Jet-lagged for Falloutzone (priv.)

[FalloutZone]

Quinn blushed and smiled feeling Stone's hand on her wet sodden soiled diaper and couldn't help but feel a rush of energy go through her body and a sudden need to call Stone 'Mommy' but thankfully she didn't. She might of confessed under alcohol of what she craved sexually deep down and in general but she wasn't under the influence of drink nor chems.

Quinn giggled at Stone's speech and kissed her a little in reassurance. The baby simulation was there still but had been forced back so much that it was scared to come out straight away.

Quinn grinned proudly, "Paladin thinking, really?" asked Quinn in awe, "That's so awesome!" exclaimed Quinn getting giddy and over excited.

[DiaperRebel]

“That’s right,” Stone reported officially to sound like she was giving a briefing. “Awesome Paladin Thinking.” 

She was grinning like a fool from the kiss, and leans closer. “But you sure know how to make that stop.” She tickles Quinn beneath her chin to sabotage any follow-up kisses. Her hand comes to rest again on the used diaper.

“This feels...Do you...did you want to try a change? You’re not in training anymore...I-I don’t need to enforce it.”

[FalloutZone]

Quinn grins and puffs out her chest proudly.  It might of seem childish but the fact that Stone had said that she did some 'Awesome Paladin Thinking' was enough to get her all hyper and over-excited.   

Quinn giggles at that and giggles even louder from the tickling under her chin. 

Quinn blushes and stays quiet for a minute thinking to herself, positive and doubtful thoughts entering her mind, "No..." mumbled Quinn, "I don't want to try," paused Quinn taking a deep breath, "I don't trust myself with changing my own diapers," laughed Quinn nervously, "uh...it's complicated really complicated," stammered Quinn, "I just would prefer you to take care of..." paused Quinn looking at Stone in the eye, "them..."

Quinn looks away feeling shy and nervous.  She wanted Stone to take care of her! She wanted Stone to hold her....just like....

Quinn took a deep sharp breath before giving Stone a shaky smile.

[DiaperRebel]

“Quinn...?” Stone asks as she holds her close. “You don’t have to answer this if you don’t want to...Did you enjoy the babying?” Her tone was well-meaning, curious.

Stone knew this was going to be hard to think about, but she wasn’t judgmental or seeking blame. She wanted to understand, to help. 

[FalloutZone]

Quinn feeling Stone's strong arms around her once more placed her head down on the Paladin's chest and listened to the soothing heartbeat finding herself comforted and content despite the mess that was inside her head.

Quinn knew that Stone wasn't being mean at all about the question but she couldn't help but go stiff in Stone's arms like a frightful animal that's been caught.

Quinn took a couple of deep breathes and started to cry, "No....Yes...." whimpered Quinn, "they hurt me," sobbed Quinn, "t-t-t-they...." hiccuped Quinn, "I...I didn't..." paused Quinn, "I don't mean to...I..." 

Quinn started to cry solidly into Stone's chest.

"I...It...was...the...only comfort....I had." admitted Quinn through her tears and harsh breathes, "I....I'm sorry," whimpered Quinn unable to get a hold of herself right now because of how hard it was to admit to something like that but she had enjoyed being babied.  She had enjoyed it because it was the only comfort she really had was when she was being held by her Nurse in the rocking chair,  being giving a bottle, being told she was a good girl.....the horrendous degrading teasing, humiliation, torture and chems had hurt her badly.

"I...everything else was so horrible." sobbed Quinn shaking in Stone's arms.

[DiaperRebel]

Stone nods, holding her, anchoring her. She was glad Quinn could cry. It was what they needed to get through. Her grey eyes met Quinn’s, searching and understanding.

“Quinn...Quinn...I understand. I understand.” She repeated, rocking her slightly, rubbing her back, and hugging her close. “You cry for as long as you need.”

[FalloutZone]

Quinn barley made out Stone's voice throughout all her crying but she did and she felt relief wash over her.

Quinn see's Stone's grey eyes meeting her blues and found herself relaxing a little more.

Quinn continued her crying for a good ten minutes and nuzzled herself close to Stone taking in the comfort that her romantic partner and Paladin was giving her. 

Quinn sniffled a little as she finished crying and looked up shyly at Stone unsure of what to say or do right now.  Stone understood but....she had so many doubts and fears on her mind still.

