I see some things haven't changed… Some of you may remember me, some may not… I joined DD in January 2006, so a rookie I am not. For more than 30 years I kept my diaper play a secret and I was not aware of others like me. Again, as in past posts, finding DD literally changed my life, and for this, I wanted to give something back. I felt I owed DailyDi at least that much and I also felt I had something to offer the community.
Prior to joining, I just read posts, stories, and browsed through the pictures. I believe I read every post in every forum. When I finally did join, I still didn’t post that much as it was hard for me to open up to others after keeping this secret for so long. When I finally found the courage to start posting, I was careful not to offend and I tried very hard to contribute in a positive way, even if I disagreed with the author’s post. After some time, posting became second nature and I even started visiting the chat room a little. After a few months I started making a few friends on the boards…Dolly, diaprbayb, repaid1, jenniebear, pipsqueak, morv, Pinky, Babylex, and Belinda Sue Fox, to name a few. I can’t express in words how much some of these members meant to me and the strong bonds that formed for a few of us. I knew this was where I wanted to be and I couldn’t get enough. But then something happened…
A new member started posting all over the boards. As one that read every post, I started noticing inconsistencies in this member’s posts and some of the posts were just too outrageous to take serious. Soon members started voicing their opinions and calling this person out. As an active poster, I soon joined in as I felt my support and findings would add justification to their suspicions. It did, of course, but things didn’t get better. In fact, members started taking sides and the negativity just escalated and continued. Both sides had some very prominent members and if the post wasn’t eventually deleted by the mods, the discussion usually ended in stalemate. For me, it was too much, and I left the site.
After several months, I returned with a new outlook. I would try to be more tolerant of others and I even made a post of it. I was so glad to be welcomed back by my friends and I really felt I could start anew. Unfortunately, this member was still around as well, but I ignored this member’s posts, even though others were still challenging this member’s credibility on the boards after all this time. I just concentrated on getting to know my friends better and I started PMing them so we could establish a more personal friendship. I was currently engaged and still am, so I wasn’t looking for anything more than that. Through the next several months, these friendships strengthened and soon I was PMing them all the time and expressing my thoughts to them privately instead of on the boards. I was once again, very grateful to have this opportunity by DailyDi. However, with friendship comes trust and then loyalty soon follows…
Some of my friends were actively challenging this member again due to yet another outrageous post. Everyone has a breaking point and they could not just stand by and let this member infect the rest of the community, especially the newbies. I too felt obligated to join in and dismember this individual once and for all. Unfortunately, things ended up the same way. Members took sides once again and stood fast on their beliefs. Soon the boards were laced with controversy and more and more posts were being deleted as flaming grew to an all time high. Prominent members on both sides lashed out on one another with no end in sight. Finally, this member left, but the victory came at a cost. The community was clearly divided and continued to express their profound beliefs whenever the opportunity presented itself. I too was among those who stood steadfast in a belief that this site had the potential to offer so much more if not for the “attention whores