Luvschild

Chapter 4 The diaper was just sitting there. Little monsters looked up at him, almost as if welcoming him to be hugged in their crinkly, plastic embrace. The baby powder, sitting open, on top of the green and blue changing mat, exuded ivory mists. Levi’s nostrils took in the scent and he was drawn into a dream. Sweet release from the dark reality, promises of bliss and infancy; all these feeling were cultivated by these three simple objects. Levi felt excitement and acceptance, at-least in those first few seconds. He glanced over at the smiling Malory and something felt instantly wrong. “Ready to get properly dressed in a nice thick diaper?” Levi looked at his best friend, love in her eyes, welcoming in her soul, offering him something he craved desperately, and he felt his heart breaking. “Come on baby boy, let’s get those yucky big boy clothes off.” She reached down to unbutton his pants, and he started to shake. “It’s okay momm…” “Get off!” Before he knew what he was doing, Levi pushed her hands away and started backing out of the room. ============================== Malory’s heart sunk and she didn’t know what to do. Did she misread the situation. Should she have not used the M word. She felt her eyes start to tear up, but she did her best to hold them back. This wasn’t about her, this was about her friend. She had done something wrong and she had to fix it. “Levi I was just trying to help,” her hands were shaking and her voice was quivering. “I love you and I just want to…” “No you don’t!” Before she could say anything, Levi ran from the room. Malory tried to call out to him, but she heard the front door slam. He had gone. =============================== Malory first saw his picture on a dating app. Cute. Great values. Loves deeper than most? Why not? She swiped right…. =============================== Cute. No thirsty pictures. Huge nerd? Why not? He swiped right. Match! There was an instant connection, or at-least he thought so. They talked for hours: sharing thoughts, telling their stories, enjoying each-others company. It wasn’t long before he asked her on a date and he was ecstatic when she said yes. Levi: Saturday? Malory: Saturday! ============================== Saturday was too far away. There was something about this Levi that made her need to see him sooner. She didn’t want to come off too eager, but she honestly didn’t care at this point. Malory: Hey levi? Levi: Yes Malory? Malory: What are you up to today? Levi: Honesty just video games. Yeah so hot I know! ? Malory started to type and then deleted her message, then she did it again with the same outcome. Come on Malory! Just ask him!” Malory: Do you want to get coffee? Levi: Sure! When are you thinking?” Malory’s fingers hovered over her phone, wondering if she was being too bold. Malory: Um… now… Maybe. ============================= Malory sank to the floor, not caring if the fall hurt her. She only wanted to help her best friend, and instead she had made things worse. Why can’t I do anything right? She let the tears fall freely. Happiness was too good for her and she deserved an eternity of suffering for this. I can’t wallow in self pity yet. Malory dragged herself up off the floor, still not bothering to wipe her tears, and starting putting the babyish objects back where she had got them from. When she was safely back in her room, she let herself enter the abyss. ============================= Levi couldn’t see. He felt the world around him, but he did his best to close off his other senses. Left foot, right foot, left foot right foot. One foot goes in front of the other. He didn’t know where he was going, didn’t know why he was feeling this way, but it was downing him. “I don’t need a receipt.” He had something in his hand but that barely registered. Levi didn’t know what it was or how it had gotten there, but he didn’t care. The blackness was swallowing him and he held his arms out for its loving embrace; the only one that was always there for him, the only one that would ever love him. He felt cold liquid enter his mouth and down his throat, and then the can in his hand, yes that’s what it was called; a can, was empty. The world swirled around him and went truly black. ============================= There she was, just as pretty as he had imagined her; prettier even. Before she even said a word, he knew he was in trouble. Her eyes found his and he found himself looking into the sun, but more beautiful and more unfathomable than the real thing. Levi knew her in that instant, and in that instant he was lost. ============================= Levi couldn’t stop smiling. The world suddenly seems brighter, and Levi couldn’t stop smiling. This