[DiaperRebel]

“I’m happy you told me. I’m so happy you told me, Quinn.” Stone repeated whispering as she soothed and held and rocked. “I’m comforted by it too...I blamed myself...I...Now I know we don’t need to rush this. We’ll find a way. The specialist tomorrow might know some other way to help too, but for now let me...let me go get your things.” 

Lightly, Stone untangles herself from Quinn and navigates crouched beneath the low ceiling to their supply crate. In the silence that followed and her clattering rummaging, the air was somber, but their bond seemed tightened with their shared uncertainties and confusion and vulnerabilies with the truth freed. 

Stone returns, changing supplies in hand laying out a mat to protect Quinn from the floor and then gently helps her onto it. Her hands start to softly rip free the Velcro of Quinn’s grey waterproof diaper cover.

“Do you like it?” Stone asks softly about the cover she was lowering trying to distract Quinn from her dirty diaper within. “No leaks...” She observes, quietly proud of her own craftsmanship. “Decker helped me with it. I makes the diaper look slimmer on you.” 

The pins are loose and the diaper is brought down then removed. All the while Stone helps to keep Quinn’s legs up and supported as she wipes her bottom for her.

Noticing her skin is a little dry, she takes some baby oil and rubs it on Quinn until she’s glistening before applying powder. The fresh diaper is positioned and Quinn is lowered. More oil is spread around her thighs and Stone shakes more powder into her hand to then pat down between Quinn’s legs. Clean and ready, Stone tugs up Quinn’s diaper and pins it snugly in place followed by the wrap and Velcro stick of the diaper cover. She checks the perimeter, tucking any diaper cloth back into the cover for a good leak seal. Satisfied, Stone watches Quinn, smiling down at her gently, then leans down slowly to kiss her deeply. Only pulling away to say, softly, “I will never stop loving you, Quinn. That’s an oath from a Paladin Knight.” 

[FalloutZone]

Quinn looks at Stone and slowly starts to smile.

Stone was accepting her? Accepting this? The rocking soothed her and she never wanted it to stop.  Quinn curled herself up in Stone's arms and gently nuzzled the Paladin's neck as she listened intently to Stone's words and confession.

Quinn was caught off guard but not displeased at all by the confession in fact she felt better and closer to Stone because of it! Stone felt comforted by it?  Quinn looked at Stone for a moment wanting to reassure her and tell her not to blame herself but held off on that.  They could talk later about the blame and the guilt they both felt.  For now she was going to enjoy the fact that this newfound thing they have was going to happen and thankfully at no rush.

Quinn kept silent but she was smiling brightly at Stone the entire time.

Quinn watches Stone and gently goes down on the changing mat with Stone's gentle hands guiding her.

Quinn shivers a little at hearing the rip from the diaper cover and keeps her eyes on Stone.

Quinn blushes and nods.  The diaper cover was practical and it didn't hurt her as much as the plastic diaper covers which would sometimes leave marks around her tummy and legs.  The colour also reminded her of the Brotherhood and that brought her added comfort.

Quinn smiles, "Thank you I really like it," replied Quinn, "I probably should thank Decker as well." added Quinn.

The thought of returning to base and to the people she missed brought Quinn a lot of joy and anxiety.  How will people react? There were going be some who would hate her, probably and others who would be overjoy'd to see her.  

"This specialist tomorrow? Who is it?" asked Quinn curiously.   

Quinn turned silent and closed her eyes as she felt the baby oil being rubbed in her skin.  It felt nice, comforting and soothing.  There was no roughness or play down there and that was a relief.  The gentleness and care felt great and she felt relaxed to the point that she couldn't help but make a happy humming noise.   Quinn opening her eyes giggles at the baby powder remembering how bad it made her sneeze if it was just shook on.  

A mischievous idea formed in her head and she couldn't help but smirk deviously up at Stone.   

She was going to tickle Stone! She just needed her diaper on first before attempting her attack!

Quinn watches as the diaper is tugged up and smiles softly at that enjoying the bulk she feels between her legs.

The kiss was beautiful and deep and Quinn returned it lovingly wanting nothing more then to show her appreciation in return but she wasn't skilled enough yet to be on par with Stone.

Quinn looks at Stone with bright sparkling eyes and pushes herself up to wrap her arms around Stone, "And I will never stop loving you either," replied Quinn, "I promise." added Quinn softly not letting go of Stone at all.

