Abdl Needs

[ABDL05]

I am a 43 year old male constantly wanting to go back age two. I have in my life been subjected to various froms of mistreatment and alienated from my loving mothers arms. At an early age I was instructed to get away from my infant behavior, but try as I may I could not leave those safe confines for long. I have had occasions where suicide would be the way out, but after trying that route a couple of times I've come appreciate life now more than ever. I would like to live a life without the nagging need to buy and explore my "feminine side" of wearing diapers and sucking pacifiers. I have a love/hate relationship with this. I buy and I disgard, buy and disgard all the time fearing someone will find out. My partner knows and make little jokes when diaper advertisement are shown. I told him and others right off the bat-get it out in the open-type dialog that this was my perferred fetish. Most lovers understand and try to nourish this behavior, but it is I that beat myself up over it. So, here we go again...I will recieve my diapers, bottle, pacifier, wipes, powder and lotion this week and dive back into whats looks like a lifetime adventure and slowly introduce my lover to it. I have intense need to discuss and bring it out in the open...it has been three years since the urge has been this great and something in the future I want on a daily basis. Nothing like being bathed, diapered and having a warm bottle at bedtime. Just my thoughts on the issue at hand. Feel free to e-mail me with photos, stories, or just a kind reply.

[chwukkie]

I am a 43 year old male constantly wanting to go back age two. I have in my life been subjected to various froms of mistreatment and alienated from my loving mothers arms. At an early age I was instructed to get away from my infant behavior, but try as I may I could not leave those safe confines for long. I have had occasions where suicide would be the way out, but after trying that route a couple of times I've come appreciate life now more than ever. I would like to live a life without the nagging need to buy and explore my "feminine side" of wearing diapers and sucking pacifiers. I have a love/hate relationship with this. I buy and I disgard, buy and disgard all the time fearing someone will find out. My partner knows and make little jokes when diaper advertisement are shown. I told him and others right off the bat-get it out in the open-type dialog that this was my perferred fetish. Most lovers understand and try to nourish this behavior, but it is I that beat myself up over it. So, here we go again...I will recieve my diapers, bottle, pacifier, wipes, powder and lotion this week and dive back into whats looks like a lifetime adventure and slowly introduce my lover to it. I have intense need to discuss and bring it out in the open...it has been three years since the urge has been this great and something in the future I want on a daily basis. Nothing like being bathed, diapered and having a warm bottle at bedtime. Just my thoughts on the issue at hand. Feel free to e-mail me with photos, stories, or just a kind reply.

[chwukkie]

We all have various reasons for our attraction to diapers and babyhood or toddlerhood. Every situation is unique and every DL or AB I have known has had guilt trips about this fetish. Most have disgarded our "stuff" only to be drawn back later on. I'm not a shrink nor do I have any answers but hey if it relaxes you for awhile go for it. It beats a drunken or drug induced stupor! Most of us live "normal" lives and use this as a medium for stress relief and/ or contentment.

[ABDL05]

We all have various reasons for our attraction to diapers and babyhood or toddlerhood.

[Claire]

always nice to see a new member to the community ^^

[Diaperpants]

I am a 43 year old male constantly wanting to go back age two. I have in my life been subjected to various froms of mistreatment and alienated from my loving mothers arms. At an early age I was instructed to get away from my infant behavior, but try as I may I could not leave those safe confines for long. I have had occasions where suicide would be the way out, but after trying that route a couple of times I've come appreciate life now more than ever. I would like to live a life without the nagging need to buy and explore my "feminine side" of wearing diapers and sucking pacifiers. I have a love/hate relationship with this. I buy and I disgard, buy and disgard all the time fearing someone will find out. My partner knows and make little jokes when diaper advertisement are shown. I told him and others right off the bat-get it out in the open-type dialog that this was my perferred fetish. Most lovers understand and try to nourish this behavior, but it is I that beat myself up over it. So, here we go again...I will recieve my diapers, bottle, pacifier, wipes, powder and lotion this week and dive back into whats looks like a lifetime adventure and slowly introduce my lover to it. I have intense need to discuss and bring it out in the open...it has been three years since the urge has been this great and something in the future I want on a daily basis. Nothing like being bathed, diapered and having a warm bottle at bedtime. Just my thoughts on the issue at hand. Feel free to e-mail me with photos, stories, or just a kind reply.

My attraction to the ab/dl life style is also because of lack of nurter as a kid. Like you, I had a love/hate relationship about the whole thing. Saw my share of shrinks, too. But, as I get older, I'm at peace with myself and my life style. Diapers will always be a part of my life. I've never heard of any one getting arrested for DWD--driving while diaperd!

[chibiyuri]

LOL nope cant say that i have either