was his last day of work before the big date. They had been talking every day since, and the days just seemed to be crawling by. Saturday was always too far away, but that was almost over. He was off in less than a minute, and he could already see, from his watch, he had a message waiting for him. Five o clock! “Have a wonderful day guys,” he said waving to his coworkers. Once up to the, dimly lit, locker room, he pulled out his phone and began to read. Malory: Hey levi, so here’s how I feel… It was as as if his heart had been drenched in cold water. I thought things were going well. She was perfect… Levi gripped his phone in both hands and read the message again. His eyes lingered on two words; two words he could never have imagined could cause this much pain. The phone dropped from his hand with a thud. Levi continued to stare at ground, until the phone went black, and the words disappeared. No, they didn’t disappear, they just vanished from sight. The words were still there, etched in his brain…. Just friends. =============================== The sound of the doorbell brought Malory back into consciousness. Had she slept? Had she been awake the whole time? Was there anything but pain left in the world? Malory got up from the bed and exited her room. Before checking the front door, she quickly went over to Levi’s door and pushed it open a crack. There was no one there. Malory tried to keep her breathing under control as she opened the front door. Before her stood a police officer holding…. “Levi!” Malory was so relieved to see him that she almost went to embrace him before she remembered the cop. “Is this your roommate ma’am? I found him passed out in a gas station parking lot.” “Yes I was worried sick about him,” she was suddenly brought back to reality, and instead of trying to get Levi to look at her, which he was vehemently refusing to do, she looked into the eyes of the cop. “Is he in trouble?” “Well considering it is his only his first offense of being drunk in public, and as I can see he’s had a hard time today…” Malory glanced back at Levi and her heart cried out. His face was red and tearstained. She could see a big rip in his blood stained t-shirt. How had she missed the blood before!? “…Ive decided to let him off with a warning.” “What happened to his shoulder?” For it was his shoulder, she could now see, that had been bleeding. “Is he going to be okay?” “Yes ma’am, it’s just a little scratch.” The cop let go of Levi’s arm and he slowly shuffled into the house. “It looks as if he just caught it on a chainlink fence. But I will leave you to mop up his wound ma’me.” “Thank you so much for bringing him home officer.” “Happy to do it ma’me. Just make sure he stays inside for the rest of the day.” The officer tipped his had to Levi and smiled. “Take it easy there son. You got a good friend here. Just remember that next time you feel like drinking everything away.” The officer then turned back to Malory and said, “you have a good evening,” before opening the door and exiting the tension filled room. Without a word Levi turned toward his room and began moving in that direction. Making up her mind, Malory grabbed his wrist and held on tight. “Talk to me. Let me apologize for what I did to you.” Levi turned to face her, and she half expected to see anger in his eyes. Instead, she saw his eyes filled with tears, his bottom lip shaking. “You don’t get it do you? I can’t accept anything from you.” He tired to pull his wrist out of her grip but she hung on. “Let me go!” “No!” Malory couldn’t afford to let his words hurt her. She needed to save him, right here and right now or it would be too late. “Tell me why I can’t do anything for you. Why won’t you let me in? I know you’re in pain and I know it won’t get any easier unless you talk to someone about it. I love you Le…” “Stop fucking saying that!” Malory was so surprised at the sudden anger, she let go of his wrist and retreated a few steps. “I thought I could do this but I can’t.” He didn’t shout again, but she could see the anger was still there, right under the surface. “You don’t love me, so please stop saying that. That’s what hurts the most.” The fight left him all at once, and his arms dropped to his side. Malory realized in that moment what she had done and hated herself for being blind for so long. “No one loves me. No one will ever love me.” “I do,” she said meekly. “Don’t lie to…” Malory shoved him him against the wall so hard, the picture frames, that had adorned the wall, fell to the ground and shattered. She didn’t care about anything else in that moment. The world deteriorated and all that remained was her lips on his, and the world made since again.