After a few minutes of cuddling and clinging Quinn begun to move her hand underneath Stone's shirt to the Paladin's ticklish spot in hopes that she could do a 'sneak attack' on her lover and Paladin.   Would Stone notice or realise what she was doing? Quinn glances up at Stone briefly before looking away giggling slightly.   Quinn starts to gently tickle Stone's side with her one hand.

[DiaperRebel]

“About tomor-hrgk!” Stone jerks a little, placing her hand over Quinn’s to stop it reflexively. Her mouth is an amused smiling grimace at the successful sneak attack. 

“Clever girl.” She grins, wolf-like giving Quinn a rewarding light peck and nibble on her neck as her deserved spoils of war, her hold above the invading hand is very light now. 

“If you tell anyone I made that noise, you’ll be in big trouble missy.”

[FalloutZone]

Quinn giggled loudly.

She's never heard Stone make that noise before!  Blue eyes glowed even more playfully.

She wanted to hear more of that noise! And many more noises! Quinn was ready to pounce a lot more on Stone and had large grin on her face.

Quinn blushes at the light peck on her neck and smiles softly up feeling a warmth entering her body.  A small shiver running down her back at the peck.  It felt nice and she felt good! She felt confident at the words 'Clever girl' and had puffed out her chest again proudly.

Quinn giggles, "Oh? And what will you do if I did tell anyone, Paladin Stone?" teased Quinn as she moved her fingers a little to tickle Stone again.

[DiaperRebel]

“Didn’t I warn you?” Stone lets out a little hiss and her stomach twitches. ”Y-You have a tendency to interrupt Awesome Paladin Thinking. Ah, no, I got it. You’ll turn vegetable starch into adhesive paste until the Brahmin come home. With all your little fingers stuck together you’ll be out of luck then.”

[FalloutZone]

Quinn laughs loudly upon hearing the hiss.

Her eyes shinning with tears but from laughter and amusement.

She looks at Stone and continues to giggle despite the threat, "I think I'm willing to take my chances, ma'm!" replied Quinn giggling still and grinning brightly to the point her cheeks were red with laughter for once instead of shame.

Quinn nuzzled her head against Stone's shoulder, "So! When do I get to become a Paladin!" exclaimed Quinn with a super excited smile.  She knew that it would be a long time yet till she'd be giving the high rank of Paladin.

Quinn bites her bottom lip a little, "Stone?" asked Quinn, "I...the synth? You Knighted me but...not the real me? C-could you re-do it? Or?" asked Quinn nervously wanting nothing more then to be knighted properly by Stone.

[DiaperRebel]

Stone had her hand protectively over her stomach grinning from all the abuse, but hearing Quinn’s question she grows more serious. 

“We Knighted that one, ‘her’ for the same reasons we will Knight you. I need to present my case again in front of the Elder. If you don’t get demoted for another tickle infraction that is.” She pokes at Quinn’s side lightly. Just then Stone’s own stomach growls. 

[FalloutZone]

Quinn moves her hands away and gives Stone a smirk.

Quinn sighed and nodded a little at that.  What would the High Elder think or do? Would she be Knighted? Maybe? Maybe not? 

Quinn looked up and giggled a little, "No tickles for now, promise!" squeaked Quinn upon feeling the light pokes on her side.

Quinn hearing Stone's growling stomach grinned, "Your hungry! How about some food now? Yeah?" asked Quinn, "You know they made me eat this really fowl mush while I was down there but the milk was nice." added Quinn softly only to blush.

"Hey? Stone....I was just wondering what was she like? My synth?" asked Quinn quietly, "Did she have everyone fooled or?"

[DiaperRebel]

Stone had wrapped Quinn in their blanket to help keep her cozy while she had gotten up and made sure Quinn’s used diaper was tightly sealed in its wetbag before cleaning her hands and sorting through their provisions. 

“Well, I can do better than mush.” Stone said with some confidence in her ability to make a military ration a delicacy. “But milk is—besides, well.” She coughs hiding her face as she lights the stove that was hidden behind a large barrel she shoved away. 

“That synth...” Stone said, watching the pans heat up, letting them mesmerize her as she thought back. “I was fooled. She...was the only thing I had left after what had happened. I didn’t have the sense to look for any of the signs.”

