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U will have to wait and see but not quite mommy ?

Maybe I m taking a bit too much time to build up the background of the story and it's taking too long to get to the action I might try to "skip" a little and just mention things without so much detail and get to the painful stuff that r yet to come and rehabilitation won't be so much of a part of that but Annie will be

Chapter 7 sometimes I wonder if Chris knows me so well he literally knows what I m thinking or my facial expressions are that obvious . - relax , I didn't mean that I'd go in with you and ask the doctor 35 question that I prepared at home , but if I m not doing anything at the time of your appointment I can drive you and you don't have to uber, I can have coffee or something if u rather I don't go in . I know driving is not exactly working yet with your knee . Plus mom will call you to ask wether she should take you or the very least what the doctor said after, so if you tell her I m taking you it will reassure her that your health is being taken care of even if she isn't here. And with this trip anything that eases her mind is a blessing . i guess all 3 of us wanted mom to go on this trip. All of us from different reasons , me obviously to get moms extensive questioning and worrying of my back for a while , Beaty since with mom gone she will be running the company by herself , and Chris I guess has the most selfless reason wants mom to have someone she would be happy with. - ahh I didn't mean like don't come or something just didn't think you have the time - well I don't know but if you tell me when it is I will check - Tuesday at noon Chris scanned his calendar - wide open actually . I even have time to wait for you and we could go out to lunch ,how about that for a plan? I shifted uncomfortably , I was trying to come up with an excuse that wouldn't be rude to avoid the lunch out but my mind draw up blank. Chris frowned at me - what's wrong ? I already got him angry by hiding what was going on , and yet all he was doing since is trying to bail me out so the least I could do was be honest . - I haven't really been out so I m just not sure how good of an idea it is - what do you mean you haven't been out ? I m talking lunch not clubbing till the next day - I haven't been out to eat and stuff either, I usually order in it was safer to stay in familiar places and avoid ... You know - I still couldn't bring myself to say accident - wait you haven't been out at all since the accident ?! Now I m getting worried i guessed he was half joking half serious . Staying home was never my thing . I even went as far as far escaping through my bedroom window to go party . But that was when I didn't have to worry about peeing my pants like a toddler who hasn't mastered tiolet training . - I guess I just tried to avoid situations where things could go wrong , I mean if I'd gone out with my friends and something would have happened ... not exactly simple to explain . And it would require a lot of preplanning to make sure nothing happens . - look during this holiday we will go out for dinner and 4th of July and you the usual. You stayed scooped up in the house that's a definite red flag for everyone especially mom. Besides its not good for you either. You should get out a little . So Tuesday we will do a trial run. Will go have lunch and if anything does go wrong we will come ready and we will draw our conclusions . We have to start somewhere . Besides , you won't be doing it alone. Whatever happens I m gonna be right there with you . i knew Chris was right , I couldn't hide inside forever and if I wanted mom to not suspect a thing I had to act normal. But going out still made me nervous . And nervous just makes things worse that I already learnt . ...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... monday was quite uneventful . Chris was out at meetings and auditions and catching up with some people while I mostly did what I been doing the past 2 months which wasn't much . we set to be ready at 11:20 to go to the rehabilitation facility I was treated at. It wasn't actually far not even with traffic but by now I guess it goes without saying that prior to going in seeing the doctors I wanted to be able to use the men's room. The plan was that Chris will drive me and wait till I get the consultation and then we would head to a small quiet bbq place near by. Id lie if I'd said I wasn't nervous . Well the consultation was 1 thing. It's been 2 months since my release and they wanted to evaluate my status , not a very comfortable experience . And after I survive that I get to go to a restaurant where I can worry for about 1.5 to 2 hours wether I will have an accident for all to see or I will be able to retain my pride and self dignity . we were waiting outside the consultation room where the receptionist instructed us , as it wasn't the room I usually went to Chris cake with me so finding each other would be easier after. I just came back from the men's room as Chris was telling me to text him when I M done to meet downstairs as a young woman walked pass by us then turned around - Jonny ? Hi ! How have you been ? It was Annie , she was wearing her usual white uniform her long brown wavy hair tied in a pony tail. She was many times my "morning nurse" sometimes during the weekends nighttime , nurses work 3 shifts and each was assigned to certain rooms and patients . as I remember Annie was trying to finish her degree in rehabilitation nursing so she mostly worked mornings and weekends and took classes in the evenings . - hi Annie ! Amm the usual I guess ... Here for me 2 months check up . How about you ? - I m good too thanks , oh wow 2 months already hopefully only good results ! I m sorry I m not sure if we met I mean I knew you I mean seen you but officially .. - I was used to girls my age getting all giddy around Chris he is a known actor after all - hi Chris , nice to meet you Annie . No I don't think we met face to face , I haven't been visiting enough so I guess we missed each other the few times I have been here. - I only work mornings , some weekends I pick up some extra shifts during the weekend at night cause I m studying in evening school to finish my degree in rehabilitation . - wow not resting for a minute are you ? - well now more than I like to as the departments are half empty cause of the holiday and summer vacation time just then the consultation room door opened cutting the conversation short and a nurse and Annie exchanged smiles as the other nurse beckoned us in. Annie was standing right next to the door politely showing us in to avoid things seeming akward Chris smiled and stepped into the room behind me whispering in my ear - I guess I m coming in then ... The consultation itself took less than I thought mostly cause the doctor wanted me to have an MRI of the knee in another month though as it seemed it will be longer since July August seemed like the yearly vacation times everywhere . chris was a much less disturbing companion than mom though he did ask a couple of questions mostly regarding the sedation needed for the MRI he didn't press points and the medical staff seemed pleased that I didn't come by myself . Not sure wether because of Chris himself or cause they did emphasize during recovery the importance of a supporting background . the only unpleasant part of it was the examination of my knee which was more painful than I thought and I have to admit it was embarrassing having to take my pants off and reveal my protective underwear , of course nothing to the staff and by this point to Chris either. But during the examination I felt the familiar sudden urge and with the pain caused by manipulating my knee I stood no chance of avoiding my bladder content escaping into my underwear. As I just been to the tiolet about 10 minutes before I knew it couldn't have been more than a few drops of pee, might not even be enough to show at all but I was still very self conscious and concerned they will spot my "accident". It didn't seem like anyone has noticed anything and they attributed my reaction to the caused pain. The doctor tried to reassure , chriscas specially since he got on his feet and came over to make I was fine , that at this time it's perfectly normal for me to experience pain during knee examinations but no harm was done and that they are expecting promising results from the upcoming MRI . my main concern at that moment was mainly to hide any possible signs my accident could have left , though my knee did throb it still concerned me less .

