Joanne_B

You can find me on Fetlife under "Joanne_B"

I used to be AB but am now just a DL. I don't wear very often these days as the diaper side of me has faded almost completely away. I'm geared more towards just sissy now. I just really like the chat room here so I still come by.

I view life as a journey filled with ups and downs, twists and turns. I see experiences in life and encounters with other people as opportunities to learn and grow as a person. Though I am not religious, I enjoy reading materials from a broad spectrum of scientific, theosophical and philosophical origins. There are Truths to be found in all works. At the moment I just finished a book called A Course In Miracles: Foundation for Inner Peace. Awesome read. I am starting a book called Taken In Hand: A Guide to Domestic Discipline, Power Exchange Relationships and Related BDSM Topics.

I'm separated for over four years now. We parted on mutual terms. We were together for eleven years and he is the only man I've ever been with. I learned a lot from our marriage and one of the most important take-a-ways is the importance of communication and the dangers of expectations (especially leading to resentment).

I enjoy riding motorcycle. I like to read. I like cooking. I like cleaning. I don't watch a lot of tv however I do like documentaries and shows like Star Trek. One of my favorite shows of all time is Battlestar Galactica the SciFi series. It's pretty heavy. I love to laugh and I love making others laugh. I grew up in a good home filled with love and laughter. The one thing I'm thankful for being instilled in me is the ability to laugh at myself. I'm also a bit of a romantic and a love bug. I'm deeply sensitive.

I consider myself transgender and identify as female inside however I embrace my male side as well and so I'm genderqueer. I've been in the closet, but I've recently come out and gone public. At the moment, I'm just starting out. I only have panties, a few tops, a wig and some makeup. I no longer have the red lingerie you see in my photos. My next step is going to a transgender therapist and seeking a local support group. I'm taking this journey of living as a woman slowly and surely. While I'm interested in transitioning into the life of a woman, I am not interested in hormone therapy or gender reassignment. I suffer from gender dysphoria but not to the extent that I would do either of those things. It's just not for me.

I enjoy a 1950's mentality, I just don't care for the décor or clothing of the period. I like modern day clothing and decor but with the mentality of the 1950's. I have a natural proclivity towards a feminine roll in my relationships. The man is head of household. While he respects and values her opinion, his word is law at the end of every conversation. I would like domestic discipline. My interest in it is non sexual. I don't get aroused by it. I crave the discipline and structure that it would bring. It would ground me. I believe I would thrive as a person in this type of relationship. FYI I'm not a brat. I don't believe in that nonsense. I also don't believe in being punished over every stupid little thing. It's not a game to me.

I'm also not passable. I'm a big guy too. I was cursed with this lumberjack's body with the heart of a girl! Go figure. I used to be thin but in the past year and a half I've put on a lot of weight. I'm trying to lose it and have lost 25lbs so far. I have decided that I will start buying clothing and accessories for myself when I've lost the weight. There's no point in buying clothes now that aren't going to fit soon.

I have struggled with my gender. Two years ago I even told family and bosses that I was transgender and wanted to live my life as a female. I took it back after six months. I think I got scared. Just recently I showed my avatar pic to my Mother, one of my brothers, and my cousin and again came out as transgender. They are all supportive. As of this morning (05/23/21) I posted to Facebook that I was transgender and wanted live as a woman, along with several of my photos including the one I use here for my avatar. So far, the responses have been warm and touching.

I've been on and off Fetlife since my mid thirties exploring my submission. I'm interested in D/s as a lifestyle as I believe it fits my personality. While I have no experience, I really like the trust, communication and honesty involved. I view the collar as a symbol of a serious commitment. I really don't know what kind of dynamics would suit the relationship as I have no experience. I have ideas of what I think I'd like. I would like to meet someone someday and see how things unfold as we build trust and explore ourselves. I believe in vetting and enjoy the dating process. My interest in submission is spiritual as well as a preferred relationship dynamic.

I want to meet a Dom who digs me for exactly who I am and I them for LTR. I need a person who will lead in the relationship. I need discipline, structure, and help outlining my life. I seek a 24/7 domestic discipline power exchange relationship. My heart's desire is to be a homemaker. So basically I'm a service oriented sub who needs discipline. Our needs/wants should be compatible. We should dig each other for who we are, and not who we want each other to be. My first marriage failed due in part to this. I learned my lesson on the danger of expectations.