Time for a Change

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I woke up disoriented in a soaking wet diaper in my crib.  I had fragments of memories of the ride home, coming out of the car and Mama helping me into the crib.  Then I remembered the branding ceremony and I was thankful to be safe back at home.  I love my Mama and I miss her so I called out for her “Mama.”

Mama was dressed in her bathrobe and breezed in with a bottle in hand.  She came to my crib and lowered the railing and then crawled in.  She said and then asked “It’s just you me babe today. Are you hungry?”.

I nodded yes as she made herself comfortable in my crib and opened up her bathrobe.  She pulled me around to feed me.  It was time for fresh milk from the source.  I sucked on the one breast and massaged it with my tongue and eventually some nourishment came.  I heard “That’s a good boy” from Mama.   I continued to work on her breast but there was not too much to gain so she switched me to the other breast.  I continued to work and suckle from her other breast and looked up at her. I was happy to be her baby rather than be at the beck and call of the sorority sisters and gave my mama a hug as she nourished me.  She looked down and gave me a kiss on my forehead and released the suction.

She then untangled herself from me and gave me my bottle with the instructions “Finish the bottle while I get your bath ready.”  I worked on my bottle as Mama left the crib and pulled up the rail.  I realized that she did not need to raise the rail as I was not going to escape since I realized I could be in a far worse place.

I worked on my bottle until Mama returned, lowered the rail and helped me out and down from the crib.  I crawled after her to the bathroom and stopped at the tub.  She had me lie down and then unsnapped my onesie and untapped my diaper.  I was then guided into the bath and given a yellow rubber ducky to play with.  Mama let me play with the ducky for a few minutes as she got out some soap and a scrub brush.  She let me hold the ducky as she started from my shoulders and worked her way down to my tummy.  Then she had me on all fours as she worked from my bum to my toes and then turned me around to work on my front. 

Almost done, now Mama needed to wash my hair.  I could see she put away the brush and grabbed a small bucket and shampoo.  She filled the bucket and wet my hair.  Then she took some shampoo and massaged my head.  That felt so good.  “Mama goo goo” I reacted.  She then rinsed my head and helped me out of the bath onto a towel on the floor.

She had me lay flat on the floor and then started to do an inspection.  Everything looked good and she had me turn around on my front and then continued with a detailed inspection of my back.  I must have passed inspection as she pulled out a diaper and powder.  She rolled me over onto the diaper, powdered me and taped me up.  She got up and said “Follow me babe.  It is just you and me so I will keep you in just your diaper.”

I followed Mama to the highchair in the kitchen where she helped me up and snapped me in.

Then Mama started on making breakfast.  I watched as she made herself coffee, boiled water for my oatmeal and proceeded to cut up some fruit to have with her yogurt.  She mixed up another bottle of formula and handed it to me to drink as she finished making breakfast.  She then sat down and enjoyed her breakfast and watched me work on my bottle.  After Mama finished her breakfast she sipped her coffee and waited until I started to suck air from my bottle.  She took the bottle and then came back with my oatmeal breakfast and set it on the table.  She put a bib around my neck and then sat down beside me to give me my breakfast. 

“Okay baby, open up, here comes the plane” she said as the first scoop came into my mouth.  I closed down and she pulled out the spoon and remarked “That’s a good boy!” as she repeated the exercise.  Breakfast feeding continued like that until she scrapped the bowl clean.  There was not too much oatmeal on my face or bib, but I still needed to be cleaned.  She took the bowl, spoon and bib away and came back with a washcloth for my face.  Once I was cleaned to her satisfaction I was given my pacifier and let down from the chair.  I followed her to the other room with the playpen and was released into my play area.

It had been over a day since I was in the playpen and it was time play with my toys and friends.  Mr. Bear helped me build with my blocks.  Then I saw the crayons in the corner and looked for my coloring book.  I went over to the crayons and picked up the box, dumped the box, picked up one crayon and studied it as Mama came into the room.  

“It looks like I got here just in time.  What were you thinking of doing with that crayon, my boy?” She asked in a very serious tone.  Her hands were on her hips as I turned from the crayon to my look up to my Mama.  I didn’t know what I was contemplating.  I turned around and held the crayon up to her and said “Mama”.  I didn’t know what else I could say.  It was not like I was going to decorate the walls.

I think that was what Mama thought as she asked “Were you going to color on the walls to get my attention baby?” 

I shook my head no and exclaimed “Goo goo” through my pacifier as I made the motion to color in my book. 

“Where is your book” she asked.

I didn’t know and returned her answer with a blank stare.

She turned on the television so I could watch a kids cartoon and then set about to finding my book.  I had put the crayon down and settled into watching the cartoon with Mr. Bear and learning my 1,2,3s as Mama came back with my coloring book.  She collected the crayons and put them by the book as I became mesmerized by the cartoons.  I don’t know if I was awake or asleep, but time had passed when Mama came to collect me and shepherd me back to the high chair.  I must have come under a trance or something as I was completely lost in the show, but I didn’t remember the details of the show.  I was trying to shake the reality of what had happened when I snapped back into reality.  I was confined to my high chair in a wet diaper and Mama was setting the table with her lunch and then gave me a bottle of formula.   I worked on the formula as she enjoyed her sandwich and salad.  After her meal and my bottle she came back with a bowl of green with some bits of orange.  She put the bid around me and then it was time for the train to deliver its load to my mouth. “Chew, Chew, open up honey” she said as the spoon came into my open mouth. I closed my mouth and she pulled out the spoon with the accompanying “Good Boy.”

Mama continued feeding me the mushed peas with bits of carrot until the bowl was clean.  This was basically the same ritual as breakfast, just with different mush.  She took the bowl and my bib and then came back to wash my face.   The morning was boring, but this woman was doing everything for me. I did not have to worry about a thing!  She grabbed a bottle and filled it with water and then let me down from the chair and led me back to my crib.

I was on my knees getting ready to climb into the crib when she put her hand under my diaper and pushed it up and down.  I could feel the weight of the wetness in the diaper push up against my penis as she asked “How does that feel?”  I didn’t feel too bad.  Then she helped me into the crib and then secured my wrists so they move and hold my bottle, but they could not reach down to my diaper.  She pulled up the rail, gave me my bottle and then turned on the mobile.  “Sweet dreams little boy” she said as she left me to my bottle and the rabbit hole of dream hypnosis.

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I just wanted to worship my Mama, to hold her, to cuddle up to her, to be nourished by her breasts.  I could no longer understand how I could live without her.  She was my everything and my only thing.  My identity was completely bound to her and I could not imagine life without her.  I awoke with such a longing and desire for Mama as she woke me from my dream.  “Mama” I cried out and then “Goo Goo Mama” I cried as I tried to lift my arms towards her.  I still had free movement of my legs and tried to get some friction as I tried to release that inner tension from my dreams. 

‘You really are becoming my little boy, aren’t you sweetie” she exclaimed as she let the rail down to the crib.

I tried to get some friction and release, but it did not work with Mama there and now I felt frustrated.  Mama climbed up into the crib and adjusted me into her lap so that I could stare up to the source of my meaning and nourishment.  I was becoming a slave to her breasts.  She undid one side of her nursing bra and pulled me into suckle.  I started to latch and suckle. I calmed down, as I felt the weight of my diaper and the sweetness of milk flowing from her breast.  Mama was patting the top of my wet diaper so that I felt helpless, content and trapped all at the same time.  I wanted this so badly, the more I wanted it the more I got from Mama.  Yet I also felt I was losing control and became completely helpless and absorbed into my wonderful mama.  Mama contently let me feed on her until she removed me from the one breast and repositioned me to the other.  I started again. I looked up to my Mama and I saw her looking down at me with eyes of love and a look of fulfillment. 

When there was no more nourishment Mama sat me up and then started to burp me.  I felt that solid thump on my back until I had that sense of helplessness as the air came up.  This was my destiny to be totally helpless and lost to this woman.  My only reason to live was to be her possession and make her happy.  I felt like a helpless mess in my full diaper being handled by my Mama and loved every minute of it!

“Okay babe, let’s get you cleaned up and ready for the rest of the day” she said as she helped me down onto the floor.  She pulled out a new diaper, wipes and powder and set it beside me and then proceeded to clean me up and tape me back up in a new diaper.  She picked up the old diaper and wipes, disposed of them, and then went to closet to pick out some clothes.

She picked out a yellow romper with a yellow sun hat and brought it down and showed it off to me.  “Let’s get you dressed for an afternoon outside” she said as she pulled me up into a sitting position so she could work the romper over my head and down to my waist.  She had me lie down and then pulled the romper down the rest of the way and snapped it in.  She then got up, hat in hand and commanded “Come.”

I followed her to the front door where the stroller was ready and loaded for us to go somewhere.  She helped me into the stroller and made sure I was secure and then put the pacifier back in my mouth and the sun hat was tied around my head.  “You stay right there, I will be back in a minute” Mama said as she went back to her room and returned a few minutes later with a bounce in her step.

     

Mama got behind me and I was pushed out the door, down the driveway and onto the pavement.  We took a turn to the right, like the last time we went to the park.  Mama didn’t tell me where we were going.  We kept on our journey to the park and then a door opened to one of the houses along the way and Mama pushed the stroller up the driveway to the door where a lady and small girl that I soon recognized to be June stood at the entrance to the door.  June’s mom said “You can take right around the back, June had been waiting for this.” 

Mama pushed the stroller to the side gate and waited for June and her Mom to open it up.  She then pushed me through to the middle of the backyard.  There was a swing set, playhouse and a sandbox set up.  On the table there were three settings and a highchair set-up beside the table.  Mama stopped the stroller by the table and put on the brakes.   June rushed over to the side of the stroller as Mama helped me out and onto the ground. 

“Come with me Baby, we are going to play school” June exclaimed as soon as I hit the ground.  I crawled after her to the playhouse.

June’s Mom mentioned to Mama “This Fall June will be going into grade 1.” 

I crawled into the playhouse and June had coloring books and crayons set out on the kids table.

As we sat at the table June declared “Let’s play! I am the teacher and you are the baby. Today class we are going to work on our coloring.”

 “Baby, make sure you color inside the lines” she said as she opened up a coloring book and straightened out the page in front of me.  Then she gave me some crayons.  I started coloring and worked hard to stay inside the lines. 

 Time passed quickly as June’s mom came out, followed by Mama, with a glass of water and a baby bottle. 

“How is the teacher and her student?” June’s mom asked.

“Look Mommy, we are coloring” she replied. 

“We thought you might be thirsty.  Is the baby a good student?” June’s mom asked.

 “Look at his picture.  His coloring is good for a boy” she replied.

“What do mean by that sweetie?” she continued.

“Boys, especially Baby boys, can be messy”  June responded  “but Baby Jay has tried really hard to be good.”

June’s mom set the glass and bottle on the table.  I lifted up my artwork to show to Mama and June’s mom.

Mama suggested “Why don’t we take a break and I can give Jay his bottle.”

Mama positioned herself in the corner of the playhouse and patted her lap.  I knew to crawl over and put my head in her lap.  I looked up to her beautiful smiling face as she pulled me into her breasts.  The next thing I know the bottle was in my lips and I started to suck.  My world shrank as I was focused on sucking the bottle and looking up at Mama.

The Mama looked across the way and was engaged in chatting with June and her Mom about going to school.  I zoned out as I continued to suck.  

I started to suck air when Mama pulled me up and burped me.  I hear her comment that this baby will not be going to school anytime soon.  She is happy with me being a big baby for the rest of my life.  Then June asked Mama and her mom if she could feed me. 

June’s mom took my bottle and left the playhouse as Mama repositioned me on June’s lap.

June replied “He is a big baby.”

It was very uncomfortable having my head on her lap and I moved it around as she pulled my head and strained my neck.  I was struggling when she slapped me and said “Be a good baby.”

June’s mom returned with my bottle and helped June hold me and the bottle.  As soon as the nipple of the bottle hit my lips reflexes kicked in and I began to suck.  I looked up at June’s smiling face and could overhear the comments from both Moms of what a natural June was.   I could see that June was pleased.  The hierarchy was firmly established and I was clearly on the bottom.   I continued until I finished the bottle and started to suck air again.  Mama then took me and burped me again as the ladies discussed what we would do next.

June wanted to introduce me to a Disney movie while the ladies talked about Mama needing a babysitter for tomorrow and preparing June’s favorite dinner of Mac and Cheese.  We all left the playhouse and June had me crawl after her inside to watch Mulan.  I never had seen it before.  It was not my normal fare of Sesame Street and SpongeBob.  June made sure I understood the theme of the movie that June was strong and I was weak and I must listen to her. At the end of the triumph we were escorted to the kitchen dining area and I was shoehorned into June’s old highchair as the ladies were seated at the table.  I was seated between June and Mama facing June’s mom. 

Mama gave me another bottle of formula to work on as the ladies enjoyed their meal of chicken, vegetables and macaroni and cheese. 

“Mommy, can I feed the Baby” I heard from June.

“Once you have finished your meal, you can feed the Baby” June’s mom said.

June’s mom cleared the table and scrapped the remaining meal of macaroni and veggies in the blender and gave it a whirl.  Supper turned into an indistinguishable yellow green mush that was scrapped out of the blender into a plastic bowl.

Mama put a bib around me as June stood up and took the bowl and a wooden spoon from her mom and prepared to feed me.   She scooped up some mush on the spoon and announced “Open up baby her comes the plane Zoom.”  I opened my mouth and welcomed the mush.  Next time it train that delivered the goods and this continued until both June and I had had enough.

Mama had picked up a washcloth and wiped down my face and then released me from the chair to the floor so I could crawl after June and learn how to play with her dolls.  June taught me how to feed her dolly.  She started to get frustrated with me as I was not doing it right.  I think the moms heard her frustration so it was time for me to go home.

Mama packed me back up in the stroller and pleasantries were exchanged as we left and returned home.  The trip home seemed shorted in that it was becoming familiar, yet the last few blocks took longer as I felt a rumble in my tummy and knew that I had to release my meals into my diaper.  I tried to hold it in and think Mama could tell so she took her time so I could fill my diaper and learn to live in the filth. 

Finally we got home.  Mama sure seemed to take her time, unlocking the door, opening the door, taking care to navigate the stroller inside, leaving me in the stroller as she went back to close and lock the door.  Then she had to unpack the items from the stroller and her bag while I waited in the stroller.  Finally she pulled back the canopy, knelt down in front of me and waved her hands accompanied by a “whew, what happened?”   We all knew what happened!  Mama unsnapped me and had me crawl to my room.  I enjoyed the friction, but not the smell, as I crawled back to my room.

With little fanfare Mama had me lie on a change mat on the floor and set about undressing me and then changing my messy diaper.  I was cleaned, powdered and taped back up.   “Sweetie we will keep you just in the diaper until you are ready for bed”  she declared as she got up and had me follow her to the front room.

Mama had me sit down on the floor in front of the sofa and then she came back with a glass of red wine, a bottle and a towel.  She turned on the TV took off her dress, laid out the towel on the sofa and then sat on the towel straddling me.

I loved my Mama and I showed her my love and happiness by giving her leg an energetic hug and kissed her thigh.  She patted my head and pulled me in as she watched her movie.  I was so thankful that I was not the sorority slave that any distaste that I experienced as I kissed and sucked my way to that holy place was more than offset for the gratitude to be Mama’s diaper slave.  I was happy to worship my Mama and I could tell from the aroma emanating from that most holy place that Mama was happy to have to me serve her.  She had one hand on my head slowly guiding me in as she savored her wine.  When she finished her wine, she put down the glass and both hands directed me to the task at hand. I was pulled in tight and her legs closed tight around me and then released.  I was pulled in closer and again her legs collapsed against me and then released.  My entry point was more than moist – it was wet and it was time for me to drink from and suck the center of her pleasure.    I closed my eyes as my world collapsed into a few inches of wet warmth, the pulling back and forth of my head, and now the pressure of her heals kicking on my back.  I loved my Mama and between licking, sucking and the pounding of my face into her my mouth I was totally enraptured in becoming one with her.  Eventually Mama screamed out one last time and released me.  I slowed down the pace and continued to lick and suck, but now I could take a breath and thank my Mama with a “goo goo Mama”. 

