Babyhawkeye

I haven't really had a worry that people will see my diaper. if they see it they see it in my opinion I have had a few instances were it was vary full in the story and I was a little self conscious about it but that was it. I found that the more you trust your diaper the more you seem to ignore the feeling of people looking at it. I have never had someone come up to me and say hey your diaper is showing or anyone close to me ask if I was wearing a diaper, even when it was super obvious. when it comes to think about diapers I would say that the unending desire to wear a diaper is not really there as strong. I still find my self thinking about diapers a lot especially lately because of having to find creative ways to stay diapered with money being so tight. but I have found that after I started wearing and using 24/7 that I have become less distracted by them as when the thought about diapers enters my mind I remind my self that I'm already wearing one. yes I still dream of being able to wear specific diapers like I really would like to try the try again diapers, they look so cute and amazing but also pricy. I also dream of the allusive adult sized baby diaper. I'm talking about a proportionally sized up baby diaper. no hour glass shape just straight rectangle diaper with stretchy waste bands and plastic backing and two large adhesive taps and of course a proportional amount of absorbent material. Anyway getting off topic, point is I don't think I will ever stop thinking about diapers. but wearing them all the time has helped me focus a little.

Hello everyone. It's been a little over a year since I posted last, so I decided to create a new thread. I have now been in diapers 24/7 for over 4 years. It was kind of weird to think that I have now been in diapers as an adult longer than when I was a child. Granted I think I was a little slow to potty train so that might not be entirely accurate. When it comes to peeing, I think I have lost a little feeling when it comes to peeing, but I still have to tell it to start from time to time. but I think I have reached that stage where I forget that I have gone. right now, is a little hard as I have been struggling to keep a steady stock of diapers. I've been relying on my cloth diaper stock at night and what little disposable diapers I can afford to get during the day. It is a little weird with cloth diapers. Once you get used to how they feel wet you don't really know you have gone sometimes. I'm hoping that soon I will be able to afford to start building up my diaper stock again. When it comes to poo, I have not made an enormous amount of progress. I have noticed that my morning messes are a little easier and I don't give too much thought to when I go. Most of the time it happens early in the morning, shortly after I get up in the morning or right before I get out of bed. I have not had too many messes away from home. It has happened a few times at work. but it mostly happens in the mornings sometime after dinner depending on what I have eaten. I never really have involuntary messes. They come very quickly, and the urge is quite strong, but I normally just let it happen without struggling. Bed-wetting is still a struggle for me. I woke up wet the other night after having gone to bed dry. but I think that was just me waking up peeing and then going back to sleep without noticing. Having to wear cloth diapers helps a little as I have more confidence peeing in bed as my rubber diaper cover is quite effective at maintaining leeks. My goal over this next year is to really commit to my unpotty training. also to figure out a way to make my diaper budget have some separate income stream so I always have a way to buy diapers. I was somewhat successful at building my cloth diaper stock from what it was last year. but it could be better, and I think there has to be some way to make enough extra cash to support my diapers. If you have any ideas let me know. Also, I welcome any unpotty training tips that have helped you guys over the years.

