ABDL05 Posted January 15, 2005 Share Posted January 15, 2005 I am a 43 year old male constantly wanting to go back age two. I have in my life been subjected to various froms of mistreatment and alienated from my loving mothers arms. At an early age I was instructed to get away from my infant behavior, but try as I may I could not leave those safe confines for long. I have had occasions where suicide would be the way out, but after trying that route a couple of times I've come appreciate life now more than ever. I would like to live a life without the nagging need to buy and explore my "feminine side" of wearing diapers and sucking pacifiers. I have a love/hate relationship with this. I buy and I disgard, buy and disgard all the time fearing someone will find out. My partner knows and make little jokes when diaper advertisement are shown. I told him and others right off the bat-get it out in the open-type dialog that this was my perferred fetish. Most lovers understand and try to nourish this behavior, but it is I that beat myself up over it. So, here we go again...I will recieve my diapers, bottle, pacifier, wipes, powder and lotion this week and dive back into whats looks like a lifetime adventure and slowly introduce my lover to it. I have intense need to discuss and bring it out in the open...it has been three years since the urge has been this great and something in the future I want on a daily basis. Nothing like being bathed, diapered and having a warm bottle at bedtime. Just my thoughts on the issue at hand. Feel free to e-mail me with photos, stories, or just a kind reply. Link to comment
chwukkie Posted January 15, 2005 Share Posted January 15, 2005 I am a 43 year old male constantly wanting to go back age two. I have in my life been subjected to various froms of mistreatment and alienated from my loving mothers arms. At an early age I was instructed to get away from my infant behavior, but try as I may I could not leave those safe confines for long. I have had occasions where suicide would be the way out, but after trying that route a couple of times I've come appreciate life now more than ever. I would like to live a life without the nagging need to buy and explore my "feminine side" of wearing diapers and sucking pacifiers. I have a love/hate relationship with this. I buy and I disgard, buy and disgard all the time fearing someone will find out. My partner knows and make little jokes when diaper advertisement are shown. I told him and others right off the bat-get it out in the open-type dialog that this was my perferred fetish. Most lovers understand and try to nourish this behavior, but it is I that beat myself up over it. So, here we go again...I will recieve my diapers, bottle, pacifier, wipes, powder and lotion this week and dive back into whats looks like a lifetime adventure and slowly introduce my lover to it. I have intense need to discuss and bring it out in the open...it has been three years since the urge has been this great and something in the future I want on a daily basis. Nothing like being bathed, diapered and having a warm bottle at bedtime. Just my thoughts on the issue at hand. Feel free to e-mail me with photos, stories, or just a kind reply. Link to comment
chwukkie Posted January 15, 2005 Share Posted January 15, 2005 We all have various reasons for our attraction to diapers and babyhood or toddlerhood. Every situation is unique and every DL or AB I have known has had guilt trips about this fetish. Most have disgarded our "stuff" only to be drawn back later on. I'm not a shrink nor do I have any answers but hey if it relaxes you for awhile go for it. It beats a drunken or drug induced stupor! Most of us live "normal" lives and use this as a medium for stress relief and/ or contentment. Link to comment
ABDL05 Posted January 15, 2005 Author Share Posted January 15, 2005 We all have various reasons for our attraction to diapers and babyhood or toddlerhood. Link to comment
Claire Posted January 16, 2005 Share Posted January 16, 2005 always nice to see a new member to the community ^^ Link to comment
Diaperpants Posted January 16, 2005 Share Posted January 16, 2005 I am a 43 year old male constantly wanting to go back age two. I have in my life been subjected to various froms of mistreatment and alienated from my loving mothers arms. At an early age I was instructed to get away from my infant behavior, but try as I may I could not leave those safe confines for long. I have had occasions where suicide would be the way out, but after trying that route a couple of times I've come appreciate life now more than ever. I would like to live a life without the nagging need to buy and explore my "feminine side" of wearing diapers and sucking pacifiers. I have a love/hate relationship with this. I buy and I disgard, buy and disgard all the time fearing someone will find out. My partner knows and make little jokes when diaper advertisement are shown. I told him and others right off the bat-get it out in the open-type dialog that this was my perferred fetish. Most lovers understand and try to nourish this behavior, but it is I that beat myself up over it. So, here we go again...I will recieve my diapers, bottle, pacifier, wipes, powder and lotion this week and dive back into whats looks like a lifetime adventure and slowly introduce my lover to it. I have intense need to discuss and bring it out in the open...it has been three years since the urge has been this great and something in the future I want on a daily basis. Nothing like being bathed, diapered and having a warm bottle at bedtime. Just my thoughts on the issue at hand. Feel free to e-mail me with photos, stories, or just a kind reply. My attraction to the ab/dl life style is also because of lack of nurter as a kid. Like you, I had a love/hate relationship about the whole thing. Saw my share of shrinks, too. But, as I get older, I'm at peace with myself and my life style. Diapers will always be a part of my life. I've never heard of any one getting arrested for DWD--driving while diaperd! Link to comment
chibiyuri Posted January 16, 2005 Share Posted January 16, 2005 LOL nope cant say that i have either Link to comment
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