Thank you. I’m glad you enjoy the story. I still don’t know where the story is going to go, because it’s kinda going to go along with my mental state. But just to warn everyone, this probably won’t be my, usual, happy take

Chapter 3 Levi was scared. The feelings were returning, and he was sure he had buried them years ago. He shook his head and adjusted the water temperature. He now had hope, and hope was a very dangerous thing in Levi’s hands. His vision was changing, and he didn’t even realize it. The shower was gone and in its place was a poorly lit room. He looked down at his phone and felt his heart hit the floor. I thought things were going well. She was perfect… Levi gripped his phone in both hands and read the message again. She is perfect… I’m the problem. The shower was loosing heat. “Damn.” Reaching over, Levi twisted the tap and let the remaining water drip off of him and into the drain. ================================ By the time Levi emerged from his bedroom, fully clothed, Malory was just putting the finishing touches on his plate. “And two pieces of bacon.” She smiled at Levi and gestured with the greasy tongs in her right hand. “Your breakfast is served Sir Snores a lot!” She giggled at the horrified look in his face. “Hey, you’re the one that wanted me to sleep with you.” ================================= A twinge of shame… Why did she do that? Why the bottle, why the pacifier? He wanted to ask, but he was suddenly having a hard time breathing. He sat down in front of his plate and put his head down. He still couldn’t catch a breath but he didn’t want her to see his weakness. Levi started poking at he food, to give the appearance of doing something. And then it was there; sweet breath and he was sure she hadn’t noticed a thing. ================================== Malory watched his panic attack and wanted to cry. She tried to help, and he seemed to just be getting worse, not better. Should she stop now? No! She made up her mind. He needed her. He was always there for her. She was not going to give up on him. She thought it best not to mention his brief panic attack, so instead, she pretended not to have seen it. “Thank you for the breakfast Malory.” He seemed to be normal, again and she was relieved. “You’re very welcome little one.” She watched his face for any reaction, and sure enough she saw his eyes grow wider for a second and then he turned his face back to his food. He’s thinking too much, she decided. No better time than now. “I want to talk about something, and,” she pulled the pacifier out of her pocket and ran it under some running water, “I don’t want any words out of your mouth until I’m finished. Open up.” She held out the pacifier to him, but his mouth remained shut. I thought you like this baby stuff. Why are you being so stubborn? “Please Levi?” Levi looked into her eyes for, what felt like, ages before he acquiesced and opened his mouth. ===================================== A twinge of shame… ===================================== Malory popped the pacifier into his mouth and then smiled triumphantly. “We both know you have had a hard time lately, and I believe you are thinking too much. So…” She took a deep breath, “So… I’m going to be your babysitter today.” The words spilled out of her mouth so fast, she was worried Levi hadn’t been able to understand them. Malory took another deep breath and calmed herself. If I’m going to be the authority figure here, I need to be sure of myself. “Yes,” her voice had already lost its shakiness and she smiled to herself, “starting now, and going until you wake up in the morning tomorrow, I will be your babysitter and you will be my charge.” Levi’s eyes were now wide as dinner plates and he was now rhythmically sucking on the pacifier. ===================================== Why was he getting his hopes up? This never went well for him in the long run. What if this ruined things between him and Malory? What if they were already ruined? He wanted it. Despite all the warning bells going off in his head, despite his fear of rejection, despite the heartache building in his chest, he wanted it. That’s what happened. That’s what always happened. His hopes were his downfall, but he was never strong enough to turn them off. ===================================== She saw him nod his head and she felt a mix of relief and fear. The truth of the matter was that she was in uncharted water. She understood the concept of the fetish, but concepts were rarely a good representation of things in practice. Malory really wished she had thought this out more before committing to the thing, but the cat was out of the bag now. How was she going to start? She knew were she should start, but she wasn’t sure if she was ready for that. Malory reached over and pulled the pacifier out of Levi’s mouth, with a loud pop. She giggled as he blushed and then leaned over and kissed him on the cheek. “You eat up while I work on getting you ready for the day.” Without another word, Malory left the kitchen and entered Levi’s room. ===================================== She was in his room. He already knew she must have been going though his baby stuff before, because she had found his pacifier and bottle. However, knowing she was there, doing the same thing, while he had to just let it happen, was almost too embarrassing to bare. Levi brought the fork to his mouth but the eggs slipped off and fell back to the plate. Is she really going to do what I think she’s going to? Was he really okay with her going though his things? Well, it didn’t matter now, she was already in there, had already seen all of his shame. Well… not all of it. The shame inside was still his and only his. After the longest twenty minutes of his life, he looked down and realized he had bearly touched his food. Being honest with himself, he knew it didn’t matter how long he sat there, he wouldn’t have been able to swallow another bite. Still not mentally ready, Levi stood up anyway, and walked toward his closed bedroom door. Feeling it would be wrong to just open the door, he knocked, feeling silly. “Come in!” ====================================== Malory had been debating with herself, nearly, the whole time. In front her her lay two objects. To her right sat a white and green diaper with little monsters playing all over the thick disposable. To her left sat a pair of cloth training pants housing numerous zoo animals designs. Which one should I pick? Both looked foreign to her. Yes, she had changed her fair share of diapers and training pants in her life, but the size of these undergarments instantly took her out of her comfort zone. If I pick the training pants, he can put them on himself and wouldn’t that be less embarrassing for him. No.. she had just realized her problem. She wasn’t thinking about his insecurities, she was thinking about hers. If this was going to work, she needed to get him to trust her. Malory needed to think what was best for her baby, and if she was honest with herself, she knew what he wanted and needed. She heard a knock on the door. Putting the training pants back in the bin, she grabbed the thick diaper, as well as some baby powder, and a changing mat, and lay them all out on the bed. “Come in!”