Chapter 6 continued : ( sorry I had to stop midway ) - is there a pattern or an evoking cause ? - No - Ok does it happen multiple times in a day ? - Sometimes , I mean it can be once or 4 times that's why they said the more times I go to the bathroom I reduce the chance of a larger volume - I let my voice trail off without finishing with the word accident . I guess even without adding it's clear Chris frowned and picked up his laptop typing away without a word for a few minutes . - well based on what I see there is 1 gas station averagely every 5 miles on the road so if we stop 3-4 times counting traffic it should be ok I think . What do you think ? He turned the screen towards me showing the highlighted gas station on the planned way. - yeah I think so - I felt a bit relieved . Chris was a guy who had a plan and a plan b for everything. Having him on my side is probably going to make things a lot easier. - Now regarding the house , from what I gather Beaty and joe really want the girls out of their bedroom which in that case would mean that we would be sharing a room. Sharing a room ? At first a shiver of panic hit me. That I didn't consider. I had to share a room in recovery but that was different. - look I already know and seen everything there is nothing you should be concerned about , it won't bother me. Well not more than the other annoying things you can do - Chris added with a grin I guess to lighten the mood as he probably saw my expression when he said share a room . - yeah I mean I hope it won't bother you - I felt my neck turning red, just imagining going to sleep wearing a diaper not to mention waking up soaked , with Chris only meters away. I saw a hesitance flash through Chris's face as he asked in a nonchalant voice - did you ever wet the bed ? I mean while using a diaper? I felt myself blush- no , no I didn't - Besides the room that used to be ours that now Haley and Britney will use all the others have a double bed Oh , that's right. I always got the "kids" room which now the twins will get. Which means that not only will Chris and I be sharing a room , we will be sharing a bed... Not that it would be a first , camping trips and such plus I used to climb into his bed when I was little. Dad didn't allow that when he was home , and after a certain age Beaty was too busy with her boyfriend and friends who frequently spent the night she banished me from her room. Chris however never really seemed to mind , not even when he brought a girl with him . - no I didn't I mean the bed is dry - Ok it's not the end of the world anyway and only a few nights, just thought to prepare accordingly . Last question this problem is urinary only then ? - Yeah - I blushed nothing more I would need in my life ... - no poop related .. - no ! No - okay okay chill I just asked that's all there was an awkward silence I was trying to stop the sensation that my entire upper body was in flames of shame as Chris seemed to decide on his final plan - Okay well mom and Isaac are seriously planning this trip, so though honestly I don't feel very good about this play I guess it's the best for all involved for now. I nodded. - do they know when they are leaving ? - on the 10th I think. Which day is your doctors appointment ? I stared back at him with surprise. Wait how does he even know that ? And why does he want to know for ? - mom asked you before the dinner and you said you got a check up this week Ah yeah . Mom always asks me what check ups I have and when , if it would be up to her she wouldn't just go with me she would go in with me if I wouldn't try to stop her. Honestly I m not always able to . I tried to at least keep her from coming with me saying that I want to take responsibility , I think it is mostly Isaac who convinced her to stay more in the background I think he has 5 or 6 kids but he wasn't involved in raising any of them nor does he has much relationship with them now. But Chris taking moms place in sitting with me at the doctors ..?!

Chapter 6 i staggered around fiddling with the diaper . I was too tired to even properly dispose my used diaper, at this point basically why bother Chris already knows. Ahh just thinking of that made my headache worse . Luckily I slept a few more hours and as I woke up my head did feel better . The rest of me not so much . Waking up to a soaked diaper and the knowledge that not only does my brother now knows what I was trying to hide he actually diapered me. Just that thought ... I mean I know it's not the first time ever. He babysat me when I was little and still not fully toilet trained but that was different . I wish I could have just hide somewhere and not face any of it . Another talk not to mention that starting Friday I m bound to a 10 day long holiday locked up with my entire family . if I failed hiding it from Chris I don't stand a chance of hiding it from my mom and Beaty . I will never live it down . but i Know i already let Chris down so I stepped into the shower and after getting dressed I disposed both of my soaking wet diapers and slowly headed downstairs. the house bore no signs that just the previous night there was a party full of people . It was clean and immaculate as ever . Chris was sitting in the living room infront of his open laptop talking on the phone . I hesitated wether I should go in or wait in the kitchen but as I entered Chris signaled that I should sit down . He didn't seem so angry with me this morning but my head was still throbbing and I wasn't sure if all my memories were accurate or how accurately was I able to asses his mood to begin with it took a few minutes till he was able to hang up the conversation . - feeling better ? - yeah I mean more or less - still hangovered huh? - yeah ... Look I m sorry about the mess I caused last night I didn't want to - it's fine don't worry about it similar happens in basically every party I didn't know what to say I knew that the chances that he forgot about wanting to talk to me is not likely but I couldn't bring it up - do you want to eat something ? - I still have kind of a nausea but maybe - okay come on then I followed him to the kitchen as he made the food . Even as we ate he didn't seem to bring up the subject. i started to think he might have really forgotten , but as I returned to the living room a few hours later after my bathroom trip Chris set down on the coffee table the computer he held on his lap and turned to me - okay let's get this thing over with shall we? I bit the inner side of my cheek I should have known it will be coming. In this family the terms we have to talk or we will talk later inevitably do come no matter what and how much you try and want to avoid it . - so what exactly is going on ? I didn't know what to say, what should be said. This whole topic , though I had to discuss it again and again with doctor after Doctor still feels completely humiliating and embarrassing . -did it start in rehabilitation? I nodded - and you seen specialists who said it could improve with time ? I nodded again - Jonny I know it's not something you want to talk about but if I don't know what is going on I can't help. What exactly happens ? - I don't know a sudden urge to pee and if I m not near a toilet then what happened last night I desparetly tried to avoid terms like protection diaper accident or wetting my pants - how much time is there between the urge and peeing yourself ? - I don't I m not sure - just hearing the words I wished I could put my hands on my ears and not hear anymore though it would probably just echo in my head - seconds ? Minutes ? - minutes but i don't know exactly how many but usually if I m near a toilet then it's ok - and what about during the night ? - I guess he saw the lable on the diaper bag saying extra absorbent for nighttime I shook my head - every night ? - yeah - do you wake up to the urge ? - nope I mean sometimes I wake up but it's too late - and during the day you use absorbent underpants ? - yeah in case - last night it didn't seem to help too much . Did it in other occasions ? - yeah , I mean last night I think I drank too much and there was a long line to the bathroom so ... But what they told me at the clinic is that if I go more often than I would I can reduce the volume so that if ... it happens the thing will absorb it and it won't show l don't know if it shows they says its discreet chris sighed - so to summerize there is nothing to do regarding the nights that's a lost cause , daytime is manageable as long as you are in a short distance of an avaible tiolet ? - yeah I guess basically yeah - well the drive up to the summer house is a bit over 2 hours drive so that's 1 question, the other is the arrangements in the house itself