She released me to sit between her facing one of her legs so I could continue hugging and kissing her thigh.   

I continued to kiss her thigh as she watched her movie.  Later she gave me my bottle of water to suck and then pulled me closer to the sofa.  I was getting tired so she paused the movie and had me follow her to my room where she dressed me in a onesie and helped me into the crib.  She climbed in with me and gave me my final feeding for the day.  I loved my Mama and really enjoyed the nourishment from her breasts.  Next thing I know, the crib rail was up and the mobile was playing as I quickly fell asleep.

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This is consistently one of my favorite stories here, and I'm always excited to see a new chapter.

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thank you

 

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I slept like a baby!  That is it was an interrupted sleep as I had visions of coloring with June, watching the diaper slave being branded, being nursed by Mama and worshipping her.  It was all a jumble. I would wake up, see that I was in my crib and then fall asleep.  I woke up again to the dawn and heard Mama, wearing just a bathrobe as she breezed in and declared “It’s another great day with just you and me Babe!”

She came to my crib and lowered the railing and then crawled in and made herself comfortable as she opened up her bathrobe and pulled me around to feed me.  I latched onto her and she pulled me in tight and asked  “How is my baby boy; Are you a good baby?”

I nodded my head as I started my breakfast and bonded with my Mama.  I continued to suck, with moderate success until Mama changed breasts.  I got back into the rhythm on the other side and gained some nourishment as Mama patted my diaper and back lightly.  This truly was a time of bonding and bliss.  All good things would come to an end as Mama released the seal and propped me up to be burped.  As I was being burped I could smell the sweet smell of my Mama as she continued to thump my back until I brought up the desired results.  Once I burped I heard “That’s a good boy!”  Mama released me and led me to the floor where she undressed me, cleaned me up and taped up a new diaper. 

“Come baby, we will get you dressed later.” She said as she headed out the door and I crawled after her.  We went straight to the kitchen and Mama put me in the high chair and then went to prepare our breakfast.  I just sat and watched my Mama make the coffee, oatmeal, her fruit with yogurt and a bottle of formula for me.  Mama gave me my formula and then sat down to her breakfast.  I worked on my bottle and then waited for her to bring the bowl of oatmeal.  We went through, what would become our morning ritual, of airplane and train deliveries of oatmeal to my greedy mouth.  The formula gave me my drugs and vitamins, but the oatmeal gave me something to work through in my stomach.  After my face was wiped down I was led to the play area and Mama went to her room to get ready for the day.

I got lost in my play as Mr. Bear helped me build a city with my blocks.  Occasionally I would be interrupted to hear Mama on her phone.   Time passed quickly and I had not got dressed, but the door bell rang and I noticed Mama dressed up nicely going to the door.  She had opened the door and Nana had come for a visit.  Nana sat down on the sofa and Mama let me out to go visit with her.  Nana slipped off her shoes and showed me one foot with the hint that I should get to work and massage it.  The two sisters were engaged in their conversation.  Apparently Nana made a point to visit her sister every Friday and they would go out for lunch and today would be no exception.  Nana raised her other foot and I went to work on it.  The original plan was for me to be taken over to June’s place where her mom would take care of me; however, June was sick.  Nana had arranged for someone to come over and watch me.  They were waiting for my sitter to arrive before they went.  They had a standing reservation so Mama’s concern about being late for lunch should be no concern at all according to Nana.  I had slowed down on the foot massage as I was processing their chat when Nana’s free foot smacked my crotch.  It had the desired effect for me to double down with the task at hand as I also remembered to kiss her beloved feet.   What they were discussing was to be no concern of mine regardless of whether I was the topic of the discussion.  Focused on the task at hand reminded me of my status.  I was a thing, a possession more than a person, and I could have done worse.  I was happy to be owned by Mama.

The door bell rang again and Mama went to the door and invited my new sitter in.  I glanced to the left and froze as I took in my new baby sitter.  She was awesome and she noticed me knelling in front of Nana’s, holding her foot as Nana removed it from my care and placed it back in her shoe.  I froze, I must have been like a deer stuck in the headlights as my new sitter approached and asked “So you like serving Mama and her friends, do you?” 

Nana got up and joined Mama at the door.

Mama said “Be a good boy, we will be back soon” as she closed the door.

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My new sitter took Nana’s place, removed her shoes and said “Who told you to stop – continue.”

I got to work massaging the one foot, and kissing her nylons, just above the ankle,  and looked up at this goddess as she said “Your Mama asked me to come over play with you, feed you and then put you down.”

“You are not going to give me any trouble, are you?” she asked.

I replied by nodding no as I continued to massage and kiss her feet.

She continued “I should put you down right now.  What a waste of time, money and oxygen!  You are worthless!  An electric massager would cost less and do a better job and it would not need a baby sitter!  I don’t see why your Mama got you in the first place. It must be a power thing.  Well we are here now and I need to make the best of a bad situation, don’t I?”

How do you respond to that?  You don’t.  I nodded my head in agreement and moved to the other foot as my new baby sitter focused her attention on her phone as I continued to worship her feet.  I was worried about what could happen next and my new tormentor must have sensed that as she quizzed me “Are you scared baby?  Are you worried I am going to punish you?”

I must have nodded an unconvincing no as she continued “You have no reason to fear as long as you obey my commands to the letter and without hesitation.”

I nodded a quick agreement as I continued to work on her feet.  She then exclaimed “Stop!”

I put my hands down by my side immediately and waited for her next instruction.  She got up and took off her nylons and then stood beside me.  She looked down at me and started to take off her top to reveal her breasts trying to bust free from her bra as she said “You are totally helpless to resist, aren’t you?  I can have you do whatever I want.  You need to be owned by someone, don’t you?” 

I looked down to the floor and nodded in agreement.  She had me pegged - I was worthless.  What sort of guy is so weak that we would willingly trade in his freedom to become someone’s property?  I had no vision and no hope other than I really did love my Mama and I was happy to meld my identity to hers.  I was also happy that I did not belong to my babysitter if this was any indication of what life would be like under her ownership.  I could not make a go of it as a single guy and I was obsessed with women’s breasts.  My addiction had led me to be a happy baby at the breasts of my Mama.   While I was pathetic from her perspective, I was happy to be owned by my Mama.

I looked back up and became mesmerized by her breasts.  Was it lunchtime or was it something else that held my focus on her breasts.  I was ready to obey her, whatever she said and asked of me and I think she knew that. 

She caught me looking up at her and then with the grin a of a Cheshire cat came over her.  I was no longer a man – I was a mouse!  “Well Babe, your rightful place will always be under me, follow me” she commanded.  I crawled behind her as she took a long path through the house to eventually land in my room.  She put a change mat on the floor and she had me lie face up as she went to get the supplies.  She came back without wearing her dress, her hands were full of supplies and her breasts swayed from side to side as she approached me.  It was starting to get tight in my diaper and I moved my legs to allow for some room.  She kneeled down and straddled me as she put the supplies to the side.     

“Before I change you, I am going to give you a little drink of my nectar.”  She said as she straddled me and moved up to my face.  My head was pinned down between her legs as she lowered herself onto my mouth.  This was different, but I knew what to do.  My tongue got to work licking, exploring and sucking as my babysitter repositioned herself to take advantage of me.  The one skill I had developed was sucking.  I continued to lick and suck as much as she would let me as she was bouncing up and down on my mouth until she filled me with her juices.  I thought I was going to drown as I gagged and swallowed as fast as I could until she slowed down and rested herself on my head. 

“Okay worm, I see why your mommy keeps you.  I think I will volunteer to babysit you more often”  She said as she got up and pulled out a baby wipe to wash my face.  She then pulled the top of my diaper and took a peek in.  “Where is baby’s peepee? I can’t see your peepee.  You are a worthless worm, I will change you later, let’s go.”  She got up and pulled on her nylons and skirt and proceeded out the door as she commanded “come.”

I got up and crawled after her back to the play area where she set out my coloring book and some crayons.  She instructed me to color a nice picture for Mama.  I got to work on the picture as she left for the kitchen.  I could hear some kitchen noises and then her talking to someone on the phone.  She then came out stopped and commanded “Baby, look up.”  I looked up and she snapped a picture of me on her phone and then started laughing as she went back to the kitchen.  I continued to work on my picture for Mama and worked hard to stay inside the lines. 

I was lost in my work when my baby sitter came back out with a bowl and spoon.  “Okay loser, time for your lunch.” She said. I was prepared to crawl to the high chair as she said “Where are you going? I am feeding you here.” 

I was just in a diaper, no bib, no cloth or anything to contain the expected mess.  She leaned me against the wall and kneeled down and commanded “Open up” as a large wooden spoon with a vegetable mush made its way into my open mouth.  I clamped down on the food as she pulled the spoon out.  It was mushed peas, carrots and other stuff I could not make out.  I did not have time to savor it as another load was coming quickly for me.  I opened up to receive the load of adult baby nutrition formulated for someone like me.  This continued until she had scraped the bowl clean.  Most of the contents had hit the target, but some had hit my face and some had landed on my chest and diaper.   My tormentor did not seem concerned as she pulled out some wipes and wiped down my face and the rest of my and put the spent wipes in the bowl.   She got up to put things away and then returned to inspect my coloring.  I showed her my artwork and she seemed pleased.

“Baby it is time for your bath and a nap.  Move it” she commanded.  I started crawling towards the bathroom as she followed me and gave me a kick and a slap on my diaper to encourage me to move faster.  She had me lie down on the floor as she turned on the bath water and then turned around to remove the tapes from my diaper.  She pulled down the diaper and then started to point and laugh.  “What do you call that?” she said as she pointed to my shrivel penis. 

“No wonder you are a baby, you could never satisfy anyone with that.” she continued to laugh.

"It is a good thing that you represent the end of your genetic line."  she said.

She helped me out of my diaper and into the bath.  Bath time was uneventful in that she washed me down and washed my hair.  I did fuss as some shampoo got in my eyes and my complaint was greeted with a stinging slap.  After I was rinsed down and came out of the tub, she dried me up and put me in a new diaper.  I crawled after her to my room where she put me into a white onesie and helped me into the crib. She pulled up the rail and left for a moment and returned with a bottle of formula.  She gave it to me and then kissed her hand and put it to my cheek and said “good night baby, sweet dreams.”

I started to nurse on the bottle as she started the mobile and closed the door.

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I woke up to Mama dropping the rail to my crib and seating herself at the end of the mattress.  She pulled me around and propped my head on her lap and then started to undo her blouse.  I was still quite dazed as I woke up and she started chatting to me.  I opened my eyes to the delights presented to me and then closed them as I snuggled up and started to suckle.  Apparently I was a good boy and Mama and the babysitter had agreed for her to come back next week as Mama had a standing lunch appointment with Nana.

Nana had moved me to the other breast as she commented on the nice picture that I had colored for her and she thought that the baby sitter had done a good job taking care of me.   As much as Mama loved her lunch with her sister she also missed me.   Mama was stroking my cheek as she held me close and was chatting about how lucky she felt to have me.  I was happy too, knowing that Mama would do everything she could to take care of me.  This really was my destiny.  I moved one hand around her, behind her back and pulled myself in as I continued to suckle.  Alas, all good things must come to an end and Mama released me from her breast and propped me up to be burped.   Not much came from burping and I felt Mama, all of a sudden, was in more of a hurry while I was happy to linger on her shoulder.  She released me and helped me out of the crib and commended “come.” 

I followed her to her bedroom where she sat down on the side of the bed and removed slacks and underwear.  She motioned for me to come to the seat of worship.  It could tell that she was aroused and pulled me into her clitoris.  This was rather quick and unexpected, but I went to work licking and sucking and exploring the inner wonders of my Mama as I could hear her ahs and felt her pull the hair on my head as she continued to direct my worship of her.  She pulled me into her and lay down on the bed and then I felt her legs go over my shoulder as my field of vision was restricted to a few inches of her creamy skin.  Her hands had I tight grasp on my head as her heels started to dig into my back.  I continued my worship as her heels continued to buck into my back until I was drinking the juices of adoration from my Mama.  I continued to drink and suck until the source had subsided and Mama invited me up onto her bed.  I crawled up beside her and lay down facing her as she pulled me in to nourish me with her breasts.  I continued to suckle on her one breast until she had calmed down and said it was time to get ready for the rest of the day.  Apparently Mama felt now was the time to worship her as Kim was planning on coming home tonight so that we could spend the long week-end together.  Mama got cleaned up and wiped down my face and then we headed back to the front room and I was put back into the play pen area.  She turned on the television and left me with my toys and Mr. Bear and the freedom to watch TV or build something with my blocks.  I was tired so I decided to go blank in front of the TV to a kids show.  I was reminded of my ABCs and 123s as Mama left me so she could go do whatever Mama’s do.

I don’t know how long that I was completely zoned out, but it was until supper time.  Mama came and woke me from my stupor to have me crawl to the high chair.  She helped me up into the chair and then secured me in place, put on a bid and then the table.  She went back to the kitchen stove and came back with her supper of chicken, rice and potatoes and my bottle.  She set her plate down at the table then came over to give me my bottle of water.  I grabbed the bottle and started to suck on it as Mama sat herself at the table and started on her meal.  She watched me noisely suck on my bottle a she savored her supper.   I finished my bottle and started to suck in some air when Mama got up and took the bottle and replaced it with my pacifier and then sat down and continued with her meal.  I was left sucking on my pacifier and just watched Mama enjoy her meal as she watched me watch her.  When Mama was finished she took her plate back to the stove and collected a bit more food and dumped it into a blender.  She turned on the blender and then I understood that I we were going to share the same dinner.  Mama scooped the contents of the blender into a plastic bowl and then returned to me with the bowl and spoon.  She seemed so happy to scoop out some chicken dinner and direct it at my mouth.  I opened quickly and expectantly as this was the only solid nourishment that I would get all day.  I clamped down and let her pull the spoon out of my mouth.  We repeated this scenario now with plane, train and car sounds until the bowl was clean.    Mama seemed to savor the time feeding me and caring for me in the same way that she enjoyed her meal.  She seemed truly happy as she took her time taking the bowl and spoon back to the sink and rinsed them.  Mama came back to wipe down my face and remove the bib and then put then put things away before she took out a glass and a bottle of red wine.  She put the glass on the table, poured some wine, and then sat down facing me, watching me intently as she picked up the glass, had a sip and then put it down.  I didn’t know what to expect as I sucked on my pacifier.  She seemed very satisfied as she looked at me and took another sip.  I was wondering what she thinking about me.  I was still secure in the high chair with nowhere to go as I looked back at Mama not knowing what she was thinking.   Her smile seemed to get bigger as she took up her glass and savored another sip.  I was getting concerned about what she was thinking and called out “Mama”.

 Her gaze was interrupted and then she said “I just wondering if there is enough time for an extra desert.”  She continued smile at me and then take another leisurely sip of her wine.  She put her wine glass down again and smiled at me when we heard a noise at door.

The door was opening and Mama got up to go to the door as we heard Kim call out “Hello.”