[FalloutZone]

Quinn snuggled in the blanket happily.

The warmth surrounded her and she felt comforted as she watched Stone sort through their provisions for food.

Quinn grinned at that only to blush bright red, "A-ah," stammered Quinn, "I've never been breastfed there...well...besides once before the show." said Quinn her face going completely and utterly red as her brain tried to think of words to say, "Uh...um...the simulation? Is it still there inside you?" asked Quinn quietly, "I still have mine but it kept getting force back whilst there so I don't know how much damage has been done to that or if its trying to do something else now...." added Quinn looking at Stone.

Quinn goes silent and thinks carefully.

Jay and Drew were gone. 

Quinn got up and walked forward awkwardly to Stone.

Quinn wrapped her arms around Stone.  The blanket still wrapped around her.

"I understand," replied Quinn softly resting her head on Stone's back, "I don't blame you at all you were in grief, mourning," stated Quinn, "I'm glad that you had some comfort even if that comfort turned out to be a synth," continued Quinn reassuringly, "I love you and I would hate for you to be alone in such a crisis." added Quinn gently.

"Must of been one hell of a shock when we met again in that Vault, right?" joked Quinn slightly, "That reminds me I owe you a drink."

[DiaperRebel]

Stone’s shoulders shudder with a heavy sigh, she supports herself against the stove counter welcoming Quinn’s hug, but not wanting to let her see her raw emotions. She was a Paladin. 

“Y-yeah. It’s still there. The simulation. Set like the anxiety you feel before a mission in my chest sometimes, but I’ve learned when it’s real and when it isn’t. That’s why I was relieved when you said you wanted me to take care of...”

She stirs the pot to take her mind off it. “A drink?”

[FalloutZone]

Quinn thinks carefully and hugs tighter.

"You know it's okay, right?" said Quinn, "It's okay to be emotional and cry if you want to? I know that your a Paladin but if your hurting its bad to just let it sit there and fester," paused Quinn, "I won't think any less of you for it and no one else will see or know if you want to cry that is?" continued Quinn gently, "I know its hard giving your training but it'll help clear your head and I know that your in a lot of pain right now Stone," stated Quinn gently, "we both are," paused Quinn, "but your my rock and I can be yours as well?" offered Quinn kissing Stone's cheek gently noticing how much emotion Stone was holding back.   She might be a idiot when she's on a mission and spots something shiny but she isn't a idiot when it comes to the important things and that's what mattered.

"When I said I liked being babied?" asked Quinn quietly, "D-d-do...I know you like caring for me," stammered Quinn a little, "but do you like...babying me? It's okay if you do? Like you said there's no rush and we can both work it out together and see what we can do or how to explore this?" continued Quinn thinking some more before biting her lip slightly, "D-d-do you want me to call you....uh...." stammered Quinn blushing, "mommy? When...sometimes?" asked Quinn nervously not quite knowing if she might of jumped the gun or not.

"Y-yeah drink! Remember I said if I ever see you again I owe you a drink? Or I'll get you one cause....I thought I would never see you again," paused Quinn, "I thought that was it, really." added Quinn quietly nuzzling her face against Stone's back and holding on tighter. 

[DiaperRebel]

At the light kiss Stone let out a laughing sob. “You know how I feel about hypocrites.” Her shoulders hiccuped, but she composed herself slowly. “I’ve had time to mourn. They’re not the first I’ve lost.” 

She blubbered out another nervous laugh. 

“The specialist tomorrow has had experience with the loungers. She’s the medic sometimes at this random settlement when she isn’t on the road and she’s agreed to meet with us in Goodneighbor. My new favorite place.” She added with sad sarcastic humor. “She can let us know how far this may go, but for now? Y-yes. I do—would like it. But is it me? Or the simulation?” She shakes her head. 

“I think the food’s ready. I hope it’s not too strong for you. Should we try something softer?”