Chapter 5 i knew I should change my soaked diaper argh just thinking that is painful, but getting up is too hard my head is pounding and I m thisty i tried to find a position that would be more comfortable I guess I grunted cause I heard a knock - well I see you woke up Chris was standing in the door I have to squint my eyes to see the light entering seems too much all of the sudden As he shut the door behind him he stepped next to my bed to hand me 2 pills and a glass of water I sip it quickly trying to ease my thirst. Chris stands by my bed and I can tell he is displeased right I got drunk at a party where a lot of people he works with were at crap i also know that drinking all that water is prob not that good of an idea considering my diaper feels soaked but at least it buys me time to figure out what to say - so you want to tell me what's going on ? - Chris folded his hands but his voice doesn't sound angry or at least not really angry - I guess I over did the shots last night - I say quietly - I'd say - Chris sighes and sits and the end of my bed facing me the silence feels awkward - do you remember last night ? - Chris asked studying me - ahh sorta I met Jason we had a shot I haven't had shots since before the accident , mm after that I drank some more - sounds about right - something in the way he looks at me tells me that there is more to it I just can't recall what I drank I needed to pee I went to the bathroom oh no no no shit I had a full accident and there were a bunch of people around oh no no shit - oh god a lot of people saw that I ... I mean that I had a ... That I - I couldn't bring myself to say wet my pants - that you peed your pants ? Some . But I think Jason found you quite quick then we got you upstairs oh god the stairs Jason and then they brought me to my room and I tried to lay down but Chris started to undressed me I felt the blood rush out of my face and my heart pounding stronger than my head I was in no position to dress myself or put on a diaper that means that ... That I have a diaper on and I didn't put it on Chris must have seen on my face that I finally pieced the puzzle together - I diapered you last night . - his voice was quiet but I felt like his words came down on me like a ton of bricks . I couldn't tell how he was feeling - and based on that full drawer - pointing at my "underwear drawer" - I can safely say that's not since yesterday is it ? My mouth is open but I can't get a sound out . I can't even wrap my head around it . That's it . He knows . - so are you going to tell me what is going on ? My mouth feels totally dry though I just drank half a glass , my hands r shaking and I feel like I might be sick - I thought we agreed no secrets no lies - he is right , that was a pact from like 10 years ago when I started getting into trouble . He promised that if I m in trouble I could call him and he will try to help as long as I promise to tell him exactly what's going on no lying no untold secrets . As he put it he can only help if he knows what he is up against . And we both kept our end of the agreement, till now . Cause now I broke it . I literally just want to slam my head into the wall. From all the stupid things I did this was minus the motorcycle the dumbest . I let down the 1 person who was always having my back . Like even now he still made sure I was ok though I don't deserve it . I felt his gaze on me but I just couldn't man up and look him in the eyes chris took a deep breath but as he realized I m not able to vocalize the answer he wants he sighed , I saw him shift his position he was no longer sitting at the edge of the bed he moved near my feet I could feel his weight as he adjusted himself - JoJo why didn't you just tell me ? - his voice wasn't angry anymore, it's reeked of disappointment. I can sense disappointment from miles after endless conversations with my dad . JoJo my childhood nickname he no longer uses around other people I haven't heard that in a while just made it more painful that I betrayed him . - I didn't want anyone to know - I hear my own voice so soft I can barely hear it but seems like Chris hears it anyway - I get that but you couldn't have honestly thought no one will find out, I mean it took me barely 2 days to figure out - I hoped it would go away by the time you got back , the dr said it could get better and go away just takes time - yeah but you know that when they say gets better in time it's not overnight for a while there was basically complete silence I was still trying to process the fact that Chris found out and more to that how he found out and who else could possibly know . - so your plan was basically to try to keep it hidden ? I nodded - and what about the yearly 4th of July getaway all if locked in a small barely 4 bedroom house 24/7 for over a week isn't exactly realistic to hide, not to mention that we are your family I knew Chris was right there is no way I could hide it my chest felt so thight I could barely breath - alright don't get yourself into a state that's not what I was trying to achieve - clearly my emotions are like an open book considering that I managed to hide it quite a long time - and did you think about the option that if your family knew you wouldn't go through it alone ? - mom barely agreed to let me stay here as it is if she known she never would have agreed to this , and Beaty ... - okay Beaty can be ... difficult , but I never gave you a reason to hide things from me quite the contrast . Yet when I asked you when I arrived if there is anything I should know about you said no - I didn't want to lie to you Chris didn't answer but I know what he was thinking " yet you still lied " - I just couldn't bring myself to say any of it out loud I finally gathered enough courage to look him in the eyes - not that I want to justify you not telling me the truth but the whole truth is I wasn't there enough I mean I called I texted but I only visited you like a couple of times while you were recovering . I should have been here physically much more and the remote locations of the sets isn't a good enough excuse . So even though I said this no secrets no lies rule will have no expections I m willing to make this case an exeption if and I emphasize if you tell me everything that I don't know now . - there isn't anything I swear - ok take the aspirin get some sleep and we will talk about this more later ok ? I nodded as I put the pills in my mouth and swallowed them with the remaining water - alright then- Chris got up while slightly sqeezing my leg he seemed to be heading out but hesitated - do you need to ... change? I wanted to say no and that everything is fine but lying is what got me here in the first place - I think so - I could barely get the words out I already felt my cheeks burning though I knew even if I didn't remember that Chris was the 1 who put the diaper on me to begin with - do you need help ? - no - I shook my head so virgiusly my headache suddenly intensified - I mean no thanks I can do it myself - ok then if you need something call me and try to get some sleep his hand was already on the door knob when I called after him - Chris ? - yeah ? - did you ... did you tell mom ? - no no I didn't - thanks - he was already opening the door - and are ... I mean will - no I m not gonna tell her , we will figure something out regarding the 4th of July - kicks ? - I haven't called him that in a really long time , I couldn't pronounce Chris as a kid so I called him kicks and became a nickname for a while - yeah ? - though my eyes had a hard time adjusting to the light I saw the half smile on his face - I m sorry - I know , I know . Just get some sleep

