Do You Ever Want To Stop?

[DL-CanesFan]

Sometimes I just want to stop wearing diapers and throw them all away. It's like I become ashamed or embarassed or something like that.

Instead of throwing it all away which is an expensive mistake, I learned that it is best to just put all of my diapers in a box and hide them untill I feel OK again(usually 2 or 3 days).

Who else feels something like this every once in a while?

[diapernut]

hi, everybody hope you all are having a happy new year. but back to the question. yes i have tried to stop wearing my diapers. i tossed them in the trash and quit wearing. but yes after about a year i found myself back in the diaper isle at wallgreens buying more diapers . thought i could live without them. (not) finaly came to reality that diapers are part of me and always will be

[nappyloon]

You are suffering the old "Binge and Purge" syndrome most of us seem to go through at various times in our lives.

Good job you have the sense to stash your supply rather than binning it !

When I think back to all the good items I used to have and have then thrown away it makes me want to weep!

[Guest]

If I stopped wearing diapers, my clothes would be icky, cause I do NOT want to use that stupid potty! *hmph*

No no no no NO NO NO NO NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

[wetvinyl]

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I've done a few binge & purges in my long DL time... but I always knew I'd come back to them (and I was ok with that, it was never a "this is disgusting, I'll never do this again" decision). I just didn't feel the urge for a while, and didn't want to force it. And it was always great when I came back. But the last few months, I've been feeling something different.

Diapers have always been a sexual thing for me. It's the only way I gotten myself off (very satisfactorily) for 40 years. But I've become aware that it affects my sexual experience with a lady: To be blunt, I don't last as long. (And hats off to the little blue pill, thank you.)

It's two entirely different sensual experiences: In a diaper it's soft and gentle, no direct contact (I'm in a diaper), totally self-controlled. But sex is a completely different arousal-- physical, full-on insistant and ecstatically out of control contact. They're totally different "apples and oranges" experiences... except the sex "apple" is more of a "cum NOW" experience than that solitary diaper "orange".

Well, hey... if I had to choose between getting off in solitary diapers or having great long-lasting sex with a lady I care about, I'll be choosing the great sex, thank you. (And there's HER wants/needs to think about, too.)

So I've started feeling less and less desire to wear, lately. Hey, I'm perfectly able to make myself cum without a diaper. And don't let this narrative lead you to think that I have lots of sexual encounters-- good God, far from it.

My point is, I've got a full pack of Bambinos... and have yet to put one on. I'm just not feeling it, anymore. Actually, I kinda haven't for some time.

Frankly, I'm bored with solitary diaper-time. I've been there, done that, for almost 40 years... and now, if cumming in diapers is taking away from my sexual performance with a lady-- well the hell with that!

So yeah, I'm thinking about stopping. Hey, diapers will always be my secret kink... but it can't be about me alone anymore. I just don't want it to be isolating-- and definately not debilitating! Life's too goddam short.

No, I'm not trolling for ladies. I'm just responding to this topic with my own little POV perspective. It's a great topic-- carry on...

WV.

[Pull-ups man]

Hi there, yeah I sometimes get this kind of feeling that Id just like to put my diaper fetish away and never think of it again. Im currently in such I phase I think. But in my case I tend to forget about diapers more than really have any kind of feeling about leaving them completely. But then in about a week or two I come back to diapers and cant comprehend how I couldve frogot about them.

As a matter of fact I just got some cash from my folks and so I think Im gonna buy a new pack of girl Pull-ups tomorrow

[UkyGuy]

I've thought about it, but never decided to back away from diapers.

Anything can be harmful in excess; moderation is the key to a lot of things in life, I've learned. I've never thought about giving up this fetish--not even felt guilty for being into it--because all-in-all it's pretty safe and enjoyable; there are a lot of other things I could be doing to harm myself or others and I'm not.

[attends_99]

Have to echo everyone else. I get this feeling of wanting to be through with diapers and always think that this time it will definitely be it, but lo and behold within a matter of days or weeks I am wanting to wear again.