[FalloutZone]

Quin smiles a little, "No they aren't but that doesn't mean it hurts any less," replied Quinn softly and serious, "people die everyday but what makes us, us and not machines is our hearts," stated Quinn, "you haven't had time to mourn," continued Quinn, "you might of cried or even talked but your still bottling it up! I can see it," continued Quinn, "Jay, Drew, McKinney..." paused Quinn, "the dynamics of the team weren't normal at all," sighed Quinn, "Stone....they were barley adults..." paused Quinn gently rubbing Stone's back, "everyone we lose is important because that changes us and makes us stronger," continued Quinn, "but that doesn't mean we forget and that doesn't mean that the pain will go away because it never goes away at all but it's worse to ignore and even if you have mourned.....you still need to mourn once in a while even if everything is going okay currently that particular day because...because it allows us to remember and forgetting....our feelings and their deaths is the worst thing that we can do," sniffled Quinn, "its those feelings that make us alive and gives us strength to keep pushing on cause we don't want to see anymore bloodshed that's why we're Brotherhood, right? So crying is good because it's not just letting go but it's remembering and honouring them and everyone else that has died..."

Quinn sniffled and cried slightly into Stone's back.

She didn't even know that they were dead properly yet.

Quinn nodded a little before giggling through her tears, "I'm pretty sure it's you," said Quinn thinking back on every interaction she's ever had with Stone, "remember when we first met? You carried me through the cafeteria and held me close," paused Quinn glancing at the food, "I'll give it a shot first but I'll probably need something softer....mommy." added Quinn with a slight blush red tearful eyes.

[DiaperRebel]

Stone nearly toppled the pot at the name, face red, and eyes puffy from her tears, she smiles weakly through it and made Quinn a dribbling mug and handed it to her, then sat with her under the blanket to snuggle up with.

“McKinney...” Stone said blowing the steam off her food. “The Cabots took that synth to a place that’s secure from the Institute. There must be /something/ he wants in exchange for the truth.” She takes a hard sip. “I’m sorry you had to find out that way.” She stares into her mug and did let a few more tears silently fall frim her cheeks. She wiped her nose. “I should have told you sooner. I mean I feel like I can talk with you, Quinn, like you can always talk with me, but it’s war, and war never changes. That’s your first lesson as a Paladin. It doesn’t make your words any less important. Thank you for them.” She toasts then chugs her food down to honor their memory in her own way. 

[FalloutZone]

Quinn was a little surprised by Stone's wobbliness and blushed.  Maybe it was to soon to call Stone Mommy? But her Paladin had asked and so she wasn't going to just ignore that.

Quinn smiled at the mug and cuddled up with Stone underneath the large blanket.

Quinn rested her head against Stone's shoulder, "Probably I wonder what he wants in exchange?" questioned Quinn, "Probably your arse," half joked Quinn only to smile tenderly at Stone, "it's alright, really, it is," paused Quinn giving Stone a gentle kiss on the cheek glad that Stone was crying and letting loose of any emotional stress she might be having, "we needed yesterday to be together properly and this is only our second day," reassured Quinn sipping at her mug, "I'm glad that you can talk to me and it doesn't feel force," said Quinn only to nod a little at the words, "War never changes...." mumbles Quinn taking in Stone's words as she holds her mug up slightly in a toast before drinking down the food some more.

Quinn stays snuggled up to Stone.  It was still bright but the day was changing. 

The food was odd and Quinn felt unsure giving her time at the Institute but she didn't mind.

Quinn breathes and relaxes, "Been having many problems in base?" asked Quinn quietly.  Not knowing how bad it has gotten since the vids.  

[DiaperRebel]

Stone rests her head on top of Quinn’s and nods. She lets a silence linger, unsure how to describe the situation fairly. 

“We’ve been pushed back by organized raids. Morale is fragile.” 

A few pops of gun fire go off outside. They sound strangely low and small until a chest pounding boom shakes violently across entire precarious structure they were sitting in. Stone’s response is to simply pick up her head to sip her mug and stay completely unbothered by it.

[FalloutZone]

Quinn smiles a little at feeling Stone's head on top of her's and simply cuddled some more.

Quinn frowns, "That's not good," replied Quinn, "I take it...it's because of those holovids?" asked Quinn feeling guilty, "I'm sure we'll be able to boost morale up? We just need something big to really get everyone's spirits up," continued Quinn, "wait? Organized raids?" asked Quinn confused, "Gunners? I doubt raiders are that smart to do much?" 

Quinn moves closer to Stone for comfort and warmth.

The gun fire....

She hadn't heard it in so long...

Quinn tried her best not to show any fear or nervousness but she wasn't the best at controlling her emotions, "Spent so much time underground almost forgot what gunfire sounds like." mumbled Quinn sipping her mug and almost climbing into Stone's lap.