Chapter 4 i knew I was waiting for too long but I had to wait till all the desserts were on our plates. I got up and tried to reach the bathroom but there wasn't enough time. As I tried to hurry towards the bathroom I suddenly felt the familiar warmth spread around my crotch and I despretly tried to clench my spinchter shut . After I finally shut the bathroom door behind my back I quickly dropped my pants and protection and emptied what was left in my bladder in to the tiolet. I assessed the damage done to the protective garment. It was still quite ok a bit swollen but I was hoping I'd be able to hide that. As long as not too long is left of the evening ... but then another horrifying thought hit me. The 4th of July vacation. In our family that meant at least 1 week but normally more , up in our summer house. How would I make it through a week or more hiding this when I can barely make it through 1 dinner ?! Nause started to rise deep in my stomach . I had to spray water on my face to gather myself. I got lucky. Though I remained extensively nervous through out the rest of the dinner it wasn't very long. As we finished dessert mom started offering coffee which I avoid since it's a diuretic , same as alcohol though that she offers me a lot less. Can't blame her though I usually do stupid things when I drink too much . But anyway my luck was that Chris also declined the coffee cause he said his jet leg is getting the better of him and he rather go home and try to restore some normal sleep patterns . So we said goodbye ( me more carefully since I was worried my crotch area would be noticeably bulding , there would be some smell of urine though the garment is supposed to be smell reducing or the very least detectable during a hug) and headed to the car. beaty and joe were each strapping a child into the back seat as we sat into the car Beaty tapped on Chris's window - so Jonny is staying with you then ? - ah yeah I mean what do you mean ? - well I thought it was till you get back but if you plan to stay , if mom and Isaac are really going on this cruise he could move back to his old room. Sometimes I honestly don't get Beaty . I mean she is my sister and we do love each other but sometimes she gets on my nerves, always trying to be in charge . Especially since dad died. - whoa I got back literally 24 hours ago and I m not sure for how long , you know how these roles go. Let's not start playing musical chairs just yet . - alright I only asked jeez seemed like she would have kept talking though Chris didn't seem very much in the mood to, but then 1 of the girls started crying so she got into her car and waved goodbye . chris slightly rolled his eyes as far as I could make it out. Though the 2 of them are quite close age wise they are nothing alike personality wise. i was glad at least it was dark outside cause I wouldn't have known how to sit and hide my supposable buldge. I honestly do t know if it could be spotted or its just in my head but it's not like I could just ask someone... i was deep in my own thoughts through the drive , the week away at the summer house, what Beaty said . - earth to Jonny Yoo-hoo - I realized Chris was waving a hand infront of me - oh sorry what ? - damn sometimes I can sink into my own world so deeply I don't realize what is right in front of me. Could he have noticed my buldge ? - considering I m jet legged you seem out of space - Chris gave me a half smile as turned back to look at the road - I said that I forgot to tell you that tomorrow evening I will be hosting a party. At my ahm I guess our place, still new to this roommate like situation . It's actors friends kinda a mix. Also some casting people regarding the roles I m trying out for. That's why I wanted to leave early tonight the caters are coming around 3 o'clock and I really need to get some rest. - ohh okay sure , I mean it's still your place . I will get out of under your foot - jeez what am I saying I have no idea where on earth I could go to - or or just lock myself in the room or something . - well at least that's a doable plan . chris laughed - no I didn't mean you got casted as the male Cinderella - seeing my confused expression Chris laughed harder - jeez you really didn't hear a single word I said did you ? I didn't mean you should get out of the house or hide , I just forgot to tell you that's all . Of course if you don't like the scene I m not gonna force you to stay but I m not trying to banish you from the party . - oh no I mean it would be nice - well I m not sure nice since with a full house if people I'd definetly have to use an upstairs bathroom but if worse comes to worse I should be able to quickly slip away and change, not like anyone would notice I was gone.- I will go , sure - to be honest I m not used to living with people since you know so I totally forgot until dinner , sorry . - you don't have to apologize to me , it's your house I m the guest - oh come on you are not my guest you are my brother my house is your house - thanks - I said with a smile it did make feel better , but still Chris didn't exactly know or at least I hope he didn't , that I was sitting next to him in a half soaked protective garment . Luckily as we got to the house Chris did go to take a shower immidiatly and I did the same carefully disposing the used protective wear making a mental note to be even more careful about disposing them. But for now I got away with it again. But this 1 was close . A half accident is still possible to hide but Chris was quite tired and focused on the party the next evening . Not likely I'd be so lucky again . ...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... saturday started quite my usual . Woke up with a soaked diaper , quickly showered and got dressed. Chris slept in as the preparations for the party only started around the afternoon . By evening most of the first floor and garden was full of caterers waiters I m not even sure, and guests , lots of guests. I tried to dress up nicely so I wouldn't show Chris up , while still being able to hide my "underwear". as I got downstairs and try to figure out what I m supposed to do around dozens of unfamiliar guests I spotted Jason talking to a waiter. He is probably Chris's oldest friend , I known him basically my whole life. - Jonny ! Long time no see - he greeted me with a handshake and half hug as I approached him - how have you been man ? - you know slow recovery and all . What about you ? - getting over my divorce , pretty painful too - as the waiter returned Jason took 2 shot glasses of the tray and handed 1 to me - to long and painful things cheers ! I wasn't often included in drinking with Chris and his friends so I drank the shot figuring though alcohol was a diuretic as long as I don't drink too much and take frequent bathroom brakes I should be fine. i guess my calculations weren't so accurate. A good couple of hours later and a few more shots and beers later I was very hazy but I knew I needed to pee and urgently . Of course the downstairs bathroom line was full of people . I was trying to head upstairs though the floor felt like it was moving and it was hard to walk straight so I leaned against a wall. I felt my crotch grow warm . Very warm . Warmer than usual . I tried to go up to my room but when I reached the stairs I staggered and almost fell. - Jonny ? Hi are you okay ? - the voice sounded familiar but it was hard to focus on the face - oh man shit , you are a mess . Alright sit down on this step before you fall . I will get you a towel and your brother. Things were all hazy . Everything was spinning slowly making focusing hard . And everything sounded loud . - oh god Jonny how much did you drink ? Good lord - that was Chris's voice , that much I was able to separate out of the babble of sounds - alright let's get you upstairs - you need a hand ? - yeah actually thanks Jase - here take the towel and wrap it around him that should hide the signs I m not quite sure what was happening but the noises became more distant as I sort of walked but without much control to my room - you need me go get something ? - just take the cover off the bed I will get him sorted , thanks jase - no problem bro I will see you downstairs i tried to burrow into my pillow - no no come on you are a mess you can't lay down like this come on Jonny come on I couldn't bring myself to think clearly much less speak clearly so I just grunted as I tried to pull the pillow over my head to hide from the sudden light in the room - alright come lets get you out of your wet clothes .... What in the world ...??? I heard drawers and closet doors open and close - oh Jonny seriously ... Then things went black ...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... I have no idea what the time is , but there is light coming through the shades so I guess morning or maybe noon god why is my head pounding like its about to split open accident I was in a motorcycle accident no wait party there was a party last night I remember shots and maybe a beer but how did I get to bed oh shit my hand automatically dropped to my crotch - soaked diaper . Well at least I had enough sense to put on a diaper as the bed below me felt dry

Thank you to be honest I was getting a little worried that no1 liked the story cause the first 2 chapters didn't get any replies but if there r people interested will keep on writing