[Guest]

I don't feel guilt or embarrassment over it. I accepted myself, have seen there is no harm in it, and therefore, no, don't see a need or a want to stop. I wish they were cheaper, but that I can fix by working my way to a better salary.

[Dr. Fill (your pants)]

Interesting topic.

It certainly appears as if many of us, from time to time, desires to entirely quit this fetish of ours, be it of guilt, shame, or something else. For some reason I've never really had those moments, but I think it's because I early in my life realized that I wasn't the only one with these desires - perhaps it was because I early (I think I was about 6 years old) saw an add in a porn magazine where a couple was looking for other couples interested in "toilet play". Since then I knew that I wasn't alone, and because of that early experience I probably never developed a sense of guilt for what I was doing.

Anyway, I do understand why many of us feel that way, and it IS a relatively odd fetish (but not as unusual as one might think).

Ok, I wrote my first post! I'm happy that I found you all!

Take care.

Dr. Fill (your pants)

[adriansurley]

Its part of who I am, I am happy with who I am and don't want to change myself. I don't want to quit because I would feel empty in that regard.

[pctrasher]

Yea, if you really think about it, it's something to do that you enjoy. So then why quit? I've gone though the binge and purge cycle, but oddly enough I haven't had it for a LONG time now (I've been diapered every night for the past 4 months and still enjoy it just as I allways do). The key to the binge->purge cycle is ballance...if there is no binge, there is no purge. I haven't worn all day in a LONG time, just at nights to feed the desire and enjoy the feeling, ofcorse I do have a slight AB side too which is also based on ballance. So when it all comes down to it, I don't binge unless I'm flat broke and don't have money for diapers. Then I'll binge to make the craving go away for a while and be 'normal' (well...abnormal for me.) for a few months and by then I'll have enough money to go another few months with diapers. So the best part of the binge->purge cycle is that it is controllable.

[Aleia]

If it's giving you more discomfort than pleasure, then yes, you should quit, because you don't deserve to be uncomfortable.

[Knuxie Fawks]

If I stopped wearing diapers, my clothes would be icky, cause I do NOT want to use that stupid potty! *hmph*

No no no no NO NO NO NO NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Dat scawwy ting dat eats all our poopies and piddles? I don' wanna use it, eider.

[Knuxie Fawks]

I don't feel guilt or embarrassment over it. I accepted myself, have seen there is no harm in it, and therefore, no, don't see a need or a want to stop. I wish they were cheaper, but that I can fix by working my way to a better salary.

I don' make a lot at my job, but the diapies I buy are $9 for a 20 pack. All I haffa do is not eat at McDonald's a couple times and they're practically paid for.

[anondl]

I've done the binge/purge thing many times. I've outgrown it

Lately, I don't wear diapers to bed because I am afraid of having a heart attack and being discovered dead and diapered. (I live alone.) I have quite a collection of diapers and paraphenilla so whether I'm wearing or not would make little difference re: this "fetish".

I don't want to stop but I'm scared of indulging.

Anondl

[Knuxie Fawks]

I've done the binge/purge thing many times. I've outgrown it

Lately, I don't wear diapers to bed because I am afraid of having a heart attack and being discovered dead and diapered. (I live alone.) I have quite a collection of diapers and paraphenilla so whether I'm wearing or not would make little difference re: this "fetish".

I don't want to stop but I'm scared of indulging.

Anondl

Go ahead and indulge. This habit, or fetish, hurts nobody, and if it makes you feel good about yourself, then it's better than not!

[Guest]

Before I got to college, I'd never worn a diaper that fit me since I was in them originally. What I'd done in HS was buy some Pampers and just stuff one or more in my underwear. There was a time that a wave hit me that told me I wanted nothing to do with it or that I couldn't be a part of this anymore, and I threw all the Pampers away. It wasn't long after that I'd wished I hadn't done it. Since that time I've never had a purge, but I've had times when I've wanted to quit. Not because they don't feel good, but because I'm tired of the fear of being caught, worried about what would happen to my personal life and my career if it become public knowledge (in my case, most if not all of the family would have nothing to do with me, and I'd almost certainly not be able to find another job in my profession; sad but true), and there are just some times when aside from all of that, I just get tired of being a weirdo who gets aroused by wearing a diaper like a baby.