Is was still secured to the high chair s o all I could do was watch Mama leave for the door and hear the excited chatter between Mama and Kiki.  I called out “Kiki, Mama” and waited for them to return.

I could hear Kiki drop some stuff on the floor and then she came in and gave me a kiss on my forehead and then asked “how are you baby bro?”  I replied with “Goo goo” and raised my hands up to pull her in and give her a hug, the best way I could with the table of the high chair in the way.

Mama came in and asked Kim if she wanted any dinner, as there were some leftovers.   Kim sat down as Mama put the leftovers in the microwave.  Mama topped up her glass and then brought Kim’s supper and her wine over to the table.  The ladies were engaged in conversation as I just watched and sucked on my pacifier. It was a long week-end and they were planning the activities for the week-end including me.  Kiki looked up and turned to me and said “I looked forward to coming and spending some quality time with my new baby bro.”    

The ladies caught up on the week including the visit to JuJu’s sorority and discussed the new pledges as well as the dedication of the sorority’s new slave.  I made the mistake of yawning through my pacifier.  That elicited a quick response from Mama  “Is baby tired, do you need to go bed?”

I shook my head no.

“Let’s get things cleaned up and let your sister unpack and then we can pick something to watch.” Mama replied. 

Kiki got up and took her dishes to the sink, rinsed them and put them in the dishwasher and then left as Mama cleared the table and then came over to me to let me out of my chair.  I crawled down and followed her to the sofa.  Mama sat down and had me sit on the floor in front her facing the TV as Kiki came out and flopped down on the sofa beside Mama.  As Kiki turned on the W channel Mama put one of her legs over my shoulder and then I automatically started to pull it in and massage her foot.    

Kiki commented “that’s sweet.”

Mama said “he is learning to fit in to his new role”

I continued to massage Mama’s foot as the ladies attention turned to the show.   After some time Mama removed her leg and draped the other leg over me.  I then continued to massage her other foot.

Their show was finished and I was feeling tired, but it was time for another show.  As they tuned into the other show Mama removed her leg and put it beside me.  She used her leg to nudge me over to Kim.  I saddled over to Kim and she then draped her leg over my shoulder so I could massage her foot. 

She commented “Oh, this feels so good.  I will have to hang around more often.”

I continued to work on her foot as their attention went back to their show.  Midway through the show Kim swapped legs and it was time to massage the other foot.

As the show ended they put the channel on hold and declared it was bed-time for baby.  Kim’s leg was released and then used to give me quick and gentle kick to get me moving.  I started crawling to my bedroom and the two ladies followed.  

Mama asked Kim to change me so she could get me ready for my final feeding of the day.  Mama went back to the kitchen as Kim followed me to my room.  I lay down on the floor as Kim got the supplies and prepared to clean me up and change me for the night.  She came back and kneeled down beside me and then started to unsnap me and change my diaper.  She made quick work of the clean up and put me into a new diaper and a dinosaur onesie.  She pulled me up, gave me a quick hug and a kiss on the cheek and then helped me into the crib as Mama came in.  Kim left and blew me a kiss and said “good nigh baby bro.”

Mama left the bottle by the side table as she climbed into the crib and repositioned me for my final feeding.  She pulled me around and bared a breast and pulled me in.  My mouth opened and my pacifier fell out as I latched onto her and started to suck.  I looked up at Mama and saw her looking down at me with love and then I closed my eyes as I savored the milk and the moment.  The milk was getting low as Mama unlatched me and moved me to the other breast.  I latched on and then continued to suckle until she released me and pulled me up to burp me. 

A moment later, I felt like rag doll, as Mama could easily move me from burp to bed.  She exited the crib, pulled up the rail and then gave me my bottle.

A moment later the mobile was on, the light was off and Mama had closed the door behind her.

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I woke up crying, but not like a baby!  These were deep sobs, and all I could remember was the branding of the slave and my baby sitter from yesterday telling me how worthless I was.  I must have been lamenting my choices in life when Kim entered the room, turned on the light and turned off the baby monitor as she approached my crib.  She was dressed in nothing but an oversized T shirt and dropped the rail and climbed in.  She pulled me into her, placed my head on her lap and stroked my face and hair.  Then she asked “What’s the matter Babe?”

 I didn’t quite know what the issue was and tried to recall the jumbled vision that was my dream that caused me to sob so deeply.  I shook my head and did not know what to say when she pulled me in closer and whispered “It is okay Babe, just this once you can use real words to tell me your problem.”

I replied using the first real words in a few weeks “I don’t know.  I must have thought about what the babysitter said.  I don’t remember exactly what she said, but I felt worthless.  What was the point of living, breathing, taking up this air, if a vibrator could do a better job than me?”

Kim extended her index finger over my mouth and then said “because you are ours.  We want you, just as you are.  Mama needs you to be her baby and you made the right choice in life.  I am happy that you are my baby brother.  Now later this weekend I get to give you your maintenance spanking.  I want you to remember that while it hurts, you made the right choice in life.  We own you now, and we wouldn’t have it any other way.  We are not giving up on you and we are not giving you up despite what anyone says.” 

She pulled me in tight and then said “I don’t want to hear another word of this and if I do you will be getting more than a maintenance spanking this weekend.  Then you will have something to regret.  Remember, no regrets and not another word –back to baby talk for you.”   She pulled me in tight and then rocked me back and forth.  After some time she released me, and got out of the crib and pulled up the rail.  She said “I will get Mama and she will be in to get you started on your day.”  She turned the monitor back on and turned off the light as she left.

My pacifier was nowhere to be found, so my left thumb found its way into my mouth as I watched the door.  Mama came in wearing her bathrobe and bringing fresh breakfast.  “Good Morning Babe, how are you?” she asked as she dropped the crib rail.  “Goo Goo” I responded as she made herself comfortable in my crib.  She pulled me around, opened her bathrobe and guided me to my first meal of the day.  I latched onto her and she pulled me in tight as I started my breakfast.  Mama was telling me about how happy she was that Kim joined us for the long week-end and they were planning on what activities we could do together.  My brain must have turned off as all I was focused on was sucking.  I continued to suck until Mama changed breasts.  I got back into the rhythm on the other side and enjoyed the nourishment and bliss as Mama continued talking and patting my back.  Next thing I know I was propped up with my head on her shoulder as I was being burped.  Once I was burped I heard “That’s a good boy!”

 Mama released me and led me to the floor where she undressed me as Kim entered the room.   “Good, you are ready, just in time, can you finish getting your brother ready for the day” she asked Kim.  Kim came down as Mama got up and left.  She pulled out a diaper and placed it under me and exclaimed “look at you getting all ready for another exciting day!”  She pulled my penis between her two fingers and then said “Doesn’t look like little buddy is too excited, but that the way it should be, isn’t it baby?”  She made quick work taping up the diaper and then hummed as she wondered what to dress me in.  She got up, checked the closet and came back with a sailor suit romper and a matching cap.

She dressed me up in the suit with matching blue and white socks.  She kept the hat in her hand and then got up, slapped her side and commanded “Follow me sweetie.”  How had it come to this?  My value as a person or even as a possession, was to be Mama’s and my sisters’ plaything!  I crawled after Kim to the kitchen where Mama was now dressed for the day and preparing breakfast.  Kim helped me into the highchair as Mama commented on how cute I looked as their little Sailor boy.  By now I had solidified my position in the family as their big baby.  

Kim warmed my bottle and served it to me as Mama finished setting the table and set out their coffee and breakfast.  I started on my bottle as the ladies started their breakfast and chatted about their plans for the weekend.  They were still trying to decide between taking me to the zoo or the beach.  They also whispered something about spanking which I picked up and stopped sucking on my bottle and looked to Mama.  She then commented something like it is almost if he understands what we are talking about.  I went back to suck on my bottle.  Maybe it would be better if I did not understand everything that was going on!

After breakfast KiKi took me to the play area.  She had me sit down and hold big bear as she went to get a  Dr. Suess book.  She brought back Green Eggs and Ham and another book underneath it.  She sat down beside me and then opened the book.  She whispered to me “See baby, you don’t have to think about anything, just enjoy the moment.”  Then she started to read the book.  She pointed her finger to the picture on the first page and started “I am Sam, see Baby, that is Sam.”  She flipped over to the next page and read “Sam I am” as she pointed to Sam on the back of the animal.  I snuggled up close to Kim and Big Bear as she continued to read the book.  Her voice was gentle and soft.  I loved the attention that she gave me and it seemed that she enjoyed reading the story.  I just savored the moment being close to Kiki as she continued reading.  Frankly I was in a haze and started to snap out of it as she was finishing up with “eat them anywhere, thank you thank you Sam I am.” 

She started on the next book it was also by Dr. Seuss and I had not heard of it before until now.  She started “If I ran the Zoo;  It’s a pretty good zoo …” I fell back into a daze and released some pee into my diaper as Kiki continued to read.  Mama wheeled the stroller past us and it was loaded with stuff.  She came back and listened in and then continued on.  Eventually Kiki came to the end with “That’s what I would do.  If I ran the zoo.” and slowly closed the book.  “Did you like that Baby Bro?” she asked and I nodded yes and gave her a sideways hug.   Mama came in and announced “Well it is time for us to go to the zoo.”  Kim got up and took the books and Mama had me follow her. I crawled through the hallway to a new door.  She opened the door to the garage and had me crawl to the SUV.  She opened the back door and helped me in and then snapped me in place as Kim came out with a few more things and placed them in the back.  She closed the back trunk and then came around to the passenger side door and snapped herself in the front.  She had a bottle in hand and gave it to me “Here you go sweetie, the more you drink, the less you think. Enjoy Baby.”  What was that supposed to mean?   I don’t know, but I took the bottle and started to drink.  Mama came back and snapped herself in and the then opened the garage door and backed out.  I started to suck and felt very happy.  I continued to suck until I started to feel tired and must have fallen asleep.

 

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I woke up to the car door closing and we were in a parking lot.  Kim was just getting out of the car, closed the door and headed to the back of the SUV when Mama opened my door and declared “Wake up sleepy head.”  Kim opened the back of the SUV and I could hear some rustling around as she pulled out various things and then came around to Mama by my door with the stroller. 

Mama and Kim helped me out of my seat and secured me in the stroller.  Mama checked the diaper bag as Kim snapped me in and gave me a bottle.  Then Mama put the diaper bag on the stroller behind me.  They closed up the SUV and then we joined the throngs of people headed to the entrance of the zoo. 

I heard Mama say to Kim “This is a great idea, we haven’t been to the zoo since you and Julie were kids.”  As we headed to the main entrance I made sure I was as far back in the stroller and as small as I could be.  I didn’t want anyone to see me, but I could not avoid it.  I might not be noticed by the adults but I was at eye level for the kids holding their parent’s hand.    “Look Mommy at the big baby” I heard and then looked at a four year old pointing in my direction.  The mommy quickly took charge and pulled her child to her other side and shushed her.  We came to the end of a line for the tickets and slowly moved our way up when I heard a set of keys drop on the concrete beside me.  Someone had dropped them by the stroller and then went to pick them up and looked my way “Well Hello Sweetie, what happened to you, did you lose a bet?” I shook my head no and waited for Mama to reply.  “No, he is ours.  He didn’t lose a bet, he wanted this and we wanted him.  He is the baby we wanted that will never grow up.”  Mama replied.  The lady got up so that all I saw was her legs as she continued her conversation with Mama and KiKi.  The next thing I knew the canopy cover was pulled back and the lady came down and pinched my check and said “See you later Sweetie.”  Mama pulled the canopy cover forward as we continued in the line.  Soon the tickets were purchased and we made our way into the zoo. 

The zoo wouldn’t be a zoo without Lions, Elephants and Giraffes so we followed the crowds to the large animal section.  I could only catch snippets of Mama and Kiki chatting over the noise of the crowds as they guided my stroller along the path to the first exhibit where I saw tall trees and giraffes to match.  They pushed my stroller to the edge of the display area and then read the information plaque posted beside it.  “Jay, did you know that giraffes eat from the Acacia Tree, and did you know they have three hearts - One main heart and two sub hearts.”  Kiki commented as she looked down at me.  “Goo-goo” I replied.  We spent a bit more time observing the Giraffes until my stroller was pushed towards the Elephants.  Again it was steered towards the information plaque on Elephants.  Kiki read the plaque and then digested it into a simple fact for her baby brother and I replied acknowledging the fact with a “Goo-goo.”  This continued throughout the large animal area checking our Lions. Tigers Rhinos etc. until Mama decided to check my diaper.  It was full as I had wet it since the zoo story and continued to release pee until the inspection.  Mama and Kiki then directed me to the family washrooms where there was a line-up of moms and strollers waiting to use the facility.    We waited in line until it was our turn next when the baby behind us started to wail.  It was incessant and Kiki offered the mom that they could go ahead of us.  She pulled the stroller ahead of us and said “Thank you” and the registered shock in her face as she realized there was an oversized baby in the stroller.  I saw the shock in her face and looked down to avert her gaze as she then pushed her stroller with the wailing child into family washroom.

 Time passed at a glacial speed until the door opened again.  .  She glowered at me, Mama and Kiki as she then exited the family washroom, holding her child in one arm and pushed the stroller with the other.  It was finally time to get in.  I did a final push to empty my contents into the diaper so the change was worthwhile.  Kiki pushed me in to the family washroom that had a sink and change table and a toilet.  Mama pulled back the canopy to the stroller as Kiki came around and started to unbuckle me from my restraints.   Kiki pulled me forward and out of the stroller and help Mama place me on the change table.  I was scared that I would fall as I was a bit oversized for the table, but Mama used the restraints to snap me to the table and gave me the reassurance that I would not roll off.  I barely fit and let my feet dandle over the edge of the table.  Then Mama started to unsnap my outfit as Kiki was heard digging around in the diaper bag for a fresh diaper and supplies.  Mama pushed the Sailor outfit up and under me and then started to undo my diaper as Kiki appeared with the much needed supplies as Mama did the great reveal of the contents of my diaper.  Kiki waved her hand in front of her face, clearing exaggerating the foul smell and disgust as she commented  “What would you do without us?  I don’t know how you would ever survive.  It’s a miracle you made in this world so far.”  Mama kept quiet and quickly went to work removing the waste and doing a wipe down.  She traded the bundled up diaper with a fresh one from Kiki and commanded “Up”.  I lifted my bottom as she slid the new diaper under me, powdered me and then taped me up.  She pulled down the outfit, snapped me up and then did a quick pat on the front of the diaper and said “There, all done, you should be good for a few hours.”

The ladies got me off the table and back into the stroller.  I was then all packaged up and pointed towards the door when they used the toilet.  Once everyone was finished with washing their hands we were ready to exit.   We left the facility and the line-up to use it and made our way to the food court.   Kiki parked the stroller by a table and fished out a bottle from the diaper bag as Mama had joined a line up to order food.  She came back with sandwiches, drinks and fries.  I started on my bottle as they worked through their lunch I continued until they could hear me sucking air through the bottle.  Kiki asked “Baby would you like some of our lunch?”  I nodded yes.  She took my bottle and then took an oversized bite out of her sandwich and exaggerated chewing it.   She then spit out the contents of her mouth into her hand and directed it to me.  “Here you go, eat up!” she instructed.  I started to eat out of her hand, chew and swallow.  “Eat all of it” she commanded so I started to lick her hand and then sucked her fingers clean.  “That’s a good boy, would you like some fries too?” She asked.  I nodded yes and she repeated the process, this time taking in and sharing her fries.   After I cleaned her fingers again she commented to Mama “I like the feeling of him sucking on my fingers.”  Kiki then dipped a finger in the ketchup and placed it in my mouth.  I savored the sauce and the finger.  Kiki did a gentle massage on my tongue and then withdrew her digit.  Mama commented “He is a good sucker, I am glad we got him.”  “Where should we go next?  There is the petting zoo and we can check if they have opened up the hu-farm.”     Kiki responded “I think the hu-farm would be too depressing for Jay, let’s check out the aviary.”  As I overheard all this I meditated on the experience of tenderly sucking those soft, sweet fingers.  Next thing I know a soother had approached my lips and we were on our way. 