Chapter 3 we spent like an hour sitting in the kitchen talking. Frankly Chris did most of the talking. He had a lot of stories from his latest movie set, I was always fascinated by the scenarios he got in but now especially since I had nothing to contribute but experiences with accidents near accidents and protection, all the things I'd rather never talk of, so I was more than relieved to simply sip water and listen. Suddenly I felt the all too familiar immidiate urge in my bladder signaling me that I don't have more than a few minutes before an accident. - so in the middle of all of that there is a donkey as in a live donkey just wondering on to the set in the .... - ahh I need to .. I mean I will be back in a sec sorry - I tried not to look desperate as I interrupted Chris's sentence and tried to make my way as quickly as I could to the downstairs bathroom . Thankfully I had enough time to empty my bladder in the toilet without any problems. I breath out in relief as I carefully checked in the mirror that there was nothing showing under my clothes . When I got back to the kitchen Chris was typing away on his phone. I just sat back down at the kitchen island as Chris spoke up again - how about we go out and have some dinner ? There is a New Italian place that opened last month or something people seem to be lining up to try it The question would not normally startle me , I mean this was something we usually did when Chris was in town. It didn't seem to matter how long he was gone for but he always knew which new place opened and as a celebrity getting a table never seemed an issue. But I haven't been out for dinner or at all basically since my accident. The only dinner away from the house I had was usually Friday night at my moms with her and Isaac her new partner and sometimes my sister her twins and her husband . When Beaty my sister and her husband Joe and my twin nieces who were just finishinning toilet training came over for dinner at moms I was always more nervous since it meant twice as many people using the toilet downstairs ( of course there were toilets upstairs but making it up the stairs in time epically with my knee meant a very likely chance of an accident no matter how much precaution I took. At least twice I came home hoping no one would be able to spot the sudden increase of mass around my crotch caused by my half accidents. I never dared trying to change my protection at moms, first it would take long enough to possibly raise suspicion plus I couldn't just leave there for my mom to find when she took out the trash) - Jonny ? - Chris set down his phone and was now looking straight at me Shit I got so startled and panicked trying to calculate the chances of traffic down town bathroom lines in a new up beat restaurant that I completly forgot to answer . But I guess my facial expression gave my feelings away ( like I said I was not a good actor) - ergh I just thought you might be jet legged and all - no not yet , tomorrow probably but if you don't feel up to it we can just order food and stay in I felt guilty that because of me Chris ended up staying home having pizza and watching a game rather than having a nice night out with some of his friends as he most likely would have have I not been here. Or if I would felt ready to leave the house which I was definetly not. I already showered and laying in bed ( thankfully I was paranoid enough especially now that Chris is in the house , not to dare walk around in my pjs and a thick night padding which might be covered by the pants but the bulk definetly not discrete ) as I heard a knock on my bed room door. Chris thank goodness is a man respecting privacy and doesn't "forget" to knock like my mom and sister tend to before coming in. I hurredly rearranged my covers to make sure in no way could Chris detect anything suspicious looking quickly glanced over the room to make sure I haven't left anything out in the open. - yeah come in - hi oh sorry I hope I didn't want to wake you - no you didn't just getting ready to sleep - I was hoping there was no smell of urine in the room I always tried to air the room and even use sprays but they say you get used to smells after a while . - okay maybe I m jet legged - Chris laughed looking at his watch - anyway I just wanted to say that I talked to mom earlier and she is preparing a dinner for tomorrow night for the whole family. The usual drill you know cooking for 15 instead of 8. - ah yeah sure - you ok ? - yeah yeah sorry I m just a bit tired - frankly I didn't dare to move in case he would notice a buldge or the diaper, god I can barely bring myself to say the d word in my head , makes some noise - ok then sleep well - thanks you too I mean I hope you will be able to sleep - haha no joke otherwise tomorrow evening will be especially fun with me half sleep walking . Alright see you tomorrow ! As the door closed I took a deep breath. Another big family dinner. At least tomorrow most likely all the attention will be focused on Chris rather than me so I could use that for my own benefit . Seems like for now I m out of the woods and Chris isn't suspecting anything . I just need to keep it that way and not to give him any reason to think there might be something. ............................................................................................................................................. The next day was pretty uneventful Chris was emailing and talking on the phone most of the day, once he comes back it's mostly catching up with people he hasn't spoken to in a while and many times preparations for the next auditions. As I anticipated most of the family's attention was focused on Chris, on stories I mostly heard by then either from him directly or overheard him on the phone, so I didn't concentrate much in the conversation. Of course everyone asked how I was doing but not much is changing in a week, and honestly the less attention I get right now the happier I m. It was dessert time when I was planning to take another bathroom trip ( I use the need to wash my hands line before or after some courses as an excuse to escape to the bathroom without raising suspicion ), I didn't feel any urge yet but I found that the more times I lee even if I have an accident at least I can decrease its volume and thereby the chances of my protection failing. Just as I was about to get up Beaty put down her glass of wine - Alright what's is going on ? I felt frozen, but I realized as Chris spoke up that the question wasn't directed at me. - yeah mom what is going on ? - Chris asked joining Beaty - well alright I m not sure how to say this - oh god you and Isaac are getting married ?! - Beaty cut in - I haven't asked your mothers hand Beatrice , well not yet - Isaac looked around as if to see how we would all react- what she wants to tell you is that I think I finally managed to convince her to go on a cruise with me - oh about time ! - Chris smiled raising his glass - yes well it's quite a long cruise - mom said looking around - didn't you say about 5 months ? - yes 5 months - and we thought that now that Chris you are also here maybe it would be the time - Isaac added - so ? What is holding you back ? - Chris put down his glass - everyone is ok , Beaty got the company covered and don't worry the house won't get stolen. Beaty has been running the family bussiness with some help from mom since dad died. It was always clear dad wanted Chris to take over one day but he politely refused. I m not sure if he really didn't want the bussiness or he felt he wasn't entitled to it since dad wasn't his biological dad ( though he called him and till this day refers to him as dad ), but as his acting carrier became more and more successful it became obvious that he isn't likely to run the company. I never had any real interest nor sense for it, one of the main conflicts dad and I used to have especially after I flunked out of college in the first semester, so that left Beaty who has already completed bussiness school with honors. - I know that sweetheart but still 5 months is a long time - mom , don't worry so much Isaac is right you should go . Everything is gonna be fine , besides 5 months isn't that long - Chris tried to reassure her - you don't even know where you will be in 3 months from now - well I have a few roles as option I might even be here will see - anyway mom - Beaty spoke up - when would you go ? - after the July 4th holiday . Chris sweetheart you are going to make it aren't you ? - unless something completely unexpected comes up yes, I already wrote it in my calendar . - good good - so you would all be alright with us taking this trip ? - Isaac asked - yeah of course ! - yeah everything will be fine here you have nothing to be concerned about - yeah mom you should go - I added to be honest I was desprate to pee, but I knew that if I got up then and there mom would misinterpret it, thinking I was not ok with her going. And quite the opposite , even though it was a weird thought that my mom would go on a cruise with a man who isn't my dad getting 5 months away from family dinners and her constant worry would lift some stress off my shoulders . however if the stress on my bladder wasn't going to be relieved very soon I knew what the outcome will be.

Chapter 2 As the front door opened and I heard Chris's voice - Hello anyone here ? I jumped up quickly double checking that my shirt definetly hid the elastic band of my protection before going to greet him . - Jonny!! !!! Hi good to see you little brother - Chris slightly patted my back as we embraced . yeah I think I forgot to say my name is Jonathan but everybody calls me Jonny. At least Chris unlike my sister who still introduces me as her baby brother calls me little brother which is accurate for several reasons . First the age gap second is our height ( Chris is a solid 6,1 while I'm barely 5.8) and 3rd our strength is in no way comparable . Chris isn't a huge guy but he has definite abs the entertainment industry loves to show off shirtless , me on the other hand were never too much of a muscular built guy . - good to have you home bro ! - I tried casually step back as one more contrast between Chris and I is that while Chris is a brilliant actor and never have I seen him look dumb folded or embarrassed I m horrible at hiding my feelings, and I was already paranoid that somehow he could pick up on the fact I have absorbent underwear on just by hugging me my worried expression would definitely give something away . I tried my best not looking nervous but I knew the harder I tried the less likely it was that I would be successful in hiding it . Another thing I noticed was that stress and nervousness increased the chance of an accident and the last I need was that in that very moment. - everything ok ? - Chris looked me up and down as if he was measuring me trying to figure out if something is wrong - yeah yeah everything is fine , just glad you are back - I tried not to blush or looks to my crotch worried that I will alert him - so nothing I should know about ? - Chris's tone was more serious now Oh no , crap he knows - what do you mean ? - i tried to force my voice to stay as normal as possible - no broken furniture , burnt grass ? Let's see what else was there oh yeah gold fish in the pool and the famous bbq in the kitchen - oh - I breath out , yeah to be fair I did cause havoc in his and moms place as a teenager . Many house parties ended up with a major disaster that in most cases Chris had to clean up. Unless he was away somewhere then I had to deal with dads disappointment. - no no the house is fine I promise - mmhh . And you ? Still doing the physio for your knee ? - yeah yeah but it's looking better they say not much longer now as we entered the kitchen through the living room Chris took out a bottled water from the fridge and smiled - you know I M gonna be honest I have to admit I m surprised you been here almost 2 months and the house doesn't seemed racked at all . I was a little worried that when I came back I'd have to repaint or furnish half the house. But I guess you did man up by now I smiled . Though I felt he couldn't be further from the truth. Yeah I might not be acting reckless anymore but that's mostly cause my latest reckless act left me being scared of being away from a tiolet and having to wear a ... diaper every night.