But most of the time, the issue is simply what would happen if I'm discovered. I can usually be OK with liking to wear diapers, watch people in diapers, etc. I've just more or less accepted it as a major part in my sexuality. But there are times I wish I was much closer to "vanilla" when it came to my sexuality. It'd make some things a lot simpler. Instead, I live with something to hide for fear of major consequences, and as a single man I worry about what my relationships will do if/when I get them because of that fear of being caught, and then if that's not the fear, then simply having it drive a wedge between myself and my girlfriend.

Ultimately, I've accepted that fact that this is who I am, but I'm still not at peace and won't be until I feel secure about its potential to ruin my life. If I could push a button and take all of my sexual desires/urges/release, and channel those feelings that I get from diapers into my pre-existing feelings for women, I would. But as I say, if I ever became convinced it won't threaten my life, then I could fairly easily just go with the flow.

[StillNDiapers]

Sometimes I just want to stop wearing diapers and throw them all away. It's like I become ashamed or embarassed or something like that.

Instead of throwing it all away which is an expensive mistake, I learned that it is best to just put all of my diapers in a box and hide them untill I feel OK again(usually 2 or 3 days).

Who else feels something like this every once in a while?

Im not sure if i do want to stop as long as im not hurting anyone and im happy no i guess. but if i had me that one special person and they wanted me to stop then i might. but i think this fetish is here to stay

[wsdler]

If I could flick a switch and make this fetish stop I gladly would however, I'm over binge purge and at this point in my life I've just come to accept that I wear diapers and I always will. It doesn't hurt anyone else and it doesn't interfere with my personal life. I've decided that the moment it becomes an issue in my personal life I'll talk to a professional. Hasn't even come close to that though.

[balancer]

I just spent a few minutes recovering my password in order to reply to this post as your concerns mirror mine when I was your age about 15 years ago. I since had one wife find out after marriage and my second I told before marriage. If it ever gets to such a point of commitment, a test of the woman's character is her response to such a secret shared. I did not lose the first because of this issue but I in part married the second because of her accepting (not embracing) response.

I shudder to think of the trauma of dealing with broader friends and family finding out too but have accepted it as part of my life and am better off for doing so. I expect much of the trauma would be the initial realignment of relationships, after which maybe it would be a release - probably not, but perhaps some similarity to a male 'coming out of the closet' about sexual orientation.

Good luck, your experience is not unique if that helps at all. I hope this note does.

Before I got to college, I'd never worn a diaper that fit me since I was in them originally. What I'd done in HS was buy some Pampers and just stuff one or more in my underwear. There was a time that a wave hit me that told me I wanted nothing to do with it or that I couldn't be a part of this anymore, and I threw all the Pampers ........secure about its potential to ruin my life. If I could push a button and take all of my sexual desires/urges/release, and channel those feelings that I get from diapers into my pre-existing feelings for women, I would. But as I say, if I ever became convinced it won't threaten my life, then I could fairly easily just go with the flow.

[Criss]

I suppose I could if I wanted to. I only wear them on weekends. I did stop wearing them last summer, but like most here, I did miss them. Like a previous poster said, it really harms no one. I think the best thing to do is put them away somewhere if you are tired of them, rather then throwing them away. Purging is like throwing money away.

[fundiaper]

I have been wearing diapers on and off for many years but after having enuresis for the last year I have come to the reality that I want to keep wearing diapers. I will wear diapers for the rest of my life weather I NEED them or just enjoy them. I WEAR DIAPERS. Thats just part of who I am. I did tell the girl I am going out with and she is ok with it. We are also going pantie shopping for me tonight.

[babytommy1981]

I can go for days with out wearing one of my diapers. but i start to feel like somethings missing. then i put one on and feel good about my self again.

[paradox]

I am like that smoker that everyone hates, can smoke one or two throw the pack in a drawer and forget about it cause ya just dont care that much.