Hello Incon-Desires form It has been a long time since I posted my last post on here. A quick reintroduction for those that don't remember me (I imagen a lot of you don't) I'm baby Hawkeye. I live in southwestern Missouri area and have been on a diapered 24/7 journey for just a little over 3 years. I started wearing full time about end of august 2020. I had been wearing on and off before that but wanted to go 24/7. It was not my first attempt either. I have made several attempts before but always ended up giving up for one reason or another. This time was different. I told myself I was diaper dependent and that was that. Now I have been wearing for over three years with only a short 5 day break this summer because of financial reasons but even during that five-day period I still wore a diaper I just didn't use it during the day as they were nasty Walmart diapers. I also used cloth diapers for bed, so I have basically been in a diaper for over three years. As for my untraining progress, I have been trying to go for double unpotty training. It has not gone all that well. I have used my diaper for everything for just over 6 or 7 months but have not been very good at not holding it. I sometime find it difficult to notice when my body is holding it. I think sometimes it comes down to the fact that sometimes I will start the drink lots of water part of the training process and then I won't keep that up. it goes really well for two days and then I forget, and it went back to holding bladder again. As for bowels, I have been pretty good at letting myself go in my diaper anytime I feel the urge to go. but sometimes I don't feel it tell it's a massive push feeling and that normally comes around morning time right after getting up form bed or shortly after dinner, sometimes both. I have gotten really comfortable going in my diaper though. Sometimes if I'm at home and I go in the diaper I won't change right away as it is nice to be able to finish what I'm doing first. bed wetting is almost none existent. I have tried to drink lots of water before bed and I have had a few nights were I was able to wake up and pee and go back to sleep but most of the time I wake up in the morning needing to pee really bad and as soon as I stand up from bed I start flooding my diaper. sometimes I will need to poop to but that is normal. I need to be more dilagent in trying to get the bed wetting thing going as I think that could be one of the major contributing factors to my continued bladder strength. diapering has been nice though I have been able to keep my diaper stock up except for that week 3 or 4 months ago. I have found that the rearz Mega Inspire+ with boosters has been my go-to diapers for about 6 months before that I was a mega max guy and wore those for most of my 24/7 journey. I stopped getting mega max as they were way overpriced and were not increasing their product quality at all. I have to be careful with ordering diapers from rearz as they are a week away in the world of shipping. I found a good order pattern and it has worked so far. I do want to slowly stock up on high quality cloth diapers so that I will not have to worry as much about not having money to order diapers in the future as well. I'm also thinking of getting some diaper suits to wear over my diaper as I have never tryed them before. My goal for this coming year is to really double down my unpotty training and make using my diaper as soon as I feel the urge a priority. I'm going to really try and make the drinking more water thing work and I'm going to be changing my diet a little so that my bowel movements are a little softer. My goal is this time next year I will have weakened my bladder and bowels to the point of moving from the feeling-thinking-going, to at least the feeling-going stage, then I can start moving to the just going stage. I also plan on trying to be a little more active in the diaper wearing community and really embrace the diaper wearing lifestyle. I'm going to try and update this post as my journey continues and I might start up a blog too although writing is not really my favorite thing to do. Anyway thanks for taking your time to read my little update and I look forward to reading your responces. have a wonderfully soggy day.

I go with north shore for my diapers. Granted they are not super cheap. Xp medical has some good diapers you could try. Most ABDL companies also have plan white diapers you can get that help you stay incognito. I like the Mag Max myself. They are good for both pee and poop.

So, it has been two years since I started wearing and using diapers 24/7. This is quite the milestone for me as before I started back in 2020, I could never seem to make it past a month. Since it has been two years since I started wearing 24/7, I thought I would give you guys a small update on how I'm doing. As for my unpotty training, I have not been as dedicated as I probably could be. I still have a problem with flooding my diaper and I also sometimes have difficulty letting myself just use my diaper for #2. I have noticed over the past few months though that I have used my diaper for number two more than I have that toilet. Since this is my 2-year mark I have decided to rededicate myself to my untraining. I'm going to really focus on trying to let my bladder and bowels release as soon as I feel the urge. My biggest problem is trying to overcome the psychological limitations that I seem to have put on myself. I have tried hypnosis in the past and it seems to help a little, but I think I need to be more dedicated in that area as well as I usually don't listen to it consistently enough for it to actually help. but my plan is that this all changes tomorrow. I'm going to try to keep you guys updated on my progress. I feel like I would be more successful if I have some group of people to report back to. When it comes to my life as a 24/7 diaper wearer not much has really changed, I've managed to maintain a status quo of wearing and using diapers. Most people around either I have told that I wear diapers or have figured it out on their own, and also, I assume some people probably know but haven't told me. As for buying diapers, I always seem to be able to have enough money to keep them in stock. My go to diaper has always been mega Max with a booster insert. I'm thinking about switching or trying out the new stra8up diaper from Tykables. They boast that the diaper can absorb up to 8000 milliliters. that kind of absorbency I don't boosters. That will reduce some of the cost if they actually end up being as good as they say. The only problem is that Tykables has a bad habit of not being able to keep their products in stock. many times, I've gone to their website and found that half of their product is not in stock. So, I don't know if I want to switch to their company if they can't keep their diapers in stock. Anyway, I hope to be able to continue toward my goals and achieve those goals in a timely manner. Being able to wet and mess my diapers without even feeling it or noticing it happening has been a dream of mine for a very long time. knowing that there are people on this forum that have achieved this type of self-induced incontinence is very reassuring add helpful for me. I also love how supportive everyone is on this forum and I can't wait to continue to share my experience with you guys.

my diapers arrived this morning. so glad to be diapered again. no more potty for me.