*** disclaimer English is not my first language so pls forgive my mistakes Chapter 1 I m sitting on a marvelous couch in a 10 million or probably more dollars house in L.A.. Should be enjoying life right? Well if this were a year ago I would. My brother is set to come home any minute which is actually a good thing cause even though we technically don't share a dad and have a huge age gap , we get along great. We never really lived together much as he was older than me by 1.5 decades almost and started off his quite successful acting carrier early on meaning he is off in distant location filming his next film. So like I said if this were a year ago , I'd be thrilled to be hanging at Chris's place with him, But a lot happens in a year... Let me go back a little ... So I was young and stupid . It was about 8 months ago. Trying to impress some chick I met the night before. I m not even sure what made me get on that motorbike. Most of the events after that are a blur. Even the first days or maybe weeks kinda hard to tell in the hospital are nothing but hazy memories . Some memories are clearer than others. To cut it short I fractured bones, busted my right knee , got a concussion and to top it off a spine injury. I should make a pretty close to full recovery . That's what all the experts said. It will take months of rehabilitation and basically the least fun year of my life. Espcially as I just turned 21. Well I was kicked out of college 2 years earlier and my dad suddenly died 6 months after that so I guess I could say that my past few years weren't too much fun. Maybe that's why I was trying to impress girls so much . But back to the story - I did recover. Well almost completely . Thats the thing . Fractures healed. Concussion is gone. My knee is quite okay. But my spine injury left something behind. At first it wasn't obvious. Well at first I was bed bound for months basically . And I had a catheter. If you are lucky enough not knowing what that is its a tube going up to your bladder and draining your urine into a sack. Constantly with no control. Now that's the thing - the control. I thought it was temporary . So everyone said . But as time went by I had to realize that though most of the time I was fine it was not all the time. I started to wet the bed, not that it never happened before but most definetly not in the last 7-8 years. If that wasn't embarrassing enough - wetting my bed at the age of 21 at a rehabilitation facility where of course I was surrounded by young hot nurses... Well wetting during the night wasn't the only thing. As much as I didn't want to admit it I have "accidents" during the day. What do I mean by that ? Is that I could be chilling on the couch like am right now, have a sudden urge to pee and basically I can barely get to a tiolet which is right in the next door before bum I m standing in a puddle . The doctors still say it is likely to get better and I need to be patient. So now here comes the thing. Almost 2 months ago I was set to be released from the rehabilitation center. I'd be thrilled right . Just that I didn't exactly have a place to go to. As I said before I was young and stupid . No steady job no place of my own ( I rented but after the accident of course I couldn't pay rent) so it seemed like my only choice was moving back home with my mom. Don't get me wrong I love mom she is great . The thing is no one knows about these accidents. I mean of course my doctors and the nurses knew but not my family. I m the youngest of 3 and I grew up known as the baby of the family . And In certain ways I was always treated like that especially by my mom and sister. My dad never babied me but that's an other story . Chris was I guess as the eldest just protective , and in the past years he started treating me with much more respect . So moving back with my mom seemed like the logical thing to do however there are 2 buts. 1 as I said before she always treated me as her baby if she found out about my accidents especially with my sister around I'd never live it down. 2 she just got her first serious new relationship after my dad. So I wouldn't just have to hide my secret from her but from some guy I don't really know living there now. So when Chris offered that I could "crash" at his place and watch it for him while works while I get back on my feet was a god send. It made it easier to hide the fact that now I wear protection basically all the time . There is no one in the house now but Martha the house keeper. Luckily most of the protection I wear is quite discreet of course not the night ones nor the fact that one drawer of my dresser is filled with them rather than with underwear. But only Martha comes in to my bedroom from time to time and I made sure not to leave anything out in the open for her to see. We don't interact much. With Chris gone she doesn't have too much to do and as she is middle aged we don't have too much in common , and mostly cause the easiest way I know to keep things hidden is by avoiding having to interact with people for too long we pretty much stayed out of each others way. I m kind of paranoid that somehow people will know I m wearing protective underwear though to be honest it does look pretty normal and not very obvious . I should be really gretaful to Annie , 1 of the nurses who cared for me. She is maybe a year older than I m so having her changing my wet sheets or even worse taking my wet pants to wash was humiliating beyond words . She was the 1 who suggested I try absorbent briefs for men. During the day anyway. Night is a humiliation of another type. I m still not ready to use the d word. But she was quite good at making brand suggestions and it does so me to be quite doable to hide. So with all of this, accidents which luckily stayed hidden by my protection and things went fine. But now Chris is coming home. And he will be staying . Exactly how long I m not sure. Sometimes he is only here for a few days sometimes he takes a job in a series and stays for months . I m hoping he will be working most of the time. Cause as I said no one in my family knows, and if he stays for long it will be hard work keeping this secret.

Hello all I wanted to ask u for some advice my roommate is away with her bf for the weekend and I decided to try a diapered weekend ( till now I only tried it for a few hours never days ) so I wanted to ask u for some tips a what do to about the smell of urine ? Or would there be any ? Till now I would air the room out and wash my clothes but now I m planning to be in mutual spaces too . And also bed and sheets b girls out there - uti risks from messy diapers ? C any suggestions to try during these days ? Nothing too kinky I m still in the early experimentation phase here thank u and have a lovely day

Maybe part 1 part 2 But first I still have to get the story there... For now I changed chapter 1 to part 1

I think that time line wise 3 weeks is not that long time in a child's life who been mishandled all his life but more about that will come soon in chapter 2 !

/sorry still trying to wrap the first part up just trying to do it without hurting the story line/ chris saw the tears streaming down tees cheeks . Without a word he pulled the boy into his embrace he felt him starting to sob against him . Chris wanted to sooth him but he couldn't find a single thing to say that could possibly make the events of the day not to mention all the years that preceded it , even a bit better . All he could do at that moment was to offer physical comfort . - do you want to take a nap and rest a bit ? - Chris asked a few minutes later as he handed tee some tissues to blow his nose and dry his eyes . Of course Chris simply saw tees tiredness and thought that giving him some rest could help him cope better he did not realize that just the word nap was enough to give him cold sweat . Naps were seemingly unending parts of his days with Gladys . Whenever she decided it was nap time there was no getting out of it . Nap time though as the nursery had no click and was mostly half darkened anyway tee had no way of actually knowing or foreseeing the length as it varied from 45 minutes to 3 hours left alone locked up in a crib his hands securely restrained by mittens and the fluids possibly aided by diuretics and Gladys's favorite - suppository made sure his diapers never stayed dried or clean while he layed awake as quietly as he could to avoid being punished . Tee shook his head vigorously . He wanted anything but that . He was tired no doubt but firstly he knew that even if he did managed to fall asleep somehow nightmares would not leave his side secondly being put down to a nap would just reinforce his already established juvenile status and even though he knew that the flat held no crib he couldn't help but fear it would be yet one more step back into a life of a toddler . Chris knew tee was over tired but sensed that no matter how tired he might be his sleep won't be peaceful therefore he decided not to press it further .

The car ride was partly silent on tee and Chris's side whereas Tommy and Theo were already making their plans for the coming weeks . Tee was worn out . He didn't sleep well the night before , he was traumatized by the time in court , slightly nauseous getting more and more uncomfortable sitting in a soaked diaper but as he Chris seemed to prefer to simply change him once they get home . He was relieved he avoided the questions that could have gotten him into serious trouble and though now he felt much more positive about the move to California he had no idea what to expect really . At least he knew the nightmares of his past couldn't reach out and simply grab him . Not physically anyway . As they arrived back to the flat they each retrieved to their respectable rooms to change . Of course in Chris and tees case this was more than a mere change of clothing . Tee was already in a desprate need of a diaper change . Chris got pretty skilled by this point regarding changing diapers so the ordeal of laying tee on a spread out towel and changing the urine soaked diaper didn't take long it still felt like an elongated silence as basically neither said a word , well tee didn't the only words said were Chris's usual instructions needed for the diaper change . As tee finished changing his clothes and Chris put the changing supplies away he measured tee from the corner of his eye . Eyes still puffy from crying he was still sniveling and the affects of not sleeping enough the night before were evident . - are feeling ok ? - stupid question Chris realized the moment the words left his mouth of course he isn't ok how could he be ? Tee considered . Answering yes would be the brave thing to do . He was a teenager basically he was old enough to "suck it up" but by this point amd espcially after having all 3 men and many others ...witness him standing in a soaked diaper with his pants around his ankles in the middle of a courthouse hallway he knew that no one would consider him a teenager . An overgrown toddler maybe . Just that thought made him shiver thinking of Gladys and felt his eyes feel with tears once again . Tee shook his head in defeat . There was no point in trying to hide anything . He was not ok he was the opposite of ok and now both Tommy and Theo seen him in diapers even worse seen him in a soaked diaper in public . Crying .

