lily~nyan

I'm newly "out" as a DL, and I'm gradually working my way up to 24/7 wear. Right now it's just a "most of the time" thing, although I wore all day over the weekend and today was my first day wearing at work so that's 3 days in a row!

I'm a trans lady who is exclusively attracted to other women and femme nonbinary folks. I ID as lesbian, but there is some panflexibility there. Being a DL (or accepting being a DL, anyway) is a new thing to me and I have no idea how I'm going to work it into a potential relationship. A lot of other trans folks I've encountered are pretty snarky about socially unacceptable kinks, despite being kinky themselves.

My whole sexuality is a big ol' mess... I repressed everything around my gender and my kinks well into adulthood while trying to force myself into the role of a cisgender heterosexual male, and all I did was give myself depression and anxiety issues. I finally came to terms with my gender a few years ago and transitioned, but I still have a ton of self-esteem and self-worth issues to work through, particularly in regards to my kinks and fetishes which I still carry a ton of shame around. Over the last couple of weeks I've finally begun to accept that I'm a DL and figure out where I fit there (no interest in AB stuff at all but I do enjoy wearing as a kink and a comfort thing, and I'll probably end up wearing 24/7 soon now that I've settled on a brand I like) so my hope is that if I can finally find some acceptance there that everything else will start to come a little easier. I guess after typing all that out I have to admit it seems a little (a lot, actually) surprising that I was able to find acceptance so easily with being a transgender woman, which is a big, public, visible thing that you almost have to involve everyone in your life with, versus being a diaper lover which is something I don't really need to involve anyone else with outside of potential partners. I guess it's because one is widely understood and socially acceptable (to an extent) whereas the other is still considered deviant by the mainstream.

Always Discreet Boutique, in purple (they call it "mauve.") I tried some a week ago and fell in love, and went back today and bought another pack. I prefer discreet, which these are, plus they come in a color other than white or beige, they have cute little lace detailing on the front, they make my butt look cute and they're surprisingly absorbent. I'm still new to wearing out in public, but after 5 or 6 hours of slow-wetting the pair I have on now they haven't leaked at all and they still have room to fill.