 

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I was pushed to inside the aviary where we could hear all sorts of birds making sounds.  The one thing I felt immediately it was hot and I was feeling drowsy; nevertheless we pressed on to view the latest descendants of the dinosaurs.   

Mama and Kiki were quite engaged chatting about the parrots and other birds stealing the occasional glance to check up on me.  It was warm and I was restrained in my stroller and I started to feel my eyelids getting heavy.   I think Kiki saw me in my current state and her hand came in, pulled my pacifier and she stuck finger in my mouth.  It was electric as she moved her finger gently up and down the top of my tongue.  I looked up and saw a new smile on her face as she withdrew her finger, crouched down as said “Do you want to go see the dinosaurs?”   Fully awake I nodded yes.  My pacifier was placed back in its proper home and I was pushed through the aviary to the next area.  The aviary was a bright glass enclosed area that kept the heat. 

When we entered the next area, it was dark and my eyes were adjusting to the dimness as I heard a giant roar.  Some of my lunch entered my diaper as I was actually scared by the noise and felt the restraints of my stroller.  My eyes adjusted to the approach of a mechanical T Rex and I felt helpless as I could not exit the stroller or move it as the mechanical monster was coming for us.   I called out to Mama.  Kiki came around in front of me knelt down and put her finger to her mouth with a shush as the T Rex stopped within 10 feet of us.  It was roaring and moving it huge head from side to side.  It spied us and roared right at us, but Kiki was unfazed I guess she knew about such things.  I was only a baby so all I could do was grab her arm and be scared.  Mama pulled the stroller back and navigated us to a place further away from the action.  From there we could see the whole display and, from a distance, it was not too scary.  Mama found a bench and pulled the stroller over, locked it and then sat down.  Kiki undid my restraints and then helped me up and out to be seated beside Mama.  I was lowered down with my head on her lap facing up to her bountiful breasts.    Kiki pulled out a towel and Mama draped it over her shoulder and my face.  Since it was dark it must have been okay for me to snuggle up to Mama.  Her hand unbuttoned her blouse and pulled out a breast and then guided me to her nipple.  I latched on and started to suck as I heard the roars and screams around me.  Mama reassured me by patting my backside and pulling me in tightly.  I continued to suckle until there was no more.  Mama adjusted us to the other side and I continued by latching on drawing nourishment.  Finally there was a time for all good things to end and Mama pulled me up on her shoulder and started a light patting on my back as I burped up the air that came with sucking the fresh snack.  Kiki was nearby and then helped Mama put me back in the stroller and secured me in place.  They did this as if it was in the regular course of the day and it appeared that in the dimness of the theatre nobody seemed to notice.  Secured and pacifier back in place they pushed the stroller to the front of the exhibit and along the way until we exited outside.  The brightness of the sun took its toll on all of us as Mama stopped the stroller just outside the theatre for our eyes to adjust.

 

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I rubbed my eyes as they adjusted to the strong sun light and I think Kiki thought I was tired.  I was tired, but I don’t think I needed a nap!  Mama and Kiki discussed amongst themselves what to do and it was decided that I had enough zoo and it was time to go home.  As we headed out to the exit they discussed a zoo membership and dinosaur versus zoo pajamas for me.  I didn’t catch all the details, but I am sure I would find out in time.  We came back to our vehicle and Kiki opened the side door and helped me into the back seat as Mama opened the hatch.  After I was secured Kiki rolled the stroller to the back and closed the hatch as Mama started the SUV and got the air conditioning going.  It was hot and any objection to a nap melted away with the heat in the back as I quickly fell asleep.

I woke up to Kiki opening my door and helping me out of the SUV.   Kiki had me lean forward into her and it seemed like she was going to try to carry me in, when Mama told her that I had not lost enough weight yet.  So Kiki helped me down and they guided me inside as I dutifully crawled after them to my crib.  I was tucked in, given a bottle, the rail was raised and the mobile started as Mama and Kiki left me for a nap.

I woke up from my nap with the sunshine fighting to get through the blinds.  The room was dim, but it was not too dark that I could easily see everything.  I gazed around the room as the fog cleared from my head.   I didn’t want to be restrained in my crib so I called out to Mama.  I waited and then called out again as I heard Mama and Kiki talking in the hall and footsteps approaching.  Kiki opened the door with a bottle in hand, closed it and said “good afternoon sleepy head” as she approached my crib.  She was wearing shorts and a T shirt and the outline of her breasts were not lost on the T shirt as she dropped the rail to my crib and crawled in.  She sat down cross legged in the crib and then pulled me in so my head was on her lap looking up to her breasts and face.  One hand held my face in and the other was free.  I opened my mouth and nothing came out when she quizzed me with “What do you see baby?”  She pushed up one breast and asked  “Are you hungry?”  Even though I was not that hungry I was happy to be comforted by her breast at any time and nodded yes.  She picked up the bottle with her free hand and guided the nipple to my mouth and I immediately began to suck.  She held the bottle in the one hand and stroked the side of my face with the other as she hummed a tune.  I think I recognized the tune as Rock-a-bye Baby.  She continued to hum the tune as I took the bottle and worked on finishing the contents of the bottle.

 I started to suck in some air and Kiki adjusted my head in her lap and the bottle so I could get a bit more.  Eventually I was just sucking air when she removed the bottle and pulled me up with my head over her shoulder for a healthy burping.  After I was finished being burped Kiki asked “what do you say?”  I was a baby and I did not know what I was allowed to say and stared back at her with that answer in my eyes.  She understood and replied “from now on baby we are going to add two more phrases to your vocabulary.  They are ‘Thank you’ and ‘I wuv you’, got it?’ 

I replied “Thank You” and then “I wuv you Kiki” to which Kiki gave me a big hug and then a kiss on my cheek. 

“Okay Baby let’s go see Mama” 

We crawled out of the crib and then I crawled after Kiki to go find Mama.   Mama was out on the patio in the shade reading a magazine, when Kiki said “Mom, our baby learned some new words, didn’t you sweetie?” 

I replied “Mama, I wuv you” as I continued to crawl over to her feet and then kissed the toes of her feet and said “Mama, Mama Thank you.” 

“Well he is an appreciative little boy, aren’t you.” She replied.  

Mama then directed Kim to get me to color some pictures from the zoo so she can put it on the fridge later. It would be a good reminder of the day.  Kim got up and came back with a coloring book and a few crayons.  She then set me up with my tools on the ground beside her and opened a page to the book and said “let’s see what you can do.” 

I got to work coloring the page and worked hand to stay within the lines, which was not something I was that skilled at.  I was leaning back and by Kiki’s legs as I was coloring.  As I was working on my masterpiece I took a break turned to Kiki and kissed her leg and said “I wuv you.”

Kiki looked up from her phone, tousled my hair, and said “I love you too sweetie.”

I looked over to Mama and I think she approved of the apparent familial bonding that was taking place.  I went back to my work as Mama and Kiki went back to doing whatever they were doing.  The afternoon was progressing to dinner time as Mama and Kiki discussed their dinner and evening plans.  Apparently I would not be part of their plans as Mama recommended to Kim that she give me a bath and I be put to bed early so they could invite people over.  I feared I would be missing out and popped my head back up from concentrating on my artwork to lean over to Kim, kiss her leg and exclaim “I wuv you.”

Mama could see right through me and said “no you don’t mister, we love you too, but we need our adult friends and you need your rest.”  Mama then addressed Kim and made sure I understood as she said “Maybe your little brother needs his maintenance spanking tonight, after his bath, what do you think?”

I started to shake my head no as Kiki put a hand to my cheek, pulled me beside her leg and said “No, I think we will save that for later, I am sure he is going to be a good boy and do as we say.  Right sweetie?”

I nodded my head yes with the full realization that I was going to miss out on something.  I had given up any right to choose or think when I made that last big decision to become an adult baby. 

Mama ordered dinner to be delivered as Kim got up to bring out the high chair and set the patio table for dinner.  Mama stood up beside me and looked down at my work of art and asked “what have we here sweetie?  Are you finished?”  I picked up the coloring book and handed it up to Mama and then hugged one of her legs and said “I wuv you Mama”.

Mama said “that is very sweet how you colored the animals at the zoo.  We will put that on the fridge.”  She then reached down, picked up my crayons and gave me a kiss on the cheek before standing back up.  Kim came back with the high chair and set it in place as she instructed me come over.

I crawled over to the high chair and Kim helped me up and snapped me in.

I was now confined to the chair with nothing to do but watch the ladies set the table as I sucked on my pacifier.  Mama ripped the page out of the book and taped it to the door of the fridge. 

The door bell rang and Mama went to the door and came back with two big bags of food.  As they unpacked the food I realized they had ordered Chinese food.   I liked Chinese food, it Is one food that you order almost anywhere in the world, but I don’t have to worry about that since I was now stuck somewhere in suburbia USA.  The ladies dished out the food on their plates and then Kiki came back with a bottle for me.  Mama said “Finish your bottle while we have dinner.”  I started my bottle, which was the vanilla adult baby formula, as the ladies enjoyed dinner and each other’s company.   When they were finished Kiki cleared the table and came back with a yellow bowl and spoon.  I was going to get some supper.  The bowl had two piles of stuff in it.  Green stuff and Yellow with orange bits stuff.  She sat down beside me as Mama got up and went inside.  I really did love Kiki and enjoyed how she seemed to care for me.  It helped me get over eating the goop.  The green stuff turned out to be mashed peas and the yellow stuff turned out to be chicken with corn and carrots.  It was actually sweet to taste.  Kiki did the train, plane and car noises with “here it comes” until the bowl was cleared out. I looked up and Mama had came back she had changed her clothes and asked Kim “do you want to give your little brother a bath?”

Kim put the bowl and spoon on the table and then unsnapped me from the high chair and let me down to follow her to the bathroom.  She started the bath and had me lay on the floor so she could undress me and remove my diaper.  For the amount of time I spent in the diaper it was just wet, it was very wet!   I didn’t realize the times that I had filled it.  She got me out of the diaper and into the tub.  I think company was coming soon as Kiki was very businesslike in getting me cleaned up and ready for bed.  She did not spend much time playing with me.  She washed my hair, scrubbed me down and drained the tub before getting me out and towel drying me.  Next stop was in front of the bathroom mirror to brush my teeth.   When I passed inspection she had me crawl completely naked behind her to my room.  She had me lay down and then got me into a diaper and she showed off the dinosaur pajamas she had picked for me.  “Look at these” she said.  “Can you growl like that dinosaur?” she asked.

“Rawr” I said.

“Good boy, let’s get you into these” she said.  A few quick snaps and I was diapered and ready for bed, but it seemed so early.  That is what happens if they think you will get in the way.  If I was a puppy dog they would have put me on a leash and tied me up down stairs.  I was thankful I was not their dog.

Kiki helped me into the crib and pulled up the rail and said that she would be back with another bottle.  I settled into the crib and waited for Kiki to return with the bottle as Mama appeared in the doorway.  Mama came up to the crib and explained that there was going to be a party tonight and it might be a noisy so it would be better if I went to sleep early.  She told me to be a good boy and not to make any noise that her guests would hear me, otherwise, I would be in trouble.  Kiki or Mama will come by later and check up on me, but everything should be fine and I should be asleep.  Then Kiki came with the bottle, handed it to Mama who ensured that it met my lips and I started to suck.  Mama leaned over, gave me a kiss and said “Good Night Baby.”

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I woke up with Kiki, wearing her signature night shirt, by my crib commanding “Wake Up sleepy head!  Let’s get ready for another exciting day!”  I pulled my thumb out of my mouth and my eyes started to focus on the source of the voice when I noticed another pair of eyes, behind her, staring at me.  “Hey baby bro, this is your cousin Shelby.”   Kiki introduced me to Shelby who every bit as beautiful as Kiki, but a little fuller below the shoulders.  She was also wearing a night shirt and holding my bottle.  Kiki lowered my crib rail as she explained that her cousin was working in Springfield and came up for the long weekend to join the end of summer party.  She could not make it here for your adoption party, but wanted to meet her new cousin.  Also her dad, your Uncle Jim, really doesn’t the like idea of twenty something year old girls being able to boss around a guy twice their agent.  He is so old school! 

As she clicked the rail in place she asked Shelby “Do you want to feed him his bottle?  He is still growing down.  He is a person, but he is still learning to be our property and get adjusted to being passed around.”

Shelby nodded enthusiastically and replied “Sure.”

Kim cleared a spot on the crib and had Shelby settle in a corner at the foot of the crib and then pulled me around and placed my head in Shelby’s lap.  I got comfortable in her lap and looked up as Shelby’s face lit up and she pulled my head in with her one hand and directed the bottle to my lips.  I needed no encouragement to open up and started to suck.  I looked to the bottle and then looked back up to her beaming face. 

I heard Kiki say she would be back after she got a few things to set-up in my room.  I looked up at my cousin and noticed I was so close to her beautiful breasts.  I moved my head up, to sort of adjust, but really just to give the bottom of her one breast a little nudge.  I saw an immediate reaction in her face and she said “Baby, You will have to come and visit me in Springfield sometime.”  I continued to finish my bottle and started to suck some air and then I heard Kiki direct Shelby to burp me.

Kiki came over, took the bottle and helped reposition me over Shelby with my head on her shoulder and facing out of the crib.  Shelby gave me a light pat and Kiki instructed her to give a harder thump.  The thumping continued until the air cleared my system.  Then Kiki helped me down to the floor for my diaper change as Shelby got out and stood apart to observe.  This time I laying in the middle of the floor beside a chair that Kiki had set up.  I thought Shelby would sit down to watch, but she remained standing further away from the action.

The dinosaur pajamas came off and then Kiki quickly went to work cleaning me up.  Kiki and Shelby were chatting about the specifics of my care and cleaning as I was cleaned up. I was ready for a new diaper and to get dressed for a real breakfast when Kiki ask Shelby to pick out something for me.   Kiki got up and sat on the chair and looked down below.   Okay, so now Kiki is going to watch me get dressed I thought, but things had changed.  Shelby came back with an outfit and the paddle.

Kiki declared “Okay Baby, time for your maintenance spanking.”   

I nodded no and said “No.”

Shelby said “What did I hear, did he say no? I didn’t know babies could talk.”

Kim pulled me up by my earlobe into a sitting position and said “What did you say to your big sister?”

I knew I was in trouble, I waited and replied quietly “no”.

Kim explained to Shelby that in the early stages of adult baby development new owners were instructed to give their babies maintenance spankings to ensure they stayed compliant.  In the first month we were to give him a spanking and reminder at least once a week to help him adjust to his new status.  Then Kiki addressed me “Jay, you were doing so well, we would have given you just the minimum as a little reminder, but now things have changed.” 

I started to shed a tear, hoping to get some sympathy when Kiki asked Shelby to get a bowl of water and some soap.  Shelby left and I heard her talking to Mama and then Shelby returned with the bowl and Mama behind her.   Mama looked down at me with her hands on her hips and asked “Were you a bad baby for your sister?  Your sister was helping you by giving you a few words, but you were so bad to disobey her.”  Kim was still holding me by my earlobe when Mama came down and put the bar of soap in my mouth and moved if back and forth so that my teeth was scraping the soap from the bar and stayed in my mouth.   She pulled the bar back and used her free hand to close my mouth.  The taste was terrible and I really started to cry with the peels of soap still my mouth as I babbled “Mama Goo-goo.”

