Hardships Of Being Different

[rickibrat2]

Not sure how many understand what it means to be a Hermaphrodite? Really it is just a label for a birth defect

In 7the grade I acted as an escort for a new boy on his first day, it has had a never ending effect on me. We soon became best friends then went on to become BF and GF outside of school in school we were just best friends but when we left school we went back to what we were

Just to look back on the pain in her life then, by being forced to live as something she was not, and was not even happy as. In fact she hated.

Remember the look on her face in the 8th grade when I paid for her to go to a beauty shop, and get the whole works done so we could go to a spring dance, and she was the best looking girl at the dance that night, she had guys falling all over then self’s trying to dance wither that night

Funny the same guys that were calling her names during the day now were almost fighting over dancing with her. But the only other boys she danced with were to ones from our small group.

Later we had dragons painted on our bedroom wall by her. Roberta dragon was a pinkish blue color and flew thought lots of fog banks on the wall

While the other wall was my dragon and it was a bluish purple, and it flew many fights with demons and the both made the turn on the far wall and started to twist and dance with each other as then flew into a cloud then flew out and up on the roof as a beautiful golden dragon that she said was us in love.

The love we shared was unreal with each other it was very different, then what other kids thought love was about.

Love when you do not have the right or same parts as others of your same sex is very hard she had no female parts as when she was born there were partly outside her body so a doctor removed them, she had what was called a sudo penis and most male infants have a bigger one.

That does not mean she did not get turned on the same as other girls, and once we learned how to light that fire we had lots of fun with words and touching but sex was still a different story.

While many thing kids our ages could not have that understanding. While we may have only been 12 years old we both had years of taking drugs which made our body age way faster than other kids.

Few can understand the pain of thinking no one will ever love you or even understand you or you will never feel the love other share as you watch other kids look at each other but you know deep inside you what you are living is a fake.

The pain you feel from being different in other ways from kids too so you are called names or hit and kicked for no reason other than you are standing there, to be playing in your own front yard and have other boys put a bag over your head and beat you up then drag out into a field and repeatedly rape you then they call you names as do other kids for what they did to you, to the point your mother just packs up and moves to a different city many miles from where she works.

To have to start all over at a new school knowing it will happen again as you just stand out from other kids, you are a least a foot shorter than they are

You have flaming red hair, you now walk funny you now have a fear of others almost to a panic attack each time someone comes near you, to know that someday others will learn how different you are even in the smallest way like going to the bathroom you were diapers, and as soon as other learn that you will become the object of attack both verbally and physical by others. Then you are made to sit in an office as your mother talks to the office, and this other boy walks in with also flaming red hair.

You have no idea of the pain of her loss all these years ago, for no reason really the pain she had to have when her new step father forced her to go back to being a male with the threat of abuse to her mother, with her letters going unanswered as the letters were being removed and just through in a big box you feel abandoned by the one you loved for over 5 years.

[Backindiapers]

I'm not saying this to be mean but I'm so confused by that story. Is this you? Or just some girl you once knew and were thinking about her? Or is this fiction? Are you just thinking about the subtle differences in people? I just don't understand what the point of the story was. Again I'm not saying that to be mean. I just wanted to understand a little better. Are you just reminiscing on her and wanted to tell her story?

[rickibrat2]

she was my wife

[Backindiapers]

So.....I kinda feel like a jerk. Sorry. Its a rough story for anyone to live through.

[rickibrat2]

yes and i have a hard time writing stuff as my mind sees it right but it is writen wrong something to do with brun damage and being in a coma for so long after a plane crash in viet nam

but that and a limpis about all the reasdue damage other diapers foe life

[rickibrat2]

in many ways it is like a cross dresser going out for the first time

other then in her house or her play house she had to live as a boy

and i loved her very much but she was a whimpy boy she was so small

in todays would she would still be in a booster seat she would have never been able to drive her corevette she loved so much

many guys just looked ather as she would walk over to her bike and start it the first kick always that thing fired up

you hear storyins about harleys kicking back or indians kicking back

think the worst bike i have ever started was her Ariel Square 4

even going to school the jocks would just look at her as she rode in the the front parking lot and parked her bike as i parked my flat head beside hers and we walked in tot he office so she could change clothes for school

as we had dress codes we had to follow then

[Saschadzg]

other then in her house or her play house she had to live as a boy

It was cruel to force her to live a false live. Not treating hormal imbalances can make very sick or eventually kill.

Kvetinka

[Bettypooh]

And what treatnemt to give? In the past in the US, many intersexed babies were surgically made into girls because (exactly as was stated at an annual AMA conference) "it's easier to dig a hole than to build a pole"

Now with the 'professionals' doing something like that, would you entrust them with anyone you love? I wouldn't! And I'm happy to say that due to so many Intersexed people speaking up, these stupid policies are rapidly changing. Gender doesn't need to be binary, and sex doesn't either. If there are no other health problems there is nothing needing medical treatment unless the person being considered has psychological problems dealing with this. I applaud rickybrat2 for having the right attitude, and I hope all can learn something from it, for in the end we are all just people and there's nothing wrong with that.

Bettypooh

[Backindiapers]

Did you guys read the story or hear on the news about the couple who refuse to choose a gender for their children? They refuse to tell them they are a boy or girl or dress them in any way gender specific. Its getting a lot of new coverage because its so taboo. But I understand the reasoning. Let the child decide who they are. Makes sense but completely different than any way I've ever heard of raising a kid. But times are a changing. In 50 years it might be normal for parents to do that.