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This journey starts at a young age and I’m writing this down in hopes of mentally understanding something about my life. I appreciate any and all feedback. This is a long post. I’m 43, unmarried, single, no kids. Why does this matter you ask? Well, about 40ish years ago the desire to wear a diaper came. I recall being in preschool, daycare, or Sunday school. I saw a box of pampers and wanted to wear one. I had a horrible first 5 years of my life. I also recall having stinky issues, I would poop myself. I can’t tell you the frequency from 5-7, however, it would be every few months. I’d have some kind of incident, which still happens to this day and more often. But, I never wore diapers growing up. I’d have some kind of major accident 1-2 times a year with minor poop leakage. I discovered my AB side sometime preteen but never did I think I was incontinent or would wear diapers 24/7. It stayed this way until I was about 27 when I learned I have IBS. I would start slowly dipping my toe in the waters over the next 8 years until 35 when I would start wearing 24/7 for weeks at a time, however, still pretty much using a toilet and rarely messing. I would go periods where I only wore diapers, as I didn’t have issues peeing, I could hold it all afternoon, unless I kept drinking liquids. I also notice things back there were just… more comfortable, the diapers caught the leakage and made my day more enjoyable. From 35 to 37, I would go months, then stop, I also would sometimes pee out of convenience, but I wasn’t training by any means and still Maintained the same control as I had. 37-39 I started reading about other people just going about life diapers all the time. I also noticed, no one knew I was ever diapered. From 39 on I was pretty much in diapers all the time. However, I started going in my diapers WAY more, like, if I have to make a stinky, plop, it was out, had to go peeing? Why hold it? The instant urge to go started increasing. At 41, I was pretty much all in, but I’m still believing I’m continent. However, if I had an urge to pee, I had maybe 30-60 minutes before some kind of leak happened. If I have to poop, well there will be skid marks, I can’t stop myself, sometimes I’ll cough or something when trying to not poop and I can’t, I’ll poop my diaper. Around this same time, I start reading about people retraining. So I’m like huh, I don’t continue to train, I keep my diapers… I just kind of stop caring. At 3rd quarter of 41st year in this planet I get a car. I notice, I can’t make it to a rest stop, don’t care, go about life. If I’m with friends I try to make it to a toilet but I’m noticing sometimes the urge to go hits me with in 10-15 minutes. Like if I have to pee and don’t, something is leaking out 15-20 minutes. I still don’t care. This happens to continue all through age 42. Except, for the last 6 months of my 42 year I had a UTI, so frequency of peeing is about every 60-90 minutes is hydrated. I dealt with my UTI In December. What I noticed from sept - dec of 2023 is I have 5-10 minutes to pee in a toilet. If I try to hold, I squirt out. During that time I’ve been depressed and literally didn’t care, I’ve just been going, try holding noticed that issue. My birthday is end of dec. I’ve turned 43. Currently… I’ve been talking with random people who have chosen this life style. I also have tried testing my continence, diapered or not, I leak, so I’m diapered or padded all the time now. I tried holding various times in January however, my ability to hold sucks, so no bothering anymore. When it comes to making a stinky, I will be mindful of others, unless beyond my control. Alone, I don’t care, that’s what my diaper is for. As for actively training, I dunno what it’s classified as to how I’m going an about my 24/7 journey. I do know that I’m making no effort to prevent what is going on. I also don’t quite believe I’m incontinent, open to opinions of others on that one. Now due to the UTI and changes in my urine continence, I am seeing a doctor about what’s going on. However, I’m not interested in any treatment unless something serious is found and needs to be addressed. With all that on the table, I dunno when I’ll be updating, but I will be updating this and look forward to sharing my journey with others.

So it has been a while since I posted on here. I had been 24/7 diaper dependent for about a year and a half, but something that I had not completely accounted for, but kind of saw coming hit me like a brick wall and forced me to have to stop wearing during the day at least. About two weeks ago I had scheduled a medical procedure that I initially had planned to wear a diaper too but our financial situation had gotten so to the point where when we were no longer able to order my diapers so I made the decision at least for the prep of the medical procedure which required me to clean myself out, if you know what I mean. I did not want to waste diapers so I decided that I would go that day without. But then the realization that I probably wasn't going to get new diapers for a while started to sink in and after my procedure, I had made the decision, as difficult as it was, to go diaper less during the day but to still wear a diapers bed. This has gone on for about two weeks now and I've gotten down to having to wear my somewhat too small and falling apart cloth diapers that I don't have enough of. Thankfully though our financial situation has turned around and we're going to be getting enough money for me to afford to buy diapers again. Starting in a couple of days when my diaper shipment arrives, I am going to redouble my efforts and rededicate myself to being diaper dependent and diapered 24/7. I also plan to try and rebuild my cloth diaper supply so that in the future if something like this happens, I'll be able to have enough cloth diapers to continue to be diapered even if I'm not able to afford disposable diapers. I would like to be able to say that this experience hasn't had an effect on my training. but I do feel that this small two-week relapse of using the potty has definitely had an effect on my diaper training. I still have a very weak bladder and I find myself running to the bathroom every 20 30 minutes. My bowel muscles are still just as strong as ever and I definitely still have full control over that. Something that I I'm going to try to do better this time around is that I'm going to really try to go down the unpotty training road. Once my diapers arrive and I put that first diaper on I will no longer be potty trained, and we'll do all my pees and poops in my diaper no matter the circumstance or scenario I find myself in. And I'm going to try harder to follow some of the steps in the 12-month diaper training program. After having these two weeks out of diapers I have come to realize that I really am meant to be in diapers. I hope that this will be the last time I have had this experience. I do not like being out of diapers, the feeling of not having a diaper on after having had them on for a year and a half kind of feels weird. and every time I'm able to put a diaper on, cloth or disposable, it feels like going home or returning to a familiar place. So here is to another year to Infinity of wearing and using 24/7.

I most often mess once daily. Always in the morning. But when it happens during the day the clean up can be a hassle and troubling. What do you think?

Normal evenings I have dinner and after dinner have my wife give me a bath. Then prepared for a diapering for the evening. This evening was quite different. I was quite tired not sure why but quite tired. I eat some of my dinner it was baby food. One of the better choices along with a baby bottle. I finished both.. I was then escorted into the bathroom and undressed. Then given a bath and a hair wash. I was then taken to the changing table in the bedroom. Prepared for the evening diapering. It started out as a nice evening. I had my paci in my mouth. Then massed with oil and lotion from hed to toe. A new diaper was placed beneath me. While lifting up my legs my wife had placed a suppository into my bottom . Before closing up my diaper extra powder was spread into my diaper and then closed up. I did not relaxed it at first but after about 40-45 minutes it felt rather strange and unusual. Then it began.

i live in saratoga springs area and looking for a female who is into diapers and changing them too.i am a very nice person with blue eyes and brown hair.i like old tv shows and monster movies a lot. so please email me at jwwebpage@yahoo.com