No it wasn't a typo i don't think I put chapter 1 in the beginning but maybe I will edit that once I get there chapter 2 will be set in California and will include some "outer(professional)" help with the situation and some more characters but don't want to spoil it in advance so a few more updates and the setting with change to sunny CA

/Sorry that it's taking so long I really want to get to Chapter 2 that I m really excited about and which will be I hope something u enjoy but obv first I have to get the events there so I will try to move it along / Court room as tee set silently in a row behind Chris next to Tommy who was sitting next to him as a body guard tee tried to make sense of all the events . Why Gladys showed up how easily she could have done it earlier . Maybe moving to California wasn't a bad thing after all . There Gladys and other nightmares from his past couldn't just walk up to him and grab him . He was barely concentrating on the on going trial more like fight between Theo and Kathrine - your honor as this very incident here shows exactly how unqualified people handle children - excuse me how dare you ? - well then please enlighten me and the court on your views of this incident - you can not judge an entire system based on a single incident - yes you are right but lucky for you I don't have to , let's see a year ago he was seen in the er after an unexplained ear bleeding well isn't that just sort of the thing every 12 years old gets ? Or how about this ? Age 2 broken arm that got stuck under a bed ? How does a 2 year old get his arm stuck under a bed ? - those are all taken out of context - I think the context is very clear - order in my court ! - the judge who seemed to have enough of listening to Theo and Kathrine bickering suddenly spoke up - I heard enough ! Neither one of you can make your case clear without it ending in finger pointing ! However I did witness here something I unfortunately do not witness often , a father acting like a father should . And for that I will grant the moving of the child to California as long as the father continuous to obey to requirements of social sevices in California . Tee looked up he wasn't properly listening and now he felt a sudden fear overwhelm him . Chris shook Kathrines hand who seemed to conclude her words with Theo - well good luck to whoever gets this case - she said to tee as she walked out of the court followed by her trainie Chris was shaking his head at Theo but as he noticed tees worried look he smiled back at him reaching his arm out to him to pull him close - see i told you it will be over in no time tees mouth was too dry to ask the questions he was longing to what does this mean what will happen to him now - so are we going to California tonight ? - the question didn't came from tee but from Tommy chris rolled his eyes at him - what ?! We could totally make the red eye - Tommy said checking his watch - I M not trying to escape the state with a kid . Relax we will go tomorrow . No rush - fine then let's go celebrate ! This calls for a celebration - everything calls for a celebration with you as long as it involves drinking - Theo put in pretending to be annoyed - haha so how about early dinner ? - Tommy insisted to direct the conversation towards the location decision Chris looked down at tee . He was visibly shaken up by everything he had to endure that day , probably the last thing he needed was another public place he had to figure out how to act and keep himself as composed as possible and as Chris could assume was in a need of a change - do you rather go home and order something ? - he asked in a quiet voice trying not to make tee more uncomfortable as Theo and Tommy kept getting at each other tee nodded but still didn't feel up to word an actual response - alright let's head home then Tommy was about to argue but Chris shot a ckear look at him - this day was long enough . Let's just head home

- Hi I m just asking - how about you do the 1 thing I asked you to do ?! - Chris felt his own inability to control himself , something that was unlike him frustrated him even further - no one told me to look out for a crazy old nutcase running free ! - Tommy watch it ! - Theo snapped nodding his head at tee - what ?! Is she fucking crazy ! She should be in a straitjacket or something in a room with the key thrown away - Alright ! Can we just get this over with ?! Theo you go back and sort this and by this I mean all of it including the couple . Make sure they are gone ! - Chris tried to avoid alerting tee further as Peggy and Sid were still supposed to be in the court room Theo nodded and headed out - I will make sure they are gone - Tommy added following Theo as the 2 men exited the restroom silence fell as Chris was trying to collect himself and act as calm and natural as he could possibly manage while tee was still in a state much beyond his ability to control , sniveling slightly . - listen - Chris to his relief finally seemed to find his calmness , something about tees imminent fear alerted something in him that finally enabled him to act on his will rather than feelings - I know you don't feel like it is but everything will be ok . But I need you to stay calm and quiet in the court room ok ? They are not thrilled about the idea of under aged children being present so I need you to just stay calm . Can you do that ? Tee looked at him not knowing what to answer he felt unsure of everything . - it's going to be over soon I promise tee was still unsure what over meant . It didn't occur to him for a second that he had to worry about other things but the possibility of retention . His past reoccurring wasn't something he thought would happen . - everything is going to be just fine trust me tee wanted to answer something but he felt like his throat dried out . He just kept praying in his head that he will go back with Chris . He didn't even feel the stream of urine escape into his diaper .

Tee felt unfomfortable having his pants down at his ankles again as he was laying down on the changing surface . The previous events were still making him shake though he already spent a good 15 minutes weeping . He slightly winced as he felt the cold wet wipes touch his skin. He wished he could be back at the flat where he was safe or till now at least he thought he was safe from the ghosts of his past that kept hunting him however not in a physical manner . As Chris finished changing his soaking diaper and once again pulled his pants to his waist . sitting up he was still sniveling not happy about the entrance of Theo to the restroom . He knew very well that chances were the weren't many people on that floor who haven't seen or at least heard about his situation nor would it be the first time he was changed in public ( to be precise he was changed and the needed supplies were put away however the porpuse of the room left no room to wonder what goes on within its walls ) he still felt his stomach crunch as he sat on the changing surface as Chris unlocked the door . Theo entered looking around a bit astonished . He wasn't sure if he was ever in a restroom that contained a changing surface and a large disabled tiolet rather than a urinal . Chris is sharp tone brought him back to reality - so what was so urgent ?! - Chris felt tee wince beside him as he stood right next to him besides the changing surface realizing his tone was harsher than he intended . It wasn't really Theo he was angry at but as Theo self appointed himself to handle the court case he felt that in a certain way it was his responsibility to shield tee but more over he likely as usual blamed himself for not doing enough for his own sons safety . - well I need you to get back in there - yeah great did you actually handle the situation first ? - Chris realized his tone was still angrier than he intended a fact that angered him further - yeah ... She was removed - Theo glanced at tee carefully avoiding meantioning Gladys's name chris took a deep breath before responded in a forced calm voice - he is not staying outside again - they are not going to be happy about that request - well you can tell them that if I ever start caring about what makes them happy I will send them a card - alright I will sort something out but we really do need to go back in before ... - a knock on the door interrupted theos last sentence - occupied ! - Chris and Theo answered in unison - it's me - Tommys voice came from the other side of the door - oh for the love of ... - Chris muttered under his breath as he once again moved to open the door - now what is it ? - what's going on in here ? - Tommy looked around as out of place as Theo did earlier - what do you think ? We are planning the Easter egg hunt ! - Chris snapped once again realizing he's tone was harsher than he intended infront of tee