So it has been a while since I posted on here. I had been 24/7 diaper dependent for about a year and a half, but something that I had not completely accounted for, but kind of saw coming hit me like a brick wall and forced me to have to stop wearing during the day at least. About two weeks ago I had scheduled a medical procedure that I initially had planned to wear a diaper too but our financial situation had gotten so to the point where when we were no longer able to order my diapers so I made the decision at least for the prep of the medical procedure which required me to clean myself out, if you know what I mean. I did not want to waste diapers so I decided that I would go that day without. But then the realization that I probably wasn't going to get new diapers for a while started to sink in and after my procedure, I had made the decision, as difficult as it was, to go diaper less during the day but to still wear a diapers bed. This has gone on for about two weeks now and I've gotten down to having to wear my somewhat too small and falling apart cloth diapers that I don't have enough of. Thankfully though our financial situation has turned around and we're going to be getting enough money for me to afford to buy diapers again. Starting in a couple of days when my diaper shipment arrives, I am going to redouble my efforts and rededicate myself to being diaper dependent and diapered 24/7. I also plan to try and rebuild my cloth diaper supply so that in the future if something like this happens, I'll be able to have enough cloth diapers to continue to be diapered even if I'm not able to afford disposable diapers. I would like to be able to say that this experience hasn't had an effect on my training. but I do feel that this small two-week relapse of using the potty has definitely had an effect on my diaper training. I still have a very weak bladder and I find myself running to the bathroom every 20 30 minutes. My bowel muscles are still just as strong as ever and I definitely still have full control over that. Something that I I'm going to try to do better this time around is that I'm going to really try to go down the unpotty training road. Once my diapers arrive and I put that first diaper on I will no longer be potty trained, and we'll do all my pees and poops in my diaper no matter the circumstance or scenario I find myself in. And I'm going to try harder to follow some of the steps in the 12-month diaper training program. After having these two weeks out of diapers I have come to realize that I really am meant to be in diapers. I hope that this will be the last time I have had this experience. I do not like being out of diapers, the feeling of not having a diaper on after having had them on for a year and a half kind of feels weird. and every time I'm able to put a diaper on, cloth or disposable, it feels like going home or returning to a familiar place. So here is to another year to Infinity of wearing and using 24/7.

The preview really doesn't do it justice in my opinion. There are some fantastical theory crafting that goes on in later chapters, but there are also some interesting topics that are talked about later on. The chapter titled "Choosing to Fully De-Potty-Train" I found to be helpful for reinforcing my desires. Yes, I HATE potty training already, but it still can be hard telling the grown-up part of my brain that potty training is bad. ?

this post was just supposed to be an informative post letting people know about a book I found that helped me. I loved the book even though some of the theories are a little far-fetched. I agree that if you have nothing nice to say it's better to not say anything at all. but I respect the opinions of others and if you didn't enjoy the book then that's on you. but I enjoyed it enough to share with the group. I know it has helped me push past some of my mental barrios and except my rejection of potty training.

I must be missing the reference. Who is Rosalie Bent? Is she someone in the ABDL community that is not really liked?

Hey guys just popping in to share something I found the other day. And thought you guys would like it. An argument for rejecting potty training This book really helped me to change some of the prospective in my own unpotty training efforts and thought I would share with you guys. Vary much worth the read.