Thank you. Nope no magic here.

Chapter 2 When the crying began Malory started humming a tune from her childhood. She felt Levi’s muscles un-tense and she smiled. Mission accomplished. Malory continued to hum and stroke Levi’s head, and Levi’s tears eventually stopped. Though-out the whole ordeal, Malory could feel his continuous nursing as more and more of the warm milk disappeared. His eyes had closed long ago, and it seemed to Malory his nursing was becoming slower and less consistent. Is he… Malory removed the, now, empty bottle from his lips but his mouth continued to suckle at empty space. Malory almost teared back up right there, but she resisted the urge and slowly, but carefully shimmied out from under Levi’s head. ===================================== Ashlie looked down at him and smiled. “Who’s mommy’s little baby?” Levi wanted to respond but the nipple in his mouth caused it to come out as a mumble. “That’s right you were.” Levi snuggled in closer but the warmth was no longer there. “I was there for you like no one will ever be again.” His vision turned red and he could no longer move his limbs. “Do you still trust me?” A fist came out of nowhere and the red world turned pitch black. He couldn’t see the fist but he could feel it falling on his head over and over again. “I never loved you, and why would I, you freak?” Levi whimpered but his body was locked in place. The world was shrinking more with every echo of the word. “Freak,” his legs started to cramp up, “freak,” his head was pounding, “freak,” the tears had returned. ==================================== “Freak!” Malory dropped the pacifier she had been holding. The blue and green pacifier, adorned with an elephant, bounced as it hit the ground. The shout couldn’t have belonged to anyone else. It was only her and Levi in the house. Malory quickly picked up the pacifier, pocketed it, and rushed back into the living room. The sight made her want to die. Levi was pulled into the fetal position and rocking back and forth. Tears and snot streamed onto his shirt as the single word continued to tumble from his mouth. “Freak, freak, freak….” There was no change as Malory entered his peripheral vision, and she had the sneaking suspicion he wasn’t aware she was even there. She resisted the urge to start crying herself and she hurriedly wrapped her arms around the shaking man. There was a sudden intake of breath and Levi’s eyes went wide. ==================================== The light of the tv was blinding as the world popped back into place around him. Levi didn’t know where he was and the arms around him didn't feel like hers. The next second Levi knew where he was and the shame nearly drowned him. “I’m sorry.” Despite wanting to melt into the couch cushions, he instead sunk into Malory’s embrace. “I’m sorry…” He wanted to say more but something was pushed into his open mouth, and he began sucking without even thinking. ==================================== Malory was the one that wanted to apologize. She had triggered this by trying to go into a world she didn’t understand. She wanted to apologize for doing what she did, but she knew what that would do. Resisting her instincts, she began speaking. “Don’t. I know what you are going to say, and just don’t. Wait right here,” she stood up and headed toward the bathroom. Before she reached the bathroom, she turned around and added, “leave your pacifier in.” When she came back, she begin to wipe down his face with a warm washcloth. Levi whimpered and tried to pull away, but all this did was cause Malory to grab his head with her other hand. As he could no longer pull away, Levi’s face was soon snot free , and Malory was satisfied “Now,” Malory looked into Levi’s eyes and put a finger on his pacifier to be sure he knew to keep it in, “you are not a freak.” She could tell he wanted to say something but thankfully the pacifier was doing it’s job. “I did this because I wanted to, not because I felt I had to.” This was partially a lie, but that information would do nothing but harm Levi’s fragile state right now. “You need to learn to relax.” She kissed him on the cheek then stood and pulled him to his feet. “I was going to let you sleep here but I think you had better sleep with me tonight.” Once again she was grateful for the pacifier. It wasn’t until she was opening her bedroom door that she realized how her words may have been misinterpreted. Malory looked back and saw Levi was still standing in the same position, right next to the couch. “I didn’t mean like that,” she said rolling her eyes. Exasperated, she walked back to the couch, grabbed Levi’s hand, and pulled him into her room. The room in question looked like a holistic medicine shop: numerous crystals hung from the walls, half burnt incense sticks littered her bedside table, replicas of the sky’s constellations danced across her ceiling. She took him by the shoulders and made him face her. “I want to look after you tonight okay? Will you let me do that?” His eyes stared back into hers, and after a moment of silence, he ever so slightly, nodded his head. Malory responded by pulling him into a hug. ================================ “I’m just wrapping my head around making you my baby.” Levi couldn’t believe his ears. “Are you sure you really mean that?” She giggled, “it sounds like someone really likes that idea.” She picked up one of the diapers and examined it. “I think your bottom belongs in this.” “You’re jealous of a two year old? What the fuck is wrong with you?” She was right. What was wrong with him? “Stop acting like a baby.” His eyes shot open but the world was covered in a fuzzy filter. It took him a minute to realize he was crying again and he pushed the liquid out of his eyes. It was then that he saw the arms wrapped around him, and he felt the warmth of Malory laying behind him. The pacifier had fallen out of him mouth and a pool of drool had formed beneath his head. Blushing, he picked up the pacifier and put it on the bedside table before closing his eyes and drifting back off to sleep. ================================= “You are going to make a great mother.” She knew it was true. How couldn’t it not be? That’s what they taught in church and if she had faith, she knew she could be a mother and nothing else. Nothing else… nothing… The morning sun peeked though the blinds and she stretched, or she would have if something wasn’t laying on her right arm. Malory looked down and saw Levi playing little spoon to her big spoon. She smiled rubbed his back, causing him to shift and open his eyes as well. “Good morning,” she said yawning. It was then that she noticed the pacifier, not in his mouth, but sitting on the bedside table. Had she pushed things too far with that one? “Morning Malory,” he said with a yawn to match. The two lay in bed for the next half hour, not saying much, but Levi finally took it on himself to get up and jump in the shower. Malory knew he couldn’t start the day without a shower and she took it upon herself to make breakfast. However, before she left her room, she did not fail to notice that Levi had left his pacifier in her room. Malory almost left it there, but thought better of it, at the last minute, and pocketed it.