Yeah that was exactly the reason for the short update ... I had a lot going on in the past month and still do but I realized that if I don't post anything the story is destined to die i mean that I will lose the few followers I still got .. So will do my best to keep updating thanks for bearing with me

Chris didn't intend to wait for the crowd to scatter on their own and gently untagled tees gripping arms from his body - Tommy do something useful and give me the bag - Chris's voice was calm but Tommy knew well that was not in his benefit but much rather for tees - you mean this? - Tommy stepped back to the bench where he left the backpack which now he was holding out to Chris , containing the necessary items for a diaper change . He himself did not spend too much time thinking why a backpack was necessary though now it became quite clear as Chris steered tee towards the rest rooms ignoring theos warnings about the hearing not being officially discontinued - then deal with it ! You are the lawyer it's your damn job ! Theo and Tommy exchanged looks as Chris and tee disappeared behind a corner . They both looked equally confused by the previous scene . Tommy lost all interest in the social worker trainie who he now felt more anger towards than attrection as she clearly failed to take their side and Theo decided he had to spin the situation on their favor showing a unanimous front with Chris and demanding the court to go on a short session to reevaluate the created situation . Chris didn't waste time on Theo nor tommys thoughts and focused his undiveded attention on tee . As the family restrooms door locked behind them Chris did his best to soothe tee who was still crying miserable . He wasn't sure how much time had passed as tee was finally only sniveling as he heard a knock on the locked door . - occupied ! - it's me - he heard theos voice from the other side of the door - still occupied ! - we need to talk Chris felt an urge to open the door and tell Theo exactly what he was thinking but he knew that wouldn't help the situation . - fine . Wait - wait for what ? Chris didn't bother to respond as he turned to tee in a much calmer and reassuring voice - come on let's gets you changed

There seemed to be a general racket and confusion forming as tommy was busy yelling at Gladys without actually knowing who he was facing as he wasn't so much interested in her identity as in her actions which he simply and out loud defined as insane . The crowd around was buffled , there was a pretty unusual scene in the hallway . A woman who could have been the child's grandmother claiming to be his mother seemed desprate to reach the child who wasn't so much of a child at least age wise as his now uncovered garments made that questionable , was held apart by a man who didn't seem fully in possession of the details of the situation he got in the middle of . The young social worker seemed at lost as she was despretly trying to communicate with the guards who arrived at the scene. Chris had an immediate bad feeling as he heard tommys shouting and that only magnified as there seemed to be an entire scene forming infront of the closed doors . - Chris what the hell do you think you are doing ?! We are in the middle of a hearing you can't just up and go ! Chris ! - theos angry whispers seemed to have no effect on Chris who instinctivly made his way out of the court room towards the source of the increasing noise despite the judges demand to know what was happening . He decided to leave that up to Theo to handle . As he opened the door the scene took him by shock . Tommy was still physically embedded between Gladys who was now attempted to be calmed by the social worker who might have sensed that Tommy was beyond her ability both physically and since they were presumably given the same job , and tee was still pressed against the windowsill behind tommys back with his pants around his ankles and his visibly used diaper fully exposed tears streaming down his cheeks no longer even attempting to defend himself . Chris pushed his way through the crowd to get to tee ignoring the ongoing fighting from Gladys the guards and the by standers . His first action was to try to restore as much dignity as he could but the most he could do at a moments action was pulling tees pants back to place . Tee clung to him immidiatly as if a survival instinct . - that's enough ! - Chris realize his shout was much louder than he intended but at last he was able to shock the crowd into silence as Gladys kept screaming "for her child " and Tommy kept shouting that she was crazy and yelling at the crowd who was taking Gladys's side unlike Tommy Chris needed no verbal explanation to know exactly who he was facing . -if you were his mother or a mother for that fact would never treat him in such a disrespectful and humiliating way ! You were never his mother and he was never your child ! He is mine ! What you need is professional help because clearly what you have recieved so far was not sufficient ! And if you - now turning to the guards and the social workers as now Kathrine also exited the court room with Theo and a few other curious members leaving the doors wide open and the judge with a full view of the ongoing scene - don't remove her and keep her from my kid I will sue the social services and the court house ! The bystanders seemed in shock but now no one dared to voice their opinion as two guards with the assistance of Kathrine escorted Gladys out . Theo was looking around and back into the court room trying to asses the situation but one exchange of looks with Chris made it clear to him that no God will make him leave the crying child holding on to him and return to the court room to continue the hearing .

Oh thanks ! Now I can edit the chapter that was missing thanks !

Tee wanted to run , to scream to do anything but his body seemed frozen . Unable to take command action or even attempt to defend himself . Tommy and the social worker were deep in conversation . As Gladys now stood right in front of him tee felt a sudden heaviness in his chest , unable to breath . She was still taller than him even if by much less than he remembered , well of course years passed and he grew taller while Gladys obviously didn't . Gladys was able to assert control over him that was more than just physical . Of course when he was in her care he was much smaller and weaker physically but her main goal was to overpower him mentally . To isolate him from the normal world and suck him into her own delusional one where she was the perfect mother and he was a forever infant/toddler . That was aided by her being in control of everything from his clothing feeding and changing diapers . She took full advantage of the fact that with time the little boy who at first was simply hungry for love affection and attention became submissive and obedient doing whatever he could to please to avoid further humiliation and in a way disappointing her . He did grow to believe her that she was doing everything a good mom was supposed to yet he was still not acting like a good little boy so once again she will have no choice but punish him so he will be a good boy for her next time . By now and even then at some level tee knew and felt that Gladys's behavior and his treatment were far from normal but as she was the first one who showed affection towards him and showered him with attention , which soon became overwhelming smothering and humiliating he still couldn't understand why and in a sense blamed himself that if he were better he wouldn't have been left in care to begin with therefore it's not crazy to conclude that this too was somehow his fault . Tee wasn't sure how many of the words he was actually hearing now and how many he heard inside his head as the thousands of similar occasions from his earlier life floaded back . - oh well didn't my little baby turn into such a big boy - Gladys's voice sounded like those over affections elderly relatives seeing a baby and making a fuss of - did you miss mommy ? - tee shook his head as visibly as he dared as Gladys eyes shimmered as age went on - well of course you did ! Every little boy need their mommy ! I see you weren't proparly looked after as your diapie is full of pee pee isn't it ! - tee went beet red in the face but his attempts to push Gladys's hand away remained futile - let mommy take a look. tee was beyond horrified as he realized his pants were hanging near his ankles leaving his wet diaper completely exposed to anyone passing by to see . He despretaly wanted to get away from her grabbing hands but as he was cornered he had no chance to escape . - no no please no - he wasn't even sure if his voice was audible . - leave me alone . Gladys seemed oblivious to his disapear or as he always felt , it gave her thrill. He wanted to push her away , he wanted to scream at her . Just then he heard a shout almost like a thunder - what the fuck do you think you are doing you crazy nutcase ?! - for a second tee thought he found his voice after all but then he realized that the voice belong to Tommy . Tommy glanced in tees direction a few seconds earlier and his jaw literally fall from the sight infront of him . After a couple of seconds of shock he took action and pushed himself between tee and Gladys letting his naturally loud voice out ranging in the corridors of the court house getting the attention of everyone in the hallway and even behind the closed doors of the court room .