby not a teen or even a boy. It was a lot of fun I had picked up a highchair at yard sale that was big enough for him a few months ago well he has used it only 2 times. Well this weekend every meal he sat in it. I also fed him every meal. Plus I dressed him in only baby cloths. Plus it was about time to get more use out of them I have spent a lot of money on that stuff. I love the plastic lined diaper covers and pants. It was a very nice weekend. Barb came over Sunday it was fun he was a bit embarrassed because I fed him and change him right in front her just like a mother would do with a baby in the house. She even gave him a bottle. This morning he told me really started to enjoy being just a baby. Tonight when he gets home I am going to dress him in his sailor suit as soon as he gets home. Well thanks for the space to share.

I rented a place with a washer. I surprised him by telling him only diapers this week. I never kept him in cloth diapers more than a few days. I am looking forward to him being my little boy all week. We are on day 2 and all has gone well. It is so nice how at ease he is feeling here. When we go out I have been diapering just as like I diaper him at night. Just for this trip I picked up some pants that are a few sizes bigger. I also bought him a pair of suspenders. We even got a nice comment. Any ways we are both having a nice time.

I met her at a MUNCH meeting. Since then we have become very close. She has been a big help for me to have a better understanding of myself. I am a dominant person I love being and treating my boyfriend as my own child. But I also have enjoyed letting her topping me from time to time. This has only happened when he is not home. He knows about it and is OK with it. He said if it helps me feel better and less stress than he is feel good about it. The nice thing is they get along with each other nicely. He even calls her Aunt Barb I just think it is so cute. I asked her if she would do something for me I have talked before about things I have wanted to watch done to my guy. I diaper him all the time and I do enjoy it. But I have fantasized watching him be diapered. I have looked at guys being diapered on line. But I always imagine it is him being diapered. One site I have looked at is ABDL Daddy. Anyhow I talked to him about how he would feel if Aunt Barb changed him. I told him I wanted watch him being diapered kind of like when I would let my mother help change my kids diapers when they were small. I guess it is one of my past memory's of being a young mother that I unprinted on. So last night after I cleaned up dinner. I went into the living and checked his diaper. I announced oh you need your diaper changed. Then Barb said oh I will change him you just cleaned up the kitchen. Just show me where every thing is. So we went to our bedroom and he laid down on the changing table. I just sat and watch as she changed him. She took her time and did a nice job. I really enjoyed seeing him changed. She was so sweet it felt so nice. I told her thank you. She said my pleasure. He enjoyed as much as I did next time I want take a few pictures. I am lucky to have her as my friend.

I have heard other couples refer to each other as mom or dad. But I do not call him dad. But I really enjoy him calling me mom. I get a nice feeling thinking of him as my son and my boyfriend. I think most men would have a hard time being controlled like this full time. I have pushed him a few times just to see how much he will take. The cool thing is he truly loves to please me. I do feel as I could never find a guy like him ever again.

I do pick out what he wears most of the time. I do not make him ask me if he can go to the bathroom. Most days he is not diapered but always after 8PM. I treat him more like a 12 to 16 year old.