Ok I finally edited it. Hopefully that fixed all of the errors. I’ll try not to post my first drafts anymore.

I knew that I have a bad track record when it comes to finishing stories, but I think the only way I would be able to write consistently is if I made a patron like everyone else seems to have today. Now, I’m not arrogant enough to think that anyone would pay for my writing (I am my no means calling anyone with a patron arrogant). So, I give you the pre-warning that this story may go dead at any time. Mostly I am wring this for myself, and I apologize if this story gets to real for anyone. Honestly I have no plan for how this story will turn out. I am just going to write and see what happens. Also I can already tell that, at-least the first part of this, is going to be a little depressing. Now, with that all out of the way, let me begin. Chapter 1 Malory didn’t know what to do anymore. She was loosing her friend, and she had no idea what to do. It was his eyes. Within his hazel eyes she saw the dam holding back all that pain, however, unbeknownst to the owner, that dam had broken long ago and that pain was spilling froward, attempting to drown its host. “How was work?” Malory knew full well that Levi’s work day had been shit, even before she had asked, but the words were out of her mouth before she could help it. COVID conditions had caused most of Levi’s co-workers to leave, and as he was one of the most senior staff. Levi’s higher ups kept putting more and more responsibility on him, and the cracks were beginning to show. “Three call outs,” he said dully, as he slumped into the couch beside her, still wearing his work clothes. “How was your day? Did your presentation land with your boss?” In reality, her day had been fantastic. The presentation in question had been the culmination of months of work, and her boss had loved it so much, he had given Malory and pretty sizable raise. However, she knew this information would be salt in the wound. Levi had been shouldering most of the slack at work, but his bosses kept passing over him when it came to handing out promotions. Malory had the sneaking suspicion they didn’t want to promote him because he was so useful where he was at, that promoting him would leave a difficult gap for them to fill. So instead, Levi’s bosses continued to tell him what a good worker he was and how valuable he was to the company, while at the same time giving him nothing to show for pouring his lifeblood into the company. “It went okay,” she said, deciding in that moment to keep her success to herself and focus on trying to cheer him up. “Good news though. We both have tomorrow off. Maybe we can go adventure somewhere fun.” When he didn’t respond, she jabbed her fingers into his side and began to tickle him. “Come on grumpy butt, let’s not focus on work.” He struggled to push her off as he giggled against his will. Eventually he had her subdued with his arms, but Malory was soon free, as the shock of her licking his face had caused Levi to loosen his grip on her. No longer laughing, Levi returned to his sullen state. “I guess we could, I don’t really have any plans.” To be fair, he rarely had plans anymore… ==================================== Levi was alone. All he wanted was someone to share his life with; a person for him to love and that would love him in return. The dating world didn’t make since to him anymore though. At 29, it seemed like the dating market had all but dried up, and all that was left were the numerous dating apps that only seemed to benefit women and the few men that were sly enough to convince said women they were worth chatting with. Even before COVID restrictions drove everyone inside, no one hung out in public anymore. There was nowhere that Levi could go to meet anyone new. Levi’s parents kept telling him that he would meet the right girl eventually, but they didn’t seem to understand that he couldn’t meet “the right girl” if he couldn’t meet anyone at all. To him, he had passed the age of relevancy 6 years ago, and along with that relevancy, his dating prospects had dried up as well “I guess we could…” The words left his mouth but he didn’t really know what he was saying. He wanted to cry. He didn’t want to have to be the strong one anymore. …”I don’t really have any plans.” Levi didn’t want any plans, didn’t want to think or make decisions. He didn’t want to go on anymore; keep telling people that he was okay when he was long past his breaking point. Levi knew what would make his life better, but life didn’t want to oblige and give him what he sought. Levi knew Malory meant well, but he honestly he didn’t have it in him to pretend to be human for her right now. “I’m going to to take a shower…” ===================================== “I’m going to go take a shower.” Before Malory could say anything, Levi had vacated the couch and disappeared into the bathroom. She sighed and wiped the lone tear from her eye. The two had been friends for years and Malory wished she could give Levi what he wanted, but the romantic connection wasn’t there. They had tried dating in the past, but they had both agreed they were better as friends. However, over the years the relationship had become deeper to the point where they were more like family than anything else. So, when the time came that Levi had needed a roommate, Malory had been the first and