Mama got up and apologized to Shelby for my behavior and then asked Kim if she was still okay with my training.  Mama left and Shelby came by with the bowl and set it on the floor when Kim asked “do you want to help give him his spanking?”  Shelby replied “Sure, I can see he has grown to be a handful.”

Kim and Shelby traded places on the chair and Kim pulled me over Shelby’s knees and then grabbed the paddle.  Kim instructed Shelby to start with five whacks on each bum cheek.  Then Kim instructed me not to spit out the soap.  I could swallow it or hold it, but if I spit it out there would be more to come.

After Kim’s instructions I felt a whack.  It hurt and I was about to protest putting my hands to protect me when Kim said “If you do that it we will add two more whacks for every time you try to cover yourself.  Be a good baby and let’s get over this.”  Then a second whack on the other cheek hit, and it hit hard.  I didn’t know if I could handle this.  I started to cry with my mouth full of soap chips and then realized some could fall out.  Another whack came and I stopped and swallowed hard as I endured a total of twelve whacks on my back-side.  Shelby paused and Kim asked if she wanted to give me ten more.  She then addressed me and said “I am sorry Babe that it had to be this way.  You know we love you. While it hurts you more than it hurts us we are doing this for your own good! Someday, you will grow up to thank us for this.”

I choked down my sobbing to gasp “Thank you”.

Shelby exclaimed “I love the power we have over him, do you mind if I continue?”

Kiki replied “After his last ten we need to get him into his diaper quickly as he might make a mess and then give him a cuddle to remind him that we still love him, are you okay with that?”

Shelby gave another whack and said “Sure I am in for the full meal deal.”

I yelped and started to cry in earnest since I didn’t have too much soap in my mouth.  I continued to taste the residue and let out real tears as Shelby continued to attack my bottom.  I had lost count and didn’t even try to remember when suddenly it stopped and Kiki came to me and the two ladies pulled me up and placed a diaper under me.  They checked out their handiwork and then applied some soothing cream and then some power on by butt before closing up the diaper.  I was repositioned so that Shelby was holding me and started to rock me gently as I continued to whimper with tears still flowing from my eyes.  Kiki remarked “Shelb you are a natural.  I think we will leave him in just his diaper for now so we can get ready for breakfast.  This took longer than I thought it would.”  Shelby released me and let me slide onto the floor where I was reminded of the torture on my backside from just a few minutes ago.  Shelby got up and left the room as Kiki started to pick up the bowl and paddle and put things away.   Shelb patted her thigh and asked “do you want to come with me?”  I looked up at Kim, and she seemed to have approved, so I followed Shelby to my sister Juju’s room.  She left the door open as I followed her in and came right up to her as she stopped at the bed and I hugged her leg.  She tousled my hair and said “I am sorry sweetie that it had to be like that.”    Then I kissed her leg and stayed on my hands and knees as I did not want to sit on the floor.  She peeled off her night shirt and picked out her clothes for the day.  I am sure she was teasing me and then she remarked “Spanking you was hot; I could do that again!” as she peeled off her panties pulled it up to her nose and gave it a sniff.  She then came down and pushed her scrunched up panties in front of my nose and said “Sniff, you see that was exciting.  Want to do it again? Remember No is not in your vocabulary.”   What could I say?  If I said ‘no’ we would repeat the painful exercise and my bottom was still burning.  Thank you would be an admission or a yes.  Best I could say was “Goo-goo.” grab her leg, snuggle up to it and give her a kiss.

I heard Kiki from the doorway “Come on Shelb, let’s get started on the day, he can follow me.” As she commanded “come”.   In this time, Kiki had gotten dressed and I was to follow her to the kitchen where Mama had prepared a meal of yogurt, fruit and waffles.  All we needed was bacon and the meal would be awesome.  I followed Kiki to my high chair and dreaded sitting on the hard seat.  She helped me up and snapped me in and let me squirm as I tried to position myself to some level of comfort. 

 Kiki then came back with a bottle and a bib and fastened the bib around me and then gave me my bottle.  I had nothing to console me until I promptly stuck the bottle in my mouth and started to suck.  It was just a bottle of water that helped me get rid of the remnants of soap that was lingering in my mouth.  I think it was clear who was in charge of my life and that ‘no’ was not a word in my vocabulary. 

Shelby arrived and all three ladies sat down to breakfast and enjoyed a leisurely meal while basically ignoring me.  They talked about me and told Shelby the trials and tribulations of taking care of such a helpless baby, yet Mama said that I gave her purpose and that she would not have it any other way.  Somewhere in the conversation Mama realized I had finished my bottle and came over and gave me my pacifier.   After breakfast I was left in the highchair to continue to sulk and suck as they cleared the table.  I could hear the scraping of dishes and stacking them in the dishwasher as I then heard the blender going.  I tried to be a good baby and waited quietly for Mama or Kiki to come and get me. 

Kiki came with a bowl and a spoon.  I was going to get a semi solid breakfast – yippee!  She pulled a chair up and then sat down and started with the usual train, plane noises and fed me the leftovers from breakfast.  Between the train noises I was encouraged with “you are such a good boy, you are eating the same food as your Mommy and sister, and you are getting to be a big boy aren’t you.”  After my feeding Kiki let me down from the high chair and led me to the sofa and put me in the play area.  I was to stay there and color when Shelby came by to inspect my coloring.  

She came down beside me and asked “How are you baby, are you feeling okay?”  I nodded yes and said “Goo-goo.”  She replied “We are doing this because we love you.”  “I wuv you” I replied.  She was excited by the reply and gave a giggle and a squeeze.  She then got up and left me to my coloring.

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I am no Rembrandt.   I am more like one of those new artists that color outside the lines.  I worked the best I could to color inside the lines a nautical theme picture for Mama or Kiki or Shelby.  Coloring was therapeutic.  I could focus on the nice picture and making it as pretty as possible.  I did not have to think too hard I just had to stay in the lines.  That was the focus of my new life.  Stay in the lines and be a good boy.  That is what I lived for.  The heat from my reminder of who is in charge was cooling off and I was able to settle in on my drawing as I overhead Kiki and Shelby discuss their options for the day.  It seemed like I was not part of the equation as I overhead something about mom and maybe getting a babysitter. 

Kiki had grabbed some keys and was heading out the door with Shelby as she said “Okay Mom, we will be back and will bring dinner.”  Then she commanded me “Be good for your Mama sweetie, we will see you soon.  Be a good boy.”  Of course I will be a good boy – I live to be a good boy.  I put my full attention to my coloring as Kiki had left and Mama had come into the room, opened up the playpen and sat on the sofa.  She patted her hands on her lap and said “Come to Mama Baby.”  I put my crayon down and started to crawl to Mama. 

As I crawled to Mama she started to unbutton her blouse.  I continued to crawl until I made to base of the sofa and gave Mama a kiss on her leg and then crawled up onto the sofa.  I crawled up to Mama and settled my head in her lap.  Mama unloaded her one breast from her bra and guided her nipple to my mouth when instinct took over.  I latched on to her pulled her breast in and snuggled in for late morning snack.   Mama had started to lactate so I was actually getting some nourishment for my body and my soul.  The close contact with Mama holding me close to her and stroking my hair, patting the front of my diaper or just exploring her property was soothing.  I was happy that this was my new world.  The more I would drink, the less I would think as Mama my sisters and their friends would tell what to do.  All I needed to do was be a good boy.  I think was adjusting well to my new life and it didn’t  matter that I was just a piece of property like a pet, because my owners loved me and I depended on and loved them in return.  I continued to suck in bliss until a finger came in and undid the seal and repositioned me for the other breast.  I naturally continued on the other side until it was time for Mama to undo the seal, site me up on her lap and burp me.  Now I longed for the moment of losing all control when the thump, thump, thump on my back brought up the air and the feeling of helplessness and then I would completely relax into Mama.  As I relaxed into her the thumping stopped and switched a back rub and Mama’s encouragement of how I was being such a good boy and how loved she felt.  I was starting to close my eyes when Mama asked me if I wanted to make her feel even better.  I automatically replied “Yes Mama, I wuv you.”  She helped me down onto the floor and I knelt in front of her as she directed me to the seat of worship.  She pulled up her dress and slouched down on the sofa and guided my head to the center of her universe.  My basic training and the events of the last few weeks naturally kicked in as I started to lick and suck.  Mama pulled my hair to direct my head to exactly the right spot and when I was adjusted her legs draped over my shoulders and pinned me in place.  I was working away try to please my Mama the best way I could when I realized I had not had a release.  As I paused on that thought Mama kicked my back and encouraged me to continue.   Continue I did until Mama gave me more to drink.  Finally she released her grip.  She pulled her legs off of me and sat back up on the sofa and adjusted her blouse and dress.  “Oh, that was amazing.  It is time for a little rest.” She said as she got up and commanded “Follow-me Babe.”  I crawled after her to my bedroom where she helped me into my crib, pulled up the rails, gave me my pacifier and then turned on the mobile.  “Have a nice nap sweetums” she said as she left the room and closed the door behind her.

 

[tbaabaa]

I woke up from my early nap with my head feeling scrambled from sleep and breasts and the strong desire to worship Mama.  “Flick your tongue up and down lightly, go up and down, go in circles” had echoed in my head.  Where did that come from?  I had a strong need for a release and realized all I was wearing was my diaper.    My left hand went to my mouth as my thumb replaced my pacifier and my right hand went into my diaper.  I could feel the sodden mess inside.  I moved back out and rubbed the outside of my diaper up and down.  The intensity of sucking on my thumb increased with the frequency of my rubbing and I started to exclaim “Goo Goo” when Mama walked in the door and exclaimed “What is going on baby boy?”.  I quickly pulled my right hand up as I calmed down and the intensity of the situation shifted as I saw Mama quickly approach my crib.

“What were you doing baby boy” she asked as her hand rested on the top of my diaper.  She applied some pressure on my diaper and my hard member.   I reacted by pulling in my legs slightly as I looked straight into her probing eye.  She knew exactly what I was doing!   She did not need to ask.  She rubbed the diaper a bit as I exclaimed “goo goo” and arched up to the pressure instinctively.

 “Babies are not supposed to touch themselves down there sweetie.  That belongs to Mama and your Mama says when you get changed and when you get to go “goo goo” down there.” she said as the she dropped the rail to my crib. 

Let’s see if we can fix that and then we have to make sure you don’t do that again.

She deftly created the friction I craved and I responded with “goo goo” and the frequency and intensity of the “goo goo” increased until I had my release and then relaxed back into my crib.  “We are not done yet Babe” I heard as Mama led me out of the crib and to the kitchen.  I felt the uncomfortable mess in my diaper and was less willing to tolerate it now that I had my release.  I was led to the highchair and my hands were cuffed into place.  All I could to was shit and watch as Mama went about her day.  She left and then came back with my pacifier and said “You can stay here and think about how you will be a better baby until I decide it is time to get you changed and dressed for the day.”  Mama left the kitchen for me to contemplate life.

I could hear Mama moving around in the background and on the phone, but I could not make out what was going on.  I was bored and I had to shit and wait.  Pressure was building in my bowels as I called out “Mama”.  No response from her.  Then a liquid mess escaped – the release felt good but the remaining mess did not as it had crept throughout my diaper. The stench must have escaped the kitchen as Mama passed by and looked in.  I tried to raise my hands as I called out to Mama, but I was unsuccessful.  She acknowledged my situation with a look and continued on.   I called out “Goo-goo Mama, Goo-goo Mama” to no avail.  Time pressed on and I was continuing to feel the discomfort and had not heard much of Mama.  I didn’t know where she was or what she was up to as time continued to drag on. 

Finally Mama came to release me from my high chair bondage.  “Sowwy Mama” I exclaimed.  “You should be sorry babe.”  Let’s get you out and ready for the day.  She released me from the high chair and led me to the bathroom where a changing mat and supplies we laid out.  I lay down and she cleaned me up and then helped me into the bath.  Bath time was not so much fun as Mama just made sure I was clean. There was no play with duckies or anything.  She helped me out and then she sat on the closed toilet and had me lie over her knees.  She pulled out Mr. Paddle that was watching everything from the vantage on the vanity.   “Baby, this is for your own good and I hope you remember this so we don’t have to do this again.”  I heard her saw say as Mr. Paddle made contact with my bare wet bum!  “Owie” I said as my hands reached to protect myself.  “Baby, if Mr Paddle touches your hands it does not count.” She said as Mr. Paddle rapped my hands.  That hurt my hands as they made a quick retreat.  Mr. Paddle made contact with my wet bare cheeks again and created a very powerful sting.  I pulled my hands around to grab Mama’s ankle.  That let me endure the next strokes.  I think I had ten strokes.  I lost count but I really did cry.  Mama pulled me up and hugged me into her.  “I am sorry Baby, but we had to do that to make sure you are a good boy.” She said as she started to rub my back.  The sobs turned into sniffles as she put me down on the change mat and prepared to diaper me.  I felt my bottom burning as Mama then put on some nice cool cream.  That helped so much.  “Thank you Mama” I said as she finished putting on the cream, powder and secured my diaper.  She then pulled out a white onesie and pulled it over my head, pushed my down and then snapped up the bottom.  “Follow me Babe” she said as she got up and led me back to my play area.  I was brought back to my toys and coloring and then she turned the TV to sponge bob.  She left back to the bathroom and then I saw her pass by to the kitchen and then return with a bottle of formula.  I lay down and worked on my bottle and hoped that things would return to normal.  As I sucked the bottle dry Mama returned from the kitchen, led me to the sofa and into her lap with my head over her shoulder.  She popped in my pacifier and then said “I am sorry we had to do that, but I want you to be a good boy.”

 Do you want to be Mama’s good boy?” she asked.  I nodded my head.  She turned me around and then burped me.  I fell into her and could feel her love along with my helplessness.  After a few minutes she led me down to the play area.  Sponge Bob continued to give background noise as I played with Mr. Bear and my toys.  Mama came back to check in on me and then exited.  It was going to be long day as neither Kiki or Mama was going to actively entertain me.  It was up to me to play with myself without getting into trouble.

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I had engaged Mr. Bear in helping me watch Sponge Bob, play with my blocks and color in my book.  I would continue with one activity until I was bored and then move on to the next.  I was wondering if this was the reality of my life.  The early weeks were the demo, I was novel, but now reality had sunk in and I was bored.  Eventually I was so bored I gave up and lay down put my one thumb in my mouth and held Mr. Bear with the other hand, so my hands would not get into trouble.  I began to suck my thumb as I looked up to the ceiling and rolled my head slowly from side to side studying the ceiling.  Then a fly went by.  I watched the fly fly around the room and then I heard the noises of Mama from far away. 

With being bored things slowed down and now I could see things, like the fly, and hear things like Mama far away, that I would normally miss if I was being entertained by the TV or my toys.  As things slowed down I became mindful of sucking my thumb and how it soothed me.  I pulled Mr. Bear tighter into me as I continued to suck, listen and put my mind in idle.  I was now aware of the dribble I released into the diaper as I was watching the fly.  I became aware of the sound of a lawn mower far away outside.  My mind continued to drift in and out of the present until I heard a car doors close near-by.  Then I heard voices outside coming closer and becoming more distinct.    

