Hey everyone
Long time avid lurker. Thought I'd a ) finally say Hi (!) and b) give a bit of my background and current progress status.
I've been wearing since a few years ago when I discovered the diaper wearing community and while I know it is something that a lot of people have been tuned into for much of their lives, for me it was a late epiphany but one that has filled a gap that I didn't even know was there.
I absolutely plan to fully untrain eventually but for now I'm at the stage of sporadic bouts of 24/7 both at home and in public, longer periods of daytime use and the occasional few days airing out (and assessing my progress).
Historically I have had quite a shy bladder and I think that in some ways that explains why this is such a good fit for me. Wearing has enabled me to address many of those issues and while I think I'll always have a bit of an aversion to letting go in public toilets untraining has given an enormous sense of relief and achievement now that I am getting more accustomed to wearing and wearing around other people.
I now get into relaxed mode much more quickly and whilst flooding definitely still happens depending on what I've been doing or how I've been sitting, I am definitely much less likely to have a big flood than I was.
What has been really super exciting for me has been the discovery that not only have I started to be able to reach the dribble phase when I am fully relaxed and on my own, but that I am starting to have the odd moments when little trickles happen unbidden even when I am in the company of others. This isn't more than a tickle right now but I am noticing that they are becoming more frequent and that if this coincides with an airing out day, I will find I am getting damp to the point of wetness, not a flood by any means but enough for me to notice for sure! I'm also noticing that I will quite often have some substantial post void dribble leakage afterwards. I posted some of this to Kali's blog on Tumblr a short while ago and nearly fell off my chair when they pointed out that what I didn't consider were 'full blown accidents' kind of are if I'm damp to the point of wetness. This is so motivating for me as I know I'm on the right path and couldn't be happier about it right now.
Anyway - sorry it's a long post. Looking forward to being able to post further updates if you are interested now that I've broken the lurk barrier!