If you are wearing 24/7: Under what circumstances did you decide to go into diapers 24/7? I started because I have always wanted to wear diapers full time and wanted an excuse to have them and wear them. Needing them felt like the right thing and when I moved out and in with my very understanding wife I started wearing more often and last year I was able to convince her that I needed them 24/7. now I don't know if I could stop even if I wanted to. How long have you been in diapers? I have been wearing diaper on and off for about 5 or 6 years but started wearing 24/7 about 14 or 15 months ago. Do you use your diapers and the toilet, or do you use your diapers exclusively? I try not to use the toilet if I can but sometimes when my diaper is dry, or I just changed I will go poop in the toilet. all the other time I use the diaper for all my voiding. I look at it as that's why I wear them so I should use them for everything. Since starting 24/7, have you had to make changes or improvements in response to practical pressures you didn't foresee? e.g., switching diaper brands, changing up your wardrobe, etc.? I have had to up my pants size a little bit but other than that not too much has changed. Do you think you could easily leave diapers immediately, assuming for some reason you had to? no not really. even if there was an apocalypse and I could not get disposables I would end up using my cloth diapers tell I could get disposables again. If you are untraining: How long have you been untraining? about 14 to 15 months and I started and stopped a few times before I went full 24/7 last year. How is your control right now? I reduced capacity overall. sometimes I have less control over my bowels then my bladder, but it seems about the same. I still have trouble peeing in bed. pooping in bed is no problem I don't do it in my sleep, but I have had a few times where I had to go poop in bed and it just kind of slide out. I find that I wake up with a very full bladder in the mornings, so I still flood my diapers in the morning. I need to find a way to get more used to peeing in bed. peeing in the daytime has done kind of a roller coaster ride of sorts. some weeks I will do better than others. some weeks I find myself unconsciously holding it and have to force a flood. as for pooping that seems to be progressing much better. I can only hold it for a few minutes before it comes out on its own. sometimes if I'm at home I find that I just go, I still have to think about it and tell it to start going, but once it starts there is no stopping it. If you haven't yet reached your untraining goals, what are they? My goals are 100% bladder and bowel untraining. I want to be able to not feel the urge to go and that it hits my diaper before I even know I have to go. I would love to get so used to peeing and pooping in my diapers that I have to check my diaper to know when I need changed. I would say I'm about 15% to 20% to my goal and I hope with some more aggressive training, or untraining, I might be able to reach that goal in another two or so years. Did you have any continence issues before you started untraining? If so, do you think they were a factor in your decision? I did have some bowel control issues before starting down this road. I have IBS and it can be annoying even in diapers because it can be unpredictable and painful. but I was one of the factors that led me to wanting to wear more. I have always been a Diaper lover since I was a small boy. but the IBS has started only in the past 10 years of my life. If your control now is definitely worse than it was when you started untraining, how does that feel? For example, if you never had bedwetting or fear wetting or messing accidents before and you have them now, how do you feel, or how have you felt, about it? Like I said in the control question. I think my bowel control has worsened more then my bladder. If I don't release my bowel as soon as I feel the urge to go it builds up presser so badly that eventually I just go without being able to stop it. and this happens in a matter of 2 to 5 minutes. I even have had more legitimate poopy accidents since I started untraining, but then is it an accident when you plan to go it your pants anyway. Is your incontinence in your medical records? If you're comfortable sharing, how is it described? no, my incontinence is not in my medical records I plan to go to the doctor this next month for my first in 7 years yearly checkup, and while there I might talk to him about that. I think if it is in my records then if I ever do go to the hospital for some reason (*knocks on wood) they can just look at my records and know that I need to be diapered up. this was fun. it gave me a chance to reflect on my untraining right now and where I still need to go with it so far. now back to working on schoolwork like a good boy. lol

I'm a hug Star Wars fan, so the pun is in good hands. these are the diaper you're looking for.

So, I thought I would just revive my old thread and give you guys an update. I've now been 24/7 for a little over a year now. I never thought I would make it this far. I still have not achieved unpotty training though. I have days where I do better than others. I have though started having more and more #2 accidents though. like the other day we were at a local theme park, and we took the cave tour they have which was fun but right about the last little bit of the tour I started feeling the urge to go like I do. I held back not wanting to go and stink up the cave in front of my fellow cave explores. By the time I got out of the cave I was walking out of the cave area, and it just happened. my body released into my diaper without me being able to stop it. all I know is that I was glad I was wearing the diaper because it would have been a real mess. I was not really mad at myself for doing it as I have been actively training myself to go in the diaper and not the toilet. As for peeing I still find myself peeing in large amounts and catching myself holding it, I never use the toilet for pee. sometimes I have bouts of shy bladder and it's annoying. I need to sit myself down and really go through and start the process of bladder training myself. I've noticed that training my bowels to go in the diaper has been a lot easier and seem to be kicking in a lot faster than the bladder. Anyway, guys here is to one more year in diapers. Wish me luck as I try to kick 30+ years of potty training out the window.

thanks for the tip. I have not thought to much about onesies as they are hard to get my wife to except that part of it. think she would find that a little weird. I had thought about that fact that they would give me some more concealment. another thing that I tend to steer away from because of the story I have to maintain with my wife is buying plane white diapers. I can get away with colored diapers sometimes by saying that they are a better quality of diaper. but she gets weirded out by the baby prints when she sees them so I don't get them vary often. and congrats on two years of diaper wearing.