The chatting and the footsteps were right at the door.  I was expecting the door bell to ring or a knock, but there was a clatter and the door opened as KiKi continued talking.  Kiki and two other ladies entered the room.  Then I recognized Shelby.  They had gone shopping and asked a friend that they had met at the mall to join them here at home.  “Hey there baby boy” I heard from Shelby.  I goo goo’d in reply with my thumb still in my mouth as I awakened from my baby consciousness to the moment at hand.   As I heard “Woah, I see what you mean” from the third girl, I mean lady.  I didn’t know what they meant, but I am sure I was a topic of conversation on their way here.  The three of them continued to saunter past me through the kitchen and outside as they engaged Mama in a conversation and then they came back and went to their rooms and dropped off their bags. 

When they came out again to visit me they were in the tiniest of bikini’s as their intentions were to finish the afternoon getting some rays before the summer was finished.  I was gaa gaa as I sat up and looked on them still sucking my thumb and holding Mr. Bear.  “See something you want Baby” Kiki asked.  “Come, and you can worship us we top up our tans”  Shelby said with a smirk as she patted her thigh.  I looked over to her and started to crawl after.  I followed the three ladies as they walked through the kitchen outside and went for the two pairs of lounge chairs.  Mama was already on one as we approached.   Kiki put a towel on the chair by Mama and went back inside.  She returned with a sun hat, toys and a bottle for me as Shelby and their friend made themselves comfortable on the one pair of chairs.   Kiki deposited my stuff on the floor between the two lounge chairs and sat down.  I came over to her said “Ki Ki” as I hugged her legs.  She extended her wrist to my face and gave her kiss.  “Let’s get some sun screen on you so you don’t burn Baby.”  She said as she retracted her hand grabbed the sun screen.  Mama looked over as Kiki applied the sun screen on me and then gave me my bottle.  She then put the sun screen on her and lay down to soak in the sun.

I lay down and could feel the heat of the sun as I worked on my bottle.  When I finished the bottle I think they heard me sucking in the air.  Mama asked “would anyone like to burp the baby?”  Their friend volunteered and came over and towered over me.  She sat down and leaned against Mama’s lounger and took no time to pull me up and on her with my head facing out on her shoulder.   She needed no instruction as she started to thump my back until the air came up.  We were both surprised when I spit up some of the formula and it landed on her shoulder.  I moved my head and positioned myself to lick the stuff off of her shoulder.  It was a taste of curdled formula mixed with coconut sunscreen.  At first she pulled me tighter, but then realized what I was trying to do and released me to clean up my mess.  Mama thanked her for burping me and apologized for not supplying a towel.  Once all was cleaned up and forgiven I looked up to Mama and called her “Mama.”  Mama’s have a sixth sense about things and asked if I wanted another bottle to which I nodded yes.  She got up and returned from the kitchen with another bottle, this time water.  I worked on the bottle as the four ladies in my life got back to their tanning. 

They would comment to each other on stuff and I made a point not to suck too much air as I finished my bottle.  I didn’t want to interrupt them.  Once I was finished I lay for a while until I had the energy to sit up and play with my toys.  I was positioned between Mama and Kiki, but I could look over the landscape to see my cousin and her friend not too far away.  I could smell the scent of coconut sun screen and was learning to savor the moment.   I did not have to worry about a thing.  All I wanted to do was be a good boy for Mama.    I played with my toys quietly. Every so often someone would turn over or make a comment about something.  I learned to listen to the ladies and the birds and the background noise of the neighbors.  It was boring, but it was good as I unknowingly slipped into baby space.  I no longer felt bored as I descended into being a goo goo baa baa.

 

[tbaabaa]

 

 

“Mom, is he okay.” I heard Kiki say to Mama as I snapped out of my trance.  My brain must have been in idle as I took in the landscape of bronze accentuated with the occasional neon colored straps that functioned for swim suits as the girls were tanning.  I don’t know what I was thinking, if I was thinking anything at all.   All that escaped out of my mouth was “Gaa”.

Shelby lifted her head up and looked at me and called out “come to me, baby.”  I looked to Kiki and she encouraged me with a go - so I crawled over to her.  Shelby pulled my head up to her side, then pulled up a bit, where I could briefly see her breasts as she pulled off her top.  She took her top and threw it over and past her friend.  “Go get the top and bring it over to your aunt Penny” she commanded.  I crawled past Penny and picked up the top and came to Penny’s side.  “You are such a good baby, aren’t you?”  Penny commented as she took the top.  “Sit up for Penny” she commanded.  I sat up looking straight at her and her beautiful breasts.  Shelby’s top came at my face and the cups were secured over my eyes.  I was in darkness as I heard snickering from the young ladies.  “Can you see anything” Penny queried.  I shook my head no.  “Good, what a great little toy – let’s  have some fun?”  she said.  She pulled me up to her arm pit and said “sniff”.  I sniffed and then kissed her armpit.  “Good boy” I heard as she pulled me down to her stomach somewhere.  She then commanded “kiss”  I kissed her stomach and then she pulled me so my head wrapped between her legs.  I must have been positioned to kiss her thigh as I heard the command ‘Kiss”.  I kissed her thigh and then felt her pulling me up to the material of her bathing suit.  “Kiss” she commanded.  I kissed and smelt a familiar scent, and it was not coconut!    I continued to kiss and massage lightly with my mouth the area the best I could as she pressed me in further when I heard in a sharp tone “Penny”.   She pulled me up and placed me down so I was lying on the concrete beside her.   My thumb found its place in my mouth as I stayed still beside Penny.

I heard Kiki say “I knew him from work, and he was okay.  He did his job, but nothing outstanding.  I think he has really gotten into his new role here and I would have to say he is a much better as our baby / slave than he ever was at work.  It has been over a month and we don’t miss him at work or anything.  I think he has taken to the training and his new life here very well – haven’t you babe?” 

Mama chimed in “I don’t know him as anything but as our babe and he is certainly part of the family.”

Shelby commented “My dad would have a fit if he knew the extent of his submission.  Dad can’t comprehend how someone like him would allow us to boss him around.  I can’t image him working in a company, but it looks like fun to boss him around as your baby toy.” 

“Come to Mama Baby” I heard mama call.  I got up and started crawling to her bumping along the loungers as I still could not see.  I made my way to Mama as her voice continued to coax me to her.  As I arrived she encouraged me with a “Good Boy” and then proceeded to take the bikini bra off of my head.  She passed the top to Kiki who passed it back to Shelby.  I was kneeling facing Mama when she asked me “Do you like being our Baby toy?”  I nodded yes as I approached closer to her and gave her a hug and kiss on her leg.  “Good babe, now back and play with your toys” she commanded. 

I sat between Mama and Kiki and went back to playing with the plastic toys given to me.  I completely zoned out as all I remember was vaguely playing as Mama, Kiki and her friends continued to tan and chat.  I slipped back into idle until sometime later Mama must have got up and went inside and then came back out and coaxed me into the house.

[tbaabaa]

I crawled after Mama into the house, past the kitchen to the sofa where she sat down and patted the cushion beside her.  Mama had changed and must have taken a shower as her hair was damp and she no longer smelled of coconut but a sweet smell of her perfume.  I crawled up beside and she positioned me for my dinner.  She released her breast close to my mouth and I arched my head up and latched onto the nipple. I took it into the roof of my mouth and began to suck.   She pulled me in tight and we adjusted ourselves so that I could get my nourishment from her.  Then she began to chat with me.

“Are you having a good day, baby?” she queried.

All I could do was nod my head in the affirmative.

She began to pat the back of my diaper as she asked “do you like the attention you are getting from the girls?”

I nodded yes as I continued to suck.

“You want to be a good boy for Mama, don’t you.” She said as I continued to suck and she continued to pat the back of my diaper lightly.

Again, I nodded yes while latched onto Mama.

“Baby, It was okay that you waited for Kim to say yes before you went over to your cousin Shelby.  You are safe here and we would not put you with anyone we did not trust.  Unless I tell you otherwise, you are to listen to your cousin, friends and your sitter.  Be a good boy and do what you are told.  Do you understand?”

I nodded yes.

“Good Boy” she said as she continued to pat the back of my diaper.  Then her finger came inside my mouth to break the seal and I was repositioned to the other breast.  I quickly latched back on, closed my eyes and continued to suckle in a dreamlike state as I felt the gentle rhythm of Mama patting the back of my diaper.  It did not take long for Mama to start generating the milk that I now craved.  I had no idea of time, but soon a finger came to break the suction and Mama guided me up with my head on her shoulder facing out and she started to burp me.  After a burp came up I was repositioned to be sitting beside her on the floor.  I immediately turned to hug her legs and kiss her tight as she adjusted her blouse and then got up. 

“You can thank me later baby in a more meaningful way” she said.

“Come” she commanded as I followed her to my playpen area and was reunited with Mr. Bear.

“Be a good boy and play here” she said as walked out towards the kitchen and called for Kim.

[tbaabaa]

Time drags by as you play alone.  I did have Mr. Bear as a companion, but he had very little to add to the conversation or play activities.  I played with my blocks and toys as long as I could, but was very bored and alone.  Eventually I called out “Mama” and waited for Mama, or anybody for that matter, to come and visit me.  I waited and waited, there was no footsteps or reply.  I called out again “Mama” and waited.  Still, no reply, so I pulled Mr. Bear with me and went to the edge of my play area and called out with more effort “Mamaaaaa”.   After a few moments , I heard footsteps approaching and Kim’s voice calling “What is it Baby? Mama is busy right now, can I help you?”

I held my hands up to Kiki and called out “Goo Goo KikI.”

“What is it sweetie, are you hungry?” she asked.

I shook my head no, and exclaimed “Goo Goo Kiki!”

“Do you need to get changed?” she asked.

I shook my head no, and with more agitation exclaimed “Goo Goooo”

“I don’t know what you want, maybe you are just tired a need a nap, do you want me to put you down babe?” she asked.

I shook my head vigorously no, and exclaimed a little louder “Goo Goo Kiki.”  Not knowing really what I wanted, other than to cuddle up to someone.  I now had resorted to a babble of “goo goo Kiki, goo goo mama” mixed with sobs and now I was starting to tear.  “Kiki” I exclaimed and held my hands up to her to have her pull me up and out or for her to come down.

I think she figured it out and let me out of the play area and commanded  “follow me sweetie.”

I crawled after Kiki to the sofa, where she sat down and patted for me to sit down beside her.  I went to crawl up beside her when she instructed “No, you can snuggle up beside me on the floor.” 

I sat down beside her and hugged her legs.   She still smelled of coconut tanning oil and now some of it smeared onto me.  I let go and then started to smear the excess oil onto the rest of me until my hands and arms did not feel so slimy.  “Are you okay Baby?” Kiki inquired.

I nodded yes, as she leaned down and pulled the back of my diaper to check the contents.  It was only me.  “Face me” she commanded as a finger went inside the front of the diaper and felt around.  “You are a little wet, but nothing that needs a change” she exclaimed.  I reached forwarded and grabbed her again and hugged her legs.  She tousled my hair, and asked “Were you lonely?”  I nodded yes.  “Awe, sorry sweetie, let’s bring you out to your Mama and my friends.”  “Come on” she coaxed me.  I didn’t need coaxing as I craved Kiki’s and Mama’s companionship and followed her as she got up and headed outside.

I was relocated to the playpen in the shade by the house.  Mama was also in the shade reading a magazine and the three ladies were still on their lounging chairs tanning.  Kiki brought over my plastic blocks from her chair and made sure I was secure.  I contently sucked on my pacifier and made a game of my toys while periodically sneaking a peek at the ladies in the sun.  This went on for some time until Penny got up, picked up her bikini top holding it in her hand, looked over at me and smiled as she started to sashay over to me.  I was enthralled and quickly became hypnotized by the motion of the oranges that were her breasts.  “Num, Num, Na Na” I said absent mindedly as she headed right to me.  A  knowing smile came over her face.   “Num, Num” I repeated as I became aware of the pain between my legs as my penis expanded and pushed the boundaries of my diaper.  It hurt, and I didn’t realize that it could grow to the outer limit of my constraints.  She came up to me, knelt down and stroked the front of my diaper and then patted it as she asked  “what do we have here, baby?”

I felt the pain and pressure, but it had been a long time since I had a release.  I was ready to explode when she turned to Kiki and said “Kim, could you check if he is okay?”

Kim got up, fastened her top and came towards me.  I was still feeling the pressure, but it was starting to subside as I did not want to get caught with my diaper tent.  It started to reduce when Penny stroked the front of my diaper and the pressure increased as Kim came over.  She could she there was a problem and asked “Is Baby hot?”  How was I to answer that but furiously sucking my pacifier and nod yes.  Penny whispered into Kim’s ear and then went inside.  Kiki responded with a wink “We will get you something to cool things down.”   

Penny came back wearing her top and holding a glass filled with ice and some water.  She came to me holding out the glass and said “I think this should cool things down, don’t you?”

I nodded yes, but knew I was not allowed to hold a glass, maybe I was growing up.

Kim said “Penny, Babies can’t drink water from a glass.”

Penny came right up to me and commanded “On your knees, sit up for your aunt Penny.”

I got up on my knees and watched as Penny came down to my level.  She patted the front of my diaper and said “Aw, Baby is still hot!  I have something for that” she then pulled back the front of my diaper and poured the ice into the diaper and let the diaper back.  She patted the front of the diaper and said “That should make baby better.”

I grabbed onto the playpen rail and shook myself so the ice cubes could make their way quickly to the bottom of my diaper. It was very cold and some of the cubes were stuck in the front.   I would pee to melt the ice, but I was still too excited to pee.  At least the tent allowed for the ice to make its way quickly to the bottom as my penis started to subside.  As I knelt down I could feel cold on my bottom. It started to burn and freeze.  Now I could release some pee to warm things up a bit.  In all this activity I saw Mama look up over her magazine and then look back down.  She called out “Are you okay babe?”  I let out a bit more pee and nodded yes and then lowered myself down.  I could feel the ice on my bottom and it was still cold, but it was somewhat bearable.  Penny and Kim started to head back towards their tanning stations and I could hear a snicker.  I turned around with my back facing them as I cooled down and played in earnest with my plastic blocks.  My desire was hot, but my bottom was cold.  I would have to learn to focus my desire on Mama and not let it wander.  I was still learning to be a good baby and needed to learn to tame any desire aroused by any temptress.

I was bored silly and continued to babble away and stack my blocks.  My penis was in full retreat and my bottom was numb.  As I looked and probed there was nothing that indicated that my diaper contained an adult baby boy.  I had now become complacent and happy to be Mama’s baby and Kiki’s toy.  I thought I was a good baby before, but the shriveled penis, with no release, and frozen bottom brought me to new heights of dependency.  A feeling of joy washed over me and in the midst of my babbling and playing with blocks I called out through my soother “I lub you Mama.”

Mama replied “I love you too sweetie”

I really did love my Mama and turned around and sat cross legged to face her and the ladies tanning.  I felt another wave of joy washing over me.  I truly was happy being their baby.  “Goo Goo” I exclaimed as my hands went up and down and patted my knees.  “Goo Goo” again came out of my mouth, which I did not expect.  I must have been losing control, but I was overwhelmed and happy to be their baby.  “Goo Goo” escaped from my mouth again as I laid on my back and pulled one of my feet to my mouth.  My pacifier fell out as I pulled my toe in my mouth and started to suck on it.  It felt weird and yet it was good.  I felt I had left my body and was looking on this oversized infant.  In the past, it was a choice to act like a baby, now it was automatic.  I felt that my rational self was watching as the baby within took full control of my body and impulses.  Yet, I could still feel the melting ice cubes and I knew I had pulled the toe into my mouth.  I don’t remember actively thinking to pull my foot up.  As I was contemplating this my senses seem to be on hyper alert as I felt the back of my diaper expand and then another release of pee.  I didn’t force anything out, it just happened.  Since I just filled my diaper and now was aware of it I forced whatever remaining contents of my bowel out.