only option. Malory knew everything about Levi, and she would bet a year’s rent that he knew everything about her as well. Malory looked at the single tear on her finger and contemplated her options. Levi needed her, but her going to pieces in the face of the fathomless black hole of his depression, wouldn’t do him any good. He needed a strong rock to hold on to; something to tie him to the shore so he didn’t drift off into the aether. The idea hit her and she was moving before her thoughts had completely formed. She felt the steam coming from the shower as she passed the bathroom door, passed her own bedroom door, and proceeded to push through into his empty room. Part of her told Malory this was a bad idea, but she ignored this inner voice. The gambit was worth the risk. Levi needed something or he was going to drown in his own sorrow without ever reaching out a hand. Malory pushed back his closet door and opened the lone bin that resided there. She was instantly greeted by the smell of baby powder and she quickly delved inside, looking for a particular prize. ======================================== “I am an ABDL.” Malory stared at him blankly, clearly having no idea what he was talking about. He sighed and continued with the words he now new he had to. “It means I like to wear diapers and act like a baby.” ======================================== The memory was still fresh in her mind. It had taken everything inside of him to reveal this secret about himself. Malory knew, in that instant, that telling her this had been a cry for help that had gone unanswered all his life. She had been understanding and had asked a lot of questions. Even though Malory occasionally caught a whiff of urine and baby powder, Levi never broached the subject again and Malory, knowing it was not her place, never mentioned it either. Levi’s fetish didn’t make her think any differently about him, but at the same time, she didn’t think it was her place to go into that world with him; that was until now. It was clear as day. In his life he had to be the strong one; everyone depended on him, and he was not allowed to show weakness or vulnerability. She shifted aside some pink diapers, adorned with patterns of unicorns, in search of something she knew had to be there. Malory don’t feel totally comfortable with diapering her friend, but she was going to do her part, as she saw it. Finding what she was looking for, she closed the bin and then the closet. ======================================= Five minutes in, Levi had given up on washing himself, and he now sat beneath the falling water, wishing he had decided on a bath instead. When the water began to cool, Levi took that as the queue to get up and shut the water off. After drying himself, he wrapped the towel around his waist and pushed out of the bathroom. Glancing over he saw that Malory was still sitting there on the couch, now watching something or other. Without a word, Levi entered his room, shut his door, let his towel drop to the floor, and fell, still naked, onto his bed face first. ======================================= Malory sat there, object in hand, as she waited for Levi to exit his room, but he didn’t. She had been worried about this. Levi had been going to bed earlier and earlier, and she was sure that he had no intent on exiting his room now. “Well, that’s too damn bad,” she said, standing up and walking over this his closed door. “Get out here you lazy bum! You are going to at least watch one show with me before going to bed at…” she looked up at the clock and sighed, “9 o clock. You have five minutes to get out here or I’m going to poor cold water all over you.” Walking back to the couch, she hoped he wasn’t too far gone to rise to her threat. Her fears were put to rest when his door opened and Levi exited, wearing pjs and a t-shirt. “You are very needy,” he said, sitting down next to her. There was a slight grin on his face, but she didn’t fail to noticed none of that grin touched his eyes. “Yes I am very needy, thank you very much. Now,” she patted her lap, “ your needy friend needs you to lay down in her lap and ask no questions.” “Why do you…” Malory put her finger to his lips, effectively shushing him. “No questions,” she said again, more sharply this time. “Head down.” Cautiously he obeyed and she then rested a hand on his head and began stroking his head. “I don’t want anymore words from you tonight. You had had a hard week and I want you to just relax and let this happen.” “Let…” he began, but at this sight of her flared nostrils, and wide eyes, Levi went silent and nodded. “Now close your eyes and open your mouth.” ====================================== Levi wanted to question her again, but he knew when she got like this, arguing was pointless. So,he just did what he was told; closing his eyes and opening his mouth. The silicone nipple entered his mouth and he was sucking out warm milk before he could even process what was happening. Instantly he open his hazel eyes and was greeted by Malory’s sunset ones. In those eyes he saw love, pure love… and he started to cry. I know I probably have grammar and other editing mistakes that need fixing but I honestly just wanted to post something quickly before I lost my drive. So, please tell me of any mistakes you find and please give me your thoughts on the story material if you have them.

