Finding a new home.

[jmg1217]

“Baby you are daddy’s whole world and he only wants his baby happy of course this is just fine, you don’t need to worry baby girl”

[elfowl]

I hug Dada tightly, fresh tears in my eyes.  "Okay.  Thank you Dada.  I... I just... I don't want anyone to get mad at me, or make fun of me... or think I'm weird..."

[jmg1217]

Baby you just worry about doing what makes you happy and doing what your daddy’s say, we will take care of you, now sweetheart do you want to go play or do you want a nap princess”

[elfowl]

I nod and grin.  "Okay Dada."  I think for a moment.  "I think I wanna take a nap."  I'm feeling a bit tired after the emotional rolercoaster of figuring out I want to be a girl.

[jmg1217]

Zac nods and goes to a nearby rocker. He kisses Taylor “now baby girl when you wake up Dada will be gone. I have big boy school but uncle will always be here ok lovely. He removes his shirt and steers Taylor’s head toward his nipple

[elfowl]

I frown, actually not wanting Dada to go.  "Okay..."  I mumble unhappily.  I take Dada's nipple into my mouth willingly, doing my best to keep my teeth out of the way this time, sucking as much of his breast and nipple as deep into my mouth as I can, and I begin to suckle, drawing from his nipple.

[jmg1217]

Zac smiles and kisses the boy “dada loves this little baby more then anything” he rocks as Taylor settles down

[elfowl]

I suckle for a little, slowly falling asleep, still suckling in my sleep reflexively.

[jmg1217]

Zac sighs but detaches the boy. He kisses his baby and lays him in his crib before leaving for class

[elfowl]

I sleep soundly, and contently, until I'm awakened by a rumbling in my belly. I blink and look around.

[jmg1217]

Tylor plays but waits for. The baby to wake and open his eyes

[elfowl]

I sit up and look around, looking for Tylor, or one of the adults, then call out to them once I see them.

[jmg1217]

Tylor comes running over and lowers the rail to crawl in with Tylor “hi baby he kisses the boy, you ready to get up and play with me”

[elfowl]

I grin as Tylor comes running.  "Uncle Ty!"  I hug him and return the kiss to his cheek.  I frown when he mentions playing, and move my hands to my tummy.  "Hungry Uncle Ty."

[jmg1217]

Tyler nods and takes Taylor’s hand “come on baby Tay, I  will get you a baba and we can rock” he helped the baby off the crib and the picked him up”

[elfowl]

I grin and nod, taking Tyler's hand, and happily sliding out of the crib, and then wrapping my arms around Tyler's neck.  It still amazes me that the little boy can lift me.  I giggle.  "Yur strong Unka Ty!"

[jmg1217]

Tyler gives the boy a kiss “your just real light baby Tay that’s cause you’re only a little baby” he manages to find the diaper bag and pull out a prepared bottle then go to the rocking chair and get them onto it. He teases the bottle into Taylor’s mouth “drink your baba, good baby, pretty baby”

[elfowl]

I kiss Tyler's cheek, and grin.  I smile as I get settled in his lap.  I accept the bottle into my mouth obediently.  I blush and humm contentedly as Tyler compliments me, suckling on the bottle, and drawing nourishment into my hungry belly.

[jmg1217]

As Tylor feeds the baby his bottle he rubs his belly. When the bottle is almost finished Tylor says “now you need to do your practice baby Tay, your dada gave me this and told you to sit in front of the mirror” he showed Taylor a folded piece of paper 

[elfowl]

My eyes grow wide with surprise when Tyler pulls out the sheet of paper.  I look at him, and my lower lip begins to quiver as my eyes begin to water.  "I though I didn' hav ta do it 'gain t'day..."

I stare at the paper, unable to make myself look at the mirror.  "I... I'm a good baby... and good babies use their diapers..."

[jmg1217]

Tylor gets behind Taylor and pulls the baby on to his lap giving a little tickle “I think you should try I’m a beautiful baby girl I’m a good baby girl, try that baby Tay”

[elfowl]

I giggle a llittle, my spirits being forced to lift.  I listen carefully as he suggests a new phrase to try.  I nod.  "Okay... I'll give that a try Unka Ty."  I look in the mirror, and say  "I'm a beautiful baby girl, I'm a good baby girl."  the words feel foreign and untrue... but not humiliating and wrong.  "I'm a beautiful baby girl, I'm a good baby girl."  I repeat, this time a tiny smile forming on my lips.  I feel a small flutter in my chest.  I repeat it again, and it starts to feel a little bit more true.  I repeat it gain and again, my smile growing, and growing, as does my confidence.  I'm nearly singing after a few repetitions.

[jmg1217]

Kyle came in and smiled at the sight of his baby and little brother. He crouched down “Taylor come to daddy baby girl” he held out his arms

[elfowl]

I grin, and jump up, wobbling a little when I do, then run to Daddy, and hug him tightly.  "HI DADDY!  You heard that I'm gonna be a girl now Daddy?  and.... and that's okay."  I ask a bit more shyly.

[jmg1217]

Kyle hid his baby “I did princess and that’s just fine, I love you no matter what baby girl and you. Will make the best little girl ever my angel”