As I lay on my back I looked over to Mama and then to the ladies.  I was over whelmed again with a sense of peace and what I was meant to be.  I could see my cousin Shelby get up, fasten her top and head my way.  She smiled down at me as she went inside.  Shelby returned to her place with a brief stop at Kim’s spot.  The two of them looked over at me and then Shelby laid back down on her tanning chair.

I released my toe from my mouth and quickly replaced it with my thumb as I looked around and had a renewed sense of my surroundings.  I could hear a lawn mower in the distance and birds chirping nearby.  I heard a fly or something fly quickly by.  I looked around in wonderment.  Then I tried to get up.  I rolled forward onto the bottom of my diaper and it squished with its contents of mixed hot and cold.  It felt strange as my bottom was still numb.  I sat up and spread my legs to hold the blocks inside.  My mouth felt empty, it needed something so I found my pacifier and stuck it in.  That was comforting!  Now I could collect my blocks.  “Goo Goo” you could hear coming through my pacifier as I played with my blocks.  I continued to mindlessly babble.  Before I had to think about, now it was natural.  That thought hit me with a new form of ecstasy as I realized what I had become.  I played with my blocks and rocked on the bottom of my diaper.  The first time it was squishy, yet there was a ripple of excitement.  I rocked again and was aware of the crinkle sound, but there was also that electric feeling that stirred through my very being.  “Goo Goo” was my natural response to the feeling. 

I had to rock my diaper again, it was like a drug.  This time the feeling pulsed through my core to what was left of my mind as I put my thumb in my mouth and needed the additional intensity of sucking combined with the euphoria of the dopamine that was being released by my body.

I laid back down, sucking my thumb and then allowed my legs to flail around occasionally making contact with the front of my diaper.  I had a new sense of the world and was hyper aware and then, as I continued to flail, the world shrank to be just me.  I was not aware of the noise I was making or of my movements until the intensity of a bright light went off.  I was breathing hard and then slowed down to become aware that Mama and the ladies were all looking down at me.  Shelby asked “Is he okay?”

Kiki replied “He is okay, we have just witnessed our baby go down the rabbit hole of infantilism never to return, haven’t we Baby boy?”

I was in a daze and not sure what had happened.  I could see the three ladies and Mama looking down at me with some concern.  I didn’t know what to do or say.  I had an orgasmic experience beyond anything I ever felt before.  I think it was heightened by the awareness of my infantile state and that I was now forever dependent on my Mama.  It was like a Stockholm syndrome and I was ecstatic that Mama and the ladies were my captures. 

“Maybe he had a bad dream” Penny opinioned.

“Or maybe an orgasmic fantasy” Shelby replied.

“Enough of that” Mama said.

I raised my hands up and called out for Mama.  I was spent, I had no energy to crawl or do anything. I needed Mama.  Mama asked “Kim, help me pick him and let’s take him to his room.”

Kim pulled me up and helped me up and over onto Mama as they carried me to my room and laid me on my crib.  I was completely wiped out and happy beyond anything I knew.  It was like I was drugged.  I was semi conscious as Mama and Kim cleaned me up and put me in a new diaper and onesie in preparation for bed-time.  Kim left and Mama repositioned me for my night time feeding, albeit early.  Num Num with Mama was uneventful and completely natural. As soon as Mama’s nipple touched my lips I latched on and drew the love and nourishment that I craved.  After Mama finished with the other breast she burped me and adjusted me in my crib for a nap.  Kim came by with a bottle of water and gave it to me as Mama turned on the mobile.

 I was exhausted and happy, a spent force, and quickly went to sleep.

[tbaabaa]

It was dark and quiet when I woke up to Mama shaking my shoulder and saying “Wake up Baby, Wake up for Mama.”  I was groggy and the mists of my mind started to clear as I realized that Mama was waking me up.  I called out “Mama” and was greeted with a “Sush sweetie, follow me. We don’t want to wake up your sister.”

Mama helped me out of my crib and led me to her room and closed the door behind her.  It was dimly lit with a single table lamp but you could see enough.  I looked up at Mama and was over whelmed with love as she sat down on the edge of her bed and patted for me to crawl up beside her. 

“You were so tired that you went to sleep right away, without any chance to worship your Mama.” She said.  She opened her legs and I moved between them and started to kiss the inside of her thigh.  I was in love with Mama and couldn’t be happier to worship her.  I continued to kiss her and worked my way to the center of our universe. She grabbed my head and repositioned me to start licking.  I could sense the excitement and licked and sucked as Mama gave me more nourishment. I continued as Mama repositioned herself to lay down on her bed and then draped her legs over my shoulders.  I was fully incased by her and loved the feeling of being completely owned by her.  I continued to lick and suck as I heard her quiet moans and cries as she would tense and kick my back with her heels.  The frequency of the cries and kicking increased until I was overwhelmed with her nectar.  I continued to drink her juices and lick until she pulled my head back and released me.  I turned to my side and returned to kissing her thigh.  I grabbed her tight with both hands and continued to kiss her and babbled “Goo Goo Mama.”  She let me continue to worship her until she had fully recovered and then sat up.  She tousled my hair and said “Okay Babe, back to bed.”  She untangled me from her, stood up and went to the door.  She opened the door and led me back to my crib and pulled up the rail.  She put my pacifier back in my mouth, kissed her hand and placed it on my nose as she said “Good night Babe”   

[tbaabaa]

I woke up the next morning with the sunlight trying to make it way past the blinds that were closed in my room.  Yesterday was weird.  It was a do nothing day, yet it was a something day where I had fallen deeper into the infantile abyss, never to return or want to return to adulthood.  I was happy just to stay in my crib and suck as I waited for someone to come through the door.  My brain slipped into idle as I happily sucked on my pacifier wanting nothing, needing nothing, demanding nothing.  I was happy, I was content.  I lay on my back and started aimlessly kicking my legs, letting them flail while sucking on my binkie.  Time passed until the door opened and Mama entered and greeted me with “Good morning sunshine.”

Mama came to my crib and let down the rail and said “You must be hungry, Babe”.

She climbed into the crib and pulled me around for my breakfast feed.  I did not have as much solid food yesterday and was famished.  I quickly latched onto Mama and quickly drained both breasts.  Mama burped me and checked my diaper.  It was wet but not dirty, probably on account of having so few solids.  “We can clean you up later, this is the last day with your sister and cousin, follow me, I am sure they can clean you up as it is still a novelty for them.”  Mama said as she exited the crib and helped me down.

I followed Mama to the kitchen, was helped into the highchair and strapped in securely.  I had not planned on going anywhere and Mama made sure of it.  She went to the counter grabbed a bottle and gave it to me to drink and then took her coffee and left.

I was happy to suck on my bottle and take in my surrounding with a sense of wonder.  How did I get here?  I looked around some more.  It felt like home.  I was home.  A “goo goo ga ga” escaped my mouth while I was still sucking my bottle.  I don’t know why, but I just let it flow, as I became aware that I was peeing my diaper.  I was in a state of euphoria and babbling as I saw Kiki come in wearing her T shirt night wear with the nipples of her breasts increasing the tension on her shirt and causing me to exclaim “Num Num.”

For a moment I felt ashamed, calling out “Num Num” for my sister’s breasts, yet I did not.  It was an automatic response to my infantile needs.  Kim looked over and asked “Is baby still hungry?”  I think I was.  I wasn’t sure if I wanted food or something else, but I could not remember anything else that I could want.  Kim came over and took my bottle and replaced it with a pacifier.  She put her index finger on my nose and “said "you are just going to have to learn to wait until your Mama comes back.”  “Goo Goo” I replied as I nodded yes.  Kim went back to the counter, placed a few items on the table and then took a cup of coffee and left me alone in my chair sucking my binkie.

I looked over and saw that Kiki had set breakfast for three when Shelby, dressed for the day, entered and greeted me “With Good Morning Baby, how is my little cousin today?”  With my feet happily dangling from the high chair I raised my hands to her and greeted her with a “Goo Goo She She.”

“Awe, isn’t that cute.  My little cousin is trying to say my name.”  She said as she came up to me and asked  “How is your diapee Baby?”  She move her hand to the front and patted the front of my diaper.  “Everything Ok there?” she quizzed.  Everything was fine.  I was a bit wet and happy for the company.  Then she pulled down one side of her top exposing one breast and asked “Do you need anything else?”  I looked at her breast and leaned forward as the pacifier dropped out of my mouth and hit the floor.  She patted the front of my diaper again - it sounded and felt the same.  Good news was that I did not sport an erection.  She knelt down picked up the pacifier, cleaned it by sticking it in her mouth, adjusted her top and placed the pacifier back in my mouth and said “You are turning into a great baby boy, Good Boy.”

I was so happy to hear that “Good boy” as I let sucked on my pacifier and let my leg dangle.  Shelby turned around and went back to the counter to collect some food and set it on the table.  I continued to watch her set the table as Mama and Kiki, dressed for the day, entered the kitchen and sat at the table.  Shelby filled up another bottle with water and brought it to me.  “Drink up sweetie” she said.

They started to work on their breakfast and I worked on my bottle.  After breakfast they cleared the table and then I heard the click of a knife on the plate as the leftovers were being scraped and the dishes put away into the dishwasher.  The leftovers were placed in a blender and then the blender did its job.  The mush was scooped into a bowl and then Kiki came with a bowl and spoon to feed me my breakfast.  She sat down beside me and said “Here you go bro, you will need a bit more energy for today.”  She then started to scoop the mush and make an airplane sound as the spoon was headed to my mouth.  Shelby was finishing up cleaning and I could see her pause as she watched Kiki feed me.  This continued for a while until the bowl was scrapped clean.

Mama asked “Does anyone want to help get Jay ready for the day?”  Both girls volunteered so Kiki released me from the high chair and I followed her and Shelby to the bathroom as Mama left the room holding her phone.   I laid down on the floor as Shelby started the bath and Kiki got the supplies.  Kiki returned and Shelby pulled her hand out of the bath and said it is ready.  Kiki knelt down in front of me and started to remove my onesie and diaper.  She did a quick wipe and then poked at my penis and asked rhetorically “what do we have here?” 

Shelby said “Let’s do another test since we may get wet washing him in the bath.”  She removed her top and bra and swung herself side to side allowing her girls to move freely.   Then she looked down at me.  I exclaimed “Num Num” and moved my hands towards her breasts.  Kiki slapped them down and then moved my head to face her as she said “I think you wanted access to these for months, almost as long as I have known you, haven’t you?”  She removed her top and bra and swung from side to side allowing her breasts to dance to their freedom.  She watched me intensely as I exclaimed “Goo Goo, Num Num” and then tried to reach for her breasts.  She slapped my hands hard and then she poked at my penis again. 

“I think we truly have a baby penis, I think we are safe now.”  Kiki said as she pulled me up into a sitting position.  Kiki and Shelby helped me into the bath and then washed me down with little interaction.  They poked away at my penis and I think they were checking to see if I would get excited.  I could have gotten excited, but I no longer had the desire.  I was also aware that I had better not sport an erection at this point.  This was some sort of test. 

The ladies got me out of the tub, powdered, diapered and dressed me before putting their tops back on.  Shelby led me out of the bathroom to my play area while Kiki finished cleaning up.  Shelby had me go in the play area and turned on the TV so I could watch some cartoons and catch up with Mr. Bear to see if there was anything new.  There was nothing new and we focused on watching the TV and learning our 1,2,3s.   There was some movement behind me as the ladies apparently congregated in the kitchen to have a chat without me.   

 

[tbaabaa]

I saw Mama out come from the kitchen, her eyes were puffed up and her faced was streaked with black.  She had been crying!  I called out “Mama.” 

“Not now sweetie” she replied as she headed to her room.

Shelby came out prominently holding her phone and asked “do want to see what I have here?”

She sat down and had me come over beside her and then she played a video on her phone – it was me two months ago as I recited my declaration and gave up all my rights.

I am an adult baby.
I am more of a possession than a person and have no rights except as my mommy gives me.
I am owned by my mommy for the sole purpose of her pleasure and entertainment and the pleasure and entertainment of her friends.
Mommy provides everything that I need and I give every part of me to my mommy to use as she pleases.
The center of my universe and being is my mommy.
My Mommy sets all the rules and I am always to obey my mommy.
I am not allowed to speak other than what my mommy allows.
I am to call my mommy ma ma and her friends are called na na, da da and ba ba.
My mommy will instruct me on any additional words to be added to my vocabulary.
Clothing is optional and diapers are mandatory.
I am to wear diapers to signify my status as her baby at all times.
I am not to stand or walk; at best, I can sit, crawl or move at mommy's direction.
My mommy will ensure that I am fed and cared of appropriately and I will gladly accept whatever she gives me.
I give my life and independence entirely to my mommy for her use and pleasure and freely give up all rights for her to use me as an object of her care, training and desire.
I declare these things today to my mommy and owner, as her adult baby and possession.
 

“Is that you?” she queried.

I nodded my head in the affirmative.

Your mommy is sad since it is one year since your Daddy and his friend’s death.  They drowned while fishing.  My mommy and your sister’s thought that getting you would help your mommy focus on something to help fill her days.  I see here, as she pointed her finger to the screen on her phone, someone declaring to the world that he belongs to his mommy and his total focus is to make her happy!  I think that you need to help your mommy and become the baby and object of her desire that you were destined to be.

I am going to spend some time with your sister.  She misses her dad too.  You are going to crawl to your mommy.  Snuggle up and console her.  I will get some comfort food together for lunch, but until then you take care of your mommy.

Shelby got up and headed back to the kitchen while I started to crawl to Mama’s room. 

Mama had cleaned up her face but was still very red and puffy.  I crawled towards her as she got up and sat down on her bed.  She patted the bed beside her and said “Come here sweetie.”  I continued to crawl towards her and then climbed up on the bed and lay down, looking up, beside her. 

I am sorry sweetie, but I really miss your Daddy. I guess he was not your Daddy, but you know what I mean.  I am happy to have you, but you are no replacement for him as she patted the front on my diaper. 

I nuzzled her leg as she spoke and she placed her hand on the side of my head.

I loved her and I would do anything I could, to show her and help her.  What could I, an adult baby, do?

“Goo, Goo” I said as I kissed her leg and nuzzled up to her.

Oh Baby, I know you wish you could do more, and maybe you can. 

I continued to nuzzle her and thought maybe she would like me to worship her so I moved along her leg to the center of her universe and her hand held me back.

No Baby, I don’t need that right now, maybe later.  Right now I think we need to rest.  Will you rest with me?

I nodded yes.

She pulled me around as she lay down on her side on the bed and pulled my head in between her breasts.  She was wearing her bra and shirt, but it was still a place of comfort.  She pulled me in close and said “let’s take a little rest.”

I must have fallen asleep as I awoke with Mama standing up and saying “Wake-up sleepy head, time for lunch.”

At first I thought she would be feeding me lunch, but then I recognized with her standing there that we would have lunch in the kitchen.  I started to crawl to the kitchen and saw KiKi setting the table and Shelby at the stove.  I continued to crawl to the high chair and Kiki came around to help me up and secure me in. 

From my vantage point I could see everything.  I could see the table set for three.  I could see the stove and the dishes with lunch.  Lunch looked like tomato soup, salad and sandwiches there were toasted in a press.  There was also another pot boiling with some macaroni.  Shelby came to the table and ladled out the tomato soup in the bowls and said “You can have some later.”  She went back and put the pot on the stove and then drained the macaroni into a bowl, added some orange powder, mixed it in and spooned it into another plastic bowl.  That was going to be my lunch!  It looked like she was going to bring it to me and then she set it down on the counter and went to the fridge.  She pulled out of bottle of water and brought it to me.  She stuck it in my mouth and said “suck!” and then sat down.