Sorry guys. I am a very inconsistent writer and I have no excuse for that.

Sorry to say I don’t see myself coming back to this one. This story was may way of trying to cope with my breakup and honestly I just kinda want to distance myself from anything to do with it now

Oh ok if that’s the case I will leave it alone. I don’t remember really anything about the site. I was pretty young

So I recently discovered archive.org and I have been trying to find old abdl content on the net. I remember a particular abdl pic site that used cards or something to unlock more pics. Kinda like a trading card game almost. The problem is I can’t quite remember the site’s name so I don’t know how to search for it. It was called something like Yor Diaper Site”. Does anyone remember the name of this sight or am I just way too out there on this one?

I like it. It has been added thank you

Lol yeah I realize with my rules I’m going to have set a few things up the day before

So I’ve been wanting to try more abdl stuff now that I live alone and I decided that a full day roleplaying as a baby would be a fun idea. However I need to structure rules first so I can keep it as realistic as possible. Obviously because I don’t have a caretaker I am still going to have to change my own diaper and the like but I want to have as authentic experiences as I can. So I have come up with a rough draft of rules to follow all day. I want to know what you guys think of this idea and maybe chime in with any rules that might make the experiance more authentic. Here are my rules so far, and I am kinda setting it around being the age of 2. 1. No potty 2. must stay diapered all day 3. no playing with myself 4. Can only watch movies or tv shows that are rated G (or the tv equivalent) 5. No video games above E rating 6. No driving 7. No using kitchen appliances 8. Must schedule one nap and take said nap 9. no junk food 10. No reaching anything above crawl level 11. No talking in adult words (preferably only baby talk) 12. No drinks unless it’s from a baby bottle 13. No showers only baths 14. No cell phone or internet 15. no knives and forks This is what I have so far. What does everyone think?