I started to suck on the cold water and watched as Mama, Kiki and Shelby worked through their lunch.  I must have been thirsty as I finished my bottle and started to suck air.  This time Kiki got up took my empty bottle and went to sink to fill it up with more water.  She returned to my chair and said “drink up.”  I continued to drink and release pee into my diaper as they chatted to each other quietly and in a hushed tones.  This was a day of remembering and sadness and it seemed like I was an interruption.  I don’t think they wanted me to change their lives so much, but here I was sucking away on my bottle trying to be as helpful as an overgrown toddler could be.  Their lunch was finished and Kiki got up to clear the dishes and then brought over my bowl and a big wooden spoon.  Shelby removed my bottle, secured my hands to the side of the high chair and took the macaroni and heaped it up on the spoon and commanded “open up” as she rammed the spoon into my mouth.  I took in as much as I could, but some did not make it in and fell out on to the high chair and I could feel some pasta on my face.  The spoon came out and she used the spoon to scrape the pasta from my face and flick it to the tray of the high chair.  I was shocked and looked over to Mama, who appeared to be quite amused.  Kiki had left the scene looking embarrassed for me as she went back to the kitchen to boil some water for tea.

This continued again until the bowl was empty and I was full; however, there was still some pasta on the tray.  Shelby finished up by scrapping up two more spoons of pasta to fill my face.  Kiki had made tea and had come back with a tea kettle and a face cloth which she exchanged with Shelby for the spoon and bowl.  Shelby then finished the process by wiping down my face and the tray and exclaiming how helpless I had become.  She placed the pacifier back in my mouth and commanded me to be still as the ladies continued with their tea.

I sat and watched as they continued to chat and sip their tea.  Then I felt rumblings inside me, and I was not hungry.  My hands were still secured to the sides of the chair.  I could do nothing but suck my pacifier and watch and wait for the inevitable.   

Sure enough, during the middle of their conversation, I let out a fart and then a liquid discharge from my backside.  There was nothing I could do.  My legs were dangling, and my hands were secured to the side of the chair, so I could not lift myself up and adjust myself to the mess that had started to encase my baby boy parts.  The ladies heard the noise and looked in my direction.  They could see me straining on the front of chair trying to lift up and then fall back as more semi-solid semi-liquid mess filled my diaper.  Lifting up and falling down just made an even bigger mess. 

Kiki helped me out of the chair and followed me as I crawled to my room.  She had the theatrics of waving her hand and exclaiming what a mess I was.  I waited for her to put down the change mat and supplies in the middle of the room and then positioned myself in the middle of the mat.  It was quite a mess as it took some time for her to clean me up as I said sorry a few times.  She exclaimed “who would have imagined a year ago that I would be changing you like this.”  I said sorry again as she powdered me, taped me up and then directed me to the crib. 

She helped me into the crib and raised the rail and made sure that my pacifier was secure.  She turned to leave and then stopped at the door, blew me a kiss and said “Have a good nap.”  She closed the door behind here and then it was quiet.  I was bored, crampy and didn’t feel well. A year ago who would have known that the new hire would be diapering the older computer guy!  It was weird how things can turn.  Weird but good – I didn’t have to worry about a thing.  I just had to please Mama and my family.  I was contemplating these things as the room went dark.

[tbaabaa]

I woke up with a start.  I must have been dreaming.  It was a weird dream that my sisters wanted to sell me.  I woke up crying “No.”  Then I realized it was just a dream and called out quietly “Mama.”  Then again “Mama.”  I heard footsteps and then the door opened and someone peeked inside.  It was not Mama.  It was a middle aged lady that approached my crib and dropped the rail and said “What is it sweetie?  Are you okay? Did you have a bad dream?”  I didn’t know who this was but she must have known who I was. 

I called out for Mama when she said “I am sorry sweetie but your Mama is away right now and they asked me to come over and watch you.  I am your neighbor next door.  Your Mama will be home soon.  Let’s get you ready for her.” She took me by my hand and led me down to the floor and then she continued out the room.  I crawled after her to the family area where she led me to the play area and then turned on the TV.  She went to the kitchen and returned with a bottle, crayons and a coloring book. 

Okay sweetie drink-up.  When you are done you can color a picture for your mommy and sister.  I lay on the floor and looked up at the TV and started to work on my formula to the background noise of cartoons as she returned to the kitchen.  I heard her call someone on the phone over all the noise and then realized she had come back and took pictures of me having my Baba. There was nothing I could do I was an adult baby in a diaper and just had to get over it.  I finished my bottle and then sat up. I collected the crayons and coloring book and got to work on coloring a happy picture for my Mama and Kiki. 

Time passed as I had finished coloring two pictures and mostly stayed in the lines. I was on my third picture when the lady came out, knelt down and checked my diaper.  It was fine.  Then she inspected my coloring.   “What did you color here, sweetie?” she asked as she pointed to the picture of two dolphins in the ocean.   How do I explain that with the vocabulary of a one or two year old?  “Goo Goo, Naa naa” I exclaimed. 

“You are talkative aren’t you?” she replied.  “Your family will be here soon” she said and then commanded “Hold still” as her finger probed into my diaper.  “You are fine sweetie, finish up your pictures while I get things ready for their return.” She instructed. 

I continued to diligently color in the lines of my picture as I heard the click of the door and then Mama, Kiki and Shelby came in.  They were somber and spoke in hushed tones.  I dropped my crayon and called out “Mama” as soon as I heard her voice.  I was excited and looked forward to seeing her – I couldn’t help it! I heard back “Babeee” – it was Shelby’s voice as the three of them rounded the corner to greet me in my play area.  The lady also came out from the kitchen to greet them and make sure everything was still in order with her charge. 

I grabbed my pictures and thrust them upwards to Mama, Kiki and Shelby.  The lady looked on as my artwork was passed among the three ladies of my life and they exclaimed how wonderful it was.  Shelby collected all three of them and headed to the kitchen as she told mama she would put them on the fridge. 

The lady invited Mama and Kiki out to the patio and said she had made some iced tea and snacks for them.  The three of them started to head out as I exclaimed “Mama”.  I missed Mama and wanted to cuddle up to her.  “Not now sweetie” she said and then whispered something to Kiki.

Kiki responded “I will be back in a minute with a special treat for you.”

All three left me. A minute later Kiki returned with another bottle and some candies.  This is the first time they gave me candies.  Kiki came down to my level and made sure I was secure in my play area.  She then gave me some gummy bears to eat.  She watched me eat the gummy bears.  “Did you like the treat sweetie?” she asked.  I nodded yes and as I nodded my head started to feel lighter.  She made sure I was lying down, holding the bottle with both hands and the bottle was securely positioned for my lips.  “Drink up sweetie” she commanded.  I tried to sip from the bottle, but I felt that I was floating up and down on the water.  It was a strange sensation, but it felt good.  I was no longer anxious and continued to float as Kiki got up and left me.

[tbaabaa]

I was still floating when I saw Mama say good bye to the lady next door.  I rolled over to Mama’s direction and called out to her. She put her finger to her lips and said “shh, be a good baby and stay there.”  I rolled back and gave into the floating sensation.  I had no idea of how much time had passed or what had occurred.

Then I saw Kiki and Shelby bring their things to front hallway.  They came over and gave me a hug and kiss on the cheek and their goodbyes.  The last thing they did before leaving was to prop me up against the wall and place Mr. Bear and few toys on each side of me.  They snapped a few pictures and blew a kiss and left.  I was starting to get some clarity. The floating sensation and fog was clearing away as I saw Mama make herself at home in front of the TV.  She looked over to me and patted the sofa and asked “Can you come over here sweetie?”  I rolled forward and started to crawl towards Mama calling out “Mama” as headed in her direction.  I made myself comfortable sitting on the floor in front of Mama .  I grabbed her leg and snuggled up to it as she watched her TV.  I was zoned out until I called out “Num Num”.  It was a mindless act, but I must have been hungry and Mama must have been ready to feed me.  She pulled me up and into her lap and positioned me for my final feed for the day.  This was bliss. I snuggled into Mama and was enveloped by her as I latched onto her and began to suckle the milk of human kindness.  This continued until her finger broke the seal and switched me over to the other side.  I continued to suckle until it was time for all good things to come to an end.  She sat me up and then leaned me on shoulder for the pounding on my back also known as burping.   She slid me down onto the floor and then stood up.  She looked down at me, adjusted her bra and top and then slid her underwear and slacks onto the floor and said “Come and worship your Mama.”    

As she sat down on the sofa I started to kiss my way from the top of her feet to the center of our universe.  She opened her legs and pulled my head into the center of attention.  I continued to lick and suck as she occasionally pulled my head back out and thrust it back in with her words of encouragement.    My Mama’s juices were the second course, or the dessert to the main meal I just had.  I always leave room for dessert!  I continued to lick and suck and occasionally gasp for air.  I felt both hands pulling my hair and then pushing my face in further than I think Mama could fit me inside her.  Next thing I knew her heels were pounding my back beyond what I could remember.  It was starting to hurt and then it stopped with Mama just holding me in place very tight.  I lay in the moment until she pulled my head up to see her face and asked “How was that sweetie?” 

“Goo Goo” I replied.

“One more time?” she asked, or was that a command?

She loosened her grip and repositioned me to start again.  My mouth was sore and I felt tired, but there was always room for more dessert!     Mama deserved this.  I loved her so much that it was my pleasure to serve her despite any potential soreness of my jaw.  I continued to drink in her juices and delve into her innermost being while being occasionally extracted and re-inserted.  The magic moment came again. I felt I was being smothered while she was beating my lower back with her heels until there was quiet.  We rested in the happy state for a few minutes where I could get enough breath and recover until she eventually unwrapped her legs off of my back and shoulders to release me to fall back to the floor. 

“Bed time baby, follow me” she said as she got up and adjusted her clothes and pulled her underwear back on.  As she got up I followed her to my room and into the crib.  She did not change me.  She pulled up the rail and said “I will be back.”  She came back with a bottle of water.  Gave me the water, turned on the mobile and left the room.

[tbaabaa]

I woke up early in morning while it was still dark in the room.  There was a hint of light and the promise of a new day.  I was bored and could call out to mama for food and some interaction, but I thought better of it as I started processing the events from yesterday.  I knew I was her property and that I might also become a grad gift to Juju.  I was still working though the loss of their dad and his friend.  If he had not died I would not be here.  I realized that an adult baby is poor substitute for a real man; nevertheless here I am.  Shelby reminded me that my job was to make Mama happy any way I can.  Maybe, if I am a real good baby Mama will keep me and get another grad gift for Juju.

I located my soother and placed it back in my mouth and lay back and started to suck.  My legs were dangling above me and occasionally coming down to impact the front of my diaper as I my eyes closed and let my mind drift into nothingness.  I could hear music and voices from before and images from the hypnosis tapes playing as I became lost in warm sensations punctuated with the occasional impact to the front of my diaper. 

“Good Morning Baby” my revelry was interrupted by Mama’s greeting.  I looked over as Mama came over, dressed in her bathrobe, as she commented on how well I had adapted to my new life.  “You look and sound like a real baby, don’t you?” she said as she came to the crib and lowered the rail.  She removed her bathrobe and climbed into the foot of the crib and then patted her lap.  I turned around and positioned myself so my head was on her lap and looking up at my amazing mommy.  My mind was that of a toddler as I automatically latched on and started to get my morning nourishment.  We had fallen into a routine of Mama saying things that I barely understood as she held me, patted me and fed me.  Somewhere in the feeding she switched me to the other side as I automatically latched onto the other breast until her flow slowed.   She released the suction with her finger, pulled me up and burped me. 

She climbed out of the crib and helped me down as she encouraged me with “Let’s get you cleaned up with a nice warm bath to start the day.”  I crawled down and followed Mama to the bathroom.  She started the bath and had me lay on the floor.  Everything was ready for my change and bath.  I am sure I was a mess, but I did not hear a disparaging word from her.  She cleaned me up, checked the water and helped me into the tub.  My head got a good scrub with shampoo and she worked her way from top to bottom commenting on the various parts of my anatomy as she worked her way through to my feet.  There was little time to get distracted with a ducky as I was fully engaged with Mama as she washed me and cared for me so intently.  She helped me out and I was engulfed by a thick white terry towel where she made sure I was dry before having me lie down on a diaper.  After some cream and powder I was secured inside the diaper and ready to pick between a white or powder blue onesie.  I chose the powder blue and Mama quickly pulled it over my head and down to my bottom. I lifted up so she could pull it through and then snap it in place.   The deal was sealed when she patted me on my padded bottom and said “Come, follow me sweetie.” 

I crawled after her as she got up and went to the highchair in the kitchen.  She helped me up and snapped me in and then went to the counter to pick out and heat a bottle of adult baby formula for me.  After she tested it, she came back, gave me the bottle and then headed to her room.  I worked on my bottle and looked around as I waited for Mama to return.

Mama returned dressed casually and with a minimum of make-up and headed to the cupboard to set out some dishes on the table and then she boiled water as she pulled food from the pantry and fridge.  She poured some orange juice, coffee and made Oatmeal.  She set the orange juice and coffee on her spot and then went back and ladled out two bowls of Oatmeal and added blueberries to the top of the one bowl.  She came back and set both bowls on the table.  Mama tried the Oatmeal and said “You will have to wait until yours cools down and Mama has her breakfast Baby”.  I watched Mama intently as she took her time savoring her Oatmeal, berries, coffee and juice.  Eventually Mama had finished her breakfast and caught up on her phone.  It was time for my breakfast.  She took my bowl and her spoon and started to scoop out my oatmeal and directed the spoon to my mouth “Open wide” she said as I complied with the request.  I continued to drink in the oatmeal and felt it slide down my throat.  I was slowing down as I started to get full as Mama continued to shove the spoon into my mouth.  At first I thought I was fast, neat and clean.  By the end I am sure I was slow and a mess.  Mama took her time loading the last spoon as she scrapped the remains from the bowl and then sent the spoon, loaded with oatmeal, into my awaiting mouth.  “All done” she proclaimed as she set down the bowl and spoon and then proceeded to wipe my mouth with the bib.

She then got up and took her dishes to the kitchen counter and then came back with a washcloth.  She wiped down my face, cleaned my hands and then helped me down to the floor.    “Let’s go sweetie” she said as left the wash cloth behind and guided me to my play area.  I was reunited with Mr. Bear and my toys.  “You play nicely for Mama while I take care of a few things” she said as she made sure that I was contained in the play area then returned to the kitchen.  My coloring book and crayons were in one corner and some blocks, a box with Duplo and cars were in another corner.  Choices, I had all these choices – I decided to play with my Duplo.  I started to build the outside wall to a house big enough that Mr. Bear could live in it.  I continued working on the house, with Mr. Bear’s input, until Mama came back and turned on the TV.  I looked up and saw Curious George.  Mr. Bear was not happy that I slowed down my construction project while watching the show.  The show was over and another show appeared and some time later Mama came by and I called out “Mama”.  I wanted to show her what I had done for Mr. Bear.  “That looks good sweetie” she said and then knelt down and sniffed my back and then stuck finger up the front of the onesie.  “No” I cried.  “Stop it” she said “I am just checking, looks like you are wet.  I can’t depend on you to say anything.”  I was so occupied working on the house I did not realize I had wet my diapers.  I could not be too bad as there was no trickle down my leg.  Mama got up and went back through the kitchen.

[babystevie1987]

I love this story. So nice and warming. A baby boy who has a mommy that loves him and treats him with love and affection and he shows the same to his mommy in return.