So I remember talking about this a few years ago and someone must have been listening. I wanted a pair of underwear with diaper designs on them and look what I found. https://www.etsy.com/listing/941916075/womens-briefs-with-diaper-print?ga_order=most_relevant&ga_search_type=all&ga_view_type=gallery&ga_search_query=abdl+panties&ref=sr_gallery-1-11&from_market_listing_grid_organic=1

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I was still having a hard time wetting while laying down and my house has been very cold lately so it makes me not want to be naked that long to get diapered for bed. And on top of it all I’m bad at staying with something when no one is keeping me honest. So my bad my dreams were loftier than my will power

I gave up after 4 nights. I’m weak willed I know... ?

Ok sorry I guess I should have looked over that more carefully. So when putting the enema in pause every little bit then?

Two night ago I used a 2 liter enema bag. I made the solution is with 6 cups of distilled water (which I warmed up), 4 table spoons of Castile soap, and 3 table spoons of iodized salt. After it was all in I wasn’t able to hold it for any amount of time and the first bit came out when I released. After that I stood in the tub and let the rest come out as it came to me. For the first 10 minutes it was great but after that I started to feel tingling in my face and then my whole body. Next I started to feel weak as if I was hung over and so I just wanted to lay down. My diaper got so full it was leaking so I misted up the strength I had and took it off and showered. After that I laid down in the tub in between jumping on the toilet to get rid of what else was in me. I started to feel worse with really bad cramping and my body was all red now and covered with goosebumps. Next my body started to shake and my vision started to blur and I think I fell asleep in the tub for a bit. When I woke bake you and finaly got everything out and went right to bed feeling terrible. I don’t know if I did something wrong but I’m scared to do that again honestly. Has anyone ever experienced this and can maybe tell me why this happened, cause I’ve done fleet enemas and suppositories before with only positive effects. The only things I could think of was maybe the water being too warm, having the wrong balance mixture, or my body just can’t take in a whole 6 cups of water.

So my experience did not go well at all and I don’t know why. So I made the solution like you guys said with the distilled water (which I warmed up), Castile soap, and iodized salt. After it was all in I wasn’t able to hold it for any amount of time and the first bit came out when I released. After that I stood in the tub and let the rest come out as it came to me. For the first 10 minutes it was great but after that I started to feel tingling in my face and then my whole body. Next I started to feel weak as if I was hung over and so I just wanted to lay down. My diaper got so full it was leaking so I misted up the strength I had and took it off and showered. After that I laid down in the tub in between jumping on the toilet to get rid of what else was in me. I started to feel worse with really bad cramping and my body was all red now and covered with goosebumps. Next my body started to shake and my vision started to blur and I think I fell asleep in the tub for a bit. When I woke bake you and finaly got everything out and went right to bed feeling terrible. I don’t know if I did something wrong but I’m scared to do that again honestly. Has anyone ever experienced this and can maybe tell me why this happened, cause I’ve done fleet enemas and suppositories before with only positive effects. The only things I could think of was maybe the water being too warm, having the wrong balance mixture (I used your measurements but it only fit 6 cups of water), or my body just can’t take in a whole 6 cups of water.

How much salt would you suggest to add?

Well finally ordered a 2L enema bag and it should be here by Saturday so I’m trying to prepare. I’ve only used fleet enemas up to this point so I don’t know what to put inside the bag. After a bit of research I found that I should use distilled water or perhaps a saline solution (but that sounds too vague so I don’t know what that means. What would you guys recommend for the best solution to clean me completely out?

First update: I normally have a really hard time peeing while laying down but I practiced all last night while I was still awake and I think I’ve had an easier time wetting on my back last night.

So I’m going to start out by saying please don’t tell me about all the negatives and that I shouldn’t do it. I have looked into it and have made an informed decision. With that out of the way here we go. I finaly live alone for the first time in my life and I’ve been wanting to add some part of abdl to my life in a more prominent way. I am always woken by my bladder like an hour before I have to get up and I really like the idea of being a bed wetter. However I not plan on being one forever and when I feel the time is right I would work to re-potty train myself at night. So I have made the decision that I am going to at least try and become a bedwetter starting tonight. I don’t really know how to go about this but I’ve read a few things online and I think I will start with drinking a lot of water before bed and practice my peeing while laying down. Obviously this means I will be required to wear diapers at night from now on. So I posted this because I just want to hear people’s opinions and advice. Also if I post my progress I am more likely to stick with it. I know there have been a lot of posts like this online and I know I am not original but I am doing this for me. ?